Dissolving Into Awareness: Beyond the 'I' on the Spiritual Path

The biggest problem that we have in the spiritual journey is the notion that there is an I that is on the journey . Now , what I mean by that is not necessarily the I of awareness , but the me and mine that's normally associated with the body and the mind .

So when we are invested in this body and in this mind , when we identify with it completely , then it's very difficult for us to really rest in awareness , really to be in that boundless , peaceful awareness .

If we are to be true seekers , then the whole point of seeking is to actually realize that the one that you're seeking is already within you , that this whole journey is like a full circle and you only realize it's a full circle if you are consciously aware . Consciously and acutely aware , I would say , and acutely

aware , I would say . This path is not about getting yourself to enlightenment . It's not about you getting to self-realization or achieving , or attaining self-realization . It's actually realizing that there was only the self to begin with . There was never a me or a mind . There was never a me or a mind . There was never a body and a mind .

There was never a name and a form . It was literally just an imagination that was going on . A little narrative , and the narrative isn't bad , it serves a . So I'm not going to condemn the narrative and I'm not going to condemn the imagination .

But you see , to truly be a seeker , you really have to allow yourself to remove all aspect of your existence , all aspect of your existence , meaning that you don't seek with memory , you seek with the freshness of the moment , you seek with the understanding of what is here

right now . You can be happy right now by simply dissolving . In fact , let's say very simply let yourself dissolve . Let yourself dissolve to awareness , to pure consciousness , to Brahman , to this Nirankar , this pure , formless awareness .

Just dissolve yourself away and you see , in this dissolving you're actually solving life's biggest question , life's biggest purpose , and that is to realize who you really are . You see , we can even bring up the notion that , oh well , if I'm not the body of mind , then I must be a soul . Well , what is the soul ? The soul is none other than God itself .

Even if you say it's a part of God , even then that's still God . It's not separate to God , it's still in the oneness of God .

So , even when we say there's a part , it's actually misleading somewhat , but necessary also for beginners to understand , and sometimes it's easier to digest , because the whole notion that you know , one is pure awareness , is or one is god , is not so easily uh , it's not so easily accepted or understood , and and the dangerous aspect is that it can become the ego .

So let yourself dissolve , don't let there be a notion of yourself . And what I mean by this is like yes , in the actions , we , we do remember , we're not the doer . So your awareness , the body is doing , the mind is doing the thinking , you know you not , you're just simply the awareness where all that is

arising and you're just simply the witness , consciousness , of that . You're the witness of that . That's it and that is what is meant to live as the formless , and ultimately that's how we are to live .

We are to live with that understanding that we are formless , and then anything we say or we do is coming from a place of consciousness , coming from a deeper place . It's not necessarily just something we say on a whim .

Say on a whim , see , the biggest thing to understand in this journey is that if you still have some sort of desire , even for enlightenment or whatever , or you , you think you can surrender in this moment , and you desire to surrender , see , when you're desiring it's only delaying to be what you are right now .

You know a lot of people say that they just surrender to God and let God do everything . But you know we can't actually do that because , you see , the moment we , we say this , we are performing an action .

So this whole let yourself dissolve or let yourself surrender is not an action , it's a relaxation , it's just a recognition of what is and what is here right now . And when you speak from that place , when you do , when your actions are done from that place , when your intentions are from that place , then that place is full of peace , calmness , beauty .

See , beauty is a big thing , it comes from grace and that is the way you can be a fruitful seeker . Now , the reason why I say a seeker is because , even if you find the very thing you're looking for , you're not going to find the very thing you're looking for being a seeker just keeps you humble .

Because the moment you say , oh well , I'm enlightened or I'm self-realized , then the question will naturally arise but who is saying that I am self-realized ? Because surely will Brahman , or pure consciousness , say , hey , I'm enlightened or hey , I'm self-realized ? Like that wouldn't happen , wouldn't happen , that would be weird .

Like , think about it logically if you are this pure , formless awareness , how can that ever declare itself as enlightened ? Yes , again , for the sake of the world , to understand that things are put into boxes and there are differences , for sure ,

but ultimately an enlightened person doesn't have to say that .

Because , again , let yourself dissolve , let all your concepts dissolve away , let all your desires dissolve away , let all your ambitions , let all your name and form just let it all just dissolve and just dissolve and dissolve , dissolve into awareness , the moment the thought arises that I'm this body , I'm this mind , just dissolve those , that that association , just

dissolve it and you can do it . And that is . And welcome to the Beardy Mystic Podcast . I'm your host , rahul N Singh , and ultimately that's what I have to say because it's a podcast , but I found the most amount of happiness or happiness arises when one just rests into pure awareness , pure formlessness .

And when one does that , there's bliss , there's peace , there's contentment . There's nothing more that you want or desire . And when one does that , there's bliss , there's peace , there's contentment . There's nothing more that you want or desire . You're just complete in this moment and it's only this moment that's really eternal here and it will always be eternal .

It will always be timeless , boundless . There's no beginning or end to it . It doesn't start and it doesn't finish . Just understand that . That's what it is .

So that's the end of the episode . See you in the next one . Take care , namaste .