Toosii Talks "Boys Don't Cry", Loyalty, Cheating, Vulnerability & More

some bullshit. It definitely is. I just have I just have my son though, So I feel like, you know, me having my son kind of opened my eyes to that, Like, you know, I wanted to feel like he could be his own person. So, I mean that's the biggest thing. That's that's where the title came from. When you get that mentality from, because most most dads, I'm sure your dad's age or you raise your kid, fall down, I get back up. Don't you cry? You hope them tiens.

Don't you cry to it? What made that? What had that change to you as a as a father? Um? I was raised by women, I mean, um, even raised by a women. I was it's raised to be tough. Um with him. I want him to be his own person. I mean, I don't. I don't want to fall into the same light or the state, same same statistic that everybody else selling into. So, I mean that's the biggest thing. I don't know. I'm gonna give you a book before you leave here about Jason Wilson cried, like a man,

just remind me to give it to you else. Somebody else just told me that yesterday. Oh yeah, powerful, powerful book, because I feel like all you're doing is raising a generation of sociopath when you tell a bunch of men don't feel Yeah, they said, they said, they said the book about like basically like emotional incarceration. That's right, yea, yeah, I'm gonna check it out. I got it for you. I got it. I got copies up here somewhere. Oh yeah,

I need it. How are you able to open up then, like to even be in a relationship, Um, honestly, like when when it came to that, I don't know. I just I just did it. It was you can't run away from love. You heard that's something that that's gonna follow you no matter where you go. Herd So I don't know either. You will love quick like the first sight type of thing. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, it's ninth grade with everything na na la. But I have my one person though, Yeah, I mean it's ninth grade that

I that's okay. Yeah, yes, it's ninth grade. Like I knew who that was, who I wanted to do it. I mean, so it's kind of like that. You still feel like that's that's a rare thing to happen for that and you would say that happened with you. Yeah, my wife was fifteen or sixteen. Yeah, that's crazy. He've been together twenty seven years, married twenty one, same thing my wife for twenty four years. Yeah, not married as long, but matches twenty fourteen. They figured it out. Yeah, I

hope I get there. How do you get there? I said, I hope I knew. Oh yeah, I mean you're going through it now, and listen, it's gonna be ups and it's gonna be downs, and you're gonna make mistakes and she might get how y'all do ya do it? Now? That's complicated question. I'm gonna get another book. Complicated question. That's always a question that I got from couples that

have been together that long. I always wanted to know what it was that that kept them together, and usually you get you get the same answers like patience, um and things of that nature. So yeah, I mean that's part of it. I think for myself. It's also you know, when we first started going out, there was nothing there. It was just loved. It wasn't about money, it wasn't about relationship, wasn't about going else. So we develop a

love that's outside of anything else. Like she's you know when they call rid a die, she's really that person. She's really when I have a problem, she's my best friend. I can talk to her. We can have those uncomfortable discussions and problems and situations. But also that was before the money. That was before the money. That's it. That's that I think when he said it, probably the most important thing. You gotta be really friends with a person. And I think sometimes men we'd be more loyal to

our homies than we do all women. This thing we will do to our guys, that will do to the presion we go to sleep with that, you know every night. Yeah, that's crazy to me. I don't lie, can't. I can't do it because that and there. It's like, you know, I mean, if this I date the mirror, you know, so if this is the person that I'm looking at, mirry, It's like I can't sit and be like, I'm gonna be more lower than my home was than I am. The girl that's gonna be you know, the girl that's

gonna be my wife. I mean the Boby said it your wife come before anything. I'm trying to find your own words too, Like you got to know what your definition of love is. Definitely, I mean, because I thought I loved my wife back then. But if I loved her the way I thought I did, I wouldn't have did some stuff that I did. You know what I mean? So what you learned you listen? Yeah, man, listen, yo, listen.

I don't lie. It's like the world, the world, the world won't understand some of that stuff though you give what I'm saying, Like you know, you you you look at it as you overcoming you know, something that you went through. I mean, the rest of the world might look at it like, uh, you did that, you dare wrong? So I don't know, it's you could be both two things can be true. Yeah, two things definitely could be true. Things could be true most deaf. Two things definitely could

be true. It's a little bit different when you and the Slight though. Oh yeah, you're artists because you you're trying out your superpowers. You've never been in this version. Oh god, what I'm saying, like we like Angela was just talking about girls doing dick sucking contests and asking men if they can be judges. That's what that didn't happen before you. I ain't explain't say it's none of that. I don't know none of that, none of that. Man, do you think that y'all have to go through something

in order for you to realize what you have? Yes, sadly to question, I don't think so. I don't think so. I feel like I feel like, um, I feel like you can know what you I feel like you can know what you what you got before you before like fucking up. I don't feel like you gotta fuck up to know what you got Like I don't know. I also don't think cheating got anything to do with the woman. Cheating has to do with what we like in ourselves. Men.

It's yeah, you're trying to feed all ego. It's all intoget. You know that's so crazy. That's that it's crazy that you said, because like I always told myself, like I never needed more than one woman to strouke my ego. I never needed that, you know. I mean, if I had one one female that could stroke my ego and just make me happy, I'd be cool with that. Like, but I don't know, though, some shit you get some niggas that that polygamy, you know what I mean? So

I think they just think they want that. And you remember when I called my dad cheating back in the day. My dad said to me, oh, you only got one girlfriend one day? You go understand. So when you planted that seat in my head, yeah, I mean thinking like damn, so I gotta have man like this. I gotta I gotta do the shit he did. I don't. I don't. I don't think like that. What does it mean when you say to tweet a woman like a lady, but effet like a hole? What is it? What does that mean? Like?

How do you do that to somebody like that? Man? You getting you get in the bedroom. You know, girls want to be slatted out, man, you know what I mean? You get in the bedroom with a girl shoul't want to be treated like she a girl she wanna be she wanna be fucked like you're gonna suck one of them holes. How's that? Like, what's the difference like the holes? That's a trick question. That's no, that's a trick question.

Your girl ever say something like that. Don't answer that question. No, don't, don't, don't even do nothing. But I don't lie too. It's like like I don't know, Like it's like, it's like treating a girl with respect outside of the bedroom. But in the bedroom she wants. You know that the bedroom the only time you could disrespect the Girl's just like when women say women say, women say, you gotta be a lady in the streets of freaking the shore. It's

the same thing. That's all in the bedroom. That's the only time one woman want to be disrespected. She want to hear post, she want to be slapped, you want she wants all the type of shit. Yeah, I mean that's so, that's what it means. I mean, she don't so you'd be pulling hair, slapping, doing all that. Man, we do, come on, do it back to you? No, hell not? What the fuck? That's not that's not true. Hell Na, that's not pulling your hair, pulling his hair.

Ain't no one put nah. I have no hair pulling, no slapping, no choking. I don't do nothing of that. You won't get choked. I don't want to get choked. I got blindfolded, blind for the hell Nah, are you blind for the me? So you can use your other senses? Senses, man, that's not what you want to Na. I'm not trying to tap into no other senses in the bedroom. I'm good. I ain't spider Man. Talk about this song. Heard it hits me. I'm not spider Man. You are trying to

shoot something number one. Listen, and it's so hard. As you said, you've done taking my heart. Put it in a bit of place. Let another break my heart. They wish they could when inspired that UM like going through ship, going through hardships and relationships, you know, being in relationships and getting put through things that you you know, never been never been through before. Um. You know, and sometimes you you you bumping the people and you know they

beginning girl sire tasting your mouth. You know what I'm saying. Like I got I got an X I used to be with I don't. Well, I only got too. I only been with two girls who for yeah her, Oh god, man, I hate her. What did she do to you? Man? She broke my motherfucker, she cheated on me. I was like sixteen though. That shit hurt. Though, you know, you get cheated like Nigga, get cheated on a high school and it's over. I don't like you fucking up for life with that sh That is true. Yeah, you cheat

on me in high school? Right now? Do you want to tell them all? I mean what my not telling me? Hell he had a bad story about getting cheated. Yeah, but I've been on my woman for twenty four years. So that's what I mean when I say, you know, whatever you expect of whatever, say, I want to buy whatever she expecting you. You gotta be willing to give her what she forgives you. If she does something, you

gotta forgive her. No, I will lie forgate. I forgave a few times, though, I don't want lie that shit. That Nigga was good then she was a sucker for red man, I don't want I don't even think it was what dude, I can't remember I was. I was a young man, like so you didn't cheat, but she only hell nah, she fucked me up. Yeah, she sucked me up and I kept catching and you kept staying yeah, hell yeah. I want a trust issues because of that situation.

Crazy part though, I don't even got trust issues because I feel like I don't know, I just don't got trust issues. I bet she wish she wouldn't now though that she was trying. She was trying to throw a little quick little shots and say all the type of ship like that. She said something on the internet the other day she blew my mind. I forgot what she said. She said something about, oh, nah, you know what it was. I had gave my I had gave my girlfriend thirty

K for her birthday. Um, and like, I guess like the internet ain't like her that reaction, but she not really no like over over over after Yeah, she's not no overreactor. Like, so I gave her the thirty I gave her thirty K, and shortly going internet, she like, uh, she should have been me. If I would have got the thirty K, I would have such a sub order. Guess what never view you know how you know? Nah?

She posted it on Facebook and it was public and people started tagging me yea, yeah, she wanted you to see that. She wanted me to see that. She wanted your girl to see that. And then she was hoping it will cause problems at home. Ain't no problems at home, that's what that's that's what they want, many problems at home. Ain't no. I ain't no trouble in paradise. Man. I saw you kind of like we'll be going through ship.

Of course all couples do. I let you get that, But I saw you saying that, you know, you really don't care for the fame aspect of it, right, So when you say that, but why shows people stuff like that? Why show them you giving your girl thirty thousand? I want a lie? It was like that. So all of that was before, like I had made that post um. I don't know, the fame become a lot, especially at twenties two, and then on top of that, you know,

you signed these labels and shit like that. Ain't no media training, it ain't no more fucking like, no, they don't. They don't teach you how to how to how to talk, and when you get into interviews with to say whatnot, you don't do none of this ship or so you coming into this ship and they're not supposed to because that's kind of like taking away from who you are as a person and as an artist. Yeah yeah, there's things that could get you in trouble, things that you

most definitely that you could get you canceled. Now, So yeah, right, if they could guide you. I mean, we're a platform. If you say something that's gonna get you cancel, that's gonna get you in trouble, locked up, we're gonna tell you. I think it might work here. I don't think it works with social media because when you at home and you got in your phone right there you're typing, it's over.

Like so you if you were on social media and you type, and you sit and type some shit like oh no the world and in the world, don't it they go best? But like, um yeah, like I don't know, so, like I guess like it was kind of like one of the moments where it's like damn, Like if I was famous, this never would have been an issue. I mean, and they people flipped it and made it seem as if like it was a thing of um me blaming the fans for for for whatever happened. But like Honestly,

it wasn't even that. It was just a matter of like me staying here, Like yo, if if I was never famous, because my music used to be like important to me, like it used to be just for me. I used to which it still is important, but it used to be just a thing for me. It used

to be sacred to me. I mean, but I don't know, I started dropping the music and you know, I'm I'm more so doing things for the fans now, So I don't know, it's more so like you know, if I, if I never was famous, this never have been a problem. That's That's a great conversation, right because that that is that impact your creative process because you're thinking about what the Internet's gonna think or what people are going to think, instead of just going to make the music you want

to make. Honestly, I feel like me and my me and my fans got such a such a good connection that when I go in there and I record, it's not really like it's like it's almost like I'm recording for myself because we got the same thought process. To be a fan of me, you like the things that I like. Um, So I don't know, we got to

we kind of got the same thought process. And even it'll be times where I get our Instagram live and make songs with the fans and let them like have an input on the songs and what's what we're gonna title the song and what we're gonna talk about in the song, like things of that nature. So it's kind

of hard to miss when you're doing that. Do so do you think that people feel like because a lot of times with your music, because it is, like you said, very personal and sacred, people really feel like they know you and they feel like they know exactly what you're talking about. You might have a song that you did two years ago and you put it out now and they feel like it's something that's happening to you now. Yeah. Yeah, Yeah, that's that's that's the hard part about everything. You know.

They feel like every song that you make is a subject of what's going on today today's world, when in reality, this shit could have happened thirty years ago. Well, boys don't cry with this ep um for these songs? Are these all current songs? Like that's going like, is this something that we should take as this is something that's happening to you now? Um? Yeah, yeah, for the most part.

And if it ain't my story, it's somebody else story, you know what I mean, Because I'll tend to do that a lot too, Like I might I might make a song about you know, some real life situations that's going on right now, but there might not be something that's happened to me. It might be my homeboy that's going through it and not just I just so happen to see it. So yeah, it could be that too. Now you're also going on to a road wave and with a riot of scientists. Ye so, um, how did

that to our come together? Man? Honestly, Um, we got the same book and age. So being that we got the same booking age and shot out the mac agency, we got the same book and agent, it came time for him to go on tour and my name just got throwing that bucket of you know, people we wanted to bring on tour, so you know, they made it heaven And now we're going on tour. This is probably

gonna be the fucking saddest tour. Like I see the comments, because I see the comments that should have they like, yo, I'm gonna be in crying and oh my god, it think, yeah, I think so like I think people enjoy being sad nowadays. I don't know why. I think people enjoy processing their emotions because for so long we haven't been allowed to, especially men. That's what I think now. I did ass

like sad like when I started seeing the tweets. So I sat and I like, I'm like, damn, let me dive into the music like it really see what the hell going out? I started listening to though fucking marioders, scientists, spread thin and like that, and then you then you go to rid wave catalog and he got anything he got. Then I start diving back into my own shout I say dead, last song of it is, last song? Yeah,

sh like that, man, I don't lie. I see, damn, this ship going to be sad, like somebody got somebody got to come up with this bitship and turn this ship up a little bit or something. Man. But in a way, you know what you're doing because you put out a lot of songs. And he's like, I'm taking a break from social media. Come on, now, you always know what you're doing. I mean, I feel like you didn't really take a break from social media. Ain't taking man? Listen, man,

I don't lie one thing about the dope. Man. I swear I didn't give up on everything that life, like when it sports, school, relationships, like just I don't lie like my whole I wouldn't say I've been a quitter, but like I've been a quitter. You get what I'm saying. Music something that I could never quit. I could never give up. You think you was a quitter or just

a runner? I was a runner. Yeah, I definitely ran with Timesard, So I definitely say I was a running But that's something you know, acknowledging it would be the first step. Ever since then, I've kind of been working on it, trying not to run away from my situations uh as much. And like even you know, even even you know when I when I first got into you know, situations and shit like that, My my first start will

always beat up. All right, I'm out, Like if we're not fit to do this, Like you want to leave, you be leave, I'm because I'm gonna leave what we do. But like acknowledging that should be the first step. And it's like damn, like what you're gonna run away from anything you go through? And more importantly, and you learn this in therapy. You can't run away from yourself. No, you can't. So you gotta do whatever internal issues you got, you got to deal with them because you can not

run away from yourself. You gotta deal with it. You go to therapy. Yeah, once a week. Hell yeah, feel about five six years man? You know I used to I used to have a therapist, like you know, when you're when you're when your people get a divorce and shit like that, they make you go to council. Yeah yeah, yeah, like I used to have a therapist for that, and then I stopped seeing them. I mean, that might be another reason to nigga make all this sad ass music.

Therapy is gonna make you mix out word up. My whole life telling you that therapy. My whole life been nothing but shit, just going through shiitard. So all right, unpacking now. I don't wait till I waited until I was like thirty five, thirty six years old. Do it now, so you got you got less years to unpack. Imagine trying to unpack twenty five years of trauma. Yeah nah on a lot of shit. Yeah, that's a lot, twenty five years of trauma, A lot shit. I'm fighting more

fucking eighteen years of trauma. When you when you did take a break form music because you said that's something that you would never run from. Yeah, um, when you still a lot of crazy. I never takes putting out like a whole project. Oh yeah, I don't took longer breaks than that, Like I ain't. I ain't put out on a project. But I didn't took the longer, longer break than what I took this year, like because I was still dropping singles. I don't want eight months without

dropping nothing. Like, So what did you do? Were you still working during that time? Yeah? Yeah, the old man over there had me. Uh, he had me, and he had me in the studio recording. We were just recording a bunch of music. I ain't have a catalog, that was the problem. I ain't have no music in the stashum and some some of my my greatest records came out of that. So like, I definitely appreciate that, But yeah,

I was. I was just recording. You talk about the trauma, So so your new therapy, I guess, or your therapy is doing all these records. Then, yeah, that was the best thing putting you in the studio. Yeah, putting me in the studio was like, yo, music was like the best thing that ever happened to me. You get what I'm saying, like only changed my life, and then on top of me changing my life, on top of it changed my life and opened my eyes to know who

I truly am and what I'm here for. You know, like my my whole life been a plot twist, Like ain't nobody ever expect for me to become who I am today? And people don't expect for me to become what I'm gonna become. Like I genuinely could look body in their eyes and tell them like it's not the end for me, like it's it's something way bigger than

what people seeing right now. It's just hard for me to speak on it because every artist to get up here and say that they're gonna be something bigger than what they is today, and some is, but some'm not, you know, I mean, Some'm not gonna make it farther than this interview. Or when it comes to me like I'm here to stay, like my name is something that's gonna stay afloat no matter what. It's nothing nobody ever could do to change that. But you know when God

calls you. It's not a conference calls. We ain't for everybody anyway. Man, listen, there ain't no conference call at all telling everybody. This ain't those zoom like. I mean, you can't look into this one. And I feel like the good thing for you is things have been also getting bigger every single time, and the momentum is building instead of you coming out with a crazy momentum and

then going away, it's still getting high. I'm gonna tell you what's so crazy though, like, um, where you and and this is for like all the artists that's out there right now, don't fall too too deep into the politics. Like when you started to pour too deep into the politics and the numbers and you stopped having fun with it and then started to feel like a job and

shit like that's it started to feel crazy. I try, I tell, I tell the people that's around me all the time, like, um, we got to get back to having fun with it, because it definitely was a time where I started to put out my you know, uh ceo suit I guess you would say, in a sense, and started digging too deep into things that really don't matter for me. It mattered for me, but I ain't supposed to be handling it, So I started paying attention to the numbers like I never used to pay attention

to numbers at all. If the song did good, it just did good because at the end of the day, the numbers, the numbers be with the numbers be. But it's always somebody out there that's going to relate to your shit more than the next person. And that's what keep our artists going for it, for it's not about the fucking first week numbers and all that other bullshit that people try to make this ship seem like it's about.

It's not about it's not about these deals that's getting signed and like, because all that should be cool, But at the end of the day, like when you haven't fun with the music, all that shit don't come. You get what I'm saying. So I don't I want a lie, Like to the artists that's out there, man, don't fall

too deep into the numbers. Don't fall into first week numbers, second week numbers, billboards and all types of dumb shit like that, because half of the motherfucker's that sounds billboards ain't never think they probably was ever gonna get no billboard. You get what I'm saying, Like that should be some sporadic shit like that shit yo, Like like we were talking about like women on top of the game right now.

You ask some of the girls that sounds like on top of the charts right now if they thought it was gonna happen as quick as that shit happened for them. Nobody ever saw music taking a turn that it's taken right now. Right When did we ever see artist Glowrilla

when Partycause you get to see things happen so quickly. Yeah, Like so you got that and then and then on top of that, not then you got artists like you know, the bigger artists doing seventeen thousand first week, twenty three thousand, and twenty two thousand first week in sales and shit like that, Like nobody never saw music doing none of this, Like we're looking at nuthers, like damn, these niggas doing two hundred K, three hundred K, one hundred and fifty thousand.

Now niggas is doing not even niggas is not even doing a quarter of that. What do you want? What do you think of the baby saying his comments? Manatory Land is kind of saying there blackballed from um, honestly, I've seen I've seen, um, I've seen Russ haven't taken hunting. He basically He basically said, like you know, the snow such thing as being black balled if you eble to put out your music and so, um, I don't Honestly,

I wish I could speak on it. I only like when it comes to them shoes, I can't even say how to feel because I probably if I was in these shoes, I probably feel black balled too, you know. Um, So I don't know. I feel like any artists, any artists who got like an input on that, you know, it's that's all it is. It's an input because at the end of the day, like you won't know until you in them shoes. Yeah. Um. But yeah, though, I feel like with the Tories situation, I feel like he

definitely getting black really yeah, I think. I mean I can see the baby too. I can definitely see the baby too. Where with baby, I don't feel like it's really a I don't feel like it's a black ball. I feel like it's the world. The world just it's it's the backlash yet what I'm saying, right, Yeah, Yeah, Like like playlist or you know the And that's the

crazy part. See, that's something I really don't know about because I never I never really made playlists, Like I'm not all right, we don't have we don't have a playlist for the type of music that I'll make. You get what I'm saying. The streaming services they'll put you on playlists and when people are randomly listen, and so I think that's what they're saying, right, But then Rust was saying, well, your fans will find you whether or

not you're on a playlist. Yeah, and that's like, that's like, yeah, your fans are find you, but your fans always your fans also like your fans. You have fans, and then you have fans, and the fans are falling to the category of them thinking just like the people who not fans, because that's all that it be. The motherfucker's who'll be who talks shit about you want to internet be haters, and then the haters, and then the haters hypnotize the fans because it's fans, and then it's fans. The haters

hypnotize the fans into thinking that it's fans. It's your fans who actually fans. That's talking shit about you, when in reality is nothing but the hater being a hater. Hey, you know what else? And you know what I'm gonna say too about those playlists. Sometimes I discover music that I wouldn't have discovered by listening to you. It's so crazy. I don't make playlists. I don't if if somebody tells me tu s, I'm gonna go search to see I'm not.

I've never been. I've never been like none of them show but it might be like a hip hop and I and B playlist that songs randomly come up. I've never been on ARM. I've never been on like like the R and B. What's the name of that major R? Like the R and B is none of that. They

don't discover music via playlist. Really, yeah, you're not, because I know in the juice we put on a random playlist of like hip hop and R and B, and sounds will come up and I'd be like, oh, I mean my music though, like like not even just going to look that shit up. My music has never been on any of them playlists, so I never like really knew I ain't. I never knew that the playlist and actually affected that ship that much, like if playlist and

affected niggas numbers like that. Yeah, because you look for I Want Lie. That's a different type of like, that's a different type of power. Do you think about not even a person when you go to the gym, there's always a playlist on the back. If you're in a cab a lot of time, there's playlist on those songs. Just keep going on rolling like all. It's like the Baby, Like you were saying earlier, the thing with the baby, there's always two types of fans, right, The fan's gonna

ride and die regardless, and then wants a hit. They yeah, on what type of record that's a fan? That's that's that's fans because they see other fans with the baby. If he doesn't have a hit because the playlists are not playing him. Yeah, he's not spending his records radio stations and I spending those records. He doesn't have that fan. That's long definite, definitely, And because of that, that's kind of being black ball because they're not giving his records

an opportunity. Also too, you do realize and I saw this that the day I'm reading it because I put it on my phone then the stat that one percent of all artists generate ninety percent of the screams. One percent of all artists generate ninety percent of the scream So if you're not in that one percent, are you really being impacted that much by scream? But the baby was probably in that one percent with all the records,

probably at one point. Damn. So you're saying one percent, it's a one percent of all artists generate ninety percent of all screams. Shit, I already known. I don't even know if it's a little baby. Yeah, no not when you look at the top ten. A young boy no young boys YouTube, So young boy don't young boys YouTube YouTube,

don't lie. But he got a different type of fan. Absolutely, yeah, young boys got a different like the means that they neither like NBA young NBA young boy fans be like, yo, I don't want lie, matter what crazy part, it'll probably never be another NBA young boy Like, don't matter no matter one thing about it. Bro, I live, I live in reality. Bro Get what I'm saying Like that shit ain't no no joke. When they come to you and be like we need you to do a young boy

doing on YouTube? You be like that that I can't. It's over, bro, That's that's that's a young boy. It'll never be another NBA young boy. And at a never like yeo, bro, some some things could be mimicked. That shit there, you can't mimic that's he didn't even try to strategize that. It just with organic. That's just him, you know what I mean. So like, when you get something like that that's special. Are you from upstate? Yeah?

Are you investing in up State a lot? Because up State is a growing market when it comes to really crazy part, Nah, I ain't. I haven't even dove into none of that yet, you know what I mean. But you're looking to it because it's it's i mean the rent prices up state to us shooting to the rule. Yeah, property prices are great, and then some of these schools and colleges around there that people need to place to stay. Definitely, he's looking at you can buy some property, fool, not

too too bad. Yeah, we we we've been we've been sitting and talking about that. That's something that's on our bucket list. Now, what about putting we I know we had this discussion, but social media putting like your private life on there, putting your girlfriend on there. Are you

gonna move differently now? Because yeah, I'm gonna keep a private I mean, like it's just as simple as that, like keep it off the internet because at the end, I mean it might be a time where or or a day where, you know, I might throw the fan up there one time, but I don't know. I'm chilling right now. I'm strictly focused on the music and getting this where it need to be. Are you happy? Yeah? Well,

which which part? Just in life? I mean, you're putting out songs like heartache and lonely, you know, I'm like, um, I don't want a lie to That's that's a hard that's a hard question to answer, you know, like because every day is different. Yeah, every day different. I don't walk around with my head down, but I definitely sometimes I wish I was in a better position than what

I'm in. I feel like it's it's different things that I could have I could have did, and I never I never try to put the blame on nobody else, you know, because every decision that I made is decision that I made. Life is about options. So I mean, at the end of the the day, I can't if if if I walk around with my head down, I'd be walking around my head down because some shit that I did. I mean, so I don't know. Life cool, But do you beat yourself up from mistakes? You me? Hell no,

I don't know it's good. I don't do that at all. But but I definitely say, like sometimes I sit and be like damn, Like I wonder how shit would have went if I would have never did this, or I would have never took this step. So but they all everything that you did got you to this point now, everything, like even if that's why I don't believe in good or bad, I believe everything is just part of one long process gets you the way you're supposed to be. Yeah, no,

it's a process. Like I mean, my brother always told me to trust the process. So you know that's all I'm doing. I'm just trusting the process and putting in the work. I mean, you gotta put it in the work. The album comes out this Friday. Boy Boys Don't Cry. Yeah, we want to be sad. If you want to be sad and get a good cry, get too. C VP boys. Don't you need that though? As we go through things and like like I need to listen. I don't know

about it. Need to be sad sometimes you should for what, man, I only raining outside. It's raining outside, it's cold and ship you know, man, we're here to talk about life. And she got said some of the best albums that I like those break up albums, you know. Yeah, not like with Mary j Blige. We love you know, we used to love the Unfortunately she went through a lot sad shite. Oh that's crazy, j Blie j Blige house. I can never I can never be there. Many wake

up in the morning. Did you see that it was raining? And just like stare nah hell nah, yo. See this is what I'm yo, this is what I'm saying. Man, you know, as men, they just don't they expect us to be so tough. Asked me that I look out the window. I got up. I got up. I don't know. It was hard for me to get out of bed. I got up while you tired. I was tired as hell. I don't why is this interview at eight in the morning, bro the breakfast club to y'all, So y'all don't do

no fucking interviews after breakfast? Then no, y'all switched to the lunch club. Yeah January, Man, listen, this is I don't lie. They say thirty. I say, y'all sure eight thirty am welcome to the life of the artist to see and I'm sure you got more after this. I'm here man, I mean hell, y'all do yeah, I got like three three more interviews and then I gotta then I gotta listening party too much, and then you gotta

talk about boys don't cry. It's clean up. It's clean X sponsoring the listening about you know, yeah, man, he don't care about my fast Dude, I got your man. Oh you found it. I was looking at it and you know what I got two for you, yo, bro, pull up your pants man, Yes, shit, that's the old man ship man been crazy. We can't plumber like a man. Oh a matter of fact. James M Battle Cry by Jason Wilson. What's this about? It's both about processing your

emotions the man. This is the unapologetic guy bought a black man, oh black woman, and he steady about crying though. J it's the breakfast club boy.