Navigating the Course with Brock.

And you know , for the first time in almost three years of this podcast , man , I actually took a break and I wasn't like it wasn't planned , it wasn't planned at all and it was one of those things you're like you're not burnt out , you're doing so much and you just question like , dude , this does bring joy or this doesn't bring joy , it does bring joy , so I

want to continue . But then there's sometimes when it just brings so much joy , it's just busy on top of busy on top of busy , and it's hard to maintain that schedule . And I was putting them out . I was putting them out and hanging out with you in Vegas , hanging out with dad .

You know pops and everything else , and you know understanding , like what it takes to . You know just , or you know just hearing some insight from a wise old man your dad , you know where you really put things from perspective .

And after Vegas , it took a week or two to recover after the less than 24 hours that I spent there , and so basically , with that , the holidays just got in my own head and like , okay , what should I do ?

I was like just curious , my dad wasn't doing so well and he's like very ill and surprised he's still around , to be honest with you . But I remember the day I was heading out to Hermiston to hang out with Hank III , hankinson III , and got the call that hey , dad's going to pass or whatever . So I bought my ticket .

That was weighing heavy on me , had a couple . I bought my ticket . That was , uh , weighing heavy on me , had a couple of beers with the third . That was good . But talk to him about you know what . What should I do ? Just asked him like man , should I continue ? He's like , does it bring joy ? I was like hell , yeah , it does . It's like then continue .

I was like okay , so got all that out , but then hit a dry spell , you know , and a lot of money , you know , was forked over just trying to get to Indiana . Well , yeah , indiana , but I had to travel to Chicago by myself .

Indiana , well , yeah , indiana , but I had to travel to Chicago by myself , you know , drive from Chicago to , you know , outside of Indianapolis , and you know that's a lot of money , yeah . And so I was just like , okay , family and then training for this race that I didn't finish just recently , and just too , so much training , I sacrificed so much .

I put everything to the side friendships , alcohol , believe it or not . For real , like before the race , I can count on one hand how many beers I had . Like , don't quote me on the whiskey Cokes . I could still , you know , count on a hand , on my other hand , with those .

But you know , I really sacrificed a lot and then it just came to realize , like the podcast will always be there , but I think it's time for just a little vacation . Yeah , a little reset .

Yeah , I would say reset because , yeah , yeah , that's a good way to put it at reset because , man , I was just in it , in it , in it putting them out , not to care in the world , just putting them out . I did care , but it was just like too much and so went back , got back on it . January 30th was the last one that I put out since till today .

I put out two today . I'll put yours out either tomorrow or the next day and this one out along with it . But you know , you know , I just couldn't believe how fast time went yeah , yeah .

I think my wife understood , like , what I was going through , you know , with my dad my dad is passing because of that , you know , Just saw how he lived , Didn't know how he was living for the past 15 years because he was quite estranged , you know , and saw how he lived .

And I was just know , and uh , saw how he lived and I was just like , dude , I do not want to live like that . So I put things to the side . I'm continuing to put things to the side and , uh , just realize , man , how fortunate I am that , uh , you know I have a wife that I do and kids that I had . You know that I have in a job that I have .

That dude , I wouldn't want to put anybody in that misery . Yeah , and cleaning up the mess my dad made for 15 plus years , 20 plus years , and knowing what he did and how he lived , it was just something that can't be repeated . You know what I mean . Yeah , yeah , and it sucks and the best way I can put it just say he never threw anything away .

So we had to do all that still doing all that , you know , and cleaning up , a lot of cleaning up and , yeah , just a lot of things that I didn't want to do and um , so I put that to the side and it's been aching .

So I put a lot of my time in my family and working out , or you know , the training for the race that I didn't finish , but I have multiple races coming up and that's what I got in in the grind to doing and and I I feel good Podcast is always there .

You know the Instagram is there , but I just wasn't doing any podcasts , so I just didn't broadcast anything . I think I broadcast my , I think in the months was just me being a coach , which I'm very proud of , I think that was the only one .

Yeah , it's not sustainable , man and um , because I , I enjoy it , I , I do , and you come in here to the teacup studios , to , you know , get me out of my rut . I appreciate it , I thank you , but I need to get more of these instead of on computer , but no , it'd still be around .

I'm just prioritizing a little smoothly , a little smarter , prioritizing a little smoothly , a little smarter , and because of that I found that rubbed people the wrong way .

So be it , I'm going to continue to do what I do and , yeah , man , I appreciate every , I appreciate you believing in me and having this podcast or this episode happen , man , this one and the one before you know , solidify my game , the podcast game myself and the podcast game , if that makes sense .

I thought , you know , some of the earlier guests this year were going to help , but , dude , I was just stuck in training , training , training and staying away from what I don't want to become , my father and um , not bashing him . It's just saw a lot , learned a lot . Don't want to become that .

And , uh , I appreciate you taking the time out of your day to meet up with me at the teacup studio and uh , you're always , always , you're always welcome , brock yeah , you're always welcome great place to be it's .

If you go on a reel or do live , it automatically turns into reel . And then the reel goes worldwide . And I don't want people , I didn't even know that yeah , dude , you don't want that . So yeah , because I I don't do the lives , I die .

I try not to do the lives because they go into reels and it mass produced and if somebody has something to say , they'll share and then people will talk bad about you you know , so yeah I . I wanted to utilize this time after our uh session and just clear there and where I'm at and what I've been doing .

So yeah , I mean take a break , it's very come back stronger than ever and I think that's where I'm at and definitely I appreciate you , man , and uh , you have to get a hold of your dad so you can rearrange some things .