Today we hear from Molly. It’s an intense heart wrenching interview- Molly has her two little girls to her ex partner. She met a man, fell in love and felt like her family was complete. Then one night she was blind sided by the worst thing that could ever happen to your children Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse. For support please check out the following resources. Act For Kids to prevent and treat child abuse and neglect www.actforkids.com.au Blue Knot Foundation for f...
Mar 29, 2021•56 min•Season 3Ep. 10
We’ve all heard of swingers right? What do they actually do? Who are they? My immediate thought is of the cliché - keys in the bowl middle-aged couples now empty nesters, looking for something to enhance the next stage of life. But is this cliché true? What are the rules, what are the boundaries and what’s the reality of being a swinger? Follow Jess and Lawrence on Instagram @oursecretspot and visit their website oursecretspot.com.au . Credits: Joanne Helder - Producer Caleb Jacobs - Music AJ Da...
Mar 22, 2021•51 min•Season 3Ep. 9
Endometriosis affects more than 11% of Australian women. I am one of them. Told I could never have children. Today we speak to another endo warrior. You might know her as reality star Erin from Love Island and I'm a Celebrity Get me Out of Here. But what you don't know is that her body is riddled with the disease. She's had her 16th surgery and lives with chronic pain. Follow Erin on Instagram @erin.alysha . For endometriosis support visit: www.endometriosisaustralia.org www.qendo.org.au Credits...
Mar 15, 2021•41 min•Season 3Ep. 8
Today we are going to hear a complex story of a really toxic love triangle that is fuelled by violence and fear. It's a story that belongs in a Hollywood film, a story of manipulation and at its core is brutal domestic violence. Content warning: This episode contains explicit depictions of domestic violence. For assistance please call 1800 Respect . Credits: Joanne Helder - Producer Caleb Jacobs - Music AJ Davis - Comms Manager Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or...
Mar 08, 2021•57 min•Season 3Ep. 7
The birth of your first child is miraculous, its a moment in time that you will never forget. But what happens if you find out 4 weeks before birth that your child is intersex. You may be thinking right now what does that even mean?In hospital and society we are put in to boxes. When we are born the doctors tick girl or boy- but for many people this isn't the case. This is one mothers story of her experience. It will differ to others in the intersex community or other intersex parents. I ask you...
Mar 01, 2021•44 min•Season 3Ep. 6
Infertility is one of the most challenging things a woman can go through. I’ve been there. My friend Keira and I have been friends for some time and when I became pregnant recently I was incredibly nervous to tell her. Would it change our friendship? Would she be triggered? I knew how jealous I was as friends fell pregnant around me when I was trying so hard to conceive. Keira has a tremendous story of her own, she is brutally honest about her experiences and I thought it could be helpful for ot...
Feb 22, 2021•47 min•Season 3Ep. 5
Are you a slut? Do you know any? What do you think when I say that word? Dirty, sexy, degrading? Can men be sluts? Would you see them the same way? Nadia Bokody - is ready to reclaim the word. To reframe what slut means to us all. Today we look at female empowerment through our sexuality and Nadia is passionate we change the way we see ourselves, our bodies and our sex. This is the realest sex talk you will hear in a long time. Follow Nadia on Instagram: @NadiaBokody Credits: Joanne Helder - Pro...
Feb 15, 2021•47 min•Season 3Ep. 4
Post natal depression - we hear this term a lot. 1 in 5 women will experience it post birth. But what if it was extreme, on the very other end of the spectrum? What if your mental health deteriorated so quickly and dangerously your life and your newborn was at risk of harm or worse? What if you needed to be institutionalized for years, given ECT treatments and every drug imaginable to try and help? This wasn't a "what if" for Taryn, this is her story. Content warning: This episode contains descr...
Feb 08, 2021•51 min•Season 3Ep. 3
Cathy is the epitome of an Aussie battler. She has overcome very difficult odds. She is a survivor. Cathy reached out to me to share her story and how it had been partially covered in a documentary called “Ghost Hunter”. She said there was a lot more to the story and today she shares that with us. Cathy endured sexual trauma as a child, she survived things no one should ever experience. Note: some names have been edited for privacy reasons. Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual ab...
Feb 01, 2021•1 hr 2 min•Season 3Ep. 2
The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. I grew up being taught to sing the Australian anthem with pride. To celebrate Australia Day with a bbq and drinks! But only in the past few years have I understood what Australia Day aka Invasion Day really means for our First Nations people. I’m confused how we can ignore how painful th...
Jan 24, 2021•40 min•Season 3Ep. 1
Zoe shares what's really been going on for her the past few months as well as the episodes that left a lasting impact. Content warning: This episode depicts infant loss and grief. For support please contact Bears of Hope on 1300 11 4673 or Lifeline on 13 11 14. Genetic carrier screening is as easy as an at-home saliva test and results can be back within 3-4 weeks. So, if you want to understand your reproductive risks, head to Eugene’s website www.eugenelabs.com. The first 50 requests from The De...
Dec 21, 2020•31 min•Season 2Ep. 12
Have you heard of Only Fans? Of course you have! And if you haven’t - It’s a platform for sex workers to create their own content on their own terms, it’s kind of like an adult version of Instagram. Anyone can do it. And people will pay. A lot. I found out that some people are making millions and millions a year. I needed to speak to one of the top earners. Who is also a newbie. What it’s like to leave a straight laced job to do this work? Are there regrets, do they feel safe, what’s the weirdes...
Dec 14, 2020•42 min•Season 2Ep. 11
Could you imagine being imprisoned for 12 years for a crime you didn't commit? How would you survive that, how would you survive solitary confinement, survive the other prisoners, survive the injustice? Today I get to speak to Raphael Rowe who did survive. In fact he has gone on to be a great journalist and the host of " Inside the worlds toughest prisons " on Netflix. Content warning: this episode references violence and suicide. If you feel triggered or need someone to talk to contact Lifeline...
Dec 07, 2020•1 hr 3 min•Season 2Ep. 10
Rachael Casella is a mother, a wife, and a friend. She’s also a pioneer for parents when it comes to genetic testing for their unborn children. Rachael has lived through every parents worst nightmare. Somehow through her grief she’s managed to find purpose and fight, and has created incredible opportunity for Australians through Mackenzie's mission. Learn more about MacKenzie's Mission and follow Rachael's journey at mylifeoflove.com . Content warning: This episode depicts infant loss and grief....
Nov 30, 2020•54 min•Season 2Ep. 9
Everyone has heard of the 2010 cult horror film "The Human Centipede" and if you haven't, I’m sure you are googling it now. I remember hearing how it had been banned in some countries and that people were passing out in the cinemas watching it! I was fascinated, over the years I had watched the trailer, too scared to watch the film. It’s plotline- three tourists are sewn together mouth to… end, by a mad surgeon to form one gastric system. And the tagline for the film is… "100% medically accurate...
Nov 23, 2020•50 min•Season 2Ep. 8
Jess named her episode when she reached out to me in an email - that was the subject line. The Overnight Parent. And its true. After Jess found out her mother had suicided she is left to raise her two step siblings. At 23, grieving her mother, Jess was living in another city, in a share house and decides she must take on an overwhelming responsibility and become a parent. How does she do it? And who does she become in the process? Content warning: this episode contains a description of suicide. ...
Nov 16, 2020•47 min•Season 2Ep. 7
Are you a feminist? What about an intersectional feminist? Do you know what it really means? It’s not just hairy armpits and burning bras. Fighting for equal pay. In fact currently we are seeing more and more “white feminism” you may be one of them And not even know it. Today we dive into a deep topic, “intersectional feminism”. Don’t let the big words turn you off. This is a passionate conversation, insightful and one full of shame- especially from me. Be wide awake for this one, it’s going to ...
Nov 09, 2020•53 min•Season 2Ep. 6
Siri Dahl has been in porn since before it was super easy to access online. She has done it all, worked everywhere from Gonzo sets to full blown production. She even left the industry for a while, but her love for sex and making content couldn’t be denied. Her family all know and her boyfriend is sometimes also a co-star. This is an explicit episode, which may get your heart racing. Content warning: The episode is extremely explicit. It contains graphic descriptions of sexual acts. Credits: Joan...
Nov 02, 2020•54 min•Season 2Ep. 5
Heroin as we know is one of the most addictive substances- it generally chews up and spits out its users taking away any chance of living a purposeful life. Kelly reached out to me, she is ready to share her story. She is a high functioning addict, with children, a big corporate job and a house. Kelly's addiction has dominated her life for over 20 years. The secrets, the betrayals, the loneliness- why does she do it? And will she ever stop? Please note her name has been changed for privacy reaso...
Oct 26, 2020•1 hr 1 min•Season 2Ep. 4
The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Mikele is young, beautiful and smart. She is also a bulimic and has been since her early teens. In today's episode, Mikele shares her experience as a First Nations and Maltese woman and the impact her disease has on every area of her life. How it's seen as privileged and a choice, often ...
Oct 19, 2020•42 min•Season 2Ep. 3
The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Cleonie Quayle is a survivor of “the stolen generation”. She was taken as a 4 year old but the government took her away from her family and community and placed in a group home with other children that had been stolen. This is a part of our culture as Australians and it happened not that...
Oct 12, 2020•49 min•Season 2Ep. 2
If I told you there was a man, who said since having his "real dolls" aka sex robots- his life has never been more fulfilled would you believe me? Brick Dollbanger has been living with real dolls for 12 years. He in fact is so deeply immersed in the community that the creators of real doll have asked him to be the sex robot test driver. This episode is mind blowing but you may want to listen to it with earphones in. Content warning. This episode is extremely sexually explicit. Check out Brick's ...
Oct 05, 2020•50 min•Season 2Ep. 1
There have been many questions from you all about my own story/traumas and if I will ever share it. At this point I won’t. The deep isn’t about me. But today I will share a glimpse and that’s because it was a huge gift that The Deep gave me. I am forever changed by this podcast and by this moment you will hear right now. Credits: Joanne Helder - Producer Caleb Jacobs - Music AJ Davis - Comms Manager Please DM us your thoughts and burning questions to @whatsthedeep or head to zoemarshall.com/thed...
Sep 28, 2020•19 min•Season 1Ep. 15
Imagine falling in love with your soul mate, having a child together and living blissfully ever after. Then in one moment life as you know it is decimated. Over. What happens the moments after you live through the worst moment of your life? How do you recover? How do you go on? How do you grieve? For help processing grief, Jo has published Grief - a guided journal . You can also follow Jo on Instagram @jo.betz and at her website jobetz.com.au . Credits: Joanne Helder - Producer Caleb Jacobs - Mu...
Sep 14, 2020•1 hr 25 min•Season 1Ep. 14
Charlie has survived extreme neglect, abuse and cruelty at the hands of his mother. At the age of 12 she dropped him off at a care home and never returned.Charlie was thrown into the foster system like 1000's of other children. Moved 10 times in 8 years. This is his story. Content warning: This episode deals with child abuse and neglect. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 1800. Adults can contact Lifeline on 13 11 14. If you feel moved to donate to children in foster care, p...
Sep 07, 2020•1 hr 2 min•Season 1Ep. 13
Parenthood is hard. Of course there are great parts, rewarding, exciting, loving parts. But a lot of it is terrifying and confronting. What if you knew your child was heavily depressed and was giving suicidal hints? What if you found out the reason for that was because they were incredibly unhappy with the gender they were assigned at birth?What if on the edge of puberty you found out it was no longer possible for them to pretend any longer. They wanted to be the opposite sex. They wanted to tra...
Aug 31, 2020•58 min•Season 1Ep. 12
Sarah Kearns is a cop -you can imagine she’s seen some bad stuff, lots that would shake you to the core. But she took it all in her stride, she loved her job and had been privileged not to have had to deal with anything like she’d seen at work. Until one day whilst 28 weeks pregnant she was faced with the worst news possible. The baby inside her had died. Sarah’s world stopped. This is a story of love, grief and courage and what happens after you find out the worst news ever. Content warning: Th...
Aug 24, 2020•1 hr•Season 1Ep. 11
When I think of the stereotypical psychic I think of a middle aged woman with a crystal ball and flowing clothes, lots of candles and crystals. But David is the opposite, youthful, super intellectual, his last job was working in criminal prosecution. He wears designer labels and hangs out with the cool kids. It's almost jolting to see his gifts in action. Before he worked as a medium psychic he was a sceptic. You can follow David and his predictions on Instagram @davidthemedium or Facebook . Cre...
Aug 17, 2020•56 min•Season 1Ep. 10
What do you know about BDSM? Is it what you have seen in Bollywood films, read about in 50 shades of grey or have you experienced it first hand? Mistress Eva takes us deep inside her dungeon and shares the intimate world of being a mistress. We talk about who these people are that seek her services, how much it costs to worship her and how far she is willing to go to take someone to the edge of their desires. The most shocking part - this isn't "just" Eva's work, she doesn't clock off after a sh...
Aug 10, 2020•58 min•Season 1Ep. 9
Do you recycle? Turn off the tap when you brush your teeth? Maybe you even stopped eating meat to save the planet. What if I said someone is dumpster diving, eating road kill and only has 44 possessions to help save the world? Would it inspire you or freak you out. Rob Greenfield was just like us, but now he is the environmental guru. Rob has dedicated his life to extreme activism and to teach humans how to be better. Find out more about Rob on his website robgreenfield.org . Follow Rob on Youtu...
Aug 03, 2020•38 min•Season 1Ep. 8
