¶ Couples Table Live Stream Podcast
Hello and welcome . My name is Tom and .
I'm Heather .
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For richer or poorer .
In sickness and in health .
Even dressed like pinatas . Pinata If you're listening to the audio version .
Here's what happened okay .
Yeah , I don't know . I walked in the closet and I was like , oh , I can't compete with this .
I was like I don't know what to wear today . I've gone through all the bright things . I got this after Halloween , but I was really sad because we didn't really do anything for Halloween . It was like it just kind of cable- .
Oh , there was a fire . Bird's game yeah .
And then I would just I just like slapped together like wigs and stuff , and I don't even know what I did . But then I was like next year I'm going to do it right . And then I got an Instagram ad for this like really cool pinata costume .
This is a sneak preview , then .
I haven't been able to wear it . It's just been in the closet since the first week after Halloween and I was like you know what I want to do it .
I almost busted out my shark costume .
I know I was going to tell you .
It's just so hot though .
I might do away with the hood , just oh it's good . Yeah Well , I don't know , we'll see . But it's a whole , it's a whole , like I'm going to show you ready . It's a whole situation .
It's head to toe . There it is . Can you just do that in the back ? This whole stream ? Yeah , leave it there it is . If you're listening to the audio only version , I'm sure you could hear the rustling .
It's like so comfy . Yeah , that's a good one , it's good , it's a good costume . There's no reason , I just felt like it .
Except you wanted to demonstrate that you were not feeling insecure .
I like your segue . I like your segue . All right , let's say hi to everybody , or did you already do that ?
Nope .
All right , everybody . So Bailey is here first morning afternoon . All Obs is here . Hello , cain , troubles in the house , real Pell Room . Hello , hello , hello . Everyone is saying hi to everybody . Richard is here . Hi , parker Jennings , homestic , mac Insecurity , I'm your man . Today is going to be an interesting discussion , I think .
Yeah , I'm excited .
No hotlines in the house . What's up ? Rainy Cajun , whoa , charlotte Drew , hello , hello , I'm like out of breath and Regan Matheson says made it . Hi people , I did with Jiggle for two seconds and I'm out of breath , and Michael's here taking an editing break and let's see Wish YouTube .
Oh , cain says Wish YouTube , but just load when streaming starts .
I thought it did .
I feel like it's hit or miss . I feel like I've had both experiences , and the lack of consistency is the worst thing is the hypocrisy . Oh , rym Jam loves a new outfit there we go . And K-Wall Comedy Happy Friday and there we go . Oh , and Charlotte's pointing out Ben has assumed his chair for the live . Yes , and everyone loves your costume too , by the way .
And Cain is asking , though , if you were a pinata , what would be on the inside ?
I guess I would just have to like have candy right Like on the ready , Like the kids would try to hit me yeah , anyone who has a stick is going to try to hit you . If you could somehow have like a pulley system and be suspended from something . Oh my gosh , that'd be funny . I don't know if you saw this comment . I'm going to find it .
Don't put the pop up , pop up , pop up , pop up , pop up , pop up , pop up , pop . This is the music .
Oh .
OK , here we go . Ok , if you haven't heard the coolest thing that happened in our household this past week , Was Tom got COVID . He did , but he's tested negative this morning and we're very excited .
Yeah , that was a fun I can move back into the master bedroom ?
Yes , but the actual cool thing that happened yes , you have to tell them about the , the . What's it called A company video ? Yes , that comes with this .
There's a video on my second channel , tom buck , to check out everything I'm talking about .
I haven't seen it .
I've been posting a lot about this last couple of days , excited about it . As was alluded to there by Pete's , the custom goalie , mask this right here .
Look at this thing , look .
Put it on , there we go , there it is . Look at this amazing it's hard to show all the details .
It , it . I mean look , I feel the vibe , look , I match with the helmet .
I mean , we're both fans of you know super bright colors . I don't want to leave it on and get super sweaty and weird , but yeah , there's all kinds of cool stuff . I talk about it all in the video .
I got the fire birds logo there , we got all kinds of fun things happening here , and this is actually the result of a really cool YouTube story which I didn't tell in the video that I you didn't .
I'm surprised .
So yeah . So what happened was the .
I worked with two people to do this a professional designer , who just who we went through multiple revisions to come up with the design and then a professional painter who painted it , because it's not just painting it Like , as you can see , the mask has lots of parts and ridges and holes and stuff , so it wouldn't be an easy thing to paint anyway , but also
here I can just set it right here . Oh , where'd we go ? We ? had hit all the screens , there we go . But also having a sorry , I'm going to turn on the NDI there we go .
Look at this .
Having a professional painter who . Can you get a blank mask ?
They have to sand it all down , kind of just like refinishing a guitar or even maybe like a car , and then they have to paint it and then they have to refinish it so that it's strong and durable and , can you know , withstand getting hit by pucks and being on the ice and everything and getting wet and sweaty and all that cool stuff
¶ Custom Painted Hockey Goalie Mask
. It's hard to see into these lights , but a lot of the paint is metallic and reflective . We got the audio wavelengths . We got the palm trees they're so cool . We got all these cool like symbols . We got Big Ol Aquabats logo , firebirds logo , precision Basehead initials in a shield On the top .
We have all of the Play , pause , rewind buttons like which was my idea , by the way . I actually kind of forgot about that , got the palm trees because we're , you know , from the area with all the palm trees , yeah , and it's just super cool , so I can set this there and I can switch back to there .
But to tie this into YouTube and the weird world on YouTube , is man , a year , maybe even a year and a half or two years ago , I got a message on Instagram from someone who we were talking about video lights .
I think he had done a studio tour video and he was just asking like hey , what are some of the LED lights that I kind of like showed but didn't really mention in the video ? And we were talking about video lights and that's kind of it .
Then we didn't talk again for like a year or more and then I started posting a bunch of stuff about hockey and he messaged me and he's like hey , you know , we talked a while ago . I don't know if you know this , but I'm a professional designer and my specialty is designing goalie masks .
He's like I would love to work with you to come up with a design , and so we did , and then he sends he works , it's him and a painter , they work together . Then he sends it to the painter who takes the design from digital format and actually makes it happen in a on a physical thing , which is very , very cool and that's a cool YouTube story .
But I didn't want to . The reason I didn't want to share that in my video was I didn't want people to try to like hit them up , like oh hey , could you do me a favor , could you do me like I want ? if you if you want the work done . They are professionals .
It takes a lot of time , effort , energy and years of skill building to get to the point to do something like this . Like it's not a it's usually not a very cheap thing , which is pretty crazy .
I never thought it'd have an actual , like my own custom painted goalie mask , which is amazing , so I got to skate with it for the first time this morning , which is really , really fun nor pucks or anything , but it is super fun .
I cannot wait to wear it in a game and it's just the coolest thing and it definitely needs to be a background piece in the videos . Yeah , Like it can't just be sitting on a shelf in the garage .
I shouldn't have matched with it .
I know you it is , if you wore it . I don't wear it , though , just cause in case there's any germs left . But yeah , you really says a lot about our taste of colors . Yeah , so that was really cool . That has been incredibly exciting . I know if you're , you know if you're just like , oh yeah , he got a painted mask , it's .
It's such a thing , because if it's not something I ever expected and when you do a design , the more complicated the design , the more expensive the masks you have to find artists , find designers and then expect to pay a whole lot of money .
And it's just this weird circumstance of things where , like , Well , it's also like such a symbol of a journey that never , ever thought you go down .
It's so cool and that was was really cool . It was working with a designer to do it . He was very it wasn't just like what's favorite color and I don't know do you like a band or something , but it was literally like Lots of back and forth . Yeah , like , where are you from ? Like tell me , you know it's almost like there's a .
It's like a , it's like that person . Really it's a skill set . I feel like to ask the right questions and to figure out , like preferences , because the person doesn't know , like they can't tell you the info unless you ask the right question .
So it's really cool . And so if you , if you ever watch hockey games pretty much any , any game that would be televised , I'm guessing the goalie would have a customized mask . But especially , of course , like the NHL or the HL level , if you look at the goalie mask there they all have some sort of customization on .
At the pro level they get a new one or two every single year , sometimes even more for , like , special events , and it's really cool .
And if you start looking like some of them are heartfelt , some of them are cool , some are intimidating , some of them are super goofy , like one of the goalies for the Dallas stars , his on Mario Kart theme , like there's really cool stuff . So anyway , that's been incredible .
Anyway , that was very cool and that was a cool thing that happened through YouTube .
Yeah , I know right . I mean , who would have ever predicted ?
I know I was trying to segue .
It was a cool thing that happened through YouTube .
Yeah , but sometimes there's uncool things that happened through YouTube , like when you have insecurities as a creator .
Yes .
So sorry , I'm not as smooth as you .
Nobody could be Segueing into the topic of today's show . We are talking about insecurities , insecurities on YouTube . So one thing I would love to know is you can take that to mean whatever you want and if you've had insecurities and you've dealt with that , I would love and you're willing to share .
I would love to know anything you want to share , anything you felt insecure about via YouTube . But this came up .
How did this come up Between you ?
and I talking .
Yeah .
And we've talked about this a lot .
¶ Reflecting on Criticism and Insecurities
One of the things I learned about myself , I guess like I'll go first right was last year when we were , you know , just sort of reevaluating everything I noticed . Sometimes I would find myself being critical of other YouTubers and other creators , and a part of me Did and does still feel like , well , that critical eye is very important , because I do .
If I don't like something , I want to know why I don't like it and I want because I want to know , I want to understand why I don't like it and also then so I can avoid doing it , gotta want to do the thing that I don't like .
You know , it's kind of like when I was in my teaching credential program , I had a whole class that taught us not to read PowerPoint presentations , like don't just put up a presentation and read the PowerPoint presentation .
And the way that they taught us to do that was by having a class where they put up a PowerPoint presentation and just read it slide , slide , not ironically or sarcastically , but just that was they did , were unaware , and you don't want to do that kind of thing , but a thing I realized Sometimes my criticisms and things felt very valid , but other times , I
think a lot of it came from my own insecurities , which could be also even a little bit of jealousy , or a lot of , a lot of , in a lot of insecurity , and I hate to admit it , but it's kind of true . And you sort of see , you know , you work all these years to get to a certain point .
Where you're at , you see someone who seems like maybe they're they're going better , faster , stronger , you know , than you are , and it's kind of like you feel frustrated and it's sort of okay .
Well , instead of being happy for them or instead of looking at how I can improve I'll , I can just be critical and go like , oh yeah , but that's only because they're doing blah , blah , blah and that's lame . I would never do that . So Right , and it's sort of embarrassing .
I think it's kind of a normal thing to feel , but it's definitely a thing I felt and it was .
It was nice when I realized that , because then I could start getting ahead of it , and when I started seeing things that gave me that feeling , I could sort of step back and go like , okay , is this a me thing , or is there something here that that is like a valid criticism for me to have , and that was a really cool perspective shift yeah , I think it's .
First of all I want to give you . I commend you for getting to the point . I'm sharing that on live stream . I mean not only recognizing that , reflecting on that and then putting it out there into the whole world , like I think that . I think that says . I mean I don't want to say it says a lot about you , because I know A little insecure share .
I know this is who you are .
But I know that this whole journey of you recognizing that I don't know it's an uncomfortable feeling . It makes you feel like you're doing something wrong . You know , going through all that was a process . That's not something that happened overnight , and so I commend you , thank you for for wanting to dig deep , despite the discomfort .
I appreciate that and I'm putting that out there . You know , I think it's important because it's like , yeah , I think a lot of people would look at you and be like , oh , he's got it all figured out .
Oh , no , definitely not . But I want , I wanted to share it because I know , when I felt that way , I felt really bad when I , when I really like , became conscious of it and it sort of was then the thing of like I feel this way , but how does nobody else feel this way ? And it's like I kind of think other people probably do .
And so if I say that I feel that way , maybe other people are like hey , okay , it's normal and it's okay . It doesn't mean that you don't want to try to understand it or whatever . But at least it's not weird . I think I was being critical of something and I can't remember what it is .
And then you were like no , well , that was recent . You were like I don't want to complain , but this thing something's bothering me about whatever , yeah , I can't , I honestly can't remember .
I wish I did remember , but that's what .
I was trying to explain like well there is . It is important to understand why you don't like something .
There was something about content I saw yeah , it was probably on Instagram and I just there was something about it that I didn't like , which to me could be anything , even just from like style , like oh I , you know , I don't like the way this is edited Right .
That's a subjective personal opinion , but at least understanding .
Okay , I don't want to edit things like that because I don't like it .
For this reason , all the way over to this person is pulling a scam and like I really hate that and I don't want to do that . I think all those are very valid criticisms . I remember you do , yeah .
This is no dis , because I don't know who uses this font , but it was on Instagram and it was a podcast clip and I realized I said out loud , like I don't like the captions where it's like one word and or it's a whole sentence but the word that's being spoken is in a different color , and that , that style , that style don't I do that podcast clip , no cuz
you're . I was like , oh , tom does that , which is fine if you do that , if anybody here does that , I'm not saying it's bad , which is why I brought this up , cuz I was like I don't want to , I don't want to Come off as nitpicky or whatever . But then I like what you said , because I I said that I don't like this .
I don't know why , but that style of podcast clip with the captions in that very specific style , became so prevalent , to the point of like that tick tock voice , the tick tock lady voice . Who's like hello , this is a YouTube studio well , great YouTube studio that one . If you use it , great , I'm not dissing it . I don't like it , though .
Right , and it's the same thing with his font , like I don't know . There's just something about it that I think it's just cuz I see it all the time that I , you know , I started to not like it and then I told you , and then I felt bad because I was like , and I'm nitpicking other people's content , I don't want to do that , yeah .
And then you said Well , I don't remember I said the thing about it's important to understand what yes , and I was like , okay , I can draw the line Between , like it doesn't matter whose content this is , it's , it's the style with this . I know there's something about the .
I think we just don't like further where it was like it had been .
The example you showed me was like a bro podcast , like a bro down , like podcast thing whatever I don't want to , but it was the kind of thing where , like there had been , especially in the past couple years , were sort of like you just straight up like misogynistic and you know , weird podcast got really popular .
You could just sort of put any two bros together , have them say anything and you put this on it and it's like oh , preach , profound and that's that .
I'm not judging , I don't want to judge . You know , like , whatever you want to podcast about , you probably podcast . What are we podcast about ?
yeah .
I'm wearing a pinata thing . I'm not going to judge , but I liked what you said because you said it's important to understand like it's not . There is a difference between those same negative comments that we that make us feel uncomfortable as creators that are not helpful , right , and I feel like that could be that I didn't say anything .
But then there's also like just understanding why I don't like that , that style , or you know it's . It's again , I'm not judging . You do you make your own , you make your content , but but I just I your face .
I saw the mail truck drive up and I was like it's gonna happen .
I mean , they're happy . They're very happy , but yeah so anyway , I , I , I think it is important , just like when you see content you like , you're like , oh , that's cool . It's also like , oh , yeah , that's . I don't know , I just don't like that , so I'm not going to learn what not to do is really important and that's it's funny .
So , going back to like talking about my teaching credential program , when I first started like before I was doing teaching before anything , I had to do a ton of observations and so my first person that I observed with was one of my friends who's an amazing teacher still teaches absolutely incredible teacher .
Watch his class you know several times like okay great , he has like a perfect class . You know like he has everything on control and doing everything for years . You know exactly what to do . Then he sent me to like a couple of his friends classes who are also excellent teachers and is like cool .
And then eventually he was like all right , I'm gonna send you Over here . He's like don't be surprised when this teacher is very excited that you're there to observe , because it was someone that no one ever sends anybody to observe .
He started sending me to the notoriously bad teachers and that was like oh , because when I was in the classroom where everything is working , I don't know what's working right , it just looks like why it was . Oh yeah everything here , and then when you go somewhere where it's not working , you're like , oh my god , it because they're not doing this .
This problem is happening . This is happening here , and I actually learn as much , if not even more , by watching the ineffective teacher as I did with the super effective teacher , and so it's kind of the same thing when you learn what you don't like , it can really teach you a lot , sometimes even more than just going . I really like that .
I really like that .
Yeah , and not in a way that's like you know it doesn't have to be about the other person , right exactly right . It's like if you go in the art and go to an art museum , I do this . It's like sometimes I'm like I don't , I don't know why this is taking up so much room in the in the art museum .
In the art museum , okay , literally the last time we went to an art museum , there's a whole corner dedicated to like a digital media art piece and all it was was like the intro to a program .
It's like it was like it was like the basic blender project of blender on a projector and that was the art piece , which Is weird because it's like everyone has access to that when you download the program .
it wasn't a statement on blender either was like someone just use the default .
You know , yeah , very straight , and that so much real estate in the art museum that 15 pieces that sat with me .
Weird because I was like the person who made this knows that what they're doing is very low effort , but they know that people are seeing it , are like whoa , whoa , I guess 3d you made this from scratch . They don't know . It's just free blender with free models that you know how and so now you got a whole wall .
I don't want to judge .
I mean , I'm judge , all right .
Cain says , for a long time was in . For a long time I was in fear , paralysis . Then tried chasing the numbers when local events took my channel off .
Now come to making the videos I want to like serving a very niche audience number will numbers will always be low , but providing a value service for a new screw and have never been happier creating there you go .
that's the personal , the personal side yeah , hey , josh , no , do you ? See , was that time Heather both looking mighty fit these days . Sorry , I can't skip over I know long journey .
He really wanted to read that one .
We've done a lot of work over the past year .
I was super insecure about my knowledge of my setup and equipment . I used to lead an entire project of seeing another cater to it . Better , not anymore . Everyone should have a chance to be heard .
It's crazy , and you're at a point to get . I think about you all the time in terms of like , like . Nobody can do what you do without like .
Right , nobody could . Just an average person couldn't just do what you do . Yeah , I remember trying to learn to play the drums and at first I was like really bad , you have passed the point .
And I remember hitting a point where I was like , okay , even if I don't feel that I'm perfect , or there's way better drummers somebody who's never played the drums can't sit down and do this .
Like this can only be accomplished in practice and experience . There's experience there that's reflected , there's a style , there's you know , and yours is like it's not even like that's a pretty low level .
My example You're like way up Because of the number of reps you put in .
Rymdjam says . I think my biggest insecurity is like why make this video and nobody cares what you think about this thing ? Another big one is imposter syndrome .
Preach , I get both of those . I understand both of those .
It's definitely a process of learning . Michael says I'm insecure because I worry I'm not being personable enough . I call it rolling a 12 for charisma .
I mean this , one of those things my impulse is to say because you're worried about being personable , that means you're going to come across as personable . It's like someone who's like I don't know if I'm going to be a good parent . With the fact that you're worried about it , you're fine .
Same time , feeling took me back from releasing my first solo record years ago . In the end I just said , screw it , I wanted out , I wanted out of the feeling in the beginning . Don't suppose you have advantage . You said , speaking of podcasting . When does the next season of the enthusiasm project start again ?
It's supposed to start let's say supposed to , because it's been a weird week . It's supposed to start first Monday of February , so I'm actually supposed to record it tomorrow .
It's kind of a crazy weekend , though .
It's a crazy weekend .
¶ Video Version Insecurity and Creative Blocks
I also have been like it's video version , video version of people calling it . I am really coming to the realization I don't want to do a video version . There's a million reasons I should and I don't want to .
I'm going to get one thing , and so it was actually earlier today I was thinking I might just call it and not do a video version because , regardless of what would be smart to do for the podcast , I don't enjoy the workflow for that specific podcast .
This is a video podcast and it's completely fine , but that one there's something about it , I think , because it's so personal . I really love being able to sit down and share my thoughts without thinking about cameras and lighting and graphics and editing and all that kind of stuff which would just I found myself not looking forward to recording .
And then , as soon as I thought , well , what if you just don't ? What if you just call it and you don't do a video version , I suddenly was excited about it and so I feel like that might be the right call .
And I was even watching a video from Becky and Chris , like their first video of the new year , and they talked about why haven't we done our podcasts in a while , and they even said we're just going to do audio only because the workflow , and especially now that I want to do video because YouTube is now so podcast compatible , but at the same time , because
YouTube is podcast compatible and can take RSS feeds of audio only podcasts . Maybe I don't need to do the video version to get the YouTube benefits . So anyway , that's what I've been at . Haven't 100% decided , but I really I feel like the video version of my podcast is a should and I don't want to do a should . Amen .
But I legit feel insecure as somebody who talks a lot about podcasting and live streaming and likes this stuff . Why wouldn't you have a video podcast ? It's a . I do feel insecure about that .
I mean , you do . You See , this is the thing If we ? What if I said the same ?
I know all these things , but I'm just telling you how I feel .
If we flipped places . Okay , since a lot of us , myself included , deal with the just overall insecurity which I feel , like there's many reasons , even for me . I can't tell you how many times in the past two weeks I have started a vlog and not finished and I keep asking myself why do I not finish ?
Why some days I finished and then other days I don't finish and I don't know . Because I know that fatigue is not . I feel like that's an excuse , because there have been days where I've four hours of sleep . I've still made a video , so obviously that's not the reason , but I was doing some bedtime reading .
This is a mandatory book for anyone who is a content creator or any kind of creative anything . It's called the Creative Act . We've talked about it on the couple of days before . It's by Rick Rubin , but there's a chapter that I happened to just open up to yesterday and it's called the Abundant Mindset .
I honestly would read the whole thing , but you can literally turn to any page and just read any line and it's like relevant .
But I feel like this . I'm just going to read like one thing about it . Okay , so a river of material flows through us . When we share our works and our ideas , they are replenished . If we block the flow by holding them all inside , the river cannot run and new ideas are slow to appear . In the Abundant Mindset , the river never runs dry .
Ideas are always coming through and an artist is free to release them with the faith that more will arrive . Let's see , in the Abundant World , we have a greater capacity to complete and release our work . When there are so many ideas available and so much great art to make , we are compelled to engage , let go and move forward .
The recognition of abundance fills us with hope that our brightest ideas still await us and our greatest work is yet to come . We're able to live in an energized state of creative momentum , free to make things . Let them go , make the next thing and let it go .
And with each chapter we make , we gain experience , improve our craft and inch closer to who we are . And I really like that , because I don't know what my block is . I think part of it is who the heck is going to want to watch this , or I'm kind of tired , so whatever I'm going to make is probably going to be blocked anyway .
So it's not even why bother that kind of sentiment , but going off of that feeling like there's ideas all around .
The other thing I've been thinking about lately is you are the only person who can make whatever you're going to make , even if you think it's blah , and the fact that you're the instrument taking all of your ideas , experience , style , personality , perspective , voice , whatever your individuality and creating whatever it is that you do create .
That's you sharing your gift with the world . You are putting it out there and the more that you do it , it's like the more that you're sharing your gift . And I like that approach because it takes it . It's like we're not even talking about numbers anymore . We're not talking about views , subscriber count . I'm the only one who can make this video .
Even it doesn't matter what I think about it . I'm the only person who can make it . And isn't that worthwhile enough to put it out there , even if it does have an impact on a single person , because that would not have happened if you had not created that video ? I just want to hang out in that thought .
I think that's a good place to hang out in . I like that a lot .
I'm going to need reminding though .
I mean , it's a thing too , your vlogs . If there's something you need to do , whether it's make a vlog or I don't know , called someone to make an appointment , whatever , and it just keeps moving from day to day on the to-do list and never gets done , there's usually a reason . Why is there this block ? Why am I not ?
What do I not want to deal with that this is bringing up and it's usually something .
Yeah , there's another line in this chapter that says it's dispiriting to complete and share a work you've lost connection with . So this is approaching it from like you're spending two years on a single video . You've probably disconnected .
Or I would imagine too , if you think about , I had versions of this when I would sometimes be scheduled so far out in advance that a video- yes , you're not even that person anymore . Yeah , there have been a couple of times where I would release a video that was made like three months before because it just kept getting pushed .
It was at the end of the thing . It kept getting pushed , the topic was still relevant , but by the time the video came out I was like , wait , I don't even though it's a good video .
I don't remember . You make studio upgrades .
Yeah , the studio doesn't look like this anymore , like what is happening , and , yeah , I didn't feel the same connection as when it's like here's what I just finished putting my heart and soul into .
Audio hotline says finding line between criticism and jealousy is tough . I've definitely caught myself being critical when in reality I was jealous .
It's very tough to recognize .
Yeah level up with Mike . I'm insecure because I'm not Banjir or Tom Buck and I love doing gear reviews . How can you ever measure up ? Great quality content I feel is much better than mine , so why bother ?
I feel the same insecurity because I'm not Banjir , I'm not Gerald Undone , and so it's like I don't . I can only think I can only compare to you guys like you , bart Tom is my biggest , but I feel exactly the same way , and I feel like all I can think of sometimes is what this video is missing .
And then what I tell myself is you know , if I'm making a video about something that someone like Gerald or Banjir has already covered ? They kind of already did all the , they did the hard part right , like they covered all the in-depth Right , that's been your thing lately .
I feel like Tech stuff , so I can just refer people to their video and talk about it . How I want to talk about , which , for me , is so much less about like , let me tell you every feature , every performance thing , every nitpick , and more about contextualization , which is here's why I'm interested in this . Here's how I use this .
I might be completely ignoring I've had my Roadcaster Pro 2 for almost two years at this point , since before it was officially released . There's features in that that I've never used and never will use . Does that mean like I don't know anything about it or shouldn't have it ?
No , I think of like Adobe Photoshop , because it's such a big program and people use it in such different ways . Literally no one , including the people who make the program , knows everything about every part of it , and that doesn't mean anyone has a lack of knowledge . It just means like it works differently for different people .
And I think just contextualizing , then don't make the audience expect , at least in my mind . Don't make them expect like this is a full in depth super , all the knowledge . But this is what I think about this thing and that's going to be perfectly valid enough , right there .
¶ Overcoming Insecurities in Content Creation
I want to copy says if you don't want to do a video , don't do video . Keep it fun for yourself , so you enjoy it .
Yeah , there's definitely , I definitely a lot of videos . I'm like I feel like I should make a video about that , but I don't want to .
Charlotte says I should do an audio podcast , but the idea makes me raging . Maybe .
I'll do a video podcast and say see my work , so we do . Well , that's what we do for this show .
And you're still trying to get the confidence to post my first content , even typing hello , and this message makes me feel insecure . Oh , I'm glad you did it .
I'm glad you put the message out there .
Yes , If it's your first content ever , what I would say is just like do that . Do something like the 10 day tackle .
The 10 day tackles a challenge that I did and had people join , which was basically like make 10 videos in 10 days , like one video per day for 10 days , because I feel like as a super beginner , a lot like you can very easily talk yourself out , but when you do the 10 day , then like you'll have a whole set of new questions and ways of looking at it .
You'll solve problems yeah .
A lot of it is like just the doing something new for the first time , like even us playing hockey was like I was so scared yeah , I was so scared for our first class . It's just a lot of like that discomfort .
I'm not invalidating how you feel . Yeah , I mean , the hockey thing is a good example , especially if someone was never involved in sports and it seemed like everyone knows what they're doing . I remember before , like the first class , trying to like sneak in the locker room early when things were closed just to see like where's the locker ?
room .
How does it ? Okay ? Where does it work ? Where do I put my stuff ? All this which I felt really dumb about , and you know , of course . Then show up on the first day and everyone knows what they're doing , and then you know months later . I'm talking to people who are awesome and super good players and seem like lifelong athletes .
They said the exact same thing where they're like oh my God , I had to come in here on like a public skate and sneak into the back so I could find the locker room and I was like , oh , everybody feels the same way , it doesn't ?
Everyone feels like , if you're definitely at the beginning , I think all of us probably had to make a couple of videos before that first one actually got published . So Mike says . Another insecurity is how other channels can crank out videos weekly and it takes me two weeks to make a video that I'm comfortable releasing .
Yeah , it's so hard to look at . You know , and I know you don't know what other you know do they ? Have an editor ? Do they have a full time job or not ? Like what is the situation that allows people to make what they make so often and what's their workflow and how they come with ideas ?
But yeah . It's hard because it's like , obviously , like when we're all alone in our heads , like we will focus on . I think it's human nature for your body , your mind , to protect you from what it thinks is danger , right , so , like , if you know , I think it's natural for you to suspect and like , compare and feel bad or whatever .
But if you can rationalize , like there are people who are on a slower publishing schedule and doing it fine , you know , like you can choose what to focus on . But it's like having to check yourself and obviously this is easier said when it's a third party and not you .
It's always easier to tell someone else what to do .
But it's also recognizing like , okay , this is a human , like a natural human instinct , that's , you know , trying to protect you , but it's like there's no danger , bro , I don't know . Okay , tom is an avid listener of your podcast . I want to say audio is just fine , bro , I'm there for Tom , Thank you .
Well , boost my consistency was hosting scheduled live streams . Promising people will be there is a great way to keep on track . Ever since I stopped my live streams , man , I have not been consistent .
Yeah .
So yes , oh , that's cute . Audio hotline says Mike , you make great content , dude , I was just watching you the other day and your knowledge and experience is very valuable . You're an amazing addition to the audio community . There you go .
Yeah , and it gets kind of that same thing . The fact that you're worried about not providing enough value , not having enough info , probably means you're going above and beyond because you care about that , whereas you know other people really do . There are people out there who do just want to make a video to get the ad revenue .
Couldn't care less really what's in the video , or fill in a sponsor segment or something , and they'll just read whatever , do whatever , no real thought about how it will serve the audience . And so , even if you feel your stuff is imperfect , the care that does go into it makes it genuinely outstanding and it's your own thing .
And at some point , if not already , there will be people who are like I can't do what Mike does , I shouldn't .
But also like another thing that I've learned with YouTube is that it's so big that you actually might , because you do it your way and you have your unique perspective , you actually might be the gateway to your niche , yeah , which is .
I know that's weird , but like there's so many people who go to my tutorial channel and it's like their first tutorial about YouTube that they're watching and it's mine , it's like dude , there's so many . How did you find ?
that you never know who's going to die with your personality , your style , whatever , yeah , I definitely get that a lot Like oh I , you know there's a lot of YouTube , you know tutorial content , but I come to you because I like the way that you explain things you know , so it's like just keep doing . It's not even about just the info .
It's so much about the person . Yeah , the style .
Hazan , one of the reasons I haven't made a video in months is the insecurity of why people would watch my video and comparing myself with others in the niche .
That seems to be such the common one .
I think it's everybody . Why would anyone watch ?
Yeah , I think that's very normal . I'm not trying . I'm not trying . I don't want to get into like let's solve everybody's insecurity . I'm trying to reassure .
Yeah , we all feel that reassure . Oh , photoshop and illustrators , they're both huge , yeah , you can't learn you .
I mean , I've used Photoshop for over 20 years and there's stuff from like you could do that . And that's even not even considering all the ways it's constantly updating and growing .
Room Jam Tom . That is why I value your videos a lot . Your videos , from my perspective , are more practical problem solutions or creative ways to use a tool versus a spec sheet .
Thank you . That means a lot , because that's what I'm trying to do . I don't I really don't want to be the spec sheet person . That's like you just go to the manufacturer's website . It's going to be more accurate than me anyway .
Oh sorry , Reagan , Did I ? I missed his comment . Oh no , I'm not ignoring you , I promise .
We just get flooded with so much .
Let's see Hasan . As much as I love live streams , mostly to see what the setup looks like , 90% of the time I'm just listening to the video podcast while doing chores , so video podcasts are not worth it that much .
I mean , it's like this one is fine .
I relisten to ours at the gym , so I'm definitely not watching . Yeah .
I mean , and that's the key , who's going to sit and stare at an essentially static shot for 50 minutes or 60 minutes . But for mine it goes into the mindset of making the show , and for me I just have a very different mindset when it's oh , here I found all your stuff just doing audio versus adding in the thing of video .
I'm going to highlight you , Reagan , because I skipped you there we go that outfit Just give a nice compliment on that outfit . I know and I just skipped it . Sorry , reagan .
Kind words That'll show to be kind .
Melanie's here . Hey , melanie , good seeing you yeah .
And there's there's . There's a thing I've noticed , so here's I'll share another one security , okay , okay . Or something that I've been able to catch myself with .
Okay .
Sometimes I in the past have , you know , paid attention to the size of other channels .
Okay , I believe all of us have yes .
But okay , yes , and if there's , you know , you kind of you sometimes sort of have like a group or a peer group or almost like a class of like .
Okay , creators started kind of growing at the same time and sometimes people you know go ahead , fall behind like whatever , a cohort , a little bit an unofficial cohort , and I noticed there's sometimes where , like I in in the past , I have looked at people's channels and thought like I hope they're not too far ahead of me . Oh , and that's not good .
I don't want . I don't want to feel that way and I also definitely don't want to feel like , oh good , I'm a little further ahead . I don't want that feeling .
And so what I started doing was catching myself , because I'm curious a lot of times when there's someone that I haven't checked in on a while or I think , oh man , they had this video that really exploded Like how did , how are they doing ? And I want to check their channel .
I want to make sure , before I go to anybody's channel homepage , that I only want to be happy for them . I'm either just curious or I want to be happy , like how big is it ? I found a channel yesterday where the video was like unreal production value and it was the guy's first video on a channel with like 2000 subscribers .
Obviously he had audio video production experience , because all the comments are like can't believe this is a first video . I was like obviously first video on this channel , but it's definitely not the guy's first video . But you know that I was kind of shocked . I was watching the video , it was so good . I was like obviously this must be a new channel .
I haven't seen that has like a million subscribers . Definitely wasn't , and that's kind of fun . And I want to check people and go like , oh my gosh , they hit 100,000 . They hit 10,000 . That's awesome . Like I want to check somebody's channel to feel happy for them and excited for them , not to feel jealous or insecure .
And so if I find myself going to click on a channel , every time before I clap , click on anybody's channel , I think why am I doing this ?
And there are times where I realize it's it's out of insecurity or jealousy and then I just don't check it , I'm not going to look at it , and they're , fortunately , I'm happy to say , most of the time I go okay , it's for a good reason . I want to check their channel , but I don't know . That was just another thing .
Another thing I commend you on for recognizing and sharing . I think that's a big one . Because I think it's a big one , because it's a hard one to admit .
It is . And there's a thing too , like hitting the 100,000 milestone was unreal and I I still can't believe that happened . And there were , like several friend channels around me that kind of hit it around the same time , either a little before or a little bit after , and some of them Really kept going yeah . It's not even close . It was hard .
I initially felt like . After doing that , I was like okay , I don't think I need to ever check . This is a milestone I didn't ever expect to hit . Anything else from here is just icing on the cake .
I don't even pay attention to it .
But it's hard to . Just when you're not even thinking about it , those thoughts creep in that you're like oh , then I'm just admitting what a terrible person You're not terrible .
There are times where I have in the past , where I like to say in the past because I feel I've gotten a lot better about this , but where I would go like , okay , here's someone , their channel grew twice the size of mine in half the time , or whatever . Let me look at their total views .
Oh , their total views are half mine , and then I feel like I don't want to feel that way . I don't want to feel that way . I want to be very excited for somebody . I want to . Somebody else's victory is not your loss or your defeat .
Say it for the people in the back .
Their success , especially on you . It's not them or me . It's not me or you .
That's the thing about YouTube is like it's not this selective pool of this many people and they only have this much attention , so it's like we're all taking from the same pool . No , I bet all of us that are creating content have unique viewers that have never seen any of our other , any of your content or your content .
It's like YouTube is big enough , there's so much to go around , and someone else's like when does it mean that like has no bearing on your channel whatsoever ?
It's not related and it's . I think , it's natural because , as a human , you want to , it's the same thing of like if I make more videos and want the channel grow more , and then sometimes it doesn't , and then there's channels who publish like .
Mike said channels who publish one video a month or something and they blow up and it's like it makes you feel like you're doing it wrong as a human you want to . You know , okay , I work this many hours , I make this much money . If I work twice as many hours , I make twice as much money . Like you kind of like these concrete connections between things .
And so you look at , okay , my channel is doing this . A channel of similar size should be , you know , comparable in some way , but they're not even in the same niche , they're just not and just sort of recognizing that everybody's their own journey and their own , their totally own experience , and it has no bearing positive or negative on you .
I think it's very important , yeah .
Mike says thanks for this
¶ Supporting Each Other in Content Creation
episode . One thing I realized how much it helps to support each other than let a competitive spirit rip each other apart . I love this community , reagan says . When I think about it , content creator lifestyle is insecurity built in so deep it's like the inevitable byproduct .
Yeah , it's so weird , you're just grasping for like you know , I think it's a very strange thing to be a content creator and it's so new and it's I mean , I was just listening to a podcast , the new episode of criminal that it was like just 50 years ago .
The idea of the new American woman like this is what she looks like , and this is what she likes and this is her lifestyle and like we now , every woman has to like , aspire to slim cigarettes ?
Yeah , carbatele fins .
It's like it's crazy that that we just , you know , in the same lifetime we can all be our unique selves and , like I think we can all agree that you know , there there isn't one like perfect American woman or like type . You know what I mean .
And it's like , I think , because YouTube is so new , people are going to are going to do what people do , which is go into it with these kinds of things , and I'm glad that you know . I'm glad that we're having this conversation . I'm glad that I feel like YouTube overall and content creation overall are having these conversations .
I think it's getting a lot better . But yeah , there's no prep for this . There's no prep . There's no like you know , how do you come in Unless you ? You know , I don't know , your parents were like Hollywood actors or something , already kind of bracing yourself for everything to come you know it's , it's , it's tough .
But I didn't know . I have noticed , since I had I started realizing a lot of these things last year , like in the spring and summertime , and since doing that and since trying to like identify that and , you know , tamp it down and not let it dictate stuff , it has been really cool .
So a very cool byproduct of that is being able to then celebrate the wins of others , like almost as if they're my own , like with the same excitement , and that feels so much better , yeah , and it's also like it's also like that that person's success is like a proof of concept .
You know , like it's a win for the space . You know it's a win for YouTube creators overall . Like it's like you don't know how that's also going to , how that is also affecting like the platform . And you know , I don't know , it's just .
Well , it's just . It's just seeing something where it's like someone that I'm rooting for had something positive happen , and feeling happy about that . Yeah , it's a good feeling , it is yeah .
Yeah , it's hard though , because I can see how you know it's like saying like you know . It's like telling a depressed person just like be happy . Yeah , I mean it's not something like I know it's not as easy as just like I mean it is and it isn't . You know it's like yeah , it is a choice to be happy , but it's hard sometimes . Yeah .
It's also not .
You know , Ab says Heather , you're so right , Thanks for giving Tom his flowers , even though he doesn't want to take them . Someone else's success doesn't mean you won't have success .
Right .
Yeah , audio hotline . Definitely having support of similar creators is absolutely essential . I would probably go crazy without talking to other audio channels . Ab says this woman will never wear a dress . Your win is our win . It's a win for everybody .
Yeah , Rising tide lifts all ships right .
That all ships ride the tide .
Yeah . I've never heard it said that way . Rising tide lifts all ships .
All ships rise with the tide .
I've never heard it said that way . Really , I'm excited for your , I'm happy for you .
My word of the year is abundance , abundance , abundance . And I want to just like . There's an abundance of ideas , there's an abundance of people whose content , no , there's abundance of . You know there's viewers who would benefit from watching your content . Would you know , be positively impacted by your content ?
And even if it's just that one person , but it like changes your lives . That's what I want to focus on . You know You're going to do a dance , so work on progress .
She's going to do the abundance Wow . I didn't mean to undercut this really meaningful point that you just made .
I really didn't know where you were . I thought you were at abundance dance and I was going to do the dance , and then , as I , you caught me with .
All right , You're just . I like that . All ships rise with the tide .
Okay , there you go .
That's true . Either way is fine , oh man . Well , I'm trying to think of my insecurities .
What do you even talk about yours ?
We just talked about a horrible person . I am for like 15 minutes .
I mean because you know what , honestly , like my insecurities , like lately , are . It's not even I was . I was so far low that it's not even other people . I can't even like look at other people because I'm so much in my own way that I can't even I'm not even there , like once I'm standing I'm probably .
I could probably like look at what other people are doing , feel bad about that .
But right now I just feel bad about myself .
I look forward to that I'm getting . I'm getting better , but yeah , it's like so . I haven't told anybody this yet , except for Tom . But for February I'm doing a thing called full out February , which is basically just my mantra for February . But I just want to go full out . I want to create to my maximum potential .
I want to feel like I'm creating at my best and like just being my best as a person . Overall , I'm going full out . I don't know what that means , but I'm excited about it .
You know like I don't know if that's like a vlog every day or trying my , you know trying to make Instagram reels or whatever , but I know that I'm the biggest block and I don't know . I think the insecurity does come down to this .
I don't have anything worth sharing , which sucks Cause my whole mission , my whole thing was like everyone has a story worth sharing . And I got to the point where it's like this is worth sharing , bro , Like this is boring or why or whatever , and it's like I know that all of us , if we got into a room and now we're frozen , so that's cute .
As long as you can still hear us .
Hello . Oh , why are we stuck ?
I was just . I was literally just thinking wow , isn't it cool that the internet has held up this whole time ?
It's cause you had that thought .
Cause I had that thought . I don't know . I feel insecure about my thoughts .
I don't know . I don't know , we're stuck . I don't remember what my thought was . Now it's an audio only podcast .
You're talking about full out February and you wanted to get out of your own way and you know you felt a way that was contradictory to the thing that you preached to others , the whole mission statement that everybody has a story worth sharing .
Yeah , yes .
I don't know . Yeah , we're just screwed . I just like I think , like um , I'm pretty sure I'm Okay , you still hear us , so we're frozen , okay . Okay so we're just going to end like this , or we're going to end with this , but yeah , okay . If you can hear us , let's just finish up the audio is still going .
If you want to join me in full up February and just like we're all just going to support each other and go full out , and just like we're I just want to do . I want to create where I'm not . I'm going so fast . I can't even second guess . I'm going so fast . I can't even look at what everyone else is doing .
There's an abundance of ideas and I want to make them all . That's my thing .
I like that . There's an abundance of ideas and I want to make them all . It's like a channel slogan .
Yeah , you know what I mean .
Like let's go , heather , just create there's an abundance of ideas and I want to make them all .
Yeah , yeah , and I just it's like you're going too fast or blur . Oh , that's scary All right , Tom , I got to say I think we are kind of similar except for YouTube success , but we are too hard on ourselves .
I think a common thing probably between most of us in this chat is we're probably too , hard on ourselves .
Melanie says now I feel insecure about my thoughts .
Okay , so they can hear you . They can hear it oh .
I'm sure the best .
Yay , and then hopefully it doesn't leave to melt down . March and antisocial label yeah , hopefully not .
Sorry for that . I don't know what happened .
Well , I'm noticing we're frozen in E cam , so I'm wondering if it's like the cam link doing something or but I get like can't even change the camera in E cam .
Like how do I do that it ?
seems that we're just troubleshooting live , but I know , but it's fun .
Something's going on in E cam . Oh K-Wap comedy is full up for February . I love it . I'm doing community theater production and I'd love to blog it and blog it .
Blog and blog it .
Blog and blog it I like it . How do I change the camera , babe ?
I don't know . I guess maybe that's our sign to clear the table then .
Yeah , oh , here cam link camera A no .
I don't know what's going on .
I know we're stuck in .
Sorry guys , we'll just wrap it up .
All right , we're going to wrap it up . That was fun .
So thanks for being here .
I appreciate you I think the next time it will be February , so we will have started full of .
February . Yes , it will , it'll be February 2nd .
Well , there you go . We'll already be going , so fast .
I hope she can even catch you on camera . I know You're not even going to be able to tell All right guys , all right , have a safe , happy , healthy , fun . Rest of your week , enjoy your weekend and we'll see you next time .
We'll catch you next week . Bye , bye .