Drew I'm, I'm wondering if my, if I'm becoming a boring person, like, which is funny because I spent so many years of my life optimizing to be unboring to just optimizing my life to be as interesting as possible. But it's funny because lately I've I've really found a lot of peace and liberation and in things that are generally considered boring life practices. And it's weird because like there's a still little piece of me like the inner 20 year old who's like, dude, you're so lame.
Like, what do you get out of this house? Get out of the house, go do something. And but meanwhile, you know, I'm so happy, like life is so calm. So I think that's the fuck of the week. We're going to talk about what is a routine? What is a rut? When are you avoiding life by sticking to your routines? And when are you embracing and and celebrating life when you follow your routines? And this one gets personal for me too because it's like causing
marriage problems. Oh, OK, yeah, let's dig into that in a minute. In a minute. But yeah. It's the Subtle Art of Not Giving a Fuck podcast with your host Mark Manson. Sum up, what are we talking about? Well, I I'm very similar to you too. Where as I've gotten older, I've found my little routines that I really like. And recently it occurred to me it was something like I hit like a 5 day streak where I did the exact same thing five days in a row.
And it's all actually fairly healthy and I enjoyed those five days, but there was like the same thing five days, not the exact same thing, you know, but like I worked out at the same time. I, I worked the same hours. I went to bed at the same time, got up at the same time and it was nice in a way, but then I thought, oh God, is this? Is this? Is this all there is to is? This all there is to it. Is this a Groundhog Day? Like a healthy Groundhog Day? Yeah, Yeah.
When does a routine become a rut? When when do our healthy habits become actually kind of toxic habits? This is fucking with me because it. It is. I've long held the belief that a modest amount of chaos is is optimal for one's life. Like you, you want a certain amount of spontaneity and unexpectedness. Yeah, man, I really like just doing the same thing every day. I know. That's me too. Yeah. Like I, I think that novelty is amazing and awesome and I want to seek it out.
But then I also, it's like 5 days in a row. I'll just sit there and be the exact same thing. Yeah, it is. That's what it is. It's a lot of effort. You have to expend a lot of energy. I you know, there's so many angles I could attack this. This is a very new thing for me, I have to admit. A big part of it is since I quit drinking, so when I quit, when I drank, I like something about the interaction between alcohol and like the dopa dopamine
circuits or whatever. I just kind of had this unending craving for novelty. And since I stopped drinking, I don't have that anymore. And it on, I actually kind of have the opposite of that. Like now when it's now, when there's an opportunity to, to do something spontaneous or fun or cool, my immediate thought is like, well, what's the, what's the point of this? Like, what is this going to get
me closer to my goals? Is this going to help me grow in some ways, which is fucking lame, right, right. That's the official term. It's fucking lame. So I, I have mixed feelings about it. I, I would define the difference between a routine and a rut is a routine is something that you feel helps optimize your life and it invigorates your life. It, it, it, you know, adds meaning and purpose and efficiency to your life.
A rut is when you are doing the same things over and over because you are afraid not to. So I think the defining element is, is fear and avoidance. You know, like where I'm at in life, I don't fear doing different things. Like I, there are plenty of time, like I go on trips and do a bunch of stuff for work and still, still go on vacations and, and do a crazy thing here or there and, and I enjoy it, but I don't know, I don't crave it the way I used to.
Yeah, yeah. What about, I remember when you wrote that big piece about Immanuel Kant, right. And I didn't realize I didn't know this, but Kant either never left the town he grew up in or only left it like once. And he basically. Did the same thing over and over and over again and now he's one of the most famous philosophers
of all time. Arguing probably one of the, you know, 25 most influential humans on world history, one of the most important philosophers ever lived in the same town his entire life, had the exact same routine his entire adult life. His his neighbors used to joke that they could they could set a clock to when he came and left his apartment. And despite living, I think he only lived like 25 kilometers away from the ocean. He never saw it.
Yeah, his entire life. Yeah. He saw no reason to. That is insane. Like that to me sounds like I wasn't worth it, right? Like for us it probably was, but for him I'm not sure. I don't know. I, I do think there is a fundamental value of novel experience, especially when you're young and you don't have many experiences. I think, I think I, you know, it's novelty is a diminishing
returns curve. Like the older you get, the more experiences you have, the less impactful or insightful or useful each subsequent new experiences. But when you're young and you haven't had many new experiences at all, they're super important and you should definitely seek out a lot of novelty in your life. So some of this I just feel like it's just age, like people get fucking boring when they get old. But in my case, some of it is the alcohol thing and and some
of it too is the health thing. It's, it's so I realized at some point in the last couple years that's like really maintain a healthy lifestyle. You, you have to be kind of rigid with your, your, your daily routines and, and your, your daily practices. I guess I just brainwashed myself into, into thinking I love it right? Or something, I don't know, because I guess the alternative wasn't wasn't amenable anymore. Right.
Yeah, but I mean, when, when the routine is healthy, like I was saying that my, I have a fairly healthy routine that I stick to more or less when it's healthy, when it's parts of it are at least invigorating for me. But also like that week ended with that those like 5 day streak that I have that week ended and I'm like, I don't remember that week very well. Like it's just kind of all a blur because it was all the same over and over. Again.
So, and they say that too, but when you get older, that's one of the reasons like time seems to go faster just because you end up doing the same thing over and over again. I could see that. Yeah. I mean, on the one hand, OK, so I, I wrote this article years ago called The Four Stages of Life, and it's still, it's one of my favorite things that I've ever written. And the four stages, the first one was mimesis or mimicry, second one was exploration, third one was commitment, and
the fourth one was legacy. So stage 1 is you just copy what other people do. It's what all chill. It's how children learn. It's how we learn when we're young. It's like you watch other people do things, you see what they care about, you see what they're interested in, and you try to do what they do. You try to care about the things they care about. It's basically the the way that you learn everything for the
first time. At a certain point, you have to branch out and do things that the people around you aren't necessarily doing. You have to explore your own personal identity. You need to find your own interests, find your own passions, find the things that you care about or that you're good at that other people aren't because that's what differentiates you. And so that's kind of like the first, that transition is kind of like the first big meaningful project I think of most people's
lives. And that leads you in the exploration. Exploration is about maximizing novelty. It's maximizing experience. It's figuring out, you know, what you like, what you dislike, who, who you want to spend time with, who you don't want to spend time with, what sort of pursuits you're good at on and on and on. And I think most people spend their early adulthood in the exploration phase.
But then the next transition, the next big project is picking the few things to commit to, picking the few things that are like, OK, these are like the three or four most important people are things in my life. And so I'm going to build my entire life around those things. And that leads you in the stage 3, which is the commitment stage.
And so it's funny, it's like I totally recognize going by my own framework, I've left the exploration phase, which is fun and exciting and sexy, and you get a bunch of really cool stories to the commitment phase, which is like Groundhog Day, as you put it, a healthy Groundhog Day. And so it feels from like an emotional point of view, it can
easily feel like a downgrade. But at the same time, when, like, I really do an inventory on what I'm spending my time on day in, day out, it's like, man, I fought tooth and nail for years to figure out what I fucking care about. Yeah. And now I found it and I've managed again, fought tooth and nail to build a life where I can optimize for those things that I care about. And now I'm doing that. And then, of course, being a fucking human, I'm sitting around being like, well, this is
kind of boring, isn't it? Right. This is like always mildly dissatisfied no matter what happens. You're you're always A6 or A7 out of 10. Yeah, there's always something you can be optimizing, always something you can be working on. Always more fun out there. Yeah, yeah. OK, So what? How is this destroying your marriage mark? OK, that's a bit of an exaggeration, but it's funny because so my wife, she, she really loves novelty and and it's not even novelty.
Like, it's not even like it's definitely not chaos. Like she loves exploring new things. So she loves food, she loves architecture, she loves design. So like for her going across town to a new restaurant and trying a new dish or looking at a new museum, like these things are like very meaningful for her. And back when I wasn't boring, I was always down the go do it with her, you know? But now that I'm in this new phase of life, I'm kind of like, I'm good.
Like I've been to a restaurant before. I don't need to go again, right? And and so, yeah, basically she's just getting frustrated. She's like, what happened to you? Like you went, you aged like 20 years and two. She keeps joking. She's like, I didn't sign up for this. I signed up for the fun, the fun party guy. And I'm like, yeah, that guy was drunk. So I joke that it's ruining my marriage, but it, it's been, it's been a point of contention lately.
You know, she's like, she's been urging, like we need to get out. We need to do more things. And, and, and my, my point of view has been like, we spent like 12 years doing all of the, the things. So like, why don't we just like slow down a little bit? So yeah, that's that's our current project. So so I mean, there's a whole thing about, you know, growing together and your routines evolving with one another in there as well. But what would you say to somebody who is maybe stuck in a
rut? Like how do you inject chaos, good chaos into your life? Like is there AI mean? We've talked about travel a lot. That's a really good one. I think it also makes you appreciate your routines. I think when you leave, like, you know, you've been traveling, I've been traveling a little bit this year too, and that really makes you appreciate your healthy routines and gives you some perspective on that. Is there are there any other ways to just inject some some good chaos into your life?
It's hard because, I mean, chaos by definition is kind of unexpected right there. There's got to be like I, I imagine, do. You even want to get prescriptive with this for people like, I don't know, chaos is different. We we define that very. Differently. We do define that very differently. You and I would define it differently I. Think I, I, I do think there is value of intentionally breaking your routine periodically. If anything, that just give you an appreciation for it.
Yeah. And remind you of like, This is why I have this in my life. This is why this matters. But I imagine there are going to be some occasions where you're like, maybe I should change my routine. Like I actually kind of like this, this new thing I tried or this new thing I did. You know, everybody that's going
to be different. Like, you know, for some people that's going to be changing out the coffee they have in the morning or, you know, waking up 30 minutes later, you know, yeah, you get really wild and crazy. But other people, you know, it's going to be like, I'm going to go spend 6 months a year in Mexico and see how that works. Right. So it's mileage is going to vary quite a bit. But I do think it is important to consciously spice things up. Yeah.
And try, try different things. I'm also a big fan of like, it's, it's funny. Like, have you been like a Brazilian steakhouse? Oh yeah, I like.
The Fogo de Chao. Yeah, yeah, I. Fucking love that shit all right, so Brazilian steakhouses for people who don't know Brazilian steakhouses, the way it works is you just they give you a card and there's one side is green and one side is red and you just flip the side over to green and they just start bringing you random food And like every time they walk up to the table, you just say yes or no. And if you say yes, they put it on your plate. And if you say no, they leave.
And you could stay as long as you want. You can eat as much as you want. It's awesome. So my wife and I, we think of this as like flipping the card green in our lives of like, OK, you know, we need a few months where we just say yes to everything. And we we create that rule. It's like any invitation, any opportunity, any like opening going on in the neighbourhood or get together or neighbourhood like I, I, So we're currently in a say yes to everything mode. OK, I like that.
And it's funny because it's just like a lot of unexpected stuff shows up. So like, I just got a invitation to join like my neighbourhood organization or whatever and like start attending neighbourhood meetings to like, I don't know, do whatever people in California do complain about housing. So I'm going to sign up and I'm going to go to the meeting. You know, like, there's a lot of sexy things, but also a lot of like completely random and unsexy things. Right.
I like that idea. There's there's almost like a seasonality to it. I like that a lot better than like, Oh yeah, you should do this. You should, you know, like inject this type of chaos in your life or whatever. It's more of a seasonality type of thing. Cal Newport, who we had on, he talks about the seasonalities of work. You could have a seasonality too of just your routines and.
Because what inevitably happens is you say yes to too many things and then you get over committed, and then you start feeling burnt out and overwhelmed. And so that's when you flip the card back to red, which at a Brazilian steakhouse let's the waiters know, leave the table alone, don't bring anything over. And then you can, like, eat what's on your plate. And then when you're hungry again, you flip the card
back-to-back to green. Yeah, that's another reason I think balance is a little bit of an illusion because you have to, there's times to be out of balance and times to be to seek balance. It's like a thermostat type thing. Maybe that should be like the title of my next book, Life is a Brazilian Steakhouse. And it said the cover is you with a green, a big old green. With like paddle, with a giant, like 5 lbs of steak on my plate. Yeah, this is going to kill. Publishers are going to love
this one. They're going to love it. Actually, do you know what? The only time I've been to one, I was with you in Sao Paulo. Oh shit, that was the only time I've been to a FOGO. That's right. That is right. And I meet it was Thanksgiving. We we were there on Thanksgiving Day. That's right, it was in Rio, actually. Ate my I was in Rio. That's yeah. Ate my weight in whatever meat they brought. Me on Oh yeah, that that's how you do it. That's how you like Fast for the day.
I didn't have breakfast like I went no breakfast. No, nothing, you know, and then you show up like ready to ready to fucking work and, and you put you, you put the hours in, you put the put the pounds in you got, you got to get you got to get that like that 6999 worth of of beef, like at least 2 lbs of it so. I was sweaty and greasy when I left so. On that note, we're going to cut it to a message from our sponsors. We'll be right back with is it brilliant or bullshit?
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No, nobody's heard of it. True. No, nobody reads this shit like you. Do Yeah, I'm the only one. You're not like this. Well, it's a study about boredom, actually. So we're talking a little bit about boredom. But what they did basically is they they took people and they've just stuck them in A room and took all their phone away from him, took everything away from him and said jump, just sit there. Sounds horrible. Right, Yeah. So they give him 6 to 15
minutes. And there was a series of studies in the early studies, people were just like, this is torturous, I don't want to do this anymore. 6 to 15 minutes up to. 15 minutes that people couldn't handle it. Yes, yes. And then they started giving me giving them different tasks or options where they could do something if they wanted to. The most interesting finding though that they found is that there's a lot of people who will give them self a shock. Rather than just sit there with
their own thoughts. They would rather shock themselves. Electrical shock. Electrical shock, Yeah, a a mild electrical shock. They would rather give themselves a mild electrical shock. Unshockingly, 2/3 of men, of course we shocked themselves. Only about 25% of women shocked themselves so. This is why women live longer. Yes, yes, one of the many reasons, but it's it's really interesting because it just it shows just how averse we are to
being bored. This study's almost 10 years old, so it's probably gotten worse since then, but I like. This for two reasons. 11 is and we'll talk about the boredom piece, but I also like it because it it very much philosophically aligns with a lot of the Buddhist stuff that I've always talked about, which is the mind kind of craves pain.
Even if you put people in a perfectly fine situation, the mind will start finding things wrong with it and find things to be upset about and get up, get attached to certain sensations or thoughts or feelings that feel dissatisfying.
And it's like this to me, this is just like the most fundamental expression of that facet of human nature, which is like, well, there's nothing else to do, so I might as well just hurt myself because that would give me something to focus on and think about and be upset about, you know? Yeah. So yeah. It's it's it's like. It's almost poetic in a way. I'm not surprised. I'm honestly. I'm honestly not surprised. I'm not either. I'm not either. I it's just it, it speaks to
just how is it? Are we afraid of our thoughts? Are we are we like we don't want to stare at our own thoughts? Is that what it like? Are we just so afraid of what's inside our heads that we just don't want to face it either? To the the instructions on some of these words to just just sit there, just don't do anything. Notice any thoughts that come up or whatever and we'll ask you about them later, but don't do anything. And people were just like, no,
I'm like, my mind wanders. I want to think about other things. I want a fidget. I want to, you know, if you don't have your phone with it, you, you probably think about I wish I had my phone with me. Like is if we're just so, so averse to being bored. I mean, a lot of a lot of creative people will say boredom is like the that's the playground of the creative, right? And we avoid a lot of that. Like boredom is the mother of invention. Yeah, something like that, right?
It, it also makes me think not not having another thought related to the pain thing, which is they say this about people who, who commit suicide, that it's not like, if you think of like 911 like the people who jumped out of the towers, it's not that they weren't afraid of jumping out of the towers. It's that what was inside was so much more painful than the fear of falling, right? That that became appealing by comparison on a much more micro scale.
I wonder if this is sort of the same thing that like sitting alone with your own thoughts is so burdensome and painful that an electric shock feels appealing in comparison. That it's like, well, that's less painful. So what is it about our own thoughts that is like so burdensome? What is it, Mark? That's what I'm asking you do. Do we really have? Is there just a fear of like what's underneath all of that and that lizard brain or? Is it? I don't know. I just think boredom is painful.
Yeah, I do. And I, and I think our tolerance for boredom is just probably all time low. I don't know, man. Like I the, the, what this brings to mind is I remember I went on a, a number of meditation retreats in my early 20s when I lived in Boston. And I remember the first one, it was a single day. It was like 8:00 AM to 5:00 PM or whatever. I got about halfway through that day. Like the back half of that day was so excruciating for me.
I never at the time I never really meditated for more than like 20 minutes maybe. And how old were you at this time? 21. OK, so maybe. 2021. So this is early to mid 2000s, yeah. Yeah. And it's had had a very modest experience of meditation and I signed up for this full day retreat. And so it was basically like 9 hours non-stop silent. You basically walked in, took your shoes off, sat down, started meditating and you you weren't done until like 9 or 10
hours. They gave you no instruction or anything, they just. Very basic. Very, very basic and. And you paid for this, I'm guessing like you just, you paid to just go sit and. It was like donation, but my memory of that is that that afternoon was was absolutely excruciating. Like, I desperately wanted to get up and leave so bad.
It actually reached a point where I, I, I started like, singing songs in my head 'cause it was the only thing that could like, kind of get me through it, which I realize is literally the opposite of meditation is like finding entertaining things to do in your mind. But yeah, I don't know.
It's, it's, it's, it's, I do think this is, for me, this is where meditation, the value of meditation kicks in because the meditation is the practice of learning to sit with stillness and nothingness and become comfortable with boredom. And I, I, I think that's got to be a valuable skill. No, for sure. I, I, I think a lot of us too, we don't think of boredom as being painful. We just, we think of it as Oh my God, I'm bored, I'm uncomfortable. We don't think of it as painful.
But if you really stop and pay attention to the boredom, it's pain. It is painful. Yeah, it is painful or a certain level of it I think is actually pain. Like it's and it's not, it's not pain specifically. I think it's more discomfort. It's just like, yeah, when I really think back to that retreat, like it just felt like, you know, how like when you're stuck in a a shitty airplane economy seat and like, no matter how you shift your weight or move your legs, it's
uncomfortable. Like, no matter how you sit, it's just like dissatisfying. It's kind of like that for hours and hours and hours and hours. So I don't know. Speaking of which, have you heard of this raw dogging flights? No, it's not what? It's not what it's going on. It is not sexual. So there is this movement like Jen Zeters are doing this where they get on a flight. They do no phone, no music, no
TV, no movies, nothing. They just sit and like stare at the back of the seat in front of them for the entire flight, OK. And and they post on social media and they're like, I just raw dog a four hour flight from Miami to New York or whatever. And it's like everybody gets really excited about it. And then there was like some guy who posted he did like a nine hour flight, raw dogging, like no sleep allowed at all.
Oh, no sleep even. It's like, wow, it's like a little mini meditation retreat in the sky. But anyway, it's becoming a thing, OK, And and it's it like it reminds me of this. It's almost like a macho thing. It's like, oh, I raw dog the six hour flight. Oh, I raw, I raw dog the red eye out across the Atlantic. It's like, oh damn, dude, like you're fucking tough.
I don't know. This is like, I feel like this is a world we're coming to where where stimulation is so over abundant that like the new machismo status symbol is like, well, I can be bored longer than you. You can't. I'll be bored longer than you. Like that's like the new like bicep. That's not so bad. I think I kind of like that. I don't know. I I've heard of raw dogging life before where it's like you don't do drugs, alcohol, like no
caffeine, everything. There's raw dog in life I've never heard of. Called Mormonism. Yeah, straight edgers and like all that kind of yeah, yeah, yeah. But I do. I remember when Wi-Fi started to be get on planes, when they started to add Wi-Fi to the planes and I thought, oh, this is going to be amazing. And then it started happening. I'm like, oh God, this was like one spot where I could just like try to sleep detach. Yeah, yeah.
So dude. I love Wi-Fi on planes because it's good enough to actually get useful things done, but it's it's still bad enough that like you can't get on and watch. I don't think of it too much much longer before it's all just Starlink and it's high speed. I just like, I hope they keep the connection bad because I'm so productive on flights.
So productive. Well, so is there is there some value you think then in raw dogging life in general, you know purposely how do you, is there a good way to leverage boredom, I guess? I think so. I mean I. You've talked before about like, like writing, you know, where you like, I, I sit down and you know, if you turn off your Wi-Fi or whatever it is and I have to sit here for two hours and the only thing I can do is either write or do nothing, I got two options.
I and I've heard other writers talk about that too. So is it like using, leveraging that pain of the boredom to do something for sure. That's not boring for sure, but difficult. I also just think like if you develop a tolerance for boredom, it's going to give you an advantage in so many areas of life.
Like if you're willing to sit with hard thoughts longer than other people or have difficult conversations longer than other people or listen, like educate, you know, watch a lecture or read a educational manual or something longer than other people. Like it's just we're entering a world where, you know, boredom tolerance is a form of pain tolerance and it, and it's any, any form of pain tolerance is going to give you advantages in life. So yeah, I think this is just like a.
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That's betterhelp.com idgaf. Trust me, your brain will thank you for it. Q&A time, Drew. It is Q&A time. What do the people want? Let's give the people what they want. What do they want? Adina from YouTube, she asked please explain the rules of quitting. I like the way she puts it too. When to quit and when to grit? When to quit and when the grit? No, but this was. This was actually a pretty common question. Or some variation of this. Question. This comes up. Do I give up?
When do I this comes up? Stick it out. All the. Time all different context to whether it's a career path or a project you're working on a relationship you. Know it's tough too because persistence is super important but also not wasting time on something that's never going to work out is also is also really important for sure my here I have a couple of heuristics for this One of them is I just think of as momentum.
So if something is very hard and it's not really working, do I still feel, do I feel like my progress? First of all, do I feel like progress is happening and do I feel like that progress is accelerating? So it's basically like, you know, the more time that I spend trying, do the failures get better or, or the failures improving? If they're not, then to me that's, that's kind of a sign of like, all right, this is
probably not going to work out. Whereas if they are, you know, so an example here is when I, I started my business, you know, I, I basically made no money for like a year, year and a half. But I was learning so much about marketing, sales, promotion websites, e-commerce. Like my, my understanding of the business was growing at such a such a fast pace that I was like, you know, if I keep at this, it feels inevitable that something will eventually work. So I should just keep going.
Like I, I had a lot of confidence that that was going to be the case. Whereas I've had other things in my life, like music, for example, I was a good musician. I went to music school, I did decently in music school, but it was so clear to me that the best guys in music school were able to first of all, they were just so far ahead of me.
And the, the reality of the music industry is such that like, you know, the top point O 1% get 99% of the, the, the benefits that I was like, I don't see how this is going to work out for me in the long run. Like, I'm either going to have to work 10 times harder than that guy for the rest of my life, or I can just go do something else that other people have to work 10 times as hard as I do, you know?
So, so yeah, I gave it up. And I'm honestly, giving it up was one of the best things I ever did. Yeah, Does you, you talked about, you've talked about before too, like when you were building your business and I think it was not like you were living with a a girlfriend at the time or something like that. And you said, yeah, I'm not making a lot of money. Just like what you said, I'm not making a lot of money, but I'm learning a lot as I go.
Not only are you learning, but you're like this, this learning to me is very, very valuable. And like, I value this even if nobody else around me does. Is that do you think that's a good indication too? It depends what. Because what I'm thinking about is there's, there's some, there's like outlier examples of this where somebody like should have given up. You, you think they should have given up at some point, but they didn't. They stuck it out. You, you've written a lot about
Charles Bukowski before. He didn't become really all that famous until he was in his 50s. And even then it was kind of hit and miss and he was up and down and all over the place. There's other examples of that too. I'm a really big fan of like it's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, the show, right? Rob Mcelhaney, the the creator of that show, I mean, he should have gave up a long time before that. He wasn't getting roles in anything. And so he just decided to go
make his own thing. And it turned out as Always Sunny in Philadelphia. Most people would have given up by that point, sure, and should have probably given up by that point. What are those outliers teach you, if anything? Well, with creative pursuits, yeah, I think the equation's a little bit different.
My argument with creative pursuits is that you should be doing what you would be doing for free anyway because that's what you're going to be best at, that's what you're going to be more most passionate about, and that's probably what people are going to resonate with when they see your work. But I think there's also, you just have to be realistic that any creative industry or market, 99% of the benefits go to the
top .1%, right? So, and there's just in a certain amount of that too, there's a certain luck factor, right, timing factor that plays in as well. So I think if, if, if we're talking about creative pursuits, the equation changes a little bit in professional pursuits.
I, I think it's, you need to simply be really honest about your skill, talent and what you're learning and understanding when you are working in a pursuit that you don't necessarily have like any natural advantages at that you don't have any natural talent at, that's going to be something that's hard to stick with in the long run.
So this is one thing that Tim Ferriss talks about is he, he often says that like when he's faced with a difficult decision, he will pick the option where failure teaches him the most. And so he will often try things that are a long shot, but the failure of that long shot will actually create a lot of 2nd order benefits or teach him a lot of things or give him a lot of experiences that could be valuable in other areas of life. So that's a factor as well, right.
And that, that was true with my business of like, because I was, I remember having a conversation with my dad about it, you know, I, he was like, where's this going? Like what? And I was like, look, even if this doesn't go anywhere, I'm learning so many useful skills. I learned how to, I literally became a web designer because I was trying to like put my, put it together a website for one of my businesses. And I did freelance web design
for a number of years. So I learned web design, I learned copywriting, I learned, you know, Facebook ads and, and promotions. I, I, I learned all these skill sets that I probably could have gone and gotten a day job doing one of those things if, if the writing hadn't worked out. So that's another example of like, OK, even if this fails, I'm developing skills or there are like second order effects that are very beneficial. I was also building a network,
right? Like, let's say the the blog never took off, but I had 500 really hardcore fans as readers of those 500 people, like I can probably find something, you know, I could probably ask that those 500 people like, hey, I need a job or I want to work with somebody. Like anybody have an opportunity? So there's like there's a relationship capital that you can get. So again, I think it's how valuable is the process and how valuable is the failure?
And if those two things are valuable, then yeah, keep going. And then there's also the momentum question. It's like, is it getting easier the more you do it or is it getting harder the more you do it? If it's getting harder, that's a that's a sign. The momentum thing is very true. I think when it comes to relationships. I gave this I gave this analogy to a friend a couple years ago and it inspired him to to dump his girlfriend. I told him I. Was like, please go on. Yeah, go on.
Yeah. Give us the secret, I told him, because he, him and his girlfriend were like fighting all the time. And I was like, look, I'm going to ask you a simple question. I was like, when you guys go through the fights and you like come to resolutions or compromises, I was like, does it feel like each subsequent fight, does it feel like you're pushing a rock up a hill or does it feel like you're pushing a rock down a hill?
Like does each subsequent fight get easier because of the previous fights or is it getting harder because of the previous fights? And he said it's getting harder. And I was like, OK, every relationship I've had that failed it, it got harder. It was a rock going up a hill. Whereas with my wife, it was a rock going down a hill. Every subsequent fight got easier because of the the things we learned in the resolutions we came to in the compromises we
came to in the previous ones. So the obstacles were still there, but they just, they were much more manageable. Yes, OK, yes, OK and it's you there's a momentum to to the obstacles and I, I, I, I, I literally think it's a it's a matter of like you are in the you are building a skill set within the relationship. Like my my wife and I have a Mark and Fernandez skill set that we've built together that makes us really good at fighting now because we've.
Successfully fought and found resolutions and compromises so many times whereas other people they like, they don't build that skill set. They just kind of like take turns suffering and in the resentment builds and you know, nothing actually gets better. OK, All right. You also see the other day you brought up this point to me and I think it's really interesting about hard work. What it what where does hard work come into this? Like where does just like gritting it out?
You know when you when you really want something, when you think you want something and you but you're not sure if to keep going. What hard work? How do you define it? How do you think other people define it? And where does that fit into all of this? Hard work is, you know, you're expending a lot of time and energy, but what's funny is that your definition of a lot of time and energy is going to shift wildly based on your relationship with the activity.
So I think the example I gave to you when we talked about this was like when I was in music school, I could feel myself falling behind the other people in, in my program. And so I started practicing more and I went from maybe practicing 2 to 3 hours a day to practicing like four to five hours a day. And in my mind, I, that was like a massive investment and I was kind of mentally at the ceiling of my capacity to practice and improve on the instrument. So at the time I thought, I'm
working my ass off. This is like as much as I can give and it's not, it's still not really working. Meanwhile, there are other people in the program who were practicing 8/10/12 hours a day. So in my head that was hard work and it wasn't working. I ended up quitting. When I when I got to writing and especially when it came to blogging and the business around blogging, I would sit down and start working on something and I wouldn't even get up to like.
Eat. For like 10 hours and then after that 10 hours, I would like come back and still have more energy to keep going. And I realized I'm like, oh, this is hard work. Like this is what actually like, it's not that it feels hard, like it's the, the subjective experience of like what is difficult is often misguiding because it's like the, the actual quantity of energy and work that was going into it. Like 12 hours of writing felt easier to me than 4 hours of music.
And so again, that's like, that's an indication I was in the wrong thing before. The four hours feels like a lot of hard work. Yeah, you're probably in the wrong thing. Whereas if you're able to go 12 hours and still, like, be kind of excited to keep going or like, have trouble falling asleep because you're still thinking about it, that's a sign that you're in the right thing. Right. So, so like the other students in the music program who are there were practices 6810 hours
a day. Did you ever talk to them about that? Yeah. So there's a guy named Chris McQueen. He's a couple Grammys now. He was like the top guy in my program. OK. He's a guitarist in a band called Snarky Puppy. They're amazing. You should check them out. I remember I like, I cornered him in the cafeteria one day and I started talking to him and I was like, really curious about his practicing, his practice regimen.
So I started asking about like, you know, how much do you warm up and like, how do you work on a song and all this stuff? And he was just giving me these blase answers just like, I don't know, dude. Like I just kind of work on it like whatever. It's like typical shit of like anybody who's actually really good at something. They don't think a whole lot about how they do it.
And so I remember I had this whole conversation with him and I was like, you know, I'm just going to kind of tell him what what's going on with me because I was thinking about dropping out at that point. And so I told him I was like, look, man, I'm like, I'm practicing like four or five hours a day. I'm like starting to feel tendonitis in my left hand. I'm exhausted. I'm completely burnt out. I was like, what do you do when you feel like that? And he was like, I've never felt
like that. And Mark walked out and he was like all. Right. I was like, all right, I need to get the fuck out of here. This is not, you know, and it's it's he is a Grammy and I don't. And that's why that's a huge part of why, right? Definitely. So yeah, I think it's it's important to be realistic about those things. Right, right. Yeah. What about for people who haven't found that thing? Maybe that's another question, I don't know. I mean, yeah, it is. That is kind of another podcast.
But I don't know, maybe that kind of comes back to the boredom thing, like being able to stick with something through the boredom, through the friction. Like everything has some amount of friction, everything. Like, even if you love something, you'll still wake up not really wanting to do it maybe 20% of the time. And but you, I don't know, you still go do it like that. There have been so many times where like I wake up and I'm like, I don't want to write today.
But then I force myself into the chair and I open the document and I like write a couple sentences and then by like the second paragraph, I'm like, oh, yeah, this feels good, you know, and it comes back. But I feel like if people don't have the So this is where the grit comes in. If you don't have the grit to like put your ass in the chair on those off days, you don't rediscover the fun, you know? So grit is important too. Yeah, yeah.
Here's the final answer, All right, quitting puts you. Quitting is important because it points you in the right direction. And then grit is only important once you've found the right direction. If you use grit and you're pointed in the wrong direction, it's just going to get you further off course. Yeah, that's where the pain comes in. Yeah, that the unnecessary pain, yeah. That's when you start electrocuting yourself. As we all want. To do as we all wish we could.
All right, what's the oh, the wisdom of the week. So I, I picked this one out. This is a very orthogonal thought, but I used to be a fan of the late Mitch Hedberg, the the one liner comedian. I like this quote. This quote's not going to sound wise, but I I would like people to think of it in the context of like, quitting is never actually quitting. Quitting is simply making space
for something else. So in those terms, Mitch Hedberg once said, I like an escalator because an escalator can never break. It just becomes stairs. It's a great dad joke. Yeah, it is a great dad joke. All right, we'll be back next week. Be sure to subscribe, follow the show, leave a review. And if you want to submit one of your questions, either leave it as a comment under this show on YouTube, or you can submit it to podcast at markmanson.net. We will be back next week.
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