Christian Hip Hop and Mental Health with Dani B, Crowned Radio

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Dave Quak 
Welcome to Sunburnt Souls. On this show, we chat about life and faith in our mental well-being. And today we're in for a special treat as my partner in crime, Amelia interviews Danny B from Crown Radio. Danny B runs a Christian hip hop radio station in the States, and Crown Radio was the first international radio station to take some bird souls on as a partner.

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Dave Quak 
Podcast. Danny B is a sought after speaker and incredible woman of God. So tune in and I'm sure you're going to be blessed by today's episode.

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Amelia Rees
Welcome some bent souls. We've got a special lady from across the pond all the way from Atlanta, Georgia. She is a Christian poet. She is a master storyteller and a founder of Crowned Radio Station, which is a 24 hour digital broadcast station. So welcome, Danny.

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Dani B
Thank you. I'm so excited to be on here today and get to have some great conversations with you. So I thank you for having me on.

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Amelia Rees
Oh, you're most welcome. We're excited to have you too. So let's get straight into it. My first question for you, because this is a podcast all about Christianity and mental health. How did you meet the Lord?

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Dani B
How do we, It's a great, great conversation. My mother, is an evangelist. In our family, my grandmother, everybody's just always heavily in the church. So having a relationship with Christ for me started really young. Where we're, I'm from originally from Florida. So, our church down there. We were in church all day, so, like, 6 a.m., you know, Bible study and then, like, well, you guys want breakfast?

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Dani B
I'm like, no, I want to go to sleep. And then after that, you know, it's service. And they're like, hey, let's go out to eat. I'm like, we're still hanging out. And then after you're going out to eat, we come back for what they call like midnight, not midnight, but like evening service. I was always in church, but I really, truly feel like the moment that I have an encounter with Christ that was independently mine.

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Dani B
I was, like, in my 20s. I was probably 22, and I was facing, a breakdown in that moment. And I miss want to get it right. Miss want to be in control. Everything has to be perfect. And at that moment in my life, I felt like I was losing control. And so I dealt with in that moment, me trying to have a suicide attempt.

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Dani B
I was like, I'm gonna take these pills. I'm going to get in the tub and I'm going to float under the water. And I tell everybody, I'm just not a good follow through here with that one, because as soon as I put the pills, I spit it out. As soon as I got the water, I was like, I'm not ready.

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Dani B
I thought I was down for this ride and I wasn't. And I just remember the Holy Spirit really dealing with me and and really allowing for me to understand, you know, this moment in my life was specifically just for me. And to not be in this place of comparison. A lot of times for me, when my walk with Christ, it was always compare, compare.

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Dani B
I don't have this. And so I would get in these spirals of like depression or spirals of anxiety, dealt with anxiety for a long, long time of my life. And it all had to do with trying to be in control of the narrative. The story, the next step, the next day. And so when I met Christ in that moment, in my tub, in my bathroom, like, the Lord really grabbed me.

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Dani B
I went to church that next Sunday and just really cried out to the Lord. And ever since then, it's just a continuous, love that I have for the Lord. And you know, doesn't mean every day is the best day. Doesn't mean that I haven't ran into situations that have, you know, brought me back and I had to come back on in with them.

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Dani B
But the Lord really revealed something to me this week. Just that every part of my life has been very difficult, because that's where a lot of my anger and depression would come from. Every moment God got the glory and the Lord was just showing me that, like, look, every situation I never left you. Every situation that you thought was like this, this terrible thing at the end of it was so glorious.

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Dani B
And you know why? It was gorgeous? Because you were able to say, let me tell you what God did. And that's when I told people like, I know God is real, right? Because it was in those moments of the hardest times of my life where God just showed up and was just like, yeah, here. Been. Just need you to see me.

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Dani B
How are you doing? And so those were like, those moments, but 22 was really that, like, boom. Like, man, I'm. I'm ready to rock out with the Lord. And it's, it's been a continuous relationship and walk in close with him. So yeah that I would that would answer that one.

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Amelia Rees
Yeah. Yeah. It's crazy how we go through life and we it seems to be that some of us just have hardening after hardening of the hardening. And it's heavy, but it's incredible when you can look back at that and go, it's not till sort of afterwards that you said, look, there's a oh, God's provision was really in that.

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Dani B
Absolutely.

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Amelia Rees
Had I not had that, like I wouldn't have been able to cope or I wouldn't have been able to make it. And even though it felt like you're not able to cope in that moment. Yeah. Or who protects us from a lot of that even though it doesn't feel like it.

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Dani B
Amen. Absolutely. Absolutely.

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Amelia Rees
Yeah. So you are a poet. Tell us about that.

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Dani B
Yeah, man, I have been writing poetry since I was seven.

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Amelia Rees


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Dani B
Yeah. Got in competitions, like, flew out to different states and did competitions. Really a cool, thing that the Lord has blessed me with of just being very descriptive and writing and, visual, you know, with, with the concepts of writing. And so, last year, September, my album came out. It was called healing in the mix. And really, it was just a collective of poems that were like all these places we just heard about these hard heart spaces in my life where, you know, I talked about losing my husband at 33, and I was writing poetry, like, literally for my husband's funeral.

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Dani B
I wrote a poem the night he died, like, you know, the morning, like, before the funeral is like, I got it. I got to write something, you know, was just who I was at nature. But, we talk about, that situation, just being right with the Lord. And then also to even after because my husband's been, deceased, for six years now.

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Dani B
But even when I began dating again, I was. So if you were dating these days, your girl is 38. I'm like, listen, I'm good. Lord, you know, like, I don't I don't have any prayer requests at this moment because the even the same part they're missing, you know? So I'm like, Lord, I'm good. So just say I'm, I'm okay.

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Dani B
But anyway, we talked about where I had a segment in my life after that where I dated. It was heartbreak again. And wrote poetry about that. So it's like really a dope journey that I get to kind of share with everybody, about heartache and disappointment and pain, but then bring it right back to the word of God.

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Dani B
And that is really been my journey in life, that every thing that has been difficult or hard. What is the Word of God say? How do we counter that pain, that hurt, that frustration? What is God's promise? And so the album has that tone for you. And then we have the one that my first single that came out was called discontinued.

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Dani B
And that was just literally where we, I kind of wrote it in the sense of like, almost going grocery shopping, right. And, and, and I even say on there, like, I got tired of dealing with men who like to do the, the buy one, get two free hour by hour sampling. Right. And so we think of all those things in life, you know, and it was really this, this poem that I first wrote before I got it to my poem, a poetry album, where I just was really time of, hey, I'm done with the old me.

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Dani B
So now that I'm discontinued in this version that was giving giving yourself over to the world and over to situations that were not really, God driven. You know, I then got to look back and say, no, now, now we're stopping this. We're walking with God. And so now this person becomes rare and unique. There's not another one like her.

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Dani B
She she's been molded and crafted in, in the image and really molded in God's word. And so now she has a new walk, with the Lord. So, yeah. So the album was a lot of fun to make. I made that album. In the midst of my little situationship, as I call it, you know, and the gentleman, I was very upset.

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Dani B
I was just like, Lord, I know you said turn the other cheek. However, I want to go this way and and just lose it. And so in the midst of that, God showed us off once again, like we talked about. And, was moving the individual, you know, away from me and getting things out of my home that belong to the person.

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Dani B
And this guy who came to help me move some things that my father knew. He said, hey, you know, what do you do? I was like, well, I love writing poetry, but I've been trying to find somebody to help me with the music piece of it. And he goes, well, I do music. And in the midst of, like, this crazy situation that I was in, there goes my producer.

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Dani B
And that is how my album got birthed. And he was on me because, you know, it's ladies when we go through a breakup where he's just like, everything is not right. You know, we don't. It's losing it. You know? It's like, I hate mocha. So, you know, you're having these moments, you know? And so I told God.

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Dani B
But the beautiful thing about that whole breakup situation and him getting out of my life was I said a prayer because I knew things weren't right. And I said, God, if this person isn't supposed to be in my life, like, remove them. And this is a part in the in the album, literally the next day all these things start coming out and he has to be removed out of my life because the way things unfolded, there was no other way for me to accept him after this point.

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Dani B
And I say, okay, Jesus, you know, I know what I asked, but 24 hours was doing a lot. You know, give me 48, maybe two months, maybe.

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Amelia Rees


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Dani B
Yeah. Give me a little bit of time. Give me a little bit of leeway. Well, the Lord was like. And it's tomorrow. And so it was like, oh my gosh. And so it happened. But in the in the midst of all the confusion and craziness and me finding about this person that I really thought was my best friend, to be honest, was not who I thought they were.

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Dani B
But the beautiful thing was the album was birthed out of it. The beautiful thing was my radio station had its first opportunity, to go to Las Vegas and actually be on the red carpet with one of the first, gospel, you know, shows on television, like, so I just was watching, got like, I didn't I didn't necessarily want it to happen this way, but I'm okay.

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Dani B
You know, like the album came out.

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Amelia Rees
Just like last year. People expect.

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Dani B
Like, what did you want for me, lady? You know, so that's the long answer about the album. But yeah, poetry is my heart. It's it's who I am at the core. And it was a just, a beautiful time to to write and be able to be in communion with God as I was writing the album.

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Amelia Rees
Yeah. Something I loved that you said was like talking about the promises yes, Lord has had for us. Is there anything specific that he's really revealed to you throughout your journey? That has sort of been something that you've held onto for a long time?

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Dani B
Oh, that's a great question. Like, you know, I'm looking back here, like, so I have, like, all these Bible verses. One of them is James one verse 2 to 3, and it says, consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know, the testing of your faith produces perseverance.

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Dani B
That is like the theme of my life that if I die any time soon, y'all remember this is what I want on my tombstone. It it's the theme of my life. And that is what God has been revealing to me, right? That the trials are about bringing perseverance. It's this beautiful thing where you're you're literally letting go and trusting God in such a way.

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Dani B
I always tell my friends, we're so good. Like, I have faith. I have faith, and it's like, do you know, like really? And, you know, I go back to the Bible and I think about Jacob, I think about Esther, and we always forget. And I say always, sometimes some of us will forget. For me, I couldn't stand up for myself that the time it was like the time that really happened.

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Dani B
When we read the Bible, we're just like, boom, boom, boom, boom to the chapter. So that like, oh, that happened last week. Okay. And then oh, okay. So it's all done in a month knowing there's these years. And so the beautiful thing that God has been revealing to me is time. And and understanding that in that time it's an opportunity for me to continuously be in communion with him, continuously grow and learn with him, even through my trials and tribulations.

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Dani B
Lean on him. Trust him on that. When I can't understand it and I don't see it in front of me, it's okay. He tells us. What? Don't worry about tomorrow. I have a problem with his own. So really, just learning that the systematic things of the world that we create this, like urgency for God is just place me in this very calm space to just say I can only be in today and.

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Dani B
And today, all of my sins that I've dealt with. I had to let them die. I have to have a renewed mind, a renewed heart, and really just start over with God every single day with this new profound hunger for His Word. Right? This new profound hunger for a relationship with him. Because I always tell people I know the Lord be like this girl.

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Dani B
You know, because I have tantrums, you know, the Lord knows me. Well, I'm just like, excuse me, sir, we can we do a power punching. I told you last month this was it. So, you know, like, going through those moments with God is just been a beautiful thing. So I think that's been like the theme is like, hey, it's going to be trials and tribulations.

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Dani B
It's going to be difficult. When my husband died, I didn't expect him to die. It wasn't he was sick. But we just would. I never would have imagined waking up and my husband not being there for me, right? My my husband died. My kids had twins, I have twins, they were one, I had a my daughter was two.

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Dani B
And then my oldest girls were like 7 or 8. So navigating with them all these years and and just saying, okay, God, I'm giving it to you. I'm giving it to you because I'm like, because he knows my behavior. I like to try to figure it out on my own. So the story has been just staying in his word and trusting what the word says about your situation.

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Dani B
Interesting that not my image. Yeah.

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Amelia Rees
100%. I thank you for sharing all of that. Yeah, yeah, it's heavy because like and and you mentioned your your husband because you become a widow. What, 32.

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Dani B
Yeah. 3233 somewhere around there.

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Amelia Rees
So. Right.

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Dani B
Yeah. And it was, it was one of those situations where I found my husband, disease and, I remember it was like two weeks before my husband died. He had came to me, and he's like, I'm not going to always be your Daniel. You know? I just feel like I'm not going to always be here. And I looked at him and I said, let me say something to you because all these little girls, we have six girls all together blended.

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Dani B
And I was like, there's no way, I will phone Jesus and we you have to have a conversation about why this is not going to work. So save the whatever you're trying to tell me right now for some other day that's not happened. So literally two weeks later, he passes, and I found him. And that's in the album, too, that I speak of.

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Dani B
It was like 2:00 in the morning, and I just remembering being cold because our my daughter was crying, we were moving and we went to his mother's house to stay over because we were moving all hours of our lives to get a new house. And, I just got cold. I kept getting cold. And so, the alarm was going off, and I'm thinking, why he will turn this alarm off, you know, but sometimes you sleep hard, so I go out.

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Dani B
I'm looking for him. I don't see him as a real motorcycle daredevil on that. And I'm outside. I look at the motorcycle like he's not out there wiping it down. And I look over the couch and he's on the floor face down. And so I remember just touching his shoulder and it was stiff, like, it's squeaking. He is here.

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Dani B
Like, I just I just remember the smell the moment. Right. The beautiful thing in that moment was my husband. I gave his life to Christ, fully walking with the Lord, like maybe four months, five months before his death. Oh, wow. And he was telling everybody about God. Like bringing people of the house. Like, let me tell you about Jesus.

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Dani B
Let me tell you my guys at work, he says in our pastor, like, give me your sermons. I was like, why are you doing that? You know, he's like, give me your sermon. I want to share it at work, you know? And, so he was just having this, this amazing love and passion to share the love of God.

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Dani B
And so when he died, I wasn't sad. I was like, wow. Like, look at what God did. You know? And so when he passed really quickly, I found him. And I remember the, the police station was not too far from us, so they got there really quickly before the car in that corner and everything. And I remember just getting up, praising God, and I was worshiping and praying he's there dead, but just worshiping and thanking God for his life, thanking God and the police officers said, I've never seen this before.

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Dani B
I've never seen anybody like sit here and pray and thank God. But I said, I have to rejoice in this moment that, you know, I know he gave his life to God. And I know what the Bible tells us about that. You know, for me, it was it was hard. It was difficult in reality, flesh. But in the spirit.

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Dani B
I was like, thank you, Lord, because I was happy he gave his life over to Christ and was living for God. So that that's a 33. Kids were like one and two. It was a hard any widows out there. My my prayers are always with you because if they're very young, it's very difficult. But God kept me every single way as well as my kids.

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Dani B
So it's a it's it's a journey. But when I say, like God was showing up, he showed up every single step. But yeah, that's that's that. 3332 however, it was me past wow.

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Amelia Rees
And yeah. And so since then you've been on your own new invigorated journey. I guess, you know, you've created a radio station and sorts of stuff. Yes.

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Dani B
Yes, it has evolved. And, you know, I think, you know, in marriage, you're you're you become the identity of the marriage, right? And so there's these things you have passion for. When I was married, had the Miami life with Danny B, I was like, I'm just going to do Miami stuff. You know? I just always had this passion for radio and and things of that nature.

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Dani B
And so, I had the radio station, I came, came up with ideas like, I'm going to do this, I want to do this. And it was just like, so difficult because I'm like, how do you do digital? Like I'm, listen, I'm such a grandma with social media. I'm like, I don't want to post. You know, I always had an attitude about posting.

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Dani B
I have attitude when I talk to like my interns are like, you do have to post these three times a day. I was like, no, I don't like, And they're like, yes, you do. So, you know, like just learning this, the really cool journey about radio in the digital space, we focused on Christian hip hop. We have Christian soul, Christian R&B, we have Christian talk radio.

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Dani B
Listen, Virgil's on there. So God is good. Yeah. It's like I love that with the passion. It's been a beautiful, like a beautiful, journey. And and really honestly, my station got its footing in the midst of when I finally got my station up and running, I was sitting in the lobby of my mom going through chemo treatment.

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Dani B
She got diagnosed with breast cancer, and my mom was just like, we're sitting there. She's like, I gotta go do this. And, you know, I'll sit there. There's like, I'm just trying to figure this out and get frustrated. And my mom was just like, you see me? I'm about to go in here, go through radiation. She's like, God is good.

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Dani B
He'll figure it out. And my mom said a quick prayer for me, and it was like, and the things that I was not understand or I couldn't really grasp, or I didn't know what resources or tools I could use to get it off the ground. I just watch God like, make them just fall at my feet. In a sense.

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Dani B
Yeah. And me become more patient to read. Oh, bless our hearts. You know, it's like work YouTube videos. I'm like, is it at 1.26 or what? You know, making me sit through things, to learn to do it well and steward, the gift that God has given me, which is the station and I, I don't take it as mine.

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Dani B
I know it's our whole goal here at the station is spreading the love of God through music in Christian talk radio. And so it's not mine. It is a tool, that we use to just just glorify and share of that. So it's been a it's been an amazing journey. And I just look forward to what God is going to continue to do on it as well.

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Dani B
Yeah.

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Amelia Rees
Incredible story. Incredible how God has just really used these experiences and, you know, shifted your heart. It's shifting of your heart to because it's hot. Like what you're talking about, everything you're talking about, it's all really heavy stuff. It's a lot of stuff that can make or break your faith, I believe. You know, and for it to strengthen your faith and for you for you to be praising, even just as your husband is.

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Dani B
You.

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Amelia Rees
Just left and gone to be with Jesus. Like, yes, yes. And you mentioned that you had some mental health where at the beginning of sort of in your early 20s, did that sort of raise its head again when at any point or.

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Dani B
So when I went through the interesting thing was when my husband died, it was 2018. Yeah. And then literally it was April 2018, that October, my mom ended up getting sick with this very rare disease that infects, like five, 5% of people every five years or so. Very rare. But you can't walk. You lose functionality of your hands.

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Dani B
And so I'm like, okay, my husband passed trying to maintain. Now my mother can't walk and we don't know what's wrong with her. And then that was 2019. So going through her health declining, not sure if she was going to live. And then the pandemic hit. And so the pandemic goes on and and all these things are happening to me.

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Dani B
And in the journey of my mental health issues that I had in the past was starting to rise back up. And what it is or what it was is a constant look at the why me? And when you sit in the why me? The why me begins to start itching at you and you either going to act out or you're going to.

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Dani B
This is where people do suicide tenses to where people, lash out or get on drugs. This is where I'm going to find an outlet, some place. And I remember, for me, in a mental health space. I began getting angry. And so what happened with me was I was not angry at God. I was just angry.

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Dani B
I just I didn't want to be around people. I isolated, and I was an angry person. And I began to create scenarios and situations for everything. And so. Oh, nobody calls me. Nobody cares. Nobody loves me. My husband died. Look at what people doing. They're tacky. You know, I'm just, like, on a tangent, right? And so as my mental health, started to kind of be affected in that because I was making choices that were built from anger, and still had issues that were in my marriage that when he died were still unresolved.

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Dani B
Right. And so I was just like a ball of fire out here. I mean, I remember I was at Publix with my mask on, which is a grocery store here, and a lady, you know, she's going off our island. And I'm finally like, where are you on this aisle? You know, the lady is like, oh, my gosh.

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Dani B
Like, so like, I'm going to run you over and then what I can, you know, I was like literally losing it, you know? So it was my mental health at a decline. Absolutely. I was just like I was a ball of fire, you know? And I started, that's when I realized I said, okay, God, I did do two things.

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Dani B
I had to stay in your word. And so I began to worship and pray more. And then what I ended up doing was I wrote down every emotion, and I asked God for me to be transparent about my emotions because I would struggle with if I said anything that I felt like offended God. I was like, you are wrong, girlfriend, you know?

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Dani B
So I was afraid to be open. And so I was like, no, God, I'm going to write down that. I'm disappointed that that this happened to me. I'm angry that this happened to me. I'm hurt that people ended up not checking on me anymore after a month, you know, like, I'm. I'm like, I'm. I'm angry. And the Holy Spirit guided me on this journey of countering every bitterness, every anger, every part of me that felt depressed and had anxiety and was frustrated with the Word of God.

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Dani B
So I had this book and it would be like anger. Okay, what Bible verses are we dealing with? With anger, bitterness? What? We were dealing with bitterness. If I ever felt like I was having a moment where I was going to feel like I wanted to, you know, my whole thing later on in life, out of my 20s, was I would drive on the highway and be like, well, I just just drive off the highway.

00;24;04;23 - 00;24;19;17
Dani B
And then if I'm not here anymore, than people would care more about me, right? These are lies and the enemy trying to make me feel that I'm not worthy, that people don't care. Right. And so I just countered everything with the Word of God with the Word of God. The other piece of that journey was for me was getting a therapist.

00;24;19;19 - 00;24;38;04
Dani B
And so coupled with both being in church, staying in my word, and then going to therapy helped me a lot. In therapy, I always tell people, was so much for the flesh to understand how to navigate. Right? When you have these triggers, what are they? And dealing with flesh head on, right? The Bible tells us we do not.

00;24;38;08 - 00;24;56;04
Dani B
We're not fighting against flesh and blood. So then the other half of my journey had to deal with the spiritual attacks and knowing what the Word of God says. And how do I counter that? So throughout that four year journey, your sister in Christ, if you saw me like, honey, I know about you. I had a a about everything.

00;24;56;04 - 00;25;14;21
Dani B
I was just like, what are you looking at? You know, like I just everybody. I was like, I'm sick of you. You know? I was just angry person, you know? So God was dealing with me. So not so much depression, but my mental health became anger. And then believing the lies of the enemy that no one cared. Nobody was going to be there for me and my children.

00;25;14;21 - 00;25;36;08
Dani B
Nobody. And you have to be careful when you experience loss, because the lies of the enemy will create isolation and your isolation. Then you start believing no one cares. Nobody's there. And here's the thing. Even physically or truthfully, if nobody in your family, nobody ever came by. Kyle is always there. He's just like, he's there all the time through the heart.

00;25;36;10 - 00;25;55;12
Dani B
Like, I just remember nights crying out to God because I was tired. I was super tired. I was like, God, this is not fair. I like I'm doing the single mother thing. The school was canceled. There's little people around my house. I'm trying to teach them. Who knows what I'm. I just color in the law and stop talking, you know?

00;25;55;19 - 00;26;14;21
Dani B
So, you know, it was insane. So, you know, God just really did something with me where it was like creating intimacy, but also making sure that from a fleshly perspective that I had support with, you know, a therapist that really helped me with that journey along the way of really talking me off some, you know, really even helping me with with the kids.

00;26;14;23 - 00;26;38;16
Dani B
Hey, you need to bring your tone down. Hey, are you giving yourself to if the kids make a mess? Okay, give them a moment. I'm like, I don't like the crayons that way. You know, I was I was on I was really on. So yeah, that that was really that that mental struggle for me was just the pandemic, the isolation and really getting away from the lies of the enemy and being clear on legacies and his promise.

00;26;38;16 - 00;26;39;10
Dani B


00;26;39;12 - 00;26;57;10
Amelia Rees
Yeah, I love that that description of getting help and it and helping the flesh. Because I think especially when you've grown up as a Christian for a long time, you sort of get into this mindset that well oh I mustn't need it because I've got Jesus or I mustn't need it because I've got the Lord and he's going to help me.

00;26;57;13 - 00;27;17;13
Amelia Rees
Yes, but there's just so many things that happen within our bodies. Yes. You know, like there's still times I. I had some health scares me. And I lost a friend. And, you know, there's things that in my life that Atreus. And to me, I sought help. I didn't realize that that was just my body going, okay, we're gonna have to get ready to fight or flight.

00;27;17;13 - 00;27;40;07
Amelia Rees
Like, what's it's gonna look like if a siren goes past or whatever it is. Yeah. You know, and learning how to control that. Because then once you can, you go, okay, we're safe. So like you said, it's it's talking to your body and going, my mind, my body. What this meat sack is just needs some help. And then my spirit's going to try and align itself with the Lord and.

00;27;40;07 - 00;27;58;13
Amelia Rees
But bringing those two things together, it gives you tools. It's the tool belt. Because I know a lot of a lot of Christians who are a little resistant to seeking help. Yeah. Like I come on, you get like, it's not me. It's not that you're not equipped. It's not that you're not Christian enough or that you're not faithful enough.

00;27;58;13 - 00;28;16;17
Amelia Rees
Like life is hard. It's full of sin. It has been for an extra long time. Yeah. So that's why we get sick. And like there's not just one side of the story here. So you have to sort of bring in. Okay. Well with being spiritually attacked that. Yeah. Part of it. Yeah. Walking in the spirit is none another.

00;28;16;17 - 00;28;21;00
Amelia Rees
And then in our bodies and what does that look like. And you need that holistic approach.

00;28;21;00 - 00;28;39;07
Dani B
Are you going to know. And I think the beautiful thing about where as Christians we have to realize the resources are beautiful, right? Because I had a Christian based, therapist. Right. And so he was actually a pastor, and he, like, every session was like, okay, let's talk about what Bible verses we need to read, because I heard what you did it.

00;28;39;08 - 00;28;57;16
Dani B
You know, Pope likes. Okay, I heard you got the sermon. Smacked her. I'm like, I just didn't. Oh, today wasn't the day for me, you know. So we we talked about. Okay. But then also too, because I had a, a man was a gentleman. And I did that on purpose, because I'm super overly emotional. I have all girls.

00;28;57;16 - 00;29;26;02
Dani B
I was like, I need someone who's just like, cut it at the neck for me, ma'am, we we don't want to hear it. Wipe your tears away, girlfriend. You're doing too much. And he was that that that therapist for me, right? He was like, so let's go back on that, you know? And the beautiful thing is, we had that relationship, my therapist and I, for almost like five years, and not even only where he helped me through those seasons of me losing my husband, the pandemic.

00;29;26;02 - 00;29;43;09
Dani B
But even from a work perspective, I'm a manager. And I managed people, during the pandemic. And it was difficult because people had all type of like. And I'm like, listen, I go to work every day. If I'm sick or not, you can get out. You know? They're like, no, dang. I was like, and so teaching me empathy, right.

00;29;43;11 - 00;30;07;10
Dani B
This is something that the Bible teaches us, but do we really garnish it? And so it's like there's people in church right where we have some tendencies as people that don't sometimes line up with the Lord. Okay. And with that. And so it allows for you to go back and figure out, when you're in therapy and especially if you get a Christian baseline, what are those triggers to your point, right?

00;30;07;13 - 00;30;21;22
Dani B
What maybe happened when you were younger and you might have just missed that? This is what's kind of shaped and framed you. Let's reroute this. Right. And then let's was bring it back in with the word of God. Let's talk about what where our prayer points are this week for you. And that's what made it beautiful for me.

00;30;21;22 - 00;30;38;25
Dani B
So I think as Christians, we also have to know that resource is there for you to find a Christian therapist. So, you know, you have that person who's going to give you that Word of God in the midst of your conversation, who's, licensed to have it with you and to be room. Let's be real with you. But yeah, I agree with you.

00;30;38;27 - 00;30;55;26
Amelia Rees
That's what it is to. And I think that's where true friendship and disciple comes in. Discipleship comes in as well, because being real with people, yeah, we are in such a social media sort of look at me or I'm going to put on this face and like, to be honest, I don't have time for that. But this is me.

00;30;56;01 - 00;30;59;21
Amelia Rees
If you don't like it, you can take it. Bye bye. You can leave it. Yeah, I don't care.

00;30;59;23 - 00;31;17;01
Dani B
Yeah, it is what it is. I'm tired, as I told you. I'm like, I'm not okay. No, no. And you're so real about that because, like, I, I laugh with one of my friends. We use filter so much. Right? And I don't know how old you are, but when I was back in the day and I had a cell phone, it only have like, remember just the color tones.

00;31;17;01 - 00;31;26;11
Dani B
Like it would be like vinaigrette and something like you just literally could just is black or white vinaigrette, whatever. And it's that vinaigrette I don't even know it's called, but it starts with the it.

00;31;26;12 - 00;31;29;06
Amelia Rees
Yeah. It's like a yellow out of like one. That's it.

00;31;29;08 - 00;31;54;17
Dani B
That's all you got baby here to that me we're up here. You're a whole different individual. And so I laugh because we, I was using my filter. Have it too much one day you know you swipe. Yeah I was like wait a minute. Go back. And I was like I said, I'm getting old. I got these wrinkles. Oh my gosh, I need to stop using this filter because I have apparently forgotten who I was.

00;31;54;17 - 00;32;13;02
Dani B
Oh my gosh, you know, I was just like, Lord, help me grab me back because, I mean, I slip like I swiped and I was like, this is an old person filter or is this me? It's like, you know, so, you know, I had to go back and be like, you need to cut that down. But the other thing, to your point, right, we live in such a world where where everybody wants to show up.

00;32;13;02 - 00;32;28;11
Dani B
And this has been the theme of me and what God has called me to do. You know, just the perfectionism, right? We want to show it perfect. We want to look perfect. We want to. And and to your point about discipleship, discipleship. God will use man the worst of the worst. And we see that all throughout the Bible.

00;32;28;13 - 00;32;48;22
Dani B
We see it in today's like that story of saying, hey, I wasn't always this well, look at God. That's a beautiful thing to do. And so I think we do, to your point, have to get away from this as fake facade. Some of it, and I'm not saying everybody is, but it was. Come on. You know, and really be truthful to say, hey, you know what?

00;32;48;25 - 00;33;08;10
Dani B
I gave my life over to Christ, but two weeks ago I sinned. And I need you guys to be in prayer with me. That's beauty. And that's that's finding people. When 2 or 3 gather together and are able to pray for you truthfully, so that we can see the shift. Right. But if you're going to sit up there and be like, okay, you know, about sharing a testimony, you're like, I'm good.

00;33;08;12 - 00;33;27;27
Dani B
Meanwhile, behind closed doors, you're a riot. You know what the Bible says, you know, so it's going to be wide and then there's going to be a narrow way. And we have to start really living that truth to say, God, where is my heart? Like you said earlier, where's my heart posture? Am I really, truly living the life that you've called me to live?

00;33;27;27 - 00;33;41;25
Dani B
Am I, arrogant? Am I that, like, really digging through your heart and being real with God and the people around you so that you can have freedom in Christ? So I agree with you totally. The filters will get you. Stop it. Yeah, the.

00;33;41;27 - 00;33;50;08
Amelia Rees
Filters say fun at once, a fun, I know I get them all right. And they disclosed it all right.

00;33;50;11 - 00;33;52;11
Dani B
Yeah. No. That's great.

00;33;52;14 - 00;34;17;09
Amelia Rees
Exactly. So you've recently done this crowned radio. Yes. Where you've. And I've also noticed that you've got a your are your own podcast where you're interviewing up and coming Christian artists. Yeah. Lots of stuff. How is that network sort of growing for you and what is has there been any sort of constant themes throughout your podcast that you've sort of noticed where you're like, yeah.

00;34;17;15 - 00;34;35;01
Dani B
You know what? I was sitting there with the station and I'm like, okay, God, I have my own show as well. On Saturdays, I'll be the Black Saturdays with Danny B, and, it's funny enough, somebody saw him and they were like, beat the Block. I was like, you know, like, because I do do that, but I just never met.

00;34;35;01 - 00;34;52;21
Dani B
So I was like, oh, you really know. I'm really cutting up, right? I, but the podcast kind of formulated in the sense of, I was interviewing people for the show Saturday that I do. And if with the radio you can't have too much long of a conversation like you and I are having right now, you know, like, truthfully, right?

00;34;52;24 - 00;34;53;22
Amelia Rees
We just look at.

00;34;53;24 - 00;35;17;06
Dani B
What do I need to do, you know? So the podcast came, it was like real talk with Danny, me and, my first individual that I got to interview, Oh, jeez. Oh, is a singer. He is a Christian singer. Reached out to me, gave me his music. And we just really connected, and shared his story through his music.

00;35;17;08 - 00;35;33;01
Dani B
And then from there, you know, it just was artist after artist, and then people were reaching out to me. So the beauty of the podcast is I have people send me music either way. And then that's where I have the opportunity to build relationship with them. And I always send these emails. I'm like, well, to the family, you know, because we are family.

00;35;33;03 - 00;35;53;08
Dani B
And then those have evolved. And so lately, we've had, we just had, the anomaly. She's amazing. Christian, hip hop artist. She was on a song with Lecrae, and they won a Grammy, this past year. And even being able to talk to her, we didn't focus on the music. We focused on what she did for people in her community.

00;35;53;10 - 00;36;35;20
Dani B
And so you're learning with these artists as you're going through. There's so much story behind them of her working with young adults in her community. Helping them understand their artistry, grounding their faith. Right. And then moving on to where I just had, Justo and, and, both Fisher. And they were ex addicts. They were on drugs, and they both met in a recovery center, and from there fell in love with music and they started writing from their have like, have has amazing music and disciple other their, you know, discipleship and, and soon to be labels called alter ego but like at the altar and so you're seeing as

00;36;35;20 - 00;36;53;26
Dani B
we go with each person on real talk with the enemy is just an evolution of sharing each artist. But what God has been doing in their life, outside of the music. And sometimes I'll grab every song on their album and I'll say, tell me where you were with Christ during that time. Tell me what God was doing in your life right there.

00;36;53;28 - 00;37;26;02
Dani B
And so it's been an interesting journey. I think the theme that I'm just seeing God reveal is getting to know the people's heart, and what he's been doing in it. And then as they share what God has been doing in their heart, it becomes a testimony for someone else. And I mean, it's just been a beautiful thing, a response from other people to say, I didn't know they were going through that or I didn't know, you know, and you're seeing people be able to open up about drug addiction, opened up about, hey, I was growing up in a tough neighborhood, and I thought I didn't have an outlet, but she's showing

00;37;26;02 - 00;37;38;28
Dani B
me she came from foster care and was able to make it. So. Is it some beautiful stories all throughout each one? Of the artist. That really has been a journey. And I look forward to more.

00;37;39;01 - 00;37;57;11
Amelia Rees
Yeah. And I think it's that creativity creativity piece as well. Like have have you noticed because you're quite in the heavily in the radio. Yeah. Have you noticed any shifts with that with this next sort of younger generation? Because we're in the sort of the mindset of like I things are created and some things are real, some things are not.

00;37;57;11 - 00;38;05;15
Amelia Rees
Like, has it been any sort of shifts in that way? You're like, oh, I'm like that. Yeah. Seen God sort of overcome that in any sense.

00;38;05;15 - 00;38;22;22
Dani B
You know, the interesting thing is because we focus heavily on Christian hip hop, and the source of it is hip hop, right? Which is a secular, secular space. And so there becomes this conversation of, you know, we may just have where Jackie Hill, Perry, they were on her heavily because she felt like there wasn't any lyricism in Christian hip hop.

00;38;22;24 - 00;38;45;25
Dani B
And so then I had I, the anomaly, define what lyricism is right. And so you're seeing in this newer generation, they have tools and resources to share. There are easy it is okay to share. Easy is okay to share seamlessly. But my my conversation lately has been what work and time have you placed in it?

00;38;45;28 - 00;39;02;10
Dani B
To make sure that you're you're shaping it with Christ in the midst of it. Right. I wish your heart passion. Why are you doing it? Are you doing it for the right reasons? Or are you just doing it because you want the followers and you're hoping you make a couple thousand dollars out of this situation? And by the way, if you look at YouTube and see how they pay out, it's not what people think.

00;39;02;10 - 00;39;24;21
Dani B
So it's just like, you know, really talking to people to to really understand what is your motive. Is it because we at Crown Radio Station truly believe everything we're doing is to spread the love of God? And so I'm just watching some artists not spend enough time on their craft, and take on what other people are doing.

00;39;24;21 - 00;39;43;20
Dani B
So, you know, we have the different auto tunes and, and then I'm like, okay, so can I ask you a question? Can I actually hear you sing? You know, like without the autotune? Can you just sing a ballad for me? And so I know you sing, so there's nothing wrong with it. But I think people have to, especially in the Christian environment.

00;39;43;22 - 00;40;03;15
Dani B
I went to the Stellar Awards this year in, in the US, and, you know, they, they had where we had a writers symposium and we talked about music and artistry and how even in the gospel music, it has gone on the decline. People are not running to that anymore. They're looking for higher beats, Afro, beats or just more hip hop.

00;40;03;21 - 00;40;21;18
Dani B
But then even when they go to their, are we making sure that we're discipling through the music, we're showing them the love of, that we're leading them the right way? And so we just have to pay attention with this new generation of not always taking the easy route. And letting them know that we go back to the prior conversation about time.

00;40;21;21 - 00;40;37;05
Dani B
And that's what I took away from even me going to Delaware words and being a part of a lot of the conversations with, artists, you know, Jonathan McReynolds and and different people there, Mary, Mary and really talking about, hey, it's a time, it takes time. And so my thing is you're going to see because it's moving.

00;40;37;05 - 00;40;58;16
Dani B
So fast, you'll see this cycle of artists go through their come in, go out, come in and go out. And my prayer is that it stops. There is a time on the craft that people start going back to artistry camps, where they used to teach them the art of music. Why? Radio is important because we have artists who feel like I don't need radio, because I can stream.

00;40;58;18 - 00;41;16;10
Dani B
But radio is going to give you the opportunity to interview, share your story. Your streams don't do that. They just play music as well to your point right. You see so many people they're hooked on numbers. But there's so many analytics behind it that people have to learn the analytics, even understand the truth of what's coming out.

00;41;16;10 - 00;41;28;05
Dani B
But yeah, that's what I see with music and a lot of what we have going on. But the hope is that, you know, they change, slow down and really put quality, you know, for quantity.

00;41;28;08 - 00;41;40;25
Amelia Rees
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, definitely. Well I think there's hope, especially for the gospel music. I've got a mate of mine. He's just become a Christian in the last six months. Hey man doesn't listen to any secular music anymore. Amen. Only goes is music. Can't see it.

00;41;40;27 - 00;41;57;05
Dani B
Laser focus. Don't even come here with that. I'm not even mad at it. You have to do it, though, because the songs are the world. I mean, they'll get your mind twist in one way to the left. And, you know, I teach my kids, I'm like, listen, I'm going to listen to worship music when they go to bed.

00;41;57;05 - 00;42;17;19
Dani B
There's no worship music. Yeah. You have to guard your ears in your heart because between that and TV, you don't know what you're consuming. But yeah, that's that's good for him. So he can definitely some listen to current radio station as well. It's a nonstop he everything's there for him.

00;42;17;21 - 00;42;26;02
Amelia Rees
So good. And how your how you're just to jump into a different topic. How is your family life and your kids and stuff like doing now.

00;42;26;05 - 00;42;52;26
Dani B
Man. So I think the kids it's been a journey. I think for me it's creating. This place where they're able to remember their dad, because they really don't know him. You know, they're one and two now. Babies. Yeah. The older ones. Yes. They know who their dad is, you know, or was. But for them, it's been this continuous thing of praying for my kids.

00;42;52;29 - 00;43;15;00
Dani B
The world that we live in is so, Next level. And you just go ahead and put it, you know, I was like. I was like, I don't know what I do. Owning is demonic today. You know, it's next level demonic. So a lot going on that are feeding your children and, and for them through grief and loss and trying to teach them what it is.

00;43;15;00 - 00;43;31;21
Dani B
I've never shied away from the conversations about their dad. So, like, we just they literally tried out for basketball today. And my daughter comes downstairs, she's like, mom, you know, this is for my dad. It's for his memory. I'm going to get on this team. I was like, God, I pray she gets on this team. God, he comes in.

00;43;31;21 - 00;43;48;28
Dani B
Her name is not on the list. I'm not. We're just going to pray for you on Sunday, okay? But, yeah. No, you know, like, the kids are, are growing. They, have a beautiful relationship with God. Our church, I go to 20 and 19 here in Atlanta. And so like, we had access, which is an hour of prayer.

00;43;49;00 - 00;44;06;28
Dani B
And I was sick, so I couldn't go to church, but I got to get my kids in the room downstairs and we worship. I said, lift your hands up, I say, Jesus. So just as a parent for my girls, they're doing well. And it's just been the reality of me sharing with them who God is. Yesterday we did like Bible trivia.

00;44;06;28 - 00;44;32;17
Dani B
I was like, okay, what did God do the first day? You know, one of them was like, let there be, I don't know, be. I was like, come on, you know this, you know, like and the other ones, like, why? You know, so, you know, it's it's like teaching them the foundation, you know, and so that then when things do happen, because they've seen a lot, they've experienced a lot of loss and a lot of traumas happening around us, even with my mom being sick.

00;44;32;20 - 00;44;51;21
Dani B
Pastor Nana, they're like, she's going to die like our dad. You know, those are triggers, right? And it's calling into her, like, you know, your dad is with God. Like, there's let's read the Bible verse that talks about where he with that beautiful thing is so transforming your kid's mind on what the world will deem as this.

00;44;51;21 - 00;45;12;22
Dani B
Like, catastrophic situation, and reminding them that as long as they're walking with God and you know that they've given their life, there's going to be this beautiful ending that will surpass all your understanding. And then one day, if you behave, he knows what time like is if you act right, you know, you'll be so I. And my mom was like, you need to stop saying that.

00;45;12;24 - 00;45;27;02
Dani B
What am I doing? She's like, one day was thundering. She's like, I'm not going, you know? I was like, it's just a little thunder. It'll be over like in five minutes, you know? Like. But really teaching them to have the fear of God in them, but also to like the love of God, you know, and understanding it.

00;45;27;02 - 00;45;53;09
Dani B
So for the kids, it's always been a journey. I think as a widow, you're trying to with every anniversary, with every birthday, with every this is the year of, him passing or, you know, Father's Day, which is difficult at times. I had the father daughter dance. So thank God, my brother, my dad, my stepfather, and one of their uncles, they all stepped in and took them to the dance.

00;45;53;11 - 00;46;14;05
Dani B
So those moments, they help your children really move forward. And then just the prayer, like God says, I'm. I'm there, I'm with them. So I just let them know and be assured your earthly father is not here. But you have a father right here that hears you. Here's your cries. They cry. Sometimes we pray and we you just have to keep loving on them.

00;46;14;11 - 00;46;28;10
Dani B
And God was working on me too, because I was like, we we don't have no time for tears. We got to keep moving girls, you know? And so God had to work on me to to say, it's okay for them to see you cry at times and let you know that it does hurt. You know, that trusting God that everything is going to be all right.

00;46;28;12 - 00;46;30;06
Dani B
So yeah, they're doing that.

00;46;30;08 - 00;46;46;11
Amelia Rees
Oh, that's so good to hear and good on you because it's a hard, hard, hard journey. Yes. Yeah I bet it sounds like you've got a fair bit of support that school around you to us encouraging and having, you know, strong men in their lives as well, especially with your daughters who I mean.

00;46;46;13 - 00;47;11;28
Dani B
Right. Anybody, anybody. I'm like because just the bickering I told my kids the other day is like, it's like, stop arguing. I was like, please, I don't you wake up. If you find a way to say that this person frustrates you, you know, like she's sleeping too close to me. You know, I was like, well, everybody has their own bed, but you keep getting the bit with each other, you know, like, you know, it's like, what are we doing here?

00;47;11;28 - 00;47;33;03
Dani B
You know, they're brushing their teeth. Move out of the way. There's two things I'm not understanding. Why everybody's part of that one, to argue and fight on this, you know, like stop. You know. So I think it's this interesting place, like with the kids of having support, you know, thank God for my mom, my dad, my, my sister in law and my brothers, like everybody just stepping in for me.

00;47;33;05 - 00;47;55;13
Dani B
And then just, you know, giving them grace. Give myself grace. I think that's like, the biggest learn for me with the kids was giving myself grace. I kept trying to, like, be everything to my kids and would get frustrated when I couldn't be, or if they were sad. I'm like, why can't I, like, change this?

00;47;55;13 - 00;48;16;05
Dani B
You know, this, this thing or. Yeah, like, you know, can I fix it? Can I always and just and just really learning, like, give yourself some grace. If today you don't wash the dishes, you're like, you're doing it on your own. Prayerfully. So go away, ship tomorrow to wash it. And if not, you know someone's going to wash them.

00;48;16;05 - 00;48;32;18
Dani B
That's a fact. Okay. Giving yourself grace to go to sleep, and giving yourself grace to say, God, I'm tired. You know my heart. I'm just going to lay down and or God, I'm just going to lay. My cause is like my favorite place. I'll sit down and just, like, put my face, like, hold my Bible and just sit there with God.

00;48;32;22 - 00;48;49;08
Dani B
I didn't have no words to say. I was just like, I'm just here with you because I'm tapped, you know, like, but giving myself grace when I do make the mistake, when I do raise my voice the way I don't want to write. When I feel like I'm. I'm running on E and I'm tired. Just grace, grace, grace.

00;48;49;08 - 00;49;06;19
Dani B
So I would encourage women, especially, whether you have support or you don't give yourself some grace. I think we just put so much pressure on ourselves, and, and we forget that God has given us grace. So why can't you give your own self that you know? And it was so funny what you said earlier about heart, right?

00;49;06;21 - 00;49;27;28
Dani B
So my, my next album that I'm working on is called The Heart of a poet, and it's been this really cool journey that I've been like in prayer and talking to God because I'm like, do I do an album? That one single because I've been writing, the beautiful thing about the gift God has given me is like, he'll like, just lean in on me, and I'm like, where?

00;49;27;28 - 00;49;40;22
Dani B
And usually like my kids when they know I'm writing because I'll be like, come on, Jesus, let's go. That's that's like my theme. You know, I'm writing. I'm like, what did you say? You know, like, I mean, I'm like, you know, people who I know.

00;49;40;22 - 00;49;41;17
Amelia Rees
What's going on. Mom.

00;49;41;19 - 00;50;04;25
Dani B
Yeah. There's like, she's definitely writing, you know, her and Jesus is out there having a chat, you know, like, because I really, I, I'm honest. I promise you. And and I'm, like, hitting my desk and like, what? That's like just next level. If you ever see me at a game, just know the person who's screaming is me. Because I'm always like, but, it was it's the heart of a poet.

00;50;04;25 - 00;50;27;19
Dani B
And really pulling apart the heart in, in ways that I shared earlier, that when I was going through all these things, God was showing and revealing my heart and the impurities in it. And in the midst of showing me the impurities, it was countered with the Word of God. And so this album is about talking about those impurities of the heart, adding the Bible verses.

00;50;27;19 - 00;51;04;15
Dani B
I always do that. Any poems I write, giving it back, you know, to the, to the scripture, and then the transparency of it. So have you battle with sexual sin? I have, and so I talk about that, and what that battle was. Right. And really honestly diving in because I just finished that poem, but diving into the fact that part of that was me just doing what I wanted to do, and saying I could just repent tomorrow, and not really having fear to understand that.

00;51;04;15 - 00;51;25;03
Dani B
But what if tomorrow doesn't open up for you, right. And then now you're you're faced with eternity over a few minute decision. And then you're putting that before me. And so really coming to grips with some places in my heart where, or, you know, part of what I talk about as well with this new album is just where you're trying to show up.

00;51;25;03 - 00;51;52;16
Dani B
So perfect for everyone. But you're not, again, being honest and being truthful so that then you can lay those sins at God's feet and be real. Some of us are, we want to be super self righteous and super cool, but others, you know, and like, oh, It's like, girl, I thought you last Saturday as I, you know, so it's getting to that nitty gritty, that real place of saying, no, this is where I was at.

00;51;52;19 - 00;52;09;10
Dani B
But let me add where I said earlier, where God just revealed to me this week to all of that, let me show you every place where I was present, every place. And I forgave you every, every like literally pulling apart. So I'm I'm excited for this album. No due date yet, so I'm not going to present myself.

00;52;09;10 - 00;52;23;23
Dani B
Those are all me. Would have been like September, the end of that. And then I'm going to call you and be like, you know, I'm, I'm actually trying to get some sleep. Take that part out of the interview. So, you know, just not getting into that space, but just letting God work on me with the album.

00;52;23;26 - 00;52;41;05
Dani B
I'm getting you know, into a place where he wants it and then sharing it with those, on this journey. So I'm excited for that just because as I've been writing, like I said, I mean, I'm in here, I'm like, what if I if I cared that I would throw my laptop across the room, but I would never like, physically do it.

00;52;41;05 - 00;53;02;07
Dani B
But those are my emotions, you know, I'm like, know the whole laptop away. Jesus, come on, this is it. So just just really excited to just share, the album when it does release. So yeah, I'm excited about that. And then, I'm on sabbatical for my show, which is called Be the Black Saturdays with Danny. So we'll just take some time to rest.

00;53;02;09 - 00;53;20;09
Dani B
Spend time with the kids. And then we'll be back into that, come later on the winter time, going into the new year. And then just really looking for more people to add to our station. We do, you know, reach out to people. People reach out to us, that are looking to have talk, radio, Christian talk radio.

00;53;20;09 - 00;53;39;04
Dani B
And we work and we pray. And if it goes in alignment, we we put that on place on the station. And it's been a beautiful thing because people are able to listen all over the world. We were looking at analytics the other day. Man, you have South American, South Africa, you have, you know, Australia in the building.

00;53;39;04 - 00;53;59;14
Dani B
You have people across the United States listening. And so it's just a beautiful thing for people to tune in and say, oh, man, I heard this and that, that. Bless me. You know, I was able to connect with this in it. Bless me. So. Oh, I love this music. It was, you know, I, I feel you know that that I so it's it's a really beautiful thing, that I love.

00;53;59;17 - 00;54;08;25
Dani B
And I'm just excited as God evolves the radio station and to what's, what's going to be next for us in the next few few months to a year. So it's it's it's a great thing.

00;54;08;27 - 00;54;14;16
Amelia Rees
I can just see the joy. It's just leaps off your face. Yeah. Awesome.

00;54;14;18 - 00;54;34;25
Dani B
I love it, I love it, I if I could do it full time, that's another thing. We had a discussion with one of our, one of the guests that came on and we were talking about when, you know, sometimes people say, well, God told me to quit my job. I quit, and how do I, you know, things are what they are, you know, and so we were just talking about even where God is calling you to do something.

00;54;34;25 - 00;54;56;27
Dani B
This is my passion. This is what I know. Guys call me to radio. I know that God is calling me to, not only radio, but being an artist in poetry, but I still work and and, you know, I'm still and I'm a mom. And so those are the beautiful things that come along with doing the will of God, but then also to just making sure that you're able to, use wisdom and opportunity.

00;54;57;00 - 00;55;13;21
Amelia Rees
Yeah, yeah, definitely. I, like you said, make having some grace towards yourself because you get really caught up and going, okay, God told me this, I got to do this. I got to do it now. But, you know, it sounds like you really it sounds like you've learned along the journey. Yes. Like a step back and give yourself some grace and some time.

00;55;13;21 - 00;55;16;15
Amelia Rees
And it's okay because it's God's timing. It's his timing.

00;55;16;17 - 00;55;32;05
Dani B
Period. And and it's so funny because when I went to the Stellar Awards, one of the guys he won the award for like top radio station in the market, which is when you have millions of listeners. And he comes to me and he's like, I heard you the other day and you are going to be somebody you're gonna.

00;55;32;07 - 00;56;01;21
Dani B
And I'm thinking, now, listen, you're the one won the award. You know, and not me. I'm over here interviewing you, you know? But it was like affirmation, to where God is leading me. But to your point, embracing the learning, embracing the time that it takes, embracing the mistakes, the hiccups. And sometimes, you know, my, we have another show that came on and one day I was like, sitting there, I woke up, I was like, do I put this show like, I was like, I'm so sorry.

00;56;01;27 - 00;56;21;28
Dani B
Sleep and me learning as I'm growing because I never told anybody. Like, if people see it and I'm like, oh, wow, you know. But I do this on my own. I run the show, I'm managing the talent. I'm putting the shows on, I'm getting the interviews together, I'm doing interviews myself. I'm doing my own show. Writing the articles, doing the website.

00;56;22;02 - 00;56;23;03
Amelia Rees
A lot of work, you know.

00;56;23;05 - 00;56;44;03
Dani B
So it's like, oh, Jesus. And you still got kids, you know? So I'm like, do any you guys know how to do social media? I was like, make yourself useful. No, but but, you know, again, just really, like you said, embracing the time and giving myself grace to know that I don't have to be the number one station in the world today, tomorrow or next week.

00;56;44;03 - 00;57;03;08
Dani B
Or if it's never if God allow for the station to impact ten people. That's, I'm good. Yeah. Because those were the ten people that easily assign and, you know, to that, that that moment to that station that day. And so that is good to be okay with that because we're so number driven in this world.

00;57;03;11 - 00;57;23;23
Dani B
It's like I got 20,000 followers. I will be honest, crowd radio station I think has 140, 550. I was like, oh, look at that climbing. There was a day when I had four. Okay. Amen. My my personal my oh, I got 1900. Amen. I'm not really hooked on it. I'm just hooked on making sure that what we do and what we share is in the will of God.

00;57;23;26 - 00;57;24;12
Dani B


00;57;24;15 - 00;57;42;02
Amelia Rees
It's hard to get caught up on it, too, because even, like, with Dave, with this, with this show, there's been like. So we've put some business on your platform. Yeah. And we've done that with a couple of other radio stations as well. Yeah, but that means that because it's uploaded separately, we actually don't get the statistics and the numbers coming in.

00;57;42;02 - 00;58;00;09
Amelia Rees
Yeah. Dave was like, what are we going to do? And I was like, I think that's great because it yeah, because we don't really need to know God's doing the work. We don't really need to know all those numbers. And we just have to have faith and trust that those numbers will hit the people that need to hear that message.

00;58;00;11 - 00;58;03;21
Amelia Rees
There you go. Yeah. Because you don't want to become prideful either, you know.

00;58;03;23 - 00;58;23;17
Dani B
Oh, that's a big one. And you hit it right on. Because like, even with the analytics for us, you know, you use these different platforms to, use to, to put up your radio station or whatever. You know, it could be your podcast. And I always tell people, even with analytics, you know, sometimes it doesn't say because with us we'll know how long the person listen.

00;58;23;20 - 00;58;44;19
Dani B
So sometimes, you know, people will tune in. What if they only listen to minutes? So you're like, oh, I'm they've never heard half of whatever. And so just spending time to create quality in what God has called you to do and the followers, the listeners, because I always get good feedback with your show. You know, I have people that are like, oh man, that bless me.

00;58;44;22 - 00;59;05;29
Dani B
Because in the black community, especially talking about mental health sometimes can be, a very off and touchy subject. And so to be able to put that platform on there, to be able to for other people, listen, I always give people like, oh, I heard, you know, or like how, you know, they and you know, and I was like, just listen, it has and so they've enjoyed it.

00;59;05;29 - 00;59;12;21
Dani B
And so it's a beautiful thing. And to your point, it keeps us staying focus with the source and more.

00;59;12;24 - 00;59;29;23
Amelia Rees
Yeah. Exactly right. Exactly right. Oh, I absolutely love it, Danny. It's been an absolute pleasure. I'm going to get you to pray for us, if you don't mind, in a moment, but I just wanted to. Where can the listen, where's the best place for the listeners to find your content? The radio station? Absolutely give you plug.

00;59;29;25 - 00;59;48;22
Dani B
Yeah. We're going to give you a good one. All right. So it should grab the TV. My favorite line is you know what it is. So listen, you can listen to Crown Radio station at around that crowd W and Z Radio.com. You can follow us on Instagram, which is at the official Crown Radio. And then of course, me.

00;59;48;22 - 01;00;06;19
Dani B
It's at Danny B and then it speaks. So sparks and that's the same as my website as well, which is WW dot Danny B speak Scone where you can listen to my poems. And then of course any platform you want to go to type in healing in the mix. On the album, my face is not on there, okay?

01;00;06;19 - 01;00;27;05
Dani B
Because it wasn't about me that day. Amen. But you will see the album out there and you can definitely download it and listen. And I will love your feedback. And, and you know, if it's bless you. But definitely look at all those, those, those those platforms and, and keep your sister in prayer because, you know, the social media thing is, is, is quite tasks.

01;00;27;08 - 01;00;27;14
Dani B
Yeah.

01;00;27;14 - 01;00;29;19
Amelia Rees
It's harder for us older people. We were like.

01;00;29;22 - 01;00;49;28
Dani B
I just I want to participate. I was like, I think for Facebook. Facebook was like, how are you doing today? I had a great day. It was it was a smiley emoji. There was nothing else we were talking about because it started your sentence off for you. Yeah. You ended it. Okay. Now I got to think analytics and what taglines people like and and then don't.

01;00;49;28 - 01;00;52;19
Dani B
Let's get to the argument of hashtag I to.

01;00;52;21 - 01;00;52;25
Amelia Rees
This.

01;00;52;29 - 01;00;58;03
Dani B
Pounds nine before you showed up on this world girlfriend that was pound and it was on the phone.

01;00;58;06 - 01;01;03;21
Amelia Rees
Yeah, yeah. Putting. With the button.

01;01;03;23 - 01;01;18;26
Dani B
I can't stand talking to here with her. It has to be somewhere. That's why you don't know how to write cursive. You know, that's what's all of you. And a signature. Sorry. I could go on and on. I have a I have a teenage daughter. I'm like, girl, get out of here. You're always trying to tell me, like.

01;01;18;28 - 01;01;28;27
Dani B
Like you came. I say, nothing is new under the sun. That's in the Bible. By the way. Leave me alone, please. Like hashtag. It's a pound sign. That's my grandmother about it.

01;01;28;29 - 01;01;31;07
Amelia Rees
Has my grandmother.

01;01;31;09 - 01;01;33;26
Dani B
She had that that that phone that was like.

01;01;33;28 - 01;01;36;01
Amelia Rees
Oh, you think it's.

01;01;36;03 - 01;01;42;11
Dani B
Like an antenna? TVs talk about it. They know nothing of the struggle. You know the struggle.

01;01;42;13 - 01;01;43;09
Amelia Rees
100%.

01;01;43;09 - 01;01;45;10
Dani B
Yeah, definitely. Make sure you follow me.

01;01;45;12 - 01;01;51;27
Amelia Rees
Yes, we will, we will. Thank you so much for coming on the show. Danny Davis closed us out with a little prayer foolishness.

01;01;52;00 - 01;02;12;01
Dani B
Amen. I absolutely can do that. All right, well, Father God, right now, in the name of Jesus. God, I thank you for sunburned souls. God, I thank you for the hands that put in work. Father God of this podcast. God that it continues to flourish for your kingdom, for your glorification. God that every person involved. God experiences you in such a supernatural way.

01;02;12;01 - 01;02;31;21
Dani B
God that you continue to bless their heart, that you continue to open doors for them to continue to do your will, to share your grace, your love, your mercy, your just joy of being in your presence. God, God, I ask that you cover everybody who listens to this podcast. Who listens to this interview. God, if they're facing turmoil in their life.

01;02;31;21 - 01;02;53;22
Dani B
God, I ask that right now. They seek you. God. I hope that they have a counter, an encounter with you. God, that is life changing, that it'll shift Father God, everything in their life where they'll be able to share their testimony of God, met them in the midst of the trial and the tribulation. God, I thank you right now for every family, for every child, for every mother, for every father God, I thank you for every person.

01;02;53;22 - 01;03;12;12
Dani B
Father God, I ask that anybody dealing with sickness or mental illness, God that right now it be broken. In the name of Jesus. We have faith that things will be shifted and changed. Father God, we pray for all of those ministers, pastors, Father God, those disciples out in this world, father God, sharing your gospel. God, we ask that you cover them.

01;03;12;12 - 01;03;29;22
Dani B
Lord, we ask that you keep them. Those who do not know you, God, we accept. They find you right now in the name of Jesus, that their heart be shifted, that their mind be renewed, that their soul be rejuvenated to who you are and who you've always been from day one. God, you have made everything in this world.

01;03;29;24 - 01;03;47;12
Dani B
And you said it was good. So God, allow for us to continue to work in your goodness, to continue to see you as you've made us, Father God, and who you are to us as our Father God. We thank you right now for all that you do, which you are getting ready to do, and that you've already have done in the past.

01;03;47;18 - 01;03;52;17
Dani B
God, you are magnificent, you are wonderful and you deserve all the honor and the praise we say.

01;03;52;17 - 01;03;54;24
Amelia Rees
Amen, Amen.

01;03;54;26 - 01;03;59;12
Dani B
Amen, Amen. It's been a time somebody's souls.

01;03;59;12 - 01;04;20;04
Dave Quak 
Thank you so much for tuning in this week. For more episodes, check out some burnt soul Scum. You can check out our audio podcast on Spotify, Apple, or any of the major podcast providers. Not only that, we've now got video podcasts on our YouTube channel, Sunburned Souls, so thanks for your support and may God keep you close to him.

01;04;20;04 - 01;04;20;23
Dave Quak 
This week.