Looking all beautiful. You were just so beautiful. Your sexy ass. That's where I'm so happy to have you back. Oh, it'd been a minute too. Yeah, so. But no, I understand the Internet because the smokers, the smokers know. It'd be like I'd be hating, I'd be on delay sometimes it'd be like and then I'd be trying to talk, thinking we real time with that, that that we on the same. And then I noticed, no, she's catching what I'm saying later. I'm like damn, I got to adjust
my shit. I know the lag is horrific. Oh my God. But here's the sad part. Right? Only when I'm on stream yard because I'm paying for stream yard because it was playing Last two times I was on Skype. Skype was perfect. But the reason why I went to stream y'all cause Skype was cutting up. So I'm like, you can't win with some of these things. No, so we need to create our own shit. Because even before I was, I was
thinking this, right? Because I was thinking about how many porn stars in the game with swingers and you always hear about the swinging. Why don't porn stars just throw us when this event? Wouldn't that make sense? It would I want to. I'm more like, I'm polyamorous, but I do like the fuck and depending on who is there and who I vibe with, I could probably, you know, fuck them. But I'm more like, I want to get to know you first before I fuck you because I'm pretty demisexual in that way.
But again, it depends on who's around because especially people in our industry, like there's a lot of cool people I know that I know I would sit on their face, eat their pussy, all that good shit. But it's some that I don't want me to say in room with you. Yes, it's it's on that spectrum Blazer Joe, because I read it to a couple. I mean, not since I've been podcasting, but when I was a talent, yeah, it was a couple that I was like.
Oh yeah, man, you're allowed. You're allowed at the party. Oh, you know, you know, you allowed at the party, shoot, you allowed at the festival, the party shoot my planet. What you talking about? Yeah. You're sexy ass. I'm sorry this is one few times y'all get get unprofessional Bob, yes. Yes. Zuri is on my list for 2025. I'm going to give you some Zuri love. Yes, you are. I'm going to get some love. We'll get some good. So then we say what's been going
on, girl? What's been going on with you? Oh my. God, Oh my God. So let me start thinking. It's been that wild, though. Yeah, it's in my wild like, 'cause as most people now, I was living in the Bay Area and opened for like 3 years and then my family needed me so I stepped up and went and moved back down to LA where I'm from. And technically it wasn't even LA. It's like out in the boonies of like San Bernardino County. Fucking hate it out there.
That's that's where my grandma lived and so I took care of her until April 10th and then she died. Sorry for your loss, my daughter. Sorry for your loss. Thanks, Boo. She's at peace and she's with me. She's with me. So yeah. And technically during that time, I had to take a break from like, doing porn because I'm literally full time taking care of my grandma like every single day.
Poor from February to April 10th and I had like what 2 breaks in between that like for the weekend two or three but it's because it was just me and my mom because nobody else could help. I'm the only one whose childbirth in my family so anyways. So after that, I know after that I've just been like trying to grieve and heal and figure out what I'm going to do because death is a lot and it takes a lot of stuff to do at the end, especially if you are not prepared.
So I had to help my mom with that. I've been paying my grandma's rent the past few months on her house because we can't settle it yet. And other than that though, I've just been traveling since she died, working, trying to make content, but it's been really hard. I got in and this is where like the mental health talk is probably going to come in, in terms of like and us literally being fucking humans and us
going through horrific events. Yeah, because see, I, I told this story before to my smokers, but for my day one smokers, the day, my, the day, the day my mother died, I had to do a shoot. You know, it was crazy because I, because we was in the middle of beginning the shoot, you know, paperwork and everything. I get the phone call, my pass,
you know what I'm saying? Talked to her recently, like literally like 2 days before I was planning to come go see it because I was like, damn, I see my mom in a minute, you know, and went to say goodbye to her and came back and knocked out both of those scenes, you know, period. And trust me, it helped. I know a lot of people like how how did it help? No, it helped because for that moment I can get my mind off of what happened and I can deal
with it then. And a lot of people don't realize sometimes when we do porn or porn scenes is escape from the real world. It's not just business, it's an actual escape. It's a part of therapy, you know, just like this podcast, it's therapy for me. You know, I, I can have the worst day in the world, but my day get perked up when I do a podcast, you know, so And yeah, a lot of people don't realize, and I noticed it too.
A lot of motherfuckers been taking breaks this year that granted that they don't look like it on social media, but they've been taking breaks. Yeah, lots of breaks. Shit, I need a fucking break. But I can't. I can't stop. Mama has bills to pay and I will take a break probably in 2025. Nothing crazy. But like I, I just moved to the to the Northeast in October because I didn't have a stable place to stay in Los Angeles.
Because contrary to popular belief, not everybody's families are stable and have places where you can stay to rest your head even for like a day. And every, everybody who knows who know this knows this. Me and my mom are good. It's not my mom, it's her house. Like my room is essentially like destroyed at this point. Like she's working on it. But yeah, this is what happens when your mother is a bleeding
heart. He loves cats but also has a 30 something year old other child living there who is a piece of shit, doesn't clean, doesn't pay rent, and has a lot of entitlement. So she was supposed to take care of those cats that were in my bedroom. You know what cats do when they're when there's no mess getting cleaned up and their cat, their cat boxes don't get cleaned. They poop everywhere. Yeah, they poop and they can because they have nowhere else to fucking do it. There's poor things.
So my room is fucked up right now. So yeah, I didn't have anywhere else to go. And so I've been literally cow chopping this entire time. And this is like literally the reality like of me and sometimes of people like me who do my job. Sometimes fucked up things happen. And. That's just reality. But I've got support. I had my therapy for a long time. I don't have my therapist right now because I moved and since you know the dumb legal rules where you can't take your
therapist with these new states. So I'm looking, I'm looking for a new one. But I've honestly been doing much better than I was before because I was in the pit. I was in the pit. So that being said, let me speak to these smokers. Hello, smokers. Yeah, we about to get deep in this episode so buckle up. It's time to smoke is over. Welcome to the smokers lounge. You know I am I'm Kavanaugh Southern champ AKA the porn rap
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Well, since you're in the northeast to the northeast to come see you since you're a little closer. But but the harp on what we were talking about earlier when they talk about the point industry, they talk about content, creative sex work. They always talk about money,
money, money, money. And we equate money to whether a person is living a good life, great life in great health, even in some cases great mental health, because first they'll be like, well, like, well, Gordon, I can't think of his name. He was the the guy that that that used to be on CNN. He used to go every place and find food worth millions, killed himself. Well, damn, he was worth millions. What he was sad for. So why do people equate money to mental health?
That's a very good question. Probably because they think like having access to all that money means you have access to like a bunch of things like therapy, which you do, but it's a choice of whether or not you go to the therapy or not, regardless if you have the money. Like some people just don't want to go to therapy or some people are so lost and down that particular Rd. where it's they're going to kill themselves that they're too far gone. And sometimes that happens.
Like it's unfortunate, but it happens. I mean, look at Robin Williams. He had fame, he had a daughter who loved him, Zelda, he had fans, he had recognition, and he still killed himself. The happiest people sometimes have the worst pain going on behind the mask that you wear every day to mask that pain. And sometimes it's taking your life because you can't do it anymore. And so money, while yes, it's nice, some people don't use it
to help themselves get better. And so you think about it, is that also when we, because they think that we fuck 'cause we fuck so much, 'cause we porn stars, you know, that that's all we do, You know, they don't think and take into account that we do have mental health. I recently talked to a FEMA that was disabled and she's disabled. You know what I'm saying? Where, where, where she feels a lot of pain.
I've talked to I've actually worked with a lady who was, was hearing impaired, you know, so it's a lot of things that people don't take into account when it comes to our business from disabilities, from mental to even physical that people deal with just to get through, you know, deal with, with being in this business, you know, saying and how many taxing this business can be. And you know, like, especially because there's so much stigma around our industry, people hate
us. Like, they jerk off to us, of course, but they hate us and they show that. You see it all over Instagram. You see it all over Twitter especially. I'm mostly talking about Twitter, because Twitter's fucked in cesspool when it comes to the hatred of sex workers specifically. Like prostitution, 'cause let's be real. Yeah. But when it comes to porn stars, yes, like the stigma is also just too huge 'cause they're also like, oh, it's prostitution.
It's actually not prostitution. You guys are stupid. There is a difference. Yes, you're still getting paid to have sex with somebody, but I do both so people are just ignorant. Anyways. Yeah, I'm literally like a black, like queer, like neurodivergent, like porn star, like my disabilities, like, I guess lie in the mind and also like my body. I have a hip problem, I have back problems and I'm immunocompromised. So people don't think about that though. But yeah, we're not fucking
robots. We are humans with hearts and veins and brains and blood. We're not robots. We have things going on. So that's why talking about it is so important, because it shows people that we are literally human beings who deserve respect. Because it's to me, to me, when it comes to even when I look at porn, fight back, I look at it, these are people who are no different than the people in Hollywood. They just go the extra mile and the same.
Exactly. Because I keep telling you about it, no matter how much we we in the reality viral porn age, porn is still a fantasy no matter how you skin it. I don't care if that girl is fucking this dude in the Walmart, you can't do it. You would never dare to fuck someone in the Walmart. Not even in the dressing room, not even in the bathroom, barely in the parking lot. So you're living by curiously through the this person, which in turn makes them a fantasy, you know, period.
But you forget they're still people. Because I used to hear all the time back in the day, like the top porn stars. Some of the motherfuckers didn't have mother like that. Somebody who wasn't living like that, you know, Period. Most of us. And it's like. No, trust me, they ain't I don't give a damn dude, there ain't too many porn stars living in mansions Keep it worth it. So but yet in this day and age, but see once again that conversation of money.
It's like we know what it is, but to the people on the outside, they think that this is a get rich quick skin. Yes, yes they do. I've been seeing a lot of that lately and I'm just like again, are you all stupid? And you know me, I'm sweetheart, but I'm tired 'cause where like it is a rare thing, like sometimes where you are a porn star who pops off like completely into like the above 1,000,000 brackets. And sometimes all it takes is a
viral moment. Yeah. Like, that's what I think that's what happened with like this being nasty. She had a viral moment and that made her skyrocket. Good for her video. She fucking deserves it. She's also, yeah, I know the video too. She's also one of literally one of the most talented people I've ever seen. So I'm just like, OK, that makes sense. Like and even she think about what I'm talking about as a black woman, but. Yeah, but here's the difference.
She took the viral moment. She like she already had a plan walking through the viral moment. The only thing that viral mode did was exact. It just speeded up what she was planning for it to happen. You have females that get that viral moment, they don't know what the fuck to do with it and she wasn't looking for the viral moment. No she wasn't. It literally went. That's the difference. Y'all fuckers be seen there looking for that shit. Yeah, I don't. I, I, yeah, I do see people
looking for that. I'm like, I don't know, if I ever go viral, it's going to be off of something stupid. And that's what they get tired over because it's even with the point. Shit, it's like it ain't even just a simple ass fuck. Saying you know these motherfuckers is like on top of a building hanging off the side of a ledge. Yes. Give me. Yeah, like I'm going to go viral off or. Something that's right I. Don't get it either. I don't want to be that famous.
God damn. I want to be viral for a good reason. Yeah, you know, But see, that's the point is. But see, the thing about what they don't get is that even if they go viral and they get high, you have to maintain it. And these girls don't be maintaining it, you know, period. Because. Once again, there's no point going viral if you can't capitalize. Them. Yeah, yeah, You know what I'm saying? Yeah, even do it again.
Because like I said, a lot of these girls, I didn't want to listen to these podcasts when they talk to his own fangirl because always they went viral off of this scene. And then when I sit back and listen to him, they ain't done nothing with it. I mean, it didn't, it didn't really increase their money because if you still got to sit here and offer your only fans majority yourself for free and then wait to a certain following in order for you to monetize it.
Did the viral really help? Probably not. I honestly like me personally. I don't know what I would do if I went viral. I probably would be like, oh God, I'm going to get off the Internet for like 3 days because I don't know how to process this. And then probably be like, hey, one of my friends, hey, what should I do? I'll just, I'm just going to be honest. Like I wouldn't be sure, but that's just me. I don't know what I would do if
I went viral. I wouldn't even know where I would go by before it. Probably some controversial that I said yeah, it'd. Probably be something which. Is like, oh wait, I already know one. I already know what the one I said. I said I said yes, I, I, I said this is what I exactly said. I said I'm on the podcast. I said I am curious about having sex with the intersex just it it it we it, which led to a conversation where like why wouldn't you? You know? Well, the transgender.
I said no, no, no innocence has a pussy. Transgender don't. Depends on what trans person you're talking about. Like because there's. Some trans men, of course, that they. Have not. Been through the transition, you know what I'm saying but. Yeah, yeah, but some. But some trans men don't go, don't get like don't go through surgery and just keep, you know, their parts the same. Some trans women get bottom surgery. But yeah, intersex people. Yeah, it's just, it's just, it's
just, I'm sorry. It's just, it's something, maybe it's just me, 'cause I'm weird. It's, it's a me thing. It was like, you know what they say? That would be interesting. I'm sorry. I don't give a fuck with y'all thing. Fuck you. So what? I'm about to turn 50. I really don't give a fuck about any of y'all thing. And I wear with a badge. I feel this shit. Fuck it. I don't give a damn. God damn shit, though. I'm being serious. You ain't going to see me and
you won't see me take it back. No. And you ever have interviewed me Like, hey, so you would do an intersection? I'm like, yeah, yeah, actually I would, yeah. Yeah. Three holes. Yeah, it'll be three holes. Let's go. Yeah, my God. But it has a but it has a Dick. I'll be struggling hitting a missionary. Like but I'm gay as fuck so I don't I I everyone is. I'm ready to eat for everyone so doesn't matter what's in your pants. No, I would tell you that. I would tell you the foot.
But see, my funniest conversation was I had to send the shots out to my boy Andre Stone. Never. The first time ever hearing a dude tell me the experience of having a guy nut in your mouth. I was like interesting because it was funny. I never heard Jews talk about that. I love. Hearing men talk about that? Sorry, no. No, I'm sorry, most women love gay or gay porn. Let's just be real, most women
love gay or gay porn. They they will watch that shit since women will watch that shit like a motherfucker. Yes, I watch that shit, Yeah. Yeah, stuff of my smokers. What gets you off watching, you know, gay porn? I love seeing Dicks killing butts. Like, I love the whole thing. Like it's. No look that would be written one time I was scrolling right and shout out to Nicky the Trump Nicky Trump that that I I would love to interview that dude. He's just so cool to me.
And what I love about him is he is so unapologetic about this shit, right, because he literally was in the midst of a threesome. It was a video all the way out was like, you know, lingerie, feminine lingerie and it was a threesome. He giving head while getting head and he's doggy style and the dude giving me up with the back and I just stopped and watched for a minute was like. Interesting. Yeah, of course it's.
So that's so far. I was like, OK, how would that work if there was, you know, if that was me in the middle? They were two women, but I got grades. I say, you know, but that's why I like people like that. They unaccounted, Jake, about who they are, and they're not scared to show they are. That's true freedom. That's the freedom that people don't want us to have, you know? Yeah, that's true. I love. I love feeling free. So I'm unapologetic. Unapologetic. We myself.
Because there's no better way to be. I'm tired. Yeah, because it's kind of like that's why the people look at us a certain way. They can say morality, they can say Bible, what have you. But it's really it's that we're able to have a sexual freedom about ourselves that the average human being can't. And it's not just it's not just the act of sex itself, sexuality, sexual expression. You say it mentally or all this
stuff. So for you like how much have the sex work world being a home for you for that? It's been a pretty big home for me for that. I had always been pretty like open with like my sexuality and just myself in general. So that definitely did help boost it because it let me know that like, you know, it's OK. Like, yes, I'm a freak. I'm a freak. And I can put that into my work and be happy with it and be inspired by others. It helps me.
Like, you know, remember that. Yeah, you're a bad bitch. Like you're hot, like, and you have like charisma and chemistry and you should like put that into your craft. And one of my crafts happens to be this one. I'm also one of my crafts also happens to be acting. So it works out. Not that like I'm acting in my porn, OK. And some of it I'm acting like safe. Like it's like I have to like, you know, act out something before we get to the yes.
But for the most part, I'm not acting in my porn because I enjoy what I'm doing heavily. So most of my scenes I'm like, this was 100% like I am turned on. So, but that's just me. And it's not always going to be that that way, obviously, like say if I ever like shoot mainstream porn, but I don't, I don't really see that happening because I have a big ass mouth and I know a lot of, I know a lot of other porn stars who also have the gas masks who get
booked for scenes. But it's I don't know. I just don't really see it happening. Like, but we'll, I don't know. We'll see. Well, no, I tell people it's timing. It's it's like the one thing that I hate that girls do when they come in, I'll get to the guys in a minute because I got to keep a balance thing here because I just don't want y'all thinking I'm just going to be down on the limit is that they
expected to move fast. They expected and you don't technically be honest with you don't want to move fast because you burn out fast. You know, period. Because I remember time with girl come in first year she doesn't shop with 15 companies. Second year she didn't get no calls. Why? Because each of them companies, you shot 3 scenes with them. You know how many girls they shoot within that week that you shot actually that day? They got enough from you.
They ain't going to call you about another two years. And that's if you are hot, you know what I'm saying? So it's kind of like which now today is different because how can I put this? You don't need the company, the mainstream to get off. Mainstream companies get off because the mainstream talent, if you work with them, that's the equivalent. Yeah. You know, because that's the equivalent because hell if you if if they booked Jason Love and you got Jason Love on your site,
I think that's a win. I'm just saying that they booked Missy Stone and I got Missy Stone on my site. That's a win. You know what I'm saying? So I think what makes a porn star man? It's a good question in. My mind you a porn star. Actually, to me, you are a porn star. Yeah, I know. And I know I'm a porn star. Like I felt a crash pad like four times at this point. Right, but but I mean but even before I believe some females are porn stars and they never shocked with a major studio.
Yeah, and I believe that as well. Even when I was like not shooting with even crash pad yet, like, 'cause I was still making porn. I will say I have, this is just me being honest. Like I've been a little lackluster within the past few months, but it's because I've been going OK. Like so I got to give myself some grace. But you know, you're right. I am a. Because see, to me this way, someone explained to me, because back then what we call content creators, now we call AMPRO A,
you know what I'm saying? Which means that you was an amateur. And the reason why you wasn't considered an amateur because you wasn't ABN status. See, they got this thick ass book. When you go to the ABN, the woods and all that convention, he had this thick ass book, this black book. If you're not in that book, it's a talent company. You are not ABN certified, but you shoot studio quality content mean you shoot exactly how the studios do and and the quality
of the studio. So to me the equivalent to that these days is that all that plus you shoot with the top talents that they book or that is very well known when we and we ain't just talking about only fans people. And I think talent like that should get just much respect to the ones that go shoot with their brasses. I agree because the talent is there and people obviously like their stuff, so why not ABN? You want to think about that?
Well, we all know that's political shit, so that's another conversation for another day. Yeah. Because that's something that people realize. The industry has you shit with it and it ain't got shit to do with the SA or any of that. It's just the way that some of these companies move and the guys that move in the industry. Yeah, shitly I. Just don't understand it so shoot so you and lady also, and we didn't talk about being mentioned with the escorting and
stuff like that. Sometimes you have to have multiple ways to generate income because like in in your case, you had to take a break from filming due to you know, the passing or what have you. High point for ladies to have more than one way to make money in this business. You know what I'm saying? Period? Because I've talked to females, they got injured in a car wreck and she couldn't film, got injured playing softball, couldn't film, you know, had to go through surgery or what have
you. But they still find a way to generate income during that time frame they were down. So for you high point for girls to find different ways of making money within the industry and how did they choose what works for. Them honestly, sometimes it's about like talking to people like talking to like your fellow sex workers about what they're doing to generate income like say if they need to take a break or got injured.
That's what I did. I got advice from a few people, sorry in smoking of what to do especially because yeah I do escorting, but I also self collecting pictures, voice chats, video chat like you know with what I you can you can do say if like you're injured and you know if not going all you know there's a limit of what you can do. What are they called? Night flirt, sex, Panther, stuff like that. And I also like I have a lot of Polaroids now that I'm going to start selling and also sending
like little. She said polar rules. God, it's so old. School like, well, everybody. A lot of people do Polaroids. Polaroids are great. I'm starting to notice that's making the comeback lately. Yeah, Polaroids are great. I have AI have a bunch and I, I need to take some more and I'm going to start like sending those to people like I guess with like as incentives, slippers, little notes for me. And I also want to like sell some of them and see what happens and sign them and shit.
You never know. So stuff like that. And that's the first half of your question. I'm sorry. So now but speaking about Cindy mentioned hair score because like I said, we keep it real on the smoke plants and how we do y'all know my past We we we we know we should go back. What's the biggest misconception that people get when it comes to that size of profession? That we are all STI spreading deposit stealing scammers. This is just what I've been seeing as of lately.
Like even in the past few months to a year to two years, a lot of the misconceptions are that like a lot of us like like spread STIs or like doing bareback sex with clients. And even if they are, that's not my business. If they're, if they're doing it safely, like getting tested and shit, like not my business. I also can't really say shit because, well, yes, I go through industry testing when I shoot porn. Sometimes I'm doing it without a condom. Is that what I'm doing that with
my clients? No, but I'm doing it in porn. So I get why people see that and are like, oh, so you do that in your work? No, and not everybody who does my job does, but some of us do. I'm not judging them. I'm just saying that people in our industry are like, that's bad. I'm like some people do what they do because they need to put food on the table. I'm not going to judge them. Also, men are stupid.
Not all of them, but some of the ones that are in the hobby do not like to have sex with condoms because they're disgusting. And not that having their back sex is disgusting. I mean, just that they think that everybody is going to do that, which is disgusting because not everybody rolls that way. And that's fine that and for the most part they're doing that because they're like, oh, I want to see it in this person. And this is also just from my experience from some of my Co
workers timing. But it's not like that for everybody. But another misconception is that there's a lot actually that I could probably know. Or is it if I think for for me, I think what people don't get when it comes to escort, especially porn stars in escort people. First of all, I came from the ilk back in the day. Let me make this. I'm going to say this again. When we used to say content train to a girl, shoe lookers like me crazy said I don't fuck
for free. Females did porn to boost escort because from the beginning of porn, men always want to fuck a porn star and we'll pay well for it. Porn stars are technically celebrities. So if Beyoncé was a porn star, trust me, they wouldn't be wanting to come get an autograph, just an autograph and a hug, you know? So to me, it's part of the brand. That's why I never knocked anyone that did this shit or I look anyone sideways. You know weird because they just be real yes that y'all sit here
posting don't do meetups. What do you think the fans want to do? They they if they can fuck you in exactly they would. Yes, no, they literally would. Like I remember being at X3 and people are like oh like I'm like when they can't say that here you stupid ass. Shut up. Second of all this sites with this shit. Huh. This sites with this shit Sir. Yes, literally. Like go look on Google. Like go into Google, type in what you want, like you're even better.
Go on Twitter. Shit suck so yeah no they will pay good money. The fuck a porn star. And I will admit being an escort and also like doing more porn has helped a little. Yeah. Oh yeah, no doubt. So now I got to ask the $1,000,000 question, not the $1,000,000 question that y'all know though, this is all What? What made you pick escort? Wanting to not be a sugar baby anymore.
So some people can understand sugar baby is, is, is a certain type of escort that she's practically at the whim of the sugar daddy. Like he said, come. No, actually it's kind of like a BDSM type situation. You want to be terrible about it because it you can kind of look at it like a master slave situation. You know what I'm saying? Because.
You know, because, because I had that conversation with a next mate, you know, about, you know, being a sugar baby because like she she was like, well, you know, do I even want a sugar baby? That means I've got to be too disposed on the 4/7. I do not miss that shit. And it wasn't even like super lucrative. I'm gonna just be real. But it's because like, you know, I'm from Los Angeles, dude. And if you know Los Angeles, Los Angeles is superficial as fuck, OK?
Like, and look at me like I am hot as fuck, but I'm also black. And when I was younger, I was black. I was fatter, like, and I was way more insecure. Now that's not the case. I'm still fat. I'm still black but I'm not insecure like that. Like, I mean, look at me, I'm. Going to tell you what's funny people, right? Look, she wanted new ladies, right? And I'm going to give you one of them. I remember Weezy, right? I don't know why I thought Weezy was heavier than what she was.
Florida from Good times. I thought she was a heavier set woman than what she was. You know what I'm saying? So. Or weird. Yeah, so it was like when maybe I was a kid where because when I go look back, I ain't going to lie, it's a bit of Sam for had a banging ass body. Let's see why George did. I see why George's wife did. I was like, wait a second, wheezy, kind of thick. So but now to me, you you think I I I can't put you like in the BBW category.
You are fit. You got like she she OK, I'm just going to say she got video vixen lumps. People go look at it naturally. You don't say she she's all beat. No potatoes, no bread, just meat. Like I have thighs and I have a tummy and I have rolls and I have like yeah, side of the arms and I have big ass tits like, and I have a butt like, but yeah, no, I and I still, this is just, this is just me. Like I still think in my mind that like I'm fat. It's not a bad thing. It's just being fat.
It's not bad. It's not bad words. Like I check mother fuckers for being fat. I check mother fuckers for being Yeah, I check mother fuckers for being fat phobic. Like do not test me because most of my most of my favorite people in my life other than my girlfriend, mom or BBW, like, so I will cut you. But for me, yeah, I know. I'm, I don't think I'm in, I'm, I'm in, I'm in, I'm in the in between. Yeah, my weight, yeah, my weight fluctuates.
Like I could be back in the BBW category, another like 50 lbs. But at this point right now, my life, I love being, I love being thick, I love having like fat, but I just don't want to be 50 lbs at my height and with what it does to my body physically because it puts a lot more weight on my back, which I already have these two dust hits. And I'm to give you guys context. I'm 5/2, I AM 52. I am not tall and I have a short torso and a fluffed up back. They'll say she's 5/2.
Yeah, I'm short. I'm barely. I'm gonna. Tell you what's but I vote so a lot of people must think you taller than what you are Yeah, that right. That means she has a big statue race in German. That that what it means she. Yeah, I have broad shoulders. Like I get it from the Internet. It looks like I'm tall like because I have broad shoulders. Like I have long legs, but I'm short as fuck.
My torso is just short and my legs are long and also you can't see a lot of my torso because I have these. So whenever I get my boob job, the waist will appear and my back will be because they'll be smaller so. Then. But you know how surgery goes. I definitely am not going to be in the BBW category anymore, which kind of makes me sad. But bodies change, and. I mean, no, it's if I do it this way, like you lose, you lose weight, you gain weight. You know, I, I think about
Pinky, right? Pinky, they love trying to drag because she she fluctuates her weight, but I'm like, pinky's still fine as a motherfucker. Stop playing. Stop playing. Either way, no matter how beauty is beauty. Let me tell you two things you can't lose. Stupid and ugly. Yeah, there's two things. You can't lose people no matter you can lose weight, you can lose a lot of pain, but you can't lose ugly and you can't lose stupid.
If you was, if you was pretty, I say it again, if you was pretty as a big girl, we know you're going to be pretty as a small girl. And to be honest with you, some females don't look as good when they lost weight. Yeah, I will say that I like and that's not a dig at anybody.
It's just something I noticed, but I think whatever makes people happy, like honestly, because it's none of my business like to speak on anybody's body just to give more clarification, because it's not, it's nobody's business like because that can lead to bad things. Like we don't do that in this house. Like that's what they did with Chadwick Bozeman when he was going through cancer and nobody
fucking knew. And then he died and people were talking shit about him for being for looking so gaunt and so skinny, this man. It was crazy the. Cancer and filming. Yes. Oh no. And and the video that he did, mind you, was two days before he passed. And we were like, Oh my God, what the hell, you know, see, people, like I said, people don't even know. I even think about the wrestler Brodie Lee, People didn't realize he was going through what he was going through.
And he's doing professional wrestling, you know what I'm saying? And he passed, like I think a year after he stopped wrestling, what happened? We didn't see him on TV. That's why I said people don't realize what people are going through behind the scenes, you know, period. Because, you know, let's keep 100. A lot of people in the business do have health issues, you know, period, don't it? You don't give an ass for me, porn star that porn star sex.
What does have sex issues? I mean health issues too. They got to deal with mental health, physical. Health like, like, why don't we get a break? Is it because we're porn stars? Like, I know it's, it's ridiculous, which is why, like, again, like, let us not speak on people's bodies, especially fat people. Like coming from someone who was much fatter like last year and the year before. And I love my fat body.
So, but now I'm like, if people are wondering why I've lost so much weight, like part of the reason is because I've been doing a lot of walking. That's a big part of it. The other part is that grief does weird things to your body. Yeah, it does. Yeah, it does. Stress does a lot to the body. Yeah, 'cause usually the stress used to make me gain weight, now it's making me lose it. Like, oh. Yeah, 'cause you eat less and
you, you know what I'm saying? You it's feel real like when your mentally is fucked up, it's it's it's old saying the shit flows down out of when you when your mentally is fucked up, it affects everything. It literally does everything, like every aspect of your life. Every aspect of my life honestly has been fucked up since my grandma's past. Like it's gotten better, but this has been one of the hardest
years of my life. Like, and when I was taking care of her when my mom wasn't there, he was only there on the weekends, mind you, but bless her heart, like she'd been going up and taking care of my grandmother the past few years, like and has been doing that basically my entire life because mother's mom's siblings didn't help. So it was just my mom. Like I was alone and I was in mom for like a good couple weeks before a nurse for a new Hospice Hospice that my mom got for my grandma.
Luckily my grandma, my grandma was 90. What kind of was 98 like? And she oh. She lived a good life. Yes, she lived a good life. She's a crazy shit. Yes, and she had Social Security like so it was OK for a bit. But yeah, I was helping my mom pay her rent, but the past few months I'm still helping my mom pay her rent, like right now. So remember to talk to your parents and grandparents about what's going on with their house and make a living. Trust.
Oh, I'm a, I'm a, I'm oh, I'm a, oh, I'm a advocate of that because like I said, it's funny. We find out after they're gone and you'd be like, what, you know what I'm saying? Not financially as well as just who they were in life, you know, period and stuff. Because even to the point that like, damn it, we, I supposed to have my dad's house. I'm not supposed to be living where I'm living there. I supposed to be at 22101. But what I did not know was that my dad took out another mortgage.
I thought the mortgage that he had was paid off. Finds out that he took out another mortgage and and that conversation I would have behind the restaurant, behind pay walk. But it caused the house to be sold and we got less value for what we could have got for it if my dad did something that he didn't do because he was angry at me and my mom. Love you Dad, but is it? But that's what I'm saying.
But that's just an example because it's kind of like, you know, it's when you come to your parents, they don't tell you shit. When you come to your grandparents, you really don't know shit. I got a little lucky and also like to give contacts like I'm adopted my family's white so white people being the way that white people are, which is for in my opinion extra messy.
I already knew a lot of shit about my grandma before she even died but that's because I was closer with my grandma than my other siblings like at least within the past like few years because my grandma knew exactly what I did for a job and she didn't give a fuck. So leg my grandma. She grandma might have been wild her damn self. No my grandma, no she. Was. No, I would tell you the phrase she Oh no. Where's he my girl? Is it Penny?
It was a penny that was telling me this that her mom, she she's a second. She's a second generation, you know, sex word and and I was like that is so cool because when you decide you want to go do porn, you already know your mother father gonna be like you girl, Go ahead, go get your money, girl. Yeah, literally. My grandma was literally the other woman. Like, OK, like with someone who I thought was my grandpa for a while, but then I was like, wait, now he has a wife like who
I met. They all knew each other. We all hung out at their house at one point. But that was after like they had like stopped like fooling around because she was like, ow, we can't keep doing this like, but let's just be friends. And so they they stayed friends. And then when my mom got me, my sisters, like he just treated us like we were his grandkids. Like, but I didn't know that until years later. And I was like, grandma, what the fuck? What the fuck?
And she's like, yeah, I'm like, OK, no, OK, so and that this man also was like, he had he had money, he was Italian. So he took her on trips and shit. And then like you. See. Hey. Hey, I keep telling you, I keep telling you all that grandma with so it's not funny that, you know, grandma went to see Uncle Charlie and the rent and the lights got paid and granddaddy says, you know, granddaddy didn't get paid that week. Yeah, they didn't say she he
because he knew that. Yeah, so I'm grateful to have my grandma because high key, I've told her things and we've had discussions about things I haven't even really talked to my own mother about. It's because my grandma was a lot less judgmental than my mom for some reason like, but it's because in her older age she changed. She listened more 'cause when she was younger. I have had to check this woman, but at least she fucking listened to me. So you.
Know I tell people with with age, things change your, your mentality, your thought process, even especially when you come to women, men, we, we become more stern in our ways. Yeah. It it, it takes a lot for us to ask to damn. They're like altering for us to change, you know, period. But but but women on the other hand, and it's like I said, sexual taste change all of it. Yeah. Shit. I thought that of her. Yeah, sometimes women get more
sexier with their age. People like damn you look like that in high school. Yeah, hormones are interesting. Oh my God. Oh my goodness. Yeah, I'm like 30 next month and then like two months. So I'm just like, yeah. Oh no, that's what I just laugh. I just laugh at the conversation with motherfuckers. All these people, Fred to turn 30. I'm like. Oh, I'm not right, and I'm happy. I enjoy growing old. It's like I I I could die this shit. I really don't want to. I'm like for what I didn't.
Think I was going to make it this long so I'm happy I'm growing old. Yeah, yeah. Like I say, it's a couple. It's a couple people that age bracket that didn't make it here. So, and I'm blessed to be here. Exactly. I'm glad I'm still. Here. And I'm glad you're still here too, babe, because we got to see each other. We, we, we got to see each other face to face. Yes, we. Do. And sexy so and so.
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did we smoke over today? What did you learn today? You learned that people in our business are people. We go through a lot. We deal with passing of our loved ones. We deal with births of new ones. We are parents, we are wives, we are husbands. Some of us work 9 to fives. The only difference between us you guys is that we just fuck on camera for a living or make money off of fucking you know, period.
Yeah I know that's part of the reason why y'all hate us because you know y'all can't do that you know period. But this job is no different than any other job that y'all do. It has his, has his, it has his headaches, his stresses and what have you. And to me, for someone to do this business, you had to be
mentally strong. We are some of the mentally most mentally strong people on the planet, but at the same time fragile because we also worry about sometimes what the world thinks of us. Until you get to my age, you just don't really give a fuck. No damn more. But more importantly, what you should learn is that we deserve your respect. Because no it. We do a job no differently than anyone else. We provide a service no different than anyone else.
We are entertainment. Y'all sit back and watch us. Jerk off to us. Play with your pussy watching us, you pay to watch it. You subscribe to our content. We are entertainers first and foremost. No different than Drake, no different than Kendrick, no different than than Denzel Washington or, or or Charlicia Thorn, you know what I'm saying? Or Scarlett Johansson, you feel me? We entertain y'all. It's just how entertainment is the rawest form of
entertainment. Sex. So God I love that tongue. I can't wait to fill it one day. So with that being said, give us some respect. Please put some respect on our names. Now you know how we end these things all day, every day. Life is a learning experience. What's the point of the experience? We haven't learned anything. Smoke this over, Say goodbye to my back.