Good day, this time we do something slighty different while I work myself back into the rhythm. Would love to hear your feedback. First, I want to thank you for your patience and apologize for the long delay. I really missed you. When I’m referring to the storm I’m talking about the many variants of it - your personal life, your surrounding, the world and naturally everything in between. And - of course - everything is interconnected. How your personal life is will influence how you view the wor...
Jul 08, 2025•15 min•Ep. 177
Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I am slowly coming back. As expected the fight was successful and completely burned me out. But I am FINALLY FREE! Of Torture AND Trauma. This took WAY TOO long. And now more and more falls into place and fully rebuilds me - which is a very energy and time consuming process. For all those reasons I will slowly make my way back. But to ease most of you: This end boss doesn’t seem to appear unless you experienced many years of torture especially as a child...
Dec 24, 2024•2 min
Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I am going shortly into what is going on and why I’m on hiatus. First on social media. I am going to restructure things and have plans and my silly brain decided that means I can’t post anything in the meantime. Second - I have been still dealing with torture - as I seriously underestimated how much it would slow down the closer I got to the early years. Then everything slowed more and more down - which wasn’t surprising given that my life got more and m...
Aug 06, 2024•2 min
Hello my dears! I am Johanna Draconis and I wanted to give this sign of life.Life is kind of on fire right now - thanks to the weather almost also literally - and I need to focus on that. Things should be back to normal soon - and I’m looking forward to that. But since it’s the 4th of July and I know many in my audience will likely suffer, I also wanted to remind that it is okay on some days to have a blackout day. To remove just everything one can from the timetable. So that only the absolute n...
Jul 03, 2024•1 min
In this episode we will talk about being lonely/loneliness and the hole inside that causes all of it. There is a loneliness epidemic that keeps spreading and cause a lot of suffering. But why do we all feel so lonely? What is causing this feeling? And what can we do about it? We first get into lonely/alone, then the hole inside, then how it escalates, then how loneliness spreads and then how to stop it. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode17...
May 22, 2024•23 min•Ep. 176
In this episode we will talk about abuse language - the language that is designed to weaken the victim and used as a weapon by the abuser to maintain and expand their control over the victim. Abuse language is hard to explain if you don’t know the mechanics. We first talk about deniability, then teaching the language, then the slow game and then planting the seeds. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode175 Send us a text Contact: contactme@joh...
Apr 29, 2024•9 min•Ep. 175
In this episode we will talk about flashbacks - the most known symptom of PTSD - and wrongly assumed to be a central requirement for having any form of PTSD. Flashbacks are often referred to something along the lines of “having flashbacks like I have PTSD”. But unlike what many think it is only a severe symptom and not a requirement for PTSD. It is a sign that PTSD is in its more severe stages and needs to be addressed NOW. We first talk about what are flashbacks, then what causes them, then whe...
Apr 13, 2024•8 min•Ep. 174
In this episode we will talk about how abusers keep control over us - even long after we are out of that situation it can still apply. Especially if we were children at the time and we learned this to be “normal”. We need to understand to recognize and unlearn it. We first talk about abuse language, then always on edge, then redefining normal, then always assumed guilty, then sabotaging skills, then sugar and pain and then isolation. https://www.choosingtherapy.com/narcissistic-manipulation-tact...
Apr 01, 2024•8 min•Ep. 173
In this episode we will talk about fate - in particular about the fate of those marked by trauma. Are we bound to be victims or abusers? That is a question I am sure many of you have asked when only these 2 fates seem to be available. But there is more. We first talk about how it starts, then the roadblocks, then the destructive outcomes, then the productive outcomes and then how it ends. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode172 The Quote: Cr...
Mar 17, 2024•8 min•Ep. 172
In this episode we will talk about what a healthy relationship looks like. The perfect relationship depends - of course - on your preferences, life and so much more. That is a science of and on itself. We just focus on a healthy relationship, that has the best chances to last and bring you happiness. We first talk about communication, then respect, then shared values and goals, then conflict, then support and then emotional stability Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://ww...
Mar 04, 2024•8 min•Ep. 171
In this episode we talk about how love is not enough. Though this episode is going to be a bit different again, because - for one - it is something that is so deeply painful and hard to accept - that it is very difficult to talk about it. A deep wound almost all of us share. Some in great - some in lesser extent. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode170 Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www...
Feb 16, 2024•5 min•Ep. 170
In this episode we will talk about building up your support system - especially about solutions until new relationships are possible, which I forgot to address last time and offered just an answer, but not a solution. Your healing progress is a long journey - and good company makes it a lot easier and enjoyable. We first talk about online groups, then online games, then animals and then local groups. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode169 S...
Feb 05, 2024•8 min•Ep. 169
In this episode we will talk about being ready for a healthy relationship - a burning question for most. Which is understandable as a partner is invaluable in life - be it a romantic or platonic partner. We first talk about stable situation, then emotional range, then taking care of others and then the checklist. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode168 Send us a text Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Website: www.johannadraconis.com www...
Jan 19, 2024•8 min•Ep. 168
In this episode we will talk about achieving this new “me” that seems often so far away and some even believe is a myth. Or are you trying to return to your old true self? Both follow the same path that seems to be so hard if not impossible to find. But today we really focus on the steps to take to achieve the new “me” - if you never had a healthy one - or return to your true “me” - if the experience has thrown you off your path. We first talk about changing takes time, then your mental state, t...
Dec 31, 2023•8 min•Ep. 167
In this episode we will talk about emotions once again, but this time about loosing control over them. That can take many forms and is sadly usually a common aspect in dealing with PTSD and also during the healing progress. We first talk about how it makes things harder, then about abusers and healthy people, then why you loose control and then how to better maintain control. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode166 Send us a text Contact: co...
Dec 09, 2023•8 min•Ep. 166
In this episode we will talk about mens mental health. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode165 [1] Suicide fuel/Incel https://incels.wiki/w/Suicidefuel https://www.leedsforlearning.co.uk/Pages/Download/3e2842ed-6270-4d21-9b8f-86eb72f95e98/PageSectionDocuments https://www.adl.org/resources/backgrounder/incels-involuntary-celibates https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC10600567/ [2] "Fathers who actively seek custody obtain either prima...
Nov 19, 2023•8 min•Ep. 165
In this episode we will talk about time and life with the questions “Do I have enough time left” and “Is my life over” - which is something I went through myself and I hear so often. It’s common to get entrapped by it - and finding the answer is hard. We first talk about why do we feel like we are running out of time, then is it too late for me, then what is lost and then where are we running. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode164 Send us ...
Nov 03, 2023•8 min•Ep. 164
In this episode we will talk about feeling like a child and not like an adult - often accompanied by feeling overwhelmed and lost. One of the more general issues, but also an absolute key element on recovering from trauma - especially if it happens in the childhood. Especially if neglect and parentification is involved. We first talk about are there no adults, then why being an adult is important, then why do we still feel like children and then what can we do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis...
Oct 15, 2023•8 min•Ep. 163
In this episode we will talk about how the mind can affect the body - and the other way around. If you keep getting sick or have this weird illness that just won’t go away, then that might be related to PTSD. I can confirm the same - the issues I had disappeared one by one during my healing progress. After years and years of riddling doctors and everyone basically. This is known as psychosomatic and very relevant to PTSD. We first talk about how does it work, then how far does it go, then stress...
Sep 29, 2023•9 min•Ep. 162
In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn’t kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to talk about this for a while since I came across this review of research of Post traumatic growth or PTG where he found that genuine PTG is rare, but illusionary PTG is common. In other words the growth is not real but imagined. Which honestly is in line with my ...
Sep 18, 2023•8 min•Ep. 161
In this episode we will talk about basically the saying “what doesn’t kill you make you stronger” - which I am sure most of you have heard. It is known officially as post traumatic growth - or PTG - but it has mixed opinions. I wanted to talk about this for a while since I came across this review of research of Post traumatic growth or PTG where he found that genuine PTG is rare, but illusionary PTG is common. In other words the growth is not real but imagined. Which honestly is in line with my ...
Sep 10, 2023•8 min•Ep. 161
In this episode we will talk about parents and if they were “good parents” - while there are many ways people define if someone is a good parents or not, we will - of course - focus on the trauma perspective, because it is sadly the root of many evils. The main point of this episode - helping to understand, to find and to resolve past issues. First we talk about covering the basics, then covering emotional and social needs, then what is caring love and then what does it mean to be a good parent ...
Aug 23, 2023•8 min•Ep. 160
In this episode we will talk about being scared or anxious - sometimes both at the same time. Usually it’s a cry for help by your overwhelmed brain. The feeling of fear is a very familiar feeling for those dealing with PTSD and can greatly impact your healing process. We first talk about why fear is a good thing, then the brain is confused, then why the fear is so damaging and then what we can do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode159 Send...
Aug 05, 2023•8 min•Ep. 159
In this episode we will talk about being tired - something basically everyone who deals with PTSD is familiar with it. You feel tired, low on energy or lazy - depending on perspective. But there is a good reason for it and you probably shouldn’t be too hard on yourself. We first talk about how to know it is happening, then where the energy is needed, then what you shouldn’t do and then what we can do. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode158 ...
Jul 20, 2023•9 min•Ep. 158
In this episode we will talk about scars - or in other words - the things that remain. I often say that the experience changes us - like climbing a mountain does, but what do we have to accept as that change and what can we still change after all? Since it’s the 4th of July with a lot of veterans affected, I thought it is a good time to talk about the things that remain and how they affect us. We first talk about things that are not scars but a to do list, then what scars we have to accept remai...
Jul 04, 2023•8 min•Ep. 157
In this episode we will talk about victim blaming: This is sadly a common reality that survivors face - as well victims of all kinds of things and even if anything bad happens to you. Victim blaming means one accuses the victim that their behavior has caused it and therefor they are to be blamed for what happened. We first talk about exceptions, then reasons, then fear and then how to deal with it. Contact: contactme@johannadraconis.com Transcript : https://www.johannadraconis.com/episode156 Sen...
Jun 21, 2023•8 min•Ep. 156
In this episode we will talk about self confidence, feeling unlovable and loneliness. How to be self confident and able to love oneself is integral for a life with happiness and love. This is a continuation from last episode, where we talked about feeling unlovable and lonely. I strongly recommend to listen to it first. These three topics are sort of a chain reaction - you feel unlovable, that causes low self confidence and thats leads to loneliness. But how do we break this cycle? For truly bei...
Jun 04, 2023•7 min•Ep. 155
In this episode we will talk about feeling unlovable and to a part about loneliness - because if you feel unlovable than no matter how many people tell you that they love you - you won’t believe them. A very difficult topic, but also integral for a life with happiness and love.It is - of course - not to point fingers at anyone and call it a day, but to help you understand what happened, where it came from and what you can do. First we get into why feeling unlovable is so devastating, then why it...
May 20, 2023•7 min•Ep. 154
In this episode we will talk about the stage between ball and ring trauma - and therefor PTSD and C-PTSD - the double trauma or macarons trauma. I mentioned before that there seems to be something missing - and now I finally pieced it together. Now the whole set is round and no longer feels incomplete. As mentioned in a past episode - there was no point in making a step called something like a big ball trauma, because that would be the same basically just in significant bigger shape. We go from ...
May 13, 2023•7 min•Ep. 153
In this episode we will talk about how to remove or cut someone out of your life - the universal recommendation seems to be: Avoid contact. But that is sometimes just not an option. So what can we do in that case? How do we cut someone out, that keeps coming up in our everyday life? Keeping as much distance as possible is extremely helpful, but what else can we do? We first talk about the strings that tie us together, then why the brain refuses to let go, then how to cut and then when trauma is ...
Apr 28, 2023•6 min•Ep. 152
