After graduating college, I had a lot of reflecting to do about life - society - my past - and myself. Through combining age old English essays, I reflect on what my thought processes in life really mean, if any of these girls whom I blame for my destitute life is truly to blame, and begin to start shaping the idea that I'm the villain in my own story. Not in a totally evil or terrible way, but it wasn't others who cased and hurt me in unimaginable ways, but it was merely myself and my expectati...
Jun 09, 2022•2 hr 12 min•Season 4Ep. 7
A metaphorical short story about a boy who was dress shoes that are much too big for his feet.
Jun 09, 2022•12 min•Season 2Ep. 16
My take at writing a sad, country song.
Jun 09, 2022•4 min•Season 1Ep. 30
After Caroline set up a challenge to write a story about Orange, I penned this story one day after some practice standardized test (not sure why I was allowed paper and pencil, but here is the story). Taking more stereotypes then necessary about southern country folks, and a Floridian attitude that reminds me of echoes of Hoot, this story works to incorporate song lines while setting forth the themes that words aren't important, and that once one has the moment, then they lose the hope....
Jun 09, 2022•10 min•Season 2Ep. 15
Reflections of an individuals and the various aspects of his room that he thinks is the best in the world. The version includes a lot of footnotes where I describe my various thought process behind the different attributes within the story. It may get a little bit confusing at times, but it does a good job at help showing my thoughts and the meaning behind the piece.
Jun 09, 2022•45 min•Season 2Ep. 14
A man sits and describes the various aspects of his room -- convinced that he has the best of everything that he could ever get.
Jun 09, 2022•10 min•Season 2Ep. 13
My cutting of - , " said the shotgun to the head - that I used for state in Poetry. The many meanings of this poem still escape me, but there is something beautiful and poetic about how it seeks to critique the world while still longing and asking questions.
Jun 08, 2022•5 min•Season 2Ep. 11
An essay that I come back to time and time again as it has a clear meaning that seems to totally allude me. In this essay, I placed so much of my broken heart, so many of my questions about society, and so much of my longing for that friend - to be with 'til the end, of history. This is a re-recording, as I originally recorded this song back when I first started recording things on here.
Jun 08, 2022•6 min•Season 2Ep. 11
Another English essay to help show my pessimistic thoughts about love and society.
Jun 08, 2022•5 min•Season 2Ep. 10
An English essay reflecting on a poem. This essay helps to show my general pessimistic views towards love in the world. It was written while Ashlyn and I were going out with little underlying problems from that relationship to draw on.
Jun 08, 2022•5 min•Season 2Ep. 9
For my last semester of undergrad, I had a student teaching internship that did not go well. Eventually, I ended up withdrawing from that, finding other classes to take to graduate, and took my 4.0 and moved on with my life.
Jun 08, 2022•19 min•Season 4Ep. 6
After reflecting over the summer, I just stayed focus on school, doing my best to get done, and get on with my life. I did have a few moments with some friends, though.
Jun 06, 2022•7 min•Season 4Ep. 5
A poem written to reflect on my relationship with Jerri Lynn, particularly during the time when I was starting to really care again, and begin to recognize what it is that I had lost. Did I succeed or fail in confining our relationship to a couplet? Who knows...
Jun 06, 2022•3 min•Season 1Ep. 29
Through texting a fat and sexy girl in Leanna, to writing a letter to Jerri Lynn, to hanging out with Laura, to driving up North, summer brought plenty of time for me to begin to do some healthy reflections. Though, I still had a lost left to unpack -- and still do.
Jun 06, 2022•48 min•Season 4Ep. 4
After the failure of my relationship with Jerri Lynn, I slowly had to re-balance my life in the absent of friends, always knowing that there was a real chance that I might not be emotionally strong enough to continue.
Jun 06, 2022•16 min•Season 4Ep. 3
The semester started off with me falling right back into isolation and depression -- trying to regain things I once had while, in many senses of the term, being the villain in my own story. But, then, a long came a friend who introduced me to an incredible girl (sounds kind of familiar?), and there was a beautiful mess of a love story between the two of us. At the very least, this love story was my motivation to continue writing this autobiography and, more specifically, my motivation for most o...
Jun 02, 2022•1 hr 13 min•Season 4Ep. 2
After writing and reading back over the story of Jerri Lynn, I figured that a re-recording of "A Song For All Cocoa Lovers In The World" was in order. This song helps to symbolize my friendship with Laura over this time. Note: It is explicit because I replace some words in some of the choruses with curse words. Didn't intended that when I started out, but seemed like the appropriate thing to do given its context.
Jun 02, 2022•3 min•Season 1Ep. 28
What is there to say after the conclusion? This brief piece details the events of the summer after my freshman year of college while offer an introduction to the more story like aspect of the fall of the year and the first half of the Book of Purple
Jun 02, 2022•8 min•Season 4Ep. 1
A quasi-poem that I wrote after Chelsea broke up with me -- expressing my concern, desires, and despair.
Jun 02, 2022•4 min•Season 2Ep. 8
In the midst of my anger, I reflect on the Book of Green in light of my original introduction. Have I learn anything? Did I succeed? Was there ever any hope?
Jun 02, 2022•3 min•Season 3Ep. 17
After finally heading off to college, I had hoped that it would be different, and that I would truly be able to find someone to love. Slowly, I made friends and finally got a wonderful girlfriend. But, my emotional issues, past problems, and doubts surfaced in ways that made me incredibly frustrated and angry at the moment, and, in retrospect, show the underlying issues that I have for all serious relationships and friendships as these are the same issues and fears that pop up even many years la...
Jun 02, 2022•1 hr 2 min•Season 3Ep. 16
A brief, and rather slanted, perspective of my senior year of high school which includes a description of World Geography with Mrs. Pearson-Pratho and the fall and failure of my relationship with Ashlyn.
Feb 18, 2022•27 min•Season 3Ep. 15
After my Year of The Oratory, I begin to look around for hope in the world through friendship and relationships. Though, I find that many relationships that I have seem to amount to little for me, I do end up meeting a wonderfully cute girl and getting an official girlfriend for the first time.
Feb 11, 2022•44 min•Season 3Ep. 14
A reading of the poem Forever I Slept. (I couldn't not do another recording after reading over the proceeding section on Steven in my autobiography.)
Dec 29, 2021•3 min•Season 2Ep. 7
A reading of the various names given to (most) of the days over the summer between my 10th and 11th grade year. The journal was written overly simplistically - for easy of writing and other literary reasons, so, overall, the descriptions are lacking or written in too simplistic of a way.
Dec 29, 2021•34 min•Season 3Ep. 13
Explains my quest of "looking for a friend/ to be with until the end..." that I took on following the events of my 9th grade year. Divided into two parts. I developed friendships, such as with Steven, Bybee on Facebook, and had a crush on Rebekah as one half of how I sought to reach out beyond myself. The other half was practicing and working on my Oratory in hope that sharing my message, originally intended for Jordyn, would some how unlock something with in me or the world. Though, maybe these...
Dec 29, 2021•33 min•Season 3Ep. 12
A reflection on previous crushes that help to define who one is.
Dec 29, 2021•4 min•Season 1Ep. 27
A reading of the poem "The End of History." I rerecorded it while working through Robin's section of 9th grade, and figured it would be a good comparison piece to determine which version has better sound quality.
Dec 28, 2021•2 min•Season 1Ep. 26
A reading of the original letter that was given to Jordyn and became the basis for my Oratory, "The Imperfect Labyrinth." For more context, see the 9th grade episode that more clearly puts a context around who Jordyn was, and my thoughts, desires, and battles of that year. This is also included for comparison purposes with the final version of my Oratory.
Dec 28, 2021•16 min•Season 2Ep. 6
An exploration through my experiences and songs that defined my ninth grade year. From an overview of my classes, to an overview of my sexual desires, to my longing and desire for a lover in Jordyn, to the calm and safe harbor of debate camp and Robin.
Dec 28, 2021•1 hr 12 min•Season 3Ep. 11
