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Take three, okay.
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hello welcome to silver banter my name is rachel i'm calling and today we have a
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very special guest in studio who just arrived and saw us just plug in this
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equipment and press play yeah is that yeah this isn't take three or seven and it
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hasn't been an hour and a half later uh studying equipment and testing out mics and
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having the wrong cord and you know what this reminded me of what it's flowing uh
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Phil was at our apartment,
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and we were trying to mount the TV,
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but we were drunk and arguing the whole time.
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We were sober, putting together a podcast with a friend here, but we didn't argue.
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There were some comments about wires.
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Okay, I apologize.
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I did make the wire comment.
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The wire comment's very accurate.
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I will own my part in that.
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Priya did the same thing that Phil did.
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She just sat there, stayed quiet, just kind of fiddled with her phone.
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Contemplated if she should be recording us doing all this.
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They would just be like, oh, this port one's pretty good.
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And just kind of look around the house and be like, oh, that picture looks cool.
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I have three beverages to try.
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So I was like...
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Does Priya's drink setup have something that says,
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tell me I'm a recovering addict without telling me I'm a recovering addict?
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Only a Diet Coke and a coffee.
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How many drinks do I have on my stand at night?
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You have a lot.
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A tea, water...
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Sometimes a soda and sometimes coffee.
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Just because I'm, you know, I'm a sober alcoholic, I still like to drink a lot.
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It just doesn't include alcohol anymore or drugs.
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Exactly.
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So, you know, that's the secret.
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It's a good trade-off.
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Yeah.
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So how do we do this?
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I know Priya from a friend of a friend of mine.
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Another friend.
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I don't know how to keep it simple.
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So what should we start with?
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You got a list of questions.
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I do.
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What's your biggest pet peeve?
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Priya.
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Oh, I have a lot of pet peeves.
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It's still single.
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Oh, yeah.
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Sober dating apps.
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There's got to be a sober dating app out there.
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I still am very triggered that.
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My junk mail from my algorithm, it told me, it's like, meet seniors.com.
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And I was like, I gotta kill.
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Because I'm like, you have arthritis stuff.
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And I was like, first off, I'm not single.
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But second, seniors.
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There's still time.
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You're taking cancer medication, so...
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Oh my.
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What are at least some of them?
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Which ones come to mind?
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I think mine is probably eating too loud.
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Oh, you know, that's actually a disorder.
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Like I have, yo, I have it too.
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Cause ask Colin.
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I eat loud, apparently.
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Really?
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He's like, in slow motion.
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And he's like, trying not to like make noise.
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And then he's like, wow.
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It's the chewing that gets me.
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I'll come in the kitchen and eat sometimes.
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Just, uh.
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And that's fine.
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But you're doing it during a movie or TV show or in my car.
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I'm on par with that.
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Yeah.
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Thank you.
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And then another pet peeve, I think it's like.
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When friends are texting in front of you and you're just trying to hang out with
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them and they're just,
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like,
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on their bum the whole time.
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That really cranked me.
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Yeah.
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I just, you know, like, why?
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Is it that important?
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Can't I just be enough?
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Be in the moment.
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Yeah.
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Do you watch Shrinking?
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Have you on a wall?
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Oh, great.
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Yeah.
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I really enjoy it.
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It's pretty...
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I think it's one of the smartest shows.
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For all their parties,
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they bring this open box,
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a wood box where you all put your phone,
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so that way you're not on your phone.
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Good idea.
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I liked that when I saw that.
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Have you been to a concert or a show where they take your phone?
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Are they put it in that Ziploc bag to where it doesn't open until?
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Because comedy shows do that and concerts do that now.
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Really?
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Yeah.
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Dave Chappelle will.
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He'll make you surrender your phone so that way you're not recording.
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Yeah, it's only a pouch that has a time lock and then you give the pouch back after the show.
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I haven't seen that in a long time.
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But yeah, I totally agree.
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I think the only other excuse is with kids.
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Now that Evan's older, I'm not as big about it.
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Or maybe I'm just further in my recovery that I'm working on my anxiety.
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Or the fact that whoever has them can probably take care of them.
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Right.
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And I think in the beginning I was so,
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because of the way we drink when we had him when he was young,
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I had to control so many different things with him to like make our lives work
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around drinking,
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etc.
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And I've now got like, yeah, he's safe.
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He's okay.
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And he can also like tell us if something happens now.
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Yeah.
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Where before you couldn't communicate and I like had the biggest fear of something bad.
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Or did you present like your parenting onto somebody else that's taking care of them?
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I'm like, what if?
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Okay.
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No, we just judge them behind their back.
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No, no.
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I'm more worried that Evan will do something bad to the other people.
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But I'm like, right now he's like, goodnight.
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And he's like, pulls his little Sonic Nerf gun.
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He's like, I got my gun.
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It's just like, oh, God.
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I do have a surprise for you, if you would like to see your surprise.
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Oh.
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I wasn't prepared.
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See, you said that, and I was already in panic.
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I'm like, I can't even process.
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Well, it's nothing crazy.
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Don't worry.
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If it's crazy, give it to Colin.
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Colin will like it, but can I get it?
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This is like a really nice book though.
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I was like, well, yeah.
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We owe her more star.
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You do not owe me any star.
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I've told him it's like a perfect coffee table and then you can just look at it
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whenever you want.
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Yeah.
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And now you have it.
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At your house?
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I have two.
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But we were like, um, I don't need two.
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I love it.
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Yeah.
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I was surprised I didn't get it for Christmas.
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Like I thought my mom was going to give probably my sisters and I won, but.
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Did your sister big?
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Yeah.
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Okay.
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Well,
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You might not know you had a sister.
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Technically, one biological one step.
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But I call them both my sisters.
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I remember now.
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Courtney is Ken's daughter.
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Yes, yes, yes.
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So, yeah.
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And you know my stepdad because you're like, oh, I've used him.
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Task rabbit.
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Task rabbit to help fix.
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And he didn't seem to have an allergy problem at your apartment.
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But he's told me my whole life that he's allergic to cats.
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That's why we couldn't.
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You know, the cat had to stay in my room.
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And he's like, I have really bad allergies.
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I was like, the fuck you do?
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You just don't like cats.
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I wish I had that playbook.
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Evan asked the other day, he's like, he comes in our room.
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It's first thing in the morning.
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Like,
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I mean,
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he runs in and he goes,
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mom,
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dad,
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why do all of my grandparents have dogs and we have cats?
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And I was like, I don't know, because we're cool.
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Because cats are better.
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But I was like, okay, cool.
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Dogs cool.
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Someone was very adamant that a one-year-old should get a puppy.
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I thought the puppy would encourage me to go walking, which would make me drink less.
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And then I was going to want to be like healthy.
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Yeah, I was thinking of that family picture of like us with the dog and we're on the rock.
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We're walking.
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We're doing the strolls.
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We're in the house.
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We're in Duck Creek.
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We're like, oh, that little family.
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That's like so cute.
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So I think the worst and best advice my mom ever gave me was you can be married or
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you can be right.
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And I knew at the time getting a puppy was the wrong idea.
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And I chose to be married instead of right.
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And now who has that dog?
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Not us.
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Cats are just so much easier.
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They are.
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Just one.
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Yeah.
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You tried to get a second one once, right?
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Yeah, it was really bad.
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It was a bad...
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I think I had the kitten for like a week, but Springs, Sprinkles is her name.
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And, uh, I just, it didn't go well.
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She hated it.
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I hated it.
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I didn't get any sleep.
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Um,
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a lot of hissing like between doors and it was just like,
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yeah,
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this or any land or entity,
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like this isn't that fun.
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Um, so hopefully when Springs gets older and like
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is less intelligent or something.
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As long as they don't notice when they get older, I'll just throw in another.
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Does Kit Kat get along with other animals?
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We haven't really tested it.
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I mean, Kit Kat has a love affair with the cat next door through the window.
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They're all funny.
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Yeah, gosh.
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That's cute.
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Yeah, they love each other.
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Cats brave until you open a door.
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Oh, it snows here regularly?
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No.
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Oh, you mean here in Texas?
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I was like, our house specifically?
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I don't think snowed.
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In Richardson, it's always hit or miss.
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I don't know.
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It's either ice.
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This was the nicest amount of actual snow we've gotten in a long time, I think.
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That's not normal.
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That's the unusual.
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Right?
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What would you say?
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Yeah, I feel like it snows a lot more since I moved back to Texas.
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When I was growing up, I mean, it hardly ever did anything.
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Because I graduated in 2007 and moved away around 2009.
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And I only had one snow day in my entire elementary, junior high, high school.
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And Evan's five and it's already had like four days.
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Yeah.
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We already cannot agree on a weather app.
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We've argued over it almost every day now.
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And I use Apple weather.
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It's on my phone.
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I feel like it's usually right.
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And you are like, no.
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And we argue over which day it's going to rain, when it's going to rain.
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We'll get to the weather probably.
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No, because they're very different.
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They're very different.
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Yeah.
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What do you use?
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I use Apple weather.
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Oh, the default on the phone?
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He's judging.
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I judge it.
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It's okay.
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Literally.
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It's default apps.
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Do you use Microsoft Word or text edit?
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Oh, my God.
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I use notes in my Apple phone, which goes across all my computers.
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You know what's great about it is you're like, oh, I want to go from my phone to my laptop.
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And you click notes in the note you just put in your phone.
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What do you use there?
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Edit.
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You use the free edit software that Matt gives you.
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I sometimes use Pages or I use Microsoft too, though.
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Well, Adobe Premiere Pro or what does Apple have?
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Yeah.
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That's not a free app.
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What about the free app?
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Free through school for me.
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But school's not free.
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I just looked that I have $29,000 in debt.
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So this is a quick promo.
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You want to Venmo the show.
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Because as Priya can attest, this is no plug and play.
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And I'm broke.
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Or if you just get a Taylor Swift memorabilia.
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I can't imagine that's anyone who doesn't want their Taylor Swift stuff,
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because if you have it,
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you should keep it.
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And I would never sell my signed poster, ever.
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Okay, well, maybe.
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For $1 million, I might, but that's about the cost.
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$1 million.
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Which actually with inflation, let's make that five.
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Yeah.
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Let's maybe say a couple more.
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That's definitely get you that far.
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Isn't that sad that a million like really?
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Yeah.
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Just.
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So you're saying he turned out a million.
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No.
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except a now i used to in the very beginning you know it was easy to rationalize
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like how much i was spending on alcohol because you ask for like so it's like the
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suggested amounts two dollars but i mean i was spending way more than that a day
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drinking so i mean i would give even five and you know as you get
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longer in your recovery program you know you're not thinking about and somehow if
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this is if you found the money back that you used to spend on drinking that's
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awesome but i have not like i don't know where that went i don't know how i made it
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happen i feel like i was just always very resourceful and but i'm like oh you've
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saved like you know thirty thousand dollars and not drinking this year and i'm like
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so where is it
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Yeah.
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I even said during the snow day that he got a call,
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like he'd been working from home and it's on,
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you know,
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it's like Evan's home.
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There's obviously things going on.
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He gets a call like right at four 30 and he's having to like go talk with it.
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And I'm just sitting here so thankful we're sober.
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Cause I was playing it out.
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I'm like,
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if this would have been a snow day before we're sober drunk i mean day drinking
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it's a it's a just a ticket to be like hey we don't have to drive we don't have to
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get behind the wheel like it's a like you'd have to make sure you were stocked up
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though oh we would have that that again those things like were on the list like
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those were always taken care of before anything else yeah covid was a lot of day
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drinking the
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problem was we would go through it before the snowstorm and then we're like now we
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had to restock the restock and it comes the cycle but yeah I was sitting there and
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it's like he just took his call did his thing and I just thought man like either he
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would have tried to answer it and been slurring and slushing and you know or not
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answered it I don't know but I was just really thankful and it's also not
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bothersome
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when we used to get a call when you're working at home and we were drinking it's
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like like just getting a call from anybody there's a no
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Like,
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I don't want to have to think about how am I going to handle this because it's
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interfering with my drinking.
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And I don't know if you drink during the day at work or anything when you, yeah.
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You know, it's like, and COVID just really, because you got sober before COVID, right?
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It did.
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Yeah.
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I got sober in 2017, but I was employed for the last like two or three years of my drinking.
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So I didn't, I would be on pretend work meetings with my family called.
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Yeah.
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Um, and it would, I would, yeah, cause I don't want to answer a talk.
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I'm in drinks all day.
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Do you have a different job than you do now?
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Um, trying to think what I did back then.
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Uh, so when I got, no, when I got sober, I worked for content moderation, social media.
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And then, um, before that, um,
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But did it affect your job?
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Like, did you have to leave your job because of drinking?
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I got fired, yeah.
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I was working for a company called Voodoo as a contract worker.
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I think I know Voodoo.
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Yeah, I do.
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And I did metadata for them, and it was like a dream job.
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It was great, but I just couldn't stop drinking.
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You know,
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I was calling out probably every week,
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and just somebody died,
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a cat died,
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a dog died,
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grandma died,
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you know.
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You said that last week.
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My parents are divorced and their parents were divorced.
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Yes, exactly.
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So it was, yeah, they were just like, you can't.
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Was it an office job or work from home?
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Oh, so yeah, you really had to try to cover up.
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Lots of covering up,
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flat tires,
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lots of flat tires,
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car accidents,
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all the things just to drink the way I wanted to drink.
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And so, yeah, I was unemployed for a very long time.
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I feel like a lot of it,
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too,
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is like not like you said,
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drink how I want to drink,
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but it's also like the next day of you got to like quick think like,
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oh,
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I need to buy myself like an extra hour.
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Yes.
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I need to slip it off like.
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Yeah.
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Can I just come in an hour later?
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And, you know, I think nowadays it's so...
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it's so chill because a lot of people do work from home and my job now is work from
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home but before then i know i couldn't do that drunk like i've been drinking all
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day and you know this family cup would be full of vodka oh that's what i am yeah
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yeah like i i remember it from yeah i was like mine will only ever have water and
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i'm pretty pretty big on that on it's daily your mommy's juice right yeah mommy's
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special yeah i
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spicy i've heard other moms tell their kids like oh that's spicy you mentioned that
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free is our first like in person oh yeah this is our first in-person recording yeah
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irl thank you irl yeah she's in texas
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And she's single, ready to sober mingle.
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Okay,
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well,
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then I guess for you,
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like we asked Jack,
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since we have not been sober and single,
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we almost were.
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I mean, in my head, I've played it out, you know.
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Like if he goes on vacation or set up like when we weren't getting along at first
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and he didn't want to go to AA.
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And I'm like, she was like, I don't know.
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I think you were the problem.
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Divorce is expensive, though.
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Did you ever Google that?
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How much on it?
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I just knew.
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Well, see, here's the thing.
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It's actually kind of it'd be rich for me because I have zero right now.
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So I get half.
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Man, divorce is just way expensive.
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How would we even separate?
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I was like, man, he's going to give me that alimony, right?
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That's the word?
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Whatever.
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Oh, lordy.
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Okay.
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I don't know.
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Okay.
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No device.
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No.
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High school sweethearts.
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No.
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No.
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Oh.
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We went to the same high school different times.
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Yeah.
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I'm six and a half years older.
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So either I would have had to have been really stupid if you were...
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that yeah oh we're just gonna push you along you've been a senior way too long i
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had to graduate in 2012 at school so i mean that's also uh tinder okay yeah back
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when back when it was not what it is today yes this was not the not a hit and quit
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it not not it like yeah i think so okay
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And we also, for Evan's baby names, do you remember we downloaded the baby name Tinder?
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So we would swipe and do names.
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When we had a match, it would tell us that we both agreed on the names.
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So if you are talking or trying to date a guy,
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if you're not meeting through a sober meetup or event,
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whatever,
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is that a first date,
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second date,
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third date?
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Yeah.
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Do you get from the get-go like you don't drink?
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I'll be honest with you.
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I have not dated since I got sober.
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Really?
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I've been sober seven years.
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And boys and dating has just not been on my priority.
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Yeah.
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I've enjoyed being alone and having a routine.
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And I feel like,
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I don't know,
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I'm like that different person of like,
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I know a lot of people do enjoy dating.
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But I've seen a lot of...
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relapse and relationships and all those things and I'm just like when I'm ready
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I'll be ready but like for me it's just never been a big thing or super important
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but I think to your question right away I would tell them like
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My sobriety isn't everything.
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I put that first.
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And, you know, it's my higher power.
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It's sobriety.
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And it's everything else will fall below that.
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Yes.
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So you wouldn't date someone who drinks, would you?
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So if they drink, like, non-alcoholically, like, that they just had one.
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It would just always baffle me of, like, just have something.
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Like, have fun.
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Because I can't.
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You can.
(00:20:04):
Yeah.
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I think as it works for somebody that just does it.
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And it's not a big deal.
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And it's like, you know, just two people that want to get a Diet Coke and a fancy steak dinner.
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Like, you know.
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I don't necessarily know.
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Not through the program facility, but at least, like, doesn't really partake in drinking.
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So not even, because there are people who don't have a problem.
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They just also don't want to, which is crazy.
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But there's people that truly are like, I don't like the way it makes me feel.
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Right.
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Right.
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And if you're a good person and doesn't like to drink, that's fine.
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But, like, if you haven't bought with...
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personal problems issues and things like that sometimes I feel like there's more of
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those normal type people out there than we realize we've just only been in our
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group of alcoholics that we only associate with those people in that group like we
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don't realize how many people outside the group maybe only do just have one or two
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drinks a week maybe even if that
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Yeah,
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I was going to say,
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most of the people I've been around are...
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That's because that's the company we keep.
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Because all we did was hang around the bar.
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Those people aren't at the bars five, six days a week.
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But those people, a lot of them have stopped or don't drink as much.
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Like,
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you know,
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I am friends with a lot of normies and from high school and they've all,
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you know,
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oh,
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I've slowed down.
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And they always,
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and you can't stop if you want,
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but they've always felt the need to tell me like,
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oh,
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I don't drink as much.
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Always.
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And I'm like...
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That's Colin.
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Amazing.
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Yeah.
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Like, okay.
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I didn't need to know that.
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Colin says he'll get cornered by someone and be like,
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so tell me like,
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what were the,
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what were the signals?
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Yes.
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That's why he doesn't share what happened to you.
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Like, so I don't go down that.
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Yeah.
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It's just in my head like I just couldn't stop.
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But yeah,
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I think it's funny when they do that because I'm just like,
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I don't need an explanation.
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Like, I know where my heart is and why I don't drink anymore.
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And like, I don't really...
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I don't really care.
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You wouldn't want me here if I was drinking.
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Yeah, exactly.
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That's why I laugh when my doctor will be like,
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you still like sober or,
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you know,
(00:22:21):
still not drinking alcohol is like,
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trust me,
(00:22:23):
doc,
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you would know.
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That's the kind of drinker I am.
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Like, I even say that now.
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I don't I I do not want just one drink ever.
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I want a thousand or as many until I pass out.
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And thankfully today I'm recoil like a hot flame.
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I have no, I don't even create, like when I see stuff, I don't crave it.
(00:22:42):
I don't see a margarita and be like, Oh, I wish I could have that.
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I look at it and I think of the thick.
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Well, I probably mean my margarita is wrong.
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I mean, not like, there's like a two thirds.
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And I'm like, don't put too much lime juice in there, okay?
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Because I want to be able to get the tequila, okay?
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And go ahead and put the worm in there.
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Like, let the worm soak up.
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Yeah, you wanted to taste the alcohol, not the flavor.
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Yeah, I'm like, is there anything in this?
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Like, yeah, I'm ridiculous.
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But that, again, like, it was way easier for me to admit.
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I would drink mini bottles with me.
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And, like, I just figured the bar would just not do my drink right.
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And most of the time they did fine.
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But I would be like, you know, vodka, splash of club soda, and then a splash of lime.
(00:23:31):
But, like, I'd always take out my mini bottle and just pour more vodka in it.
(00:23:34):
And it's like the insanity.
(00:23:38):
Yeah.
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It's never enough.
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I've never heard, but that makes sense.
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Did you ever have these systems or ways to,
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like,
(00:23:46):
I'll save money by pre-gaming so I don't spend more at the bar?
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Yeah.
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Well, a lot of people bought me drinks.
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Okay.
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Sorry, finish your question.
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I mean, that was pretty much it.
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Because I would have,
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like,
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I remember in college,
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a friend and I would try all these tactics,
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like,
(00:24:00):
how can we save money?
(00:24:01):
And then we'd end up waking up and be like, I spent how much?
(00:24:05):
I remember with, like, some of the coworkers, someone asked me,
(00:24:09):
I can't remember if it was Sober October or Dry January, and they were, like, trying it out.
(00:24:13):
And they asked me how, like, I feel like I'll drop subtle hints.
(00:24:17):
They're like, how's it going for you?
(00:24:18):
I was like, I've been doing it all year or something like that.
(00:24:21):
But I'll hear people struggling with it, like, a few days in.
(00:24:25):
They're like, oh, it's so hard and blah, blah, blah.
(00:24:28):
And I'm just like, yeah, it's so hard.
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Locked, man.
(00:24:32):
Yeah.
(00:24:34):
I just don't.
(00:24:36):
Yeah,
(00:24:37):
I don't I don't even think about I think about it for others now doing the podcast
(00:24:40):
because I just I remember failing at all of them.
(00:24:45):
Colin, do you have a superstition that you follow?
(00:24:49):
superstition yeah like anything for like tennis that like if you were before a game
(00:24:53):
these two like i would uh i would always wear this like orange reebok hat um just
(00:25:00):
kind of as a look to but it was just like a fashion choice i don't know about like
(00:25:07):
you had a winning streak in that hat or something it was just like it's something
(00:25:12):
that i did that would make me stand out from other people
(00:25:16):
Well, that is weird.
(00:25:17):
He's the orange Reebok hat.
(00:25:20):
I know what it is.
(00:25:21):
Well, that one's thrown away.
(00:25:23):
I have another orange hat.
(00:25:28):
You said you know what it is.
(00:25:29):
Oh, I'll play certain music.
(00:25:31):
Your song, are you talking about that?
(00:25:32):
I don't know.
(00:25:32):
It's just your weirdest thing, like a free throw shot, and I doubled out.
(00:25:38):
Like Pharaoh Montaigne, I'll throw on any time I need to get up and get moving.
(00:25:44):
What would you guys say the difference between, like, religion versus spirituality?
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And...
(00:25:53):
What kind of makes them see,
(00:25:55):
I feel like one of the great things about the program,
(00:25:59):
like the 12 steps,
(00:26:01):
I always look for the similarities versus the differences.
(00:26:03):
So my head is like I can automatically go to like how they're so similar.
(00:26:08):
But what makes them so different?
(00:26:11):
Because you can be spiritually religious, right?
(00:26:15):
But is religion equivalent to spirituality?
(00:26:20):
Right.
(00:26:20):
I like this question a lot because I hear in meetings,
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you know,
(00:26:25):
religion is for people that don't want to go to hell and spirituality is for people
(00:26:30):
that have been to hell and don't want to go back.
(00:26:32):
Ooh.
(00:26:34):
I like that.
(00:26:34):
I love that.
(00:26:35):
And I'm able to separate that and I'm able to tell other people that too of like –
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Religion is something that I can study and spirituality is more like,
(00:26:46):
what can I do to help somebody?
(00:26:48):
What can I do to get out there and like show that?
(00:26:52):
And whoever disagrees, like that's fine.
(00:26:55):
No, that's that's an amazing explanation.
(00:26:58):
Hadn't thought about it like that.
(00:26:59):
Yeah, no, I really I've never heard that before.
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You said you've heard it.
(00:27:03):
Yeah.
(00:27:04):
I don't know that anyone would have, what would you argue that?
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No, that was really good.
(00:27:09):
I was like,
(00:27:09):
there's nothing to debate on because really,
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and it can be anything religion category you want,
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you know,
(00:27:16):
like it's under that umbrella,
(00:27:17):
but yeah,
(00:27:18):
I think the spirituality is like the action of what,
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how you practice it,
(00:27:22):
whether it be through meditating or attending a church ceremony or group or like
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Bible study,
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whatever,
(00:27:28):
you know,
(00:27:28):
you could say that like big book studies could be your version of spirituality.
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Um,
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Because people will say, like, I'm spiritually unfit.
(00:27:36):
You know, like it's been a minute since they've done an inventory or work.
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But that doesn't mean that they don't have a religion.
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That's the category.
(00:27:45):
You remember the Daniel Tosh joke?
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This is like girls in L.A.
(00:27:50):
will always say, I'm not religious.
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I'm spiritual.
(00:27:53):
He's like, oh, I'm not honest, but you're interesting.
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I love Daniel Tosh.
(00:27:59):
I know, me too.
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That was one of his... Yeah, I remember.
(00:28:03):
That was like the don't smile on the wave runner.
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Try to frown on a wave runner, you can't.
(00:28:08):
He goes... The early Comedy Central.
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Do you have to forgive to move forward?
(00:28:17):
No.
(00:28:18):
Explain.
(00:28:19):
Yeah, when I hear...
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Well, I mean, you're always going to be moving forward no matter what.
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You can start to get more resentments and stuff,
(00:28:27):
but you're going to have to move forward no matter what.
(00:28:30):
Eventually, you might just have to.
(00:28:33):
So do you mean, so do you not believe people can like backslide or backslid?
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Like you don't.
(00:28:37):
So if you're saying you're always moving forward, is there any time you go back?
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Whoa.
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Do you have to forgive to move forward?
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I mean, I guess it just depends.
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Because if you're saying you have resentments and like you're building on and
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you're not forgiving something and you're holding on to it,
(00:29:05):
wouldn't you say that's putting you back,
(00:29:07):
not progressing?
(00:29:08):
Yeah.
(00:29:09):
Yeah, I guess it also just depends on what, you know, you're mad about, too.
(00:29:14):
I mean, at some point, you're just going to be like, this person is who they are.
(00:29:19):
They're never going to change.
(00:29:21):
So either I need to change the way I feel about it and just get over the fact that,
(00:29:25):
you know,
(00:29:25):
they're never going to change the cat litter and I'm going to do it forever.
(00:29:29):
Or, yeah.
(00:29:31):
Shots higher.
(00:29:31):
What are you talking about, Willis?
(00:29:34):
That much stuff.
(00:29:37):
I have no idea what he's talking about.
(00:29:39):
You said you wanted to do it.
(00:29:41):
Nobody never said that.
(00:29:43):
When I was pregnant, you were very happy to help.
(00:29:46):
Man,
(00:29:47):
the first thing I would do if we get this million dollars is,
(00:29:52):
yeah,
(00:29:52):
the automatic litter box.
(00:29:56):
Man, what a game change.
(00:29:57):
Get my news on TikTok.
(00:30:00):
Cat's heads have been sick.
(00:30:03):
They're stuck in there because the automatic thing will just go and they're stuck
(00:30:08):
in there and you can't get it out.
(00:30:10):
I mean, it's a whole thing.
(00:30:11):
So just be careful.
(00:30:12):
Even the celebrity one that's like super expensive.
(00:30:15):
The one Pam from The Office is always advertising one.
(00:30:20):
wait until evan yeah the first tour i mean i remember them being annoying as a kid
(00:30:26):
but i'm sure our parents were like so glad and they could just you know yeah like
(00:30:31):
your job is to do the dishwasher or take out the trash or clean the poop in the
(00:30:36):
backyard yeah and you didn't have a dog i have just clean the poop in the backyard
(00:30:45):
you're like all these other dogs
(00:30:48):
Are you guys forgiving to move forward?
(00:30:51):
I do think you have to forgive to move forward.
(00:30:54):
And that could be forgive yourself too.
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I think that's, I'm probably my biggest hang up on most things.
(00:31:03):
I'm very stubborn and I will be like,
(00:31:06):
I don't know.
(00:31:06):
May is the... I've gone... With therapy, the negative self-talk has lowered.
(00:31:12):
But there are times... Colin will attest that I can be the meanest person to myself.
(00:31:19):
Yeah.
(00:31:19):
And it's like, I gotta be forgiving...
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To me, too.
(00:31:24):
Like I have I think that was one of the best things I heard when making amends.
(00:31:32):
You know, for every amend you give, you owe one to yourself.
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Yeah.
(00:31:35):
And because, you know, that was your part, too, is the carrying it.
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So that always helps me.
(00:31:44):
be I guess free in that sense and I think that's when I move forward but I do think
(00:31:49):
I backslide like I've known with autoimmune it's been hard yeah it's been but no
(00:31:55):
drinks or drugs like I mean there's no but I can get still mean I can still get
(00:31:59):
agitated I can still nowhere near what it used to be but it still doesn't if it
(00:32:05):
doesn't feel good you know I'll say something to Colin or I rewatch something on
(00:32:10):
the podcast and I'm like okay that was unnecessary you know
(00:32:14):
I'm sorry, that wasn't right.
(00:32:15):
You got the word for that,
(00:32:16):
because I know I'm big on any negativity that you breathe into the world,
(00:32:21):
you know,
(00:32:22):
gives it more truth.
(00:32:24):
Yeah,
(00:32:25):
where if you say out loud,
(00:32:27):
like,
(00:32:27):
I can't do this,
(00:32:28):
or that's not going to work,
(00:32:30):
I think you're just,
(00:32:31):
you're building that up even more and more.
(00:32:34):
So I'm always trying to be,
(00:32:36):
even though it's not,
(00:32:37):
I mean,
(00:32:37):
it's impossible to always be positive and breathe positivity,
(00:32:41):
but
(00:32:41):
Yeah,
(00:32:42):
I try to,
(00:32:43):
even when I get overloaded at work,
(00:32:44):
I don't say,
(00:32:45):
I can't do this,
(00:32:45):
blah,
(00:32:46):
blah,
(00:32:46):
blah.
(00:32:46):
If I just be like, one step at a time, one step at a time, you know, you'll get through it.
(00:32:50):
You'll do it.
(00:32:51):
Yeah, I'll go to one hour at a time lately.
(00:32:54):
Like, I mean, literally, it's, you know, the dinner is supposed to be tonight, right?
(00:32:59):
And I'm still...
(00:33:00):
like i'm feeling okay well i don't want to call or make a decision i'm gonna see
(00:33:05):
how i feel you know 30 minutes before because if i were to call it now i'll get all
(00:33:10):
anxious i'm gonna get myself worked up and then i have a way lesser chance of going
(00:33:14):
so i kind of been like i gotta see how i feel in the moment at a time um and that's
(00:33:22):
yeah it's just the way i live life now i don't know
(00:33:26):
And I agree.
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I think, you know, with amends, it was my sponsor has said to me of what amends are.
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It's like we're not looking for forgiveness from the other person.
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It's looking for forgiveness from a higher power.
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And like that always resonates with me because I always was like,
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oh,
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if I say Snari,
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they're going to like me again.
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And it's like, that's not what it's about.
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Like this is about like between me and my higher power and finding that connection.
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And so I think in those cases,
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like it's just finding grace for other people of like,
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okay,
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they just didn't act the way I would act or they just didn't do that the way I
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would do it.
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But like,
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Who cares?
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Because I want to move on.
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I don't have time to sit and replay it in my mind all the time.
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That's exhausting.
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So I think at the end of the day, it's just like, all right, well, that's that person.
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I'm me.
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He's who he is and she is.
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Since you just said that, when we do get sober or, you know,
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replaying every event to like every little detail of it there's a lot and it's
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either asking forgiveness or making amends helping us get over that but yeah we're
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not like i remember so many times driving to work on 75 screaming at an event in my
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head and just being like and just reliving it over and over and over and over
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I still have not stopped thinking,
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okay,
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I think we're showing,
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we watch a lot of TV shows,
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but there's this TV show called Bookie,
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and I feel like...
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I love that.
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Is that good?
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It's so funny.
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Okay.
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But I feel like all shows now have someone in recovery, or maybe I just notice it more.
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I don't know.
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Either it's like when you see someone has a new blue car,
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and then all of a sudden you see all the blue cars on the highway.
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Maybe that's what's happening, but in the...
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event they the the bookie they get um mugged and eventually this guy like three
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episodes later comes up and he's like hey i need to talk to you i owe you a mess
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he's like i don't know you and then he like puts his hood up he's like and he's
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like oh i did
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he's yeah i was told to you know i owe you an amend for for trying to rob you and
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um and this feels great my sponsor didn't tell me that they would have
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nothing and they said yeah we forgive you glad you're getting help and he's like oh
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I can't wait I'm about to go get me a slushie I don't amend to the 7-Eleven cashier
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it's just hilarious but you do you make amends it's not a drunkologue it's not a so
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you remember that time I peed on your car or you know went not my car you want to
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amend to someone else out there
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It wasn't me who did it.
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Someone else did though, isn't it?
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Swimming on a car in downtown.
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I have.
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It was very an interesting night.
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Like on the hood or by the tide?
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God, on the car.
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Was this in the West End days?
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Anything goes in the West End.
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That one guy always shouting like Gators.
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What's that bar called?
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Cross from, I think, RIP.
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I think they all closed down now.
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I heard that guy won the lottery and then lost it all.
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Are you serious?
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And then lost it all in his back of that, like, out in front of the door going,
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I'm sorry we've taken so much of your time, Priya.
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No.
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And is there anything you'd like to throw below?
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Like your social media?
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No, my social media is not interesting.
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I'm just going to just see my cat.
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Sprinkles is awesome.
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No, I'm just, I'm grateful to be here and thank you for having me.
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I hope to be back when we have like
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But our living room.
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They all did a great job.
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Oh, my God.
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We should have had it.
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We really saw the behind.
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You really saw the behind.
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We really should have had this set up last night and then just done the little tweaking.
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And it's just hard with Evan.
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Well, actually, all this equipment, the cats.
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Yeah.
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Because the wires.
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100%.
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If we had cats that didn't.
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Well, Mia doesn't really care for wires.
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Kit Kat.
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loves it and he will like try and get down and he thinks and he puts it in the
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water bowl i don't know why i've never had a cat that's done that before kit kat
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like we'll take things oh but anything he takes he brings to his water bowl like
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it's his um the sprinkles do that does she puts that you know eats everything
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Yeah.
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I mean, that's... Sideboard and... That's sometimes normal, I think.
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But, like, he will get it in his mouth and, like, Evan's toys even.
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Yeah.
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And it's very weird.
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Like, these will... These adorable friendships.
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I actually have never made friendship bracelets.
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I did not make them.
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I was like,
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I've never...
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I got offered at Adobe and I felt very alone and I was like,
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I'll come back.
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And I never went back.
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I was like, you know, like, oh, yeah.
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It was like an advertisement.
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Oh, his Facebook meta was hosting it.
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So, oh, these are so cute.
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I'm so excited.
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Evan's going to want one.
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He's going to go, like... Until he finds out it's Taylor Swift.
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No, he's going to tell me, ask which one I like the most, and then he's going to take that one.
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All I have to do is say it's my favorite, and then it's all his favorite.
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It's all his, yeah.
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So, okay, well... Our first in-house sober banter guest.
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Yeah.
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Thank you for listening to Sober Banter.
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Goodbye.
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We are so bad at goodbyes.
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