Now, what's my night terror? Somebody in my room on top of me in bed, trying to cut me? Why is that? I mean, I was scared. I was scared of the dark. I was scared to go to the bathroom. This carried over into college. Why is that? So? I've talked to detectives, talked to trauma therapists. Nobody knows how to fix this night terror stuff, and nobody knows why is it the bad guy in the room try and kill me? Do you feel like the bad guy is
your dad? Yeah? My dad planned these things, premeditated these things. Was he practicing that murder in our house? Was he practicing Cornerherston closets? You're wondering if that feeling you had was maybe him actually in your room in the closet. Yeah, some of suppressed memory where I was scared shitless from my dad. Who's to say he wasn't doing something in my bedroom. I just would rather know, Like for me, I need to know, because once I know that, I
can deal with it. You can divorce a spouse, you can't divorce father. You can't just divorce your dad. Did a part of you feel like you wanted to make it better? Somehow I wanted to help him, like I'm mad at you when one second and I'm worried you're cold and dealing with this blanket and this cold sell like I love you, I still love you. Do you still love him? Oh? Yeah? I mean I told him that, and the letters early on, like I love you and I don't know what's wrong and I don't know why
you did this. And I wrote him and I was like I'm so sorry, Like I'm so sorry. Something must have happened to you. You're just thinking something awful must have happened to you to turn you into this, and I'm so sorry. You know that you're a loon and that we're not with you. Monster. BTK concludes. To hear the final four episodes early and ad free, subscribe to
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