You're listening to Loving BDSM podcast, episode four thirty six. Kayla Lortz here with the one, the only, the guy who knows how to get me to calm the hell down and relax with a few good smacks. John Brownstone. Figured that's what you needed. I mean, ass and face. I was just I'm Right. I'm a little melty in my own brain even right now. Good. You need to be. I did need to be. After the start you had to today? I did need to be. So, we had a topic planned for today.
We were gonna start a whole series that we're gonna do. It was a whole thing. Yeah. I spent two hours, yes, day before recording, down a rabbit hole trying to find the proper wording for the thing that I'm trying to convey. That's how prepared. She even talked to me about it. Right. And then we woke up this morning and The world went shit. And so no. So we didn't wanna cancel the episode. So we're just we're just making this a big old bonus section episode. It's just chatty.
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Okay. Did I decide that the moment you push the button and the podcast listeners came into us all here together that that's when I needed to take a sip of my coffee? Yes. I am using a straw today, so hopefully there will be no slurpy gross sippy noises. Not too many mouth noises. I'm double fisting, and I still got coffee, and I'm bringing water together. You know? Well, I was gonna skip the no. Not the water. I always have
water. I was gonna skip the coffee because I have a Diet Coke, the inferior form of Diet Coke, but Diet Coke waiting for me. And I was like, no. No. No. This day this day calls for coffee. We will have the coffee. So I actually have an a small little bibbit announcement. I was like, we'll we'll put it in here. Sure. So it can seem a little official. So, the twenty twenty five Dom Sub Dynamics virtual summit finished up oh gosh. What is what are
dates and time last week? I think that's I think that's correct. And from all accounts, from everybody I've talked to and heard from, it went really well. If you are able to attend, wonderful. Amazing. If you were not able to attend at all, and have a budget for it, you can purchase the replays of all of the sessions. Totally understand if you're like, nope. Not in this fucking economy. Same. But I wanted to let you know that that is an option.
So that is the one little sad, announcement because it's not exciting or sexy. And here we are. No topic. Just vibes. It's a bonus section episode. Would let's start with why we're we were happy to be tired this morning, but we're tired now. Why are we tired? Because we're parents. Yeah. That's the worry of my life. And and and we support him. The oldest had a concert.
Yep. He is in multiple different performance groups, so that means there's multiple different concerts to go to each semester now. This one's our favorite. It's brass band, so it's mostly fun music. It's a smaller group that's, like, just focused on a specific kind of sound. The music was is always really good. What what I like part of it too is, because it's just a bass brand Right. Brass band. Move. Nope. It's the bass band now. I'm gonna let the kid know. I think I need to go back to bed.
They the songs that they did were shorter than normal concert band. Yes. Yes. And So there are sometimes those children will play a twenty minute song, and I'm like, I that how long is too long? Twenty minutes is too long. But the thing was, the songs are shorter. They played more. They did. They did. It was still an over an hour concert with a fifteen minute intermission in the middle. Even so, it was it was really good. The the the music the the the picks that they did for the
music was was really, really good. Yeah. Some of it a little newer. Some of it, you know, was a mix of I know. And it's weird. The so the last song in the program was titled Dark Side of the Moon. Yeah. Guess who in the audience got all excited. I I saw that title. We were wrong. Damn. We were wrong. So I was prepared to be disappointed. And then they played the damn thing. And I was like, oh, this is so
good. Yeah. Then once once I read the composer's note and I saw a name that wasn't, you know, Gilmore Waters, and I was like, oh, okay. Okay. But yeah. No. The the the professor who conducts that group is very good. It's fun to watch. I mean Mhmm. So the whole thing like, we're happy to be there. This is the tail end of the semester for the 19 year old. He is grumpy. He is tired. He is cranky. Yep. We didn't wanna stay too late.
So normally after performance, I offer to buy the college student who doesn't have a lot of money food because that's what you do. Right? And so but that adds an extra thirty, forty five minutes, sometimes an hour depending on what it is. And where we go. Yeah. Right. So I'm texting, the kid before the concert. I'm like, hey. Do you want food? If so, do you want us to get it for you? Do you wanna go somewhere? Or would you just like the cash and you can DoorDash yourself something?
He's like, cash, please. Just Mhmm. Just let me DoorDash it. And I was like, okay. Good. And somehow, we still didn't make it home till almost 11:00, and I still don't know how that worked, but there we were. Now in in my personal situation Part of it was we had to do the speed limit because there were so many cops along the road last night. Am Have you ever seen that many cops? Too, which makes it harder to, like, walk them. Yeah. I've never seen that many on that stretch of road.
Not at this point in the month No. Either. I don't know. But I I will say I have a I get to have a little bit of extra tired because two days prior on Sunday, I spent nine hours with the 19 year old, running errands, feeding him, and then going to a performance. Yeah. I don't know how much any of y'all might know about instruments, called tubas and euphoniums. They're they're brass instruments. They're beautiful sounds. Blah blah blah. It's delightful. I'm happy
to support everybody's children. That's great. I did learn how if the question is how much tuba in euphonium is too much, I found it. I found the limit. Ten ten ten pieces being performed by by somebody's children. I only cared about my child, and he went number three. And then there were seven more after him and I was like, okay. Okay. I'm gonna keep clapping and smiling because it was a very small venue. So conceivably they could look up in the audience and actually see people.
And I was like, don't don't look tired. Don't look tired. Don't look look over this. Don't don't look like you're done. Yeah. So I've gotten to spend a lot of time with a 19 year old, which is which is delightful. We'll go back. We were supposed to go back next week for another performance, but the cranky at the time, 19 year old, went don't even bother. Don't bother. Think it's a real performance. I was like, but this was our opportunity to go to Cheesecake Factory.
He was like, I don't care. Don't don't show up. I don't give a fuck. Okay? Woah. Can I I don't I don't know how unique this is? Maybe it's not that unique at all. I did not know The Cheesecake Factory existed until TV taught me that. And then I didn't know it was real, until several years after whatever TV show, taught me about The Cheesecake Factory. And I still have never gone. Yeah. Yeah. I think that's probably what I learned about too. Mhmm.
I still have never gone to one, but we have a gift card to it, and they're in Gainesville. And it's like, we only go to Gainesville for a couple of reasons. Maybe we have to go for a a different reason. I don't know. I don't know. I think if the kids, found out we went to Cheesecake Factory without them, that might be the one time they would be a little annoyed by us. Hey. You know what? They mostly don't care if we go out to eat without them, but that's the one time I think we
would be hearing about it. Yeah. So I was like, at The Cheesecake Factory? No. So the, the next performance is actually on the last day of that they have of classes before finals or whatever. So but Bunny says the portions are huge. I had heard that. I had heard that. And they they better be because I was looking at a a recent menu, and it was, like, $13 for one slice of cheesecake. I'm like, no. No. One slice, I better be a big slice. Better be some special darn cheesecake. Mhmm. Mhmm.
Mhmm. Yep. Yeah. So yeah. So that's why we're tired. We're happy. We got to see the kid. We got to hear good music. That that the Brass Band concert is always lightly attended because it's a smaller group, so Yeah. Less friends of, family of, whatever whatever. Yep. Yep. So there I think there might have been 30 people in the room, and it's their big auditorium.
The next one, the final one we'll go to will be packed to the rafters because any of the students who so music student thing they have to do, they get a credit every semester for going to watch other people's performances. And you have to go to a certain amount. I've never asked how many that is.
And so typically, most students go at the very beginning of the semester to get it out of the way, but you can always tell who's trying to, like, get that last credit earned towards the end of a semester Yeah. Because it's a whole different group of kids. It it it was funny because at first, I didn't really understand what was happening when we first started going to some of
these concerts. Mhmm. But, you know, you sit down and then you see these kids walking in, they've got programs, and they're taking selfies holding the program. The proof they were there. And and they and they turn around so the stage is visible behind them. Yep. Yep. What what are they what's going on? Yeah. They're not just doing it for the gram. Yeah. They are doing it for proof that they were there so they could get their
credit. Yep. Yeah. It's funny. I know. Can I tell you, I can't my brain is not yet wrapped itself around the fact that we are about to have a junior in college? Yeah. That child will be a junior in college in a couple months. In a couple yeah. What the hell? What is time I can't believe it. Y'all. I don't know. It's That's so weird. Scary. That's so weird, which means we're that much closer to having a college graduation. What the what the hell? Anyway I know.
So so I will I I would like to publicly complain about this one of the things that stressed me out today. Got an email in the middle of the night. I tried to make a purchase on the kinkery, thekinkery.com. I've tried multiple times. It will not go through. I'm like, goddamn. Damn. Typically, that's really a pain that's really like your card is not working properly, but I don't ever say that. I go check and I have ways to check. Nope. Nope. It was an Us problem. It was an Us problem.
So I had to so you have to then date this back a little bit. About a week ago, I started getting random emails from the payment processor and that's how, like, you put in your credit card information and it goes through and we get money and you get product. That that that's the payment processor. We've been with the same payment processor since, was it, 2022, '20 '20 '3? Yeah. The last time the site stopped working because I couldn't take payments that time. It's been the it's been the same one.
Yeah. So when they when that same one sent emails going, congratulations. Your, account has now been activated. I'm like, spammer who? Like, what? Are you legit? They don't send any information that says, hey. This thing has changed on our back end, which means you get a new merchant ID number. Here are the steps that you have to take. They don't tell me that at all. The people that we deal with, they are not the bank themselves. They're like a a go between. Right.
They're yes. They're the ones that allow you to be able to take everybody's credit card. Right. We they they are like a buffer between the the bank and us Right. So to speak. They are the ones that make the mechanism. So what what happened was the people that they use as a bank to run all these transactions, they changed. They didn't tell anybody. They didn't tell anybody, and they didn't tell you in the the multiple emails that came through. There was no information. It was just you
need to activate. And I'm like, I know I don't need to activate. I'm active. Then they leave. Okay. I know. I understand that the responsible adult thing to do would have been to either just go ahead and call or after I got the second email to call them back. But they were giving me no good information in the voicemails either and I'm like, okay, when I get some time I will focus on this but but everything's still working. I even got an email that said, everything is still working. We
updated things in the background for you. You just need to call this one number and do this thing. Mhmm. Cool. Cool. Cool. Cool. Cool. Except now my payments aren't working. So I had to call. I had to call two people. I had to change two passwords. They had to walk me one one change passwords because I didn't know how to use a computer, y'all. That one was my that one was my fault. But then now I'm like, how long has the problem been going on? I don't know. How many sales do we
miss? I don't know. I don't know. How do I get those people back? I don't know. Right. It's fixed. It was an easy fix. It was just an annoying fix. And sure, sure, sure, I know. Just answer the phone or respond to the first email. I know what the answer is. I'm not stupid. I'm just unwilling. Okay? If you can't give me context for what the hell is happening, it can't possibly be my problem yet. Yeah. But it was definitely my problem. Oh, god. It's definitely my problem.
Kim says in the live chat, having a graduate does not equate to empty nest. Just saying. That's true. Here's the thing. I I agree, and I know that's true, and we will let the kid know, hey. If you need to come home, you can come home. This child has been trying to be free from the womb and will probably go, can I sell a kidney to not have to live with my parents anymore? I'm not saying that if he'll, you know, have that kind of luck and it'll work out for him.
I'm saying he's gonna do almost anything short of committing a felony to not have to move. Yeah. Whereas the the youngest will be prying out of here with a crowbar. Right. Who look. The youngest has said, I don't wanna go anywhere. I'm like, eventually, you you'll wanna have sex and not, you know, have to worry that your parents can hear you. You might try to go somewhere. But yeah. No. The 18 year old will do almost anything to not apply for him.
And I hope, you know, that that does happen for him. I do too. You know? So Yeah. Exes, let's be real, felonies may not be off the table either. Well, in this, crumbling economy, who the hell knows? Right. It's a little ironic that the, set list from last night's concert included a piece from Hunger Games. Hunger Games. Yeah. I was like, oh, okay, professor over there. I I see what you're saying to the rest of them. Right? Yeah. So yeah. But yeah. So it it really did all get
sorted. I just I was discombobulated. I I'm already now I don't wanna say struggle like I'm like, oh, no. Falling apart. But, like, it kinda is a struggle sometimes when you realize that you cannot think clearly, you cannot think of the words you need. Mhmm. The the ability to just do tasks that that you could do prior with no real thought, you just did them, take a whole hell of a lot of thought, and then throw in the middle an confusing process
that nobody's explained. And I'm like, I would rather give myself a root canal, so I will avoid that until I literally cannot. And, of course, by the time you you face something head on that you can no longer avoid, it's worse than if you just handled it in the first place. So but Pepperidge Farm cookies. I I remember being a kid and those being an absolute luxury Yeah. In my family. Oh, yeah. We did not have Pepperidge Farm cookies money, y'all. No. Not really. Or Intamins. Let's go ahead.
No. We didn't we didn't get them on a regular, but when we did I remember them being delicious. But everything I not everything maybe, but a lot of the things that one, I thought of as luxuries, and two, that I thought were delicious as a kid Mhmm. I'm sure it's formula changes, recipe changes, material changes. I'm sure there's changes for it. They are never delicious. When I try them again as an adult, it is disappointing.
Yeah. So Yeah. But also now I want cookies, but I still I keep saying it and doing nothing about it. Maybe that's because I keep going to the college town to help the college child, to support the college child and having no time for anything. I have a mix in our pantry of snickerdoodle blondies from Aldi. I don't I know every Aldi is set up just a little bit different because I've now, attended one, two, three or four different Aldis around here.
But you know that section there's there's an aisle where there'll be, like, home stuff and bathroom stuff and garden stuff, but there'll be this little section of, like, oh, look at our name brand shit that we don't normally carry, but we got it for five minutes. That's where I found it for anybody who might be looking. So And, Junie, yeah. The mint Milanos, those were my those those were my favorites. Can I tell you I never liked the Milanos Really? As much. Like, I would eat them.
I'm not gonna say no to a fucking cookie. Oh, no. It The Milanos are my dad's favorite, but they they were like No. The the regular Milanos or the mint? Oh, yeah. Well, you Bring them. Bring them. Look. You're a slut for anything mint. Okay? And that's not slut shaming. I'm celebrating his slutty Okay. Thank you. Just for mint. But you are a mint slut. I am.
I mean, Aldi also started for a while or still is, I don't know, had Blue Bell ice cream, including the full one gallon, like, massive thing of Blue Bell. Did we go digging through the cooler when we realized they had mint chocolate, chip or mint chocolate or whatever it is? Mhmm. Also, I know for You'll see. Several years during shrinkflation and everything, Blue Bell one of Blue Bell's selling points is they're like, no. No. Our ice cream is still a gallon. We are not making
it smaller. Right. I did not realize how much smaller everybody been making their ice cream. I was like, a gallon is huge. It's huge compared to what the others are now. Yeah. Yep. Yep. So You know, Steam Fire and Ice, I have never had the raspberry Milanos. Never tried those. Once I realized I didn't really care for Milanos in general and mint Milanos, I wasn't giving raspberry a chance. I just wasn't. Raspberry, I I'm a little about raspberry. Like, it's a little too tart for me.
And I don't know if it's just I've never had genuinely perfectly ripe, like, should be eaten right now they're so ripe raspberries or what, but they're a little too tart for me. So so, yeah, we have come to the let's talk about food portion. Is there anything going on in our lives? That's usually what a bonus section is. You know, I have to say for all that I still continue to be a little like, who the hell gives a fuck about the bonus section? Clearly, some of y'all do, and
I appreciate you. I have had a couple of people who said that they have learned how to navigate bits and pieces of their own power exchange exchange relationships based on the conversations we've had in the bonus sections. I find that fascinating. I'm glad we could be helpful. I mean, I do I have that that weird thing in my head that says if I'm not actually, like, helping anybody, what is even the point? Sure. Sure. Sure. Sure. Do I need therapy for that? Probably.
So, we did not have water, and we're under a boil notice, and that was annoying. Again? Well, it's because we didn't get notice of the not having the water because we were doing things where we needed water and then I needed to, like, wash my hands or something and I go to turn the tap on. And it's not that we don't have any water, it's that we have no water pressure. No pressure. It's just And I'm like, is is it us? Not like a bill thing. That's on autopay.
It's paid. I'm not worried about that part, but, like, is this a problem at our house we need to call a plumber? Or is this So I I I texted the neighbor, and they were like, hang on, let me check. And they're like, yeah, no. No water pressure. And, what, about half hour later? Yeah. We got a we got the call. Yeah. And was it that point where I was
like, I have to take a shower. I have to go out in public, and I cannot this is a this is a no, no, no. You cannot just put this up in a ponytail and slap some deodorant on it and call it good. You have got to get get some water on you. So I'm I don't understand anything about how many things work. I'm like, look, can I take a shower? This was before they had put the announcement out. Like, we were going, well, there's water. There's just no pressure. I was like, is it safe? Should
I Jamie goes, go. I I said, look, I'm willing to run through the drops. I I'm like, I'm not I don't care that there's no water pressure. I just is it safe for me to get in there and use it and clean my body? Jamie goes, yeah. Yeah. Sure. You're fine. And it was make it quick? Right. It's basically right as I'm stepping out of the shower and have run through the drops to try to get wet. And he's like, oh, yeah. Water's out. Okay. Good timing. Good timing.
Yeah. Oh, cool. Yeah. They this this seems to happen a lot here with us with the water. It got to the point we, Yeah. We we, you know, it it used to be here in Florida, you stockpile water for the storm season. We stockpile water for the unexpected boil water notice. And considering I don't think it was last week. I think it was the week before. We were without water for a full day, and I realized because I don't have babies to need baby wipes, I was like, I need to clean something off of, like,
a body part. Mhmm. And I don't have access to water, so we now, have some baby wipes too. Yeah. For if you really do need an emergency cleanup and you don't have water. But yeah. We do. We prepare more for our water going out or being on boil notice than we do for storms anymore. Yep. Yep. Yeah. I mean, do I feel like the way things are going, in our own state government, let alone federal, that hurricane season's gonna be a Mad Max
situation? Yeah. I do. I do. Yeah. But, we're prepared because we don't trust our own local utility to keep our water on consistently. Of all the things we have, we have water. Mhmm. So yeah. Anyway, what else? Lola is snoring like she just got off a double shift at Denny's. Mhmm. And I think she's genuinely asleep because her ears are down and relaxed. I think so. Yes. They are. She she truly is asleep.
She will snore, and her eyes will be closed, and you're like, she's asleep, but there will be one ear up, like a sonar Yeah. Thing. And I'm like, oh, no. You're not asleep. Mhmm. You are just pretending. Yeah. You're just resting your eyes. Yep. Yep. So What else? Mhmm. I'm, still slowly building
the CNC machine. Oh my god. Yeah. Yesterday was the first time you were really, like, maybe I should've just paid the extra money for them to put it because this is the thing I the only way I can help you is you tell me what button to push. I know. And we learned that even after all these years, sometimes we don't communicate the same way. JB's like, press it. Okay. I did press it. But to me, press it means press. And I'm like, oh, he's like, no. No. Keep pressing it. I'm like, oh, so you mean
tap it? He goes, no. And finally, he goes, press and hold. I was like, oh, that I get. But I've learned with the mechanical stuff, if I'm trying to be, you know, the the assistant or whatever, I wanna be very clear on the instructions because I can see how it can be easy if if I don't feel like I fully understand. And truly, I don't know if it's just because we're we're tired or my my brain is Swiss cheese or what, but there have been a lot of weird misunderstandings
between us because of communication. So I have learned if I do not feel a % confident, I'm gonna keep asking questions, but poor JB just wanted to get the damn job done. And I'm like, no. No. No. Let me everybody stop saying words. Here's what I'm interpreting. And that's when I did the tap thing. I'm like, is this what you mean? He goes, no. Nope. Nope. I was like, aren't you glad we sorted this out before we started? Yeah. So I'm I'm I'm at the point where now, basically, it's all built.
Right. It it's all put together. And, I got the software loaded and and now trying to figure all that out. Right. So Right. Exactly. And again, thank you know, thankfully, they have been the the company has been very, very knowledgeable. Did you ever get into the super secret Facebook group? No. So I wonder if it's even an active group or not. I know. I'm I'm beginning to wonder about that too, but hey. Well, that's like I I haven't heard back
yet. I'm I'm waiting to find out. I found, a section where they have, like, all these video tutorials on on the software and other things, and I'm like, cool. So I go to the link and I and and everything's labeled. This this is these are all free. Just, you know, you can watch. And I clicked, and it went to the page, and the video came up. You do not have permission. Damn it. Yep. So I emailed them and was like, I want permission. How do I get permission? Please
teach me. Yeah. Please let me see how this works. Mhmm. That's okay. I have been, watching tutorials about using just a little bit of a spoiler here. Pouring resin in cap molds. So it's like for three d things, not things that are initially flat, and they have a cap on them. What do we have a cap mold of? Oh, that might be some d 20 dice to because somebody suggested making those into diabolical sticks, and we went, yeah. That sounds good. And we literally had a custom mold made,
y'all. Mhmm. Like, spent the money, waited the four weeks for them to make it and ship it Yeah. And then realized, oh, yeah. I I knew before we did this that this would be a different way to pour resin, but I did not I didn't know what that meant. I now have to go find out what that means. Yeah. Yeah. We got them to do a custom size that's big enough for the carbon fiber rod that gets epoxied into it. So, yeah. Mhmm. Yeah. Thank you to Junie for that amazing idea.
Mhmm. Mhmm. And then for the folks who backed up that idea in the Discord server, a lot of weird shit happens in our Discord server, by either being terrified or or excited. Well, that's a winning that's a winning product idea right there. And we're both terrified and excited. Which is how I am about things like that, quite frankly. But we have we've been moving slower with the shop than we typically do, but that's because you've kinda been going through it
health wise. Yeah. He's fine, but he's still been going through it. Yeah. And but we're also trying to revamp lips and I know. Yeah. We're also trying to revamp some products, and we're trying to do it right the first revamp. So we're taking our time. Lola woke up. She is ready to go outside. She clearly has us well trained because she just walks the door and does her, like, beautiful Staffordshire Terrier stance, and stands there and just waits because she's like, I I
can't make it any clearer than this. You shouldn't open the door for me. Somebody will come along and open the door, surely. Mhmm. And she only starts, howling slash crying when you make her wait too long. Right. So good on you for not making her wait too long. I try. Mhmm. I try. Is do you think she does that outside that she goes and stands there and waits and that she only starts crying when she realizes nobody was aware of her presence on the other side of
the door? Oh, yeah. Okay. That makes sense. Yeah. Now it was funny, earlier when she was out there howling, I went up to the door. I didn't open the door. I responded to her in kind. I howled back at her. I because you're a menace. Okay? That's that's what that is about. That's what that is about. And she, she stopped howling. Silent asked if the d twenties are sharp edged d twenties. Do you know after all this time, because it's now been six weeks since I started the research order,
custom order request order process. I literally don't even know anymore. I'm a have to pour a batch, and we'll see what these d twenties look like. Mhmm. So but I did think, like, one how how is it not diabolical to put, a a is it die or dice? Y'all know what I mean. At the end of a carbon fiber rod and go, yeah. You should hit somebody with that. That just feels diabolical to me. I don't wanna be hit with it. I mean okay. So For science? For no. For marketing. Oh, well Let's be clear.
The reels on Instagram where we get the most views, the most interaction, and the most bullshit fucking comments that make me wanna run screaming from the Internet forever are on the diabolical stick demo videos. I have plenty of people who are like, oh, it because I always let my natural, like, reaction sounds, screams into the videos to give people who actually give a fuck an idea of what they're
getting into. Well, the people who don't know anything about anything are probably not kinky at all, just the algorithm somehow fed them this, or like, it can't hurt that bad. Only once have I seen somebody reply to a comment like that going, well, come here. Let us hit you with it. And then on the other side, which is the thought that I have Yeah. Every time I see that. Mhmm. So oh my god. Silent. That's perfect perfect. Perfical. Perfical is what nearly came out of my fucking mouth.
Die, d I e, diabolical. I I saw that. Yeah. Yeah. That that will should I put you on payroll silent? You are our historian. And and and role for role for pain? Yeah. You oh, that will be used as tagline in the copy something. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You know, it's funny because once the idea for the d 20 was put in my brain hole, that's the only one that I
focused on, like, looking at the shapes. But I have because I've been watching all these tutorials now, I'm like, oh, here are some other evil shapes. Look. Look. Maybe I'll make a side hustle off of the backs of these and just make dye to sell or make dice to sell on an Etsy shop or something. I don't know. X says payroll would be welcomed. God, I wish we had enough for payroll. Alright. So but yeah.
So, yeah, that's that's happening. I gotta start I gotta pour my first first test batch with the things that I'm learning, to see if I know what the hell I'm doing. But Yeah. Yeah. We have probably because we've gotten busy. Probably because there's just been a lot of other stuff going on. Mhmm. We have not, we need to plan for more of the, hey. Here are some things we're gonna try for our, power exchange. Mhmm. We do have a plan.
I'll give you another spoiler. I think I mentioned this a hot minute ago. There are I'm now aware of three. There may be more, but I'm aware of three apps that are designed for power exchange kinky couples Mhmm. Kinky relationships, I should say. Mhmm. Two are made by the same company. One is not, and they have reached out going, hey. We'd love we'd love it if you used our
app. Well, I'm gonna use it the way I wanna use it and not because you paid me to so I can say whatever mean thing I need to say about it. But, we intend for that to be an episode after having tried multiples just talking about our experience. So oh, yeah. And then I lost my train of thought right in the middle of it. Sorry. I did. It was gone. It was gone. The
worst part is look. Look. On the podcast, y'all are anybody listening, y'all can tell when I've, like, just wandered off and the thought's gone, but it can sound like just a silence while I'm trying to find the thought or get back on track. With the camera, y'all can literally watch my face go blank. Just yeah. Okay. Okay. So I need if you are a listener who does not normally get to watch live or never watch live, I I highly recommend just coming for the live chat. Jesus god.
So both Junie and Silent and was it Junie and Silent? And, Steam, Fire, and Ice. Thank you. Remember that that I am the proud owner of penis glitter, penis shaped glitter. You are. And yesterday, day before, I can't remember. I was I think it was while I was watching the videos. I was like, oh, should I learn how to do resin inclusions and use the penis shaped glitter in some of these d 20 dice? It it it it might you know? Yeah. I It's gonna be interesting. It's gonna be interesting.
Yeah. We try when we make certain things that we want to be repeatable, whether it's with resin or anything else, we try and stick to with resin, we try to stick to, like, the same colors over and over again. Mhmm. Especially for anything we're gonna keep, like, on a rotating regular basis. That just makes it you don't have to, like, use a a lot of creative brain space to come up with a new idea every time. We're gonna revamp our technically, it's a air
quote building brick, diabolical. Y'all, it's a fucking Lego. We're gonna revamp the colors we use, but we're still gonna, like, have those be systematized so we can be as efficient as possible. But with the d twenties, I kinda don't wanna do that. I just wanna do different, like, random crazy pours Mhmm. And be, like, here. You know? So but oh, silence says, that was two years ago. I can't believe you still haven't used it,
meaning the peanut shaped glitter for anything. There are so many things on my, heavy duty, I hope we never have to lift them ourselves, shelving units that I've had for in little jars and little bags. The amount of mica, glitter, markers, alcohol inks. I have so many things I've never used. So yeah. I'm just Yeah. Mhmm. Mhmm. I just, you know, I just wish there was time and money in the day to do all the crazy
fun things. Yeah. I we're gonna have to restock some supplies soon, and I am terrified of what that's gonna mean cost wise. Yeah. Because we buy for the most part, we buy from American companies because the shipping is gonna be cheaper. Right? Right. But I don't necessarily know where they source the stuff they're selling us. I do assume it some of it is probably most of it is probably not from The US, and so they were already expensive before. Yeah. We need to buy more resin.
I am fucking terrified. That's gonna be expensive. Mhmm. And my candle making supplies. That's gonna be expensive. Yep. It's gonna be expensive. Well, that's like, you know, do some of the sand most of the sandpaper Mhmm. I use, comes from Germany. Oh, okay. Yeah. And and I love it. Yeah. It's it's a good such a good paper. It holds up so well and does such an excellent job. So, yeah. I don't know what's future is gonna bring with that. No. No. I'm a
look. I like to learn new things, and I, you know, I like to tell myself for myself. I do not apply this to other people. That the things I go through help me learn things and make me the person I am, and that's how I know how to, like, blah blah blah blah blah blah blah, all that bullshit.
This was not the life lesson I wanted to learn, being a business owner who makes a product at a time when consumers are terrified to spend their own money and makers are a little terrified to make anything Yeah. Because how expensive is this is not the life lesson I really wanted to learn. This I've learned so many life lessons in forty five years. This one didn't have to go on the list. I don't I don't wanna learn what it means to be a a product based business
owner in a recession. I really do. Yeah. Nope. Nope. We could've kept that one off the list. We really could've. Well, that's like all the, all the pen components that I get. Mhmm. Any of those components, they either come the bulk of them come from Taiwan. Mhmm. Okay. Okay? And some come from China. Sure. There there is not anybody. There is no one in The US. Because they couldn't make them at the prices they're able to sell them at if they had to make
them here. It's it's too Yeah. You know, and that is the from a personal ethics, like, what feels right to me kind of thing. That is always the hard part of to make a product that people can afford to buy in our own country, the components cannot be too damn expensive. So, yay, I'm grateful for these cheap products from other countries, but also I know that they can do cheap products typically because they do not pay their people enough, and that's not
right. Yeah. I just which is why, there's many reasons we have not ever hired, like, a virtual assistant or, you know, whatever whatever. It's because and this is advice I have seen in different, like, how to own your own business and be an entrepreneur advice. Oh, just use x y z company who employs people in this country. They're only gonna get paid $2 an hour. It'll be cheap
for you. And I'm like, no. Mhmm. No. If I can't afford to pay somebody to work in my business at a wage, even if it's like air quote minimum wage that somebody could maybe do something with that money off of, I'm not fucking hiring them. Damn. You know, I just and not $7.25 an hour minimum wage. Florida minimum wage is supposed to be, what, 15? We're doing it in stair steps, but eventually, we're supposed to get to $15 an hour, I think. That. That's what I would pay somebody.
Yep. And if you can't afford to pay somebody, like, a a wage that is not embarrassing to admit that you paid another human being, I'm not gonna hire them. I'm not gonna hire them. This is how it works. Mhmm. So but we we know that and we agree to that and we know that that means there will be a ceiling on our own business abilities because there's only so much two human beings who are rapidly aging can physically do.
Mhmm. And we're comfortable with that. I never never thought I wanna work for myself myself so I can make a million fucking dollars. I wanna live and pay my bills. That's what I wanna do, have an environment. And for me, that is in part why I was insistent on on the CNC machine. Yeah. You know, I I love what I do. I I I do. I enjoy going out and and and working in my shop, whether I'm making something for the kinkery, whether I'm making something, you know, for the wood dom.
I I like it. I enjoy it. Mhmm. But, yeah, I am I ain't gonna lie. I'm I'm getting older, and I don't take as good care of myself as I probably should. I'm trying to get you to change that. I know. The tough love clause only goes so far. Yeah. Just saying. I know. I know. I know. But also, we're under the American health care system, so that's some of that's out of our hands. I know. But,
you know, yeah. With with, my intention is to, you know, once I get it up and running and learn, you know, more about it, that, it can take a little bit of off of me. Pressure off of me. Yeah. Yep. Yeah. Which here's the irony, and I'm gonna tell you this because, y'all, we do the kind of honesty that hurts around here, because I agree with them, but also I'm like, then you're not gonna like this next thing. So I popped up a video on Instagram of you just cutting out part of a
a resin inlay Yes. Paddle. And those have to be hand cut the way they're shaped, the way that both those are hand cut. Somebody actually commented, I really appreciate that you're hand cutting those. And Really? I was like, oh, thanks. And in my head, I was like, well, you're not gonna like some of the new shit. Yeah. I know. Because sometimes you just need the help of a machine. Right. Yep. Not enough hours in a day. No. God. No. Never enough hours in a
day. But And, you know, part of part of what I've been trying to do, along with everything, is is to make time to to sit down and and relax and unwind. We have to, or we won't be able to keep going, for sure. You know, and that's, but, you know, that that's why I've been making a point to, sit outside in the evening right now. You are so adorable when you're out there because, he's taking care of some personal business out there.
I don't know how much I'm allowed to say, so I'm trying to keep it whatever. And then he he took with the okay. So one of the electives that the 15 year old took for homeschool this year was a music elective to learn to play the banjo. And somehow, someway, we are in possession of two banjos, so JB said, oh, I'll take this class with you. Ukulele. You did I say banjo? Goddamn. Why did I say banjo? Sweet girl. Ukulele? Holy shit. Yep. Holy shit. Wrong with my whole chest. God damn.
Mhmm. Ukulele. Somehow, we're in the possession of two ukuleles. And so Jamie says to the 15 year old, do you mind if I sit in on these with you? And that was great because that got the 15 year old to actually sit down and do the lessons or whatever whatever. So now we're post like, the lessons have been done. There's no more lessons to do. And I'll just go outside, and JB's having a moment to himself, in the backyard and just strumming on his little ukulele. And it's been adorable.
So, yeah. In in the evening after dinner, if I'm, you know, if I do the dishes, I I do all the dishes, do all that stuff. And, I go sit outside and, have my flower. Elevate, as we like to call it. And, I I practice the ukulele It's adorable. For, like, half an hour. And and, you know, I do I printed out some of the stuff from the, The lessons already. The lessons that we took. And, I've I've been organizing it in a notebook for me. You're so cute. And,
yeah. Thus far, I have learned four chords and I can recognizably play happy birthday. Good for you. I can row, row, row your boat. Good for you. Did I have to, gently bully him with love the other day when he was like, maybe I'm too old to learn how to do this, and I don't really have determination and the willingness to put in the hard work to practice. Mhmm. And if you don't have the natural aptitude, maybe it takes you a little bit longer, but who the fuck cares? This isn't a race.
So just as long as you love it or you like it or it feels, like, worth the effort you have to put in, keep fucking doing it, she said with love and submissively. So so, you know, I I am, you know, it's a little difficult, but I'm finding work around. My left hand has a little bit of arthritis. Mhmm. So, you know, sometimes some of these cords take me a while to Yeah. Work on. Hey. You have a really, like, a really interesting goal for your ukulele playing.
Yes. Yes. The the goal I set for myself with this, was, I will have reached a milestone when I can play the, opening part to Stairway to Heaven. Okay. Stairway to Heaven is what this is the connecting point of this thought. Mhmm. I was reading a book that was about angels and demons, but it was not religious, but they that was just the characters they chose to use for this romancy or whatever.
And Stairway to Heaven in in this universe of this book, y'all, was used for the people who were basically on the escalator down to hell when they thought There we go. It was considered a hellish song and was one of the most reasons, not because, you know, we we're all kinky here or something, but, like, like, going to hell. Hell. Right? Mhmm. They had that that was the song that was their, like, theme song background music as they went
to hell. It was just it was two throwaway lines in the the whole ass story. We get no more content. Said, I just start howling. I was like, oh my god. Yeah. Let's see. For for me, this was, doing this is, how do I explain it without going into you know, I I grew up in an era when, garage bands were huge. Every every kid wanted to be in a garage band and and and play an instrument. Mhmm. You know? And, I wanted to learn to play guitar.
I was infatuated with with the guitar, with the sound, and I I wanted to learn to play guitar. And I couldn't. And, it was when I was today years old that I realized there's nothing stopping me, and if I want to, I can. I can try to learn. You sure as shit can. Yeah. And I am. And we are, getting way better at buying second hand used pawn shop thrift store, and we'll find you a guitar. I have access to one. I thought that one got taken. No. Oh. Still there. Still there. That's cool. Even better.
Don't have to spend no damn money. Right. Oh. And the platform ukulele lessons has guitar lessons. I know. I know. Yep. So yay. Mhmm. But folks in the live chat are talking about weather. And I Canada, I'm so sorry that y'all go from snow to not snow like that. We are getting probably our last little week of oh, this is pleasant a pleasant temperature, and I like being outside now. Well, last week, we were hotter than normal. Jesus God. It was so fucking hot. Yeah. And
this week it's just pleasant. It's spring like. Last week we had July, August weather. Yep. Excuse me. And, but, yeah. Now this week we got a little reprieve, and it's been absolutely beautiful. Yeah. I actually, on top of doing the work I had to do yesterday, I I jumped out there and did a bunch of yard work. Yeah. You did. Yeah. You did. So much yard work. Yeah. Yep. And, because I hadn't been feeling well, it kinda but it's under control now. That's all that
matters. That's all that matters. Yep. Yep. Yep. So that's where I'm at. Excuse me. So yeah. And, yeah. With with the weather changing here, we have, officially entered the animal shedding season. Oh, god. At last, Including the human animals with longer hair. It's delightful. You know, I had not sure how this I was able to do this by quite accident, but, I got Onyx used to being brushed. She likes being brushed. She looks forward to it. She demands it. Yes. She's pushing it.
Mhmm. And and last night, even though it was late as hell when we go home, she wanted her brushing. And I had just cleaned the brush. At one time last night, brushing her for five, ten minutes Full. It was full. Mhmm. Mhmm. With Lola, I every morning when when I wake her up, I I brush her. Mhmm. And earlier this morning, I was petting her before I let her outside, and the fur was just, like, poofing off of her in in waves. So why is Ella our red headed stepchild? Will anybody brush Ella?
Look. Somebody just don't have to put a timer on, come put the brush in my hand, walk me to where I could brush her. That's the only way I'm gonna remember. Mhmm. Mhmm. No. Was it last night? I think think it was last night. Youngest should do it. Don't even get me started. I don't disagree with you, but do not get me started. I think it was last night, Ella decided if you're new here, Ella is a cat. Onyx is a cat. Lola is a dog.
Mhmm. Ella decided she had not gotten enough love and affection, and she's developed a habit. I'll be sitting on the couch at night when I finally go, I am done with this. I'm gonna go sit on the couch and just associate. And I always put a pillow, like, kind of mostly over my boobs to, like, have this, like, platform because then I look at my phone there because I learned from my physical therapist a million years ago to keep my neck from hurting, keep the phone at eye level. Right?
Well, Ella, over time, has taken that to mean, oh, I'm gonna go spend about ten minutes on that pillow on your lap, and we will be together. And I, you know, I pet her. I love her. Eventually, I'm just like, I wanna do my own thing, and I ignore her, but she's there and it's fine. Last night the last time she did it, I don't even remember what night, she was aggressive in you will pet me, you will love me, I am here, that's the top of my head, get busy, bitch, I need affection. I was
like, okay. Okay. Here's here's what I think preceded that. You know, when we got home last night, and after everything got settled, Lola decided she wanted to demand my attention because I was gone all evening. You're not allowed to go. Nope. Nope. Nope. No. And, so we're we're back here in the in the office room, and and she plopped down on the ground, and she, you know, rolled up on her back, which, you know, you gotta give belly rubs. You I mean, you
just really do. You know, you you it it's not an option to say no to giving belly rubs. So I, you know, bent, and I'm I'm giving her belly rubs. Well, Ella shows up while I'm doing this, and she's actually circling us. And, a few times she tried to, push in, you know, and I think she, was jealous of all the attention Lola was getting and that's how she came to you. That's okay. Mhmm. Mhmm. I do I do think look, Ella is kind of a bitch. Okay. She's not kind of a bitch. She's definitely
a fucking bitch. Yeah. But we love her. Mhmm. But she thinks she's pretty. It's Good thing she's pretty. She does not get to hold the brain cell. That I'm sure of. Onyx has commandeered her brain cell and has her own and is like, nope. But she's she's pissed off the wrong people. And now Lola doesn't wanna give her much attention. JB's, like, begrudging. She does love. And yet and yet oh, let me tell JB's secrets for I didn't really like l
that much. I was just so Onyx, every so often will just kinda go off her feet. She just won't eat like she should. Often it's because she's been eating plastic and then her tummy feels yucky. And once she vomits up the plastic, she eats again. Again. But sometimes it's she's tired of wet food. She wants dry food, but she doesn't. We don't know how to, like, figure that out. She doesn't say, like a menu change? Right. Exactly. I'm a little tired
of this. Right? So we figured that out through trial and error. What I learned is that while Onyx is in her I only want dry food dehydrate me daddy mode, right, in that era, so that Ella, who is still eating wet food, because that's our preference anyway, does not feel left out. JB puts the equivalent of croutons on Ella's food so she can think she's having dry food too.
And if he feeds Onyx late at night because she didn't eat a meal and we know she's gonna be hungry and blah blah blah, he makes sure to and it's usually dry food if we do that. He makes sure to give Ella just a few little dry pieces of food so she doesn't feel left out. Because Ella is a fucking bitch, and if I don't do something to distract her, she will go after and push back away from her food. But that does not explain the croutons on top of her wet food. Does not explain it.
Nope. And, yeah, I did I did give JB a whole hell of a lot of shit when I realized he was topping off Ella's food. The one he's like, goddamn cat away. God. I was like, god, you're pretty. He complains about Ella all the time, but she still gets the princess treatment. So Maybe that's it, silent. She's jealous because I don't get first princess treatment. I'm not begrudging you don't, by the way. I'm not begrudging Ella her croutons.
I am saying stop pretending that you don't love this cat if you're going to literally sprinkle extra food on top of her food so she does not feel left out. I'm just saying be honest with both me and yourself. That is what I'm saying. I'm saying I'm calling you on your bullshit out of love and submissively. Do you know that Ella is so bad? I feed the cats first. Both cats get fed first.
And, be because I got tired of having to stand over the cats while they eat to keep Ella from taking food away from Pretty That's for sure. I started feeding Onyx now in a separate room. Yeah. Give me some peace of mind, and and and the nice thing is is that since doing that, Onyx actually eats all of her food now. Right. She's not fighting for her life up there. Right. So, anyway, I I feed the cats first, and I made two shelves in the kitchen. The cats go up on
the shelves on the wall to eat. To not worry about Lola getting a little too curious. So then after they're fed and settled, I feed Lola. Now Lola, her bowl, her food bowl and water bowl are kind of underneath the shelf where Ella Mhmm. Eats. Mhmm. Okay? But not, like, directly at the lower level. It it's lower and and kind of Staggered. Out. Yeah. The the shelves here, and, you know, she's There's a there's a method to the madness, is what we're
trying to communicate. Right. So so anyway, when I feed Lola and put her food down, Ella stops eating, and she leans over the phone. She's like, what what's she getting? That looks very interesting over there. Yep. Look. Look. Both of our cat girls experienced their own kitten level trauma being strays, and they each responded to that trauma in different ways. Onyx will probably never not be anxious and skittish Yep. And terrified for anybody to even see her eat, let alone take a shit.
Ella had the equal but opposite response to practically unhinge her jaw to scoop food in. Oh, my god. And to give zero fucks about where she takes a shit or a piss and will give you eye contact while she's in that litter box. Mhmm. Zero fucks. Yep. So similar childhoods, wildly different responses. Yeah. So yeah. And one time, I, you know, in a lot of times in the morning, when I measure out Lola's breakfast, I will measure out her dinner food too.
Mhmm. And sometimes I do that because, in the morning what I'll do is I'll make a Kong for her, because she she loves that stupid Kong. She she engages with it. It keeps her, you know, keeps her occupied, and, she likes it. So I I had measured out Lola's food, and I set it on the side on the counter, so I could, fill her make her Kong for her. Because, well, I'll I'll I'll actually even then, sprinkle some water on it and free freeze it. So it's It lasts a little bit longer? Mhmm.
And, I walked away from the kitchen, come back a couple minutes later, Ella is up on the counter with her head in the in the dog food. Look, one thing Ella's not gonna do, she's not gonna miss a meal, even if it's a bonus meal that wasn't meant for her. Did you leave it there? Was she capable of getting to it? That seems like a you problem. She's just out here surviving. Doing her thing. Yep. Look. Ella is the one that they all
I love all of them. Truly, truly. We go to ridiculous lengths to take care of these girls. Ella is the one that drives me the most obviously crazy, but the other two, like, I'm I kind of follow Onyx around this house sometimes, not like stalking, but, like, she'll be in a place I need to be and it's like I'm calling her. And I just have to look at her and go, do you know how she wants
she wants your attention. She head butts you until you're scratching behind her ears, but then she lifts her ass up because she likes the base of her tail, you know, rubbed on and loved on. And I'm like, same girl. And and she cries and follows you, and I just have to look at her like, do you know how much easier your life would be if you'd let me fucking pick you up? Mhmm. She does not. No. She won't even sit on my lap anymore.
I think it's because she's decided that's Ella's spot, but she will go sit on your lap. And she will. Now here's the thing Onyx will do that is new. Like, she's maybe relaxing a little bit, after five years of having her, by the way. Well, you know, some some of us do it mellow in old age. Well, she's going to get older before I think she'll she'll be mellow. She walks up now to Ella when she wants Ella's love and affection.
Mhmm. But she has a very low tolerance for it, so the love and affection is allowed to last for about three point two seconds. And then she walks away. Or she smacks Ella. Yeah. And Ella It's To love cat. Wants wants to love everybody Yeah. So bad that she takes the tap, follows Onyx, tries to let her love on her again, begging for I mean, it's really if there was, like, a thing like cat therapy, like, you know, cognitive behavioral therapy, she needs to
be in it. Like, she's clearly got some issues, and I'm a little sad for her. But also, she's still an annoying shit. Well, I I I, you know, I laughed a couple times, because she tried to stick her head in Lola's food bowl while Lola was eating. That's called a death wish. Yeah. I know. I know. That, you know, didn't go over well. No. The weirdest one is when she sticks her whole ass face in Lola's ears. Yes. And I I know she's sniffing. I think she's licking. I'm not sure.
I'm not sure. I don't ask questions. Lola has learned to allow it Mhmm. To a certain extent. She'll she will allow it. You know, she'll most of the time, it occurs when she's on the floor laying down Mhmm. And Ella will come up. And, you know, Lola is a good girl. She really is. You know, she lays there and lets Ella do whatever it is that she's doing.
And, you know, then there comes a point where she's tired of it and she'll lift her head, give Ella side eye, and Ella will just I mean, at least Ella has learned to read the room that much. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So anyway, I can't think of anything else. Me either. But also, I think my brain, like, tried to reboot a couple times during this stream and recording session anyway. I get it. I get it. And we have a
video to record. So I We get to do that this morning with all the I don't know what the Monday episode will be like, but I apologize now. Mhmm. Yep. I think I mean, unless there's other stuff that you're just dying to I'm I'm good at this point. Obviously, there's no actual bonus section because this whole fucking thing was a bonus section. So, thanks for being here with us. While we ramble and forget what words are and Yeah. Just
be our chaotic selves. Mhmm. Can I tell you Lola's snoring in the background is making me sleepier than I already am? Yeah. I cannot sleep while somebody's snoring. I don't really hear her snoring too much right now, but her laying at my feet It's because you're at half capacity with your hearing aids. Yeah. Yeah. I'm a guy. One of my hearing aids, took a dive. Thank god for a warranty. Yep. So anyway, we're gonna go. Thanks for being here. Uh-huh. We'll be back next week with, like, actual
something. Yep. Sure. Mhmm. Bye. Bye. We're not gonna say keep it kinky, y'all, but just know in our hearts, we're thinking.