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The Crappy Childhood Fairy Podcast with Anna Runkle

I’m Anna Runkle, also known as the Crappy Childhood Fairy, and I teach people to recognize and heal the symptoms of Childhood PTSD. Welcome to my podcast!I’m not a doctor or therapist; I know about childhood trauma because I lived it, and I discovered a radical approach to healing that focuses first on calming neurological dysregulation, which is common in people who grew up with abuse and neglect. In my podcasts, I teach about dysregulation – how to know if you have it, what it can do to your body, your thinking and your relationships, and what to do to master re-regulation. When I learned this, everything in my life got suddenly easier. I’ll also be teaching you to heal the life problems that so often develop after years of living dysregulated – feeling tired, isolated and unfocused, finding yourself always drawn to unavailable and inappropriate partners, and falling WAY short of your professional potential, for example. The thing about me is, traditional therapies never seemed to help me. When I found techniques that did work, my whole life changed. Only in the past few years has the trauma research caught up to explain why – why the techniques I use worked, why therapy didn’t, and why my healing journey was so unnecessarily long. I’ve been teaching what I learned for more than 20 years now. It started with friends who had noticed the quick and dramatic change in me, and gradually grew by word of mouth. In 2016, I had so many people seeking instruction that I made my first online video, and then an online course, and this is how Crappy Childhood Fairy was born. My techniques and principles are practical yet powerful – an approach anyone can use, whether or not you have access to professional help. In this podcast, I’ll be talking about the master of self-regulation, and teach the tough-love life-lessons that you may not have learned at home – like how to date so that stable love finds you, how to get ahead at work, and how to calm the negative hamster-wheel thoughts that block your ability to connect with other people. Today, almost half a million people follow my work and participate in my training and coaching programs. My mission is to change the paradigm of what’s possible for people like us, and to help you free yourself from the oppression of trauma wounds, and to become your full, happy and real self. I’m glad you’re here! Watch new videos on my YouTube channel every Monday, Wednesday and Friday, and access my videos, courses and free tools at crappychildhoodfairy.com.
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If You See These Early Signs… RUN

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4dTK9xz 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY *** *** SEND A LETTER FOR ANNA TO ANSWER ON YOUTUBE: https://bit.ly/CCF_Letters I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My vide...

Jun 25, 202516 min

5 Shocking Reasons You Shut Down Emotionally (That No One Told You)

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4dTK9xz 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY SEND A LETTER FOR ANNA TO ANSWER ON YOUTUBE: https://bit.ly/CCF_Letters I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are f...

Jun 23, 202524 min

The 4 Uncomfortable Truths About Trauma You NEED To Hear

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4dTK9xz 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is no...

Jun 22, 202518 min

The Truth About Decluttering: What Nobody Tells You (But You Need to Hear)

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4dTK9xz 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is no...

Jun 21, 202518 min

10 Shocking Signs That's NOT LOVE, It's Limerence

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4dTK9xz 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is no...

Jun 19, 202535 min

This IS NOT Love. It’s a Trauma Bond (7 Signs You’re Stuck & How To BREAK Free)

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4kwWz0J 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY *** *** I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this chann...

Jun 18, 202521 min

Here's Why You KEEP Pushing People Away... (Even When You Want Connection)

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4kwWz0J 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY *** *** I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this chann...

Jun 17, 202528 min

STOP Trying to Make People Respect You & DO THIS Instead

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 🔹PRE-ORDER MY NEW BOOK "Connectability": https://bit.ly/4kwWz0J 🔹GET MY BOOK "Re-Regulated" : https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj 🔹VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY *** *** I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this chann...

Jun 16, 202531 min

He Cheated, Lied, and Gaslit Me… So Why Can’t I Leave?

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 I've got lots of info and links for you below. But first, PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is not intended to be a substitute for in-person professional medical advice. It is not intended to replace the services of a therapist, physician, or other qualified...

Jun 11, 202524 min

If Food And Weight Control Your Life You'll Want to Watch THIS

*SUSAN'S QUIZ:: https://www.brightlineeating.com/weight-loss-drugs-and-beyond-susceptibility-quiz-aff-jun25?ref=af---anna37 *SUSAN'S VIDEO SERIES: https://www.brightlineeating.com/weight-loss-drugs-and-beyond-video-invitation-aff-jun25?ref=af---anna71 From Crappy Childhood Fairy 🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 *GET MY BOOK,* "Re-Regulated": https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj VISIT MY WEBSITE: ht...

Jun 10, 202541 min

When NO ONE Heard You as a Kid… HERE’S What It Does to You Now

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 *GET MY BOOK,* "Re-Regulated": https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is not intended to be a substitute for in-person professional medical advice. It is not intended to replace the services of a ther...

Jun 09, 202524 min

#1 Simple Technique To Overcome Fear & Anxiety Quickly

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 *GET MY BOOK,* "Re-Regulated": https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is not intended to be a substitute for in-person professional medical advice. It is not intended to replace the services of a ther...

Jun 07, 202522 min

Surprising Signs You're NOT "Messy"— It's a Trauma Response

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 *GET MY BOOK,* "Re-Regulated": https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is not intended to be a substitute for in-person professional medical advice. It is not intended to replace the services of a ther...

Jun 06, 202512 min

It Took Me 25+ Years To Learn What I'm About To Tell You In 26 Minutes

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 *GET MY BOOK,* "Re-Regulated": https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is not intended to be a substitute for in-person professional medical advice. It is not intended to replace the services of a ther...

Jun 04, 202528 min

12 Super Specific Signs That Your Childhood Was Extremely Damaging

🔴 TAKE THE QUIZ: Signs Early Trauma Is Affecting You Now: http://bit.ly/3GhE65z 🟢 TRY MY FREE COURSE: The Daily Practice: http://bit.ly/3X1BrE0 *GET MY BOOK,* "Re-Regulated": https://bit.ly/4dRI8Sj VISIT MY WEBSITE: http://bit.ly/3CxgkRY *** *** PLEASE READ: I am not a therapist or physician. My videos are for educational purposes only. Information provided on this channel is not intended to be a substitute for in-person professional medical advice. It is not intended to replace the services o...

Jun 03, 202533 min

Why Narcissists Want To Stay FRIENDS After They Break Up With You

When you dated them, it started out AMAZING -- like you were made for each other. But as soon as you got close to them, they started casually bringing up their many “friends” – friends they’d had sex with in the past, friends you had weird feeling were kind of maybe still having sex with them, but you were embarassed to ask. In this video I break down the signs that you've been worn down from a love interest to a source of supply for your narcissistic ex, and what you can do about it! 🟢 GET MY ...

May 26, 20259 min

What Does It Mean Losing Friends Is a Pattern?

If a friend suddenly refuses to speak to you and you don’t understand why, it may be that they were not a good friend in the first place. But if it keeps happening with several friends, the evidence points to something in you – a blind spot, or an unconscious habit of saying or doing something that hurts other people – that pushes people away. In this video, I respond to a letter from a woman who is scared to consider that SHE may be the one who is damaging connections. Do You Struggle to Connec...

May 16, 202528 min

Why You Feel Left Out in Groups (and What to Do About It)

When I started teaching about trauma I never expected that one of my biggest challenges -- feeling like I didn't fit in with other people -- was actually a common trauma symptom. If you have CPTSD or you have trouble feeling connected with others, you’re going to want to see this. Do you have CPTSD? Take the QUIZ: FREE PDF Download: https://bit.ly/3X9MZ7J 🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze Take my FREE Course or Quizzes: https://bit.ly/40M2YeW Enroll in my Courses or Memb...

May 14, 202513 min

Why Some Traumatized People Think Focusing on Trauma Is Stupid

In this video, I respond to an angry comment on my YouTube channel from a woman annoyed that some people appear to accept others' bad behavior, justifying it as "trauma." Hear the comment, and my take on why some people with CPTSD take a hard-ass approach to healing that I call "The Cowboy Response." While she's not very kind, she's not wrong! Do you have CPTSD? Take the QUIZ: FREE PDF Download: https://bit.ly/3X9MZ7J 🟢 Order My New Book, RE-REGULATED: https://bit.ly/4dtGVze Take my FREE Course...

May 12, 202511 min

How to Heal Your Wounded Soul After Trauma (4-Video Compilation)

Healing trauma is more than psychological. It's physical, it's practical -- and here's the part where trauma experts are curiously silent -- it's spiritual. Abuse and neglect are injuries to the spirit, and where we are spiritually injured, a vulnerability opens to further harm from destructive people, and even from our own self-defeating behaviors. This is how the battle between good and evil is waged in our own lives, and in this four-video compilation, I share four of my most popular videos t...

May 11, 20251 hr 10 min

Here's My Story on How I Learned to Help Others Heal Their Trauma Symptoms

I make it VERY clear that I'm not a therapist or doctor, but sometimes viewers ask why I didn't go the route of becoming a therapist, and how I learned to do what I do. In this video, I give the full story on how I recovered from my own Complex PTSD symptoms, and how teaching my method grew from a few people to millions of people over the course of 30 years. My focus is not on childhood or the origins of trauma (this is the special expertise of licensed clinicians). Rather, I focus on practical ...

May 07, 202549 min

Try These Emergency Measures to Re-Regulate Anywhere

Everyone, not just traumatized people, gets dysregulated sometimes. And virtually everyone eventually re-regulates. But if you were traumatized at a young age, it can cause you to get dysregulated more easily than other people, and stay dysregulated longer. How can you do this ON THE SPOT? In this video, I teach you my expanded list of emergency measures to re-regulate. This is super helpful for people with CPTSD, or who need to "act normal" in a stressful situation. Learn Quick Measures to Get ...

May 05, 202517 min

You Hide That You Love Them, and Pretend You’re Their Friend

When you’re into someone but you hide how you really feel, don’t be surprised when the reality of the situation smacks you down. People who were traumatized as kids are particularly vulnerable to this “just friends” behavior. And unhealthy people can detect that in us – the way we see what they just did and -- and how we pretend it didn't affect us. In this video, I respond to a letter from a woman who is getting strung along by a "friend" with JUST enough hope to keep her from leaving. 10 Thing...

May 04, 202548 min

For Healing, Sane Action is More Powerful Than Sad Stories

The stories you tell yourself are an expression of what YOU believe is important about you. And if you're wedding to saying life is never fair, everyone’s terrible, they take advantage of you, you never get a break – this is actually another sign that you might be playing SMALL. It’s something that those of us who had a rough childhood can sometimes get stuck in. And while trauma really happened, we don’t have to stay identified with it. In fact, as long as we keep telling the sad stories and ma...

May 03, 202522 min

Join Me in a FREE Daily Practice Call

The Daily Practice is a set of two techniques -- a specific form of writing, followed by a simple meditation, that I was shown 31 years ago when I was in extreme distress after a series of traumas, and was barely able to function. I teach the techniques in a free online course (you can register for it and learn it in less than an hour -- the link is below), and I lead regular free Zoom calls for people who have learned the techniques to try them with me and others, and then I take questions. Thi...

Apr 28, 20251 hr 10 min

How to Become Emotionally "Sober" (4-video compilation)

People who were abused and neglected as children sometimes struggle to stay emotionally regulated. Part of healing is to learn to self-regulate; this is a skill that, in substance recovery programs, is called "Emotional Sobriety." Is it the same with trauma? In this 4-video compilation, I share four videos where I teach how the wounds of early trauma can leave you prone to lashing out or getting stuck in anger. How can you tell when you're emotionally "intoxicated", and how can people with CPTSD...

Apr 27, 20251 hr 7 min

Self-Differentiation: Interview with Jerry Wise, Family Systems Expert

In this video, I interview fellow YouTuber and Family Systems expert Jerry Wise. He has a deep background in counseling and marriage and family therapy. Now he's on YouTube teaching people how they can separate themselves from the "WiFi" of their families -- this is the pull, the ethos and the nervous system chatter of their family of origin. He teaches about the "family super self," and the "umbilical cord" that connects it to each member of a dysfunctional family. Learn from Jerry how you can ...

Apr 25, 202549 min

Don't Let Mean People Destroy Your Focus (#5 in My "Stop Playing Small" Series)

Just when you think things are going well for you, BAM! Someone criticizes you, you get rejected, or you don't get chosen for an opportunity that meant everything to you. A rush of anger, panic and shame rises up, and next thing you know, you feel like you CAN'T. DO. ANYTHING. You freeze, stuck in procrastination, struggling to stay focused or follow through on plans. This disabling reaction to emotional hurt is a known symptom of CPTSD and a common experience for those of us who grew up with ab...

Apr 23, 202529 min

Some People Have THIS Huge Advantage (#4 In My "Playing Small" Series)

People sometimes use the word “privilege” as an accusation that allows the accuser to feel better than the person they accuse, and even to shame and discredit them. Recently, Dr. Nicole Lepera (@TheHolisticPsychologist) posted an Instagram reel where she pointed out that the ultimate privilege is having a *support system,* and encouraged those of us who grew up neglected to stop comparing ourselves to those who were loved, guided, and helped through life. This is my fourth video in my PLAYING SM...

Apr 22, 202522 min

Childhood Neglect Makes You "Play Small" in Relationships (4-video compilation)

Recognizing your worth after neglect in childhood – where adults literally don’t care for you appropriately, can lead to a kind of emotional “leakiness” where -- even though you’ve created a good life and set goals as an adult, -- you feel disconnected from people when they are close to you. For people with CPTSD, that memory of NOT being cared for can creep into every situation – you feel it with people you date, with friends, you feel it at work or school, and if it’s not healed, it will cause...

Apr 20, 20251 hr 15 min
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