In this episode we will talk about a statement I hear all the time - “But I am totally fine! I am not crazy!” and - in case of PTSD - “I don’t have flashbacks!”. Usually coming from someone who is not totally fine and many with PTSD don’t have flashbacks. Which lead me to come up with a model to explain first how your mental and physical health are connected and how they escalate. We will talk about setting up the model, then how crazy looks like with it and then we end with bad childhood influe...
Apr 01, 2022•7 min•Ep. 121
In this episode we will talk about moving forward in your healing journey - or how to know if you are or not. As in “Am I slowing down because I need to or am I just lazy?” That is a good question that likely many asked themselves - including me. Since pacing and managing your energy is such a crucial point - it is important that we know. First we talk about having the same response, then trigger response despite making progress and about one trigger not moving forward does not mean no progress....
Mar 14, 2022•7 min•Ep. 120
Intro Hello my dears, My name is Johanna, and I welcome you to the Johanna Draconis - The Deconstruction Of C-PTSD podcast. This episode will be something a bit different and we will talk about dealing with hopelessness, helplessness, despair, suffering and anger - in light of the Ukraine Conflict sadly. I had a complete different episode planned, but recent events can’t be ignored and I apologize for my voice in advance. Prelude: The recent situation I will keep it brief, but before we start I ...
Feb 27, 2022•3 min•Ep. 119
In this episode we will talk about what I hinted at last time and as requested - we will go more into detail and talk about dismantling these sort of traumas. The method or tool is - of course - also helpful for any other trauma or situation. It is crucial and can be a game/life changer. So first we will talk about the structure of trauma, then going against the outer defenses and then working towards the core. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraco...
Feb 13, 2022•7 min•Ep. 118
In this episode we will talk about the statement “you just don’t get over something like that” - as I keep running into it and which causes so much harm and can lead to the worst outcomes. It is a topic very close to my heart and connected to this podcast. Therefore it is important we take some time and question this statement - which is long overdue. First we talk about how we reach this sentiment, where it can lead to and then what can help. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120...
Feb 02, 2022•7 min•Ep. 117
In this episode we will talk about kind of one of the things that keep popping up every new year: New years resolutions. Or more precisely we talk about how to make change last. We first get into why people with PTSD struggle to make change happen and then how to make it work. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.com/archive-collection...
Jan 20, 2022•7 min•Ep. 116
In this episode we will talk about a topic that might came up during the holidays: Lagging behind everyone else. It is hard to not compare oneself with the others. Even if we know better than to do that. The heart gets heavy and we are often reminded, that we are behind in our plans. ometimes it seems like the others are running past you and you just seem not to get into gear. Nothing anyone likes to really talk about - it is rather embarrassing and quite a lot of shame involved. So let us break...
Jan 05, 2022•8 min•Ep. 115
Hello my dears, Another year has gone by and it feels like barely any time passed and the whole world changed at the same time. This is the darkest time of the year - for the northern hemisphere at least. For many this is also the most joyous time of the year - the food, the lights, the celebrations or whatever makes the holiday season special for them. But many of who are struggling, be it PTSD or something else, find it often to be the hardest time of the year. Not only is there the long darkn...
Dec 24, 2021•2 min•Ep. 114
In this episode we will talk about something else a bit - we are going through the first steps you can take to find the trigger core and the root of the problem. I try to make it a sort of starting point tutorial. I thought loss was an universal known topic to everyone - so a good start. We start with the why questions regarding missing then with what if questions. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johan...
Dec 11, 2021•7 min•Ep. 113
In this episode we will talk about how your living environment affects you. We talked last week about finding yourself at the bottom again - which is often reflected by our surrounding. Especially our place where we live. And often at rock bottom… is it most likely a mess. Which is why we first talk about how this feedback can turn into a trap and then what you can do about it - be it by yourself or with help from others. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@j...
Nov 29, 2021•7 min•Ep. 112
In this episode we will talk about finding yourself at the bottom again where you never wanted to be again and the shame that is usually part of it and the reluctance to get help in that moment. That is why we first talk about why it is so hard and then things that might help to get out of there. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraconis.co...
Nov 13, 2021•8 min•Ep. 111
In this episode we will talk about once again about feeling nothing regarding a trauma, but this time we talk about what was hinted on before: Why feeling nothing regarding what happened to you is actually a very bad sign. And since so many ignore it and suffer because of that - it is time we cover it. irst we will talk and explain the mechanism and then what you can do and a short “how to start” at the end. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis...
Oct 28, 2021•7 min•Ep. 110
In this episode we will talk about a topic that came up during my time at “live from America Podcast “ last weekend, which turned from therapeutic abuse to a conversation about C-PTSD. We talked - VERY briefly - about what the therapy for PTSD should look like and I feel like I didn’t do it proper justice and wanted to explain it better, because I do think it is very important to clear things up. We first talk about what it should feel like, which type of therapy, then goals of therapy and final...
Oct 15, 2021•7 min•Ep. 109
In this episode we will talk about therapeutic abuse again - this time about the why it is such a problem. Besides the obvious of course, that abuse in general is a problem. But this abuse is taboo, people don’t know what is right and wrong. The reason I picked this topic this time is a rather unusual one: I am going to be on the “live from America Podcast “ where we are going to talk about therapeutic abuse in the episode released next Tuesday on the 5th of October. You can listen to the podcas...
Oct 03, 2021•7 min•Ep. 108
In this episode we will talk about trauma behavior, as it is often confused with triggers. And while they are at times annoying - they are not triggers nor are they are sign of bad health. A side effect of your experiences. But they do cause a lot of confusion, uncertainty and muddy the water. So let us talk about it. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com ...
Sep 22, 2021•7 min•Ep. 107
In this episode we will talk about something that keeps popping up: If that caused my PTSD why don’t I feel strongly about it? This is a good question to ask. As this can lead you down a complete false path and severely sabotage your healing journey. We are looking into two variants of a small trauma activating the big one and then some ways to find the hidden trauma. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@jo...
Sep 09, 2021•7 min•Ep. 106
In this episode we will talk about Introspection, one of the most useful tools you ever get in your life in general - not just for PTSD. It is the same base mechanic EMDR uses and helps you to process anything so much faster and more. So it is VERY useful. We talk first about how to get into it and then how to best use it in regards to PTSD. EMDR studies: https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC6106867/ (overview) https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/27744424/ (Regarding eye movement) Transcript...
Aug 28, 2021•7 min•Ep. 105
In this episode we will talk about a very sobering moment in your healing journey that is sadly also reflected in real life. The question “Was it all for nothing?” is a deeply dark question that can make you very easily very bitter. Or worse. It is one of the key moments in your healing journey, where you can easily get stuck, and one of the hardest and most painful things to open up about. So let us talk about it. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannad...
Aug 20, 2021•7 min•Ep. 104
In this episode we will talk about the question “Why can’t I just be normal again?” - which is something heard throughout the journey - from start to finish - and one of the reasons why people can’t progress on the healing journey. Which is why it so crucial we address it and spill the tea - as the saying goes. So let us talk about it Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.joh...
Aug 10, 2021•6 min•Ep. 103
In this episode we will talk about bad people doing good things, which I know is a complicated and loaded topic on its own, but under our circumstances it turns into a complete mine field. I am talking about the person who causes so much suffering doing good things. Sometimes even great things. It is a taboo we need to talk about, as we have to properly sort it out before we can move on - as conflicting as it can be. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johann...
Aug 03, 2021•7 min•Ep. 102
In this episode we will talk about a topic that is the reason why many don’t seek help or accept they have PTSD or the like. “They were good people”. Sometimes even stating that they have no bad intentions. Sadly, that matters little - only what happened does. So we talk this time, about good people doing bad things and why that doesn’t necessarily makes them bad people or anything less true. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-101-120 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a t...
Jul 23, 2021•7 min•Ep. 101
In this episode we do things a little bit different. With this being the 100th episode, I thought it would be a good time to redo the introduction, as quite a bit has changed since then. We will go chronically from my earliest years to the most recent perspective. I will summarize a lot to keep the size manageable and try to avoid being graphic or anything the like. This should help not to overwhelm people. I have more information in episode 1 and there will be more on the website. Transcript : ...
Jul 11, 2021•13 min•Ep. 100
In this episode we will talk about - bad days. A rather uncomfortable topic and something everyone of us would rather avoid, but sadly is a significant part in your healing journey. It is something we need to be open and honest about, especially with ourselves It is frightening, unsettling and demotivating, which is why we talk today about 5 points to help you hopefully to better deal with bad days. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send ...
Jun 28, 2021•6 min•Ep. 99
In this episode we will talk about a question that I had on my mind ever since I started fighting back against PTSD. Why do people think PTSD can’t be cured? There are though things that keep people from being cured, which is important to know. I have yet to meet a person I thought was a hopeless case on principle. I met a lot of people who were stuck and therefor ended up giving up. Which is understandable but was not necessary. But how do people get stuck and even worse remain stuck? Transcrip...
Jun 17, 2021•7 min•Ep. 98
In this episode we will talk about trauma again, this time about where to separate them and when they are actually belong together. Usually the trauma get separated by the time that passed between them and then what form the trauma took. So we first talk about common vs sporadic and then how different form of abuse result in different form of traumas. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com ...
Jun 06, 2021•6 min•Ep. 97
In this episode we will talk about suicide - focusing on those left behind and the coping with the suicide of another person. It is important as we need to talk about it but it is still often taboo. We first will talk about how PTSD/Depression warps ones sense of reality and then why it is not your fault. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Useful site: https://www.speakingofsuicide.com/ United States National Suicide Prevention Lifeline : ...
May 31, 2021•7 min•Ep. 96
In this episode we will talk about something that is the question at the core of the illness: When does a trauma become PTSD? And when doesn’t it? This also covers why some traumas cause some people PTSD but not others. And this leads us to the factors that determine the size of the trauma, first we get into the factors of the person affected and then the factors of the trauma itself. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Conta...
May 23, 2021•6 min•Ep. 95
In this episode we will talk about something I skimmed over only before - how it comes that trauma take what shape. What factors lead to what kind of trauma (core)? This is mainly so you can identify if what you experienced counts towards trauma and/or for what shape and therefor category it belongs to. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www.johannadraco...
May 14, 2021•7 min•Ep. 94
In this episode we will talk about triggers once again - this time we differentiate between two different kind of triggers and how to identify them and how they can be helpful. Last time I left out that there are different kind of triggers and you should handle them differently. We first get into the emotions trigger and then into the trauma trigger. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com W...
May 05, 2021•6 min•Ep. 93
In this episode we will talk about something that I keep running into: What is the difference between healed and cured? What does it mean to be cured? What are the other stages that lead up to it? We will go through the stages and we start with hidden, then we continue with uncontrolled, contained, healed and - finally - cured. Transcript : www.johannadraconis.com/episode-81-100 Contact : contactme@johannadraconis.com Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadrac...
Apr 25, 2021•7 min•Ep. 92
