Finding The Light Again with Janelle Brunton-Rennie

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Hello and welcome back to another week of Slow It Down. I am your host p J Harding and this week's episode get your tshoes Ready. It is powerful and very moving and puts life into perspective like nothing else. I am joined by Janelle Brunton Rinnie, who not only founded a very successful PR company called Media Jam here in New Zealand, she has tackled marathons, triathlons, been a competitive bodybuilder, and when she was thirty six years old, her husband

I was talking to Janelle, I was like, life is good.

I need to appreciate everything I have right here right now. It makes you stop listen, feel a heck of a lot of empathy, and also feel really inspired as well, just the absolute resilience that she showed through some of the most unimaginable circumstances. I really hope you enjoy this week's episode with Janelle Brunton. Ready, Janelle, it is so nice to have you with me this morning and slow it down. Thank you so much for taking the time out of your day to have a little chairs Ah.

Honestly, I'm so excited to be here. Thanks so much for asking me.

I think I connected with you.

There were sitting brands that you had under your PR company, and then I don't know, I've just known you from afar over Instagram over the years.

Sure, and then I would have sent you stuff to do with whatever life cycle you.

Were in, so more recently like yay than that sort of stuff.

How we work, Yeah, speaks of all Lea's go back to the beginning of media jam.

How did you get into all of that?

It was like the coin of botox at twenty four years old, and I was the marketing manager for the Casey Group. And it was before everyone did the botox thing. So I'm like trying to get everyone to understand botox and it's amazing now, and whatever was everyone these days talks about it was still a dirty word back then. Fast forward and then I was in PR for Pandora

And then I went to Bali and I don't know when that was.

It might have been maybe three years into Media Jam, and Bali impacted me a lot the first time I went there, and I came back and I thought about it and I thought about it, and it was before ethical business was really even a thing, and I decided that I really wanted to use my voice for good and I wanted to share. I ordered to focus on sharing brands, people and products that were trying to make

Gone from there.

So when you jumped into that you like, full on boss? Did you go into that full boss role? Did you have much experience like or were you winging it?

Nah?

I think having done all the marketing stuff, yeah, and got all the business now and then realizing that PR was where.

My my what do you call it?

My authentic set is very aligned with PR. I remember all the most random things about everyone. I know their dog's names, their children's names, whether they wear silver, gold, rose gold. I remember what I gifted them like fifteen years ago, and I've been doing it for twenty years now. I moved to Auckland twenty years ago to work in beauty and lifestyle and do what I'm doing so.

Now it just felt like a natural progression.

I do remember they were Media Jam turned two and I stood in the shower and ugly cried because when you start a company, it's all these naysayers and everyone says to you, I make it so hard and what does it? Eighty percent of small businesses fail within the first two years, and then I I think I was twenty eight when I started it.

Man, did I hustle hard?

And I stood and cried out of honestly genuine pride because after two years I was established media jam was doing well.

I had a.

Couple of really good brands by that stage I was so proud of and slightly wepped in the shower.

So do you put it down to being really authentic with your business, Masha?

I'm for farm in North Canterbury, so farm girl by nature. Oh yeah, I can like drench your mob sheep like I could actually do all the farm stuff bag.

I wouldn't believe that I've been brought up on a farm my whole.

Life, and I think it gave me a really good grounding around with ethics and ethos and ensuring I'm a bit of a people pleaser as well by nature, which is quite a good thing in pr So I think.

I've got this work ethos where I love to over deliver.

I've got my dad brought me up very like salt of the earth, hard walking, good can tab family.

Whereabout North Canterbrec.

Yeah, North Camber, Oh, White Brah.

White bra also wine region.

Wine region.

Yeah, they're mostly beef actually now beig farmers that back in the day was all sheep and beaf. Yeah.

Yeah.

I think it gave me a good cift effects and ethos. And combine that with the fact that I love to talk. I remember all the random stuff about people because I'm quite interested in people, and I'm a people pleaser who likes to make everyone, like all parties happy.

It makes me really good at it.

That's amazing.

What a skill to have though, That's such a beautiful trait to have. So with slot down, I guess I want to talk to people about how they stay sane in the chaos and find peace in the mundane as well. But jeepers, you have absolutely walked through fire over the last five years is it seven seven years?

Yeah?

And I don't I don't want to make you relive all of the trauma that you've been through, but you have openly Okay, we can chat about it.

I'm good with chatting about it.

I've done so much processing of it all, and as you know, I have shared the journey so openly online because it's helped me so much that I'm good with talking about it.

We can totally go there.

It's okay because I often I often think about my situation, life is so hard, and then I will literally think about what you've been.

Through, and I'm like jeepers. It just puts everything into perspective.

And I know everyone's hard as relative to their own situation, and everyone at some point will go through a really hard time. But you were your daughter was four months old, and that's when you discovered that your husband Kurt, had been diagnosed with blood cancer.

I remember I worked the day before stage came out. I knew that when it's you're the business owner.

You don't get tunity leave, but I did have two weeks off, and then I was running the company again with a small child in a vesinette and next to my desk, and that I don't want to glorify that. I don't in hindsight, that's not a good idea. That was a huge amount of pressure, and combined that with all everything else, I had a really hard time as

Really I've got this. I'm a good mum.

My business is not crumbled underneath me, because it's what I was terrified about.

I've got this.

And I wrote all this incredible stuff in my journal and honestly thought I was holier than there and good for me. And it was like that moment is so burned into my memory because I remember thinking it and then very quickly it's like I was taken by an avalanche. Basically, we celebrated our wedding anniversary on the tenth of January.

On the eleventh of January, Kurt, my late husband.

Got out of the shower and just really nonchalantly went to me, hey, j dreck and this feels a bit hard, and prodded.

Around his upper abdomen.

And Kurt was the most healthy guy I'd ever met, never had a cough, cold, flu.

The guy was seemingly like Superman. And I went, yeah, back, maybe should go to the doctor. Never thought anything about it, not even kedding didn't even cross my mind.

Kurt, being very proactive about his health, went straight to the doctor, and that afternoon life just unraveled at breakneck speed. It's incredibly humbling to experience something where like literally within a moment, life can completely unrevel And I got a call from Kurt to say, been to the doctor. Doctor sent me straight to an ultrasound. On my way to the ultram ultrasound, got a call from Kurt after the ultrasound on his way back to the doctor.

Lady at the ulch seon wouldn't tell me anything. I'm going straight back to the doctor for the results. Now we know that normally we go the uch side and they go, oh, it's all good.

That was when we thought, oh, and then read me straight away to say I have a large growth on my spleen and we need to do biopsas immediately to find out what it is. You automatically jump on doctor Google and life goes from the air. And the next the next three or four weeks quite a blur because you don't know what you're dealing with. You keep telling yourself that it'll be benign. It's not benign, and Kurt's blood cans had turned out to be very hyper aggressive.

It would have killed him within four weeks without intervention.

We did not have that small tumor was the size of an American football in four weeks, and we did not have time at all to really get anything done. And he was in hospital, and we were very fortunate that he responded initially very well to chemo.

Otherwise that would have been the end of it, very rapidly.

I can't even imagine being in your body in that situation, like you're, as I said, like you're your new mum, You're trying to still got your business, like you're still trying to balance there, and then you're blown this earth shattering news. How did you get through the next few months.

I again, I think that farm upbringing and my dad instilled in me this very very tough and I don't mean that in some toxic masculine way. There's a real resilience to me that I knew it was there, but I'd never had to call upon. And I think I just you go into survival mode. So you go at first you're in shock, and then you go into survival mode. And then when you're like me, you're like, I will not let you die. Was basically right. So you research everything, you try everything, you name it.

We did all that.

We did everything, every single integritive medicine combined with traditional medicine and my traditional hospital, not like all sorts of medicines.

We did all the medicines. Babe.

When you're in survival mode, all you do is you just keep going, like you get up every day and you just keep going, and you fight all the fires and you keep going, and you cook the food and you just keep everyone alive.

And you can't look at the bag pacture. You have to literally take it moment by my mind.

You're not even able to. Yeah, it's like when you have it. You know, when you have a newborn baby and you're in the fog, and it's like the fog comes in to ensure that we keep our baby alive. We're focused.

It's like mother nature does this to keep us focused on our number one thing, our baby.

So it's like you go into a survival fog.

And for me, it was keep my baby alive, keep my husband alive, keep my business alive. It wasn't actually so much about me it keeping me alive at all. You're the very last thing on the list. But if I can keep those three things alive, that's all I do each day, and each day is instant repeat, just keep everything alive. And you can't look outside the fog. It's like you're incapable.

And when you're in, because then you actually sink, right, Like you have to just keep going.

Around.

I think you just put that push the overwhel on button, and some people do it. Everyone's different, Everyone handles.

These situations differently.

I'm lucky that my modus operandi was like full on action mode and I'm doing this and everyone is living this will not happen on my watch, so to speak.

And so after how many months of treatment he had to go over season there.

Yeah, in PR you have to have a plan B, right, You always have a plan A and a plane B.

Yeah.

So my plan B was to find out what happened if he became unresponsive to chemo in New Zealand, and the only thing that was feasible or was that was available was CARTI therapy, which is immunotherapy was not available in New Zealand, was available in the US. We got him accepted at mass gen and Boston, and we were on a plane to Boston.

You remind me so much of my mum.

So my dad was diagnosed with stage four process cancer when I was fourteen fifteen, and he got told he had two to five years from doctors. My mum, who was a doctor but then got really into alternative health as well.

God, she did not take that. Just remind me so much of it.

She did never, she never took no for an answer, and she explored every single option, every Yeah, and you do in that situation, You do everything you can.

When you love someone like you will fight with them till the end. And that's what it feels like. It feels like you're in war like It's the only way I can describe it. When I said this at Kurt's funeral, I felt like I was this warrior that had picked up the biggest sword I could find, and I would swing at anything and everything that threatened us. And you just keep fighting.

So when you went over says you got him on the trial? Was he initially response of.

So WI party, they take your tea cells.

Yeah, they send them till I think it was somewhere in Chicago, and they genetically engineer them into killer cells, and they do it through a process of exposing them to different things like polio, this, that, till they're like basically they are like, just yeah, the worst of the baddest of the tea cells in a very good way. And for some people it works, and it is very good technology, and it is incredible.

In Kurt's case, his cancer was so aggressive and so fast that he had so much cancer within his body.

Again that the t cells they go to work, they do their job, but he went into a coma because you get this massive build up of this toxin that the cancer secretes as it dies.

Something. If anyone's listening to this, that is medical and I'm not giving it all up, but.

I'm doing my best, hug And he got neurotoxin, and he got neurotoxicy went into a coma, And unfortunately, at that point they have to intervene because if they don't, they have had a number of people on trials that have been cancer free, but the aftermath of it is so huge that.

They may be in a coma for the rest of their life. So in terms of ethics, they need to intervene. So when they intervened, they stopped the T cells working.

We then had a scan that actually showed that ninety percent of all the cancer was gone.

It's incredible. But there was this little area that lit up like.

A Christmas tree on the scan, and I remember thinking, I've never quite seen anything light up that bright before. And unfortunately, maybe that was what was left when they had to stop the process, or this was a highly aggressive kind of cancer that the tea cells were even rendered useless against.

We will never know that.

And on Christmas Day, Boxing Day that year, I got a call from Kurt and he'd had what they too to reposition and scan and he said, it's bad news, baby, and I remember him reading it to me, and again, it's one of those moments.

That it burned into your psyche.

I remember my legs just completely falling out from underneath me. Couldn't hold me any more, and I let out the sound that I don't kind of like a cow giving birth actually, And you'll understand that noise, but most people will be like let out the sound, which is basically every part of ear escaping your body. And I know exactly where I was when it happened, and I can feel it even now that moment, and that was the moment that we thought, Okay, we've just got to get

That sound that you're talking about, it's a visceral sound. I remember letting that out after my dad passed, and I just remember going outside and it was almost like a howl.

And I remember in.

That same moment, I was like, I don't know what that was. I think my brother might have done it as well. And I just think that's no, you don't. And I just think that's a great response. And I think it's totally natural. But we in the Western world don't really talk about death.

Oh we really glossy. Yeah, I don't want to ask in other people's discomfort. We're very the Western world. I think we're very focused.

On comfort and yeah, comfortable, and I think we're almost at a point where we feel entitled to be comfortable and to remove anything from our lives that feels uncomfortable.

And I think then.

Maybe sometimes in life when they're extremely uncomfortable happens.

We don't have the tools at.

All on board for it because we have been sheltering ourselves and constantly living in comfort. And then you're faced with something that you don't have any idea how to navigate. And that's yeah, and that's enough.

But learning experience in.

Itself, how did you find the years after that? It was again that sort of fight or flight survival mode for a very long time.

Here's the thing with grief.

Everyone's around you for that period, and then everyone is just gone. And I'm every night at home with my baby, the couch gone, There's no one.

To talk to.

It's silent, and it's very stark.

And I was in shock. I now understand it.

Shocked for five months, I want to say, like actual shock, unable to really. But I still keep going. I still keep running the business, keep the business alive, keep.

That join the business.

My child will not lose anymore. I will not lose my house. I will not. So I'm like so fixated.

On providing, making sure she doesn't lose anything else, the secondary, minimizing the secondary losses for her, all of these things.

Yeah, and so has that been tensified that needing to control what you can control since the past thing has it always been a big part of you?

Nah? I think it was probably a part of me, which probably makes me good at my job and good at you know, like there's a need for it.

But you did.

You clutch at the things you can control to provide you with less of a sense of helplessness.

I guess the mind no what's happened.

The body or the soul takes a very long time to accept what's happened. And I'm sure you understand what I mean by that, but you don't know. There's not a soul acceptance. And my soul didn't accept it for a very long time.

Yeah.

And then after that period, the fog begins to retreat, and I actually think then the hard bit kicks.

In because it's been sheltered by this numbness.

Shock and the fog numbs you out, keeps you going, and then it's the fog retreats. You're then left with the aftermath. And that that was much harder for me. I don't want to speak on behalf of anyone else, but that was much harder for me. So from about the six month mark until the two and a half year mark.

It was life was very challenging, very challenging, you know what I mean.

And that was about two and a half years when I think I saw the light at the end of the tunnel. And then there's an entirely new thing because you get to the end of the tunnel and actually you just sit there for a long time in the car.

I don't even know what to do now, what even is this?

And then also you go through Am I allowed to continue with life? Am I allowed to find happiness? Am I allowed to be happy? Am I allowed to to give yourself all over again? To step back into life? Permission? I've got this amazing vision board in my bathroom and I was looking at I look at these munchras like every morning, and one of them is.

I give myself permission to be happy.

Because I almost think that Hollywood has glamorized this. Oh this widow, this was her love of her life. She will never love again, and they've glamorized this.

And I'm like, you know what.

One of the things I've had to meet peace Worth is I had this incredible deep love and I am so grateful for it. But I am not going to martyr myself for the rest of my life. And I think some people think you should. I think some people think you shouldn't, Like you'll never please everyone on this journey. But I will not martyr myself. I will not take the ability away from Sage to have an incredible father

You know how like, especially when everything happened, you're like, keep Kurt alive, keep Stage alive.

And you were at the bottom of the pile.

Have you found that you have managed to bring yourself up and prioritize yourself through this journey.

It's a tough question. Of all the.

Questions, I got it.

Hey, look I have learned or I am still learning, that I deserve peace, that I deserve to be loved. So when you play caregiver for so long and for a long time, and I had to do a lot of work, I felt like I'd failed Kurt, I failed to save him. I took that real hard. Failure for me was very hard than to accept. So I went about trying to.

Save other people but not yourself, but not myself.

If I couldn't save Kurt, if I can only save you, that will help. And I'm trying to fill this void of saving everyone else that I can see as thinking.

Again, not a good idea, But.

Grief is such a huge experience that you when you're in pain, you know which won't be magnets.

When you are being an immense.

Pain, you will naturally gravitate or attract beings that are also an immense pain.

So I found there along the way.

Oh yeah, oh yeah, And I probably made things a lot harder for myself, but it was all part everyone's our mirror was all part of So every time someone would come into my life who needed saving or I would feel this thing. If I look back now, it shows my healing journey because we're attracting what we are at the time, so it shows it's like a yes, it shows how I navigated my healing journey.

So when you came out of where at two and a half years of hell, were you at a place where you could start implementing routines that could make you feel better? Like did you start realizing there were rituals that were beneficial for you that you had to do.

It was routine that got me through the first two and a half years. So I went to the gym every single day. I went back and found something that was just for me, and then one hour every day there was this place that was just for me where I could actually transmute my pain into something that was beneficial. So training became an outlet for my pain and suffering. I would walk into that gym, I would put my headphones on. I think sometimes I would have a cap

And man, I.

Trained hard because I had so much pain to training out, but that was my thing. After a while, I managed to decide. I maned to be strong enough to go to the headresser and get my hair done, and I almost cried at the basin because it was the first time someone had touched me for months. There's a thing, and I wrote about it. It's called skin hunger and sounds really sucy.

It's not. It's like you go.

Through this thing where no one has touched you for so long, and then someone was actually I remember it now, someone was actually caring for me and giving me a head message at the basin, and I pretty much just lost it because no one kid for me, no one had shown me anything like I. It was the keygiver I And so it was this real moment where I was like, oh, okay.

So I actually started.

And it sounds a bit frivolous, but I started getting my hair done once a week.

It doesn't sound riverless at all.

It was this one thing that made me feel good.

It's interesting my husband's grandmother does that every Friday.

She goes to the hairdresser and gets her hair done. And I don't know if.

That's a generational thing, but I get it. I get it like being and mum, you just carve out that time actually in your situation.

It might seem crazy. No, it was such a gift. It was such a gift. And I still adore my hairdresser and I'm lucky. It's like around the road.

It's not far.

She good at the head message. I hope she was good at head message.

Well, I mean it, maybe cry.

Hana.

Look, I want this story to be obviously a story of hope as well, because you have recently had some really exciting news You've come back from BALI is that where it happened?

It is.

Yeah, I think I'd decided that I was done with trying to date, like again. But I think even as single women, we go through these things like I'm going to pop myself out there, I'm going to do it, and then actually, that's a terrible idea. I'm not going to do that, And so I would be torn between trying to date and thinking that was a massive failure.

Oh my god, I don't want to do that again.

Ebenston repeat for a couple of years, and one of my best friends I've been really good friends with for sixteen years used to come to my spin classes back in my aforementioned it's been instructed, had been had come back into my life, and our girls had been having playdates and this sort of stuff. And yeah, we started eighteen a nineteen months ago and had looked for anyone that's gone through grief or going through grief, I'm not going to say that starting dating is this magical.

I'm texted and I'm healed. It's really not.

And actually it brought up a lot of stuff for me in the first year. There was abandonment wounds in there, understandably that.

I didn't know.

But it's like anyone that gets into a relationship, it's going to bring up the work that's yet to be done.

And man, did it bring up some work.

So last year I had we had a lot of work to do, but we have been friends for so long, and we each had a lot of work to do, and we supported each other through that work together and I am just so proud of us. And this year has been great. And then we med Bali and my partner's name is Max and my fiance's name is Max.

Sorry Maybe asked me.

To marry him and Balley a couple of weeks ago, and I am just I'm excited to get an opportunity at a second chance of forever. Is there is a little bit where I feel a bit teary. I'm so grateful. I'm so grateful that there's a man in stages life that wants to love her and be that father figure that she so desperately deserves.

I've had to watch her work out that the other kids have dads and why doesn't she.

I've had to watch her make Father's Day cards and put them on top of We still have Kot's ashes in her bedroom and every Father's Day we light a candle and we put a card up there.

And I've had to watch her. She even walking down the.

Road, she would say she would blow a dandelion and say, I wish for a new daddy.

Man's some this.

Yeah, there's some stuff that you don't think of, right, And so meeting someone and building a life and with them again is.

Such an honor.

And I have also shared that openly and what I have been so not humbled by when I started sharing on Instagram. I started sharing because when Kurk got sick, I frantically tried to find other women who had been through what I was going through who could give me some sense of camaraderie an online community. And seven years ago, six and a half years ago, that was actually not a lot. We still we didn't talk about grief that much.

Highlight reels and no one. So I found a couple of women.

That gave me a sense of camaraderie. And when I started sharing. I decided that I wanted to share and create an account that was the kind of an account that would have done sperately helped me one when Kurt got sick, but two when Kurt passed, and it would give me hope that I was going to get through this, and that one day someone once said to me, just start living until you start to feel alive again.

And that was and.

I do not know who that was on my Instagram that messaged me that, but your quote became.

My mantra for years.

And you slowly start to see things in color again, and you slowly come back to life again, and I feel alive again. And so I have shared openly my journey with finding love again and the challenges that's brought

Wow.

I was going to say, what bit of advice would you have for someone really going through it right now, whether it was similar to your situation or someone that just can't see the light at the end of the tunnel. Is it simply just keep living until you feel alive, or do you have any other nuggets that have really helped you along the way if you're.

Right in the thick of it.

I think that's a pretty decent one, to be honest, because when you're in that space, there's no color. Life is in some even black and white. I think that's too contrasting. It's just shades of gray. So what I started to do was and this is term now called glimmers, which was not a thing way back when I was going through the thick of it.

But what I started to do was to find to like.

Create moments of pure joy and connectedness in my day throughout the day.

And that started from when I wake up, I.

Like in sense and I click in my mind, I say a little black which I didn't realize I did, but I do. I light this incense and I basically say something around blessed this house, and but like I.

Do, and then I light the incense.

And I made a thing of watching the sunrise every single morning because that's when I felt closest to Kurt. I drink espresso, and I would make that a real ritual, like I would rarely taste my espresso. I would make more cups of tea, hot tea. It became very simple stuff because I couldn't get out. Once my child's in bed and she's still in I can't get out and

I love I love that.

I think back to pre kid life, and like when we had the time and the disposable and kind of just go to spas and treatments and all that stuff. And that used to be the kind of self care in your mind right, But actually the best kind of self care is the self care that you can implement on a daily basis and it doesn't need to cost much. Do you have a little hack on shortcutting to that mindset?

I think it's all breath and I don't want to get all like preachy and whatever, but I think if I think to what I do in order to ground myself, because it's all about getting back in your body, right, so I think I actually just take a breath. I also need to take quite a bit as well as the art form thing. Side note, but just in case anyone wants to get into that, I really think it's very helpful.

And saying that I couldn't do it for the first year at all. There was no way I wanted to connect with my body.

I had a feeling that if I created and felt, if I felt into my heart, it just might kill me.

So I couldn't.

But I learned to get back into my meditation, and it's incredible. I think it's amazing how much we slow down and remind ourselves that we're a soul and a body. And I think, and I know it's probably not the extravagant answer you're looking for if you take a breath before you light your candle or before you get into your bath or run your bath, even because you could.

Start your ritual there.

I think creating rituals in our lives connects us.

And adds romance.

And I don't mean with someone else, I mean the romance back into life with ourselves.

And I think that's.

The thing that helped me reconnect with my body and reconnect to myself and actually reconnect with because for a while, again when you're in survival mode, you're not connected, but there's no one.

I don't mean pleasure, and again the sourcy sense.

I mean pleasure in creating a pleasurable life where you do taste your.

Wine when you slip sip it, you taste your coffee.

Everything becomes a present, when your presence there's.

An art to it.

It's like there's been shame with pleasure, right, And you're right, people think pleasure.

And you don't need that. You need it is to fully enjoy life, even.

If do you know what new pair of silp pajamas stop experience? And now social media calls it glimmers, and I get it, and then it goes out into lots of other things.

But I think the.

More in life that we can create our own little microglimmers without the need for anyone else or the need to leave home or they need to whatever, the more we actually start having larger glimmers in life, because again I think it's that what we are, What was it like? What we attract what we are, we attract more of what we're doing. So I think it's a great place to start is creating those little micro glimmers through living life to create life like an art.

Right.

That is such a beautiful note to wrap this chat up. And I'm just so grateful for you coming on, Janelle, because mate, you've just absolutely been through it, but you're a true example of resilience and you show that there is hope and life at the end of the tunnel. It doesn't mean that it's all fairies and unicorns. I know that you're still probably going through it in ways, but I think you would have helped so many people today by sharing your story. So thank you so much for coming on.

I thank you so much. PJ.

Well, that was my episode with Janelle Brundon Riddy and I told you, I told you. It was such a moving chat, put so much in perspective, and it really goes to show grief is not linear and everyone experiences it differently. But for Janelle, she was in just like obviously that fight or flight mode for quite a while where she was just surviving day to day and then after about two and a half years, you know, it felt like there was some light into the tunnel, But

Just infusing your day with.

Things that you know that will bring a little bit of bliss is a really good hack which I loved from Janelle's chair.

I would love to know what you got out of it.

You can always message me on Instagram. It's embarrassing saying my little handle.

It's pj DJ.

And if you go check out my page dot forget, I've got an incredible Slow it Down bundle to give away.

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