Episode 10: Court For The Queen

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In May of twenty eighteen, the case against Cecilia Stein and Electus Perdeis was moved from district to High Court. Since the group's arrest in twenty sixteen, nearly two years had gone by. In that time, Ben Boysen had to reassemble case files from six years prior and piece together all that had happened since twenty twelve in order to connect EPD to the murders and get them convicted. Back

On the stand, she lied blatantly to save Cecilia. I killed Reginald, and I enjoyed every minute of an antit it because I want to and I wanted to feel the power, and went into great GORYGGI detail about how she did it and saying it had nothing to do with Cecilia.

Marinda Steyne was served eleven life sentences and one hundred and fifteen years for eleven murders. The two years that LaRue spent behind bars provided him ample time to consider the sting of his mother's betrayal, her many betrayals, but especially the altering of her will. On the stand, Marinda claimed she was the mastermind behind all the murders and implicated l Ruin Zach in her statements, she excluded Cecilia and Marcel from this testimony. In a rare act of

LaRue Croit when found guilty and in front of his mother, he said, thank you captain for sending this pitch to jail and pointing at his mother. So yeah, I think at that stage he made peace with himself that his mother actually forced him to commit murdered.

Cecilia, Zach, and Marcel all pleaded not guilty. Cecilia to this day claims she knew nothing and had nothing to do with the murders. She told me herself when I spoke to her in prison.

No one can force you to do anything. There's no such thing as the devil made me do it. There's no such thing as God made me do it. We make our own choices, we act on our own impulses. And Marchelle and LaRue has the reasons they did what they did. And yeah, there's nothing anybody can say to change someone else's mind.

From School of Humans and I Heeart podcasts This is Queen Havoc and Her Murder Cult. I'm your host Kurt Kupachek, Episode ten, Court for the Queen. In twenty eighteen, the year following the initial sentencing of Mirinda and LaRue, the state called fifty two out of about two hundred witnesses to testify against three members of Electus Perdais.

The three that eventually winter trial was a Celia Zak.

And Marsell Ben told us about how he had to be careful when choosing who to call to the stand. Anyone who believed Cecilia had ties to Satanism could have confused the judge. Way back in the first episode we talked about how the judicial system does take Satanism seriously, but as we now know, her Satanic past was nothing but a tool Cecilia used to convince her followers to commit these horrendous crimes. Any connection to the devil was contrived with no bearing on the murders themselves.

At the end of the day, what is the dud's going to believe in? What he is not going to believe? You understand? So we needed to choose our witnesses to prove our cast and not to damage our case.

Even so, considering all that EPD had gotten away with up to this point, faith in the judicial system was hard to come by.

Even when we started going to courte there was doubt in the family's eyes that these people eventually going to be found guilty.

Jana Marx, working as a courtroom journalist at the time, was used to watching trials. Yanna kept a keen eye on all the witness's behavior and body language. She noticed that Cecilia appeared completely unfazed by the proceedings. She Zach and Marcel, at least at first, stuck together like a little clique, hiding behind their witty rapport.

They started as a very chetty group, a lot of fun, fun and games. Celia is very now, she's very lively, and she tells jokes, and that happened in court the second They made little personal jokes and they pointed and stayed at people, and that's.

How it started.

One of the key witnesses they mocked was Ria Grunivald, epd's first victim, at least in a psychological sense, and Cecilia's apparent motivation for the revenge killings. In twenty twelve. It took weeks for state prosecutors and police to convince Rhea to come out of hiding and appear in court. She did so only under the condition that no photographs be taken of her. Her testimony brought her into the same room as Cecilia and EPD for the first time

Read it was a very difficult time, and I was not able to discuss it with anyone, fearing that Sea could be punished for speaking out. I had to be strong for her. She also isolated me from everyone I knew. She lied about everything. I couldn't do anything without them knowing I believed her. I then decided to end my commitment to see and I set up that appointment with her where I was threatened. They raised his history.

With eleven others killed. Rhea managed to escape from the board texts of Cecilia Stein with her life. However, she is still paying a high price. Rea lost her home, her livelihood, she lost contact with her children, and the rest of her family existence. As she knew it ceased. It's like her life was murdered, but she went on living.

She didn't even admit to me where she went into. Stay till today, I Tilda and don't speak to her a grand till Duncia. So she's still in hiding today, Someway in South Africa.

Some of the witnesses that took the stand included members of Cecilia's outer circle, folks involved in the Know Your Enemy classes she held for a time back in twenty twelve. Neighbors of the murder victims and members of the task team also testified. Here's Detective Hert Krueger.

There was the witness. They were having a party next to the house where mister McGregor was staying. They said it was a white female where had a very funny She was walking funny. They described it like almost like walking like a duck and that was Merendo.

Even Luke came out of witness protection to testify against them and report on his chilling time around the group. As Cecilia, Zach and Marcel witnessed their damning testimony, they became increasingly less chummy. Their body language began to reflect the degradation of Cecilia's mind control.

As more testimony came forward, more evidence came forward, as if the group literally a physically moved away from one another on the bench.

The more Cecilia allowed everyone else to take the blame for her, the more Zach and Marcel recoiled.

See how it was in the middle still just you know, observing writings. She took notes.

That's right, Cecilia took notes. She had I had to keep her story straight.

And you have Zach Valentine. Zach would literally sit on one butt cheek like he's going to fall off the bench at any moment. He was so far away, just to say, away from her, and Marcel the same.

On the other.

Side, Marcel was in a dark place throughout the proceedings. Each time she was called to the stand, she denied everything which implicated her brother and made way for her mother to continue to sacrifice her own life in exaltation of Cecilia.

So Mosel obviously grew more and more depressed as she realized, okay, well, see you set up the whole trial. She planned the whole trial in advance, and Marcel went with it.

Ben tried talking to Marcel, but she was reluctant, even to the point of self sabotage.

Marcel from the beginning told me to go fuck myself. That was her wit, her father, a real father, Rainstel lawyers, a good advocate, and she said no, she doesn't want them, and she's not guilty.

Remember, the primary charge was racketeering. This was used as a pathway to prove their involvement in the murders. This risky and unprecedented strategy turned out to be a clever move on Ben's Park.

This is the first guise in the history of South Africa. Were murderers our charged with with racketeering and was found guilty in the I court.

So, even though each EPD defendant had their own lawyers, allegations against one implicated them all as.

The trial progressed, and obviously they had their own legal representatives, and every legal council obviously wants to exonerate their own client and they would throw the others under the bus.

Zach held fast to the story that he didn't remember anything, even the day that his car caught on fire, but Marinda describing his direct involvement while on the stand revealed suspicious inconsistencies in the narrative. This prolonged the trial over the course of three years from twenty sixteen through twenty nineteen. Electis Perdaeis only spent a total of sixty days in court, but prosecutors were relentless in their pursuit of the truth.

LaRue not a small boy coming into court, but he grew more confident during his testimony. I remember him not being able to say the word murder or killing.

He had been brainwashed and pressured by his own mother in Cecilia since he was just a kid.

I think the too first two to three days off his testimony, he would just say yeah and then it happened. Then that happened, assuming a murder, or then I was strangled the guy, and then it happened. So it was very interesting to see how he evolved during his testimony. I think getting freeing himself from the bondage of his mother, the bondage of Cecilia being in their service.

LaRue's striking neck tattoo of a large marionette puppet took on a symbolic new meaning throughout the course of the trial as he found his footing in court. LaRue's confidence may have been boosted by his budding friendship with journalist Murtzka Kotsare. LaRue confided in Mritzka about all the ways he was abused by his mother and Cecilia.

His mother beat him up because how dare he questioned Cecilia. You know, and as really said, he said to me, the one time his mother hit him more than thirty times, she hit him so hard he waved his bed.

And this was when he was sixteen years old.

Even behind bars, LaRue feared Cecilia's spectral wrath.

There's actually one time where he was in jail, he's been sentenced.

We asked me about Eestro travel.

He actually genuinely asked me if I thought it was real? And do I think Cecilia can get to him and HARMI? And I'm like lyuy, you know, this is a bunch of shit, Come on now, But it just shows you how long he's been manipulated. You know, sitting in jail is like, what if Cecilia can sneak into my cell and come and hurt me?

You know.

What the public didn't know, however, was that Maritzka and LaRue's relationship had evolved from journalists and suspect to a friendship and then to a fully fledged romance. When that lasted for two and a half years. They were already an item before the Rue was even officially sentenced. In twenty eighteen, me the day before you.

Were sentenced, will I be his girlfriend?

And at that point, you know, I kind of like froze, because like the half of me thought, what's the arm of being someone's girlfriend in jail.

I'll never get.

Involved like that, And the other half of me felt sorry for him, you know, like, how can I say no now, knowing that tomorrow is getting sentenced for let's say twenty or twenty five years, so, you know, and I just said yes.

You know, but I did like him. I had a crush on it. But can you I.

Imagine the first day that this is now my boyfriend, I'm standing in court looking at how he's being sentenced.

That was really a very sad, you know moment.

Maritzka was married at the time, and the couple had a young daughter. By twenty nineteen, with the case mounting against Cecilia Zach and Marcel Zach got wind of their relationship and tried to use it to his advantage.

Zach was the only one that had a private attorney. Everyone else had to state attorneys. Zach's parents by that lawyer over two million rangers to you know, help him get away with murder. So one of their plans was to get me subpoena to tell the court that the police was using me.

Zach's attorney aimed to get LaRue's testimony stricken from the record. He argued that Maritzka was working with Ben and the task team to influence Laru's story. While Maritzka's behavior is indeed a breach of journalistic ethics, Zach's attempt to leverage her in LaRue's love for his own gain caught her off guard.

I've never in my life loved the story like this, like the drama, the one that I'm sitting there and the investigating officer phones me and he's like, listen, yeah, and I want to scare you, but you might be called to court.

I'm like, for fucking what, you know, because I'm covering this.

He's like, no, Zach's attorney is trying to say that the police is using me to manipulate LaRue.

Early in twenty nineteen, in a desperate act of self preservation, Zach Valentine and his lawyer tried to sell the story that Maritzka was a pawn used by the police to convince LaRue to stay on his confessional track. If this were true, it would discredit LaRue's testimony and further complicate the case against EPD. Maritzka fought to stay off the stand.

I'm like a hell to the notice because now can you not imagine I need to appear in court. I'm a journalist. Now I need to go explain. So I was like, this shit is not going down, you know.

The judge recognized that there were more important issues at stake than an accused killer's girlfriend and rejected the requests from Zach's attorney.

And luckily the judge threw it outside.

Was like, whew, I dodged the bullets, okay, But little did I know I did not dodge a bullet the whole I don't know, like nine yards were coming from me.

But Zach and his lawyer didn't quit.

After that failed, Zach's girlfriend went to a Sunday newspaper. So it's basically the place where I worked, the sister publication.

Can we pause? Are you telling me Zach had a girlfriend?

It was actually his fiance.

How can that woman date Zach? Isn't she Scaredy's gonna murder as well? But anyways, back to how I saw my ass.

Okay.

That same week, Maritzka's life began to crumble.

When I rapped at work.

My boss phoned me and she said to me, from this point on, I'm not allowed to speak to anyone anymore. I'm not allowed to speak to my colleagues. I'm not allowed to go out on stories.

By the end of the week, she lost her job.

By the friday that I arrived at work. As I got to the entrance, the h old lady was waiting there for me. I didn't even enter that building. They took my laptop, they took my access card, and they suspended me.

Although her marriage had been falling apart for a while, she was still living in the house she shared with her husband and their young daughter.

I'm a married woman, so now I'm finding my husband. Then my favorite police contact, right, I may said, you listen, hear, colonel, I need to tell you something.

And then she said to me, yes, she saw online. I'm like what.

So while I was driving home, they already put out a press release saying that I've been suspended in connection with the murders.

Maritzka could be charged with obstruction of justice in connection with eleven murders. Serious charges.

So now you must know, like everyone like suspects what's going on here. But that's still nothing, because this is the Friday Sunday morning I wake up. I wake up not only to the news of my a fay everyway, but I mean on the lamp.

Pulls Maritzka's face next to a picture of LaRue the murderer, plastered all over krueger'storf on the lampposts.

It says journalists madly in love with Jilbird. That was the craziest feeling in the world, you know, like becoming the front page story.

It often feels like we could dedicate an entire podcast to just one of the many subplots orbiting around Cecilia and EPD. This is certainly one of those times. LaRue and Meritzka's relationship would survive this. In fact, it would last until the COVID nineteen lockdown in twenty twenty. Maritzka's insight into LaRue, however biased, did help us to understand him as a person in a big way. She shared with us many of the details of their relationship, introducing

And I remember the one day arriving at Rome, and as I stopped in front of the gate, I thought to myself. Everyone has their own prisons, you know. And as I opened that gate, I thought to myself, larit doesn't have a key to East prison, but I've got my own key.

Which brings us to Marcel, a young woman living inside the prison of her own mind.

Masel was was a bit different. I think the whole country's sympathy lie with Marcel.

On the stand. Two years younger than LaRue. Shy and quiet, Marcel came across as docile and played up her innocence behind big glasses, her style a stark contrast to the high goth get ups of the rest of EPD. She looked almost demure, her hair neatly pulled into a French braid, almost as if she grew up in a pastoral setting. She'd grown accustomed to saying as little as possible so as not to defy her mother in Cecilia's orders, and

Marcel still did not really, She still wanted to believe in her mom somehow until the eleventh hour, so there, unfortunately didn't go too well for her.

News accounts of the true paint Marcel as clearly subject to profound manipulation, A fearful child, I.

Think, and I obviously see their mom adoring Cecilia.

So you can.

Imagine this young little girl. I'm going to call it that little girl because she was so young when she started to live in Celia's house.

Marcel was ten when her mother met Cecilia and thirteen when she moved in with her and took responsibility for all of Cecilia's needs and those of Cecilia's two young children.

I think she was also thinking she was doing the right thing, because the adults all had consensus on this, so this had to be the right thing.

Marcel confided in Rosalind that she had looked up to Cecilia.

Marcel speaks about how she really adlass Cecilia. I mean she thought that this woman was her hero. She trist like she heard it most of the members of that group. She thought that whatever she said was amazing. She was her role model. She spoke about her in a speech at.

School, especially after witnessing Michaela's murder. Marcel had no female role models in her life, but just like her brother, Marcel grew up right there on the witness stand in front of the world.

Marcelle was a little shy girl coming into the court. You could definitely see her youthfulness. I don't want to say innocence, because I mean, after killing, I don't think I have any more of that left. But she was skid, and I remember seeing this little girl with the big eyes behind the glasses sitting in court, and as the trial progressed, it's as if she evolved herself.

After an entire year of watching the trial unfor and lying on the stand it protect Cecilia, Marcel started to reconsider the implications of staying silent.

She realized there was in a whole moment because she still believed, but there was a long period which the prison wardens showed her luck. This doesn't say that in the Bible, and that was the trigger for her.

Marcel started thinking about coming clean to the judge. Despite being consistently threatened by her mother in Cecilia.

She actually said to me, my mom said to me that if you stand up and you tell the truth, we will kill you. In Sun City prison, Cecilia and myself, we will kill you.

Given the conflicting testimony, prosecutors struggled to gain traction on murder charges against Cecilia. No one say seemed to tell the same story of what had gone down inside the walls of EPD. According to countless witnesses, Cecilia was said to be in charge, but where was the proof? Here's Detective Susac canotse Ceelia.

Is the one that's got no blood in her hands. She wasn't involved in any killing actual killing. She used the people to do it for.

The judge pointed out that money had clearly been given to her, or as she claimed donated to her. Zach Valentine and John Barnard said they thought the money they were giving her was going to an orphanage, but her accounts didn't balance out. Cecilia argued from the witness stand that this was not evidence of her involvement in the murders. When the judge pressed her for answers to why others were donating money to her, Cecilia would calmly, dispassionately reply,

Do you realize the mistake?

Mettrial and she decided to actually come.

Forward with the truth.

When Marcel Stein took the witness stand in May of twenty nineteen, she laid the pieces of the puzzle out for the courtroom with the breathless ease of someone who'd seen it all before.

She was supposed to testify. Stepmother phoned me and said that Marcel wanted to change to plea and I said, no, it's too light now to chimes to plea. The only thing she can do now is going to tell the truth.

She painted a clear picture for the judge. It was a remarkable moment in the proceedings.

And I don't want to call it testimony because it wasn't really a testimony. It wasn't planned, it wasn't a confession like a form of confession. She just decided she's going to tell the court now what she knows.

Once again, observing Jana Marx noticed the change in Marcel as she mustered up the courage to speak her truth in front of the judge.

I remember two three days prior to that, started to apply some makeup. Suddenly, this little girl with the big eyes, the scared eyes, scared of the ccenia are definitely scared of her mother, evolved into a woman making up her own mind.

During Marcel's riveting speech, her brilliant mind was on full display.

She tried to play the child caught to get a lesser sentence, but the judge didn't fall for that because when she started fighting with her own advocate in court, in front of the judge and telling the judge what the advocate was supposed to do, the advocate saw that this school is very very clever.

By advocate Ben Means, Marcel's lawyer, not to be confused with Roseline McNabb, the child advocate we've been hearing from. It was clear Marcel had read up on the law and knew her rights.

It was quite difficult to convince the judge that this was someone with a hi IQ at very low.

Eq IQ being logistic intelligence and problem solving, and EQ referring to emotional awareness being able to identify, evaluate, express, and control emotions, and.

That she really was emotionally manipulated, and that she really believed in this astral travel and everything that Cecilia had told her, and she felt as if she couldn't get away, and that she was being watched and then also doing everything that her mom wanted.

The judge then had a choice after observing how smart she was. He could take her savvy as a sign that she might be able to work her way out of the victimization she'd suffered, or he could use it against her. He chose the latter, claim she had ample opportunity to reach out to an adult at school during her time spent living with Cecilia, and that she had the option to come forward as her brother had, but she chose not.

To and that's why I also sentenced her to life imprisonment.

Electis Perdeis was found guilty on June third, twenty nineteen.

This Wasn't Elebret Conspiracy.

About six weeks later, on August nineteenth, they were sentenced.

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Cecilia Stein was given thirteen life sentences plus one hundred and fifty two years for eleven murders. Zach Valentine eight life sentences plus sixty six years for seven murders. Marcel Stein, now twenty one years old, was served seven life sentences plus one hundred and forty four years for eight murders.

At the age of that, I've got thirty nine life sentences and more than two thousand years in prisonment for these people.

So, while the judge took into consideration her age and all the manipulation, Marcel coming forward with the truth didn't really do her much good in terms of sentencing. After an entire life of being conditioned to not trust yourself and your own instincts, the courage that Marcel must have had to find in herself is staggering.

I do know that's Marenda.

She didn't really love her kids.

You can see that from her just giving Marcel to Cecilia as some sort of prize.

I asked Mirinda about this, her upbringing and a relationship to her own children. Again, the noise inside the prison visiting room was so bad that this is an actor reading her response.

You know, we grew up.

We grew up in a generation where our parents, my parents never until to day ever told me that they loved me, ever wagged me or anything like that. They would kiss you, allow goodbye, you know, but that's it. So I think I was maybe over loving and overprotective with my children, but they knew I loved them and I was a good mother.

Throughout our conversation, Marinda spoke highly of Marcel, told me that her daughter was good and had no part in any of the crimes. The judge honored Marcel's fear for her life and her wishes not to be anywhere near her mother in Cecilia. He sentenced Marcel not to Sun's city, but to a prison in Pretoria. Whether Marinda admits it or not, her self proclaimed affectionless upbringing has been passed

We could even speculate that, you know her character as this kind of idealized mom teacher, perfect suburban white lady. There's something fundamentally flawed in that characterization of white South African women. I mean, it's possible that her identity, rather than protecting her from this kind of manipulation, actually made her even more vulnerable to it.

Belonging to belong is a very basic, primal impulse, one of protection and self preservation. We need each other to survive. This was even true for the followers of Queen Havoc.

Didn't feel that they belonged anyway, didn't feel wanted by society, and then they meet this woman and she just say you will welcome. Everyone is welcome. Yet if no one wants you, I want you. And I think that was extremely satisfying for everyone. They wanted to be part of a group, They wanted to stay part.

Of a group. By the time LaRue was grown, he was thoroughly conditioned to be rewarded for demonstrating brutality. His self worth became tied to how savagely he could kill another person.

You would think the one side of him would rebell and run away, but yet Ezaki surrenders. He submerges, you know, and he wanted to prove himself. That's why he did the murders in Eduay. He wanted to show that he's worthy. And it's actually said, you know.

All this is to say that it's important to consider the walls that each of us have created around our hearts and minds, and who we choose to reside within them. Cults are scary, sure, but they are not altogether rare or really even counterculture when you think about it. It's right there in the word culture. It's in our nature

I think the only people that really love you unconditionally is your children, the way they look at you, the way they trust you unconditionally, the way they would hug you and and wait for you to go with them. Because if you're scared to walk down a dark hallway, or you know, truly feel unconditionally loved is by your children. You can say your parents or whatever, but you look at some people's parents' parents can be vindictive.

Colonel Christelle Boisen share this anecdote from Cecilia's childhood.

What we've been told is that Cecilia was actually one of a twin boy twin he died in Vitra. So when she grew up, her mother blamed her for the death of her twin. So she grew up with this I have the power to kill. I started killing when I was in my mother's womb.

Growing up under such serious maternal blaming, plus whatever else might have happened to her as a young person read a deep distrust of others. She shared with us a terrifying memory from when she was only fifteen.

I was fifteen, Me and my girlfriend at a time were at a friend of ours brother's twenty first birthday party about two o'clock in the morning. We decided, okay, stunt for us to go, and everybody was drinking, so we said, you know what, we can walk on our way home. We went through a shopping center's parking area. The guy came walking up to us, asking me for a lighter. So I bent down, obviously going through my pockets looking for a lighter. And as I looked up,

It's hard to believe the things that Cecilia says. Still, if this first murder did in fact happen when she was fifteen, it looks like it created a butterfly effect that would show her just how fragile a human life is.

When everything was done and he was lying in the parking lot and I'm sitting on the sidewalk, I'm looking at this guy and thinking this is impossible. It can't be that easy for a human being to die. Obviously, all the emotions you go through afterwards, your body goes in to shock, your nauses, you want to pass out, you want to throw up, all at the same time, your scared, you're confused, and you realize how easy it is for someone to die, how easy it is for you to take someone's life.

Based on what Cecilia shared with us about her perspective on humanity, it seems that she was she is bereft of hope.

I personally think that that humans is I don't know, specie that does not deserve to survive. If you look at the way we act, the way we behave towards each other, I would think twice about killing a spider or something like that. A spiders the it does its job. It doesn't judge you, it doesn't lie to you, it doesn't steal from you. It just does what it has to do and then goes on its merry way. Insects, animals completely natural. It's humans that are unnatural.

It also seems Cecilia's longing to belong was so strong, her need for a ten time so robust, and her sense of connection so lacking early on, that she created an environment in which those around her would never leave her, a kind of emotional symbiosis to make sure they'd stick around. In her mind, she was making them feel welcome and feeding their desire for some kind of greater purpose. She prayed on that I.

Think we all want to belong somewhere, you know, feel like you're part of something feel like you have a purpose.

And Mirinda learned a lot from her. That two have a deep reverence for each other. Even today, Mirinda especially still idolizes Cecilia.

God put in my heart that she loves me just as much as I love her. It's like we are twins that type of connection, not the same person like.

Soultai twins. How's that for Irony?

Me and Mironda close? You know, we're good friends.

We have a relationship where we can tell each.

Other anything, and you know, just by a look, you know, in what mood someone is. She's the first person I tell when something's wrong. She's an amazing person. She's really an amazing person.

Marinda's love perhaps went a bit further.

I joked about it.

I joked about it, you know, like I'm discovering that I'm also gay. It's a pity we couldn't have gone for each other. But it would feel like incest just because I think she's the perfect person. You know, it's kind of if we could date, that would have been the perfect thing, but sadly it would just be wrong.

While this information does ground these two terrifying people for us, it does not, by any means excuse their actions, neither exhibits a scrap of remorse.

I felt this compassion with these people. I felt very sorry for them, But what can I say. I'm not sorry that I killed them.

Four years into her thirteen life sentences, Cecilia still denies any involvement with the murders.

I'm not a person that really regreates things easily. I regret what I put my children through. I regret the impact it has on them. But I think I've learned a lot in that.

You know, so.

I don't have a lot of regrets in my life.

Through everything, this case, these people, this story that has been a part of my life for over three years. I keep coming back to this hard but simple truth that good people can do horrible things, and that bad people are capable of good. That's not to oversimplify the lives of the victims and their families. The sheer destruction that Cecilia Stein and Electus Perdaeus caused is staggering, but the fact remains. We all have a dark side, two wolves that live inside each of us. Whichever one we