Opening Up About My Trying to Conceive Journey 👶🏼

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the RNC Potty. Today's episode does come with a trigger warning, as I am going to be opening up and sharing about our trying to conceive journey. I wanted to open this up to you guys and just be like really raw and real about everything that me and Tim have kind of gone through this year. I didn't think I was going to talk about this until we were pregnant, but we still aren't pregnant, so I was like, you know what, I base my Instagram and podcasts off being

raw and real to you guys. So I just felt like I've been going through this personally so much behind the scenes. I wanted to bring it up just more because I know so many other people are going through this. We went through this with Ivy Girl, and it was so hard and difficult, and I was so determined for this experience to be different, and it has. But I'm not gonna lie. It's definitely taken a toll on my

mental health. It's the end of the year and we're still not pregnant, and I was like, you know what, I'm just going to open up about it because it is really exhausting when you have something like this going on in the background of your personal life. Yeah, so I'm going to get into it. Also, something that I did want to let you guys know that if you

are also experiencing, you know, pregnancy or fertility issues. We actually have some beautiful visualizations and meditations on the Rise app that I have been doing through the whole year, and I asked Jamie, I'm like, let's put these on the apps because these have helped me so much. I just think for such a situation where you cannot control, you cannot push, you know what's happening, to have a tool where you can feel like you're doing something has

just been so so helpful for me. So we have some beautiful fertility meditations, and we will leave a link in the show notes where you can get a free month in rise apps, so you can try them out if that's something you're interested in. So I will leave a link in the show notes. But let's get into this episode. So I wanted to do a super vulnerable and raw open episode or about the current journey that Tim and I are on with trying to conceive our

second baby. And it's been a journey. Again, it's such a lonely journey and it's such a hard journey that no one really talks about. And I just I felt like I was ready. I wasn't ready before now because it was just, yeah, it's just it's such an interesting time. And basically me and Tim decided late last year that

we were ready for second baby. Yeah, I'm talking probably Christmas last year, and so we kind of just that whole trying but not trying, so we were basically just having unprotected sex which you know, for some people they do that the first month and they conceive and like nothing happened. And then it got to February and that's when we actually like fully sat down and I was like I'm ready. I'm you know, really keen for second baby,

and Tim was like, I am two. But also we had decided we were going to Europe that year, so we were like, cool, if it happens now, like it'll be like a baby moon, so it's fine. But if it doesn't, like, it's all good. We've got Europe. And we didn't tell anyone. If they would ask, we're like, oh, we're going to Europe first, blah blah blah, which you know,

that's our progative. And then like February, March, April, May, June, so those were like pretty you know, hardcore timing my ovulation having sex to certain times.

and it's basically where they time your ovulation. You do do injections, they time your ovulation, they do blood tests and scans, and then at the perfect timing from your blood tests, they get tim sample his sperm and they put it on like a prod thing at the highest point in your like womb, your cervix, and they drop it there and then they let it out and you

kind of just like let it do its thing. And we got pregnant the first time with that, and then we had Ivy Girl, so we you know, we've been through the trying to conceive, and my journey with trying to conceive previously, it was really it was so hard and it was such a mind fuck. It was really hard because again I had this notion that if you have sex once unprotected, you have a baby, which I

know does happen to people. So when it's not happening to you and your partner and you want this thing so bad, it's just really mentally hard, especially because it's like you then get into the hole, oh I'm ovulating to say, you know, we've got to have sex the week before the week after. It makes it a little bit unromantic a lot. And then also the week before you're getting your period, you're like, oh, you know, my

boobs are swelling. Is does this mean I'm pregnant? But all the symptoms that you're pregnant are literally the same as if you're getting your period, so it's really confusing. And then also you know, when you are trying to conceive, you're obviously limiting you know how much you're drinking, and you know all those sorts of things. So it was just such a mind fuck, And I honestly I was a bit of a head case last journey. I would test five days before, four days before, three days before.

I was so anxious and obsess and like narrow minded.

I just I really really struggled, you know, having the miscarriage and then like finding out I had Hashi motos and then going through the whole Iui journey, which it was fine, but it was just it was a lot, and it was not what you think will happen, what you picture to happen when you're trying to conceive with your you know, your lover is like, you have beautiful sex and then one day you're like, oh my god, my boob's are feeling bigger, and then you take this

Bacon pregnancy tests and you're pregnant. That's like perfect life vibes. And so because we went through that with Ivy again, I kind of fell into the this time, we'll just get pregnant right away. And also we did have some friends who were trying to conceive at the same time when we had Ivy, and they had a lot of issues like us, Like they both had to do two girlfriends had to do IVF and they both you know, started trying for the second baby and both felt pregnant

first or second month and have already had their babies. Also, you know, to see other people, yeah, struggle the first time, but then the second you know, it happens. So like in my mind, I was like, oh, you know, maybe it will just happen, and it hasn't, and so there has been a lot of feelings to deal with with that. It's also the planning side of it, because you know,

I obviously have my own business. We're planning things. For example, we are probably doing an America trip next year, hopefully in March, because we are looking to expand naked Harvest. But it's interesting because I'm like, if I get pregnant now, because we're trying to book flights, I'm like, I don't know will I be able to fly? But then it's like, what do I not book them? But then what about if I'm still not pregnant in March next year? Do

you know what I mean? Like, it's a really hard you almost want to put your life on hold because you have this plan, but it's like it might not even happen. It's like coming on nearly twelve months and I'm like, well, thank god I didn't plan anything, because it's it still hasn't happened. So it's this really interesting time. I wanted to be very honest with you guys. It is a journey. So long story short, we went to the fertility doctor after Europe and I basically found out

I have PCOS, which just makes it harder. I don't like I don't have a lot of the symptoms. The symptoms are hair growth, weight gain, acne. It's like some am like, oh, yeah, like maybe, but then I'm like have I always struggled with that. So I even remember going to a natural path when I was younger and

she said I probably have PCOS. But my fertility doctor, he actually did an internal exam and I did have CYS on my ovaries, which is also like a requirement like cyst on your ovres for PCOS, which means polycyster avarian syndrome. And basically it's just harder for people with PCOS to get pregnant because their ovulation isn't usually the

time when everyone else's ovulation is. It just can be very frustrating because obviously, you know, when we have a toddler and you're trying, you're trying to have sex, it's like you do need to somewhat time it because and she literally sleeps in our bed right now, so it's not just happening all day every day, so it is a very interesting time. So I got diagnosed with PCOS, so I'm on my journey of like healing that Tim got his sperm tested and we're going through that. Yeah,

it's a journey, and this is where we're at. I kind of don't want to go any more deeper on it than those things, just because otherwise I just again it's like, I'm so happy to be open to you guys, but I also just do need some things for ourself and our own life. But that is the current situation without trying to conceive journey. I did just want to open up because again, I think it's such a lonely journey. Most people, even if they are and are trying to

conceive journey, they don't tell people. They kind of just sit in this like silo of well, I'll wait till I get the good news and then I'll start talking to people about it. And that's pretty much how I was. I think that's fine, if you want to do that, it's absolutely fine, but also it's fucking lonely. They're asking why don't I want to book the US flights? So I'm like, so I just spoke to him about it, and I'm like, look, I want to be open about it. I want to tell people, and he was on board.

And he was like, yeah, look, I don't mind. I'm how to be open about it. And also, I have been struggling with my hormones, like as symptom of PCOS is gaining weight, and I feel like I have been struggling with my hormones. I've been struggling with my skin. I've been struggling with a lot of these internal things that again I just didn't really want to talk about

because I was still in them. And I do have a bit of a rule on this podcast that I don't really like to talk about things until I'm on the other side because I don't just want to like traum a dump on you guys. I love to have like here's the lesson, here's the learning. That's what this podcast is for. But also I do struggle to be vulnerable. I feel like this is something I need to open

up about. And also I know so many other women are currently on this trying to conceive journey and it's so hard, and I do just want to say I actually have been video recording myself every single month, you know, getting a negative pregnancy test or just how I felt when I got my period or whatnot, because my mindset previously was like I said, I was very fixated, very obsessed. I would cry a lot. I would be really victim

mentality about not getting pregnant. And I have been really focused on doing things differently this time and having a different experience, so I did want to speak about that. So I have been video recording myself and I think I will, you know, once our journey is complete, I will post that as a whole episode, so you can really see the thoughts, you can see the evolution, you can see like my mindset, because like some months, I'm like, I'm so ready to be a mom. I'm so grateful

to have Ivy. I feel so relaxed, I feel so ready for this baby to come in. It's all going to become per timing. I've been doing my meditations and journaling and it's perfect. And then other months I'm like, this is really fucking frustrating and I'm like just like a bit over it. So I do feel like my mindset, you know, like I'm still having the up and downs, but I do feel so much better this time, and I think it obviously does help that I already have

a baby. I have Ivy. You know, I'm very busy with my work and having a toddler and all the things. But again I do know from Ivy that it will happen in the perfect time. And also a theme of my trying now trying to conceive journey is health. And so again previously I got my boobs out and I dealt with that, and then now the p SOS is coming up. So I do feel like it's a great kind of reality check for me to dive back into parts of my health that I had maybe neglected. So

I am working on that sort of thing. A big thing of p SOS is balancing your blood sugar levels, so that's actually something that I have been really in. I followed the Gluecose goddess, which she's really good for that. So again it's put me on this beautiful health journey. It makes me so grateful for Ivy. I also have been doing these incredible visualizations and meditations. We actually recorded some for the Rise app so they will be out

when this episode goes live. These are the meditations that I have been doing that have there's a fertility one, and there's a pregnancy one, and there's a birth one. I have been doing the fertility and the pregnancy one. The pregnancy one is so beautiful. I basically just take you through the journey of a pregnancy. And if you are a visual person, I just find it so amazing to connect. Ah, guys, I have been connecting with this beautiful spirit baby. They are just beautiful, like their energy.

They are so soft and they're really sensitive, and I kind of get this like download that they're not going to come in until I'm in a more feminine, flowy, receptive state, because I can kind of tell they don't like chaos, Like they're very sweet and innocent and soft. And it's funny because when I felt Ivy's energy, because I would connect with her, her energy is exactly what she is is a baby, like a whirlwind, like chaos. And it's so funny because when I was pregnant with Ivy, Guys,

I felt so powerful. I was on another level, Like I don't think I've ever earned so much money and done so many things in such a short amount of time. Like she gave me beautiful, wild energy. It was like

feminine goddess energy. And then when she came out, that is her, that's her as a person, like she is a wild woman and She's amazing, and it's so crazy because I'm noticing such a pull to slow down, to reconnect, to step into this beautiful softness, to be more sensitive, to be more nurturing, to be more caring, and so I really feel like that's what this soul is, and so it has been pulling me too slow down. I think that's also really beautiful because it's pulling me into

a new season. I do feel like there are still some changes that need to happen before this beautiful baby comes in. But again, like I said, because we do have IVY, because of like the work that I've done, the internal work, I'm not feeling like, of course I want to be pregnant and I want our second baby and all those sorts of things, but I don't feel rushed.

I am perfect timing, divine timing, you know, talking to baby as much as I can, doing my meditations, doing my visualizations, but still being present in my life and not future tripping. And I think that's kind of the difference. The previous trying to conceive journey, I was like future tripping so anxious, couldn't surrender, and this one, I'm like, I'm doing the things I'm seeing the fertility doctor. I'm doing the steps. I am now following you know, the

p SOS protocol. But it's not from this place of like I need to get pregnant, I need a baby now. It's from this beautiful this is our next journey, this is our next evolution, and really embracing it and being in it again. I think sometimes we can miss the

sweetness of the journey. And something I say with hindsight is when I was trying to conceive Ivy, it's like I missed a whole year of my own life because my head was so filled up with I need to have a baby that it's like I wasn't really present. I was constantly kind of a low vibration. I was really sad. Yeah, I just kind of missed a whole thing of my life. And I look back now and I'm like, she's coming, Like she was coming anyway, She's

a oil wind. I wish I had enjoyed that year because obviously you guys, well if you're a mum, you know so much changes once you have a baby. That's what I would say to previous storgy. So if you're currently in a trying to conceive journey, I just want to say, I'm sending you so much love. It's hard, it is raw, and it is vulnerable. But my I guess like recommendation would be too surrender to look into what could be the lesson here? What could I be learning?

What am I getting pushed to? Like I said with IVY, it was like getting my boobs out and healing my thyroid disease, which I currently have. You know, I'm off medication now. And then with this journey, it's like looking into my pcos and the slowing down and the stepping more into my feminine energy, and so I'm embracing that and I'm like, Okay, cool, this is where I need to go. This is what I need to look into.

Also realizing you might see your friend and they get pregnant straight away, but you have no idea what else that friend is struggling with. Don't get caught up in all the other people just get to be pregnant straight away or it gets to happen for other people. Don't get caught in that because that just puts you in victim mentality. That is a lawer vibration, and you don't need to be in that because again you never know

what's happening in someone else's life. Yeah, they might get pregnant right away, but maybe their relationship isn't good, Like maybe financially they're not good. Like there's so many things, and so I don't compare my trying to conceive journey with anyone else. I bring it back to what could I be learning in this moment? How can I surrender more? How can I slow down? How can I actually enjoy this? Like I keep thinking about how can I enjoy ivy more?

How can I enjoy it? Like being a family of three. We're reevaluating the house situation because of like I'm not wanting to sleep downstairs. Lots of things. We're like, okay, like where is this taking us? Like what is this journey? And we're looking at it that way. We're not sitting in the oh my god, of course we're having like you know, fertility problems. Of course, is this happening again? Like we're not doing that. We're not sitting in that energy.

It's this beautiful. We know what we want. We're clear on the vision. I am making a room for you, baby, you know I'm talking to baby, I'm visualizing. I'm meditation. I've been doing tapping too, Like I've been doing tapping talking about I'm ready for a second baby. I am a mum of two. I can definitely take you through something like that if you guys want. And also the meditations that I have been doing, they should now be

on the Rise app. And I said to Jamie, I was like, I want these on there because they just have been incredible for me and I know they will be so helpful if you are currently on a trying to conceive journey. And we do have a promo right now where you can get a free week of the Rise app, So we'll put a link in the show notes. You can check that out. But my laugh's that busy update on our second trying to conceive journey. How we're going.

There's definitely, you know, stuff happening behind doors. But again, I just I feel like that's all I kind of want to share. That's where we're at. I did just want to open up about it. Not a lot of people talk about it, and I know a lot of you guys would be going through it, and I just wanted to say you're not alone. It is hard. But also these mindset shifts have really really helped me during this time, and I'm just so excited to be a

month or two soon. And look, it feels I don't know, it feels weird to be vulnerable and tell you guys before it's happened, if that makes sense. But I think that's why I want to do it, because I'm like, no Georgia like be vulnerable, tell them before it's happened. I feel like I share so many of my wins with you guys. I just wanted to share the not so great stuff, like you know, the hard stuff, the raw stuff, the vulnerable stuff I might do like your Q and A about it or my stories, but thank

you so much for listening. Send you guys so much love. Of course, like I always say, if you do have someone you think that this party will help you know, maybe there and they're trying to conceive journey, please send it to them. Please share the potty. We are an independent party, so I would really appreciate it. I love you guys so much, and I'll see you in the next episode. By