162. life is testing you right now.. here's how to pass.

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feel into it. And how it goes with the strology is I usually am feeling this like death and rebirth or this something happening, and then I always hear that it's like mercury retrograde or like this thing or even the lines portal thing, Like before anyone was really talking about that, and before I even knew about it, but before a lot of people were talking about that, I there was some changes happening, Like I feel like I was right at the cusp of like feeling that, and

then I started to feel into it, and I feel like a lot of people around me started to too. So anyways, life has definitely been testing me. I know it's been testing you guys, especially if you're listening to this right now, and recently the people in my life as well. And I want to talk about that. I want to talk about how you can pass the test,

because we know this is just a test. Come on, if you guys been listening to this podcast for you know, even less than a year, you guys know it's a test, okay, but sometimes you need to be reminded of that. And I want to talk quickly about like a little story that even made me think about this, and I think it will help all of you guys, but even me, it helped me when I was thinking about this.

version of her, of who she used to be. And like I said, she knows this and I know this, but I was basically giving her the advice of remember what is going on right here, okay, And I'm going to explain this the best that I can. And I have to kind of give you two examples because I know there's some people who are very logical and more spiritual, and I am. I think I'm like equally both, okay.

So logically, what's going on here is her family has these like preconceived beliefs and notions about her which is based off of her past. It's real, it's happening, you know, if you have to obviously respond to these things in certain ways, yes, like we're not talking about just you know,

pretending like this doesn't exist, okay. But spiritually, the way that I look at this situation, and a lot of situations, even though some situations require you to be logical and to be rational, I always usually come to these types of conclusions of like, okay, what is a lesson? What's the spiritual lesson from this? And I told her that

it's not really your family. And yes, again logically, yes it is the family, okay, but they are just a physical representation of the essence and the spirit of the

old version of her, okay. And I was trying to tell her because she really wants people to respect her, to respect her boundaries, to have a better life, to have people show up in certain ways and this that, And I said, the way that that's going to happen is if you stop responding to the old version of you, which is reflected in your current life right now in some sort of the way. Whatever thing you don't like

is really just that reflection. Okay, So if you want people to treat you better, if you want people to commit to you, if you want more money, if you want whatever, Da da da da, don't look at the current life circumstance that you're in, in the situations and say I'm not getting what I want because people are still not treating me well or I still haven't seen it show up or this that, and the third life

is testing you right now. Life is literally and this is what I told her too, like specially her, because she's had a lot of tests in her life. We get a lot of tests, even like if it's extreme or not right. It's like should I go to the gym or should I knock go to the gym? Should I go out and get black out drunk? Or should I stay in? Should I text the X or not? Should I continue to spend money or should I get my life together?

new identity. Somebody who identifies as a smoker versus a non smoker, they do different actions, okay, And so if you want new results in your life, you must become a new person. But the new version of you requires you to not respond the same way. And the way that you respond is looking at your current life circumstance and saying, this is literally just an old version of me shining through all people, places, and things right now.

The treatment that I'm currently getting, the disrespect that's happening in my life, the inconsistency with certain things that I've been wanting to have. It really is all just a reflection. It doesn't have to maybe even be you. It could have been like other people playing a role in your life or this that, and you don't have to get mad at yourself for it. We're not sitting here and playing the blame game. But the end of the day,

it's like that's usually what happens. Okay, my current reality sitting here on the podcast Living Downtown tront You know, every single thing is a manifestation of the version of me who stepped into the identity of I get what

I want my life. I'm a podcaster, I'm X, Y and Z. And now my friend was really frustrated because this had been going on for so long and she has been making progress to show these people that, you know, she is better and different and this that, and I think that's when you're right at the tipping point of whether you're going to pass the tests or not, is when you really start to get frustrated and you're like, why me, and it's why is this happening again?

we let it get a lot of the times. It's just so hard for you to like do every proper move so that you don't go to rock bottom, like you're operating out of trauma. You have all these like

mini addictions to things. You have, attachment styles, you also just have like real life that has nothing to do with trauma, and like your interests and how you want to live in your life and your age and this that, Like there's so many things going on that sometimes it's like the things that kind of blow up in your face. Sometimes it's like damn, like I didn't like maybe I saw that coming, but I didn't think it was gonna happen. Like now I thought maybe I was doing a good

enough job this that. So like just don't even get mad at yourself if these things are happening. But I do think that sometimes the best power or like the most potent, I don't know, spiritualness that's not the word, but whatever usually happens around the times where you are really fed up and really annoyed and this that, And I think that I always get really excited sometimes, like

when I feel that, which is crazy. It's like I'm pretty sure I've said this before, but I've had many different like chronic illness and just really crappy circumstances in my life, and I will actually thrive off of being in rock bottom. So anyways, if you can try and access some of that type of energy and use that to push you into doing the opposite of what you've been doing, because I feel like a lot of the things in our life are just requiring us to respond

basically the opposite. You eat like shit, eat better, You keep not going to the gym, go to the gym, You keep not waking up early, wake up early, you keep texting the X. Stop texting the X, like those type of things. But sometimes you need so much energy to do that, so much like knowness about what's been going on and boredom of what's been going on, that shitty circumstance and be like, eh, I'm going to respond

in a completely different way now. What always helps me to respond in a new way, because it is hard, just like I said, to even have that motivation to really push yourself to do the opposite, even though you know what you need to do, you know, like hold a actual boundary or not getting triggered and being reactive to something that is you know in your mind, Yeah, I could react to this, or let me defend myself or let me explain, or let me get mad because

these people don't understand me and they keep disrespecting me.

to slow things down, to come inwards. And honestly, that's what I've been doing the past like week and a half when it comes to people, when it comes to social media, when it comes to even like work things and like projects and to dos, like I have completely just sucked my energy back towards myself because I know that this period of life, with whatever's happening, there's a lot of things moving around. There's a lot of things that I want, and there's a lot of things that.

some time to think. Okay, I feel like we live in a generation where everything is we're stimulated all the time, even if you want to think that you're not the persons that that is stimulated, and like constantly thinking about a million things and consuming things now like even me, I do a good job at it, but still I'm stimulated all the time. I'm also just really interested in a lot of things all of the time, and I am working, Like I have goals, I have things that

I'm trying to do. Okay, So I struggle with like chilling, I really do. It's never been a thing that I've done, you, like never. I know the importance of obviously taking a break in some time, but it's sometimes hard for people who are like that because it's just really like you can't enjoy slowing down because it's like it just doesn't compute in your head, like it's not enjoyable. So why would I, you know what I mean?

and so much change for me. And I feel like sometimes we just think the way that we're gonna have change is like us continuing to force it to happen, or like, what's the next thing that I can do so I can make this thing work, or like what's the next thing, or what's the next gool or what's the next whatever.

It's literally like I feel like we're all very bored right now, and we're bored because it's the same situation that you keep playing out with people you know, and then it gets boring and you want to turn that boredom into like some sort of like emotional like I.

you in the same cycle. But something that really helps me is is like doing this, like I'm gonna bring my energy back to myself. But it's fine, Everything's going to be exactly where I left it. And really I don't mind losing the boring things anyways. And that's another thing. I think you have to be really willing to walk away from certain situations or like certain patterns, which is why sometimes rock bottom works because it like pushes you.

way as like always getting ready every single day. You no longer kind of like look in the mirror like, oh, I look so amazing and beautiful. I mean, maybe you do, and you should no matter what, but I'm just saying in terms of like getting ready and like getting your best outfit on, and like doing your hair and like everything like that, if you do it every single day, you're kind of like, okay, whatever. But if you are not somebody who regularly does that, but then here and

there you do that most of the time. At least for me, I really appreciate it more. I feel like I really look so good because I don't always do my hair or I don't always wear that dress or something like that. But it also personally works for me and living my life, and maybe it doesn't for other people, but it works for me because I feel like I can replenish myself and I don't have to do the same thing over and over and over and over again.

And I benefit from that. But then even as I go out into the world, and let's say, like an example of like getting ready, I also look and feel the absolute best because I've put my best work forward after coming inwards and kind of like working on myself or like whatever. There's so many examples, right, same thing can happen in relationships if you spend every waking day with that man.

loses some it loses something. It loses something for me personally, and I sometimes think it usually loses like something for a man too. I don't know same thing with content, posting every single day, every single day, every single day, if you sometimes lose that hmm, you know, whether like people like look at it as there's a loss or even you and I can bring that to my podcast. I'm pretty sure you guys would be happy if I posted like every day. I mean, some people would, I'm sure.

So it's not really even that, but it's me right. I won't be able to put the best podcast episodes out every single time, and sometimes it's fine sometimes, like you have a career or you have a relationship or something that needs stability. I'm not talking about living every single thing out in life as very cyclical, but I do think that there is beauty and we thrive the best when we leave room for the ebbs and flows of life, and I look at it the way I

look at Sometimes you need to be really logical. Sometimes there's just things that logic will not be able to explain about the world. But it happens, and you either can believe in it because you believe that there's some sort of higher power or there's like some spiritual thing, or you can use your logical mind to just play the victim role and say that there's just no causation.

There's no logical explanation for this thing, so I just must be doomed and there's no answer or this that sometimes you actually need to believe in something bigger than what you see. You just sometimes it just has to be like that. And I think that that's how you really grow and how you really prosper. And I have been somebody who used to be so analytical and so logical and to never really have belief in anything, and

I got into a lot of ruts. I'm not saying that I didn't get to places where I needed to go with logic, but there were some things that I kept just going in circles because logic is not going to do it. So I really do believe if you're spiritual, if you believe, like you have a religion or whatever, I think that everyone does some good with believing in something outside of themselves, because if not, I do find

that you kind of go into those spirals and those things. Anyways, I don't know if I told you guys this, but this is kind of like a think piece. It's not really even like I don't even know really where I'm going with this, but this is just things that I was thinking about this weekend, and also coming back to sometimes life is testing you. I find when life is testing you, that's when you want to come back inwards instead of expanding that energy, instead of doing the same

thing over and over. And I also think when you come back towards yourself and you replenish yourself and you just take a break from the same things that you've been ruminating over or the same damn cycle. Okay, when you take a break, when you're ready to go back out, you're so aligned. Why because you've thought about what you want, You've replenished yourself, whether it's like literally like sleep or rest.

You know, when you do that before you get period things like that, or even when it comes to like relationships, maybe you're walking away from something that doesn't serve you and you're coming back to yourself and you're really thinking about what do I want from a relationship, because clearly what's happening over there is just not it. So usually

we just get so incredibly like aligned. If we spend the time, you know, reflecting and taking it easy and not just suppressing emotions and stuff, we usually come out and you're so dead ass aligned. And that's usually when, especially like post breakup, when you feel really good about yourself, it's because you just came out of that like thinking about what you want, and then you usually find somebody that tends to happen. I don't know, that's happened with

me many, many, many times. But anyways, another thing that is important to do during times where life is trying to test you, when you're bringing your energy towards yourself, is to work on any sort of anger or sadness or even happiness, honestly, jealousy, comparison all of those things, okay, and create space for them, because I feel like a lot of the things that usually play out in our lives are from the result of repressed emotions, and we're

always repressing something. I mean, unless you like do real like deep emotional release practices like day after day and stuff like that, which I don't think is always necessary. You probably have been repressing something and bringing it back to my friend something that I even told her was like, you know what, instead of reacting responding to the old version of you that your family is just kind of like mirroring to you right now, because it's like, what's the point.

that you want to do. Yes, we can do all that, but like first process those emotions, because honestly, the things are not happening in your life that you want to be happening. There are definitely emotions that they're eliciting right now, so you might as well process them because you're just going to be kind of weighing them down. And I think that also really helps you get aligned and when you're ready to kind of like get your energy back and go into the world or like do something new

or different than what you've been doing. You get really aligned because you have released your emotions. You're not moving out of the same person that you were before, and you're really clear about where you want to put your energy and your time with people, places, and things, and sometimes you just need time with yourself. So in order to pass the test, you need to understand that everything is just your mirror and there's no point on responding the same way to the same things if you want

a new result, which is what you want. AKA, you want to pass the test because you know what it means to pass the test. It means it's a new level. It means something new.

see me the way that I act. Oh, by the way, I'm gonna like put this little trend in during mercury retrograde, I become silent. I'm very demure, very mindful. Okay, So you guys need to be silent, radioactive silence, and it's gonna look different for everyone. What do I mean by silence, I don't know. It depends on what you are going through.

to get my period. I don't vlog and I sometimes get an episode out, but usually not. I'm not even posting on my stories right now, just like whatever I need, which will be like promoting this and a few other things, but it just keeping it very demure, okay, and spending a lot of this time, like I said, with my emotions because I feel like we really don't do that enough guys. Like I know we say we do, especially in the like the healing cell development stuff, but it's like,

you know what we do. We do a lot of listening to other people talk about emotions, but actually being with ourselves, we do not actually do to usually hit rock bottom in this that which, you know what, I don't think that you need to be like processing emotions all the time, but like maybe this is a good time for you to actually do that. That is a great thing to do. And I'm also making some big decisions in my life and it needs a lot of room for me to think clearly. So that's what I'm

doing right now. And what else am I doing. I'm making time for things that interest me right now without any like guilt or being like oh my gosh, like I need to do something with this or I don't know. You know, just giving yourself space is the best thing that you can do, and the opposite of not doing that, guys, because if you are having a part of you that's like, oh my god, no, I can't slow down.

my period. It requires me to be more my logical thinking brain and like ready to go motivation and like da da da da. I really do want to talk about productivity and adhd and I was gonna title it something that I forget now but whatever, so it is coming, but it does well. I mean, my logical mind wants to be very logical about it.

I'm at, I can speak on it right away. Like sometimes I get those like logical ones in my mind that I register out right away because I'm in that energy. But if I'm in the like I don't know, spiritualish type of whatever flow and I have that idea, I'm like, can't do it. We're not going to do it, because what I will do usually is I will just be feeling so much resistance, which would make sense because my

body naturally just wants to be flowing. Okay, my body is just naturally just wanting to be more of that spiritual side of me. And then if I try and force myself to talk about something or do something that I don't really feel like doing in that moment, I will sabotage it. And yes, we have to do things we don't like. And I've been really good at like trying to like baseline myself into like making sure that I do the things that I need to do, and

I'm pretty good at that. Being an entrepreneur, but especially being an entrepreneur, you definitely have more pockets where you could be like, nah, I'm not going to do it because I don't feel like it, So you have to be careful. But then also the beauty of this job is that you have room to do that. And if you, in my opinion, kind of do it directly by understanding yourself, you can create some beautiful things and that's a journey and I'm on that journey right now. So anyways, that's it.

subscribe to that channel. It'll be linked down below. Also, I'm pretty sure we hit probably at this point one point four million downloads on the audio side of things, if you are watching on YouTube, we have the podcast on audio and we're almost we're inching up to one point five and that's a lot. Okay, And the reason whym Actually I'm gonna say one more thing and then I'm gonna tell you the reason why I'm saying this. And we hit over fifty thousand followers on Spotify alone. Okay,

so we're hitting numbers. The reason why I'm saying that is because I need you guys to understand that there's that many people wanting and willing and trying to change their lives. That's a lot of people, okay, And I'm proud of you guys like it. It makes me so happy to see because I'm on the journey. Yes, But also I don't know, it's like something about like my younger self. It's not that I like, oh, I see my younger self and all you guys, because some of

you guys are literally older than me. Some of you are wiser than me. Okay, some of you are just like you guys are it's just incredible. But you know, some parts of you guys, I guess remind me of the young version of me. And I look at the young version of me, and I'm very proud of her, Like that girl was doing things that a lot of people were not doing, Okay, mainly because I had to grow up very fast. But that's my story, and I just like, look at you guys like that as well.

Like I know, the journey of working on yourself and glowing up and healing. Depending on your life circumstance, it can be lonely sometimes it can be isolating. It can be if you guys are relating to the things that I'm talking about, it can be hard because you're battling with things, you're in cycles, you're so self aware, you're so sensitive, you're so intellectual, you're so interested in things, you have so many goals, Like there's so many things that I know, Like that's how.

And I think that that is a really good indicator of somebody who's actually very healthy and somebody who is thriving and somebody who can do a lot in this world, which I think a lot of people need to hear that, including me, because I feel like we fall on the side of always thinking that there's something wrong with us and we have to fix it, or there's something wrong and we're trying to fix it, because that's kind of like what people do who are like seekers in a way.

But then there's a part of you who is just a natural seeker, and I think that that's beautiful too. I think that, yes, part of this can be because you have trauma and you're trying to heal and this that.

But for me, I don't know. It's a huge mix of like, yes, I'm interested in this work because I've needed to be, but I have a fascination with psychology and spirituality and the human condition really and I just don't ever see myself stopping being interested in that because I've also even gone times where I wasn't so much deep into self development or healing and I still just like always found my way back and being interested in things.