Megan Feldman Bettencourt

have instead of what we do. We think things that hold us back and dampen our spirit. But it's not just about thinking. Our actions matter. It takes conscious, consistent, and creative effort to make a life worth living. This podcast is about how other people keep themselves moving in the right direction, how they feed their good wolf m Thanks for joining us. Our guest on this episode is

Megan Feldman Bettencourt, an award winning writer and journalist. Megan has reported from many countries, and her journalism has appeared in publications including The San Francisco Chronicle, Psychology Today, Salon, Glamor, Newsday, and many others. Megan is the author of the internationally acclaimed book Triumph of the Heart Forgiveness in an Unforgiving World,

which explores forgiveness through science, stories and memoir. She holds a master's degree from the Columbia University Graduate School of Journalism in New York City. And here's the interview with Megan Feldman Bettencourt. Hi, Megan, welcome to the show. Thank you, it's good to be here. I am excited to have

you on. Your book is called Triumph of the Heart Forgiveness in an Unforgiving World, and you have in it one of my favorite quotes of all time, which is I will get an exact but Nelson Mandela talking about how hating other people are resenting other people is like drinking poison and expecting your enemy to die. And that phrase has been incredibly helpful to me in my life once I truly understood it as a as a true fact. Yes,

it's it's a powerful quote and message. Absolutely So we will get much deeper into all that here in a minute. But let's start like we always do, with the parable. There's a grandfather who's talking with his grandson. He says, in life, there are two wolves inside of us that are always at battle. One is a good wolf, which represents things like kindness and bravery and love, and the other is a bad wolf, which represents things like greed

and hatred and fear. And the grandson stops and he thinks about it for a second, and he looks up at his grandfather and he says, well, grandfather, which one wins? And the grandfather says, the one you feed. So I'd like to start off by asking you what that parable means to you in your life, in the work that you do, and maybe anyways that you feed the good wolf in your own life. Sure. So, I have always been really interested in how people cultivate fulfilling lives, maybe

in spite of very difficult circumstances. I was raised as the daughter of a psychologist and grew up hearing a lot of stories about difficult childhoods and difficult experiences, and so I was always interested in how people, you know, became happy and love their lives in spite of the difficult parts. And more and more in recent years, as we've looked at the research that's come out about positivity and about different practices and ways to change the brain

and maintain feelings of fulfillment. For example, the more we've learned about the truth, the real, powerful and extreme truth of that parable about the worlds and that you know, it really is the way we think and the way

we act that determines which wolf controls us. And I would say that that really is a perfect set up from my book, because when you talk about forgiveness and you think about you know, forgiving versus really living and blame and resentment and anger and hatred which is the word that parable uses, hatred, you really are looking at the two wolves and the way we feed those are either going to be indulging our hatred, indulging our blame and resentment and anger, or learning how to let go

of those or channel them productively in order to feed that other wolf that's all about love and no peace and fulfillment and happiness and joy. Yeah, and I think that you know, the thing that prompted you to write the book, the story about a Zem is probably as clear a you know, telling of the wolves parable as as there could be. Right, I mean, he made a very clear choice. Do you want to tell listeners the

story that got you interested in exploring forgiveness? Yes. So a few years ago I did a magazine story about a man named Azeem Kamisa, and Azem experienced to a most of us fear, most those of us who are parents, which is that his only son, Tari, was murdered by a group of teenage gang members, and one in particular, who was fourteen at the time. They had planned to

rob him. He was a pizza delivery guy on the side of finishing his college degree, and he was delivering a pizza and these teens approached him and tried to rob him of the pizza and ended up shooting and

killing him. And a Ziem talks about how when he got the phone call to notify him about his son's death, he passed out a cold on his kitchen floor, and when he came to, there was this mysterious phrase in his mind that he attributes to God, and that phrases there were victims on both ends of the gun, and he ended up forgiving this young man who killed his son, And not only that, he ended up forgiving and becoming friends with the young man's family and in particular the

young man's grandfather, with whom he formed this extraordinary organization that does violence prevention work and education at risk schools around the country. Yeah, that's an amazing story because the normal reaction and the reaction that nobody could really even be blamed for, would be one of a great deal of hatred towards the people that did that to his son.

But he chose forgiveness. Now, I think maybe we could go into what forgiveness is and what it isn't because I think that hearing something like what he did sounds almost like dealing with a saint, and um, you know, I don't think that's exactly what it is. So can you tell us what your definition of forgiveness is? Yes, my definition, the best most accessible definition that I found in a year and a half of research, is a very simple Marion Webster's definition, which is giving up resentment

and giving up resentment. It doesn't rule out being angry like a lot of us would think it does, you know, Like you say, what do we hear that he forgave that person? We think, wow, you know, how could he possibly do that? Does that mean that he wasn't angry or upset? And in fact, it doesn't mean that Asim was absolutely angry. He was depressed and he went through you know, those phases or experiences and emotions that anyone would go through after such a horrific tragedy, including at

one point being suicidal. However, he says he knew on a visceral level that if he didn't somehow find a way to forgive, and he didn't use the word to give up resentment, but in our conversations and in my time with him, it became clear that that's what that's what he was talking about. He knew that if he didn't give up resentment, he could never have the quality of life that he wanted. He said, he knew he would always be a victim of his blame and anger.

And so what's interesting to me is that forgiving didn't mean that he wasn't angry. It meant that he channeled that anger in a productive way. So that meant for him being very upset about the state of gun violence in the United States and doing something about it. And so he every day he channels that anger and grief over what happened, because he'll never get over it, but every day he channels it into this effort to prevent any other child from dying the way his did, or

from going to prison. The way Tony did. And I think a lot of people assume that, like you said, that forgiven means you don't get angry. People think forgiveness is like letting somebody completely off the hook, and that's not what you're talking about here. It's not it's really it's not enabling someone to avoid accountability. And that's really important.

You know, some people, especially if you're talking about something like sexual assault, might think if I forgive, that means I can't pursue charges or I can't press charges or even follow lawsuit. And that's absolutely not true. And you can have forgiveness with justice. They are not mutually exclusive, right, And you're not talking about the need for forgiveness or the importance of forgiveness. You're not coming at this from

a moral perspective. You're not coming at it from that's what God wants you to do, or that's what whatever wants you to do. You're coming at it really from if we go back to that that Nelson Mandela quote, you're coming at it from the fact that when we really hate someone or every resentment for someone for a long,

long period of time, we suffer greatly for that. And so what did you learn about why we would want to forgive, what are the benefits, because we're really doing it for ourselves, right, Yes, And and that's really where I started, because I have to say I have never really been a naturally forgiving person. I'm much more likely to hold a grudge. I'm quick to anger, That's my

natural temperament. And so when I when I did the story, I found myself really confounded and and very kind of intrigued and troubled at the same time, because I've always kind of enjoyed, you know, feeling righteous anger, for example, and so I wanted to know That's what I wanted to know. I wanted to know, is there a real

benefit to this, and if so, what is it? And as I began to look into it, I found that, not surprisingly most of us know, there's a large body of research about the detriment of anger and resentment over time on our bodies. Right, It's similar to stress, but anger specifically puts us more at risk for heart attack, high high blood pressure excuse me, and also anxiety and depression.

Whereas what I didn't know and what I found was there's this this body of research from the last twenty years where studies specifically on forgiveness show how it can alleviate symptoms like depression, anxiety, heart issues as well. Cardiac patients actually were found in different studies to be less at risk to have a massive fatal heart attack if they were forgiving as opposed to if they held a grudge. Right not to mention, just much better day to day

sanity and quality of life. Yes, because stress really you know, when you when you think about anger, the anger response, it really is the stress response, which means adrenaline, cortisol, nora, and ephron, all those stress hormones flooding your brain, and over time they not only tend to make you depressed, but they inhibit your ability to problem solved and think creatively, which really, if you think about it, gets in the

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As listeners of the show, no, I'm recovering alcoholic and addict and so very you know, very early in my life I got I got cleaned the first time. When I was very young, I was exposed to the idea that um resentment is really bad. In the UH some of the twelve step literature, they refer to it as the number one offender, being the number one reason that people go back out drinking. And I think that's why it For me, I really somehow internalized that truth that

I was the one that was suffering. And once, I think at least for me, once I really internalized it, it wasn't really so much a question of should I do this or not? It was how do I do it? And so, what did you learn about how people can go about forgiving? Because that sounds lovely, right, But when you are in the grips of that that anger, or that pain or all that stuff, it's it's not enough to just go well, I forgive, and you know, it's like positive thinking. You just can't turn on your happy

face and everything is fine exactly. So what are places that people can start and what does the process look like? Right? Well, when it comes to when it comes to pretty pretty severe offenses, um like the one a Zem experienced losing his son, that's that's a really really huge experience obviously,

so something like that really requires grieving. And one one thing that was surprising to me is that I found that the people who I interviewed and spent time with who seemed to be really good at forgiving, tended to be good at grieving. And even when you're when we're talking about less severe offenses, maybe not grieving is the word, but being authentic and allowing themselves to feel their feelings. You know, there's this kind of silly expression that I

think it holds true. What you resists persists. It's one of my favorite phrases. It's great. I mean, it's it sounds kind of flip, but it really is true. And so you know, a Zeem grieved after he lost his son, really allowed he gave himself. He gave himself that you know, he allowed himself to feel it, and and he talks about the roommate quote about the only cure for the pain is the pain. That's another great and that's really

true and there's no way around it. And the people I spoke to in Rwanda who had experienced genocide you to different degrees, talked about that too, that they went through however long they needed to go of you know, being angry or feeling hurt or not speaking to someone um. But so just allowing yourself to feel whatever it is

gives it such less grip on you. So that's one thing, And another is developing, if not empathy, at least some level of understanding for whoever you know, committed an offense against you that you might be trying to forgive, because in some cases it might be easy to to empathize

with someone, you know. I interviewed people in my chapter about forgiving parents, about forgiving a whole range of things when it came to childhood and our parents, and you know, some people were able to develop that sense of understanding and empathy pretty easily by saying so. One example is ones this woman's mother was mentally ill, and she didn't know exactly what her mother had it turns out she was BIPOLARUM at a time when that that disorder had

not been discovered or defined, much less treated. But this woman, she knew that her mother was not capable of the sort of parenting that other parents were, and so she was able to empathize on some level with her mom and other people, like, for example, a young man whose father had left him or who kind of appeared off and on throughout his life mostly to disappoint him. Again,

he didn't necessarily have that empathy. You know, his father was not ill, but over time he was able to build this level of kind of understanding um with his father, and he did end up having a conversation with him and learning that his father actually was afraid that he would be like him, and that's one reason he stayed away. So anyway we can develop some understanding for why someone behaved the way they did, it makes it a lot easier to forgive. Yeah, a few things come up for

me when you say that. One is, we had a guy on the show a while ago, Carrie Patterson. He wrote a book called Crucial Conversations, which is really great, But they've got a line in there which is to kind of ask yourself like why would somebody behave like this? What would cause somebody to behave like this? Because it

gets you in the thinking about what that might be like. Actually, in the book you refer to it that that the very process by trying to think about why some you might have done what they do engages the part of the brain that is the part of the brain that is more able to become forgiving, and it takes less energy away from that more reptilian part of the brain.

And and then the last thing would be I've got a great approach for forgiveness, which is or develop an empathy, which is if you screw up as often as I have in my life, it becomes very easy too to emphasize with others with the challenges they have. Well, I would say, the more aware you are, and then for ownership you take of that, because I promise you there are a lot of people who have made a lot of mistakes that they don't recognize it, and it's easier

to blame other people. And obviously you have made a practice out of really being aware of how you relate to other people and what actions you take, and when you've made mistakes, you have a practice of owning up

to them. And so what's interesting and I think really important about what you just said is that the more we can be responsible and accountable for our mistakes without beating ourselves up and hating ourselves and indulging in self loathing, the more we can be accountable and also and also compassionate with ourselves, the more compassionate we can be with other people because we realize that, as Pemma Children says,

they're up against what we're up against exactly. One of the things in the book that you talk about, and it's related to empathy, and you say that one of the ways to you know, to work towards forgiveness is to recognize maybe that it's not as personal as you think it is, and to realize that other people have

suffered the same thing as well. It reminds me of there's an old Buddhist story where a woman comes to the Buddha and she's just out of her mind with grief because her son died, and she's like, what can you do? Can you bring him back? And the Buddha says, all right, here's what I want you to do. I want you to go find me, bring me a mustard

seed from a house where no one has suffered. And so the woman goes door to door to door looking for this and you know, over and over what she finds, of course, is that everybody has had these awful things happened to her. And so obviously her son is not brought back. But what happens is she realizes she's not so alone in it. That's right, And I love that story.

I love that story because it's so true. And I think for all of us, know, whether it's something is extreme as losing a child or experiencing a war, or something more every day, like you know, being fired from our job or you know, losing a relationship or being broken up with getting divorced. It's so easy to think or to feel like you're alone in that experience, when in fact it's the opposite, right, like that story shows. And and that's actually part of Dr Robert en Right's

process in his clinical practice helping people forgive. And Dr en Right is one of the kind of founding fathers of forgiveness research, and he he talks about that about imagining how many other people have experienced that, and in a lot of cases actually connecting with those people and that's why for for people who have gone through specific things, it's really helpful to connect with other people who have

experienced that same thing. It definitely is. I mean, I think you know, you reference twelve step programs in the book a couple of times, and you know the the efficacy of them, and you know, there's a lot of debate out there, and you know, I think some of the reasons that those programs work are not the reasons that they themselves think they work. But one of the big things that I think is important in those is

that you recognize that you're not alone. Yes, you hear other people say the things that have gone in your head and you went, oh wait, I'm like that, and that that is such a you know, when you're really struggling, that is such it doesn't matter what the struggle is,

that is so comforting it is. And I think there's I think it's also helpful when you're developing or aiming to develop a level of self compassion, because speaking with people and spending time with people who have gone through what we've gone through, it helps us not to deal alone. And it also helps us to realize that, you know, if they've gone through that, and they're not terrible people and they didn't do something that made them deserve that

horrible thing. You know, then we probably didn't either. And you know, one important part of forgiveness comes down to forgiving ourselves, and I think that's lost and a lot of conversations about forgiven right now, you say that in order to be able to forgive, there are some conditions that are usually favorable that make it easier to forgive. What what are the things that are important to sort

of be there to help us with that process. Sure, well, we know that getting an apology or some sort of accountability statement along with remorse from the offender does make it easier. The tricky thing about that is that if you make your forgiveness contingent upon an apology and authentic one with remorse, then you're really giving that person even more power over you, and you're handing over the reins of your well being, which you know, which is not

a good thing. Um So, I think it's important to know that that does make it easier. But it's also important to know that you don't have to have an apology in order to forgive that you can you can do that on your own. And that you may not reconcile with someone. This kind of goes back to what you asked about in terms of what forgiveness is not. But it's not necessarily reconciling, and so I think that makes it more accessible that you know there may be

grounds to reconcile. For example, that person has apologized or taken accountability. The person is safe, you know, and has provided assurance and maybe evidence that they won't hurt you again, and so on. Um. But but keeping in mind that those two things are different, forgiveness and reconciliation, right, they don't necessarily go together. And I think so you were saying that one is ideally if somebody expresses remorse or apologize as that helps. And then the other that you

touched on was sort of the safety thing. It's hard to forgive if you're sort of still in danger of the same thing happening to you again. Right, So in this you know, one thing that comes up a lot on this conversation is often dangerous relationships or abusive relationships, you know, when really, I mean, the first thing to do is make sure that you're safe and protected, and then you can work on forgiving and maybe maybe one day you reconcile, maybe you don't, but absolutely safety is

very important. I don't know if I'll call it false forgiveness, but that forgiveness that happens in abusive relationships is not what we're talking about here. No, and and and I think I don't even know if I would call that forgiveness. I think I would call that a lack of self

advocacy and a lack of boundaries. You know. Um, there was an interesting study that I read about in the book where this this researcher looked at a number of marriages and it was I think the first two to three years a certain number of marriages, and he found that in the couples where one person was often transgressing against the other and that could be with sarcasm, you know, or insults, snapping at them, etcetera, and the other person

was kind of constantly or routinely forgiving that the effect was that they got more of that negative behavior. And so that really tells us that is keeping yourself, That is not advocating for yourself. That is, you know, failing to lay down the boundary and say just doesn't work. Yep, there's some old phrase I can't remember that goes along with that, which is something like you get what you allow,

or it's something to that that degree. And I certainly have been that position of like trying to be the ultra forgiving just it's all fine, it's all fine, until I basically set up a situation in which that the expected behavior was that the other person would be unkind and I would forgive it. And boy, once you're in that pattern, it's so hard to undo it. It is it is and and and what's interesting is that I

think I don't think I'm alone in this. When I was reporting the book and writing it, I really had

to confront that. In my relationships, particularly in my romantic relationships, for a long time, I had vacillated between those two extremes, between acting as this kind of doormat and setting up that dynamic that you describe, where you know, I'm just saying, oh, that's fine that you insulted me, or that's fine that you got drunk and humiliated both of us, or whatever it was, and then vacillating to the other extreme of

overreacting in certain different situations. So I had to really look at that, and um, you know, and and in my marriage. Now I find myself much more willing to rock the boat by laying down a boundary and calling out something that doesn't work for me. But I'm I'm also less likely to overreact, So I think I've found some more balance in between those two extremes. Let's talk

about adrenaline management. I love that term. Yeah, it's a great term, and I actually I quoted Dr Fred Leskin of the Stanford Forgiveness Projects talking about adrenaline management, and I think it's so brilliant because that's really what this is.

If you think about it's happening in the brain when we when we react in anger, and every time we even think of a grudge, even if we don't do anything about it, even just thinking about a grudge, we experienced that stress response with the flood of adrenaline in our brains and throughout our bodies. And the parts of the brain that are activated are those primitive parts that some people call the reptilian parts of the brain, right

the amygdala, which is the fight or flight part. And the more we can actually interrupt that by observing it, like merely just observing it actually disrupts that that stress cascade reaction and activates the frontal lobe, which is responsible for reason, problem solving, adpatizing with other people, um, you know, forgiveability judgments, which is thinking about whether or not someone merits forgiveness, all of those things. So observing our reaction

is the first step to interrupting that. And then you know, doing some deep breathing is another one that can really just stop that reaction in its tracks and increase oxygen, you know, introduce the relaxation and enable enable us to really think and really be rational. Yeah. You say in the book that what happens when we get into that adrenalized state is you go into the no thinking zone. And I've become so cognizant of that in my life because I realize it once you're into that place, there's

nothing good that can happen. And never I mean this, I won't say never, but very very rarely until one person can step out of that. And I think it's interesting. I've noticed in my own relationships with people and in watching people around me, it's interesting how quick sometimes we get there. And and so it's it's almost like the conversation starts and it's a you know, have to have to take take a step almost immediately, but that that pushing through just is so destructive, at least it has

been in my life. Yes, And I think the more observant we become, the more we were tipped off earlier to that reaction, because I think everyone probably experiences it differently. I feel like it's it's almost like a head rush. It's like a buzzing in my head, and so I know that as soon as that, as soon as that's happening, I need to stop talking or doing what I'm doing, exactly and and just politely excuse ourselves. Yes, exactly. So you talk about something called repair moves in a relationship,

What does that mean? Yes? So, the authorities on conflict and in longevity, happy longevity in relationships, specifically romantic relationships talk a lot about this term conflict intimacy, and basically that's how you fight, how you deal with disagreements, because that's really the one most powerful determining factor of whether relationships do continue and continue happily, is if you can really deal it with conflict in a positive way and

in a productive way, so not avoiding it, but you know, allowing for the conflict and engaging with it in a rational way and and repair moves. Basically, our statements that show that you're listening, statements that show that you're working towards some sort of resolution. You know. So it could be as simple as I hear you, or I get that, or could you explain that more? You know, I didn't,

I don't quite understand. Like, just so it's moving towards connection and understanding and resolution as opposed to shutting someone out, being defensive, et cetera. Yep, what did you call it? Conflict intimacy? We touched on one of them early, or that there are a lot of different approaches to forgiveness, but that it appeared that all of it boiled down to two key components. One was you talked earlier about the ability to grieve it, to feel it, and the

other was letting go. What does that process look like or what do you what do you mean by that letting go? Yeah, so someone said that forgiveness in the end is about giving up your attachment to a different past. I'm not sure of the exact words, but it was

something like that. So giving up the right to a different past, because of course the past is what it is, right, and we can't we can't change it, and so at a certain point in forgiveness, and in order to forgive, you really have to relinquish that attachment to judging the past and trying to change it, because you basically value your well being and your future over that past. And

I mean, I think that's what letting go is. It's realizing that you can't you can't move forward when you're holding the tale of the past, you know, I mean, you're not gonna You're not gonna go anywhere. Reminds me of a phrase that sort of applies to this, which is would you rather be right or would you rather be happy? Yes, that's that is exactly it. That's exactly right. And and it's easy to say that right, that's so

easy to actually get there and do it. But I think you know, one thing that the people in my book share, They share a lot of things, but one thing along these lines is that they were committed. They were really really committed to forgiving for their own well being and in a lot of cases, for the well being of other people and frankly of the world. And so that commitment and that intention really held a lot of Wait. So what that means is that you know

you're not going to get there in one day. If we're talking about something big, right, a big loss or a big betrayal, it's not going to happen overnight. But if when you're feeling upset, if when you're grieving, you know, if when you're observing yourself one more time, you know, wanting to ring this person's neck, you have in the back of your mind that bottom line commitment to letting go and moving forward for your sake and for other

people's sakes, you'll do it right. And I think that's what I was sort of referring to earlier when I said, once I really understood the value of forgiveness for myself, what it did for me, and how much I would harm myself when I didn't, that was when it changed me. It's not that I immediately forgave everybody instantly. It was that I knew that was what I wanted, That was where I wanted to end up with, whatever the situation was, that was the place I wanted to end You mentioned

it somewhere in the book. I think we get hung up on the idea of that's not fair, and um that can really stand in the way of forgiveness. Yeah, I certainly do. I mean, I'm I'm constantly dealing with, you know, some situation that I think isn't fair in the world, and dealing with my my opinions about that and my feelings about that and my reactions about that. Right. But ultimately, if I'm only focused on how something isn't fair,

that's not going to get me what I want. And so I think, I mean, what's really interesting to me now is that it's not only our individual practices being geared towards the goal of mutual forgiveness that makes a difference,

but it's also our collective societal practices, you know. And when I think about City Springs, which is the school in Baltimore where I spent time and where I did reporting on, you know what, the tools that they've used to drastically reduced fighting and drastically reduced suspensions in an interesting d school in Baltimore that had a lot of fighting when they started. People don't always feel like forgiving each other or seeking forgiveness in that school, however, their

daily habits collectively are geared towards that. And what that means is they happen to use a practice called circles, which means when there's a conflict in a classroom or there's a fight that is brewing, everyone involved is brought in to the restorative practices facilitator's office. And the restorative practices facilitator is this wonderful man named Brendan Lean who is a Forward gang member and he then became a

kindergarten teacher and then this facilitator at their school. He brings them into the into his office and they basically use a talking stick to take turns sharing his or her version of what happened in the conflict and ideas for what could resolve it. And you know, like I said, it doesn't mean that they all feel like doing that or they all feel like just burying the hatchet and moving on, but those practices and habits really pull for that. Yeah, exactly.

It's another version of a phrase we use a lot, which is sometimes you can't think your way into right action, you have to act your way into write thinking. Yeah, that's great. I like that. So one of the things I really enjoyed about the book. We're nearly at the end here, so I'll start wrapping up. But one of the things I really enjoyed about the book was how much you took what you were learning and reflected it

back on yourself in your own life. I really found a lot of that writing to be some of the most enjoyable parts of the book. So I think that was great the way that you did that. Thank you. I'm really glad because I went back and forth about including myself or not, and so I'm glad that that was valuable. I think it made a big difference in your willingness to be vulnerable with it, and I think he really took chances with it, and so it was

it was great. Well, thank you, and we'll ap up with me reading a little bit out of the book near the very end, and then you can add any comments to it if you'd like. But I think it's a great summing up of the book and of really the wolf Parable in general. You say gratitude and forgiveness. I realized have a symbiotic relationship. They feed and strengthen each other. It seems so simple, almost too simple, but

there it was. The more you focus on the warm memories and appreciate them, the less power the painful ones have, and the more you look for what you like in people, the less you blame them for your own disappointments or failings. Yes, that is a really good sum up. I like the way you sort of tied forgiveness back to another practice that gets a lot of attention these days, which is which is gratitude. But at the end, what we're really

talking about here is very much the wolf parable. In any situation, there are multiple interpretations and which one we choose to of our attention to is really determine so much of the quality of our life. Like like a Zeem did, he he chose to focus on what he could build out of the wreckage of what happened to his son versus what he wanted to destroy as part of that. And it's just such a powerful, powerful message.

Thank you. I agree, And I think that point that it really is what we focus on is so powerful and that means the choice of what to focus on from minute to minute to our to our today to day, and that's what makes up our lives, right. And what I love about the book and the work that you do though, is it says that's ultimately the point, what you focus on is what matters. But it doesn't get in to pretend like Oh, everything's fine. I mean you,

like you talk about going through the emotions. Feeling the pain is a big part of it, but then choosing what to do with that is is what you can do as you move through that process. Yes, definitely. Well Megan, thanks so much for taking the time to come on the show. Like I said, I really enjoyed the book. We will have a link to the book and your website and your ted talk in our show notes. Wonderful. Well, thank you so much, Eric, it was really a pleasure

to talk with you. Excellent. We'll take care you too. Okay. Bye. You can learn more about Megan Feldman, Bettencourt and this podcast at one you feed, dot net slash Megan