Listener question: can you say more about body sensations and reality?
Sep 19, 2020•9 min
Listener Question: Generally, life’s mirror reflects worry, doubt and perfectionism in relationships which makes spending large chunks of time on my own much easier and mostly a relief. However, I wonder if I’m missing out through ignorance of what healthy relationships can be like. Since there’s only now, and only our current state of learning and readiness, how is space created for patterns of belief to be shed? I can absolutely see and hear the self in this, and wonder if these glaring relati...
Sep 18, 2020•17 min
Listener question: I suddenly had an awareness of my mother as a young mother, and saw that her bursts of anger came from her anxiety and self doubt as a parent (she's spoken to me often as an adult about the self-doubt she had, but I'd never connected it to her anger). I don't think that I've ever realised how early on that experience was there for her, and I have the deepest compassion for her, knowing how locked into her reality she must have been from such early days - without the hint of a ...
Sep 17, 2020•8 min
listener question: Can you talk about fear generated from flashbacks? It seems life flows along and contact with family members which is regular, unfortunately, undoubtedly triggers remembrances of a traumatic, cruelty filled childhood and young adulthood. Once the thought storm is triggered, it's almost impossible to step out of the loop and fear takes over. Fear of insanity too, because other family members don't have the same experience. Decades of techniques and therapy have not erased the h...
Sep 16, 2020•12 min
Listener question: A couple of years ago i participated in a course that was all about accepting feelings in the body. So every day i meditated and tried to feel what was going on in my body. But instead of feeling things, my mind just became so stirred up that i got very depressed. Now when i hear you say: “just feel it”, i notice the depression coming up again. I’m scared of it. The last time it wasn’t helpfull at all to explore my feelings. So why would this time be different? When I ‘zoom in...
Sep 15, 2020•13 min
Listener question: When there has been a lot of conditioning of random physical punishment in early years, and that resulted in a belief of being inherently bad and wrong, almost like it’s lodged into the physical body. Is then this understanding strong enough to unravel this physical visceral memory?
Sep 14, 2020•18 min
I write to you as I’m finding the FEAR course really challenging! Although I feel like running as far away from the course as possible, I’m sticking with it because a part of me knows there is more to see here. Am I to suppose that I’m feeling uncomfortable because there’s a recognition that I’ve lived in fear for most of my life? I guess I’ve thought it was somehow protecting me? Something inside me tells me that I’ve never ‘allowed’ myself to even begin to shine a light on all of this as it’s ...
Sep 13, 2020•12 min
Listener question - the REAL course seems to look away from ME and into the dissolution of self which I seemed to feel more comfortable with, but this course is turning to and focusing on ME, my actual fear, fear of showering alone, fear of going out alone etc and most importantly fear of me/of reality. I feel quite numb and a bit detached/lost. I usually cant wait for the next days video but am not interested (this isn't the correct word I want as its more impersonal than that). I don't want to...
Sep 12, 2020•13 min
Listener question: Exhibiting symptoms of fear and suffering were so dangerous in my formative experience that I’m not sure I recognise when I’m suffering/feeling fear - habits of window dressing and toughing it out would seem to be so ingrained - but I’m wondering if the strong aversion I feel (and subsequent avoiding action I take) to a range of experiences of ‘other’ is suffering in disguise?
Sep 11, 2020•11 min
Listener question: "Would it ultimately be cruel or healing to try to go cold turkey on these avoidance/ cleaning rituals? Is that what I need to do to finally fully rewire my cells and brain patterns to know it is all my imagination today? In other words, is it really true that my avoidance/cleaning habits are actually numbing techniques that are keeping the PTSD “self” lodged deeper in place?
Sep 10, 2020•9 min
Exploring the fear related to decisions and to 'doing the right thing' and how the actions will always be what makes sense given the understanding of reality and self
Sep 09, 2020•9 min
Exploring the relationship between body, mind and self and what that means for self care.
Sep 08, 2020•6 min
Exploring how behaviour is simultaneously 'just what is' and also an indication of the protection of something that doesn't even exist.
Sep 07, 2020•7 min
Exploring how feeling the fear and doing it anyway can result in a change of understanding but can equally reinforce the misunderstanding. Understanding that fear is the protection of a vulnerable self is the opportunity to see what that self really is.
Sep 06, 2020•9 min
Fear is the gift that shows all this armour and defence is actually protecting nothing.
Sep 05, 2020•6 min
Exploring the link between fear and self loathing. If you have a question related to fear please send to clare@claredimond.com. Thank you x
Sep 04, 2020•11 min
Exploring why seeing the self, the experience and the other as separate objective entities maintains the suffering and exhaustion.
Sep 04, 2020•8 min
Exploring how powerfully fear can manifest in destruction, damage, addiction and confusion and yet ultimately nothing is being protected.
Sep 02, 2020•6 min
Over this month we'll explore what fear really is. Today we begin with an introduction. Please send any questions to clare@claredimond.com.
Sep 01, 2020•7 min
Exploring how the understanding that 'there is no objective reality' is never a denial and always an opening to whatever arises.
Aug 31, 2020•12 min
Exploring how mental health exercises, like anything else, if carried out from a place of misunderstanding, only increase the suffering.
Aug 30, 2020•7 min
Exploring the yearning for connection and the inevitable patterns of defence and protection that will play out when that yearning is misunderstood.
Aug 29, 2020•8 min
Exploring how the seeing of a unhelpful pattern means it is already on its way out. [If you have anything you would like us to explore please message clare@claredimond.com]
Aug 28, 2020•8 min
Exploring this irony: the realisation that the idea of self is not something that can belong anywhere allows the freedom of movement to the places and people where the unique expression to be expressed most vibrantly.
Aug 27, 2020•9 min
Exploring how the suffering in a marriage is always a reminder of who we are.
Aug 26, 2020•11 min
Summarising how the look at the different sins has made it clear that there is no possibility of sin...
Aug 25, 2020•4 min
Exploring how there is no amount of work which will secure the self and no amount of avoidance. With the realisation of that life is simply a response to what arises.
Aug 24, 2020•6 min
Exploring how greed is the desire for more and more in an attempt to secure the self.
Aug 23, 2020•8 min
Exploring how anger is not a choice or a sin it is simply a learned reaction that will fall away with the realisation that there is no separate object or person to be angry at and no self to be angry.
Aug 22, 2020•9 min
Exploring how the extraordinarily complex landscape of lust, desire and sexual behaviour becomes increasingly simple with an understanding of who we are.
Aug 21, 2020•9 min
