Hey, hey, hey, I'm bad. Listen. I know that what I'm about to talk about some people will not like it. Little feelings are gonna be hurt, toes are gonna be stepped on. But it's all right. You will be okay. I promise you you'll be okay. This is not to hurt or harm. It is to help. It is to encourage, It is to educate, it is to inspire. But hey, you have to take it however you take it. Millions of people in this world label themselves and then use it as a crutch. Okay, I have to let that
seek in for a couple of minutes or seconds. I should say, millions of people in this world label themselves and then use it as a crutch. Let's talk about it in all honesty. How many people have you seen in person, on television, over the radio, on podcast, on social media, etc. How many people have you seen? Some you know, some you don't know, mostly you don't know. How many people have you seen that say they have some type of mental illness? Oh okay, listen, I've done
episodes about mental illness. I was in the field for thirteen fourteen years. For a long time, I worked with juvenile services, detention centers, corrections, psych hospitals for the military, so military and civilian. And I'm here to tell you that I never met one person that was truly born with a disorder. Now I've I've been in the school system having class or or or teaching classes to individuals who were born mentally challenged and with obvious physical impairments.
But I'm talking about specifically individuals who developed PTSD, bipolar, schizophrenic depression, anxiety over the years. If you knew people when they were little kids, you wouldn't you wouldn't have heard them say those things or saw signs of those things. What happens is and I'm not giving any money for this, soul. I mean, I don't have no reason to sit here and make anything up, or glamorize something or or lie period. What happens is people go through life and they go
through it comes from negativity, some form of negativity. People go through life, many many, many go through life, and they go through trauma as young children. I mean, some people go through the most atrocious things you could ever imagine a child going through. I mean, horrible, horrible, horrible things. I'm not even gonna list those things because I've done it several times on different episodes, but horrible things as a child and are traumatized, and a lot of those children,
most of those children are not able to cope. So they go through that trauma and then they go continue through their developmental stages into adulthood carrying that same stuff because they didn't know how to cope. With Some people lives are changed forever because of what they went through
as a little kid. So you go through the trauma as a little kid, and you go to adulthood harboring the same feelings and thoughts, and then on top of what you already have going on, you get into relationships and normally with people who are like minded, people who are struggling to When I say struggling, I'm talking about internally mentally. And all that does is compile what you've always carried with the things that you're adding to that
in stress develops outside of what you always carry. Stress develops, and because of unhealed hearts and minds, people are blind to a lot of things. So people are seeking love and all of these things. They meet individuals who rehabit in their lives and don't understand why these people are
wreaking habit in their lives, so it's more stress. On top of that, the person you love can't love you back, or the person you love is mistreating you, treating you know, just doing you any kind of way, or taking advantage of you, and the list is endless. So you develop all of the stress from that. Then the stress from your employment or unemployment and all of that is just
breaking you down by little. It's breaking you down. And people get into the workforce, whether it's celebrity, politician, janitor at the school, teacher, judge, police officer, doctor, I mean any in every profession you can name, you have unhealed hearts and minds. So people are fully grown adults, but they have their mental status is still that of that young person. And that's why they make the choices and the decisions that they make. That's why they allow the
things that they allow into their life. That's why they get into the things that they get into because they have not healed. That's why they continue to go in and out of relationships with similar people, or they go back for a double dose or what they got out of us. I mean, I can just go on and on and on and on. But it all, it all goes back to what I said earlier, unhealed hearts and minds. So people start developing anxiety. Never had anxiety before, but
they start developing anxiety. And let me say this, when it comes to anxiety, I think other things can cause anxiety too, like all this stuff in the air. You know, we're breathing in these microwaves. You know that I could be wrong about that, but I'm I'm kind of leaning towards it. But we're gonna take that out of the equation. Okay,
But I just wanted to mention that. But people open themselves up to so much stress trying to obtain this, trying to obtain that, the inability to love self, trying to be famous, getting famous, and trying to stay famous. I mean, doing nefarious things to get ahead, allowing people to do horrible things to them to get ahead, going along with wrong to get ahead. I mean, people are chasing the mighty dollar hard and they doing things that they should never do. They're going along with things they
should never go along with. In all of this stuff from I mean p p peop darks, darks, barks, barks, dark from every corner that you open yourself up to who wouldn't be stressed, And then on top of it, people don't know how to manage it. So you have mental illnesses that are developed in stress, anxiety, depression, bipolar, schizophrenic because you're harboring all of this new stuff as an adult, compiled with what was already there that you never healed from. So when you when you don't know
how to handle your stress, your stress will handle you. Fact, when you don't know how to handle your stress, your stress will handle you. It will give you a ride for your money. It will rehab it in your life when you open yourself up to and you welcome anxiety and depression and all of that stuff in your life. It'll stick around. When you think the medications and the booze and the this and that is what is keeping
it at bay, it's not. It alters you for a minute, but once you come off of whatever it is, you right back and square one again. So people are leaning and depending on things and different tools. But you gotta do inside work so the outside can work properly for you. You must do inside work. Most people don't. Most people don't. You go through life the same the very same year, after year after year after year. You equip for many things in life, but you are not equipped for the
journey of life. You're not equipped for the journey of life because you have not allowed healing to occur. So now you get these different mental illnesses and you run with the label and you use it everywhere. Oh, I have this, I have that. Because you listening to a woman that I could definitely say that I have PTSD. I could definitely say that I should be depressed, full of anxiety. I mean I literally should should be just unable to be doing what I'm doing now. I am
so serious because I've been through the storm. I'm going through the storm right now. I've told you for months, I'm going through something that I will have to live with for the rest of my life. And most people will not be able to handle it. Most will not be able to handle it. I know it for fact,
because it is horrific. But guess what, I don't give in to anything or no one because I know things gonna happen in life, and I mean things will happen that it's so unexpected you would never think it would happen to you in a billion years. But when it happens. You just gotta take that punch in the face or in the gut, regroup, and keep it moving. Because I can't speak for anyone else but myself. I refuse to
give what God gave me my life. I refuse to give it up and succumb to what somebody else done. Let it ruin me, or if someone passed or way, let it warn me, because I can't handle it. Because no, you know why, Because we all gonna pass away one day, some way, somehow, some unexpected, some horrifically. It's gonna happen. No one is exempt. So in my mind, I understand that tenfold. I understand that tragedy is gonna come. I
understand that. I literally understand that. I understand that the storm will bring waves that they rock me from side to side. But it's gonna come sooner or later. I just don't choose to give my power to no situation, no person, nothing, I just don't. Yes, I hurt like everyone else, I cry like everyone else, I feel things like everyone else, but I don't allow it to overtake me. I just don't. I can'tnot do it, and I don't care what people think about me because those who know
me and know what I'm dealing with. If they may look at me and just can't understand why I'm not just somewhere broken into a million pieces. No, I refuse to do that. I refuse to do it because if not me, it be somebody else. Do I like it? No, it's the worst thing ever, but it is what it is. So I'm not claiming no PTSD, no depression, none of that. I'm not labeling myself and you're not gonna label me. Well you can, but it don't mean it to me. So people look at me like a crazy one, you know.
They look at me like, what is wrong with her? Well, I'll tell you what's wrong with me. What's wrong with me is I believe in Jesus Christ, the Soulling and God, the Father and the Holy Spirit. And you don't have to believe. I'm just saying what I stick and stay with what I believe, and nothing or no one is greater than that to me. And as I say it, it's not that I don't love. I don't hurt another. Yeah, I go through it all like anybody else. I'm not
made of stone. I'm still flesh, blood and bones. But I just don't give into things. I just don't. And you know what, every day I pray, I say, Lord, no matter what, I don't care if the sun fall out the sky right as my feet, let me be able to withstand it. That's my prayer. I pray that every single day, no matter what happens, Lord, let me be able to withstand it. And I'm ooh, y'all just don't know. You just don't know how He's given me power to withstand what I'm going through. And I hurt
and I cry sometimes, but I don't stay there. I don't stay there. So I'm just saying, when you label yourself and use it as a crutch, that don't allow any room for healing to occur. It just don't it. Just don't. People label themselves for a lifetime. They label their children just because you don't take time and discipline your children and have structure and boundaries and things like that. You let them run them up. Now you label them or they have this, they have that. No, they need discipline,
they need structure. And I'm not saying that it's the case for every parent, but a lot of them it is. It definitely is. So just be careful about doing those things. Be careful about labeling yourself because we all go through and I guarantee you most other people listening have now gone through what I'm going through. And when I say horrific on the tenth power on the tenth level and above. But I will not, I will not allow it to take me out. I just want and I'll take it
to the grave because what is done is done. It can be redone. So I just have to live with it for the rest of my life. You know, when you empower or you give power to people to destroy you mentally, it's going to happen. When you give power to things to destroy you mentally, physically, in every way, it's going to happen. I just choose not to do it. I just choose not to do it. So I'm just saying, you can be better, but you have to want to
be better. Every day that we live, you, me, all of us, we have a chance to be better than the day before. We have the opportunity to change our lives. We have an opportunity to become to become the best that we can be. But most people don't. They live day in day out going through the motion the same exact way for years, not even remotely trying to be better. And that is a disservice to yourself. It's a disservice to yourself, to your children, to your relatives, your friends,
anyone in your circle. Is a disservice because you are not the best that you could be. And you know what, that's it. That's all I'm saying on it. Tak it for what is worth. Everything that I've said is with love. So if you want to, if you want to talk to me about it, you want to go more in depth about things on how am I the way that I am? I don't know any other way to tell
you than what I've told you. But I'm willing to talk to anybody, anybody because, like I said, I guarantee you most of you have not dealt with what I'm dealing with, you know. And as far as losing someone, yeah, I lost someone, Well guess what since twenty eighteen, I've lost about thirty people. I know, it's from twenty eight to about thirty maybe thirty one, thirty two people in my life since twenty eighteen. It took my mom, my dad,
my grandson. I mean, I can go on host of aunts and uncles, cousins, all of those people in such a short time. So I mean death in tragedy, and I mean different ways, different ways, So I mean some very tragic, but it's just life. We don't know how we're going. That's why I want to live right as I live, because on the other side, I want to be in the right place. That's for me. I can't
speak for any of you. It's for me. That's what I choose for my life because guess what if I walk outside of my door and someone take my life, I'm okay because I know I've lived the best that I could. I know that I live with intention of being the best that I could be intentionally, so I'll be good on the other side. I don't fear none of that because it's gonna happen one day. It's gonna happen one day. We all will leave this natural body
one day. I just pray that you end up on the right side, on the other side of life, the right side. So that's all I'm gonna say. I'm leaving it right there. I just want you to know if you deserve better, you can be better. You just have to want it. Thank you for listening. Please share this episode. Much love to each and every one of you. I
encourage you that to be grateful every day. Stop worrying about what you don't have, be grateful for what you got, because when you're not grateful, then you're seeking and you're searching, and you're to do anything and in everything for something and it's not even worth it. Please share this episode. I end every episode is the same, and I hope and I pray, I pray you do it, thank on it.