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Ah coom look alike to me.
I'm Katie and I'm Eves, And today's story starts with regret.
Oh, so we're gonna go d with this one? Should I grab some tissues?
I mean, a little bit of soul searching and accountability is required to write this rut.
So okay, I'm ready, I'm ready.
So you know, we talked in a previous episode about how art making really forces us to try in public, and sometimes we're happy with the outcome of that process, but sometimes we don't love what comes out of the other end. Sometimes we want to stuff it in the back of a dark drawer, or bury it under ten feet of dense Georgia clay, or better yet, pretend like it never even existed. But because we can't turn back the clock, we are forced to live with our regret.
So rather than treat the shameful work like a beautiful baby that we birthed into a harsh, harsh world, might choose to disown it instead treat it like in a strange child.
You know that sounds dramatic, but it is kind of that serious folks will put a lot of time and effort into some of their creations and then be ashamed of them or whish they never created them in the first place.
Are you speaking from experience, Katie? Are you the folks you speak of?
I'm not too proud of it that there's no work or too or several in my past that I wish would have never seen the law to day for real?
And which ones are those?
Uh?
You ain't gonna ask me the question, would you care to tell everyone about your most embarrassing pieces?
Nah? Honestly not.
I think I'm good exactly.
You know.
It could be cathartic, though, And the thing is we're not alone in our artistic regret. There are plenty of people who have put things out for eyes and ears and hearts and minds to enjoy and then poop poot them later.
Yeah, And it's not always about poor judgment or bad are either. It can be way more complicated than that.
For sure. And it could just be that we get older in our perspectives shift.
Or it could be that whatever message we are trying to convey no longer says right with us.
Or it could be that the quality of the art doesn't hold up to our current standard.
Or maybe we worked with the collaborator who's no longer our favorite person.
You get it. The reasons abound, but regret can hit a little differently when you're a black artist. From the jump in our art in storytelling, we can be forced into certain roles, expected to act certain ways and talk about certain things. We're stereotyped and we're type cast. We've taken opportunities when we were hard up and jobbed. We're few and far between, and we say and we say, you felt that one, didn't you? I know that I
need and you are not alone in that. And we say things about race before our thoughts have fully matured or evolved. We stared down our own internalized racism.
We're human, We make mistakes, we grow, we change our minds period.
And does that get even more complicated when you're dealing with societies that have lots of hang ups around race, Ones that love and hate to talk about race at the same damn time. Ones We're feelings about blackness and black people change on a dime, And sometimes we regret work that did not age well in the race Department, And that can be a heavy pill to swallow, because a law can we carry the burden of race on
our shoulders. We ain't even have nothing to do with this construction in the first place, But that regret can feel pretty icky. But after that feeling has settled in and we've come to terms with the fact that we've done something we're not fully rocking with anymore, we get the chance to choose how we're going to reckon with our regret. And this is where we get to the story of Ernest Hogan.
Part one, Ernest's Regret, Ernest Hegan.
You remember that song that we heard up top. That's the song that Ernest Hogan, a black man born just a couple of months before Juneteenth in eighteen sixty five, composed and wrote. But we'll come back to that song later. So Ernest Hogan was born with the name Ernest Rubin Crotis Junior, but he later started using the last name Hogan for reasons that remained mysterious. One of many guesses is that he took the name Hogan to capitalize on
the popularity of Irish performers at the time. But whether that's true or not, and beyond if it was that his clever marketing skills. Hogan was a man of many talents. His work in the entertainment business began when he was just a child. He was in the circus and traveling minstrual troops. He acted in performances of Uncle Tom's Cabin, and eventually he moved on to vaudeville acts. Hogan busted his chops on the stage, making it big with his performance.
Proless okay quick break for definitions. Miss shows were performance in the eighteen hundreds where white actors in blackface would be caricatures of black people in comedic sketches, or so they thought were funny, and was the case with Hogan. There were also black minstrel performers in groups who were also in blackface. So by the beginning of the twentieth century, mister shows were not as popular as they were in
the eighteen hundreds. And as you said, Bauville took that spotlight instead, and those shows contained a bunch of different acts like magic, comedy, dancing, singing. They was doing a lot.
True true, Thank you for that breakdown, Katie, So Hogan, he had a lot of acclaim and the money followed too. In nineteen oh one, he was reportedly one of the highest paid Black Vautville entertainers of his time. So by the end of the eighteen hundreds, Hogan had done his laps around the business. He'd already made a noteworthy impact on stage performance in the United States. But another field
where he made his name was music. As authors Lynn Abbott and Doug Saroff put it in the book Out of Sight, The Rise of African American Popular Music eighteen eighty nine to eighteen ninety five, quote Ernest Hogan was a conspicuous player in RAGTIME's initial commercial inscendency end quote. In fact, he was called the father of ragtime during his life. The people recognized Hogan's hand in the birth and the success of the musical genre, even though its
origins preceded his published works. In it, ragtime music is usually performed on the piano. Think of this. Hogan published Lapa malaw in eighteen ninety five and called it a rag The song even had a dance to go with it. The lyrics went like this, hand upon your head, let your mind roll far back back back and look at the stars. Stand up rightly, dance it brightly. That's the pass ma law ay sounds familiar.
I could think of a few songs from the early they used a similar formula.
Because we were in the cafeteria dancing to their tailors.
Girl.
It was an era, but yes, lapal Mala was a hit. Still, it didn't create quite the buzz that the song Hogan released the next year.
Did.
Let me guess that's the song we heard at the beginning of this episode.
Hmm, exactly. So we'll get into it after the break and we're back and we're coming in hot with coon songs sounds like my kind of diddy. I stop playing. We are being serious here, Okay, okay, I'm trying to give the people a history.
I I'll buy note.
So, coon songs were kind of like minstrel shows in music form. They featured stereotypes of black people, and in the eighteen nineties these songs were set to ragtime music and ooh Katie. So called coon songs had a moment. White folks ate these songs up the black dialect, the positioning of black folks as inferior, black life being the butt of the joke, all wrapped up in the neat package of a jolly little tune that can be enjoyed
on a sunny Southern morning. Most cone songs were composed by white people, but many were created by black folks, and these songs were super popular in the late nineteenth century and into the early twentieth The sheet music sold really well, allowing white folks to perform the songs themselves and to ingest and reproduce the stereotypes portrayed in them. Of course, black folks had a lot of feelings about coon songs. They perpetuated negative caricatures of Black people, and
they reinforced racism. White folks sung these syrupy, lively songs, happily pleased to say words out loud that disparaged black folks. Black and white people were so called coon shouters aka singers of these songs, but white women got the most notoriety from singing these numbers. Some black critics and musicians rejected kum songs as harmful and crude. Others acknowledged how they were crafted and performed skillfully about black entertainers, and
that they had gained popularity worldwide. So these songs gave black entertainers opportunities, and they were testaments to their musical skill. But what what was the cost of that.
It just shows that we'd be talking about the same stuff over and over, like has there been a new conversation, because it really reminds me of like, do you remember when Shotty low Ipraphy he was trying to have a reality TV show called All My Baby Mamas.
I don't remember that. That sounds like parody, and I don't remember that.
Nigga's a protested why people were mad. They're like, oh my god, this is like showing stereotypes. Dad da da da okay, And like five years later, here come the Duggers with all twenty million of their kids and they sexually assault on folks and stuff. White people were like, let them cook, but like Black people were like, oh,
this is like so bad. It seems like it's an example of that in every art form, like whether it's reality TV, which we can like argue the merits of its artfulness, but even like urban fiction that first of.
All, urban fiction held us down throughout the middle school years.
Oh my god, we was passing in books site. But like during Bill Cutton's campaign he went after urban fiction, talking about Sister Soldia in particular.
I don't remember that.
It's like do I think, like, as you said, white people should be getting like rich off of singing coon songs. No, but like should black people maybe.
Yeah, which also I mean there's a whole layer of respectability of politics that's involved in it.
Yeah.
Us wanted to look good in front of massive Essentially how we choose to express ourselves out in public being something that's highly policed by us ourselves, and here in returns the internalized racism.
But I mean, when you're when you've been police for so long, you can take the police away because there's a cop that lives in your head exactly.
It's subsumed as part of you now. And of course, like I don't want to minimize that, because these are questions that we should be asking. It's just that so frequently we turn to this more so authoritative or definitive way of looking at it rather than Okay, let's sit down and think about the nuances of this should we be doing or should we not? And I think that also comes down to the conversations that we should be having in public, and that conversations that should be happening
in private. But these coon songs are already something that are so widely disseminated that they have their own gravity at that point. So I can see how much turmoil that causes in us collectively and individually because they've taken on this life of their own. And it's like it's so many things, because there's also the layer of us choosing to and wanting to share our work beyond ourselves and not being able to control how other people use it.
I think it has a lot to do with shame too. I'm trying to be empathetic for the people who are like, we need to like not do this anymore, because I'm trying to think, has there been an occasion where I heard some piece of music or a movie or something where I'm like, this should not be allowed And I can't really think of one because there's just so many
people in the world. It's like some people can do this coon shit, and some people can do like more like you know, things that I would want to listen to or watch or read. Stereotypes have truth in them, so like if you're ashamed that you like watermelon, it's a reflection.
Is what you're saying.
You know, It's like okay, like eat your watermelon, It's okay. But I think it's like that shame and like that respectability that you talked about, Like, oh, like, we can't do this thing because it's perceived this way, even if it's not a bad thing. So yeah, I'm trying to be empathetic for the people who were kind of cool on the coon songs and like trying to shut them down.
Yeah, we know that a black man composed and wrote this, Like, now what do we do with it? Which I don't know still hasn't been answered, but.
It sounds like Ernest Hogan had some thoughts.
He did he did, So now we've arrived at the song the object of Hogan's regret, all coons look alike to me subtitled A Darky Misunderstanding. First of all, I love that subtitle.
Ray He's like, in case she did not understand.
All coons look alike to me, I've got love the ball.
So to some up the story of the song, the narrator, who's a black man, has a significant other named Lucy, but she's not worried about him because she got a new man who treats her even better. Plus, all coons black men look the same to her anyway, so it doesn't even matter which one she chooses. The narrator, on the other hand, has not moved on. He doesn't understand her change of heart, and he's hurt by what she said.
Rightfully so, Hogan died of tuberculosis in nineteen oh nine, but of course the impact of his work and so called Coon song in general lived on. Let me be clear, I am not interested in belittling his accomplishments in stage work are pioneer status in ragtime, But I am interested in Hogan's feelings about all coons look alike to me
after he released it to the world. In the book One hundred Years of the Negro in show Business by fellow Black vaudeville entertainer Tom Fletcher, Fletcher talks about a conversation that he had with Hogan. According to Fletcher, Hogan said that the word kon was controversial, sure, but it made him money at a time when making money was hard, and it put some money in many other entertainer's pockets too, And he said it injected more life into show business.
He pointed out how people went on to do their own versions of the song without the word koon. I put it on, and he acknowledged the musicians who played Ragtime in back rooms, but never published their work. His Ragtime Songs controversy over the content, notwithstanding documented a history that could have been lost or at least fallen by the wayside, had he not produced them. Fletcher paraphrased Hogan in the book quote, with nothing but time on my hands. Now,
I often wonder if I was right or wrong. So the thing that my mind is really pondering is the fact that his name followed the recording everywhere, Like everything you see in On, no matter who's sang it is like this was composed by Ernest Hogan. So there were many others who sang it, but we knew who it was attributed to, and he just can't escape that reputation.
No matter what context is being presented in. Even if there is conversation around the complexity of his legacy, the issue with it being a Kon song and the word Kon and the context of it all is still the starting point of that conversation. Today, I feel a way even talking about him now because it's like, yes, I still get to talk about him, his very important legacy, all that he accomplished, But the starting point of this conversation is still about that work and the regret.
Yeah, he's probably like rolling around his grave that we're talking about him like this, right hery is I got wrote other shit took.
Another example of this kind of race related regret that falls on the shoulders of black storytellers is Octavia Butler's novel Survivor.
Part two Octavia is Regret.
Survivor was published in nineteen seventy eight is part of her Patterness series, which also includes the books Pattern master Mind of My Mind while Seed and Clay's Arc, but Survivor wasn't included in the series its compilation Seet to Harvest that was published in two thousand and seven. That's because Butler didn't want anything to do with Survivor after it was released. Survivor is set on another planet. The book revolves around Alana, who was adopted by the Missionaries.
The Missionaries are a group of Christian humans who left Earth due to the threat of the Clay Arc plague. The native inhabitants of the planet, the Cone, have fur and can change colors, but they are relatively human like. Their social roles are determined by their fur color, and there are rival tribes of Cone on the planet and Alana ends up having to negotiate her way between the missionaries and the two tribes in order to help save
the missionaries. Of course, folks have different feelings about the book. There are readers that have recognized its merits and its flaws. They've respected Butler's wish for it never to be reprinted, and also said that it deserves a reprint. But regardless of the criticism and pray, Butler did not like the novel. She expressed this feeling in multiple interviews. In nineteen ninety, Randall Keenan interviewed Octavia Butler over the phone for the
journal Kalalou. One of the things that I was most embarrassed about in my novel Survivor is my human characters going off to another planet and finding other people they could immediately start having children with. Later, I thought, oh, well, you can't really erase embarrassing early work, but you don't have to repeat it. Octavia didn't erase it, but she did make sure it wasn't disseminated much more widely than it already was. She thought that the book wasn't finished
yet when she sold it to Double Day. She even said at one point that she sold it because she needed money to travel to do research for her other work, a little book you might have heard of called Kindred. She clearly wasn't proud of Survivor's treatment of race and species. This is what she said in an interview with Teresa Lyttleton for Amazon. When I was young, a lot of people wrote about going to another world and finding either little green men or little brown men, and they were
always less in some way. They were a little sly or a little like the natives in a very bad old movie. And I thought, no way, apart from all these human beings populating the galaxy, this is really offensive garbage. People ask me why I don't like Survivor, my third novel, and it's because it feels a little bit like that some humans go up to another world and immediately begin meeting with the aliens and having children with them. I
think of it as my star Trek novel. Making art is hard, and we can be our own worst critics, and Butler did her fair share of publicly and privately disavowing the book and asking people not to read it, but it lives on. In an essay based on a talk that she gave in twenty eleven, writer and activist Alexis Pauline says about the novel, definitively, we need it, and I've seen that sentiment also said by other people
who have commented on the work. Octavia's regret was so deep that she didn't want the work to be reproduced anymore. This self censorship is pretty much the opposite of what happened with Hogan's song, which made its way onto sheet music prints and into the mouths of plenty of performers across time and space. Butler wanted no more witnesses, wanted
the story of Survivor to end there. But despite her disdain and reasons for disliking the novel, many of the people who did read it responded with consideration and thoughtfulness. We're going to make work we don't love, and we can't control how people receive it. Both Hogan and Butler's stories feel like exercises in letting go, but from opposite ends of a spectrum.
I wonder if the afterlife of these works deal with the amount of autonomy like Octavia Butler had as opposed to Ernest Hogan, they lived in different times and spaces, and I mean by that point she was a well known writer, and we you know, had gained significantly more rights at that point, so she was able to censor it to a certain extent. But like you said, Hogan's just went on and despite him like, hey, I don't
like this song anymore. It's also very like comforting to know that someone like as talented as Octavia Butler was like, I was just doing this for check so I could do the thing I really wanted to do, And it sounds like she knew was like, Okay, these are the books that were popular when I was a kid, Like, let me just write one because I know it'll sell. And I guess not really thinking too far into the future of like, oh, like then I won't want people to read it, though.
But I wonder how much of that processing was happening while she was writing it versus once it's published, because at that point she had an opportunity to see how people did respond to it. And it's one of those things too, where you can't control how people receive it. But I think that in this case, there is a lot of ambiguity, way more ambiguity in her work than
there was in Hogan's. Like the conversation around race colonialism, captivity, all of the things that come up in this work, and so so many more.
It is, like, I think, easier to misinterpret.
I think in the case of Octavia Butler's work is more of a situation where the more you think about it, the more many different ways you can flip it. Because it's a plot, it's in its own genre, and there are so many ways you can take it. Versus Ernest Hogan's song was like a very straightforward plot. If we think of it in terms of storytelling, it's not that hard to follow versus how we can you can choose to take one way down the road versus another way
down the road. When we think about things in Octavia Butler's.
Novel, right, I think people will misinterpret things all the time, or like ascribe certain metaphors or meanings when there really isn't any. But I think when that happens, and it's like on the positive side, the author will be like, yee.
Ye, I thought, was it that sound good enough? Regret HiT's different. In the Internet age, stuff lives on and it's not ever going away. We have scream shots, ar coved web pages, secret recordings, all kinds of receipts, so it's easy for us to be reminded of our regrets.
I think with the Internet, the regrets cycle is probably much quicker, just because once you put something out there, there are you know, blogs that can like write something about it, there's people on social media who can comment, and you see it in real time, like it gets flashed on your phone. You see the person like you can basically see the person typing it out with the little dots like oh this sucks or whatever, or oh like this is so problematic or whatever the case may be.
And then you know, depending on how big your audiences, that criticism might be on like the front pages of New York Times, you'd.
Be like, oh damn.
But that being said, I think the regret is probably more instantaneous because of the Internet. But I don't know if the artist expresses that regret because I feel like people be like very defensive.
So this makes me think of Viola Davis in the twenty eleven movie The Help, which is based on a novel of the same name by a white woman named Catherine Stockett.
Part three, Viola's Regret.
Go and google Viola Davis The Help, and you'll find plenty of articles written over several years talking about how she has misgivings about the story and taking the role.
Yeah, and if you haven't read or watched The Help, I'll sum it up for you. The story said in nineteen sixties Mississippi. In it, a white woman named Skeeter collects the stories of black domestic workers for a book that she's writing. The workers are treated poorly, and part of Skeeter's mission is to expose this treatment. Once she gets enough of the workers to open up, she finishes the book, publishes it anonymously, and gives the profits to
the workers. Yola Davis plays Abilene Clark. Her character is the film's narrator and a nanny who raises a white socialized child. In the end, she leaves her job and decides to become a writer.
No one that ever asks me what it feels like to be me. Once I told the truth about that, I felt free.
The movie was criticized for its white saviorism and its forefronting of the white characters versus the black one that the plot was actually focused on. In an interview with Vanity Fair Viola, Davis talked about the conflicting feelings that she had about the help. She felt like, quote, it wasn't the voices of the maids that were heard.
Playing a maid in twenty and eleven, and you know my Hattie McDaniel and Butterfly McQueen. It was like, that was just so a part of how I saw it. I saw stereotype, and I didn't want to put that out there. I didn't want to be kind of blasted by the African American community, especially to be totally honest, but there is no way that you can read this book and look at the script, and even look at this movie and say that anyone was a stereotype.
In that interview, you can hear her really wrestling with so many things, the history of black women in film playing stereotypical roles, her admiration for black actors who came before her, like Hattie McDaniel and Butterfly me queen, her desire to play characters that are a round and complicated, her hesitance to play a character that could be viewed as tasteless or flat, her fear about receiving negative criticism from black audience members, and her desire to take roles
that are meaningful, challenging, and worthy. Of her time in legacy. She clearly wanted to make good art be part of a story that was told.
Well.
Yeah, And in that last part where she talks about how the characters are not stereotypes in the book, it takes you back to Hogan's regret, how there were definitely stereotypes in Hogan's music and Coon songs in general, but he recognized that the situation wasn't so black and white. But at the same time, it was like they felt the way of the race on their shoulders. They felt some sort of responsibility for representing the race well, being
good black stewards, not disappointing the Black delegation. Davis even said in a twenty eighteen New York Times interview, the responsibility of feeling like I am the great black female hope for women of color has been a real professional challenge. Being that role model and picking up that baton when you're struggling in your own life has been difficult.
I really wish that we could release this weight for real.
This predicament does also make me think, though, of the difference between regretting your own work versus regretting being in a part of someone else's. What do you mean by that, Like, I feel like it probably hits different for Viola Davis to be in like these white people's movie portraying the stereotype.
Like maybe if you wrote it and you're like, okay, that was like in bad taste, or like I didn't know enough and it was my thing and you can kind of take full ownership over it, versus like I was low key just like a pod and I'm embarrassed now and you feel all this weight for like disappointing Black people are not like portraying black people how you wanted to or you think we should be portrayed, and he was just like an employee.
Yeah. I can't speak for a Viola Davis, but I would imagine that's probably a different kind of shame. I guess if shame would be the word to use, because I guess the decision making was different. When you're writing your own work or creating your own work, then you're able to make those decisions at every step of the way. But when you're stepping into something that has been fully formed already and you're just one piece of the puzzle in the entire ty of the image, then I can see what you mean.
Yeah, I mean, I don't know, have you heard of that movie called The Best of Enemies? So Taraji p Hinson is in it, and people kind of had the same criticism. So it's like about this black woman who befriends uh Kukuks clan member and they like form this like unlikely duo.
First of all, I'm not you're making this sound like a buddy comedy.
And try out.
The way that the black woman that Taraji p Hinson is playing and Atwater is portrayed is just like this a you know, like there's no depth. She's just like there as like a placeholder when she was like a whole civil rights activist. But like when people pointed that out to Taraji, she was very like defensive about it,
like she didn't publicly she didn't get it. So I mean, I think kudos to Viola Davis for like publicly saying like I wouldn't do this again, and like people be thinking like actors are super rich and they can like turn down any job. That is not the case for
a lot of people. And I think especially for Viola Davis back in twenty eleven, like now she's noticed this like huge actress, but like going back in the time Machine, Like did she feel empowered to be like, no, I'm not going to take this, Like I'm good financially without this role.
Yeah.
And one thing that just came up for me is how I think, from the outside looking in this, what Viola Davis did and also going back to Hogan, what
he did can feel like very safe bets. Like I think if somebody looking at the help would be like, that's a very safe role of you to take, and at the same time, it's like also not a safe role to take, because Viola Davis herself knowledged how difficult it could be for her to take this because she knew all of the context of the role, all the trappings that a role like that could come with, and
the backlash that she could receive for it. And it was the same for Hogan because it was a very safe thing to do because minstrel cy was already very popular thing. Yeah, and he knew that in creating this song he could have a hit that many people enjoyed. So it was like a balance between safety and risk that they were teetering on this tight rope across a canyon. Okay, imagery.
I also think like about the popularity of certain things, like how does that impact her regret? Because The Help was a very popular movie. It was a very popular buck and became a very popular movie. And it's like if you just did like an indie film, then I many people saw, but it was the same thing. Would you still feel that regret or like, are you feeling that regret because of it's like the echo chamber of people like commenting on it and like more people can see you doing this thing.
I think echo chamber is a perfect way to put it, because I think it's an amplification of that feeling most likely because if I have a feeling that's personal, I know how that feels in my body and how to handle it. But when that feeling is exacerbated because I have a bunch of other people basically affirming that feeling, I would imagine it's a lot bigger. And especially when you're a person who's as big as Viola Davis is in a movie as big as The Help is, So
can't feel good. And another thing that I will say about that too, speaking of amplification, is that it wasn't just once that she addressed it or that people asked her about it, right I wonder what it was like for her to say that out loud repeatedly.
I think it's also freeing, like as a up and coming actor who may like really look up to Viola Davis like see her doing that too, Yeah, because it could be, you know, what someone needs to hear so that they don't get into a role that they suspect they might regret later, or also like, Okay, I did this thing that I regret. It's not the end of the world. I can like build upon my body of work and like that's not the thing that I'm truly like known for.
I love that you said that, because I don't think there's an answer to this question that we've posed around what does regret look like in public? For black people who are facing race related regret in their work, It's something that has to be worked through in every single instance, and clearly, like seeing other people talk about it out loud in the way that they process it can be something that's helpful for other people. And I don't know
if we can put that in a neat little bow. Yeah, you know, these aren't the last times that this is going to happen, Absolutely not, because can't be expected to be perfect or to know everything about race. When we create work and we're trying to do it authentically and fearlessly and lovingly, then things aren't always gonna come out right true.
I regret this episode.
But seriously, we might even regret it a little bit more now because we convince someone to sing all coons look alike to me? Talk about a COONa having trouble. I think I have enough fumone.
It's all about my Lucy Jenny's stubble, and she has caused my heart. Mon, there's another COONa Baba from Virginia in society.
He's the leader of the day.
And now my honey, Galla's going to quit me. Yes, she's gone andrew a this coon away.
She's no excuse to turn me loose.
I've been abused.
Now I'm all confused because these words She then did say, Well.
All coons look alike to me.
I've gotten lother ball, you see, And he's just as good to me as you Nick ever tried to be. He spends his money efree, I know we can agree, So I don't like you know how all coons look alike to me?
The person you just heard singing that song was Coley Gilchrist, and I couldn't let her leave without talking to her about her experience of singing all coons look alike?
To me?
What kind of emotions come up in you when you think about Ernest Hogan being a black man writing this for white audiences.
It was off putting and it kind of felt a bit like, you know, I was almost judging him and thinking he was a bit of a traitor for just saying those things about the black community and painting us in this picture. And although it was kind of used at black people's expense, he was trying to create a name and probably sustain himself back.
In those times. So how did you feel singing it? Just now?
It was a bit hard to to just get over myself in a sense and to get those words out in the atmosphere and kind of shake off, you know, any feelings I had towards it.
But I think the biggest thing.
That helped me is just putting on that actress kind of facade.
Do you have anything else to add in terms of your feelings about this, I.
Would just say I would love to continue. This has opened my eyes to a person and other people, other writers like him, that I knew nothing about, but I think it's important to continue to be a student as an artist and to learn about basically your ancestors and music.
I think it's really good to continue to do.
Your research and learn, learn as much as you can.
Thank you to Coli Gilchrist for singing all Koons look alike to me. Oh, and stick around through the credits to hear Coli sing the rest of the.
Song all right time for my favorite and only segment of this pot roll credits, Who What? When?
Where?
How would you like to give credit to you?
I like to give credit to braids.
Okay.
I have been wearing my hair in small braids that I've had in for like a month now, I think, and I just love how I don't have to do anything to it. I'm not really thinking about how it looks. I have to put so little energy our thought into it. Braids are so versatile, they're so useful. They're coming in so many different shapes and forms, and I'm thankful for the brads that I have in my hair right now. Shout out to braids.
Okay, I'd like to give credit to old friends. I've had an old friend reach out, so shout out to you, old friend.
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I've got another ball, you see, and he's just as good to me as you.
Nigga ever tried to be. He spends his money EF.
Free, and I know we can agree, So I don't like you, know how all coons look alike to me,