Sleep Over with Carolyn and Laila

Having a Happy New Year in the End Times

Carolyn & Laila talk about their attitudes for the New Year in 2022, and read aloud & discuss their favorite prophecy from Richard Rudd’s masterpiece the Gene Keys.

Something just ain’t right / mass formation

Something is rotten in the censored state of the internet. Carolyn and Laila talk about it.

Permission to Rest

Laila and Carolyn talk about their evolving strategies for giving themselves deep permission to rest and surrender in a hectic world.

This. Is. What. the. Apocalypse. Looks. Like.

While Laila is out of town, Carolyn has a conversation with a dear mutual friend, Pamela Lyness, a gifted channeler and plant medicine worker. Pamela & Carolyn talk about how the world is splitting quite dramatically into a) folks tuning into a frequency of trust in the unknown, wholeness & interconnection and b) folks doubling down on the authoritarian control vibes. This is what the apocalypse looks like.

The Electric Yes!

There is really only one current in the universe - the Yes current. No is false; it’s just resistance to yes.

Riding The Waves of Putrefaction

When the surf gets rough, remember that it’s not personal, and the Hermeneutic choice remains available. Samsara’s gonna samsara.

It’s Toruses All the Way Down

Desire is here to move us, one way or another. The field of desire erupts out of everything and is simultaneously sucking everything into itself. In this episode we discuss, among many other things, the ultimate choice we have in life: does living in the relentless field of ever-evolving desire spit us out into the next perfect moment always… or does it just suck?

Raising a Toast to the Great Beyond

On a dark pre-Halloween evening, we sing the praises of Mama Death, the Great Underworld & all the realms & gifts that lay there-in

Behind the Curtain of Mystery School / the Demise of the Goths

Herein, Carolyn and Laila talk behind-the-scenes shop about exactly why we’re soooooo jazzed for our upcoming Sleep Over Mystery School, dish about the HOTTT applications we’re getting (it’s gonna fill up fast!) and relate the story of how the Gothic Empire fell due to violation of the Mystery. To apply for Sleep Over Mystery School & learn more about the offering, go to carolyngraceelliott.com/SOMS.

“Okay, Brian.”

Sometimes, voices tell you that what you know is true is gross, vapid and doesn’t accomplish anything. Well - you can tell those voices, “Okay, Brian” and know they’re coming from an Old Aeonic Internalized Patriarchy that has literally poisoned the earth and doesn’t deserve a text back.

The Caterpillar’s Question

“Whoooo are youuuuu?” - in this episode, Carolyn and Laila talk about how we have the power to answer the Caterpillar’s Question with mythic trickstery glee, practical tips for going about this, and the immense benefits of doing so.

The Sexxxy Middle Pillar

On a cacao and kava-fueled roll, Carolyn and Laila are still on the front porch with Hannah and Lulu, now talking about the sexxxxy wonders of the Hermetic classic, the Middle Pillar by Israel Regardie.

Dreading the Wonderful / Exercising Your Hermeneutic Choice

Carolyn and Laila hang out with baby Lulu and Laila’s genius artist sister Hannah Johnson and give the real real scoop on the pain / pleasure torus of genuine magickal manifestation work and what it really takes to raise your havingness level.

Instagram Scrolling as Legit Tantric Contemplation

At their favorite tea shop in Pittsburgh, Laila and Carolyn talk about how god looooooooves to scroll the ‘gram of existence. It’s a bit loud when tea shop patrons get to talking around us, but hey, thems just the breaks of hanging out with Laila and Carolyn. ;)

Naughtiness is next to Godliness

It’s way way easier to find the divine spark within you when you realize it’s pulsing with the taboo flavor of your naughtiest impulses.

Love is Gross, and It’s Everywhere, All Over Everything

In this episode, Laila and Carolyn riff on their most foundational shared view - love is gross. It forgives everything, knows everything, is kind to everything, even the worst weirdest nastiest shit.

God’s Disgusting Love for Us

Laila and Carolyn talk about God’s total gross narcissistic love for Godself.

The Annihilating Joy of Being Turned Down for Tacos

Carolyn and Laila talk about our existential predicament of being simultaneously totally alone as the great solo consciousness and simultaneously in full Union with all apparent others.

New Aeon Relating

Carolyn and Laila talk about the possibilities of rejoicing in lucidity through sex and relationship.

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Mother Will

How Carolyn’s and Laila’s respective saint mothers unwittingly taught them the New Aeon truth that Do What Thou Wilt is the Whole of the Law.

Waking Up with Laila and Carolyn

Carolyn and her dear friend Laila Bernhardt talk about how they met and got wise to the joys of the dreamlike fluidity (emptiness) of existence.

Ego death / Scorpio season / Calcination

It’s Scorpio season! Death celebration time! How do we put down our negativity and surrender into ego-death sensations so we can live more abundantly?

When you pull a “bad” card

Talkin’ ‘bout how to deal when you pull a scary card from the Thoth deck like “Cruelty”

Alchemical Community, the Power of

I relate my story with how an Alchemical community was key to my growth, how I lost that community, and how and why I created WEALTH to replace it.

The Power of Hermaphroditic Perception

Reflections on the Orphic deity Phanes and it’s relation to Hermes, Aphrodite, the Logos, Jesus Christ, the Universe card and tips for the completion of the Great Work.

Get back on track - the Renewal of My Word ritual

Here's a great, simple little ritual you can use any time you've slipped up on a practice that you've committed your word to (like the Alchemical Journal) and need to get back on track.

the Prince of Wands: a synchronicity story

A cool story about some fun synchronicities that I experienced surrounding the Prince of Wands to help inspire you in your Alchemical Journal Practice.

The evening Alchemical Journal practice: a closer look

Here I discuss an over view of the finer points of an evening Alchemical Journal practice: reflecting on the Tarot, astrology, and dreams of the day, finding a “most profound thought,” noticing what we’ve done to weaken a draining habit, setting intentions for the next day and updating our Habit Grids.

Deciding on teeny tiny next physical actions

We greatly increase our chances of getting stuff done on our to-do list when we break those often amorphous to-do’s down into teeny-tiny next physical actions as part of our morning Alchemical Journal practice — here’s how.