Listener question: thoughts

Listener question: Just woke up. My alarm went off. I noticed for a very few seconds, kindness, friendliness. Then thoughts came, you have to, must (work etc). I started to think this at a certain moment in my life. I feel miserable right now, heavy, low, haert beating (almost every morning). It is hard to to let those thoughts feelings go, I think they scare me so much that I want to reduce them or something in my head. As if I am trying to manage them. But then they only stick isn't it. They feel so painful, but I guess that is the resistance towards them. I don't know how not to. To let them be, flow.