¶ Superpowers and Unscripted Episodes
That's it . I've said it once . I'm not saying it again .
Not saying it again If I can missed out . Yeah , you know , when people say , like what's your special skill ? Sleep . So , if you were a super hero you'd be Sarah Sleep . No , no , no , Because that's a superpower . This is just my special skill , that's not superpower .
What's your superpower then ?
You know what my superpower would be and this is a stupid one , it's not like a cool superpower but I would give people the ability to see themselves how other people see them .
So if people think highly of themselves or whatever else , but other people think you're a dick , then you're going to know , whereas if you're like really , you know , you think that you're ugly , or you think that you're fat or whatever else , and then you see how other people see you . So you'd be like a supervillain , because that's that's .
I can use it for good or evil , that's true , but I wouldn't want to know .
I definitely wouldn't want to know . So it would be , it would be an evil power if it was put on me .
I would like to know , but then I also , because I obviously need the adoration of people . So if I had one person that was like , oh , her hair's not very good today , that would destroy me .
Yeah , I'm not good with with people saying negative stuff . No , I don't want to , I don't want to hear it . But that's how we started , wasn't it ? And we said please be nice , because we don't want to hear horrible stuff and , to be fair , everyone has been really nice .
Yeah , that's true , and unless people have been sending horrible feedback and you've just been protecting me from it .
I've just been absorbing all that negativity . I'm about to have a middle breakdown . I wish to shield you from it . No , we do need to do a shout out , don't we ? Yes , a really lovely review , actually from somebody called Amy Amy B , and she said brilliant content , love your chat . This podcast , no podcast , her spelling is fine , it's just my talking .
This podcast has been a lifeline whilst I've been recovering from a detached retina .
Yeah , Good Lord , oh Amy , yeah , first and foremost , how did that happen ? Yes , exactly .
How did you detach your retina ? And secondly , yeah , tell us a story . Secondly , let's hope you're recovering speedily .
Yeah , get well soon , Amy , but we need to know more .
Morning , morning . You look so confused , I am .
You don't know where you are . It's the wrong day to record . I've got no script .
Yeah , I know there's no story in front of me . No , it's strange . We are bringing you today something very different , aren't we ? Kate ?
We are . Let me explain to you about Blam edition episodes . So they are going to be unscripted and relatively unedited .
It's going to need to be edited . We say a lot of things that shouldn't be listened to .
That's true . I'll have to cut some of that out , but we'll discuss certain episodes and any feedback that we receive about them . We'll record on location , sometimes create random videos , have guest speakers , invite you listeners to be guests on the episodes maybe you , jim , and a whole lot more . What do you need to get future Blam episodes ?
I hear you say Subscribe .
Yeah , just subscribe to our little podcast here and then you will be able to listen to our unscripted , unedited Blam edition .
Partially edited , partially Blurred lines with that , yeah . So I still need to work out what we need to do to get subscribers the video content , because I'm not sure how to how to do that yet , but because obviously we make a video as well as creating the audio file for our listeners . So , yeah , maybe we'll , maybe we'll just email them out , I don't know .
Yeah , but I'm on it , I'm on it . People , I'm on it . Yeah , and Jim , I hope you get everything sorted with you know what , keep that between us , just us and Jim . But I hope you get it all sorted because , yeah , we miss you .
What are we going to discuss today ? I don't think we've even chosen a topic , have we ?
No , what would your superpower be ? My superpower , I don't know being ready for everything .
Do you mean like prepared or just on time ? Both yeah . If someone said to you , we're going on a hike right now , you're like , don't worry , I'm ready .
Yeah . And then if they went oh no , we're not going to go on a hike because there's a zombie apocalypse they're like still ready . And then they'd be like oh , it's like the end of the world and there's like a horrendous snowstorm that's going to come in and freeze everything . I'd be like still ready .
So you would have been absolutely fine . Dilatov Pass , diatlov Pass , whatever it was that came upon them and slashed open the tent . You'd be like , don't worry guys .
I wouldn't have faced me , actually , speaking of which I got thrown down a wormhole with . Did you start looking into stuff ?
Yeah .
And there was definitely no zip on the tent .
I've seen the tent . Yeah , how did it open ?
Well , it was kind of like flap over flap and then , yeah , like toggles tied , so yeah , so there was no . I mean , it wasn't as big as I thought . I thought it was going to be a much bigger tent , but it isn't , is it ?
It's not when you said that . You know , all the shoes were lined up inside and they had a pot on ready to make the coco and whatever else . So that's a very small tent . To have shoes lined up , yes , and to include nine people , that is not . That looked like a one person tent .
Yeah , I know , yeah . So I guess , if it's snowy and icy and freezing , it's like minus 60 or something , yeah Like ridiculous . So I mean , you'd want to be close to everyone , wouldn't you ? One on top of the other just stacked , yeah , yeah exactly . But I found so much information . I found a couple of websites that had loads and loads of information .
So I do think that that is an episode that I'll revisit again in the future because , honestly , it was just so much information that I was like , oh my goodness , and there was also a lot of . I found a lot of photos . I found all the photos from all of their cameras .
Oh , did you , Because I did look for yeah , I did look for photos .
Yeah , no , that was super , super interesting , so I would like to offer that as some information to our listeners , I also . It's very macabre , but I'll hold my hands up If there's a photo of a crime scene or something like that . I am all over it . Yeah , I don't know what it is .
It's like this kind of it's like when someone says there's a car accident , don't look , you have to look . Yeah , and I know a lot of people will sort of go , oh no , I don't want to see that , which is fine . But I'm not one of those people . I have to see it , I have to look .
Yeah .
It's like I've got this obsession with seeing death .
I think it's because it's easier to understand when you look at it . So for instance you know when , like somebody's murdered , I need to find out how . How did they actually die ? Explicitly , was their throat cut ? They stabbed in the heart ? You know what actually happened ? Yeah , the real morbid details .
Yeah , and I've been that way since I was a kid , because if my mom had said to me , oh so and so died , I'd be like how , how did they die ?
Yeah , it's weird , isn't it ?
Yeah .
Is it like what you said ? Is it that whole ? You've just got that need to understand .
I don't know , because we was me and Josie was discussing the Jamie Bolger case the other day and Hailey was in the room . We didn't say anything . We just said that these two boys had killed a three year old and she was like , how , how did they kill it Me ? And Josie was like , well , no , we're not going to .
Yeah , not going to go into detail .
Yeah , but , she was she really wanted to know what had happened to him . And from the outside looking in , that's that's weird , isn't it you think ? Why would you want to know those details ? But actually I'm very much the same and I've been very much the same since I was little , like even with a . When my mom cut her finger , it was she was holding .
She'd cut her hand on a piece of glass and she was holding it over like a piece of paper , towel or something over the top , and I was like , let me see , let me see .
Yeah , it's strange , isn't it ? It's like morbid curiosity , isn't it ? It is it . It definitely comes from like yeah , I think you're either sort of born with that urge to to know and to see , and or or you're not , but I've always been like that .
It's like a curiosity as well , isn't it A curiosity and a need to know and a need to understand .
Yeah , and it's , it's very .
I remember me and my sister we worked at the same place and we obviously sort of drove into work together and I remember us driving down the motorway and there had just been a car accident on the other side and you could very clearly see one of the people that had been thrown from the vehicle and there was a big fire and it was absolutely horrendous .
I just remember having this absolute need to see it and to see what happened and to kind of get a good look at it . And it was although I felt really upset by it the fact that of , quite clearly , at least one person had lost their life because you could see them but I couldn't stop looking .
I could not stop looking , you know , and all the traffic obviously had stopped on our side , so we were just sort of sitting right next to it and I just remember just staring , staring , staring at this accident and feeling this whole kind of whirlwind of different emotions .
You know , I felt sad , I felt sort of empathetic to that person's family , I felt sympathy for the other driver that was involved and thought , god , what they must be going through , when they thought they were just on their way to work in the morning and I also felt slightly sort of horrified at myself for wanting to look .
It was like guilt with it as well , you know , because I thought this is .
It's like an infringement of privacy for that person almost Exactly this was the end of someone's life .
And there's me just wanting to get a good look and I felt really guilty about it , but I just couldn't stop looking at it and that vision that I saw will stay with me , you know , probably for the rest of my life . I mean , this was years ago , I was probably only about 20 . But yeah , it's just , and that's always , always stayed with me .
¶ The Morbid Curiosity of True Crime
Yeah , but also , you know , when we watch , like the serial killer documentaries and for instance like the Ted Bundy case , if that documentary had just been , ted Bundy killed first victim and then he went and he killed second victim . He went and killed third victim absolutely would not watch that . That would be boring as anything .
It's that he killed so and so by doing this , yeah , so we're not the only ones ?
No , exactly , and I do think that a lot of people that listen to our podcast have those same sort of wants and needs to . Yeah , the detail .
Yeah , and I know when I'm listening to a podcast , I like to hear the detail . I don't like to . I did listen to one podcast once and they was like oh no , we won't go into detail and you know she died , whatever else , but we're not going to go into detail .
And I was like what I want to know .
That's the bit that I want to hear , though .
Well , you know that's what led me to this was that I found a lot of photos of the Dietloff incident and in them I found the funeral photos and , surprisingly enough , they had open coffins as well .
And it's just , I found myself really looking at those photos and thinking that's , I don't know , I don't , I'd say that's interesting or that's creepy , or but it isn't . I just I don't know what it is , but I just found this compulsion to stare at these pictures and to look at them .
But I would be more than happy to share some of the stuff that I found in a future episode , go into it a little bit more and maybe share some of the . I've got their sort of autopsy reports and things like that .
I would be happy to read through those and just explain exactly what the injuries were , because there were some injuries on there that I didn't include in or I didn't know about , so I didn't .
Oh really .
Yeah , and some of the injuries in there , like burn marks , oh Like there's strange burn marks and certain marks like on the back of their necks and things like that , and it's like , well , that could send like our sort of investigation in a whole different direction , you know .
So , yeah , let us know what you think , guys , and if you want me to cover it in more depth , maybe we'll just talk about certain things like the actual death and the actual injuries and things like that . Yeah , let me know because I was enthralled by it . But I was also really quiet for the rest of the day .
I was like you , all right , I was like mm yeah .
But going back to the fact that you said you needed to , you know you looked at the crime scene photos and the injuries and whatever else . We was watching Crocodile Hunter , isaac lights to watch the like the series like that . There's another series that we've been watching that's finished .
They was trying to find another series like that and I said , josie , why don't you just go on YouTube and watch the crocodile hunter , the Steve Irwin ones ? And so then it got into a conversation about how did Steve Irwin die ? And funny .
You should say this because I was literally looking at this three days ago , Really .
So this was yesterday , I think . And then and Joseph said oh , he was feeling a documentary when when he died , and that you can actually watch the footage . So I immediately went on to YouTube to see if I could find the footage of him dying , and that's incredibly morbid , but I didn't even hesitate . She was like oh , you can watch the footage .
And I was like right , I couldn't find the footage .
But then I started reading the information about how he died . The footage doesn't exist anymore . It's been deleted .
Yeah , that's what I read , and I read about the fact that they got rid of the footage , but then I read about the actual damage that was done to him and done to his heart , and I read a lot of detail about it and I just kind of spiralled , yeah you go down that rabbit hole and you just you can't get out .
But did you find that you were in like the same kind of mood afterwards , or did it put you in a bit of a different headspace ? Or because I find that it does put me in a different headspace , I tend to go very sort of within myself because I'm thinking it all over . And yeah , I'm even like imagining it .
Even like I said three days ago when I was looking into Steve Irwin's death and I was doing the same , I was visualising , you know why would , why would they have ? And it was just one thing that someone said they said out of respect to the family and to the fact that he was , he had this very brave sort of image and persona to the rest of the world .
And just that one little comment made me think why did he come across as scared in the footage then ? Why would you say like we deleted it because he had this very brave sort of image to the rest , to the whole world ? And I it made me sad because I thought , yeah , was he coming across as scared then ?
You know , you put your mind at rest , because what I read was that he was incredibly calm . When they dragged him out and he was bleeding everywhere and stuff they in the boat back , he was incredibly calm and he knew that he was dying . Um , I can't remember what his last words were . I did read them , but I think what his wife said .
His wife actually said that Steve Irwin had wanted his death to be it , always hoped that his death would be recorded oh really , or people to say yeah , but she felt that she didn't want it to be shown . So , it was her decision not to and to destroy the tapes .
Yeah , I mean once it's out there on the internet . It's out there , isn't it ?
Like me and you , we're out there and that's what you know . I think if that video was out there , people would remember that more than remembering his other videos and what he's actually famous for and stuff . So I think that was why they decided not to do it .
Yes , it's sad , isn't it ? Because that happens , that happens a lot where people or certain people are remembered .
Well , look at Sinead O'Connor For the wrong thing . Yeah , she's going to be remembered for this , for her death and not particularly her life .
Yeah , no , it is . And even with a lot of these serial killers , it's the serial killer that we remember , not the victims Not the victims , and it's really wrong , isn't it ? You wouldn't want that serial killer that killed one of your loved ones to be the name that everyone knows .
Well , that's why they're infamous , isn't it ? Because it's like you're famous for the wrong reason , you're infamous . But yeah , I think that I mean , we didn't really know which way this was going to go when we started recording , but I think that's a really good topic to discuss , isn't it ?
The fact that morbid curiosity , yeah , I'll be open and honest . I don't think there's any limits to what I would want to look at . I'm not saying it would bring me any good . It doesn't , but I'll be open and honest . It's just us guys , just me , sarah , and our trusted , loved listeners . So I think we all feel the same , don't we ?
We've got this morbid , sick , twisted curiosity that just needs to be satiated sometimes , and you know we go about it in a safe manner , Whereas other people go about it in a way that enable us to tell the stories . I'll be honest with you . I don't know what my limits are . I don't know .
You're pushed in the wrong direction .
I've also got a bit of a hero complex as well . I think I want to be the hero . I want to be a hero . Do you know what I mean ?
You was a hero to that little lamb that you saved . I think he's a hero . Yeah , you were absolutely that hero .
Yeah , I like it . I think I would like well , I don't know if I'd like to think I would lay money on the fact that if I saw someone in trouble , like potentially getting killed or anything , I'd be right over there . I would want to be in the right place at the right time . I would want to be there for someone .
If I saw someone being attacked or something like that , I would hope that I could be in the right place at the right time and be like , oh , save you . But I'd probably end up dying that way .
Yeah , things don't generally work out how we plan them in our heads , do they ?
No , but I always think that as well when I go somewhere and it's like this time last year , someone was attacked in this place or someone was attacked and killed , and that , and I think if only I'd been here . Whatever , it was like a year ago .
If only I'd been there , I'd have stopped that . I'd have stopped them . Earthquake kills 10,000 people . If only I'd been there . If only I'd been here , I'd have been ready to my superpower .
Exactly . Maybe that's both linked together .
Maybe the fact that you want to be ready . If you're in a situation where you need to be a hero , you'll be ready .
Yeah , I think it's all linked . The chances of me being in the right place at the right time for someone is very slim , because I very rarely will leave the house Unless I have to go to work .
So unless someone gets in trouble , on your doorstep and it shows on your ring doorbell Exactly Going outside .
And even then my ring doorbell goes off . Nothing , Probably just the wind , and if someone banging on your door like quick , get out of there .
Someone outside going help .
I'm inside going . That's probably a squirrel .
I'm not , I'm not getting up , Silly me pajamas .
Exactly . I'll spend 90% of my life in pajamas .
Do you hate ?
don't wear pajamas anyways , If you're in the house , though , and like you know that you're not going out that day , I put cut point on . Yeah , put yeah .
I don't put jammies on , I put confies on . So just jog your bottoms in a big old t-shirt .
Yeah , that's probably more accurate . I mean , I don't really have jammies .
Yeah , so I don't sleep in shorts and t-shirt , yeah . Oh , that's jammies then .
Comfy , yeah , but yeah . So I've got like certain shorts that I sleep in and certain t-shirts that I sleep in , but sometimes if I get up and I think I've got to go out today , then I'll just stay in that and then I go up and have a shower and then put clean shorts and t-shirt on .
Yeah , because you can't have a shower and then put the same stuff back on . No .
¶ Discussion and Updates for BLAM Episode
That was our first BLAM episode , blam discussion . In our next one we will be discussing the Girl With no Name . We've got some bits to go over , just some bits that weren't included in the original episode and some bits we've found out since , some listener information as well for the episode and just some random stuff that we'll include .
Some random BLAMs , random BLAMs , and if you've got anything you want us to discuss or a topic of discussion , let us know .
Yeah , also , if you want to be in any of the BLAM episodes and have discussion , jim , I'm looking at you . That would be cool as well . Yeah , any suggestions ?
BLAM them into us . Yeah , get in touch , email , instagram , whatever else , but don't forget , this is this first episode is for all of you listeners , but to get the next one you do need to subscribe to our podcast . Yes , the link is in the description . It is .
And if any of you guys , or all of you guys , are on our YouTube channel , please subscribe , because in order for us to grow our YouTube channel , we need more subscribers . That is all , thank you . Why is it that when people do this , you look like Planet of the Apes . I don't . You look like a who from Whoville . Maybe I'm doing it wrong .
Mine doesn't look the same as yours . You're holding your lip in . What are you doing ?
Look . I mean it changes the shape of your face . It's not a great look . It's not the same . It looks like I'm from Planet of the Apes and you're from Whoville .
I don't know what's going on . I enjoyed that yeah .