Send Me a Message! Today has been one of those days—the kind where inspiring and motivated emotions go missing. Which is especially tough when you're in an interview trying to present the best version of yourself. That was today's challenge. But that’s the thing with mental ill health—you don’t always get to pick and choose the good days and the bad. And today was not a good one. Listen as I describe in real-time the feeling of "blergh", the state of being where inspiration, motivation and belie...
Jan 13, 2025•11 min•Ep. 178
Send Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future. Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, and the show on Facebook!...
Jan 10, 2025•21 min•Ep. 177
Send Me a Message! In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast , I dive into the power of anger—not the destructive kind, but the controlled, purposeful anger that drives action and transformation. After years of feeling stuck in a career dead-end, trapped by the grip of anxiety, I have used an old trick to shift my mindset. The key? Getting angry! Angry enough to demand more for myself. I explore how channelling anger can override fear and hesitation, offering the strength to push past self-dou...
Jan 03, 2025•18 min•Ep. 176
Send Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future. Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, and the show on Facebook!...
Dec 31, 2024•17 min•Ep. 175
Send Me a Message! In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast , I take you through my end of year medication review with my psychiatrist. From continuing my taper off certain meds to saying goodbye to others completely, and a revamped approach to managing my ADHD, I share the challenges of finding a balance that works. Tune in as I reflect on the impact of these changes on my mental health, focus, and daily life, and what it all means moving forward! - Follow my journey living with mental illne...
Dec 25, 2024•11 min•Ep. 174
Send Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future. Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, and the show on Facebook!...
Dec 19, 2024•10 min•Ep. 173
Send Me a Message! After 11 months of sobriety, I’ve found myself back at square one. In this episode, I open up about my journey with alcohol, the challenges of staying sober, and the reasons behind my relapse. Despite nearly a year without drinking, I struggled to see the big rewards I had hoped for—a new job, a partner, or tangible signs of improvement. My "deal" with the universe felt unanswered. I discuss life with autism and social anxiety, navigating solo outings like Oasis tribute shows,...
Dec 16, 2024•19 min•Ep. 172
Send Me a Message! In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast , host Elliot Waters reflects on a significant change in his emotional landscape: the flattening of extreme emotions. No more crying in the shower or panic attacks in bed. Stability is the norm—a welcome change—but it’s not all smooth sailing. While life without drastic downturns and hospital trips is a relief, Elliot opens up about the challenges of finding genuine positive emotion amidst this newfound balance. Contentment feels out...
Dec 11, 2024•21 min•Ep. 171
Send Me a Message! In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast , I reflect on a successful two weeks of annual leave. For the first time in years, my car, room, and even the house is all clean—and have stayed that way for over a week! It might sound silly, but those with ADHD will understand this all too well. Not only that, but I also laminated a heap of podcast posters (mindfulness exercise) and put them all around Newcastle! I even looked after our family cat Mabel this week, and everything a...
Dec 02, 2024•16 min•Ep. 170
Send Me a Message! In this powerful and inspiring episode of the Intake Interviews series, I have a chat with Holly, who I am privileged to call a great friend. At just twenty years old, Holly has faced more challenges than many encounter in a lifetime. From periods of grief to homelessness, and the difficulties of managing ADHD, bullying, and developing mental health complexities, her journey is nothing short of extraordinary. Holly’s story is a testament to the enduring human spirit. She has g...
Nov 26, 2024•1 hr 15 min•Ep. 169
Send Me a Message! In the latest instalment of The Dysregulated Podcast ’s "My Therapy Reflections" series, I continue using EMDR and Internal Family Systems Therapy to help uncover the source of my constant anxiety. This session led to the discovery of a new sub-personality: the Cognitive Overthinker —a part of me that’s always on high alert, overanalysing every situation and is driven by anxiety all in an attempt to keep me safe. In this episode, I get to know this part of myself, reflecting o...
Nov 21, 2024•38 min•Ep. 168
Send Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future. Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, and the show on Facebook!...
Nov 20, 2024•14 min•Ep. 167
Send Me a Message! In this episode of The Dysregulated Podcast , I dive into the must-dos to maintain positive mental health. Over the next two weeks, I’m committing to rediscovering and reinforcing the core habits and routines that keep me grounded, focused, and mentally clear. I'm talkin' the basics, but the basics that are so important. Although my fundamentals may seem trivial to some, for those with complex mental health disorders they can be a big challenge. Whether you’re looking for insp...
Nov 15, 2024•22 min•Ep. 166
Send Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future. Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, and the show on Facebook!...
Nov 07, 2024•14 min•Ep. 165
Send Me a Message! In this episode I detail my latest psychiatry appointment, with it being decided to raise my dosage of Vyvanse, with the hopes of further improving my ADHD symptoms. Slow and steady is the key, and I am now back on a dosage I have previously been prescribed after a gradual build up. There are two main issues to keep an eye out for other than effectiveness, that being an increase of anxiety and the potential for intense mood swings. So far, so good. But, I can't find myself fal...
Oct 31, 2024•17 min•Ep. 164
Send Me a Message! In this episode of the My Therapy Reflections series, I dive into my latest telehealth therapy session—a format that has always left me feeling a bit uneasy. Despite the anxiety building up of the previous few days, I fought through and completed the session. The major focus of our discussion? My nagging belief that I'm somehow incompetent, particularly in the context of my ongoing struggle to land a new job. However, much of the session feels like a blur as I was dissociated ...
Oct 22, 2024•10 min•Ep. 163
Send Me a Message! ** Audio issues: some parts glichy ** Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past and continue to influence my future. Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, and the show on Facebook!...
Oct 22, 2024•7 min•Ep. 162
Send Me a Message! Content Warning: This episode includes discussions on substance abuse, mental illness, and motherhood challenges. Listener discretion is advised. This episode also contains explicit material. Stell returns to the show, this time showcasing her renewed positive frame of mind. The interview contrasts sharply with Stell's previous appearance, highlighting how mood shifts can deeply influence our thoughts, words, and actions. With BPD and ADHD in particular, we find that there is ...
Oct 08, 2024•42 min•Ep. 161
Send Me a Message! Medication changes can be tough, but often a revisit to a previous prescription is the best choice. Join me as I recount my latest psychiatrist appointment, where we decided that a stimulant medication, Vyvanse, could be the key to me regaining focus in life and unlocking my potential. I discuss the decision-making process, my history with Vyvanse, and what I'm hoping for this time around. Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, and the show on Face...
Oct 05, 2024•11 min•Ep. 160
Send Me a Message! In this instalment of My Therapy Reflections , I take listeners into the therapy room and uncover two powerful parts of myself: the Inner Critic and the Workaholic. These parts have been working tirelessly for years to protect me, but today I uncover just how much they've been influencing my life. It’s a staggering realisation—understanding that while they were born out of a need to keep me protected, their methods are no longer serving my well-being. Join me as I explore how ...
Sep 26, 2024•14 min•Ep. 159
Send Me a Message! Content Warning: This episode includes discussions on substance abuse, mental illness, and motherhood challenges. Listener discretion is advised. This episode also contains explicit material. In the first episode of the Intake Interviews , host Elliot Waters sits down with an old friend, Estelle, whom they met during DBT group therapy for Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD). Estelle's story is one of resilience and unbelievable strength, as she opens up about her struggles w...
Sep 24, 2024•1 hr 7 min•Ep. 158
Send Me a Message! Welcome to The Dysregulated Podcast and the feature series, the Intake Interviews. In this introductory episode, host Elliot Waters sets the stage for a powerful journey into the world of mental health, through the voices of real people with lived and living experience. The Intake Interviews series dives deep into authentic stories of individuals navigating the challenges of mental illness, offering raw insights into their personal journeys, struggles, and triumphs. These conv...
Sep 24, 2024•6 min•Ep. 157
Send Me a Message! In this episode, I share my first impressions of my new psychiatrist as part of my journey with ADHD. Join me as I discuss the insights I gained, the questions I had, and how this new perspective might shape my understanding of myself and how this developmental disorder affects me every day. Whether you're navigating your own mental health journey or just curious about the process, this episode offers an honest look at the experience of seeking help and the importance of findi...
Sep 20, 2024•17 min•Ep. 156
Send Me a Message! In this episode, I reflect on my time in the psych ward, focusing on a morning meeting that moved me to tears. I’ve known for a while that this episode was coming, and now I’m grateful to share such an intimate and heartfelt experience with you. It was a profound moment of connection between myself and the other patients—one I’ll never forget. Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force o...
Sep 19, 2024•9 min•Ep. 155
Send Me a Message! In this episode, Elliot shares an update on his therapy journey so far. As anticipated, navigating a complex case takes considerable effort, but there's progress! With two therapies being utilised simultaneously, it's a challenging yet rewarding process—and you're invited to join the ride! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are t...
Sep 12, 2024•19 min•Ep. 154
Send Me a Message! I did it! I (somehow) got Oasis tickets for the big reunion tour! But the whole process from announcement to purchase has been one big, imaginary catastrophe. Whether I was successful in getting a ticket or not felt like a life-or-death situation. And I could only see disappointment eventuating. My natural response. Thankfully the hopeful parts of me got me to the front of the queue, with a bit of good luck thrown in. One very significant victory, and we all need wins from tim...
Sep 03, 2024•26 min•Ep. 153
Send Me a Message! In this episode, Elliot takes us through a deeply personal experience of battling depression, recounting four days spent bed-ridden and being unable to face the world. It's a raw and honest look at how mental illness can take over, even for someone who advocates for mental health awareness. Elliot shares some exciting news about the upcoming Intake Interview series, giving listeners a sneak peek into what's in store for the podcast. Tune in for an episode that’s both introspec...
Aug 29, 2024•11 min•Ep. 152
Send Me a Message! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experience is the driving force of this podcast, and through this lens, my stories are told. This is a raw, honest, and authentic account of how multiple psychological disorders have shaped my past, and continue to influence, my future. Please support me and the podcast: https://www.patreon.com/elliotwaters Support the show You can follow me on Instagram: @ elliot.t.waters, an...
Aug 22, 2024•9 min•Ep. 151
Send Me a Message! Hear all about how white-hot emotion has driven me to hyper-fixation. 4.40am in the morning this episode was recorded, after hours of fighting my inner critic, pushing aside my imposter syndrome, stumbling into obsessive loops, a whole lot of catastrophising, freezing and not much sleep! This is pure, unfiltered insight into what my psyche pushes me to do. One helluva work ethic I'll say that! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned alo...
Aug 14, 2024•15 min•Ep. 150
Send Me a Message! In this episode I go back into the Psych ward and tell the story of the biggest turn-around of mental health I've ever seen. Unfortunately, no it didn't involve me, but a fellow patient who was suffering from Schizophrenia. From staying in his room and being mute to presenting and running the morning meetings, his response to medication was nothing short of a miracle! Follow my journey living with mental illness and the hard-fought lessons learned along the way. Lived experien...
Aug 11, 2024•10 min•Ep. 149
