Shame - two emails from course participants
Episode description
The last few times I felt shame, I got excited as the realisation hit me:
“Oh… I’m feeling shame!”
… like in ‘discovering a hint in a treasure hunt’
Who knew shame could be exciting??
You make me curious of my ‘worst nightmare’. :)
I then heard ‘Clare in my head’ saying:
“What’s at stake here? What is being protected? Shame is where you are most identified. There’s a ‘you’ doing, a ‘you’ deciding…”
Indeed! So much energy involved in trying to control the way people see ‘me’. So much energy that could be used to flourish.
And, little by little, ‘I am’noticing some of that energy being diverted towards new endeavours. ‘I am’ noticing the doing of things I would not have dared trying in the past.
And now, I’m hearing ‘Clare in my head’ again:
“This is freedom!”
Thank you, Clare. I’m so grateful for your teachings 💛
Dear Clare,
Thank you again for the powerful conversation we had yesterday.
I felt safe with you and wasn't so scary to dig deep into one of my core wounds.
Just wanted to share that yesterday awareness went a bit further and I noticed later on
accompanied feeling of guilt with feeling of not being OK/ not being worth the way I am.
Welcoming this feeling of guilt firstly revealed the feeling of guilty that I need so much love & approval. And staying present a bit longer I saw this feeling is actually shame in disguise. Feeling responsible with strong believing in a doer/chooser/decider that is behind this strong craving for attention and love and that he/she shouldn't be like that.
Thank you again and lotz of love :)
Urska