Authority, behaviours and truth : Listener question

I am afraid to do things wrong in eyes of this course.. or that i am not allowed to have a different view. (Projection)

My upbringing was, based on indoctrinate with less room of free thinking and was a lot about those topics of approval and judgment of God. (someone outside of me who says and dictate what i have to think or do.)

This caused that I project on others around me, like; They know better than me. I am not good enough. 

When i am writing this i see it's total confusion. 

And maybe that's why it feel so contracted, although i know that I am freedom itself, however something inside me still think i am not. This routine habbit still need to fade away.