Episode 133 with Harrison Meagher - Love, inner child, integration & balance

Get a bit too lost in their minds, travel from their head into their heart. And I do this in too many different kinds of modalities. Yoga, uh, inner child healing, ancestral healing, which I know you're a big fan of with your constellation work, but to me, they're all parts of my medicine bag. And the thing that really does most of the support, most of the guiding, most of the. Loving is the unique frequency.

That is Harrison. And I try and bring that presence to all the spaces and places I show up in. Mm-hmm.

The religious influences as that little boy I suppressed and pushed down a lot of my femininity, a lot of my sensitivities, a lot of my emotions and my feelings, which led to a lot of pain. Not so much in my childhood, but it all double to the surface in my adolescence, and it led to a lot of. Externalization of my identity, a lot of externalization of my love, a lot of externalization of my essence in many ways through drugs, alcohol, women, activities, all of the things.

And because of that, it couldn't last forever, and a series of events occurred. That were very traumatizing and left a very deep imprint, but ultimately allowed me to embrace what I was, all of my, all of those same things that I'd suppressed for so long, and it helped me awaken to the loving soul that I, I always was.

But now because of the pain, it was so contrasted and I was ready to not share it with the world in terms of fixing, healing, changing anyone, cuz I don't think we need to do any of that. But it wanted to be shared with the world because I'd now realized that once you connect inside and you remember what you are, There is a beautiful desire to just share that with no attachment, no expectation, but just pure love. Mm-hmm.

And, you know, I, there's so much in my own experiences in my childhood as well that, and in that moment I didn't realize it, of course, but that I wasn't in touch with, with my own experience, with my body, with those parts of me that, um, were hidden and suddenly it's like, uh, Now I know this and there's this thing that one of my teachers used to say and he used to say a lot, that whatever it is that, that we resonate with and that we love. There's this like yearning or this Yes.

Momentum towards sharing it. And he used to say, you know, it's just like when someone has a baby and they want to share, you know, and share the photos and share everything. It's the same with what has supported us and what we realized.

So I think a big part of, you know what you're saying and what I've noticed in my own desire to share my love with the world, it's that, right? It's to not just add in our uniqueness, but also be a part of this. This evolution that's, that's happening regardless. But as soon as we get on board the rest of that momentum, we, we, we tap into the rest of that momentum. Mm-hmm.

There's so many illusions to what that is and a big part of my story, going back to being that little boy I, a part of that upbringing, I became very. Disillusioned and traumatized in many ways around the understanding that my higher power, my, the God, the divinity is something outside of me. Not only is it something outside of me, it's a man on a cloud that's keeping score. So part of my journey that I expressed earlier was I was religious. I became an atheist.

But then, and this comes back to your question about what is love when, and it came in in many ways. A few teachers came into my world, but they all said it the same way. And they said, and expressed love as a higher power, love as our source, love as our divinity. And just saying that in itself, I think I glaze over with that understanding. But even if our mind glazes over with that, with that definition of love, there is something inside of us that responds to that.

And that's what happened to me. I responded to that meaning of love. So now to put simply, I see love as a higher power. So when I refer to love, it's coming from that context. Hmm.

In different ways to each of us, and depending on, as, as you're saying, our upbringing, our understandings, our cultures relations, we have different understanding and different perspectives. And one of the biggest things that, that I realized as well was in terms of this, you know, I also grew up in a monistic.

Um, Religion and this beard guy on the clouds, you know, like, uh, and somehow I didn't connect it with that and with the Buddhist teachings around, you know, like, uh, dynamic organizing principle as that universe, that energy, that love, whatever we want to call it. I was like, ah, there's something in there. Because for me, the realization was as well. That this is, I, I, I am that this is not outside of me. I'm not separate from it. Yeah. There are different configurations.

I am like this configuration, you are that configuration. Everyone is their own configuration, yet we are not separate from it.

What our boundaries are and our values are, but that conditional loving is not that deepest form that we are that you're talking about. It's unconditional in nature, and this means many things, but I just wanna make this point clear for everyone listening. If love is unconditional and this love is our source and our higher power, in many ways, what that means is we are enough. We are worthy and we don't have anything to prove.

And just those three statements, if more of us in the world held those in our heart, we would see a lot less suffering because most of our trauma and pain and, and separation energy that is inside of us is, is from a feeling of not feeling that. Of wanting, of striving for that, of thinking that we need to do the thing outside of us to gain that unconditional love. But the whole time we've had that unconditional love inside of us just waiting to be felt. Mm-hmm.

I am also a divinely messy and beautiful human being. And that human being runs on certain physical conditions. I e I need to get eight hours of sleep. I e I need to eat this kind of food to make my energy expand. I e I need to get outside and put my feet on the ground so I can feel and release that which needs to be released. So many ways we can answer this question, Brian, but I think from a deeper spiritual lens. It's what allows us to experience that unconditional love.

It's what the, the, the 3D body is the conduit in which that spiritual, unconditional loving state is expressed through. Right, because that spiritual, unconditional state was there already, right? It was, it was, it was there ready to go, but it needed to do something to experience itself. And how can it experience itself? One of the ways is through the physical body, either with ourselves, our own physical sensations, our own exploration through our physical being.

But then where I think it gets even more juicy is when we get to share our physical body in relation to someone else, and that's where that love is exchanged even more. Mm-hmm. And.

It's, you know, like, um, and, and this is why a lot of times, you know, that I, that I struggle when, when I work with people and, and they say, you know, like, oh, Brian is a healer. I'm like, uh, like you healed yourself. Like, yes, I, I enabled some container or some energy there to, to be sin felt experience. But each of us do, do that, that work. Um, what's the place for you of healing in our own, awakening, our journey to return to that love.

But in that book, Michael Brown says that he has moved away from healing and being identified as a healer and rather being an integrationist, being a person that supports the being the person that he's directing his love towards to integrate. Back into, as you said, the home and the whole. So one, I think it's seeing, I think this shift from healing to integrating needs to be seen. And what are we integrating, right?

We're integrating the parts of us, inside of us that are in separation, right, that are in fear, that are stuck in trauma, that are stuck in pain, that are stuck in, I'm not enough, I'm not worthy, I'm sad, I'm angry. All the things, right? We're integrating all those things back into our oneness, our love, our home so we can, so we can step forward in our wholeness again. But then the role of the person that's.

Outside of that individual doing the integrating, it's creating the container for them to do that because most of us, myself included, the reason that we're not integrating is because we're stuck in the pieces we're stuck in. I'll use the example. Let's say I have an inner child wound of reject abandonment. It's so easy for me to become that wound. To become that abandonment, to become that rejection, to become the victim.

So the external person, in this case, the Brian or the Harrison, shows up in their wholeness, shows up in their love, to remind the person that's stuck in the separation, that there's another option that they can hold that wound, they can, they can support that wound and through the mirror of love, that is the external guidance. They know now what to do. Beautiful.

So, Just that understanding for people is healing in itself. That, that understanding of, oh, that's why I keep attracting the partner that is, is rejecting me. That's why can't sustain the abundance in my work. Right? It's not because of the work, it's not because of the partner. It's because there is a piece of your inner child that's trying to get your attention that is most likely unconscious and is projecting into the outside world.

So, Just that awareness of that process can help us to start to heal in itself. But after that, there are many tools, but I would say the most powerful tool, and I speak about this a lot, I, I released my first book couple weeks ago. I, I was telling you Brian, it's one of the core tools I talk about in my book, but it is the inner child letter, right? Writing a letter to that.

In a child that was, that was wounded, that was rejected, that was abandoned with the intent of not reliving the event, right? Not re-traumatizing ourselves, but rather meeting the need that was not met at that time. Because in reality that time is now, right? There is no past, there is no future. There is just the eternal now. So that little child that.

Is telling himself or herself the story that they are unlovable because of that, that event, that external event that happened in the letter of love that you write to them, you can now explain and let them know that they can release that story and you can give them the love that they were looking for. Hmm.

That now as an adult, as you're saying in that is happening right now because there is no such a thing as time in one. Layer of, of her experience. So therefore I can go and be with that child and and love that little version of myself unconditionally knowing that, you know, he is enough, he is love, and now I can provide that love.

But you need to hold it in a very specific way. And the way I explain this to clients is imagine yourself as an actual physical parent and you have physical children in your life and one of those physical children, they fall down, they cry, they hurt themselves. And you as a parent show up. What is the state of consciousness you bring to that experience? Do you bring a state of consciousness that is like, hurry up.

Or you're forcing them to, to move through it, or you expect them to look a certain way to push them through something. Or do you hold the child in a consciousness of unconditional love and just create the container of healing from this state? So I highlight this because this is what we must do for our inner pieces, right? We must hold them not from a space of expectation. Not from a place of, they should be something. Cuz I see this all the time.

I'm sure you do too, Brian, in the work that you do, people are always asking, but I've done this already. I've, I've, I've held the child, I've loved him, I've met that need. Why isn't it not shifting? And there is a, there is a, there's faith here, there is showing up in a space of unconditional love that's needed.

And it may take, it may be instant, but it, it may take some time cuz that child or that piece of you may need a little extra loving, but either way you don't have expectation or attachment to it.

We put on the mask of the wound. So it's another sort of key here is we cannot, we must do the things that raise our frequency first and then approach the wound. So when the wound of the inner child abandonment comes into our awareness, it's triggered by usually an external event, a lover, a place, a thing. The first role is not to hold the child. The first role is not to meet the child. Our first role is to get out of the dense frequency.

Most of us are not mindful enough, myself included, to go straight into response. What are we mostly doing? Most of us are reacting. Most of us get getting stuck in the trigger that is brought up in the moment. So our first step is to do something that raises our frequency. Right. This could be breath work, right? This could be getting outside, putting our feet on the ground. This could be, you know, dropping into a meditation in that moment to feel our heart, whatever it is.

But we must raise then, and then hold, heal, support, give the love that's needed. Mm-hmm.

And what I, what I was saying is we need to create the conditions we need to train our mind, our system to, to be able to do that so that in the moment that something triggers us, we have already now this pathway to get to that place, to not react and to be able to respond because. We have been training ourselves to do it in that other way of the reacting out of the time.

And what I mean by that is we must show up. It doesn't have to be hard, but we must make the commitment. To show up, to do these practices, to do this, this mindfulness, this responding instead of reacting. Because if we don't, we're not gonna get to that point that you just talked about.

We're not gonna get to, we are gonna be constantly reacting, and I say this with no judgment because it's, again, whenever we make this distinction, there's a lot of religious programming that there's something outside of us that is testing us, right? There's. Something else first, testing us whether we've built this mindfulness muscle or not, and that's not true. Remember, the baseline stays unconditional, loved, unconditional love. You're loved either way.

However, you're gonna have an easier flow through your human experience if you make your choice to show up in this way and build these muscles with heart. Mm.

It's like it's about finding which is the discipline that is going to enable it me to easily keep going with it. Because what he used to say was, when everything is hard in our lives, We are not going to practice. Yeah. When everything is good, we think that we don't need to practice. Mm-hmm. We will only practice when we are in that middle state. And how much time ours are we in that middle state?

We have, whether you are in a physical for everyone listening, whether you're own a physical male body, or a physical female body, we both have the heart. Of God inside of us that is made of the sacred twin flame, which is the divine masculine and divine feminine. And when we walk that line, we are simultaneously getting the creative flow, the insights, the divine eternal knowledge, and then within that inspirational download.

We are taking action, but not taking any action, like you said, not hard action. We're taking inspired action. We're taking channeled action because we know the thing to do. We don't know all the, we don't need to do all the things. We need to do The thing in this moment that is aligned with that, that twin flame heart. So I think that is a big lesson we all need. Hmm. And

I give, I spend a lot of my time, you know, by myself in my home, working, eating, sleeping, moving, doing little things. Whether I meet another person on that day or not, those polarities exist there. So it's not dependent on other people. It's the first point I wanna make here. We don't need other people to show us these polarities. The second.

Sort of guidance here around starting to tune into them is noticing the balance in your day between pushing and the, and the, and the giving, and the receiving and the being. Okay. I, if I had to summarize those two sides in, in, in the simplest way, it would be that it's the. Pushing and the giving and the receiving and the being, the receiving and the being, being the feminine, the pushing and, and the doing is the, and the giving is the masculine.

So with that understanding, what is the balance of these two states in your day-to-day actions? Are you, which is often me, right? Are you only in the doing? Are you only in the pushing? Are you only in the producing? Are you only in the making? Are you only, all of those things are beautiful, but if you are only in that and you don't have the silence, the stillness, the allowing yourself to receive from other people, then you'll burn out in many ways. No,

So a big part of it is looking at this programming, looking at this programming that's that's, that's molding you into a kind of soul that does not allow himself or herself to. Feel their innate enoughness. Their innate worthiness, their innate completeness without ticking any boxes, without getting any a, without producing any physical money. And that in itself, like you just highlighted, that in itself attracts in the value because remember that.

If we have a twin flame, heart of God that has both of these polarities, both of them are God, both of them, they're, they're both a part of the oneness that we are. So wherever we are on that spectrum, whether we are in the extreme masculine doing, or the extreme feminine being and not doing nothing, we are equally enough. We are equally worthy. We are equally complete.

As above, so below, so the extent in which we start to open up and feel and connect to our inner space of cosmic love, our f our love frequency, I would refer to it as is, is the extent in which we then sp share that and spread that with the world. Right? I I, I give a very specific example, right? If we wanna manifest something in terms of a lover money business. The long-term way to do that is to go out into the world and get it.

The short-term way to get that is to go inside and remember and embody that feeling, so then you attract it in. So that in many ways is the cosmic love antenna analogy. We are all antennas of love. And one of the other sort of understandings behind it, going back to what we spoke about earlier around the importance of the physical body. An antenna system has two sections of it has two very important parts.

It is the internal frequency of love that I just talked about, but that internal frequency of love can only spread out into the cosmos to the extent in which the physical structure is on it. So the antenna analogy worked with the will because it also highlights the balance between the spiritual being of love that we are. And the very 3D physical human that needs to have its needs met for that frequency to be expressed.

So if, if I am living my life from, uh, an a frequency of abundance, regardless of my current circumstances. Then I am attracting that, I am allowing that to show up more in my life. So I, I, I I love what, and going back to the book, um mm-hmm. What, what prompt the book to, to actually be materialized

My own internal inner journey, but then my active choice to then share that with the world through the coaching and the mentoring that I do one-on-one. And also you mentioned the podcast, which is, has the same name.

So the book was just another way to share that love and all the teachings and the guidance that has come in through the work that I've done and also, All the people I've had on my show and the learnings that I've gained, and I wanted to put it all in one place for people to digest it in a very easy way. That was one of the reasons for manifesting it. But then the other reason that was, that was relatively new.

I, uh, the most recent part of my spiritual awakening experience has been, I've been in a, uh, a mystery school, uh, a spiritual mystery school for the last year. And for people that dunno what that is, it's just a, think of it as higher education, but for your spiritual development. And a part of that school was opening up to my channeling abilities, channeling more of my divinity, my love, my spiritual essence. So I wanted to test that in many ways.

And I, I thought, what would be a way that I could express this channel in, in a gift? And it was the book, so very tangibly. What that means is I didn't write, I didn't write my book. I didn't, I didn't sit down in front of a computer and type it out. I, if you've read it, you'll know this. I channeled all of it. I dropped into meditation and each paragraph, I spoken to a voice recorder, what came through in, in each of the meditations. So go back to your question.

It was also a way for me to share that with the world. And you'll see it if you read the book. It's not written like any other book. It's, it's very poetic. And you can f you can almost, I've had the comments already coming in as you read it, you can feel me speaking it because of the way that it flows. Mm-hmm.

It's, we're so good at saying that if we see an artistic person or someone dancing or singing, it's so easy for us to look at them and say they're creative, but I'm not. They have a thing. They have something that I don't have. We're in that story. We're overlooking the fact that we are creating our reality all the time. It's just most of us are creating a reality that's negative. Most of us are creating a reality that's based off our limitations, our illusions, our traumas, our pain.

So what I wish everyone knew was that they're creating all the time. But if we start to take more of our power back in all of the ways we can start to create a reality that aligns with our most expanded state rather than our limited. Restricted one.

The easiest place to go is my website, harrison mar.com. That's mar spelled m e a g h e r. You can also find me on. All the social media platforms at Harrison Ma, same spelling, and I'd recommend you check out my book, your Cosmic Love antenna available on Amazon. And, uh, I'd love to hear your feedback. If you wanna reach out, uh, social is the best way to reach out.

Thank you Harrison once again for, for being here and, and sharing your, your energy and your gifts with us.