Are You Manifesting For The WRONG REASONS!?

 You came here with a mission, and if you are too clouded by the stuff you haven't gotten yet to focus on that mission, then why shouldn't you work on getting that stuff?

What is up? My fellow dreamers and Soul Searchers? Welcome to the Roxy Tox. Station podcast, your raw, unfiltered, and unapologetic source for all things manifestation related. I'm Roxy Lee, and for the last decade I have been researching and developing my signature 360 method, which combines behavioral science, quantum physics, and the law of attraction to help you manifest a life beyond your wildest.

Visit Roxy tox.com for more info. Now let's get into it. What is up? My fellow dreamers and Soul searchers? Welcome to another fabulous episode of the Roxy Tox Manifestation Podcast, where I bring you the most leading edge, the most cutting edge information that I can conjure for you, and just know that every day of my life, whether I'm working or not, I am working.

Whether I'm working or not, I'm working. Actually. I don't like that sentence whether I'm working or not. I am focusing on opening up to more information on learning this better and better on understanding it as much as I can. I've gotten to the point now where I realize that I'll never know everything obviously about this.

I'll never have all of the. I'll never know exactly how the universe works or why your thoughts create reality or what the fuck is actually going on. But every day I'm going to do my best to be a conduit for information, for inspiration, for guidance, for motivation, for clarity, so that I can bring it to you, so that I can implement it in my own life, see what's working and help you skip steps, because if you do what I do, After I've gotten all the bugs out and like, you know, shaking all the wrinkles out of the process, you get to quantum leap farther and faster than you would have if you had tried to figure out the situation on your own.

If you had tried to A, to B to C it yourself, it would take you a lot longer than just going from A to Z. So that's what's great about. Having a coach that you listen to or having, you know, motivators that inspire you is they're doing it too in their lives. They're also doing this, they're also dedicating their lives to figuring this stuff out for themselves as well.

So I like Lizzo. Lizzo made, um, Like a lingerie line. And she was like, I literally just like selfishly made what I wanted for myself, but it ended up being what other people wanted too. So when you can selfishly make what you want for yourself unapologetically, it's gonna also help millions of people. And I think that's the biggest theme of this podcast in general is like when you help you, you help the world.

When you change you, you change the world. When you focus yourself and your mindset in a way that benefits you, you benefit the entire. You are magnetic, you are a mirror, you are reflective. So everything that you think, do, believe, say, feel, act like, or whatever, rubs off on the people around you, and it becomes the 3D reality that you experience.

So every day, if you are working towards being your best self and being open and being in the flow of receiving and loving and, and gratitude and all of that. You are making the world a better place just by existing in a way that actually makes you happier and more fulfilled. Like isn't that, it's such a no-brainer when we think about it.

It's like we have to be doing this every day. We must re-clarify our mission every day. We must recommit to our goals. Every day. Every fucking day. Let me not put the MFA on the wrong slab here every fucking day. You have to get into alignment with your ideal self if you want to have a chance at becoming that like anytime soon, you know, like I was saying in the beginning, instead of going from A to B to C to D to E, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, go to A to Z.

Meditating every day takes you from a to. In one practice, I don't know of a single most effective practice that I can do, that I can guarantee will get me from A to Z if I do it. If I implement it now, I script every day. I script at night. I write down my goals every day. I listen to affirmations every day, and definitely listening to affirmations and listen to listening to motivation, um, you know, podcasts or videos or YouTubes or.

Can definitely, um, get me there. And also I follow several coaches. I take a lot of courses. I have my own mentor that I speak to every week, so I'm literally doing whatever I can all the time to learn, implement, and understand. And every single day I do something. I do a bunch of things to get myself into that energy, but there's something magical that happens when I.

Meditation takes you out of the current you and puts you into the seat of the gods. It puts you into the power and the focus of your ideal self. It crosses lines and boundaries and barriers and beliefs and limitations and all of those things, and it takes you directly where you want to go immediately.

And then if you. As a powerful focuser can stay locked in on that energy and operate through your regular today life with those same values and concepts and that perspective, you can be your ideal. You operating in this world. Bridging the gap faster and faster, quicker and quicker, day after day, making yourself, making your life into that of your.

And at this point it's like, you know, I've been talking about manifestation for five years now. I started my first YouTube channel in 2013. Um, and, and I mean, I've been talking about it publicly. I've been trying to get my friends and family on board since I read The Secret in 2011. That's when my journey started.

Um, but since 2000. 18, I've been sharing this message publicly with the world and just when I think I've exhausted every avenue and I couldn't talk possibly think of another thing to talk about. Um, no, that's not true. I could talk about this forever. Um, but rea in reality, I've gotten to this point now where like

it's about aligning to satisfaction and fulfillment. It's about. Opening up to your real purpose on planet Earth. It's about pinpointing and nailing down who you came here to be. And last week we talked a lot about getting honest with our desires. If you haven't listened to last week's podcast episode, you need to listen to it.

It was such a game changer for me, honestly. I was, I left that being like, that's the best podcast I've ever fucking recorded. And immediately after it posted, we started getting all of these testimonials from people being like, holy shit, that podcast. And I was like, I know, I know. Because I felt the same way when I listened back to it.

I was so like motivated and activated by my own energy. I was like, whoa, this is fucking powerful. And since then I've obviously had time to think about that message and. You know, it's effect on the people and also my truth and what it means for me. And, and because the universe is so grand, of course, I've had a chance to be questioned and, um, you know, have that, that energy tested about how I was feeling last week and in the, you know, in the way of like, I, is it my highest to be a billionaire is going after all the money?

Is that really what I should be doing? Do I need to, why should I be focusing on money when I know that money is not real? It's actually just the energy that you operate with that determines, you know, your level of abundance in, in the world. And I've thought about it a lot and I've decided that this world as it is now, and here is some my own limitation here.

I'm just gonna preface that with it right now. As the world is right now, it's set up to where money is king, right? Like you need money for everything you need. You need the. Image of money. You need the illusion of money in order to operate in this world, right? You need to pay rent and you gotta pay your bills and all these things.

And so where that podcast last week was coming from was a place of like, fuck that. Give it all to me then. I don't care. I'm not gonna act like it's hard to get. I'm just gonna have it and I'm gonna do whatever the fuck I want with. And so upon reflection, you know, I'm like, okay, obviously I can still do all those things without money.

I don't need billions of dollars in order to, to fulfill those roles that I spoke about last week. And, and even since then, my vision for myself has gotten even bigger. My, my. Like purpose has gotten bigger since last week, if you can fucking believe that. And they're, I go into my meditation. They're like, are you ready for more?

I'm like, God, yes. Bring it on. Like, what the fuck? I'm ready for it all because I'm here to, to just soak it all up. I wanna know as much as I can, I wanna get as much info and clarity and res as resolution as I can, not resolution. You know, just any sort of information, um, that'll help me help myself and help you, and help the world.

That's what I'm here to do. So, As I've been questioning what we talked about last week, I've just been thinking about, you know, do I need all that? Why do I think I need it? Why do I want all that money? Why do I want this life? Why do I want a life where I can do all of these things? And really just kind of questioning what my motives are.

And so that's kind of what I wanted to bring to you today is I wanted you to look at why you want the things you. And really dig into it. And I'm actually gonna read some from my own journaling. I brought my, I brought my notebook because I'm like, listen, this was powerful. Let's share this. So I literally wrote down in my goals notebook, why do I wanna be a billionaire?

Why? And so I started write, writing down the rules, or excuse me, the reasons. Let's see, I'll read a couple of 'em. I want the respect of having built and run my business into the, into the millions and billions. I mean, flat out like, they're like, this is just my honest, these are what my honest, um, answers were.

I want to be recognized by the people in my field that people at the top of my field is having done the same as them. It also seems to. The tippy top of where I can see myself in this industry, and I always wanna see myself at the top. So that was showing me that like I have something inside me that's like, if I'm not the best, then it doesn't count.

I even wrote down it's the mark of success. Ultimately, if I don't reach billionaire status, I don't fully win.

I also wrote down, if I had billions, I'll never have to feel scarcity and worry ever again. True, true scarcity and true worry. Right? I mean, that's what I, that's what I've said. That's what I put down. I can do whatever I want with zero repercussions. Like we talked about that, right? I just wanna be able to do what I want and answer to no one.

That's what that's about. I also put, I think it's the ticket to social and professional circles I want to be in. So I'm talking about buying my way in like this is, I mean, this is interesting and eye-opening to me. I'm like, okay, wow. Okay. This is what this is about. It's the only way to live my dream.

That was the last one. I looked at each of those and I was like, okay, so we've got social proof, we've got inclusion, we've got ambition, we've got fear and programming. We have freedom, we have, um, buying my social status. We have worthiness, we have limited thinking. So I broke it down and then I took each of those and I was like, what's, what's beneath this?

I care that other people see what I've. Isn't that interesting? Because it's, it's funny to me because I, I have a thing where it's like, I really don't care what people think, but I also, maybe I want them to see me as successful. So like there's, there's a dichotomy right there to look at. Like, what, what's that about?

Let's dig into that. Um, here's another one. I want to be a part of the Coaching Cool Kids table. What's that about? What, why the fuck do I care about that? And I'm just being open and honest with you because I just want you to be open and honest with yourself. Look at this stuff, do this exercise. Okay.

Here's one. This is, I like this one. If I'm not the best, it doesn't count, and I think that's a big one for me. I'm such, I just strive so hard to reach the top. And you know me, I have such big dreams and I'm like, I am the Oprah. I am the Beyonce. I am the Rihanna. I am going through the top like this period.

And so it's like I have this thing in me that's like if I'm not the best, if I'm not the tippy top, then it doesn't count. Then I didn't actually reach it. I didn't actually get the success. Um, we have still trying to protect myself from ruin and homelessness that might be there for the rest of my life.

I've talked about it before, but as a child I had to go back and forth between, um, homes that had very different socioeconomic setups basically. So I, you know, was bouncing from have and have not all my, through my childhood and. It makes sense as to why. That's like my biggest fear now in life is to like lose everything and ha and, and have to go to that space of, you know, I'm not gonna finish this sentence.

Well, that's enough. Uh, let's see. Don't wanna be tied down to anything. No. Commitment. Easy out. So big for me. So big for me. I hate being trapped into anything. So having an easy out. That's why I want all the money in the world. You can't tell me nothing, bitch. But I need to understand that like, that's me regardless whether I have a dollar or a billion dollars, I'm still that person.

And then, and having that money is not gonna change that. Um, still a black sheep who's just wants to be liked and accepted. And then even beyond that was I have to be the best in order to be accepted. That's what I'm digging into. That's what I'm seeing. Again, if I don't get to the top, it doesn't count.

And then the final one, there's no other way I could be happy and self-satisfied, which we know is not true. And I was just yelling at people on Mindset Monday about that very concept this last week. So this was really eye-opening for me to do an exercise of like, why do I want this? All I did was why do.

I wrote at the top of my paper, why do I want this? I listed out the reasons that came up, and then in the left hand margin, I looked at each of those reasons and I was like, okay, what does this represent? And that's where I was like, ego, freedom, ambition, worthiness, whatever. And then I looked beneath those.

Those thoughts and those, those feelings, those whys, and I saw what the thought, you know, the feeling and the, the truth was underneath that. And so this has been an eye-opening experience for me to know like, where's my ego sitting in all of this? Am I wanting a billion dollars? Because it's an egoic safety mechanism, is it to protect the little child who didn't feel like she fit in and was afraid to lose everyth.

That was shuttled back and forth and was constantly having to readjust and say goodbye, who protected herself from disappointment and abandonment by being super fucking independent and strong, so that she would have to, she would be able to have all the control and no one would ever be able to disappoint or abandon her again because she had it all in her on her own.

And these, as I'm saying this right now, like I'm processing this with you. This is real time like. Understanding who I am and why these are my drives. And so since I've put that podcast out, it's again, the universe has been showing me contrast and it's been really amazing to actually see, like it's testing me and asking me, is this what I truly want?

And since I've put it out, I've seen a lot, I've seen some things in the, you know, manifestation and motivation circles and, and you know, other PE people talking about like, Manifesting your dreams is bad and like, why are you going after egoic shit? And what the conclusion I came to was like, you know, no shade.

Cuz I know that everyone's on their journey where they are and I certainly, like, I listen to people so I'm not trying to talk any shit and um, I'm not a shit talker anyways. I'm just, this is an observation I'm making and it's no nothing personal to anybody. Just in general. It seems like there's a divide between.

Those who have fully made it to the top, or where they consider it to be the top or to the point where they are detached from needing the money, they're detached from needing the bills to be paid and needing the person to text back and needing the job and needing. To sign the lease and all those things because they've, they've gotten to a point where they're just coasting and they're living off of the residuals of, and I mean, emotional and, and even monetary, um, of, of knowing this information so fucking well, and I'm kind of in like a halfway space, like I'm still.

As a regular person, um, trying to quote unquote make it, but I also have like a very, very deep understanding of all this information and I'm, you know, it, on the course of creating that life, I'm like, I'm on the, on-ramp. I'm like in the middle of the, of the ascent. So I'm like, I'm still in the process of going to the place where I will feel like I have again, quote unquote made it.

I just wanna say, my goal is to always give you the information that's gonna help you right now and not give you something that's so vague and so you know, past the point of where you are that it doesn't apply. And so I just feel like a lot of the rhetoric out there is, you know, oh, manifesting your dreams is bad, or going after your egoic desires.

Like, why are you serving your ego? It's like, you know what? Right now my bills need to be paid and. After my bills get paid, then I can start fucking thinking about transcending the concept of money. And that's kind of the conclusion I came to is like, you know what? It's valid where we are. It's okay if you are somebody who is in a space that's like, I wanna make money.

I wanna be successful. I want that partner. I want that job. I want that house. Good for you. And I hope if anybody shames you into thinking that your desires are worthless or childish or small thinking or whatever, Fuck them. It's none of their goddamn business. This is you we're talking about and whatever you want to live in this world is okay.

Your desires are okay. And again, always, you know, my disclaimer is we're talking about consenting adults and we're not harming or hurting anybody beyond that. I don't give a fuck what you want. No harm then. Go out there if there's no harm being done. And why does it matter what you want? Why does it matter?

If you feel like you need money, why does it matter? If you want to go after a career or a passion that people think is frivolous, who gives a fuck? Like there's, there's been people in history that have made. Lots and lots of money or had lots and lots of success or been completely fulfilled doing the stuff that you wanna do right now.

The stuff that you think you can't do because so-and-so said this or society said this, or you can't pay your bills cause or whatever. All that stuff is just a bunch of noise and it's, it's just like a test to test your resolve. Do you really wanna do and be the person you said then push through this stuff.

Me feeling like I was questioned this week, which was great. I'm glad I was questioned because I wanted to see beyond my desires and see who it was that the billion dollars was appeasing, and knowing that the billion dollars is appeasing that part of myself that is wounded from childhood. I can decide if I want to continue down this road and you.

Why the fuck not until I decide? You know what? I think I will change my perspective and I will focus on just radiating in the change that I wanna see and not focusing on the money. Then I'll do that, but maybe right now I have to get to a point where I feel like I have been vindicated or relieved or released or fulfilled.

Paid whatever, like paid back. It doesn't matter. And this is the point I wanna get at is like the reasons why you want your stuff. Look at that stuff and be honest with yourself and see what's going on there. But then beyond that, don't judge and don't let others judge. Because I, what I'm really coming to is that in order to get to this enlightened space where everything just comes to you and everything's all good and you're just a magnet for whatever, maybe you do have to egoically, get the things that you.

So that that is out of the way so that it's no longer the carrot dangling in front of your face. How do you see the road ahead when there's a carrot right in front of your eyes? How do you see miles in front of you when the thing that you want is so fucking close? You can taste it, but just barely out of reach.

How do you focus beyond that? And, and these are, again, these are just questions ponder. I just want you to think about these things for your own life. Because it's your life and the closer you can get to your truth and clearing out these, you know, blocks and limiting beliefs that are hidden underneath layers of pain and trauma, then the closer you are to getting that stuff, and I want you to get your stuff, you know, Jim Carey said a quote.

It was like, I wish everybody could get the success they needed so that they could see that it, that's not everything, or that's not what they want, or whatever the quote is. Right. But that's exactly the conclusion that I came to this week as well, is. Maybe we can't be so love and light and like completely perfect and and transcend our egoic desires until we actually get the thing that our ego is craving.

And maybe we can shut our ego down without it. This is stuff for us to each ponder as individuals, but I also want you to know that like, it's okay if you want to egoically go after the stuff that you. And that's what I found through meditation. I've been asking like, is it okay for me to go off there?

Like, why wouldn't it be, why the fuck wouldn't it be you're gonna come to Earth and, and stunt yourself on what you get to experience? Because so and so said it's not spiritual enough for you to want that. Fuck that again. Fuck that. Fuck them. Fuck the limited thinking. This is your world. You came here with a mission, and if you are too clouded by the stuff you haven't gotten yet to focus on that mission, then why shouldn't you work on getting that stuff?

I don't know. I'm, this is literally, I'm this, I'm off the cuff. I'm not, there's no rehearsal here. I literally didn't even know what I was gonna talk about when I sat down and turned my microphone on. So, These are the things I think about. This is the way that I process and work through these issues and these egos and these traumas and these pains, is I just look at what it's about.

I dig deep, I ask myself, and then I self evaluate. I don't care what anyone says. I like to hear what they say because then, you know, it's, it's an, it's offering a new perspective and a new opinion for me to take into consideration. But ultimately the decision is mine. This world is mine. I. Be, do and have whatever I want.

So if this is who I wanna be, and this is what I wanna talk about and how I wanna. Then that's on me and that's my choice. So I want the same for you. I want you to analyze what's going on in your mind, in your heart. Why do you want the things that you want? What purpose is it serving? And if you are somebody who is dealing with like love, And money, trauma.

If there's pain in your story, if there's stuff that you've been wanting and not getting and stuff from childhood that you didn't receive, that you're still kind of like subconsciously going after. I'm hosting a master training today, actually. Um, if you're listening in real time, Wednesday, April 19th at three 30 3:30 PM pst, we're doing the Love and Money master training, which is a really cool deep dive on.

Underpinnings and the under turnings of love and money in your story, in your past, in your history, in your trauma, in your ego, all of that stuff. How it's still affecting you today, why it's fucking your relationships up, why it's keeping you broke, why and how they're intertwined and what we can do about it, of course, to make us have the most abundant, beautiful, amazing life with loving partner.

Joy, fulfillment, appreciation, all of the things that human beings want that's happening today in the Love and Money Master training. If you're listening and you're not able to make it live, there will be a replay sent to everybody that, uh, purchases, purchases a ticket. So if you can't make it live, you can still grab a ticket.

And then also it will be available for replay, um, after the training. I mean, you know, it's usually like a few weeks later you can get the replay. But, um, when you attend live and when you, um, if you buy the ticket now, attend live, and even if you, um, miss it and you just get the, um, the replay tomorrow, which it'll be sent out, you get, um, special discounts and offerings and opportunities that happen on the class, um, that you kind of miss that on.

If you, you know, if you're listening weeks later, obviously you're not gonna be able to participate in the giveaway that happens this weekend, for example. Master trainings are super powerful, super fun, quick, easy, digestible information. Get in, get out, get the info, go apply it, and see change in your life.

We always have tons of amazing testimonials after the master training, so that's happening today. Join me, love and Money Master training, roxy talks.com/group programs. If you'd like to sign up, I'll also link it in the description below. But either way, whatever's driving you, whatever's calling to you, whatever it is that you want, good, good for you.

Go fucking get it. I'm not judging you. I think you should have it. I think that if you had it, you'd be able to look more clearly at who you are as a person, why you're here on this planet, and then move forward with becoming even greater, like you have a much bigger purpose. And again, if, if you can't see that purpose because we're in survival mode, I feel for you.

I'm here for you and I got you. Let's get you outta survival mode and get you into thrival mode. You know what I'm saying? So I love you. I appreciate you. Congratulations for listening to this podcast today. And I don't mean that like for me, I mean that for you. You did something today to keep you in the energy of your idea.

Like we were talking about the beginning. For me, I love, I think I never finished my thought. I just realized that meditation is the number one thing that I love the most to get me into the um, Energy of my ideal. Maybe I did finish that sentence. It's okay. It's okay. My brain is always focused and easily kept on track and yeah, I love that about myself.

So I love you. I appreciate you. We're all raising our vibrations together. You have the power. I believe in you. Thank you so much for being here. I'll see you next week.