foreign [Music] ladies and gentlemen Guys and Dolls and everyone in between gather round something real nice to sip on and comfy to slip on cause it's time for smut Club here's your hosts Chelsea and Anna hey everybody I'm Hannah and I'm Chelsea welcome to smut Club where we talk about smut which is some of it's good some of it most fits bad yeah we we literally we the last episode we reviewed we were like we're talking about it and we're like have we ever have we ever given a book like a solid
like 10 out of 10 or 5 out of 5 or anything no not on the podcast I know we have on Goodreads yeah like you and I like I have rated on Goodreads I think like ugly Love by Colleen Hoover I rated five out of five um wait for it by Mariah Zapata I like that one yes um I think I also gave hands down a five out of five which did you know if I read that one did you read the wall of Winnipeg of Me Okay so the wall of Winnipeg of me I feel like that's the big one that like most people know
Mariana Zapata for there's a dude named Aiden we love the name Aiden in a romance novel um Aiden has um is it's the whole book is Aiden and Vanessa wait for it is Vanessa's best friend Diana right um there's another football player who like Aiden plays for like a the Dallas 300 that's whatever made up football team um and one of the other players Zach lives with him and so um hands down is about Zach and um there's another book by her called like the best thing or something like that
um that's about like a MMA or like UFC fighting gym something of that right um and it's like the girl who works at the front desk in that book so it's the girl from the best thing or whatever it's called and Zach from the wall of one and like I Zach is one of my favorite like I adore Zach noted and how did we start talking because I gave it a 5 out of 5. okay okay okay I got it I got it you yeah read more Mariana's part of [ __ ] like that is what the world needs apparently
um what the world could have lived without because there are no Saints by Sophie Lark which is what we are reviewing today and I will tell you I found this um on tick tock so I don't remember who it was but um one I found a video this woman was saying like these are all of my top really dark reads if you want something dark this is for you blah blah blah and I was like okay wiggle oh I gotta go I like a good dark green I I like that I'll try it I'm into it um
so I it's been a real struggle for me not to tell Chelsea details about this book because it it just is something else um my poor husband when I was about 40 of the way through I just like word vomited all over him about all of it and I was like what the [ __ ] is this and he was like I I don't know like you okay baby like please talk to someone else about this you're like this is what you have Chelsea for basically basically like what's the point of this [ __ ] podcast
if I still have to listen to these stupid books so anyway um I thought you had the podcast Outlet so I didn't have to be exactly you know at least like so we record the podcast at my house and so at least Matt gets a reprieve yeah Vance just sits here and listens to every single episode and then edits them and the look of horror on his face some of the times I'm like I'm so sorry honey yeah and he's like so so this is what you read it sure is and I like I saw a tick tock that I
actually think I sent to Hannah recently about um like how women will just sit there straight face reading like the most aggressive sex scene yeah and especially like when you're reading it on your phone or on your your Kindle or something like no one's seeing the cover of these books no one has any idea the horror Within yeah when people are like what are you reading I'm like I don't you don't want to know yeah like especially when it like so one of my um life coaching clients was like yeah
my goal was to read 18 books this year and I've read ten and I was like oh yeah my goal was to read 200 and then I got pregnant so I bumped it down to 150 and I've read like 125 so far and he's like oh any recommendations and I was like truly not absolutely not like I'm like and I don't know what that says about me that I've read 125 books this year and I'm like how many would I recommend
yeah I've read 204. I did post I know right I did do a review for a book that I read recently I think it was the one you love by maybe I don't remember I don't remember but I read it and I audibly went ugh at the end of the book like audibly was like oh and when I when I reviewed it on Goodreads that was my review I audibly said uh at the End of This Book highly recommend one star and honestly that's the perfect Goodreads review to me and I say that is if we don't sit here and discuss a
single book for like two right hours um but it's an extended reaction video but in a podcast no on Goodreads I always try and leave one sentence reviews yeah me too I'm like it's I'm like that's all that needs to be said that's all that needs to be done you get a one sentence review two if I'm feeling spicy sure but like well then we also sit here and talk about them for hours so it's a lot of sentences and that's this one y'all there are no Saints it's just buckle up
okay and if we're sensitive maybe don't listen although if you're a sensitive person you probably haven't made it past like the first one because blood play if you're a sensitive person we're glad you're here we love you we appreciate it is a safe space for you as safe as we can make it while also making it safe for everyone who is not a sensitive person sure so so this book has two points of view um we start out with uh Cole Blackwell classic character name in these books
um he's an artist he's at a show if you heard that horse running across it was actually my six pound partially hairless cat Craig's living his best life he is on one today and I don't know what it is I'm here for it I there he had no catnip this is not this is oh natural yeah this is just his resting state and we love him for it we really sorry if that's okay oh I wasn't apologizing to you oh I just assumed it was more than I forgot about our audience sorry if it's distracting as
you're listening to this and you're like what the [ __ ] is that sound in the background just correct no Hannah's used to it at this point I was not apologizing to her I was like that's fine okay so two points of views Cole Blackwell yes he's an artist he's at a show what kind of like an art show like a a gallery opening oh he's like that kind of artist not like a musical no he is an art artist he does that was one of the dumbest things I've ever said you know but it helped I got
it that way yeah he primarily does sculpture and some painting um and his rival Alistair Shaw is also there showing pieces um Cole is super haughty very annoyed that Alistair is even talking to him he exclusively calls him Shaw just to piss him off you meant hottie h-a-u I did not like he's a super hottie no like he is super hotty not he is a super hottie classic mix-up so Cole is super annoyed by Shaw he's like you are literally the worst you're so [ __ ] stupid get away from me
um but he sees this girl and he is like Ugh like literally not a fan her she clearly bites her fingernails she's like looking a little unkempt she's like shoving food in her mouth she's obviously a starving artist like I am not into any of that um but he's kind of watching her and sees uh somebody get like dump wine all over her white dress and he's like ah she's gonna like run away now or cry or freak out or whatever and the girl just kind of looks at it and shrugs a little
bit grabs another glass of wine and goes to the bathroom and comes out he's like she must be trying to get the stain out or something she comes out of the bathroom and she's basically like tie-dyed her dress and wine and he's like huh respect yeah he's like that's kind of pretty actually good job um so Shaw sees him watching this girl and starts to mock him for being attracted to her and Cole is like you literally don't know what you're talking about why are you the most annoying
[ __ ] person on the [ __ ] planet like I hate your face but he doesn't say any of that he's very like cold and reserved it's very cold and reserved oh good job so um sorry so Shaw is a serial killer um yeah Shaw is a serial killer and so apparently so maybe you shouldn't be rude to him no but but Cole is gonna be rude to him because Cole is also a serial killer so they're aware of each other but they don't get along so serial killer artists in the same Community yes and what are the odds so
Shaw's like do you see my my latest work referring to a body that was found recently really severely mutilated it was really bad um and Cole is like you are a hack in everything you do you're the worst um calls like your art and your killings are derivative basically yes like he he literally calls him Ted Bundy he's like can you not be original Ted Bundy why are you like this oh um yeah so Shaw exclusively kills women Cole exclusively kills men um and he knows that he's better than
Shaw and everything um and always literally um but this this show tonight is a competition he knows that his piece is better than Shaw's but he has made some enemies in the art community so he winds up losing um to Shaw so he's very annoyed but he also is like I don't actually care I know that I'm better than him and it doesn't matter so the next day an article comes out from the art critic that really doesn't like him um it basically just slamming his whole
piece and and praising Shaw and so he's like I think he's gonna die so he goes like stalks him a little bit lures him back to his Studio because no one has ever been inside his studio um he makes his own equipment it's all very hush-hush and very secretive and so um this art critic is like hell yeah I want to see your your studio that sounds oh not sure I was gonna die the art critic he's gonna die the art critic's gonna die so he goes and Cole kills him and then he strips the
bones and decides to use them in his new piece and so he strips the bones shapes them a little bit dips them in gold and makes makes a statue an art installation out of this guy's [ __ ] bones and then shows it that is ballsy on like that's like next level and then he sells it for three quarters of a million dollars and he has this like sick satisfaction that it's going to be um displayed like in the lobby of a tech firm he's like like oh my God I feel like that's the sort of thing
that like 10 years later there's like a news art like a news headline that you see that's like human remains found in art installation uh whatever exactly um so Shaw's really jealous again Cole's like I don't care about you so you can feel however you want just go away so then we cut to our female lead her name is Mara Eldritch um she's a tie-dye wine girl yes okay um so she's a struggling artist um she's working three jobs and she's very stressed all the time very busy she
lives with seven other artists who are also struggling in this like dilapidated Victorian house in San Francisco that's falling down um but she loved her art and she's like things are gonna get better I don't know how and I don't know in it like what sort of fairy godmother is gonna happen to me but things are going to get better I just have to keep pushing so she promises her roommate Aaron that she's gonna go meet her at an art show um she rushes over there she sees the
piece that Cole created with the bones and she's really like taken by it she's she thinks it's amazing um and then Shaw approaches her and starts chatting her up but her roommate Aaron uh had dibs will [ __ ] anything that moves at these parties and her roommate was like I feel like it's my turn for that because yeah so I'm gonna be making the move so got the speed my friend so she slips away when her roommate comes up and she starts walking home and all of a sudden she hears this sound
behind her and she turns around and she just it's she says it's described as like this Charging Bull basically like coming at her um and so she gets hit in the head like taken down to the ground there's a hood over her head and then she wakes up um in a trunk naked bound and gagged and with the hood over her head still and she can't get out of the trunk she's like trying to figure out a way out nothing's working um and a man finally comes around and pulls her out of the trunk
um and just drops her on the ground so she's like hogtied so her arms and legs are like up behind her so she can't do anything to protect her face or anything um he doesn't recognize the voice um but he's like telling her not to struggle um but she's like what the [ __ ] is happening right now and then he um he pierces her nipples what yeah so my notes say he pierces her nipples dot dot dot the [ __ ] question mark um yeah so she's like naked in this like BDSM
strappy leather but she's she's naked and then he pierces her nipples and slits her wrists and leaves her there in the woods so quick yeah when you said hog tie it reminded me of a story what why is it that whenever I say like I have a question or this reminds me of something you cringe no it's because it's not that it's that I just described this one being hogtied and having her nipples pierced and her wristlet against her will and so I'm like what sort of
story goes with that okay that is valid when you say that that's what it is the story is entirely based on the word hog tie okay when I used to work crisis Nashville we had police bring a woman in for an assessment one night and she went [ __ ] off like she like went into the bathroom to give her like UDS sample um like she's in there forever when they walk in she's like shattered the tops of like the toilet seat like taking the toilet Lids off cracked him nice um
clogged the sinks with like a wet paper towel like it's just like destroying property left and right foreign so while we are working on hospitalizing this woman because she was not going to jail for this she was not mentally well right she was being hospitalized um but she was still acting a fool and so police are there they're assisting us with like managing and maintaining her um and it got to the point that like she was hogtied in our lobby like while we are calling hospitals this
woman is hogtied in the lobby and the overnight supervisor Keisha has no [ __ ] to give I love this woman with every fiber of my being like she is a absolute queen and I just remember this woman because I was like out on a call I come in and I'm like what the hell is going on this woman is hogtied police are just like sitting there cops are just hanging out right this woman is like yelling to Keisha who's like at her desk trying to call hospitals and she's like Miss Keisha can I have a snack
I think he's just like how are you gonna eat a snack when your hands are tied later she's like Miss can I make a phone call she's like how are you gonna make a phone call when you're here and so whenever I hear the word hog tie I have this very Vivid mental image of this woman who's being a long time because we could like yeah and we had no other action she was gonna hurt herself she was gonna hurt us we're trying to hospitalizer that's where we need like the like a blow dart with Haldol okay
the number of times I recommended that right I was like guys I will go get trained I will take classes I will make sure I do not hit you while you are restraining them they're like generous offers Chelsea I don't know if our liability insurance covers blow dirt alcohol and I was like but it should and it could have we asked I was like we need a better plan okay she was not with me so anyway getting back into this like super dark situation that's not nearly as fun as my
hog tie no it's super [ __ ] so she her wrists are slit and she's tied up in the woods um and the was she was she already wearing the no the outfit they changed her into that oh yeah she was wearing like a little velvet dress okay that's gone and she's wearing this leather thing okay so we then switched to Cole's point of view again he is dumping the rest of the critic's body in an abandoned mine which is one of his usual dumping grounds and he has like a bleach and chemicals he
uses so nothing's ever going to be traced back to him um he you know Cole's not worried about getting caught he's very arrogant he's like none of this matters I'm I'm untouchable basically so he starts walking back through the woods and he sees a lump in the path and he's like the [ __ ] is that that is a girl who was not here when I walked out here what the [ __ ] is that so he realizes that um Shaw left this girl for him to find because he thought that he was attracted to her before so Shaw's
whole thing is that he believes that coal is just as impulsive and um uh like uncontrolled as Shaw is um and Cole is like I am that's not who I am at all so this was was Shaw's attempt to get him basically to collaborate on a kill and like prove that he's just as impulsive um by using this girl that he just happened to see Cole watching during this party so Cole is poor girl someone poured wine all over her dress she tie-dyes it and makes them the most out of it and so
now she's the target for two serial killers it's not ideal it's not so um she is clearly bleeding he sees her in this BDSM get up um he is livid that Shaw did this so close to his Dumping Ground because he realizes he can't use it anymore um his the mind he was using was like half a mile or or three quarters of a mile away um from where the girl is and he's like well I can't [ __ ] use that anymore [ __ ] um so that's what he's upset about and um so he he realizes what what Shaw is
doing so he's like so how do I the only way to win here right so he thinks I'm gonna finish killing her or I could try to save her but either way that is that's playing his game the only way to win here is not to play so he leaves her there he just steps right over her and keeps walking oh yeah so we're back to Mara um so she knows that she's bleeding out but she starts to hear footsteps um and she's very clear that these footsteps sound different than the
footsteps of the man who brought her out the footsteps of the first guy were very heavy and kind of lumbering and these sound very like light and um whatever fairy feet fairy feet sure fluffy feet um fluffy I don't know um I feel like that's never mind that's Happy Feet I was like isn't that something to do with the penguin like like the penguin movie yeah that's something to do with the penguin anyway so um she thinks that she is hallucinating because she's like nobody else is out here
I'm in the middle of nowhere if it's not the guy who dumped me here who the [ __ ] else is gonna be out here um and then she sees the most beautiful man ever on the face of the planet standing over her and she's like oh my God it's death he's here hey she's still gagged so it's not like she can say anything uh it was an internal hey basically um and then he starts to step over her and she is [ __ ] pissed and she's like trying to scream around the gag like getting him to come back and he just
like leaves her there so she's like great that was 100 my last chance of getting out of this [ __ ] so what do I do here she realizes that her arms are very like slick now because of all the blood and so dare we say slippery I almost said slippery I knew you were trying not to and I just wanted to be an [ __ ] well I appreciate that it's what our friendship is founded on it is so she gets out of the zip ties um and is able to get the vines off her feet as well and she has some trouble
standing she's lost a lot of blood but she uses the duct tape that was over her mouth to bind her arm that's bleeding the worst she is very resourceful she's very resourceful she's like I am not [ __ ] dying out here and so then she takes off through the woods she's like this is not ideal I don't even know where I'm going I don't know if I'm going in the right direction but this seems right so I'm just gonna keep going and hope for the best and she falls and she's like maybe I should just
[ __ ] stay here because this [ __ ] sucks but then she hears her mom's voice in her head calling her a little [ __ ] and like all this other stuff and she's like she's like you know what um I'm not dying here I'm not doing it I'm not [ __ ] doing it and so she keeps going until she stumbles into a road and that's where that chapter ends so we're back to Cole so he's been watching the news for information about the girl or the art critic but there's been nothing so he decides to break into
Shaw's house because he can't go back to the mine he wants to see if Shaw disposed of the body there um the girl's body but he's like I can't go back there obviously so um he goes to Shaw's and just starts rummaging through his stuff knowing full well that there were cameras in there he was like hey buddy like touching everything like touching all of his stuff like let's play yeah it's not your game but let's play exactly so then he pours himself a glass of wine and Shaw
comes into his own house and Cole is like would you like some wine some of your wine that I just took from your [ __ ] stuff um and so Shaw is like so what did you do to the girl like before you died yeah he's like tell me all about it like what did you do before you dumped her in the mine um and Cole is like he doesn't know that I left her there so does that mean he didn't go back to check or does that mean she was gone when he went back to check that's a big yikes but I can't ask him so
um Shaw also very clearly has a pretty significant hatred for women um and he he did [ __ ] uh Mara's roommate Aaron um and stole her ID so he shows the ID to Cole and he notices the address um he is adamant that he didn't touch the girl he's like I don't kill women I didn't touch her um and then he tells Shaw if they're ever alone in the same room again um only one will leave breathing he's like I'm so [ __ ] done with you you're just stupid and I hate you this feels
like it escalated it did yeah this has been going on for years and we find out more detail about that I think actually in the second book um I forgot to mention this is a duet um so we find out more detail about the Rivalry and how it escalates in the second book um so he decides he's gonna go to the girl's house because he saw the roommate's ID saw the address he decides he's going to go to the house and he watches as people start to leave for the day and then
um wouldn't you know it the girl steps out of the house and he is like my notes say he's flummoxed that's a good vocab word it is and he is he is like what the [ __ ] is happening is this a ghost right now um and so he follows her to a cafe where she's waiting tables like nothing happened she's just going about her brunt shift I love her yeah she is living her best life she didn't give a single [ __ ] she's like okay she's like you know [ __ ] happens here we are yep
back on that ground I got bills to pay no didn't kill me so here we go so um he knows that she saw his face but he doesn't know if she saw Shaw's face so he's like this is a conundrum and he's super pissed that he doesn't know how she survived he's like how like she was lit half dead there's no way she made it out of the woods by herself who helped her I don't understand and then also he has this weird thought that he wishes he had taken a photo of her all tied up like that because he was
super into it but he's starting to lose the details now and I'm not going to give you poor baby the description because he's gets very descriptive of that and it's not my favorite thing um so we're back tomorrow this is I guess a few days previous she wakes up in a hospital bed um strapped down they think that she tried to kill herself and she's like are you [ __ ] stupid do you not see the the marks on my wrists and on my ankles do you not see that he pierced my [ __ ] nipples like are you
kidding me right now and they're like um nah you've got some old self-harm scars so did the guy do that too and she's like uh obviously not um and the the cops like you into some kinky sex stuff went a little too far and she's like well he slipped my wrist and left me to bleed out in the woods so yes I would say things went too far officer like she is not pleased um so she doesn't tell them about the angel of death hallucination she had because she figures they already think she's
insane and she doesn't want to make it worse so she's released after four days um and she only tells one of her roommates if she tells Aaron what happened but she doesn't tell anybody else um she doesn't she says she doesn't want to talk about it anymore she's like I can't do this Aaron I don't I I don't want to say anymore but tell me about what happened with you and Shaw and Aaron is like oh yeah we hooked up but I haven't heard from him um and Mara's like I'm sure we'll see
him again soon because they they're all in the art scene so it's a very small sort of insular Community um so and solar is also a good book I'm really killing it today with my vocab maybe not with the rest but you're like much like these serial killers [Music] you're bringing good vocab words I'm bringing bad puns and diapers I'm appreciating it I mean it's a good balance so even though she is like showing up to work and she's just like doing her thing she's not doing great she's having a lot
of nightmares um and some general hyper vigilance clearly some acute stress disorder um that needs treatment so it doesn't become post-traumatic stress disorder but she doesn't have any money or health insurance I love that you clarified that for everyone thank you yeah um and so after a few weeks things start seem to be getting better um she got her waitressing job her bartending job and her job um uh walking dogs she got all of her jobs back and her roommates help her out with
money because she couldn't work for like a week um and so she is still having all of these really really bad nightmares but it's getting easier for her to fake it during the day um so we switched to Cole's point of view um he is stalking Mara online now um she's not into like self-promotion she doesn't um like post a lot of like long rambling things about herself um but a lot of her friends use her as a model um that's like a common thing for artists to do for each other and so he
finds lots of lots and lots of photos of her um but doesn't really get to know her too well there and then he sees that she posted about needing Studio space and he's like I think I may have a plan yeah hey what that was all it was just that smell just that sound I think I had more thoughts and then I think they what I went with was better encapsulating all of those thoughts that's fair yeah um so he like in this chapter and in his internal thoughts he's think he Compares
himself to a god he's like I control everything in my world um and but he says um you know I'm a God but even Zeus was fascinated by Mortals occasionally so he's like becoming obsessed with this girl but he's comparing himself to Zeus it's just weird um so what cluster B diagnoses are we going with for him anti-social buddy yeah and a little narcissist with some narcissistic traits for sure yeah so he then breaks into her room when he knows that she's out walking dogs and it's
gonna be a few hours before she gets back and he finds her sketches everywhere um and um he's really intrigued by all the talent that he sees he just starts kind of rummaging through her stuff sees you know she's reading Dracula um and he lays in her bed and really likes her scent and then he is like getting off on the idea that maybe when she lays down next time she'll smell him and either be afraid or also turned on and then he finds he finds what he assumes are panties
from the night before on the floor and so if I see masturbate into them yeah he smells them and then he masturbates into them um and he also licks them it's really cringy it's just it's it is what it is so then he just drops them back on the floor he's like I'm just gonna leave these here and so he's looking around her room she lives in the Attic of this house and he realizes that the house behind hers has a window that looks directly into her room and he's like I am going to go call
my real estate agent foreign so we're back tomorrow she's late for a date with a guy she's been seeing on and off for a couple of months and she doesn't really like him very much at all but she's like whenever like he fills the time it's convenient enough so she's rushing around to get dressed she finds she grabs the underwear off the floor and then she realizes that they're wet and she's like am I did I just start my period and then she's like oh my god what the
[ __ ] is that and so she starts to like freak out a little bit and then she starts to try to rationalize like maybe maybe it's something else maybe one of my roommate's friends got up here or something um but she can't tell if if anybody's been in the room otherwise so then she just leaves without underwear on she's like whatever I only own one pair well so she hasn't done laundry in a really long time and that becomes relevant later so she goes without underwear she meets
her date he is a dick but she just rolls with it she's like I honestly don't even care if you're gonna buy me dinner I don't even give a [ __ ] um and we've all been there amen did I ever tell you about my cousin who when she was single and was dating and was very much on a tight budget she used to strategically plan her tindered fumble whatever app matching dates to be every other night and then she would make sure she brought home her leftovers that's brilliant for the off night yeah
so she's like I never have to buy myself dinner and I was like work it you know good for you girl that's a great plan yeah it's a hello strategy um so he didn't even notice that she was missing for five days um because they really only get together like once a week or so um he touches her ear um when he's trying to push her hair behind her ear and she flips the [ __ ] out she hates having her ears touched and she like has told him that multiple times um and then he's a real [ __ ] about it
but then he apologizes later um and touches her thigh and he's like is this okay and she's thinking this is the first time someone's really touched me since someone tried to kill me this is we're gonna see how this goes so um he asks her if it's okay when he touches her thigh and she just kind of nods or whatever um she just Smiles through it and he keeps going until he realizes she's not wearing any underwear and he thinks that she did that for him and starts like
playing with her under the under the table and doesn't seem to notice that she is like quietly losing her [ __ ] so she finally fully Freaks and says she has to leave and he's real pissy about it but she really doesn't care so she gets home and pulls her mattress out of her bedroom onto her balcony um to sleep because it's too hot in her room so she just kind of lays down and decides she's gonna put on some music and just finish the night um back to Cole I know tell me you look flummoxed
you know I was thinking like I don't know what I was thinking actually I have a lot of thoughts and that's how I felt reading this whole book like the entire well the duet the whole time reading it I had a lot of thoughts okay so she pulls her mattress out to her balcony yep okay now we're at Cole's point of view okay so he finds that the house behind Mara's is on Airbnb and convinces the guy to cancel all of his guests for the rest of the month and pays for the month to to rent the house um so
here is a dick and he's like I don't understand why this girl fought so hard to survive her life is absolute garbage like look at it none of it's good um and so then he goes and sets up like a a what's that a telescope what's the thing called um I just want everyone to know Hannah trying to figure out the word for telescope and the hand motions accompanying them it was she was it was very much like a shake weight motion um it was thank you for sharing are Shake Weights still a thing I don't know
I wonder if they were discontinued or if they haven't bought them a lot of people did they buy them to use them or buy them as gag gifts is probably their real question here that's fair but a lot of people did indeed I'm there was a season there was yeah well yeah I feel like they were in like an SNL skit or something sure yeah so yeah for everything a season yes including literally just thinking that okay um so he sets up a telescope um and watches her put the panties on it
he came in and he is super turned on by that and decides to follow her on this date that she's on and watches her date and is very confused by his reaction um he's never felt jealousy before and so he's like what is this wait I'm confused because she didn't put the underwear on or she put them on and then she realized they were wet and then she took them off so he watches that he's watching the whole thing and he gets turned on by how freaked out she is um he does not understand jealousy but
he is pretty sure that's what he's feeling he's like the [ __ ] um so then he is super pleased when she leaves um so he follows her home watches her pull her mattress outside um and rain starts falling and he expects that she's gonna like jump up and pull her mattress back inside but instead um she gets naked and he watches her lay on her mattress outside naked in the rain um listening to music um and he reads her lips because she's like singing along to the song and
Googles it so he can also listen to the same song and then she starts touching herself so he does too obviously um and he doesn't understand why he is so freaking fascinated by her this isn't so unsettling yeah it's not gonna get better so she's freaking out about Studio space the studio space that she was using she can't use anymore but then she gets this uh email from someone that she doesn't know offering her this really incredible deal and she's like honestly I probably did
apply for this like young artist Grant or whatever but and I just don't remember because she was so frantically looking for space um and then you know she somebody tried to kill her so she's had a lot going on yeah so wait around justifies justify a girl exactly so she's super excited and goes the place is perfect there's no deposit it's very affordable gorgeous wonderful light all these great things and she's like you know what maybe this is my good thing for all the [ __ ] I've been going
through like maybe things are finally looking up this is pretty amazing um and she's told that there is also a um Grant available um from the artist Guild and um that she is eligible for and she's really really excited it's a lot of pressure so she she's working on a collage or something when the guild members show up um and they're coming to like view her piece to decide if she's going to be in this special show and get this grant whatever um and she recognizes Cole as the man
who left her to die who is apparently on the board for the guild oh plot twist um so she is flipping the [ __ ] out um she knows she can't start screaming at him right now so she's like the [ __ ] do I do um I'm really not trying to look like a crazy person so she very is struggling through her interview with the board and then um she Cole just stares at her the whole time so then they all file out and then finally she snaps and chases him out of the room so coal is ecstatic at how freaked out
Mara is he is loving her discomfort and um is glad that he has cameras in her studio so he can watch it back for himself later to watch how freaked out she is yeah it gets worse so um she comes out and I don't know how to feel about the fact that like every single time I'm like holy [ __ ] you're like it's not gonna get better and then I'm like [ __ ] hell and you're like it gets worse like every single thing that I'm like oh you're like I know right Buckle in like reading this I was like
am I doing like why am I doing this but I just kept reading and I Can't Tell You Why actually I can't tell you why that's a lie so I was doing a a virtual training and so I was sitting at home all day wait was this when you did your virtual ethics training no no this was a different training and I didn't have to have my camera on and so I was like what am I gonna read so this is a book that I chose randomly to read during this training that I just had on in the background and I was like
what's happening and I couldn't stop it I don't know I can't explain it to you but I did it and now you're gonna experience it also um you know what I do appreciate is that it's like I read it so you don't have to this really is that that is this is definitely that well and here's the thing I feel like I read a Sophie Lark book maybe I'm getting my authors confused she has some other stuff that's really actually pretty good yes I just read that one yes I read brutal Prince
and it was fine but I also think it was forgettable because I just as as you just heard I went was that the name and earlier you you heard me be like so the wall of Winnipeg and me hands down wait for it let me tell you about all the characters and how they love each other and how they all interact and how adorable it is and how much I love it all yeah and this one I'm like I'm like 80 confident that wasn't like yeah I could not tell you what that book was about nor am I asking to be I mean I
could tell you but you don't want to know it doesn't matter yeah like I read it and I already forgot it this is a book that I will remember but not fondly fair enough okay so he's really excited um has cameras in the studio so he can watch the playback of her losing her [ __ ] yes okay so he agrees to talk with her when she comes out and just she's like can I speak with you Mr Blackwell so then as soon as they get into an empty Studio she's like accuses him of kidnapping her
um and cutting her and he's like what are you talking about that wasn't me um and he realizes that she does not know who did it um so she didn't see Shaw's face um but he knows that she that he realizes that she knows that Cole was in the woods but she doesn't know who actually kidnapped her this question does not matter at all but it's just for my own understanding not even my own understanding I understand plenty we wish we could understand Haw his name is Aleister Shaw
which is a weird name so Hannah and I used to work for the same company and we had a co-worker whose first name was shot we adore Shaw I he will probably never listen to this podcast probably not if he randomly hears this I would absolutely crack up um but like we love him and whenever I think of Shaw I think of our friend Shaw not a weird serial killer like Shaw's from Pakistan like every time you'd see him like his hair would be different he had this he has
this like incredible mustache that like he can grow overnight so like I swear we'd be like see him one day on like a work meeting link and he'd have no facial hair and the next day I'm like where the hell did that full ass beautiful mustache come from my guy yeah and so every time you say shop I think of our speak of our shop our mustache Shaw our mustachioed friend who like we always also used to laugh when we were working because we would be on links like when
we were all like peers on the same level and Shaw would be wearing like a sweatshirt or his like shirt would be like unbuttoned like a couple like not like weirdly just like yeah and then whenever we had a meeting with our boss like we'd like literally be like okay we're getting off of this Google meet link to hop onto this Google meet link and we hop on and shot a shirt it's like fully buttoned all the way up top so we started calling it top button we're like oh we're like we're top button
professional that's the the quick turnaround is you just do all the buttons and so this is what I'm thinking about and now we're professional with our mustache well nothing professional is going on between Cole and Mara um can we keep talking about our shot I think she's like I don't want to hear it anymore I think I might like that better I'm sure that you would but we're we're in it now so um she threatens to go to the cops and he's like you're just gonna look more
insane and you're gonna lose your studio space and any chance at this grant is that really what you want to do you want to kill your kill your career is that what you want um and so uh he she pulls up her shirt sleeve and shows the scar from where her wrist was cut um and she is like um uh he points out the the scars from her self-harm and he is he he says that she is a walking Beacon for predators um and said she probably had an alcoholic father who never loved her
um and she's like actually that was an alcoholic mother and a shitty stepfather thank you for playing and um uh he she continues to threaten there's like this whole exchange and he's like go ahead honey no one will believe you you go do whatever you want um so he she asks she's like why are you doing this to me like I don't understand why would you offer me studio space why are you doing this and he's like because I want to so we're back to Mara's point of view
she is losing her ever loving [ __ ] she's like smacking herself in the face like trying to like calm down and she doesn't know she she doesn't know what's real she's like maybe I saw his face at a party and I really did hallucinate him in the woods and then she's like no no he was there I know that he was there he was trust your gut here Queen where are our instincts um so then she starts thinking about all of the emotional and verbal abuse that she suffered from her mother as a child
and she is like no I am not she she has like urges to self-harm and she's like nope I don't do that anymore and so she goes Ham on this canvas and just starts painting like mad and it's her basically a self-portrait of her bound and gagged and bleeding um and uh she's basically in a days and paints all night so Cole is watching all of this so he's watching her in her studio um his assistant comes in and he's like yeah Mara won the Grant and she's like don't you need to talk to the rest of
the guild and he's like no I do not Mara one thank you and um there's a random reference that he had a really shitty father but a very very wealthy family um he doesn't understand why he's so excited he's just he really doesn't he he can't comprehend human emotion um so he just watches her paint all night so then in the mara in the morning Mara is cleaning up and um starts to walk out for her brunch shift and um she sees that there's a camera in her Studio she's like she's like
um yeah she's gonna spray paint them I don't like that so um she is she gonna spray paint them no no but she runs into Cole's assistant um whose name I think is Sonia I literally could not bring myself to give any shits about his assistant's name but um she tells Mara that she got the grant gives her the check for two thousand dollars Mars like oh my God you're my fairy Godmother you're amazing um so does more connect the dots on why she got the grant no she's even more
confused so she goes home she tells her roommates about the money um but decides not to tell them that Cole was there the night she was attacked um and she uh they're like so why is he helping you are you are you banging him and she's like no I don't I really don't know why I don't know I don't know she's like but I do know so then Cole shows up at the restaurant where she works um and waits for her shift to end um demanding to eat with her um she is furious and very very
skeptical about what's going on rightly so her boss is shipping them from the jump he is like look at this handsome man he is here for you we love to see it this is great and he is basically a father figure to her and she's like can you please shut the [ __ ] up right now Arthur like can you not um Arthur is not picking up the The Vibes though so I had a boss not I mean obviously it wasn't a serial killer situation but I had a boss who like never quite picked up the vibe but was very much like
Father Figure situation when I was like living in Texas and my parents were not living in Texas and I was younger and like I was in like holidays with him and his family like kind of energy and I told him I was like casually dating or like casually talking this dude once he added him on Facebook and then I'd have a whole ass conversation with this kid where he's like so I think we might be in different places oh and I was like what are you talking about he's like well like you're
like your boss is adding me on Facebook and I was like he what I was like well we need to have a conversation about I was like not you and me have a conversation about that me and my boss have a conversation about that because I I told him I was casually talking to someone and he did not read that Vibe correctly that he should add you on social media we're now in a very awkward place yes yeah yeah a lot I mean the dude's not my husband that's not the way that I'm marrying but still damn okay so
so um they eat together he says that he wants her to be his Protege and she's like does that are you are you asking me to have sex with you like I don't understand what's happening right now and he's like do I look like a man who needs to bribe women for sex honey like no that's not what this is and he says that he'll be her mentor and she'll do everything he says um he says that he wants to know everything about her so they're still eating they're hanging out I guess
um she explains that her father died and they didn't have much money so food was very scarce that's why she eats the way that she does like he he's like struck with how much passion she has for food um so then she says her mother remarried um mom is a parasite dad stepdad's a psycho she hasn't spoken to either of them in several years um when I think of eating with gusto I think of friends when Rachel is talking to Ross about how quickly he eats and he's like I grew up with Monica
if you didn't eat fast you didn't eat at all yeah that's basically what's happening okay um so she doesn't know um how he got so much information out of her she's kind of freaked out by that um but she felt like he just listened like he didn't judge or ask questions or say like oh it's gonna be okay or oh but that's your mom he just listened um so then she's like I'm just gonna go back to painting because I don't know what the [ __ ] is happening in my life right now so I've had enough of it so
Kohl's Mara Obsession continues um he goes to her studio um and she is really really mad and he goes her asking if she wants to hurt him and um she says no the evil men always try to make you break as bad as them but first do you like us maybe even love us cause we sure love you and if you do love us don't tease us now listen those ratings and reviews wherever you're listening right now maybe even send us over to a special sexy someone that would enjoy getting smutty with us [Music]
first rule of smug Club is to talk about SMUD Club all right I won't keep you any longer let's get back to the show [Music] okay I feel like I missed something and honestly I don't know if I care that I missed it because I feel like they just had like a nice dinner and she was like oh look at him listening well so he comes into her studio and tries to touch her paint like he tries to touch her painting and like make changes to it I didn't explain that very well and she's
like don't [ __ ] touch my [ __ ] she's like don't touch my [ __ ] no that would be super offensive I get it now yeah yeah so he um realizes that she still thinks it was him that kidnapped her and slit her wrist and yet she's alone in a room standing up to him and so this is a direct quote she's more Twisted than I ever dared dream he's like look at how [ __ ] up she is I can't believe how into that I am so lucky am I right so she decides to um walk to the show for her new painting
rather than riding with Cole like he demanded and he sent her a dress she's like not wearing it she's like I'm just not doing this I'm not playing this game with you so um she uh wants her painting to be the centerpiece she's like I'm not showing up on Cole's arm and have everybody distracted by him showing up with a woman for the first time ever my painting needs to be the thing that's the most important here um so she realizes she's getting to know him and all of the different masks that
he wears to charm people and get what he wants and she wonders if maybe he uses a mask with her too um like the coldness and all that maybe that's a mask and her painting was basically a self-portrait of a woman restrained and shot through um with arrows and knives and um like her head is caved in it's a very it's a very violent art um and she called it the mercy of men I was like that is really [ __ ] dark so I apologize to everyone who's listening um because I feel like what you you
aren't getting from us and what you aren't getting from me is all of my facial expressions there's so many there's so many and I really feel like my facial expressions are their own Journey here but like I so instead I'm just like sitting in silence making a lot of faces that's okay it's okay I understand I really do um I really do uh so we're back to Cole's point of view he is livid that she didn't wait for him like absolutely [ __ ] raging um he shows up and um
he's concerned that Shaw is going to show up at the show and realize that she's alive because he doesn't think Shaw knows yet so he um he just wants to be with her all the time like watching from afar isn't enough anymore fully a man obsessed at this point yeah so he gets to the gallery storms up to her to confront her and um she turns to him and said says I missed you too sweetheart and just kisses him full-on on the mouth he's like who the [ __ ] do you think you
are not listening to me when I tell you to do some [ __ ] and she's like miss you too babe and they make out so he kisses her back so hard she bleeds um and they work the room it's the whole thing she pulls him into a an empty office because she is so turned on in the moment so she decides to give him a BJ but then it turns out the office wasn't empty so there is somebody in there and Cole offers for Mara to suck off this random guy first as an appetizer um
yeah is is the appetizer freezing yours or Sophia Larks or Sophie Larks not Sophia Sophie larks I don't think that's exactly like verbatim I can't remember if you caught it a warm-up or an appetizer but it was something like exactly it was something like that um so Mara is she gets up off the floor and she's like you know what I was genuinely attracted to you but you don't own me so we're done here yes I feel like I can't keep like I'm not rooting for him no but I feel like all of like
they're like these moments I'm like you just keep shooting yourself at the foot my guy like is this close yeah that's close so she walks out and grabs a tattoo artist who's like a friend of a friend that she's met before that actually did a tattoo she has on her ribs um and she's like you're coming with me and pulls him out so Cole has once again livid when he sees Maro leaving with another guy um he gets caught up talking to someone but then the motion sensors go off in her
um studio and he's like oh thank God she ditched the guy she went back to work this is great but he pulls up the feed because he wants to see her and sees that she brought the guy with her to her studio and so um she starts blowing him they have some super like super intense [ __ ] session they get covered in paint like they knock paint over on the floor they knock paint over everywhere and then they wind up on a blank canvas [ __ ] and um and she sells it for a quarter of a
million dollars not quite so coal is furious and also turned on um and but then he sees Mara like turn and look up at the camera and so he's like oh she knows God damn it like he's like she's just [ __ ] up his eyes she did all of this on purpose so I would watch um and that is exactly he decides she's even more eventual and [ __ ] up and perfect than he thought so he jerks it and then he's like you know what no more of this the next time I come it will be on Mara's face
I'm not not inside her on her [ __ ] face on her face um so one of my co-workers my Segways are fantastic they're on point today one of my co-workers recently did a presentation on like considerations and Sex Therapy and one of the things that she was talking about was porn and expectations created through porn and like fantasy right and how she had a counseling client who was like yeah I'm gonna can't wait to come on my girlfriend's face and she was like has she consented to
that and he's like they love it in porn and she was like yeah so maybe she doesn't watch the same porn as you bro like has she consented to that he's like no but they always love it like what like and he like truly didn't understand and to be fair I don't think Cole yeah he doesn't care he doesn't have a moral compass but that's what I thought of consent does not matter to Cole he doesn't care at all not even a little bit it matters to me and to me so the next morning he gets to this the office
um in his in the studio super early and he smells Mara in the room and he finds that she hung the canvas she [ __ ] on in his office like took down the art that he had hanging and hung that [ __ ] above his desk um kind of the ultimate power right so he is thrilled by how seriously by how spiteful she is like he's excited about it and then he has a moment where he sits and thinks about it and he's like getting excited about how he's gonna punish her and then he sees she titled
it best night of my life and he's like instant regret Like That Could Have Been Me like and I'm an [ __ ] yeah yeah and so now it's not so he then smashes he loses his absolute [ __ ] he is like focused on her submitting like he was cruel hoping that she would submit but she didn't so he's like obviously cruelty is not working for me he loses his [ __ ] destroys a Priceless work of art um with a golf club um and this is a direct quote from the end of that chapter he says um I loved
that piece but sometimes you have to kill what you love so I find you and I pull very different direct quotes when we're outlining books like I'm I'm pulling like I'm gonna come on your face you dirty little [ __ ] [ __ ] like you you little like like I was like he sucked her [ __ ] like a nipple for milk like these are the quotes and then I feel like I'm like here's seem oddly poetic well that one just stood out to me I don't know why but anyway you know like I mean it it
was like the first time where we're like oh he might actually kill her because up to this point he's been like obsessed with her there hasn't been any violence from him towards her yours feels like do you have your um Kindle set where it will show you like what like the common underlines that like other people do so it'll be like 208 people have underlined this passage like that feels like a quote that like a lot of people would underline yeah I think I just pull
quotes and I'm like because this [ __ ] and and you're like this one really stood out to me I'm like it did I'm like well yeah that tracks so then um Mara we're back tomorrow she feels guilty that she used tattoo guy um and also really nervous about what Cole is gonna do because she realizes he's gonna retaliate so the next morning um she finds out that another body was found um seriously mutilated with a tattoo in the same place as Mara's um and her head was missing like they
have the same body type it she really starts to freak out and then she realizes that the body was found about an hour after Mara left the party with a tattoo artist so she's like oh [ __ ] like did he do that while I was [ __ ] this other guy um and so then she throws up um I mean I get it yeah um so we're back to Cole he finds out about the new body but he just misses it because it's Shaw's work and it's trash um and so uh his feelings are so derivative so derivative
um so she's not at home she's not at work um and he decides he's gonna put a tracker on her phone because he can't find her and so then he goes to the uh to her social media finds tattoo guy and goes and finds tattoo guy and confronts him and the guy is like listen man I didn't know she had a boyfriend and Cole is like um I am not a [ __ ] boyfriend she's my goddamn property you will not ever touch her again and tattoo guys like I don't even have her number bro she wouldn't give me her
number like I did a tattoo for her one time can you please stop and Cole is like I just thought I was having some good sex he's like literally like I just thought it was hot man what the [ __ ] so Cole is like go get your tattoo gun right the [ __ ] now and the guy's like okay oh I'm sorry yeah you won't like this so we switched tomorrow's point of view she's in her Studio late at night she knows she can't hide from Cole so she's just like he's never gonna cool
off like it's not like if I give him a couple days he's gonna be fine so I'm just gonna we're just gonna go with it um so she's painting her next piece in her series that she's doing and it's the devil um Cole shows up scares the absolute [ __ ] out of her and handcuffs her to a beam um and then pulls out a tattoo gun and says that she can't have another man's mark on her body um because she belongs to him so he starts tattooing her ribs which he exposed along with her tits as
he ripped her [ __ ] shirt off and so she freezes like she had been struggling really hard but as soon as he like put the needle on her skin she froze and um then he starts playing with her [ __ ] and [ __ ] and she is really trying not to be into it but she really really is and he demands that she admit that she belongs to him and she will not do it um so she comes super hard as he's finishing covering up the snake with a bunch of flowers um so the snake is like peeking through
let's see also a skill tattoo artist apparently yeah that was another reason I couldn't get there with this book so yes that's why the lack of realism you're like how would it how would this tattoo be rated on Ink Master exactly um so the snake is still peeking through in some spots whatever so then he releases her and demands that she tattoo him and he she's like no I'm not a tattoo artist what the [ __ ] and he is like I literally don't care what you want you will do what I say right now
and so she does she tattoos two snakes coiled around each other on his back one black one white um yeah so then the next morning I don't know tattoos they really are apparently they took several hours which of course they would if they were done well um which I doubt yeah I I accept highly doubt that if you don't know how to tattoo but you're like going the right depth right and we're free handing all of this on skin skin is not the same as paper or canvas it's very different
but whatever so it's morning Cole's point of view Cole asked him to walk with her um he is just fascinated by how she sees Beauty everywhere um and she starts talking about how her um it comes up organically but it doesn't matter her stepdad used to make her stand with her nose against a wall for hours and if she moved the hour would start over and so he would leave her there for hours and hours and hours um and Cole feels something he feels like really angry about that and he doesn't understand
um they're back they walk back to the studio they keep talking about their parents Mars mom's a monster Cole's dad also a monster um and if you tell me they realize they're siblings I will get up and walk out right now no I was no no no no no no no no no we're not that far we don't go that far um so Cole like doesn't believe in love they're doing all this other stuff um she goes to leave he's like where are you going we're having this this conversation and she's like I have to go
to work I'm going to a bartending shift and so he's like great I'll come with you and so he sits in the corner and watches her 10 bar all night and then um some guys start hassling her and one smacks her ass and so Cole beats the ever loving [ __ ] out of everybody starts slicing people up with a broken bottle and she's like so we gotta go like we gotta get the [ __ ] out of here so she pulls him out um and she realizes that she probably just lost her job and she is really mad
she needed that money and Cole is like you don't need that money your painting just sold for twenty two thousand dollars so no you don't need the money um so then he tells her to come to a Halloween party with him and um she's like is this like a date and he's like no and she goes okay well I'm gonna be Medusa for Halloween so I guess I'll see you there okay so um it's all a mess Cole is then cleaning up his Studio like his private Studio not the public one where he runs other space
um and he thinks about bringing Mara there um he drags a table to the center and like imagines laying her out on it and thinking of all the tools that he'll need and he's like I'm gonna have to get all new everything because and I'm gonna have to design some special tools for her because no common drills and saws are gonna be enough for my angel or whatever the [ __ ] um it's gross and weird and creepy so they go to the party coal dresses as a Greek warrior who's
turned to stone so he like to go with Medusa and they dance and make out she's ready to bang him um and they go to leave the party and Shaw shows up and sees her um I was wondering when he was gonna return yeah and he gets really weirdly excited so she doesn't know that Cole is the one or that Shaw is the one that kidnapped her so he's like getting really weird and she does not understand that um and Cole says she means nothing to me um tell Shaw to stay away from her she she's Furious
um and he's like you he you don't understand he's dangerous like Don't Go Near him and she's like like you're dangerous and Cole is like listen Okay Shaw does what I do badly okay so yes like me and so Mara realizes that he could kill her at any time like whenever the [ __ ] he wants but he just walks away and leaves her on the street um so he continues to watch her um and then he sees a figure under her window um outside her apartment and is like oh [ __ ] I bet that Shaw follows him Shaw
winds up luring him into an abandoned building where he finds a woman dead strung up with snakes and stuff in her hair to look like Medusa um and then as Cole is walking around he hears the cops show up and he's like great love this journey for me so he realizes Shaw lured him to this building with a fresh kill called the cops so he runs um and um he makes it home and realizes that killing Shaw is going to be a really big challenge um and that Shaw's only goal will be to
kill Mara and so Cole's like well I can't protect Mara and kill Shaw that shit's not gonna work um so he decides that Mara belongs to him and so does her death so Shaw doesn't get to kill her he's gonna kill her um so then I I feel like that that might be faulty logic a little bit yeah so Mara is at a laundromat finally doing laundry for the first time in like two months and um things are finally starting to fall into place she realizes that Cole's been stalking her
um she realizes that he's also watching out for Shaw um figures out the whole scheme about Shaw kidnapped her left her for coal because he had said to her you were given to me at one point when she says like I'm not yours I'm not yours he's like you were literally given to me you are mine so then Cole shows up at the laundromat and um fingers her against a dryer um telling her that it's time for her to come home to to him and she says no that she wants to see his Studio he's like
fine you just have to be [ __ ] difficult whatever yes find the studio tomorrow night so he is ready for Mara um we're back to his point of view um he Mara shows up and he tells her that he hasn't made anything since his last piece but he's starting something new and she's going to help him it's a lot of like like alluding to the fact that he's gonna kill her tonight so um she follows him through to the main Studio he shows her some other stuff um and he she sees the table set out
with all of these apparent [ __ ] torture devices and he she tells him that she knows that Shaw left her for him to find um tells him that she doesn't believe that he'll hurt her um and he's like how much do you believe that are you willing to bet your life on it and she's like yup and gets naked and gets onto the table voluntarily and Cole is like I have to admit I was not expecting that so she's trying not to panic he tells her that he knows everything about her
and that he watched the video of her [ __ ] that guy over and over and over and over and over again to learn what she likes um I made a special vibrator to mimic the dryer from the laundromat so she has some super intense orgasms he is all so he's like an artist like a sculpture wrist a Sculptor there we go he's a sculptor tattoo artist an engineer he's mechanical engineer apparently yeah ends up he's a talents are multinational so I have a lot of detail about this sex
scene because it is so [ __ ] um there's a lot happening um he flips her over and starts spanking her at one point after she's had a bunch of orgasms with the dryer vibrator um and she told him like I don't like that don't do it and he continues to do it she reveals her stepdad used to do that to her a lot and then he starts being super sweet um and like trying to care for her a little bit and then just straight up [ __ ] her ass without warning um it's just so much like this it goes
on and on and on so finally she realizes that she's not tied down anymore that he like laid down beside her and released her wrists and so then um she gets on top for a little bit um brings his hands up to her neck to squeeze and then she blacks out and she's like if this is how I die I feel like I'm cool with it no so coal washes her up and he just has this overwhelming desire to care for her and like whatever he feeds her they put on Labyrinth [Laughter] I'm sorry oh my God I don't know why
that that's the part that is yeah yeah yeah that actually becomes relevant in the second book like I didn't have the detail when I outlined it at first but then I was like oh if we do the second book you'll you'll want to know Hannah about Labyrinth Anna don't tell me do we have to do this we absolutely don't we absolutely do not have to do the second book it's gonna say who hurt you and why do you hurt me by making Sophie Lark hurt me Sophie Lark hurt me Labyrinth
yeah okay so he doesn't know when he decided not to kill her but he's like I don't I don't want to like I want to keep her around for a long time so now we're at Mara's point of view coal drops her off the next morning and she kind of stumbles up to her room it's locked from the inside which is really weird but she's able to like Jimmy it open inside she finds her roommate Erin dead on her bed apparently drowned um covered in flowers and um she staged like a painting there I
think it's like Ophelia or whatever um and so she the six other roommates are all freaking out she's screaming they call the cops Cole calls when the cops show up and because he's obviously he's watching her and um she she tells him what happened and he says do not say anything to the police just keep your mouth shut do not talk to the cops and she disagrees she's like this was Shaw I know it was Shaw he's gonna keep hurting women this is not okay Aaron deserves Justice blah blah blah so
um she talks to the cops um but Shaw has an alibi and no one will believe her just like when she said that she was kidnapped the first time nobody believes her Cole shows up and he's really really angry but he gets her out of of interrogation and he takes her out to um out of the station and says that she is moving in with him um right now because he can't keep her safe by continuing to follow her he's going to take care of Shaw she just needs to stay safe um and she uh agrees with that
assessment and that is the end of the book stop that is that's where it ends if she agrees to move in with him yep I wish you guys can see Chelsea's face just crumpled I don't even know what the emotion was behind it but your whole face just crumpled hmm I want alcohol so badly and this [ __ ] kid I'm pregnant with for him I won't but it's but that book makes me want to drink I know I really do um so what what's our rate I don't even want to rate it like paint brushes yeah that that feels safe
that's what we need right now we need to feel safe let's talk about coping skills yeah and emotional regulation yeah maybe um a nice warm bath um it doesn't matter what the rating scale is it's just one of that thing out of it an infinite number of that thing human bones sculptures how many human femurs are there are there 106 bones in the human body I thought there were 206. is that how many I'm gonna look it up how many bones I don't know I dropped a human anatomy in college you were right
it is 206. no I got oh six you you got the the two with our powers combined um I remember I saw a card once that was like the human body has 206 bones when I'm with you I have 207.
which is a great line well if we're gonna do it out of 206 bones the answer is the answer is still one and honestly I think that's why I liked I was like no no it's like out of 10 paint brushes one is too many yeah um it's one it is like one pinky toe bone is it your pinky toe or your big toe that if you don't have it you lose your balance I don't know I would imagine either would be a challenge I think it's your big toe without your big toe you lose balance
yeah you that would be hard to stabilize that's fair um yeah so one out of 206 gold flaked human bones yeah so the thing about this book um was that I was rooting for no one and I hated it like the story parts of the story I was like okay I'm into the story actually like the premise of it is really interesting but the detail was like I a full body cringe all the time and the second book doesn't get better I don't even know why I read this I'm going to kindly and respectfully ask that we don't
and I'm gonna honor that request because consent matters and I'm gonna honor that with you thank you because then we'd have to like it end up like two out of 412 bones and that is too low of a rating um yeah so whatever y'all do for self-care yeah you should you should go do that you should prioritize that should do those things I'm gonna go sit in a dark room and think about my life choices for a little bit um yeah I'm gonna drive home and probably Listen to I don't know like a
Kendall Ryan book or something that is just the exact polar opposite of that whatever whatever you need whatever helps regulate you well I'm also going to delete the outline I have for the second book so that I don't ever accidentally look at it if we're not gonna do it I don't even want to accidentally look at it I think that's a really fair assessment okay um thank you for joining us on on such a roller coaster on such a journey I'm so sorry y'all I'm so so sorry y'all I really am um
and I I think the crazy part was like watching you like go through your outline I was like I can tell Hannah's skimming some parts of this I really do it gets weirder and it gets worse it really does a lot so go prioritize your self-care go prioritize whatever you need to do to emotionally regulate yourself after that one um and let us know what you do for yourself care and I'd say your thoughts on the book but I I don't even feel like I want to recommend like reading it and trying it
um so yeah just you let us know what your self-care looks like smut [ __ ] I will tell you what I took away from this book is that I should not get book recommendations off of tick tock that's what I got from this book primarily um but I appreciate y'all learning that lesson with me but I I think this book was exactly what was advert like they're like you want you want some [ __ ] dark [ __ ] here you go and you're like yeah I'll go with some dark [ __ ] and then
you're like oh this was darker than that's not what I meant yeah yeah so now that we all learned our lesson I appreciate y'all and we will see you next time [ __ ] we're sorry and goodbye we hope it was good for you cause it sure was great for us you're digging what we're doing it would mean a lot if you'd take a minute to rate and review the show wherever you're listening right now if you tell that sexy someone to Linda senir we love you we appreciate you we'll see you next week stay spotty
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