Podcast Launch & Divine Timing Is Your Timing

I am so excited to have you on this journey, so together we can become untamed. I wanted to take a brief moment just to talk a little bit about what is going on in my world and how you can connect with me before we dive into today's episode. So, I'm currently taking applications for my six month mentorship container called Embody. Embody is for those who are really wanting to go deep into their most authentic expression and become the embodiment of their aligned offers.

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If you'd like to know more about those, you can just hop over, send me some notes, and I'll be happy to, uh, share more about that. So let's hop over. Here's the show. Hello. So this is my very first podcast episode. Oh my God. I'm just like, this has been such a process for me and full transparency that I have wanted to launch this podcast. When I went back on like all of my business ideas and the things I've wanted to create, this has been there since November of 2021.

I was so close then I even had the graphics and everything made up, but I felt so much resistance and I. In truth for me, I've had a lot of throat chakra clearing that I've had to work through. And one of the patterns that I've had is when I was moving through things in my life, in my world that were really tough and challenging. So whether it was like the end of a relationship or something, um, you know, bigger and family.

You know, uh, if somebody was really sick and not doing well or there was like different energies pulling at me outside of my business, my throat chakra would close off, and this was a pattern. From the very beginning of my business. And so I would build up all of this momentum and really bring in all this energy and I'd be so close to launching all of those things that I really wanted to put out into the world. And then it would be like all of a sudden this external energies would pull me out.

And this is so reflective of, it almost happened in my life just recently. And. I'm in the process of buying a home with my fiance and. We have been looking for homes and looking, looking and looking and looking, looking, oh my gosh. We finally found one.

And then through that process of finding the lender as being self-employed, then there was some different hiccups in that, because I converted from an L L L C to an escort middle 2022, and some of the lenders were saying nobody was gonna pick me up. And so is this whole hoop ra. Right. And I have. Okay, y'all. I have like immaculate credit and this isn't like to boost my own horn. Just letting you know like how frustrating this process is.

I have, well, more than enough to put down on this house. Um, and because of being self-employed, it's like, All of these hoops that you have to go through, and anybody that is self-employed that has ever bought a house, you know what I'm talking about, or, or if you're a subcontractor of any of those, you know, categories, you know exactly what I'm talking about.

And so I was really prepared because I've bought homes before and so I knew how much I had to show for annual income as far as being an employee of my business. I knew all of the things right. And so getting this feedback was really frustrating because I just felt like, God, I am so prepared and why is this happening? And then on top of that, my fiance's house has a crack in his foundation that's gonna cost us like, you know, 25,000 maybe. Um, we might get it away with a little bit less.

So we were really hoping to sell that house and moving into the next one. So we didn't have that mortgage to, to deal with. Um, so, you know, it was just a lot of process. And then there was a lot of other things. I'm giving you a very brief scenario, but the amount of paperwork, the time and energy every day that I've had to devote to this was like hours, right? And then navigating, running a business full-time and then being in like, oh my gosh.

And I had the energy, I had like all the momentum. With everything that I needed to get this podcast out there and I was so excited. I have already in the works six amazing collaborations with people that I know you're gonna absolutely love. These people have meant so much to me on my journey, which is why I reached out to them to be like the very first people that like come into my world and the podcast.

And I just, I was, I had the ideas, I had the vision, I had the like the graphics, the branding of it, everything, and it just felt so aligned and everything was going forward. And then all of this happened, so, Then I was also dealing with a situation with some friends and a lot of restructuring of my community here locally. Um, friendships that were really important to me that have sort of restructured some completely disintegrated. And you know, that happens.

It's it, and I get it, but it's, it can be frustrating at this point in your life. It's like I'm 45, I'm just ready to have people in my world that are so supportive of the, the highs and the lows of my successes and my grievances. Right? And I have so much depth and I have so much part and you know, so maybe for some people those. Things might not be as challenging.

You know, when disappoint big, I'm talking big disappointments in friendships when like, you know, you get engaged and like people that you thought were like your very closest friends don't even reach out to you, that type of stuff. Right. Um, your dad dies and nobody's there. It's like crickets. You know, like I'm talking, this isn't just like somebody canceled a plan on me. I'm a really forgiving, pretty laid back person, right?

That's pretty hard to get me to the point of, and I'm so understanding and I'm communicative. I wanna know, did I do something wrong? Is there something, you know, so, and I, I went through all of this and at some point you just have to know when to walk away. And I think that's something that I personally struggle with. Um, Um, is, is knowing when to walk away and knowing when to just close your heart off to the wrong people.

And that's been a pattern for me, is like having my heart open and not having enough discernment because I do have such a big heart and I love deeply and I'm loyal. I am like, you know, just one of those people, like when you have me, you have me in every arena. I'm like gonna be like in your corner, right? And I've just, I feel like it's been hard in life to find people like that.

I'm fortunate that the, the people that are in my life right now, though, they are, those, they're like the live or dies. And as you know, these other friendships have disintegrated. It's really made space for other people to come in that I'm really excited about. Um, There's a lot of energetic alignment and a lot of support and you know, it might not necessarily be locally. Some are locally, but then some are all over the world. And how cool is that, that I get to say that? You know?

So I just shift my mind around that. It's like, wow, I have like these amazing friendships where, you know, I have clients, I have, you know, peers that invite me to their neck of the woods and I get to travel and go see these it and it see people in their homes and how.

Beautiful and amazing is that, you know, to have friendships like that and people that truly want to support you so much because they see you, they believe in you, they resonate with you, and they truly just want I. All of humanity to step into being like truly a badass, you know, to step into their own authentic way of leading. But not necessarily, it doesn't mean like leading the masses, right?

It's leading who you are, leading from soul, like being unapologetic, unapologetic for who you are, right? And so as I'm navigating all this with the home stuff, and then also emotionally was going through that, and then I felt I. A big pool of grief coming through. And my father died back in October, um, sorry, September. Um, and the memorial, the celebration of life was in October and.

You know, there's parts of me that I feel as I was really getting honest with myself that I was still angry at him, right? I was still angry that he left and didn't take care of himself. He was a very high functioning alcoholic. He ultimately died of, um, liver failure that just, you know, imploded through his whole body. Watching somebody die like that is.

Horrible. You know, and I feel myself getting a little choked up as I speak about it, but I've, I really dealt with a lot of the grief around that prior to, because he was so sick and then losing him, it was almost a relief because he was suffering so badly in his body. And so this has given me like so much healing since he passed away. My mother passed away.

And just like kind of long story short, as you start listening to the podcast, you'll hear more about my story because I feel like a lot of people could probably resonate, but I. Not having those really supportive relationships in my life of people that, you know, you think about your father, he's a good person, but was he truly like there? You know? Or the way that my mother was, she had, um, Borderline personality disorder and suffer from severe depression.

And you know, and it was just a challenge. She died quite young. And so, and then moving through other family dynamics in life and, you know, those come with their, their it co it, what it does for the person going through that is like, it creates, More false narratives about the way that life is. It creates more false stories about the way that people are, you know, you have to really learn what does trust feel like? What does trust look like? Cuz it doesn't come naturally.

You have to learn it. You have to make it a practice to trust, not only in the universe and other people, but you have to learn to trust yourself. Because when you grow up in environments that are very chaotic, like that, You don't really ever know if your feelings and your thoughts are real. More often than not, we are told they aren't, that we are too much, that we are being dramatic, we are being overreactive, and we should just be grateful for what we have and all of these things, right?

Like it can be a whole gamut. Everybody's got, I'm sure as I'm speaking around this, If you relate to this, parts of you are probably already stirring, right? And like, yeah, that was me. And like, oh yeah, I was told that. Or made to feel certain ways about, about how life was. And so regardless of like what your story was, if it was chaotic and you had a lot of like. You know, bigger trauma microtraumas and things to move through.

There are a lot of stories that we have to clear out, a lot of limiting beliefs. And so with that, like with that grief that was starting to come up with my dad, it was just like, I just wanna be done with this. Like, I don't want any of this energy overriding me anymore. I am so tired of working through the belief stories or that I'm not enough, or I don't have enough to say, or who's gonna listen to me, or who's gonna, who's gonna come join?

Ray's world and radiant vibes, you know, it's, it truly is like when you grow up that way, you're working with this sort of inner demise. And it's not all the time, right? Because I've done so much inner work, but it comes in cycles, and I have to really be conscious of that because I will literally squash all of my ideas, all of my brilliance down, because I will seriously wonder who really cares, you know? And that that can be like a really hard story to live with.

And maybe yours is different, but you can relate sort of like where I'm getting at right here, you know, and who's gonna support me, who's gonna do this? And one of the things that I found through this journey, Over the last year since my dad died was who really was supportive of me, and even though I had some really challenging astrological transits over the last, I'd say four years, one of the ones that was a little positive in this last year.

And supportive to some good collaborations was Jupiter happened to be going through my seventh house and moving across my south node and moving across into Chiron even. And I think really helped clear out some of this wounding that I had when it came to trust and collaboration with other people.

And so what I've noticed is that as I've cleared a lot of these barriers and these blockages out, I've had the most amazing people come forward and they're so supportive and it's really opened my eyes to where I was looking at support in the wrong places. I was expectational of it too, where I shouldn't have been from these certain people or people in my past, cuz this wasn't just this cycle, right? This is a cycle of my life where especially when it comes to women in my world.

I have been really, really let down and I know a lot of women have by women through jealousy and envy, and you know, these are people that, they're just not integrated in who they are. So how could they ever be there for somebody who's like so unique and different?

You know, which most of us, when we come from histories and backgrounds, or we're spiritual and intuitive and highly feeling and highly sensitive, and we have these big open hearts and we love deeply and we wanna experience such depth and connection and depth of life and truly like grandiosity in life, I've learned that not everybody can handle that, that passion, that exuberance, that, that love, that level of, of connection in this world. And so it's really been about.

Finding people that are at that level, that capability of communication, of feeling, of depth, of connection, of community, you know, and really being able to see people at all angles for the, the, the really trying times and the really freaking amazing times. Um, So these were things that I was moving through along with obviously life. I have two very senior dogs. One of them, you know, she gets off and on of her food.

One of my young dogs got sick and it's just like, oh my gosh, like here's the cycle. And I started to shut down and I'm like, what am I gonna say? I don't know. I wanted this first episode to be so amazing. And more of a solo episode so that you could all get a feel for who I am and the type of information and the things that I'm gonna share and the vulnerability and, and seeing me in this vulnerable space. And so I was really blacking off my throat again.

And even my heart, I was just like getting frustrated and it was draining my energy. And so I was just sitting here. And I remembered all of the people. I put a post out on my Instagram about anybody that shared this post. Could I? Would not, could, would be entered in a drawing. And so if they shared the post about my podcast about why they were excited about the launch of the podcast, they would be entered in a drawing.

I also sent out a newsletter that I was just so over the moon that there were people that literally sent us out to like 10 people. Right? And so everybody that shared went into one of my really super fun, outdoorsy baseball caps in a paper. And I drew. And I get chills cuz it, it really, it was like, Ray, these are people that support you. This is support, this is amazing. Like look, these people are supporting you and you have support.

And then I started to go down the list of all of the people in my world that are so supportive and that have where I've been able to lean into this year. And. I have so much appreciation for anybody that supports me, and I think that that depth of appreciation that I have, it's so nourishing to me when I really sink into it because I've been so used to going at it alone and, and I've been used to let down, I just gotten used to it, you know, to where it's like, oh, okay, there's another one.

And it's just like, you know, I don't let it get to me terribly because I have. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. I've cultivated a lot of resilience in life, you know, and I think it's got, its, its really greatnesses resilience, but it's also got its caveats, resilience, you know? So I feel like sitting in that and really reflecting on that, like, wow, like all these people shared, I had 17 people.

Share and you know, sure there are people with, you know, thousands of more followers than me or whatever that could do this, that have way more shares, like probably thousands of shares. Maybe some people, some people have a lot of falling and they might not have gotten any shares. I way, it doesn't matter. I just felt so grateful that my community and the people that follow me are really like, Interested in me and they wanna support me.

And yeah, I gave away a freebie, but it, it wasn't like a huge freebie, you know, like people still had to make the effort to do this. And that was what it was. It was like, wow, people really made the effort to do this. And they were vulnerable and they shared and they were brave and they showed up. So Ray, you gotta be brave and you gotta show up and just speak vulnerably about what's been going on with you, what's been going on in your world, and where this sort of block has been coming from.

And also knowing like, Here's the other thing. I could have forced this first episode. I really, really wanted this first episode to be me be a solo episode. I could have forced it last week, but none of you would've felt it, and I could have just skipped over this first episode and said, well, I've got all these collaborations. I'll just publish those. But then I would've felt that. And that wasn't how I wanted it to be like. I want this podcast to be a very connective experience.

One of my most. I'd say core values that I have such a resonance with is connection and community, and freedom is in there, but let's just say connection and community. And what I want is through this podcast for all of you to feel connected, and I want you to feel a sense of community and a sense of understanding and a sense of relevance from everybody I collaborate with and from anything that I share.

And I want to normalize this human experience and even what I was going through emotionally and really healing through last week, which it, it seems like a lot, you know, it's, it was cuz it was like bigger stuff, but I had to, and now I realized, like, I even sat on this podcast and I was like, I'm just gonna talk about being in alignment. That's what I'm gonna talk about. And here, When I trust myself and I allow source to just speak through me and open my channel, it's completely different.

And the words flow, and again, it's a reminder to trust myself and for all of us to trust ourselves and to trust our timing. Because a lot of the times our timing, It's not divine timing. Our timing is our timing. It's when it's going to feel the right or the, the, the, the most right within our body. It's when we're gonna have the most resonance with how it's going to be put out there. And if we try to force anything beyond our timing, it is not going to land, it's not going to stick.

And I've learned that lesson a really hard way many times where I've just tried to force myself through it. So I just gave myself some grace cuz there was a lot of heavy energy moving last week as well, astrologically and universally. And then also what that was bringing up within me. So I'm here now and that's a bit about my story and I want to announce the winner. I'm going to announce the winner and of the of the drawing. And I just am so appreciative to all of you that took time to share.

So, Um, also the collaborations that I'll be having on this podcast and the way that I want this podcast, and this is another thing about alignment that we have to trust, is like, originally when I was gonna do it, it was going to be a very different idea. So, And it felt like pressure. I do not, I do well with pressure like deadlines cuz I kind of like, it's like, ooh, I like that. I'm not a very good procrastinator. So that actually works well for me.

I can procrastinate when I have resistance though that's different. Um, but, So where this is coming from with like no pressure, is this going to be raw? It is not gonna be edited very much at all. I mean, I really have no desire. That is not my, my thing. I don't wanna spend a lot of time editing because one, I want you to feel my energy. I want you to feel the feel's energy that I'm speaking with. And I want this to be just normal, normal conversation with other spiritual beings that have.

Conquered great things and have moved through a shitload of crap in their life. And that is the, their challenges and also their biggest wins and celebrations in that and how they're putting themselves out into the world as spiritual entrepreneurs and. Also sharing in our experiences and really debunking a lot of spiritual BS that's come out in the world over the last like couple of decades.

You know, that gets people thinking that manifestation has to be this certain way and we can't create, and this, we're all positive thinking and you know that divine timing is the only timing and it's not divine timing is, it's just there's no such thing. Timing is your timing. It is when you are ready and divine timing. The universe always has our timing always. It's just whenever we are ready to step into it and own it, and. The ideas, they have to be cohesive.

And my energy was shifting so much over the last few years, and it will continue to shift because that's who I am. I'm a change maker. I do change. I change a lot. Like this is the way that I am. I've learned that I inspire people to change. So when you come into my role, chances are you're probably going through some changes. I inspire people to change and also help people move, move through big changes in life.

And so, you know, part of that was me getting into the energy that this was going to be the most authentic to me, that it could be. And part of that was me getting really clear and open in my throat chakra, cuz I had a lot of blocks there as a lot of us do in the spiritual world or when it comes into putting our content, speaking our truth, um, doing things like that, you know.

And I also had some heart blocks and, you know, I went through so much loss over the last four years if I would've forced it when I, when I was trying to. Back when I had the idea in November of 2021, it just would not have landed the same way. It would've felt exhausting. It would've felt daunting. It would've felt like another thing I had to do. And some days it was all I could do to like get through the day, to, you know, prioritize self-care, prioritize my existing clients.

So it just wasn't, it wasn't the time. And so I'm so glad that I allowed myself, even though in the back of my mind, I beat myself up because that's what I do. And I'm sure some of you can relate. I've tried really hard over this last year to just let things be in their own timing and not force it through, or not think I had to do it just because that was the idea and oh my God, I didn't stick to it like.

Like, oh my God. I said it was gonna launch at mid-June, launch this podcast mid-June, and oh crap, it's June 20th. Like, come on. You know? But I felt that that, like that June 20th that I'm recording this episode, it will be launched the day after the solstice, but I felt that inner critic coming in, like, there you go. There's your pattern, blah, blah, blah. And it's like, well, is it truly the pattern or is it the recognition that this pattern is coming up?

And I was starting to shut down because of everything else going on around me. And I was starting to just close off, close off my heart to spirit, close off my heart to the universe and like this stream of energy that wants to channel through me. I was closing off my crown to this connection as this channel that I am, and that was because of where I was at. Overwhelmed, does it mean that I. Couldn't be there and still be on time with everything that I had lined up.

So that's what I want to leave you with is encourage you that. When you're feeling the challenge of the timing and you're being pulled in a lot of directions, or you're moving through something really emotionally heavy and it's affecting something within your business or something that you're really working at manifesting or you're, you're, you're at the trust of a lot of different external factors that really are outta your control, you know?

You just have to sink in and know you can be there and still be on time. You can be an emotional mess and still manifest great things. You can move through the lows of life and know that your business is still badass. You can move through, you know, all of the letdown of the people that you know maybe weren't there for you. And you've gotta make some big difficult choices of like, do I keep this energy in my world or do I say, I'm fricking done, and then you move through the grief.

You can move through grief and still be really badass in your business. You can do all of these things and still be exactly where you need to be. And so that was sort of the big revelation for me is that this pattern no longer has control over me, and I recognize it's there. I know it's something that I will probably for the rest of my life, have to navigate at times.

But what I'm so proud of is that it's at a lesser degree than it ever was, and I just gave myself space to be where I was at and knowing that it's okay, that trusting, like I know my process and when that inspiration comes through, I know it's gonna come through and I'm gonna get on here and I'm gonna share, and I'm gonna speak, and this is gonna be my badass first episode that I shared with you guys. And it's gonna be so, so resonant, you know?

And I trusted myself in that, even though it was hard. It wasn't always easy to trust myself in that I still had that inner critic, but I was like, no, no, I'm not doing it. And so this completely showed me that I can be on the brink of that, but it doesn't mean that I'm just gonna shut down and walk away from everything that I desire. Right. I'm still gonna own all of that, so, okay. Love this. I'm so excited for you guys to be a part of my world in this podcast, and I welcome feedback.

I welcome reviews. I, if you know of some really amazing collaborations that would be resonant with my energy, send them over. Uh, you can find me on IG and my website. I have some amazing offers that are on the table right now. I've already spoke about them in the intro, and you can find them on my website. And I have some really awesome fun masterclasses throughout the year that are just gonna be fun and easy and affordable for everybody.

Um, that's something I really wanted to prioritize is making services available to anybody and at all different levels, not just entrepreneurship, but really working with manifestation in its totality and the truth behind it. So that's gonna be a lot of fun, lots of great topics about spirituality, debunking all the. BS that we've been like brainwashed with like so much of this, it's just gonna be really raw spiritual talk. Um, and so the winner, are you guys ready? The winner is Sammy Shea.

So Sammy, Sammy, when you listen to this, hop over to my dms on Instagram and let's get your set up. The choice is yours. It was either an animal communication session or you got to get the. Half off of my 90 minute calibrate intuitive strategy session. So, um, I look forward to meeting and connecting with you, and I have briefly chatted with her.

Sammy reached out to me after she heard me on a podcast and she was really vulnerable and courageous and, uh, shared a bit of her story and a bit about where she's opened up spiritually and her journey over the last year and a half. And I was really appreciative of her courage in doing that because that takes bravery. And so for any of you that want to do the same, feel free to reach out, share more of your story.

I feel like this world needs so much more connection and collaboration in that way and to support others in their bravery. I send, I'm gonna send this off with so much love. I'm so excited. Yay. Bye. Hey Untamed listeners, I am so appreciative that you took time out of your day to spend with me. I hope you enjoyed this podcast as much as I did, and I would love your support for this podcast. I would be so appreciative of a positive review. This helps promote the podcast.

And push up the algorithm so more people can find me as a special thanks. When you leave a review, take a screenshot of the review and send it to me to at Ray Radiant Vibes on Instagram. I will send you a 20% coupon code that is good for any single session or a $200 discount for my clarify and and body mentorship containers. Yep, that's right. You heard it right here. Thank you so much for being a part of my world, and I'll see you next time.