A woman with a severe eating disorder and addiction finds inspiration in the strength of a religious community and a woman who has beaten the odds, but when the illusions begin to crumble, a deeper source of strength emerges. Today's episode featured Lindsey Wilder. To contact Lindsey, you can reach out over email at actuallylindsey@yahoo.com . To find out more about Amanda C. Riley, her victims and the many details we couldn't cover on this episode, you can binge every episode of the podcast, S...
Oct 03, 2023•46 min•Season 13Ep. 292
Growing up in poverty, a man finds an outlet in a racist metal band, when one day fate transforms him and he pursues an unlikely marriage, but when his wife begins to switch, new identities emerge that stretch the limits of love. Today’s episode featured Matthew Fanning. If you’d like to reach out to him, you can email at fanning77120@gmail.com , or you can find him on Facebook at facebook.com/100091861748877 . Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Jason Blalock Content/Trigger Warnings: sev...
Sep 26, 2023•1 hr 1 min•Season 13Ep. 291
A woman leaves behind the wounds of her alcoholic father, only to find out that her husband’s addiction is threatening to ruin their family; but when he goes to find healing through a plant medicine ceremony, a shocking, darker truth is revealed. Today's guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you'd like to reach out to her, can can email at: stilltallnlucky@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Aviva Lipkowitz Content/Trigger Warnings: alcoholism, domestic violence, sexual ass...
Sep 19, 2023•1 hr 3 min•Season 13Ep. 290
After facing abuse at a young age, a man develops a festering, unseen sense of emptiness that finds expression in an act of violence that would haunt him forever. Today’s episode featured Jon Romano. You can find out more about Jon by following him on TikTok, YouTube, Instagram, Threads and Snapchat all with the same handle: @JonSeekingPeace. If you’d like to reach out to him directly, you can also email him at JonSeekingPeace@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Aviva Lipkowitz C...
Sep 12, 2023•1 hr 3 min•Season 13Ep. 289
Going from a highly privileged family to college at Princeton to a career as the first male supermodel, Hoyt Richards was truly living the dream, but as he fell deeper under the influence of magnetic mentor, he started living a secret life that threatened to consume him. Today’s episode featured Hoyt Richards. If you want to dive deeper into many of the elements Hoyt touched on in this episode, and hear more from him, he also has his own incredible podcast called WhaTheFlok?! – Cult Survival Sto...
Jul 25, 2023•1 hr 14 min•Season 12Ep. 288
Growing up with undiagnosed autism and confronting her mother’s death at a young age, a woman struggles to understand herself and her family, but when her father commits an incomprehensible act, she is left tragically bewildered. Today’s episode featured Andrea Schwam. If you’d like to contact her, you can email at andreaschwam@gmail.com. Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits, Sara Marinelli Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic abuse, death, murder, suicide, animal cruelty, animal death, explic...
Jul 18, 2023•45 min•Season 12Ep. 287
Being born without his right hand, man’s resentment and monstrous self-image deepen as family and doctors intervene to fix his condition, leading him to question what would truly make him whole. Today’s episode featured Ryan. If you’d like to reach out to him you can email at ryan.a.20918@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: medical trauma, amputation, explicit language Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening Twitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: thisisactual...
Jul 11, 2023•46 min•Season 12Ep. 286
After growing up with a father she could never fully please and a trauma she couldn’t share, a woman is slowly groomed into an underworld of sex work beyond what she bargained for. Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to her, you can email at xoxoskye00@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Aviva Lipkowitz, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: rape, domestic abuse, sex work, suicide attempt, explicit language Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening Tw...
Jul 04, 2023•56 min•Season 12Ep. 285
Growing up Muslim in the Middle East, a woman juggles the chaotic expectations of a severely abusive mother with her desire for self-expression; but when she comes into a sexual awakening, a secret world opens where a deeper healing waits. Producers: Whit Missildine, Aviva Lipkowitz, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, domestic abuse of a minor, sexual fetish and kink, BDSM, explicit language Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening Twitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: thisisa...
Jun 27, 2023•49 min•Season 12Ep. 284
Grappling with a lifetime of looming abuse from his father and a mother suffering from paralysis, a man decides to cut ties with his parents, only to set in motion a new set of horrors that threaten to decimate his entire family. Today’s episode featured Jesse. If you’d like to reach out to him, you can contact at jessefromtiah@gmail.com . Producers: Whit Missildine, Aviva Lipkowitz, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: domestic violence, domestic abuse of a minor, attempted murder, suicidal i...
Jun 20, 2023•48 min•Season 12Ep. 283
After escaping a childhood of bewildering traumas, a woman gives herself fully to a charming man with dark secrets, but when justice comes, she awakens to new self-insights and a unique superpower. Today’s guest requested to remain anonymous, but if you’d like to reach out to her, you can email at stickandsand60.3@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: mental illness, child neglect, childhood sexual abuse, sexual assault, eating disorder, anor...
Jun 13, 2023•59 min•Season 12Ep. 282
Escaping the tumult and abuses of his childhood through music, a young man lands a dream gig at a premiere nightclub in Mexico, but when the party’s over, he finds himself inside the underbelly that lurks beneath the glamour. Today's episode featured Gladden Rangel. You can find out more about him on Instagram @gladden_sane or on Facebook at Eddie IZM. You can also contact him over email at GladdenRangel@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: ...
Jun 06, 2023•1 hr 3 min•Season 12Ep. 281
Growing up in a family of ex-Scientologists, a person finds solace in relationships, when they suddenly fall in love with someone calling everything in their life into question while descending into mental illness. Today's episode featured Cass Donish. Cass is a poet, writer, and educator from the West Coast. They write about queer desire, grief and loss, and ecology. They live in Missouri. Website: cassdonish.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Aviva Lipkowitz, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings...
May 30, 2023•56 min•Season 12Ep. 280
After being subjected to horrific abuses from his schizophrenic father as a child, a man later descends into his own mental illness, but as he struggles to recover, a freak accident unexpectedly awakens him into a new life. Today’s episode featured Alex. You can find out more about Alex and his drag performances on Instagram @ellum_ayo. Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli, Andrew Waits Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual abuse, sexual exploitation of a minor, mental illness, hallucinations, ...
May 23, 2023•44 min•Season 12Ep. 279
In the wake of her uncle’s untimely death, a woman bears the brunt of her mother’s long mental health decline, struggling to keep her safe from herself, and in the wake of tragedy, finds a way to help thousands of others like her. Today’s episode featured Katrina Brees. You can find Katrina on Instagram @katrinabrees, and if you’d like to find out more about her legislation and donate or support, you can do so on the website www.donnaslaw.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Sara Marinelli, Andrew Wa...
May 16, 2023•51 min•Season 12Ep. 278
From an idyllic childhood in communist Yugoslavia, as a teenager, Mirsad’s world becomes a living nightmare as the Bosnian War brings shelling, torture, murder and ethnic cleansing to his village, leaving deep scars that haunt and transform his life. Today's episode featured Mirsad Solakovic. If you would like to contribute to help the Solak Gym (a charitable organization) that Mirsad helped create, you can donate through PayPal at solakgym@hotmail.com . You can see and find out more about the g...
May 09, 2023•1 hr 3 min•Season 12Ep. 277
A woman buries a series of childhood traumas and falls into a chaotic world of drugs and abuse, but when things turn from darkness to horror, she must make split second, life or death decisions that ultimately bring everything to the surface Today's episode featured Kathy Robertson. You can find out more about her on Instagram @kathyrobertson.homefire. You can also reach out to her over email at homefireartistry@yahoo.com . Kathy also wanted to remind everyone out there, especially if you are cu...
May 02, 2023•57 min•Season 12Ep. 276
After divorcing her first husband and starting a new life, a woman meets The One, but when one night he doesn’t come home, she calls the police and her world is turned upside down. Today's episode featured Amanda Quick. You can contact her on Instagram @amandaquickhealing. You can read more about the many layers of her story in her memoir "The Sex Trafficker's Wife: A Story of Truth, Faith, and Trust in Self" - Available on Amazon and wherever books are sold. You can also find more links and rea...
Apr 25, 2023•52 min•Season 12Ep. 275
Struggling to prove himself and find his identity growing up, a man eventually builds a career and begins occasionally helping out a friend with his granite import business, when one day, the dangers of the job become all too real. Today's episode featured Mike Wolo. You can find him on Instagram @Titanium_Mike110. You can read more about his story, and see photos on his website TheOtherSideofTheRock.com, and you can email him at TitaniumMike110@gmail.com . Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blal...
Apr 18, 2023•48 min•Season 12Ep. 274
A special bonus episode featuring a conversation between TIAH host, Whit Missildine and Connor Sheets, an investigative journalist with the Los Angeles Times who co-produced the Point Blank series. In this conversation we discuss the origins of the series, how Connor originally got the story, the different storytelling approaches of print journalism and podcasting, the highs, lows and astonishing moments in creating the series. Producers: Whit Missildine, Connor Sheets Content/Trigger Warnings: ...
Apr 14, 2023•28 min
A special bonus episode featuring a conversation between TIAH host, Whit Missildine and Candice DeLong, host of the brilliant podcast, Killer Psyche, discussing the spree killing in Rancho Tehama, the focus of our Point Blank series. We talk through the many questions surrounding Kevin Jansen Neal, the shooter, as we try to unpack and make sense of what happened. To hear more from Candice DeLong follow Killer Psyche wherever you listen to podcasts: Wondery.fm/TIAH_KPW Producers: Whit Missildine,...
Apr 13, 2023•26 min
Growing up in a supportive, suburban family, Sheridan Orr shares an idyllic childhood with her brother Kevin, but when he suffers a series of head injuries, things take a turn for the worse and the family suffers the ultimate nightmare as his descent into mental illness results in the spree shooting of Rancho Tehama in 2017. Today’s episode is Part Five, the final episode of our limited series, “Point Blank,” featuring five stories of people impacted by the spree killing of Rancho Tehama Califor...
Apr 11, 2023•1 hr 2 min•Season 12Ep. 273
Two additional victims of the 2017 Rancho Tehama spree killing speak about their experiences in our Point Blank series: First, Jared Tuck, a neighbor of the shooter, who was attacked that morning and witnessed his uncle’s murder; Second, James Woods Jr., a young man who was driving with his father when Kevin Jansen Neal pulled up and shot him in the face. Today’s bonus episodes are part of our limited series, “Point Blank,” featuring five stories of people impacted by the spree killing of Rancho...
Apr 07, 2023•56 min
After a chaotic upbringing and early adulthood, Jessie Sanders carved a life for himself in Rancho Tehama, California and formed a deep friendship, but when his sister reported hearing gunshots at the elementary school that day, Jessie knew exactly what he needed to do, confronting the horror, heroism and traumatic aftermath of loss and violence. Today’s episode is Part Four of our limited series, “Point Blank,” featuring five stories of people impacted by the spree killing of Rancho Tehama Cali...
Apr 04, 2023•57 min•Season 12Ep. 272
Coming from a career in the military, law enforcement and police dispatch, Ken Yuers found his true calling as a teacher for at-risk youth, and eventually landed a job at Rancho Tehama elementary, when one day in 2017, gunshots outside the classroom brought a horror on him and his students that he never imagined. Today’s episode is Part Two of our limited series, “Point Blank,” featuring five stories of people impacted by the spree killing of Rancho Tehama California in 2017. There, a lone gunma...
Mar 28, 2023•45 min•Season 12Ep. 271
After losing her daughter to a freak accident, Sissy Feitelberg focuses on supporting her grandson Gage who lives in Rancho Tehama with his widowed father, Danny, but when a shooting spree begins, a deeper horror falls on the family and leaves Sissy to pick up the pieces. Today’s episode is Part Two of our limited series, “Point Blank,” featuring five stories of people impacted by the spree killing of Rancho Tehama California in 2017. There, a lone gunman killed his wife, then his neighbors and ...
Mar 21, 2023•43 min•Season 12Ep. 270
After navigating a hardscrabble, working-class life, Troy McFadyen finally settles down with his wife in rural California, when one day driving down the road, they are aggressively T-boned by a stranger, and suddenly find themselves in the middle an unthinkable tragedy. Today’s episode is Part One of our limited series, “Point Blank,” featuring five stories of people impacted by the spree killing of Rancho Tehama California in 2017. There, a lone gunman killed his girlfriend, then his neighbors ...
Mar 14, 2023•44 min•Season 12Ep. 269
Having grown up in a safe, sheltered home, a woman balances her career, marriage and five children, but one morning, when her husband is traveling on a two-month tour of duty, a man enters her home and a nightmare begins that lasts well beyond the first 48 hours of hell. Today’s episode featured Brittany Todd. You can find out more about Brittany and her daughter on Instagram @fortis_liberque. You can also reach out to her over email at animusfortis87@gmail.com Producers: Whit Missildine, Andrew...
Mar 07, 2023•54 min•Season 12Ep. 268
Born to an affluent Mormon family, a boy befriends a rotating set of nannies that help raise him and become part of the family unit, but his favorite nanny starts playing games that reveal darker intentions. Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock Content/Trigger Warnings: sexual abuse of a minor, suicide attempt, explicit language Social Media: Instagram: @actuallyhappening Twitter: @TIAHPodcast Website: www.thisisactuallyhappening.com Website for Jason Blalock: jasonblalock.com Show Sponsors...
Feb 28, 2023•48 min•Season 12Ep. 267
While in the depths of a toxic relationship, a woman begins experiencing a magical, unseen world around her, but on a layover on a flight through LA, the world becomes all too real. Today's episode featured Kimberly Rose. If you'd like to reach out to her, you can email at contactkimberlyrose@gmail.com , or find her on Instagram at @thefakekimberlyrose. Producers: Whit Missildine, Jason Blalock Editing: Matt Volla Content/Trigger Warnings: substance abuse, mental illness, sexual abuse of a minor...
Feb 21, 2023•54 min•Season 12Ep. 266
