The Scariest Part of an Eating Disoder

What's the scariest part of having an ED? No, it's not the gaining weight, nor eating carbs again. The scariest thing is knowing that if you don't change anything, if you don't choose recovery, you could be like this for a long time, or indefinitely. You could stay this ill for the rest of your life. And even scarier? The fact this if you stay like this, you're going to continue to hurt everyone around you.

For so long I didn't realise what I was doing was hurting my family, especially my parents. I didn't realise that until I chose recovery - because I didn't want to hurt them anymore. I didn't choose recovery for them, though. I chose to get better for me. Because I didn't want to stay that small and that ill forever. It was hard, but now 18 months into recovery, I'm stronger than ever, and so are my parents. We laugh and joke about the times I cried about eating, when now I could say I eat a lot more than them.

It's a scary time, eating disorders, but the scariest thing is staying that way forever.