'I'm desperate for change' listener question

Follow up to self blame is an ego trip (10 Dec 2021) 

Thank you for doing this so thoughtfully 💚.

I listened to the podcast umpteen times, and yes I get it.

the ego ran the show for so long it’s still protesting against life. 

When I see my behaviour and witness it more and more I feel the impact it has and it’s terrible, there is no forgiveness in that.

It’s like watching a car crash over and over again. 

So are you saying I have to watch the car crash without doing anything about it??

 I always hoped that when I’m aware enough I can prevent this shameful behaviour.

I’m desperate for change.