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Okay, once again it's the lady eating berries off a bush in the park alley. Ward. Here we are part two of an episode six years in the making. Go back to part one if you didn't start there, you'll get all the basics. Do one and then you do two in that order. Okay, So we are talking psychopharmacology, neurobiology, psychology, traumatology, and so much more with one of the leading experts
in the field of psychedelics and hallucinogen research. So in part one we learned about the chemical structure of hallucinaeens, what receptors and networks of the brain they work in, and if hallucinations or dreams, neuroplasticity, psychosis risks secret cia shenanigans that killed even one of its closest allies. So much more, and in this episode we're going to talk about how hallucinogens are administered in the safest medical settings,
different strains of mushrooms, decriminalization status, some recent rulings. We'll talk about cultivation dimensions, what's reality, how does one avoid barfing? And so much more. But first, a huge thank you to patrons of ologies who pay one dollar or more a month and submit questions for the show beforehand. These are wall to wall your questions. You can also support ologies by wearing an Ology's shirt or a tote you
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everyone else lives short. Summer's here, cut banks, textra crush, consult a doctor before doing any drugs. Let's get into it, Okay, So this very first question was all about access. Maureen Flood asked how long until we reach the point of being able to prescribe these to patients? Sarah Metsker and Johnny Clark asked what is your professional opinion about legalization?
Kelly Dueling, Gregorious of thomsk Adam T Burns, Emma Scott, and Brennan Hicks all wanted to know about legalization, and Brenna wrote, just to speak, the FDA ruled against MDMA for treatment of PTSD. Do you think this ruling will
affect the outcome of similar studies for shrooms? So let's a your cues about set and setting, decriminalization, stone ape theory, fMRI studies, neurodivergence, astrophysics, how to be a good trip sitter, and my own experience following clinical guidelines for a big trip, and more of your questions with a professor of Psychiatry and Pediatrics at the UCLA School of Medicine and the director of Child and Adolescent Psychiatry at the Harbor UCLA Medcenter,
co editor of the tome The Handbook of Medical Hallucinogens, and psychedeliologist doctor Charles grow. A lot of people wanted to know about access. People wanted to know, what's your opinion on legalizing all hallucinogetic mushrooms? How do you feel about Oregon recently legalizing it? Where are we at with it? If someone wanted to do this, Like my psychiatrist is like, just get a hold of some I so far I haven't been arrested for talking about it, right right?
I knock what knock? Knock? Well.
Also, this whole situation maybe has changed in the last week, given what we're learning about the MAPS hearing at FDA. It was very, very negative. They were highly critical of MAPS. So well, let's extend over to psilocybin.
I don't know so MAPS side note stands for the Multidisciplinary Association for Psychedelic Studies and it's this nonprofit. It's based in the US, and it focuses on research for MDMA for PTSD, ayahuasca, for addiction in PTSD, medical cannabis, LSD,
and psilocybin for anxiety and depression. And just days before we sat down to record this, an FDA panel rejected research for MDMA aid to therapy for PTSD, which is a huge blow to researchers and psychedeliologists, if you will, And according to this recent New York Times article about it, the panel wasn't convinced that the benefits outweigh the risks in MDMASS therapy, and they cited these potential cardiovascular effects, but also called into question how blinded the methodology is,
given that subjects can usually tell whether they have been given a dud or whether they are chewing their cheeks and rolling on molly in front of a guy in a lab coat. So it was a nine to two vote total bummer and other experts and cheerleaders of this therapy, including some sexual assault survivors who showed up to speak about how revolutionary the therapy was for them, have been pretty disappointed. Now, it should also be noted that the FDA doesn't regulate talk therapy at all, so it's a
tough thing to regulate. It's a tough thing to study. Now, what does this mean for access to hallucinogenic or psychedelic therapies. Now, criminalization varies not only country to country, but state to
state and city to city. Now Oregons do criminalization law went into effect in January twenty twenty three, and Denver has a green light, and California passed some resolutions in Santa Cruz and Berkeley and San Francisco marking psychedelics as the lowest law enforcement priority or like don't worry about it now. Back in twenty nineteen, Oakland passed a similar resolution stating that no city funds or resources can go to the enforcement of laws imposing criminal penalties for the
use and possession of entheogenic plants by adults. So someplaces more loosey goosey than others when it comes to eating sixty million year old fungus that you can pick out of a cow patty if you know what you're doing.
I am very interested in seeing what happens with Oregon. My admonition to them would be be as careful as you can, and pay attention to safety parameters and keep an eye out for ethical improprieties, because that'll bring the whole house down. These are such valuable experiences there, the gifts of the gods. They come to us from the earth, you know, and if use wisely in a proper context, with proper oversight and in moderation, not taking that heroic dose.
Most people, I don't hope people. Most people, whether they experience fairly well with a lot of important knowledge and insight.
It's interesting. If you'd told me when I was in high school that there'd be weed stores everywhere and yoga moms selling teach Sea tinctures, I would not believe it is. So it's interesting to see how much the legalization of marijuana in so many states might pave the way. However, when is like MRC and fies are going to come in and well, in the case of it.
The problem with marijuana legalizing is we now have to also deal with the synthetic cannabinoids we need to deal with. It's kind of the free based product wax.
You know.
I've seen people get quite psychotic, especially young people who were predisposed to manic depressive illness. They would get manic, they get psychotic, and it wasn't was smoking just weed per se.
Now, doctor Grobe said, there's also laboratory synthesized cannabinoid spice. It's called which seems very on the nose, or there are strains treated with a solvent to create a wax, and their strength is often vastly underestimated in case you're looking to elevate your heart rate or have a massive panic attack if you or me. But when it comes to psychedelics, So.
One thing I think that's desperately needed in Colorado and Oregon is good public education is going to be open to the public. There are going to be a lot of people who don't know much of anything about this. They need knowledge, they need to be instructed. Ideally, you would have legally sanctioned centers to facilitate psychedelic experience in the presence of trained and certified facilitators.
Right. Josie Rutherford and Jasmine Leo wanted to know about potential negative effects like remembered trauma falsely or truthfully remembered, and Brooklyn Baron, Laura Wood, April Carter, and Julia Lorraine asked, in Julia's words, I'm so excited for this, Okay, can you ask theologists about the incidents of psychosis induced by psilocybin and also if there are ways to prevent it.
Some folks wanted to know, how would one know before if they embark on this, if they would be prone to psychosis or prone to.
Well, are you at high risk?
Well, you look at your own history, were there any preceding episodes where reality testing was in question? Or what about your biological family history, your biological genetic history. If it's loaded with people with bipolar disorder, there I believe is significant risk. Now that they may weather it just fine, but they're at higher risk than the next person who did not have such a history in his or her family.
And if you're looking for someone to evaluate if this might be a good option for you, how does one go about that? Now? Some patrons Jasmine Alexandra and Jelica Stanley Eva Jisova and Kate Munker and Wailo asked if it's safe to self administer, either unaccompanied or with a friendly trip sitter, or are there other researchy means to do it allow? I wanted to know where can you find a trained medical doctor or clinical trial to join, Oh God, or a sitter.
Yeah, that's a tough one to answer, because I guess it's legal now in Oregon as far as I'm aware, and it's approaching legality in Colorado. I'm not sure where they are with that process. But outside of those two states, like you you had to play your luck at knock on open, Yeah, you.
Front meet someone in a parking lot.
Walk through the woods.
I saw this great you know Paul Stamitz, the famous ethno mycologist. So I'm going to talk on a great slide of a rural Oregon police station. And it was this expansive front lawn and it was proliferating with with with silicide mushrooms. So how did they get there? Whether it was it the spirits directing the spores to settle down there, or then you have some wise guy kids who thought this would be a lot of fun to do.
Just confiscated mushrooms just for like this is a good O's places. And last week we talked about how CIA operations to use LSD as a truth serum or in warfare disproportionately experimented on people of color, sometimes in cruel and inhumane ways. And in the paper Don't Kill My buzz Man, explaining the criminalization of psychedelic drugs, political scientist Conrad Sprowl of the University of organ explains that in nineteen sixty eight, possession of LSD was banned by the
US federal government. In nineteen seventy there was this Controlled Substances Act that classified LSD and other psychedelics as Schedule IE drugs, signifying that they had no medical potential and the highest possible potential for abuse, and then in nineteen seventy one through the un psychedelics were placed in the
strictest category like above cocaine, alongside heroin. And these bands largely arose from this fallout with MK Ultra discussed in Part one, and this type of moral panic that was counter to the counterculture of the hippie or now boomer generation who were not keen to go fight in wars they did not agree with. They rebelled against that, and
then this moral panic began. And Sprowl continues that no discussion of drugs in the US can be complete without addressing race, which has been entwined with drug rhetoric from the beginning. They write, and that the racialization of the drug problem and the resultant harmed to communities of color has only increased, with non white defendants convicted of drug
crimes at massively disproportionate rates. Sprowl notes and In case you do not live in the United States, let me just remind you that our healthcare systems and our prison systems are for profit. So it does pay to do drugs, but it just pays somebody else.
Well.
Mattzicato and Josie Brutherford, Aaron White, Megan Morgan all had questions. Douche rooms have to be grown in the wild and harvested or can they be farmed as such?
No, they can be cultivated. In fact, the ones who developed the first procedure for this were the McKenna brothers. Yeah, back in the early mid seventies, So just.
A quick side note. Terrence McKenna was this mystic and ethroboticist and after trips to the Amazon, stumbling into this field of psilocybin mushrooms. He worked with his brother to cultivate them using just home DIY equipment, and in nineteen seventy six they first published The Magic Mushroom Grower's Guide, which was this seminal handbook that changed the accessibility to hallucinogens. You could just grow them in the garage, and he
took a lot of trips. He wrote a lot about mind expansion, some theories about time being fractals and the world and time ending in twenty twelve. Unfortunately he was not here to see that it's pretty much the same but worse, as he died of this aggressive rain tumor at the turn of the century in two thousand at the age of fifty three. But Timothy Leary said that he was one of the most important people on the
planet because of Terence McKenna's work in cultivating them. And so I understand that there's like Golden Teacher, and there's penis, and even those are like different strains of mushrooms. Do any of them have an effect? Some people wanted to know, like Megan Morrian wanted to know how are dose is determined.
Well, you know, you like to take a compound where there's some history of people having experience with it. That way you can gauge what the proper dose is. If it's super potent and will trigger a massive reaction that only you know, two grams of mushrooms, you want to
contain the dosing. On the other hand, if they're old and they're kind of stale, yeah, and they've been exposed to the elements and they're not as strong, it may take you have to be careful about this, but it may take a higher dose.
So if you've ever tried to dive into this world and you're like, what's with the golden penis teacher, I'm confused. Let's run it down right quick. So there are different strains of the same species of psilozepin mushroom, and the most common strains are Golden Teacher, which has a slim stock and an umbrella cap. It's said to be more gentle, kind of a more introspective experience. Penis envy is a
very long looking shroom. Clearly it has a thick stock and a little phallic hat and according to one independent lab, the penis envy strain had double the potency of their Golden Emperor, which was a derivative of a Golden Teacher. So different strains can vary. And for Libytamco, who asked to the stocks versus the caps really have a difference
in potency, I've heard the caps are significantly stronger. The research team found that the cap of the Golden Emperor mushroom was more potent than the stem, but it was the inverse for the penis envy strain that had a more powerful shaft. If you will, so tip of the cap to them for studying that and how they're cultivated can also make a difference, apparently. And there was this
thing called this Psychedelic Cup competition. It was held last fall in Denver, of course, and different species and strains were awarded with things like the most enviable or potency, and one microbiologist shared the growing hack that water absorbing packs kind of like what you find at the bottom of like a beef jerky pouch, but bigger can help keep mushrooms more potent as water breaks down psilocybin, noting that blue streaks on your stocks means psilocybin's breaking down
and you've kind of already lost it. What so yes? First time question asker Renee Wanger, who wanted to know is their shelf life and what happens if they go bad? How do they go stale?
Like?
Because I was I was microdosing with some old ones. It didn't feel much. I had a friend, we got some We're very well done. I gave a little bit to a friend again, please nobody arrest me, and she did like a gram and she was like, I was like tripping. She's like, I think these are really strong. Right, where does the potency go?
Yeah, what are the conditions out of jag potency? Or Dave Nichols, who's kind of this eminent medicinal chemists or natural product chemists, maybe the world's leading scientists in this area.
You know, he talks.
If you want to keep them fresh, you keep them in a dark, cool environment. Oh, so that means if you expose them to sunlight, just leave it lying around, and it's maybe the climactic conditions are kind of hot and humid, it's likely going to lose some of its potency.
And in a twenty twenty study stability of psilocybin and its four analogs and the biomass of the psychotropic mushroom Psilicybe cubensis, researchers stashed some shrooms in different conditions and found that after a week things were still pretty fresh. The changes in concentrations were negligible, but after two months and on of storage, nearly all of the alkaloids were reduced, and the bags that fared the best were stored in the dark at around twenty degrees celsius or room temperature.
But don't store them too cold, because fresh mushrooms frozen to negative eighty degree celsius or negative one ten fahrenheit
had the highest degree of chemical staleness, if you will. Also, I learned in this episode that psilocybin mushrooms have been around for about sixty five million years, kind of coinciding with the timeline of the great asteroid that killed the dinos and the KPg boundary layer and the alkaloids that trip us out may have been selected through evolution because of insect or gastropod munchers, but evidence on that is debated.
What is not up for debate is that most people don't want a bad trip or a kaleidoscope of brain terror, and patron Maria Wanman said that they've heard horror stories about getting stuck in a bad trip, and Josie Rutherford, Kanyie, Connie Boboni, Tom Brady, and Kevin Wildermouth asked about the old set and setting meaning mindset and going into a good one and setting as in an environment that feels safe and secure, as well as raina'm Beck. At the
sac seacrast scientists Abby and Maria Wayman. A lot of people also wanted to know about set and setting, but Raina wanted to know what happens during a bad trip or Abby wants to know does a bad first trip mean you're doomed to never have a good trip? Like what is set? And setting?
What I teach?
You know, I'm actually talking on occasion with some of the young psychiatrists at UCLA who are very interested in yes, and I tell them and I'm actually able to demonstrate it once and we did an experimental session with a patient.
If someone starts to get very anxious, very agitated, and somewhat disoriented, like what happened with this a few months ago with a subject, the most helpful thing you can do you get their attention and you say, I know you're having a challenging experience right now, but you need to know this is time limited. That if we just wait for you know, some minutes or maybe a couple of hours, you will return to your normative sense of self. Because the scariest thing in a bad trip is oh
my god, I've done something to myself. I will never be myself again, I will never find myself again. So it's important to dispel that. So we had this subject too was get you know, the model was it was open label, so we knew what they were getting. The first session, he got ten milligrams, as we.
Covered in part one, on a big trip is about twenty five milligrams of straight synthesized standardized psilocybin in pill form, and a microdose, on the other hand, would be maybe three grams. So ten milligrams is between a giant and a tiny dose.
This is a depressed patient.
And a month later he got twenty five. And my junior associates were after the first session, which guy did great, they said, oh, this is this is a snap, but I said, no, wait for session two. Twenty five milligrams is going to be far more challenging, and it certainly was, and so he stood up. He's looking kind of frantic looking around. It looks like he's feeling trapped. And one problem was between where he was sitting and the door I was sitting, so he would have to go over me.
I don't know want that to happened, So I figured time.
For me to talk. So I gave him my wrap and it helped. It's gonna be okay.
You'll see that.
He calmed down, sat down a couple minutes later, big smile, and he said, this is great.
Yes, I can see so much.
You know, someone told me before mine. If you start to get scared, think of it like a sign to go toward that thing.
Way, Yeah, curious, ask it.
If you see something scary, like a monster or something, ask it, what can I learn?
What can I be from encountering you? What can you tell me? What do I need to know?
That's what Ralph Metzner used to teach. He was one of the most esteemed authorities in this area that I've known. He was a great friend. He died in I think twenty eighteen or so. He was a master at guiding people through these experiences and the way if you got into a scary place, don't run away.
That'll just intensify the fear.
Head towards it in a calm, deliberate way, and ask may I have your attention?
And what can I learn? What do you have to teach me?
And then it's remarkable what starts to happen.
Yeah, it's a good allegory for life too. If something starts to intimidate you, it's maybe a sign if you're scared to do something or anxious about something. Looking at that of why am I scared of? This is always good now a lot of you shared the question will I cease being me in the moment or after? Why are they potentially life alterating in beautiful and sometimes dangerous ways, with patrons Luke La Femina asking will it actually make
me unsad? And these changes were also on the mines of Chelsea Wick, Daniel Apdal, Natalie Roussoud, Maria Zuerrevleva Froudi, Mursam, tyson Quist, PAFKA thirty four, Linnen Hung and Carli Delson along with Jadine Lannon wanders to know what is psychedelic induced ego death?
When people talk about what is that, well, ego is our sense of self and on some occasions, particularly early on, particularly with the high dose, people feel that their sense of self is fragmenting and they lose that sense of continuity with who they are and it's felt to be an integral part of the death rebirth process.
And you can see our episodes on panatology and quasi thanatology if you have a lot of existential dread around death. We also have one on quantum montology with an astrophysicist who asks what Israel? And we have a scotohilology one with a dark matter expert. All of those really changed the way I viewed being alive and being dead, as did my trip. But what does a psychedeliologists think of
these aspects? Kurdish Takahashi asked, is there any evidence of hallucinogenic therapy patients discovering connections to a spirit realm and bringing back divine messages for the betterment of humanity? Is there evidence of that? And Animel and jasmin Ley, they both wanted to know a few people asked about dimensions. Animel asked, you, mushroom trips open us up to other dimensions? What even is objective reality?
Oh? Well, well, hopefully one question it too much because we all have to come back to normative consciousness and function. Yeah, so we don't want to get too carried away. And how strange and unusual this is. But you have a little glimmer. You have a period of time, you know, maybe some minutes, maybe some hours where you could look into the other side, and sometimes astonishing things happen, like you're approached by a deceased.
Relative, close relative.
Yeah, maybe one where there was some unfinished business or some questions you needed to ask.
Yeah, has it made you start a question, what is time? Is time even linear?
Like?
I interviewed a quantum montologist who studies what Israel as an astrophysicist, and just about how much we don't know? And does your experience of watching other people and having gone through it yourself, does that make you question how much we know about reality?
Well?
I mean there are some astrophysicists and the like who got their insight while along psychedelics. Kerrie Mullis who invented these genetic screens.
Just to side note, Kerry Mulis is a seventy four year old biochemist who spent a lot of his undergrad hours at Berkeley making LSD in the lab, and he said that his trips were more impactful than any coursework he'd done. What happened to this guy?
Oh?
On LSD he visualized the mechanics of PCR testing and later won a Nobel Prize for it. In real life, that wasn't a trip.
A very prominent individual.
He was on a documentary basically saying I took LSD and that's when I saw this happening. Hmm. It's kind of like the discover of the Benzene ring, a nineteenth century German chemist Keckle who had a dream of a snake, and then the snake bites the tail of another snake, and they keep biting the tails until it's a six sided hexagon.
Physicist Richard Feynman was also said to dabble. I'm sure he was not alone in his field nuts.
So that's interesting. So the physicists, I think they're very engaged with this, and I'm sure some of the more prominent physicist had some first hand experience. It's Stephen Hawking. I don't know, but you never know. I know that
Carl Sagan was quite impacted by psychedelics. His best friend growing up was Lester Grinspoone, a Harvard psychiatrist who wrote a great book called Psychedelic Drugs Reconsidered, published in nineteen eighty, and it was basically a compilation of all the psychedelic research that occurred up to that point. And Lester told me, and he also spoke publicly that his good friend Carl Sagan had had a number of psychedelic experiences which are of great values.
Now that makes sense, that makes sense, and what if your brain is already a little different. Lizzy Booth wanted to know how hallucinogens affect people with ADHD or other neurodivergent people. Mycologist Tony Wildman peregrine, Ava Haisova, rub eating dog hair for a Living Kelly McCain and Aaron Donnie Muller for some question. Asker wanted to know a little
bit as an autistic person. I'm fascinated by how physical difference in the brain structure, such as reduced neural pruning manifest and they say if those brain difference produced different effects and trips. I know you've studied MDMA and autistic people, anything, anything that you observed doing those studies In terms.
Of well, I think we had some success in treating their incapacitating social anxiety. These are adults on the autism spectrum, very bright. A bunch of them had done well academically through high school and then went off to college and completely collapse and couldn't handle really the social scenes. Yeah, the social pressure. So they went home and couldn't get
out of their room. We saw with our patients who received two experiences that they were able to move beyond that incapacitating social anxiety and function, get back out in the world, get degrees, get jobs, It was actually quite impressive, and I think it really tells us that there's a.
It opened me up to the neurodiversity.
Movement that we shouldn't necessarily pathologize right people with autism, that they just have a different style of understanding and of living in the world, and we need to be we need to learn from that.
Yeah, for sure. Yeah, And for more on this, you can see his twenty eighteen paper Reduction in Social Anxiety after MDMA assisted Psychotherapy with autistic Adults, a randomized, double blind, placebo controlled pilot study which found that participants in the MDMA group, which was administered twice during two eight hour sessions, showed a significant improvement on Leebuitz social anxiety scale scores, and it held up or continued to gradually increase even
six months from the trial. Is there any way to study if something changes structurally or chemically in people who trip, Like I imagine putting someone who's tripping on mushrooms in an fMRI machine would be a little bit challenging.
For that would be very challenging.
There's some scary stories about someone kind of getting very anxious asking to be removed from the scanner. Then saying he didn't want to go back in, and getting a lot of pressure from the investigators that he did need to go back in because he would hurt science if he did it, and that that's not the guilt.
Guilt tripped it back in.
But I think that's a very challenging place. You know, you're you hear that clanking noise, you're you're immobilized pretty much. It's very claustrophobic. You know, psychedelics can be challenging under the most optimal condition putting them.
In an MRI scanner. Yeah, it's not an optimal setting.
Terrible. Emily Hebert, Hannah Harram DTL One of One, Caitlin Tindale, Julia s Trevor Ogborn, Josh Jones, Megan Morgan all had nausea or why does it affect my guts or body? In rumbley tumbly ways, Joe Porfido wants to know, not asking for a friend, but the nausea. I will sometimes consume with food and I think it helps. And Bethany b had a culinary query asking can certain foods or drinks eating them during a prior affect the way the
experience goes. People asked about out why does pelocybin make people nauseated? And why does acid like something acidic change how it affects you.
Yeah, yeah, I really haven't observed a lot that much in the way of GI symptoms people who've taken psilocybin. I've had subjects tell me that taking the synthetic psilocybin felt like a cleaner experience, like guess intestinal wise than eating a mushroom.
Oh interesting.
Yeah.
Where I hear much more about a GI effects is ayahuasca.
Oh God, I have friends that have done that.
That's very challenging.
Yeah, but it's an important part of the process, and they don't look at it as vomiting, you know, which is bad. We'd look at it as we're conditioned to look at it as a bad thing. They look at it as a purge la perga, you know, where they will get rid of all the negativity and they visualize all the negative stuff they're they're getting out of their system.
Yeah. I know someone who facilitates those and she talking about just like the sweet sound of people barfing into buckets means that they're like healing, and that's a real reframe.
And that's great.
But then what people need to understand is at a certain point when you're wretching repeatedly, you've already brought up everything there is to bring up, but you still have this wretch reflex. You got to use a little willpower to stifle it. Yeah, and to just settle back down, because you know you're on a loop. It's not of any value to you, and it's disruptive to other people around.
Yeah.
I remember encountering a little bit of nausea, and I remember having read like just tell yourself, like, it's okay, it's okay, body, we can keep this in. It's chill, it's medicine, don't worry about it.
It's okay to let it out too, okay to let it go.
I wonder too about animals. Francis Hirst, Rudebaker and a bunch of people Jamie Denny Ryde, the Tiger and Hazel. First time question asker wanted to know do animals react to psilocybin?
Well, there's a book in the eighties early nineties by a UCLA psychologist named Ron Siegel, and that was the whole premise of the book, which was to make observations of animals in the wild, you know, accessing psychedelic plants and then making observations what happens. Siegel was a little controversial, but I forget the name of the loo up, Yeah, yeah, Ron Siegel.
That book was called Fire in the Brain, Clinical Tales
of Hallucination. And just as a side note, Ron Siegel was considered by Oliver Sachs and many others to be one of the foremost experts on hallucinations, and as a psychopharmacologist living in la he was a witness in the trial against actor Robert Blake, who was accused of hiring someone to kill his wife, and sometime during the testimony, doctor Siegel discussed the use of drugs on mental states and casually revealed that he had been able to teach
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Okay, back to your questions about risks. This one was asked by Jocelyn Vincent, Kathleen Carson, Rube, Ashley Adair, Devin Naples and Aaron Wilgemouth. So let's take a lesson. Una Trevanovic wants to know, what are the risks associated? Like, is my producing safe for the brain? Like any I think people who are interested in this are like, what's the worst.
That could happen?
Well, I think it's good to approach this with a fair degree of caution, and we don't. We're still trying to learn about it, you know. So the worst that could happen is somebody getting disoriented, losing their sense of calm and containment, running out of the building into the street. I was consulted on a case at a big East Coast university where a young guy I think he was nineteen, who would never evidently never taken a psychedelic and no psych history, got a hold of some mushrooms and on
an impulse, took a substantial dose. He then went walking around the very crowded streets, crowded with people, really loud, lot of noise and construction going on, and just total hell be out there. And he had some friends with him who didn't really know what he was doing.
Just jumping in with a trigger warning slash spoiler alert about a two thousand and three self harm incident that was later ruled by medical examiners to be an accident and not a suicide.
So then he ended up going into the student library where a week before, another kid had gone up to a high floor and had jumped to his death. This kid didn't know the other one, but he knew the story,
and he went into the elevator. His friends followed. He went up to the tenth floor, and he walked over to the railing and looked over it, and then his friends were getting very anxious, so they dragged him back, dragging him back to the elevator, but he broke free, and he just vaulted right over the railing and took a ten story dive.
Oh gosh, that's the worst thing could happen, terribly?
Is that a like evidence of psychosis?
Is that?
Do you think that's why he got disoriented? He got disoriented, he got very anxious, he lost his sense of self. Yeah, but you know, psychosis. It could have been a transient psychosis' reality testing was disturbed. But chances are if he had been in a setting where people knew what he was doing and they could contain him, that he could have gotten through that pretty quickly. Yeah, gotten to the other side and been calm and contained and not put himself in any seriously dangerous situation.
Yeah, yeah, the trip sitting important there.
Yeah, Yeah, that's an important role. There's a lot of responsibility.
Yeah.
For a seventy nine page guide on how to conduct a trip like the research psychiatrist do see the Yale Manual for Psilocybin assisted Therapy of Depression, which notes that beforehand the session preparation checklist is room decor like arts and plants and flowers, sheets, blanket pillow. They note it's good to have a water resistant sheet below cotton sheets in case of incontinence. It's also good to have a
barf bucket, which they call an msspasin. They also recommend standard music system, ambient speakers, eye shades, having some lamps, some comfortable lighting, maybe throwing some art materials, and they also have rescue medications on hand, which can be anti anxiety drugs in case someone starts to freak out. Now. It also notes that the researchers and nursing staff greet the participant. They give standard medical and psychiatric assessments. They
check the blood pressure and pulse. They evaluate the participant for suicidality. They conduct a urine toxicology and if appropriate, a pregnancy test and they ask the participant about any changes in their medications. Also, headphones or a speaker and an imask highly recommended. And to keep your thoughts moving, there's this five and a half hour Spotify playlist titled Imperial College of London Psilocybin Clinical Trial Playlist that I
hear is very handy. Well one and only already Schmitz wants to know is it true that vitamin C he potentiates psilocybin's hallucinogenic effects?
Not that I've ever I've never seen anything convincing on that.
I know. There's anecdotal accounts.
Yeah, but nothing that it's like definitely doing well.
There was interest in some vitamin B early on in the fifties. They thought maybe some vitamin bees were metabolites or had some kind of role in this.
Humphrey Osmond was looking ato that, but nothing ever came of it.
I understand that for placebo they'll administer niosin and people get nios in.
Well that's a bit a B vitamin. Yeah, yeah, we did that as a placiba. I won't do it again. Are really worse side effects? Were both niasin reactions?
Were they really? They were well?
They're very sensitive, they're very fair complexion. They got bright red, face got real red, and they started itching all over. Yeah, it lasted for thirty forty miserable minutes.
Now, Nysin is a b vitamin B three, and if taken in high concentrations, like over fifty milligrams, the small blood vessels of the skin can dilate and lead to hot, itchy, red, sweaty skin, and a feeling like ants are in your arms. According to one lady who drank a five hour energy drink during a college road trip and thought that she was dying, it's not subtle.
We knew they were on placebo. It broke the blind. It wasn't an ideal placebo. I thought I needed a placebo condition, and there really isn't a good placebo condition. Yeah, Hopkins group likes to take very tiny dosages of the experimental medicine. But if there is anything too microdosing, then there might be somewhat of a therapeutic effect. Even taking a tiny dose as a placebo, I thought that was kind of confusing the situation.
Yeah. No, we use cornstarch.
It's my favorite smart Although I'm doing something very different from my new study which is a multi site study and I'm putting together with some colleagues where we're going to treat people approaching the end of life in the palliative setting who are overwhelmed with demoralization. Demoralization is the target symptom.
And what does that mean exactly?
Just you've lost all sense of purpose, meaning has dissipated. You're in a terrible, unsolvable existential crisis.
I mean, I feel like I became way less afraid of death after I think that, I was just like, Okay, well, it's cool, I'll be fine.
There's a long tradition amongst indigenous people where these plant compounds are administered to initiates to really explore different realms of consciousness, including you know, dying and envisioning or visioning people you've known, either yourself or you know through legend or myth envisioning that well.
A lot of people wanted to know about the stoned ape theory, patrons and human apes. Nick and Melanie's on for so Questionsker who asked, I'm curious what your thoughts are about the stoned ape hypothesis. Is there any legitimacy to the hypothesis or is it all bunk. Does it have any truth to it? Is it bogus that.
The apes in the wetlands were munching on mushrooms and they became so inspired with their experience that they had to convey it in some manner to another ape and thus began.
Yeah, that's a great theory. I don't think there's much proof.
And also we should clarify that that's not a theory but rather a hypothesis by Terrence McKenna that language developed relatively quickly in humans because of enhancements to the linguistic centers in the brain from magic mushrooms and plant hallucinagens. But most scientists are like a little like they don't
give it too much credence. Even some of doctor Grobe's own work is cited in essays attempted to offer proof, like this recent Psychology Today article that noted doctor Charles grow with the University of California lost in Lists and colleagues conducted to study in the early nineteen nineties exploring the effects of regular ayahuasca use in Brazil. They found that individuals who drank ayahuasca regularly scored higher on neuropsychological
tests than controls. Who did not drink the sprew. But even the guy quoted in that article, Charlie or Pal Charlie Grob isntconvinced. Needs better evidence. What about neurological diseases like Alzheimer's Parkinson's, Katie Oldman wanted to know about interesting research on psilocybin and MS.
Well, this is not being explored.
I know a study looking at depression and people with Parkinson's, same with MS. And also, you know it's funny. Years ago, particularly regarding MDMA, we get into these endless debates about whether or not MDMA was neurotoxic, and I would argue strenuously that that was not the case. But now we're getting data that would indicate that psychedelics have neuroplastic effects. Really, so what are the implications there to people with neurologic disease?
And for more on this, you can see the twenty twenty two study from Psychiatry to Neurology Psychedelics as a Prospective Therapeutics for Neurodegenerative disorders, which notes optimistically that recent studies with rodents revealed that psychedelics like psilocybins therapeutic effects might extend beyond treating major depressive disorder and substance use disorder.
For example, they write, psychedelics may have efficacy in the treatment and prevention of brain injury and neurodegenerative diseases such as Alzheimer's. Now preclinical work shows the ability to induce neuroplasticity, so changing in the brain and synaptogenesis that deals with synapses, and psychedelics may also act as immunomodulators by reducing these levels of pro inflammatory markers, so neuroplasticity helping those synapses
reducing inflammation. Current and future psychedeliologists no pressure, but we're all counting on you if you can fit in your schedule. Speaking of schedules, Sonia Bird, how do I figure out the right microdosing? And other microdosing questions came from Brooklyn Baron, Jasmine Alexandra Kaikishimoto, Christopher Blubaugh, vincent Pick, Jones Or Spence Felix,
Kelly McCain, and Kevin Krost. What about when it comes to micro dosing, if people are like, I'm going to try it, I'm gonna do it anyway to the on or off. Like Marco Centura wanted to know once every two days.
Like I've heard different regimens. I've heard like once every four days.
Does it just last in your system for a couple of days.
Or yeah, if you look at blood measures it'll clear.
But there's some experiential component than in all likelihood persists, and it's to build up a set every four days, build up at kind of a steady state level, and see if that has any therapeutic components. But again I'm waiting for the research to come out on this.
Get we need more micro psychopharmacologists.
Yeah.
Right, that's like the bottom line.
There you go.
Several people wanted to know when it comes to becoming a researcher in this field, right, where do you see it going? Like legality wise, Well.
I'll tell you what my father told me. I tell you, I'll tell you again. He said, son, you need to get credentials. No one will listen to U because you get credentials. And for me, being his son, there was only one credential he was returning to.
I had to go to medical school, which.
I was avoiding, but then realized I had a greater goal to pursue and I went for it.
Did you ever ask the mushrooms like should I become a doctor or what.
Man. Oh, back in those days, it was a long interlude. Yeah, it was not the time, not the place, set and setting were not optimal. So I just read, I just read. Yeah, I knew that it was a fascinating area. I's some limited experience in the late sixties in college, but then not again for another twenty years. But I read everything I could, and then twenty years on I had a lot of opportunity to see for myself, and those are very viable. That being said, I haven't done anything since,
you know, six years or so. Yeah, I don't feel called to it. It's a calling people feel called, not by their friends saying don't be.
A will Smith. You know, it's a calling.
You feel an instinctive cathexist to some greater force in nature or the spirit, realm, or whatever you want to call it, that here's this potentially remarkable experience, and you are lucky enough to live in a time and place where you actually have access. And your predecessors, your ancestors for centuries, didn't have a clue that these compounds even existed because they were underground, They were totally secret, and people who practice using them were condemned with the harshest
punishments of the inquisition. They would try to wipe out the indigenous people in South and Central America. And about the midwives in Europe, in Western Europe, Eastern Europe, who knew about plants, medicinal plants. The images of the witches flying on their broomstack?
Do you know what that's do?
They we had a witch episode recently, but rubbing balm on the broomstick.
And then inserting it, yeah, yeah, flying high, flying high. Yeah.
But the authorities, all men, the church authorities and secular authorities were horrified by this.
For more on indigenous perspectives on this, you can see the ethno Ecology episode and the witch Ology episode on Indigenous beliefs and the culture of witches and spells.
And they murdered millions.
This is in the millions, mostly women, mostly plant healers, the midwives.
Is that the hardest thing about what you do is getting over really conservative views or fears or institutions that want to kind of stifle the research.
I haven't run into that.
I know.
It's funny.
For years I was cautioned to keep my interest in myself, and then I was at John Hopkins for many years, and the chairman there didn't want to hear anything about it. So I kept my interest in myself. You know, every month I go to the medical library look at Index Medicus, what was new with psychedelics, hallucinogens or surgic you know, just to try to keep up that way. But it was seen as a career killer. This would be back
in the seventies eighties. In the late seventies, we were all asked to present the research paper to our medical school class. So I found a paper of stan Groffs where he treated terminal cancer patients with anxiety and depression with LSD and DPT and had phenomenal outcomes, remarkable, one of the most moving papers I'd ever had ever read in the medical literature. So I chose that one. I distilled it down and I put together my talk. I
thought I had a great talk. It was excinct at a point, it was fascinating, and I'm really excited looking forward to what are my classmates and what the professors what, well, how are they going to react to this?
What are they going to say?
What comments will they have, what questions will they ask?
Against?
Nothing?
Complete silence, And then I realized, oh my, I'm not supposed to talk about this. So it really wasn't until I left Hopkins in the late eighties and came out to California and met some like minded psychiatrists, and.
Like any researcher, having colleagues or a network of friends in the field can help the cause move along faster and smoother. I did an episode with James Burke of the British series Connections, and he told me in that some really great advice I think of all the time. One plus one equals three.
Two.
People can create things greater than the sum of their parts. It's bad math, it's a great philosophy.
Marlene Duris, who was an anthropologist, you know, who really kind of helped me realize that it was still possible, even though decades had passed since I had my vision, I had my plan, and nothing could ever come of it because it wasn't the right time. By the early nineties, it was the right time. You had Rick Strausman and Universe in Mexico got permission in ninety one to study
intravenous DMT. I got permission and two to study MDMA and normal volunteers, and then Debrimash and New Yors of Miami got permission the following year to study people on IBY game.
That was the first opening.
And then Francisco Morano at Arizona in the early two thousands did a very nice proof of concepts study using
psilocybin for people with refractory OCD oh wow. And then Roland in Baltimore did a study looking at the degree to which psilocybin may facilitate a powerful altered state of consciousness, of powerful transcendent state, mystical state, which were according to the literature going back to the fifties and then into the sixties, that having a mystical experience or having a powerful transcendent or transpersonal experience would make it more likely
that individual would have a very positive, longstanding therapeutic outcome.
And I'm glad that that hasn't been that huge of a challenge for you career wise. Do you have any about the job? Do do you have anything?
Is there something that sucks?
Oh?
Well, I have a straight job. I'm a mainstream psychiatrist. I'm the director of a large division of child lesson psychiatry. We have a lot of trainees. I really like kids, I was the oldest in a big family, so I grew up around kids. It was always fun, so it was a natural fit for me. And meanwhile, you know, really it was when I got to Harbor Harbor, UCLA in ninety three that I was really able to move forward with the MDMA study, the ayahuasca study.
The next decade.
It was a psilocybin end of life study, and now we hope to have another multi size psilocybin study.
Yeah. Is there anything that's that's the hardest part of your job?
My commute?
Your commute. I was going to ask, well, what I found.
I really it's imperative that I have people who have got a lot of energy and are very well organized, because I'm I'm a bit all over the place, so I need people to keep me on on track. And I had a wonderful resident who just moved back to the East Coast, and I need to find someone who could take her place.
Yeah, yeah, maybe you'll get some emails out of this.
Yeah.
What about your favorite thing about what you do?
Oh, it's living the dream.
You know.
I always dreamed of doing this, and here I had these remarkable opportunities. They just they just fell to me, and I'm very grateful that, you know, the universe has been so kind to me, and I'm really excited about the capacity these compounds have to have a therapeutic impact on people whose conditions do not normally lend themselves to positive effects from standard conventional treatments.
M H.
And I love also that there's a seven hundred page textbook that people can find if they want to know the compendium of like vetted information.
In my book. Yeah, Jim Grigsby of Colorado, we co edited a book.
Which is amazing.
Yeah.
Yeah, because there is research out there that I'm sure people want to know.
That book has everything. Yeah, published by Gilford Press.
Got it. We'll link it everywhere. This has just been such a dream of mine. I've wanted to interview you for so long, since before I even tripped out myself. So this has really been an exciting episode.
I enjoyed talking with you and maybe we'll meet again, Yeah.
I hope. So.
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It's a kind of a big one. If you stick around, I said, I would tell you a little bit about my own experience tossing three point four grams of relatively fresh and potent psilocybin mush rooms down my gullet in an effort to fix my brain. So after my dad died, you know, it wasn't the easiest time. I was going through depressed talking to my psychiatrist about antidepressants and anxiety
stuff like that. And at the time I wasn't on an antidepressant or a selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor or SNRI, which deals with NARP and effort as well. So talking to my psychiatrist, he notes this study showing that psilocybin therapy in a clinical trial was shown to be more effective than lexapro, and so I was like, Okay, I'm going to do this. I'm going to go for it. My psychiatrist sent me all this information on how to
do it, how to conduct it myself. I have a friend who knows a pharmacist who grows these things very well, and I'm again the laws listening. It happened in Oregon, but I was really, really, really nervous to do it. I'd never taken any psychedelics like that. I think I probably had like a app of a mushroom once and like barely felt anything. So I was very worried about throwing up. I was very worried about having an absolute panic attack, because sometimes if I smoked too much weed,
it's just like I suddenly get terrified of death. And I realized it all that lies before us are horrible experiences of pain and disappointment. So I was afraid of that happening. And I was reading the protocol about how you should journal ahead of time so that you set out your kind of intentions, you know, what shit you want to go through and examine or look at. I
went whole hog. According to Gale, protocol, Imperial College of London, other methodologies like doctor Grobs read how they did the experiments, Headphones playlist. I talked about imask now. The day before I journaled about like what my intentions were, like why was I doing this? What kind of stuff did I want to clear out? And I wanted to get through this feeling that my worth was tied to how helpful I was or how much I was making other people happy.
I wanted to get through this anxiety and this perfectionism that is always using like self criticism to make me work harder. I wanted to reconnect with happiness in my life and like allow myself to feel happy without fearing that like another shoe was going to drop, which is just anxiety. And I wanted to feel more open to trusting and not feel like, oh, if I, you know, get rejected by someone, or if I do one thing wrong,
someone's going to be so mad at me forever. I wanted to just trust that people who loved me love me and that was okay. And so I also wanted to process my dad's death, and so I wanted to sort of like connect with how my family relationships are and really feel like I could be myself right, And so I journaled the day before. I said, I found these by the way. I found these in an old binder. I said that some of the things I was looking for was comfort and confidence and ease and openness. And
I wanted to make better choices for my body. I love hiking and walking and running. I wanted to do more of it. I wanted to not work more than I work. And so I went into it with all that. And then the day of I was super nervous. I ate like a very light breakfast, got in pajamas. Jarrett was my trip sitter. I did have one or two Sanax pills on hand in case I freaked out. Turned out I didn't need them at all. So I'm not
going to tell you how to obtain things legally. That seems pretty murky, but I will tell you that we had some. They were very potent. Great. We put them in a coffee grinder until they were dust, and then I put them in a glass of tangerine juice choked it down like it was metamucl or something. And so then I get in pajamas. I have the headphones, I
have my mask. Jared's sitting in the foot of the bed and I get in bed and I'm like, okay, I don't feel anything, which goes on for like forty five minutes, right, and then suddenly my hands started to feel kind of tingling, and I was like, oh okay. I started to feel like a little stony bologna, and I was like, okay, Jarreed's like put the headphones on,
turn on the music. Da da dah. And so then I started to feel a little bit nauseous, and I remember hearing just tell your body, it's okay, this thing is here to help you. Don't barfit. You worked hard for this, don't barf it up. It's okay. It's a friend. It's a friend. It's a friend, like when your dog is like well and you're like, it's the mailman. They have a present for us. So did a little bit of that with myself. It passed, which was cool. I
was super afraid of barfing, didn't at all. And then I put on the mask. I was listening to the music. It was like whoo, you know, like trippy spa music, but it kind of served like a music in a trailer where it just brings things along, it takes you by the hand and keeps your thoughts moving, which was
really helpful, I think. And so the first thing I kind of remember is feeling like I was coming into like a train station and there was just like a sea of faces, like when you see old movies like Ben hur where there's a lot of people in a coliseum.
It was like that.
It was just like faces that were all like hey, you made it, and it was like, holy shit, these are all my ancestors. This is bonkers. Where'd everyone come from? How do you guys know what's coming? They're like, hey, you're here, and I was like, whoa this is I got a lot of people to catch up with. This is so cool. And then one of them started leading
me down into this labyrinth. Everything was kind of like brown Stone clay and they were like, let me show you around, Let me show you around, and there were people scattered waving as I was going by, and I was like, Oh, this is the trip. And then for a second I did get scared at something. There was like some kind of foreboding, scary feeling, and I remembered hearing when that happens, stop and ask what is this here?
To teach me? Like go at it with curiosity and to have like, oh no, this thing's gonna suck my brains out. And so I think that I can't remember, but I think that that thing that I encountered was just like are you sure you should? And I had to tell the thing like no, I think we're good here. Thank you though, And gosh, I remember being in like a Lisa Frank like rainbow. This all, by the way, had phones and eye shades on, so this was all
like in my mind's eye. I wasn't looking at anything, so I was having kind of like lucid dreams of a lot of bridges and like a beautiful Japanese garden that was all and rainbows. And then I started talking to dead people. That was pretty nanas Like Dad came through. He's like, hey, what's up.
You made it?
I was like, Dad, what's up. We had a long conversation about how much injustice there is in the world and how he was proud of me for trying to fight, which was really great to hear, even if my brain just made it up. I also talked to a brother in law who had died, a long conversation about how we were both like childless but an aunt and an uncle who were happy to take care of our nieces and our nephews and not to worry about not having kids.
I had this really wild sort of like processing of the fact that I am not going to bear kids and probably won't raise them. If you listen to my mystery surgery a few months ago, I got nothing in there that makes babies, had them all taken out. I've been having health problems with that for over a decade. Anyway, I was having these like these really great conversations with some sort of voiceless voice being like, hey, don't worry about it. Some people are here to further their DNA
and to keep that going. That's okay. You're here to make stuff and put it in the world, which is going to help other people raise their kids. So don't worry about it. That's not your legacy. DNA is not your legacy. That's also why you have so many great like female friends who understand what it's like to want to make things and maybe not prioritize motherhood. So I was like, that actually really helps. Thank you so much
for that. So long conversations without words and crying. Never cried so much in my life, but like happy tears, like when you watch videos of someone coming home from a trip and their dog loses their mind recognizing them and is so happy. It was like that kind of crying,
soaking handkerchiefs, kleenecks, just crying in bed. And at one point, you know, Jared, He's sitting at the end of the bed during the beginning of this, but my dad and I in this mystical realm, we're talking about Jared and how much he was so helpful and how much love he showed when my dad was in hospice and we were talking about, like what a great guy. And then at one point I had to be like, hey, Derek, can you leave actually because it's just awkward because we're
like talking about you. And he was like, Okay, let me know if you need anything. At one point I did have to go to the bathroom and I was like, hey, can you help me? And I made very very sure not to look in the mirror. I heard that bad things happen when you do, although I did peek under my eyemask and all I could see was I looked like someone who had just been on a twenty hour flight with turbulence. It wasn't a good look. But I
remember being like, that's what I should look like right now. Anyway, got back to bed. The whole thing lasted like six hours. I started to come down from it, and it felt really glowy and peaceful, and I remember sitting on the couch and sort of telling Jared about it, just how much I realized I'm so lucky to be able to do my dreams and I can let myself be happier about that. Also, just what a waste of energy and
molecules and hormones anxiety is. So here's the deal. When I came out of it, I was like, all of my problems in life are solved. I've never felt more peaceful and confident and centered and grounded and full of love. Right, here's the thing that lasts for a bit, right, that lasts for weeks months. But then when things start to get challenging and you start to forget all those thoughts and how they felt in your body and your mind, and you start picking up old habits, then that can
kind of dissipate. And so it's a reminder you have to actively remember that what you learned or what you saw, what you've got a chance to feel that good for a bit. What do you have to do to put those things in place, whether it's like having better boundaries, whether it's having more confidence in yourself, whether it's looking on people who are difficult in your life with more empathy or with maybe less empathy, depending on the relationship.
So it's like you learn how good things can feel, and how like your essence is a competent and full of love and all of these things, and then it's just a matter of on the outside world doing all those things that get you to that place. And so that was my experience of it for me, super super transformative. I have thought of that trip every single day for the last couple of years. It's definitely one of the
most impactful experiences of my life. I'm so glad that I didn't take sacred ethno botanical medicines in a setting that was cavalier. I think that they have a lot that they can teach you about how your own mind works, So just can those thoughts and that reframing can get to you in a much deeper way. Anyway, that is my story about it. Super transformative. I think about it all the time. I'm not afraid of death. I feel like whatever happens to you, your molecules become something else,
your atoms become something else. Maybe I'll be a frog, maybe I'll turn into a plane. That would be a random choice, but it could happen, who knows. But whatever happens, you're just we're here for a relatively short time. Everyone's just a tiny little baby that wants to be loved. A lot of anger and fear can make people get a bit off track. But the really important thing is that you have to be much more kind to yourself, and when you are that way, you will be kinder
to others. So that's my big rainbowy mystical trip. I can't stress enough that it's really important to talk to a doctor and do a ton of research. Make sure that you're not at risk for anything like psychosis or anxiety, cardiovascular stuff. Do not go into this lightly, is my suggestion. If you decide to do something like this. Also journal before,
journal after. Just be very careful and no matter what, just try to take some of those lessons about being kinder to yourself and just like appreciating nature and time and all the things that are good around you. And anyway, I hope this helps, as I say, do the thing, make the project, do the art, text the crush, cut your hair, wear ugly shoes. If you like them, you are aren't anybody else, and that's great, so you don't have to be anyway. I hope you've enjoyed this two parter,
this extra long secret. If this is your first episode of listening to ologies, the secrets are not usually this long. If you've listened to the end, congratulations for sticking it out with me, and sleep tight. We all love you. Byebye.
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