the friend I needed

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I often feel alone wondering if anyone else is feeling or thinking the same things as me, so I will share my psyche with you so you don’t have to wonder. I want to be unrefined here about mental health so that you can have someone struggling alongside you. while experiencing depression, anxiety, and OCD and being quite analytical, I have a lot of self-reflections, epiphanies, and awareness to share. I want to be a friend to you through the times I really needed one. philosophical thoughts, times of inspiration, the lowest of lows…let’s have genuine conversations while laughing some of it off

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life is supposed to be uncomfortable (unfortunately)

[ep 13] am I too resistant to the natural discomforts of life? is that resistance making my life harder than it needs to be? we all know that mindset is everything…but this is a complicated issue when you take depression and other human pains into consideration because we feel we experience discomfort enough. can we make room in our lives to accept that life is inherently uncomfortable? I think this necessary acceptance can allow us to face the inevitable obstacles and mundaneness of life. moder...

Mar 30, 2024•45 min•Season 1Ep. 13

i'm isolating and I don't care!!!

[ep 12] I’ve been isolating. if you have been too…you shouldn’t feel bad about it. today I’ll share what my isolation has been looking like. being around people I can’t show my full self to is exhausting. I’m over here busy trying to keep my mental afloat which makes it hard to socialize or listen to other people’s unrelatable and relatively ordinary drama. would I prefer to have close ones to be with? of course! but finding good people that understand you is hard, and I don’t have the extra ene...

Feb 29, 2024•35 min•Season 1Ep. 11

what is the meaning of life?

[ep 11] why are we here? why does anything exist? these questions are something that everyone has thought about and some more often than others. not knowing the meaning of life used to drive me into anxious states of panic. fortunately, i’m at a point where I have gathered enough questions, answers, and theories to form some grounding beliefs about life and the universe. today I will be sharing my thoughts to perhaps give you some answers, reaffirm your own beliefs, plant some seeds for new idea...

Feb 05, 2024•1 hr 26 min

i'm tired of perpertually hitting lows - SOC

[ep 10] SOC=stream of conciousness episode. me unfiltered with no episode plan. just speaking my mind in what I can see now in retrospect was an anxiety episode. a night where I am so sick of feeling like shit. I'm trying my best to do better for myself and things go up and up and then I am back at the bottom again. how many times can I hit the bottom and still have the energy to get up? I'll let you into my psyche during this moment. you know why? because when I am going crazy, it would be nice...

Jan 25, 2024•39 min

accept or resist - the 2 option dilemma

[ep 9] we have 2 options in life - to resist what is happening to us or to accept it; I call this the 2 option dilemma. by conceptualizing our nature to toggle between the two of them, I better understand the way I operate. intellectualizing emotions helps to bring a greater sense of calm and control over my life because I am understanding my emotions and nature rather than being overwhelmed by a wave of it. resistance is usually me overwhlemed by the uncomfort of my reality and not wanting to e...

Jan 18, 2024•30 min

"feelers" face ugly truths of reality and cowards hide

[ep 8] reading a journal entry from start to finish - no intro or outro. being in touch with your emotions and thoughts can be perceived as being weak. after minorly opening up to someone about my struggles this person started preaching about discipline and strength of mind. this person is only one of many with the same out-of-touch sentiment I've heard so many times and even had myself once...I think this interaction inspired this journal entry to clarify the part when I say "our life's work is...

Jan 11, 2024•6 min

dealing with a mental disorder diagnosis

[ep 7] receiving a diagnosis can cause a flurry of emotions...fear, embarassment, overwhelm...but you also feel validated and relief. I want to share a little bit of my reaction from my diagnosis with OCD, the thoughts that came to my mind, and how I made myself feel like just another ”normal” human being rather than someone with ”something wrong with them”. what is normal though? no such thing. I also discuss how my diagnosis has been SO good for me and my relationship with my OCD. it kind of f...

Jan 04, 2024•35 min

how can I justify my suffering?

[ep 6] content warning: passive suicidal ideation, existential crises I have a blend of a nihilist, existentialist, and absurdist view on life — overall believing that life has no inherent meaning. I walk a fine line in this belief because when I’m doing well, this life philosophy feels great! but when I am not doing well...I ask myself ”why am I even enduring this suffering if its for NO REASON? it is not necessary for me to be experiencing life as a human being if it is going to be this painfu...

Dec 04, 2023•1 hr 33 min

needing validation amidst loneliness and being our own validator

[ep 5] currently, my life is lacking external sources of validation in the form of school grades, social interactions, career achievements, friendships, and more. I've been feeling a void, like a need for someone to tell me I've been doing a good job or that they see me and appreciate me for the person I am. although, internally, such as emotionally and mentally, I have been making strides...but it is hard to fully believe myself when I say that I am doing impressive work or am doing a good job ...

Nov 12, 2023•1 hr 1 min

grounding by viewing the world in 3D and cosmic insignificance

[ep 4] of course I find myself in an uncomfortable state of mind and am in the mood to just spill my stream of conciousness. my mental jumble actually made me want to talk about how I like to remind myself how small I am in the grand scheme of the universe. I do this thing where I look to the sky and envision our vast world in 3D. I know I know, we all see in 3D...but I think we tend to look at our world at face value or, as I like to think, in 2D. being reminded of our cosmic insignificance can...

Sep 23, 2023•27 min

let yourself FEEL

[ep 3] I woke up this morning feeling extremely frustrated. I woke up with my aggravating chronic neck and back pain. it sucks when you are doing everything you can to help yourself and it just isn’t enough. I wanted to just soak into my frustration and allow myself to feel angry. however, a lot of the time we don’t allow ourselves to ~feel~ freely — we censor ourselves, try to be level headed all the time, or suppress our instincts to channel our emotions. I think that we DO need to take the ti...

Mar 19, 2023•1 hr 4 min

a morning of strong discontentment - SOC

[ep 2] SOC=stream of conciousness episode. it’s honesty hour again. I just woke up and I started scrolling on instagram which triggered uncomfortable feelings of discontentment; feeling like I am bored with my life and wondering ”what am I doing with my life?” I’m sharing my stream of conciousness about comparing my life to other people’s supposed happy and healthy looking lives. also, sharing my general feelings of ”needing to do more” and ”be more”. let’s de-escalate from these uncomfortable t...

Mar 09, 2023•17 min

navigating through a raw moment of existential dread - SOC

[ep 1] content warning: passive suicidal ideation, suicide. SOC=stream of conciousness episode. okay...I'm gonna set out to do what I told myself I was gonna do which is be completely open and transparent here. The reason I don't want to be right now is because I don't wanna send anyone down a rabbit hole or to get in their head. But, I think that if I were on the other end and I had spiraled about a topic...it would be nice to hear someone talk about this exact same topic. I don't think anyone ...

Feb 25, 2023•50 min

intro: what is this podcast about?

this is a podcast I wanted to make to make people feel less alone. I wanna share thoughts and experiences related to mental health as well as just creative ideas I have. I wanna put it all out there so you can have a friend willing to be as vulnerable as you. listen to hear what I want this all to be about and what type of things I am looking forward to share :)

Feb 21, 2023•10 min

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