A Story On Nudity & Bondage

One of the most profound things about that experience for me was observing the other women who were in the class that from my perspective had absolutely nothing about taking their shirt off. And one of them was even completely naked. Foreign. Thank you for tuning in your consciousness to the Naked Human podcast. I want to acknowledge your presence and what it took for you to be here today listening.

My intention for you is that you receive what you came here for and find what you didn't know you needed. This podcast is about what it means to be a human being and what it really means to be naked and how our relationship with Mother Nature has the power to heal us. My name is Carrie Cott and I'm a nude nature photographer, licensed film physician of Chinese medicine plant guide and wild woman embodiment mentor.

I help women heal from sexual trauma, awaken their authentic voice, and distinguish between fear and intuition so they can be led by their deep feminine heart. I bring to life in this podcast my own internal wisdom. I will only share what I've learned and experienced on a personal level. As you listen, I encourage you to take from this what you need and just trash the rest. So happy listening. Hello. Hello. The first time I ever got naked non sexually. Oi, oi, oi, oi.

I don't know if it was really the first, first, first time I ever got naked non sexually because now I'm recalling that when I was in high school after gym class and basketball and things like there was showering naked collectively in a space with other girls. So I was non sexual, however, and you know, I imagine I got changed here and there with other people around.

But this particular experience that I'm going to share with you was not one that I anticipated and it was definitely a huge impact of where I am now in relationship to nudity. And it definitely planted a seed with now what I do with facilitating new to nature experiences for women, sharing the medicine of nudity. This moment definitely impacted all of this, so let's just dive right into it. Oh, and I might have to clarify a few things along the way, so I will do that as I share this story.

So there I was, 1912. Just kidding. I don't know what year it was, but it was many, many, many moons ago and had this really incredible partner and we both like bondage. So bondage being the act of intentionally tying a partner for the purpose of. I'll just share my purpose because everybody's got their own purpose. Bondage also being known as shibari, if you're familiar with that word. But for me Having the experience of this power dynamic play with my partner who is tying me.

You know, there's this aspect of sexual aspect of it, but there for me, it's. It's like learning how to surrender and trust my partner while still being present to the process and being mindful about what's happening and the ties and paying attention to my body. So if you're being tied up by someone or even yourself, you have to be mindful about where the rope, if you're using rope or something else, like how it's laying against your body, is it pinching a nerve? Does this feel comfortable here?

Like, is this going position going to work for me for 20 minutes, 10 minutes, 50 minutes, 4 hours, whatever? So there's this layer of mindfulness and it's also very sensory. So I am a deep sense, sensory lover. I love textures and feelings and touch and just all the different textures that are available to be felt. And for me, it's this very meditative space. It requires my surrender and also my focus. And it creates connection with my partner and bonding. Bondage bonding.

So my partner and I, we go to this bondage class. And the intention of a bondage class is to get better at the whole process of tying. So tying knots and learning different techniques and becoming more mindful about the process and being aware of things and discovering new things and enhancing communication. Because it requires a whole lot of communication to do this. Well, it doesn't require a whole lot of communication to do it. It's just. It has a great impact.

Anyway, so my partner and I, we go to this bondage class. And it was my first time actually going to a class. I had experienced bondage with my other partners. This was my first time going to an official class. And I. I just thought, I'm gonna wear some like, just like, I'm just. I'm trying to be like, I just think some aspect of this feels really vulnerable for me. So I was like, I want to wear something sexy, like a sexy bra and sexy underwear.

Because I knew that I was going to have to disrobe to some some degree to. To do this just to make the bondage easier, the rope tying easier. So I picked out this red lacy bra and underwear and I was like, yeah, I'm gonna look so cute. Whatever. So anyway, we get to class and mind you, this is my first class. Like I said, I had done it previously with other partners, but I was naked then.

But being naked with my partner was one thing, but being naked in a room was with other people was not what I was interested in doing. So I get to class, and it's like I take off my shirt and my pants or whatever the hell I had on. And there I was standing in my sexy bra and my underwear. And the instructor comes up to me and she asked if I would be comfortable if I had another bra or taking the bra off that I had because it had a wire. It was a wire bra.

And so, just an FYI, if you're tying somebody up with rope and they have a wire bra on, and you do rope over the wire bra, the wire bra has a potential to jab you and puncture you. Those two things don't go well together. So I was just like, oh, my gosh, I do not have another bra. And I was like, I guess I need to take this brush bra off. So I go into the bathroom. I'm like, okay, okay, I got it. And I was like, I'm. I'm gonna go to the bathroom.

I tell my partner, and I go into the bathroom and I take my bra off.

And I look at myself in the mirror. And it's like I have to have a pep talk with myself because it feels really incredibly vulnerable to be doing this. Like, so much judgment about what my breasts look like so much, so fucking much. Like, just so much that I literally go into the bathroom and take my bra off and stand in front of the mirror and breathe and just, like, find some capacity to assure myself that, like, everything's okay.

And then I put my bra back on and I go back out like nothing ever happened. Like, I was just going in there, going to the bathroom, right? Just had to pee. Everybody know I wasn't in there giving myself a breast pep talk. But really that's what happened. So I come out and I take my Prof. And I journey through class and I'm there and it's like, okay, okay, okay. I'm okay. This is okay.

Still judging myself, finding moments where I wasn't judging myself, where I was being present with actually what was being learned and discovered and being with my partner. But really hella awkward feeling. Totally. It's just really uncomfortable even thinking about it now. I'm just really present to the amount of uncomfortability. And class ends. Da da da. Fast forward in hindsight of this experience, what I have since discovered and was present.

Sue. There was a lot of things happening there that I wasn't even fully aware of in the moment. Like, I feel like I was so guided to be there. It's like this mindful orchestration from my inner being of having this experience for what it opened up for me. One one of the most profound things about that experience for me was observing the other women who were in the class that from my perspective, had absolutely nothing about taking their shirt off. And one of them was even completely naked.

The other women were topless. I mean, they had tops. You know, I just thought about the word topless. Like, you've lost your top. Like now I have my top, I just don't have a shirt on, wig or a bra. And anyways, that was the sidebar. Words are fascinating, aren't they? All these women. For again, from my perspective, I didn't actually have conversations with them. So I don't know, I watched them.

It was like this liberation and freedom to get naked. And then I had the gift of witnessing how very different all of their bodies were. And yet they were all willing to become bare and to remove some aspect of themselves. And I realized that I didn't ever really know what naked bodies look like because I'd spent a lot of time comparing what my naked body looks like to a whole lot of clothed bodies and also photoshopped bodies and all that.

Every single woman was shaped so entirely different and yet somehow comfortable being naked. That is the thing from that experience that permeated into my beingness, into my cells that at the time I wouldn't have and I didn't have the capacity to articulate or even to really get. I was much more moving through my own spaces with my own body. And like, holy shit, I did that. And wow.

And the thing is, is after I went that initial time, I was looking forward to going again because I also got something out of the way. But I think, because I'm just getting this now, is that there was something that got so freed up about being naked and also knowing now that it was a container of safety. Like, it wasn't. It wasn't an experience of having sex. I've gotten naked having sex. This was non sexual, meaning there was no sex in this class. I was not the purpose this class.

The purpose of the class is learning bondage. So it was created in an intentional space that I could get naked and feel safe, which was incredibly healing. And while it's happening, not even really knowing it's healing, but knowing like, there's something here and I'm feeling different and I'd like to do this again. And then who is like, being really curious about other ways I could be naked even though I wasn't? Like, oh, what are some other ways to be naked.

It was just like this internal processing, like calling me, calling me. It was like, ah, tasting something that just tasted really good and just being like, yeah, just thinking about it, you know, it's just there. Gosh, that was so good. Like, and just like it inside of me calling me for more, more, more, more nakedness.

More nakedness in a space that I know that I am safe and also that being really hella important to me based on sexual trauma, based on experiences of being molested, being raped, and then intentionally just violating myself and detaching from sexual experiences after those experiences. So to find myself in this space where there was no sex was deeply healing.

So whether or not this was really the first time I ever got naked non sexually is, is irrelevant because it is a profound imprint of healing and a foundational component of where I am now with the medicine of nudity. So for now, this transmission is complete. Thank you for tuning your consciousness to this episode of the Naked Human. However you find yourself, whether it's relieved, enlightened, triggered, or as if the past minutes were a complete waste of your time, it's perfect.

Be present to it and allow it to be the medicine you need. I welcome your feedback and heartfelt reflections of how this episode impacted you. You can share with me online@the nakedhumanpodcast.com and if you're feeling called for a more personalized experience into your naked nakedness, I invite you to join our community of wild women in person or online. You can find more specifics@the nakedhumanpodcast.com and until next time, bye.