You're listening to the Loving BDSM podcast episode 422. Kayla Lords here with the one, the only, the guy who looked like a grumpy polar bear when somebody pointed out that he was a grumpy polar bear, and there was an image of a grumpy polar bear that he looked like when he got called out for being a grumpy polar bear. John Brownstone. Wow. It was a very circular thing. That was that was quite the journey. Yes. Just admit you're a grumpy polar bear. Yeah.
Okay. You don't have to, like, prove it by getting grumpy when somebody calls you a grumpy polar bear. Just own it. I thought it was funny. Oh, it was hilarious, except you did kinda give me that dom look where you're like, oh, you done fucked up now? And I was like, wait. This is a joke. I'm being hilarious and everybody around me, but you, thinks I'm being hilarious.
Anyhoo. Anyway, weirdly, that's technically not what we're talking about, but we are we are gonna our relationship is gonna be, like, front and center. We're answering, vanilla relationship questions that were labeled provocative. Oh. So, yeah, that's what that's that's what we're doing this week. Welcome to the Loving BDSM podcast. If this is your first time listening, glad to have you. You're back for another week.
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Okay. Before we get into the questions, announcements. The first one is the kinkery, thekinkery.com, is having a sale right now. Unfortunately, the sale does only apply to US orders. I am so sorry, international folk. But now through December 15th at 11:59 PM EST, if you spend $35 or more, you can get free shipping with a coupon code, free shipping 24. I don't expect you to remember that coupon code. It is literally posted on our site, and it'll be in all the places for the this episode.
$35 is not hard to get to because most of our paddles, I think all of our paddles, except this slapstick, start at $35. So one paddle and you got free shipping. If you wanted to buy, like, candles or something, you gotta buy a couple. But if you're looking for a paddle and here's the thing, that's savings. We do flat rate shipping, and we have to base it on weight because some stuff is heavy. So the savings of free shipping is anywhere from 8 to $11 off. And in some stuff, that's more than 20%
off your the purchase price. So it actually really is a good deal. We only do this for this one week, each year at the holidays. Hopefully, helping folks out who maybe are buying kinky presents or or just wanna save some money. That's all I'm saying. And you're doing stuff so we can do restocks on things. We just did a restock today. Yep. So, yeah, the kinkery.com, $35 and up. Free shipping shipping 24 is the code. For international folks, we are doing something different.
I can't charge you any less for shipping than I do because it's all it's really expensive. But we are now using UPS, so your stuff gets to you quicker. Except if you're in Canada because I didn't check to see if the strike is still going on or not. I was talking to my friend in Canada the other day, and she said the strike is still ongoing. I I started using UPS because u USPS, the post office, is not even accepting stuff to Canada right now.
UPS is at least accepting it, but they were like, it could get stuck in customs. I was like, okay. I wish somebody would tell me that before I buy the shipping label and bring it to the UPS store. So, yeah, kinkery.com, free shipping, 24. $35 or more order, free shipping there. 2nd announcements, even though I don't think it's the 3rd Friday this this week, because I don't know how numbers work in calendars, but I'm pretty sure that
we are doing our Friday night livestream. It is bumped up a week early because of the holidays later this month. I didn't check Hanukkah dates. Are we in Hanukkah right now? Whatever the holidays are, everything's fucked this month. Okay? Yeah. I Oh, jeez. For not having checked what the Hanukkah dates are. Wow. I'm losing it. I am so out of touch with with everything. I thought yesterday was Friday. I know, I know. I know. I was ready for the week to be over on a Tuesday.
For anybody who can't tell while we're just in the announcements at this point, it's it's we're. I I think we're ready for our break. Our brain is melting. Anyway, so this Friday, December 13th. Yes. I believe that is correct. We are doing our, December Friday night livestream, from, repeated requests. We will do demos for dollars situation. So you don't have to pay to watch the stream, or to watch me get hit with something. But if you want to request what I get hit with, you do the super chats.
That'll be Friday. We'll explain how it all works on Friday. And also, because I like to multitask, sure. We'll do a q and a while I'm being hit with shit. That's happened before. That has that has happened before. So, yeah. That's this Friday. Friday night livestream. Tada. I could have sworn there was another announcement, but I didn't write it down. And so now I don't remember it. Oops. My bad. So okay. Okay. And then, oh, thank you, rah rah in live chat. Hanukkah doesn't start until 25th.
Perfect. Wonderful. Wonderful. I I really usually check that because when I'm telling when I'm telling folks from with the Kinkery Excuse me. When the ideal shipping dates are, I try to factor in Hanukkah as well, and I just literally, like Yeah. I don't know what was going on this year. Okay. So we're gonna its whole purpose of this episode Mhmm. Is to answer questions because we do not have the brainpower for anything super serious. I don't know if you could tell or not.
I don't know if I made that wrong. I don't know if I can even answer these questions. I saw them earlier. Stop. So, we haven't done one of these since July of this year. I went and checked, whatever, the archives or whatever. These are from Therapy Jeff, who I like. I have linked to the post on his Instagram where I found these questions. I'm sure he's on TikTok. I am not on TikTok. Instagram reels, forever. So, if you want to, answer these questions with a partner of your
own, feel free. He called them provocative. And as as I was listening to him, I was like, okay. Yeah. Provocative might be the right word. They're they're, like, a little bit spicy. Okay? I don't know what you'll get out of this other than maybe some entertainment because clearly we're already feeling goofy and we haven't gotten into them. Already feeling goofy and we haven't gotten into
them. Yeah. I was kinda glad I was looking at these and listening to these early because I had to start thinking about what the answers might be. Because some of them it's about memory and I don't Yeah. I don't have good memory. Same. Same thing. I don't Yeah. I don't have good memory. Same. Same thing. Same. So, okay. Okay. Here we go. First question. Mhmm. I I think we can fudge because it
does ask in detail and it's okay. And if for anybody who needs a reminder, I'll I'll be reading it, but JB's gonna answer as if I asked him and then I'm gonna answer as if he asked me. Right. Right. Okay. There we go. Can you describe in detail the moment you knew you were attracted to me? Was it when you saw my boobs on the Internet? Yeah. Yeah. How how did you know? How did you know? I assumed. I was like, oh, boobies. That was before I got brave on putting
other parts there. So yeah. Yeah. No. But, I I think for me, it was after we moved to email for our chats. Okay. You know, we moved away from the blog commenting. Yeah. Yeah. Was it because I made the first move with email? Did that was like like a little little pep in your step there? A little bit. Yeah. I don't know why I'm moving my body because podcast listeners provocative. I'm so glad the podcast listeners can't see that. I am so sorry to use your plugs.
So, okay, was was it because our conversations were maybe more in-depth than they had now? Because they they were getting into, you know, actually getting to know one another. Gotcha. So I feel bad now for my answer. Uh-oh. The first time I knew I was attracted so here's the thing. I knew I was intrigued. I knew I felt comfortable with you, which was that was huge. I couldn't remember the last time I felt comfortable with somebody
in email. But the time I realized, oh, oh, oh, I'm fucked, was when I heard your voice for the first time when we had that first phone call where I was terrified and crying or almost crying because I was so scared. Because you have a good voice. You have a good voice. You have a good voice. Okay. Thank you. It's subjective. That's fine. You don't have to agree with me out there in the world. Got a good voice. And you I I don't like listening to the sound of your
voice. You don't. Most people don't. Because it's not the same in your head as it is to the right. So no. It was you were you have one of those voices that especially when you're trying to come across as kinda calm and, like, not frazzled. I think it's why I get frazzled when you get frazzled because that didn't feel right. It's a very, like, calm, soothing, comforting voice, but, also, I know you're a dom, and that's kind of how we were relating to another. So it was like, oh, it was like
being wrapped up in a warm hug. I was like, oh, okay. Okay. Yes. We both were attracted to one other before we ever laid eyes on each other. That's never been a secret, I think. No. Okay. This one this one threw me, and I it's okay if it throws you. Is there a scent or fragrance you associate with our most intimate moments? I wouldn't say intimate. Okay. Intimate moments, but, it is a scent that I associate with you, from the first time meeting you. Okay. And it's the rosemary peppermint
Shampoo. Shampoo and body wash I used to use. Yeah. That I use again now. Yep. But your smelling has gotten worse. I know. Ability to smell has gotten worse over the years. I I'd have you'd have to just be in the shower with me while I'm washing my hair to smell it. Then I would probably. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. So Yeah. It's it's yeah. That's I like that. I like that. Well, here's what's funny because I couldn't use that shampoo for a very long time because my hair was being dyed. Not even the
vivid colors, like, just dyed. And now, no, too broke for that. So I was like, let me see if I could go find the shampoo and conditioner again. I was very nostalgic. I was like, yeah. My daddy liked that, so I'll do it again. He can't smell it now, but it makes me happy. It's fine. I see the bottles of Michelle and I smile all day. So I have I have 2 smells that probably make sense and one that is so inappropriate, but it's
us, so we're gonna go with it. So I never know what beard balm lotion cream you're using, but anytime I smell it or I just sniff your beard, oh, it's like being in a warm hug. Like, you're not even touching me. It does look a little weird, but sometimes I'm literally nuzzling his damn beard. Because it smells so good. Actually, your scent post shower, you're always like, yeah. That's what soup will do. I'm like, yeah. But you smell good. Okay? I'd like to hump your leg right now. Whatever.
The other smell, it's rare because it's been so long, is leather. And that comes from a few different things. When we used to ride your bike together and you were wearing your leather jacket, almost every vlogger that I've known and liked had was kind of that Leather. Right. Right. Right. Some form of leather. Right. Your your big leather boots, like, just leather. It makes me think of kink. It makes me think of the motorcycle. It makes me think of, like, all that stuff. Your your play collar
and cuffs? Yep. Yep. Yep. Oh, yeah. I if I think about leather, I can actually feel the the the texture of the bit gag in my mouth. And there's not actually I'm not actually sucking on the leather. It's actually a plastic thing, but still. The third inappropriate smell, It's a very personal one. It's not like I go anywhere and I'd, oh, it just I it hits me. No. No. No. This one can only occur in our bedroom, and it is post sex smell. I am sure anybody who walked in would
be like, what the fuck is this? Somebody spray some Febreze. But I'm like, like, the next day oh, god. Especially if I hadn't changed sheets yet. I don't know if you've noticed. When I bend over this is I know this is too much for some people. It's fine. When I bend over at night when you're like, we're getting ready for bed Mhmm. Have you noticed? Like, I'm pushing my face into the sheets. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's not that I find it a pleasant smell, but it is a smell that represents a good time.
And so, 1, I should change our sheets more often. 2, maybe that shows how little we've had sex over the past few years as our libidos have gone wonky because I don't have this impetus to immediately change those sheets. But, yeah. Yeah. That's why I've been doing that. Okay. Now everybody's like, we can't make eye contact with Kayla. We know too much. It's fine. It's fine. Okay. Describe a fantasy date, and let's define that however we would like to, that would make you want to rip
my clothes off by the end. Now, you know, I'm I'm Oh, no. Yeah. Oh, no. Oh, no. It was right. You know, it it's been so long for so many things. I wouldn't even really call it a date. I would just be like a weekend away at a hotel. Well, the whole point would be for you to rip my clothes off. Yeah. Are you saying that if even if we went and did touristy things, by the time we got back to our hotel room, you'd want to rip my clothes off? Oh, yeah. Okay. You know, and and and trash a hotel
for old time's sake. I don't are we getting too old for that? I mean, we're at a point now, if I start screaming in pleasure, somebody might think an old lady's dying. So they might they might call security or an ambulance. I don't know which. Just saying. I told you I was in rare form today. Oh, boy. So I don't have a a situation like date or like whatever. Mhmm. Here's what makes me want to rip your clothes off of you. Okay. Anytime you dress in a way that makes my brain scream,
oh my god. He's so dominant. So and this might actually, this will come into another, question because I thought about it both times. So to give an example, the times we've gone out on, like, date dates where we dress up and you wear, like, your black slacks and either a black shirt button down shirt or the purple button down shirt. And then, holy shit, once you roll up your shirt sleeves and the forearms are out, I could probably make money off of your forearms. I'm just saying they're
they're excellent. They're excellent. You have these great, like, hands that are clearly, like, hardworking hands and you get it's it's delightful. I will save the other outfit that is coming to my mind, but to answer an upcoming question. But, yeah, that's that's when whatever we're doing, by the time we're done, I'm like, it's it's time to take all that off. And I would rip that off, but I need you to wear it again in the future, so I won't do that. And why why are my cheeks so hot? Okay.
This one is weird. Okay. Because this is not a way I would ever describe myself or ask a question ever. Thanks, therapy Jeff. When was the last time you yearned for my body? Last weekend. Yeah. That was good. Okay. I mean, same. Same. Same. Same. You picked up what I was putting down. Yep. Yep. And you know what though I ran with it. Yeah. You did. You know what though? That was that was less about, like, specifically your body that was more like the feeling, the connection, whatever.
I'm gonna sound like a broken record but when do I yearn for the body? When I see either. Sometimes both at the same time. Mhmm. The forearms. Mhmm. The thighs. You got great thighs. I know you're not a soccer player but it's all those years on the motorcycle. They're good legs. They're good they're not long legs. He's a short king and we love him but they're good legs. Very good legs. Just yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You clench those thighs. I'm good. I'm good. I'm probably, like, drooling. So
I'm also not much of a yearner. Like, I don't need to yearn. I just need to go, hey, daddy. I'm kinda turned on. Are you turned on? Let's go. Like, I no. I'm not saying it like that. Y'all know I'm not saying it like that. But I like, I don't have to yearn. Mhmm. I could just be like, hey. Hey. Hey. Pay attention to me. I'll probably do something sexy over here. Hey. That's kind of how last weekend went.
I couldn't say it. Because you're because you're a baby girl, and you're always gonna be like, look at me. Only to you. Yeah. Only to you. Okay. Here, we're we're we're coming up to where there was the whatever. Which outfit of mine makes you find me irresistible? Your birthday suit. Glad somebody likes it. You like it better than I do. I'm just saying. So if I just walk around naked, you'd be like, there's not no time I'm wearing something and you're like,
oh. No. No. Not particular. No. Well, I mean, I do dress like Adam Sandler on, who's coming down from a a bender or something. I'm in my Adam Sandler era. Okay. I don't love it, but here I am. Okay. So I already talked about the slacks and button down shirt and the roll. Okay. And that, yes. But also, you don't I know why you haven't worn it in a long time. I know you're working towards being able to wear it. It is oh my god. I'm drooling thinking about it. It's your black kilt
with a black t shirt Mhmm. And your black boots and nothing under the kilt. What do they wear under their kilt? JB wears nothing most of the time. Unless they're going out in public, you will you will wear something in there. God, that is such a, like, a luscious, luscious, you know, guilt. To see where I'm at with that. And you should. And even if you gotta suck it in a little bit or just not snap it or what however it just oh my god. I'd yeah. Yeah. I'd lift your skirt up in a heartbeat.
I should be embarrassed that I'm not, y'all. I'm not. Look. You can't put your tits on the Internet and then be embarrassed about anything else after that. Come on. True. True. True. But, yeah, you are so dead sexy in that. Holy shit. Holy shit. Whoo. Is it hot in here? I shouldn't have worn a long sleeve shirt. It is. Oh god. I'm afraid. What's the most attractive thing about my personality? Wow. You know, I I read that question when you sent me these earlier. Uh-huh.
And you know what immediately came to my mind? Your sassiness. Yay. That's Southern robbery. Yay. Yeah. Well, if you if you did not laugh with me more often than you guys, like, a little annoyed with me, then, yeah, it would it would not be as fun. No. So I mean and I also I I don't think I could suppress it if you didn't like it. We wouldn't work if you didn't like it. Yeah. So it does help that you like it. Most most most of the time. Yeah. More times than
not. 95% of the time. Yeah. Alright. Alright. Okay. So for me Mhmm. I don't wanna pick one because there's lots. So there's okay. There's your dom look and then there's you putting on your dom look, and they're 2 different looks. When it comes to you naturally and you weren't thinking about it, oh oh my god. I am both terrified and ready to roll over and do whatever you need me to do in whatever take that however you'd like. You're like you're like Lola rolling over on
the back Right. Waiting for belly rubs. Or sticking my ass in the air. Whatever. Whatever. But then there is the part of your personality that's that calm, confident, quiet part, like, especially when you take charge, like, when I'm in freak out mode and you're like, baby girl. And you're like, no. It's been a hot minute because we've been in freak out mode together Right. Which is truly not my favorite place for us to be. Only one of us should be falling apart at a time. Okay?
And it should be the baby girl, I think. I just think it should be. But, yeah, when you there's a thing going on or you are looking at me going, oh, she's more of a hot mess than usual. I need to take care of this. That there's a part of the a way you get it's the daddy side of you. It's not the bratty daddy or the sadist daddy. It's like the but then you're you're still the dumb because you're like sometimes you'd be like, listen. You
know? Like, breaking through whatever the chaotic noise is in my head. And, yeah, I like I like that part. But I also like that you listen really well and that you like this should not the bar is in hell, okay, for hetero passing relationships. I like that you've never once said, if you'll make me a list, I'll I'll help you tell me how to help you around
the house I also paid for. Right? Like, you just, like, see shit, and you just fucking get it done because you're a grown ass man who, right, like, has lived a life and, you know, doesn't need anybody to quote take care of him. I take care of you because I choose to, not because you need it because you're not my 3rd child. I married my 3rd child, apparently, is what I did the first time.
And I do like that about you. I've we've never once had to sit down and go, I've had to ask you for more help, but because I'm bad at asking for help Mhmm. And or at times you weren't sure of your role in a situation because it was outside of our power exchange. Right. And that I was, like, having a nervous breakdown, and we just had to sort some stuff. But in general, you just, you know Yeah. I do see it. I
like that about him. Okay. But it does prove the bar is in hell because that shouldn't be a thing that anybody has to be praised for. Thank you for participating in your own relationship. Like, that that should not be praiseworthy, but I do appreciate it. Because I'm one of those people who knows what it's like to not have it. So okay. Oh, I've already answered this, but we'll answer it again. Okay. Is there a look or gesture your eye make that really turned
you on? And then you wiggle your butt. Yeah. That's what it was part of what I did. So now I'm learning since my favorite outfit is my birth that your favorite outfit of mine is my birthday suit. So when I do it when I'm in my birthday suit, is that, like, double the Double yeah. Double shot. Okay. Okay. I mean, I I do I wiggle my butt. I wiggle my butt for many reasons. But one of the butt things reasons I wiggle my butt is to make it a butt more obvious target than it already is.
If I'm if I wiggle it, you're like it's like, hey. Pay attention to me if my butt could talk. Right. And that's backfired on you a few times, hasn't it? Goddamn. Yeah. I know. Yeah. Yeah. I know. Because that's the sadist daddy. Also, maybe the bratty daddy. The bratty sadist? I don't know. The look or gesture, you're actually kinda doing it a little bit. It's not your dom look. You look really relaxed but there's that leaning on your forearm
like that. But when and then pair it with with the dom look that you're not trying. The one that just like you had that moment and it just was there. Because there there really is a difference. Usually, I've I've caught you unawares, and you you just naturally go into it. Sometimes And I'm like, baby girl, again? Sometimes it's his what the fuck Dom look. Okay? And sometimes it's that's my baby girl Dom look. Sometimes it's you are walking a thin line.
I like them all. I like them all is what I'm saying. Okay. Now we're gonna get into a part where I'm I don't I'm not good with the talking Mhmm. When we're talking about, like, provocative stuff. But you are. He's a a talker, y'all. Get him naked, and he's got stuff to say. Anyway, what have I said or could I say that would really turn you on? It's the only time I'm not talking y'all is when I'm when it's, like, sexual, so
I don't Yeah. I mean Like, if you want me to shut up, apparently turn me on. But so is there something I could say? Like, I don't maybe, but if I did, you'd be like, hot damn. Let's go. I think if you gave me that, you know, why you give me that little koi side eye. I do it all the time. I'm pretty much always giving you some form of side eye. Well, there's different flavors of side eye. There it's true. Just like there's different flavors of dame lai. I did preface that with koi side eye. And
I I could never purposely repeat that. I it's got a I don't even know what that one looks like. Right. Yeah. Not a clue. It just kinda slips in there sometimes. So what the things you said there you say plenty that turn me on. Like, anytime you call me baby girl in your deep gravelly voice. Like, I'm I'm like, fuck. What what do I need to roll over? What do you need? What do you need? Anytime you you call me something, but it's my my whatever, I'm like, I've just melted.
And if I wore panties, they'd be wet. But, yeah, that's that's yeah. It's more tone of voice than what you say, but when you say baby girl in that that voice, not the annoyed voice, not the at his wits end voice, not the you think I've gone too far in sassiness. No. No. No. No. No. No. Not the I said none of those. None of those. None of those. Don't like those. Nope. Don't like those. I'm am I gonna change my behavior to prevent them? No. But I don't like them. Okay.
This one kinda goes with that. Okay. What words do you wish I'd whisper in your ear more often? Fuck me, daddy. Let's go get cheese. Goddamn it. I was gonna be all sexy and you're like, I would like cheese, please. Look. You don't have to threaten me with a good time. I'm down to go get more cheese any day. Any day. We literally buy more than £2 from Sam's Club every month. You know, either they're they're interchangeable. It's more cheese. Jesus. Not fuck me daddy? Not I'm yours daddy?
Come on now. Goddamn it. You're very pleased with your self. This one's hard for me because you are a talker. It's the only time you're a talker. You're a talker. So I like, what am I gonna what do I wanna hear more often? You I don't know. You've you've got a whole, like, what's the word I want? Like, a a not a script, but, like, you've got, like, a whole cast of things that you'll just pull out and they're all, like, okay. But Repoitwon? Yes. That's the word. I would never have
said it like that. But yes. It's right up there with how you you pronounce extravaganza. No. No. We're answering these questions. We scared off any newcomers, and we've annoyed the people who come for the the topics they enjoy and don't come for this. So fine. It's fine. I it goes back to, I do like when you're, like, bend over, like, bend over the bed. Let me see that ass. I like that one. Because it's usually something's gonna happen to
that ass. It's probably gonna get smacked. I'm fucking here for it. It's not a thing you whisper and it's not a thing you say often, but you have said it before. But basically, when I'm walking that fine line Mhmm. But it's not like a corner time situation. It's a I'm, I'm gonna learn how much spankings can suck kind of a lot. And you don't you say different things. It's usually baby girl and that tone.
But it's the one where I kinda catch the vibe of, I'm not gonna like this, but also I am going to to like this. That one, I like that one too. Mhmm. I like that one too. Okay. Okay. It's okay if you can't answer this because that's a long time ago. Okay? How did you feel during our first kiss? That was that was a while ago. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Because it was the first time we physically met in person. Mhmm. And, I think you spanked me before you kissed me. I
did. Which is how our relationship goes. We don't we don't kiss a lot. I mean, I kiss your cheek. You kiss my cheek, but we're we're not making out. No. Because mostly, I I would like you to be focused on my ass more than anything. True true true. But I mean, in the beginning, we did kiss a lot. Yeah. We did. You know, I I think what I think what I felt during that first kiss was that, yeah, I like this. I mean, I is there any other response that's appropriate?
So I have the same thoughts whenever I kiss. Mhmm. Like like like kiss, not a peck. Like, you know, we're slobbering over one another that I always have because I have issues and should go back to therapy and it's am I doing this right? Is this okay? Do I remember how to do this? Because by the time I was kissing you, I hadn't kissed anybody in a while and I've never been confident on my kissing abilities.
Mhmm. My when I'm kissing though, is the one time I'm willing to, like, play with not power, but, like, control a little bit. I don't I I I know where that comes from, though. It has nothing to do with you. I'll I maybe I'll explain in a minute. But it's that's mostly what I'm thinking. So that's not the sexy thought. I do kind of remember thinking as sort of what I was thinking when you spanked me the first time too, finally. Finally.
Finally. No. Okay. So I've done this this dominance thing with kissing since I started kissing, which when was that? God. My first kiss was when I was 13, I think. Oh, and he was an older boy and that was a good kiss. And no. My first kiss was before him and that dude, it was very wet And I was like, is this kissing? I don't but then the next dude, he's older and he was good. And yes, I was still 13 at the time. That's
that's neither here nor there. Anyway, I think I always do this, like, play for dominance thing with kissing. And I think what I've always been waiting for is the person who takes that control back. Like, I'm like, oh, I'll I'll do my tongue and my mouth, my lips the way I want. What are you doing about it? And quite frankly, nobody did nothing about it until I realized I was kinky and started dating Doms only. So, yeah, that is more than anybody's ever wanted to
know about me, and it's okay. It's okay. I have very little shame. That went super super fast. Mhmm. I feel like we there's should we talk do you want me to find more questions? Do you want to talk about anything else? That was really fast. This does not feel like an episode. No. This is like half an episode. Yeah. I mean, I have things I've been thinking about Okay. But I haven't thought through my thoughts completely. Yes. That's a thing you have to do sometimes. Or at least I do.
But do you have anything on your mind? I've got lots of things on my mind, but, you know kink oriented Yeah. Power exchange oriented. I don't know. I I just feel like in in in recent times that we've kind of been taking our dynamic back a little bit more? Oh, absolutely. Absolutely. So this what I've been thinking goes along with that a little bit because I have felt myself being a little bit more my baby girl self Mhmm. Which it's she's got to be able to relax.
Okay? Or Mhmm. To know it's safe to whine. I don't know. So I know I'm a person who has said for many years, and I still believe this, that books should not fiction books should not be treated as how to manuals. And you shouldn't like, you could be inspired, but you shouldn't, like, emulate shit you're reading to the letter because it's fantasy and fiction and whatever whatever. But I've been reading a series that has had me in a fucking choke
hold. And literally every time I'm like, oh, I can't I mean, I know what's gonna happen in all these because they're you know, there's a formula to them, and that's fine. Oh, maybe I should go read something else to get, like, a palate cleanser. I'll come back in a few weeks and finish. Nope. Nope. I keep going. I keep going because the characters are well written. But it's kind of inspired me. So the book series I'm reading is called MC Daddies by Leila Roberts.
She apparently has written a shit ton of other books. Will I be reading those? Probably. In MC Daddies, that's a motorcycle club and the people who are kind of, related to that motorcycle club in different ways or to the peep you know, kind of connected to the people. And they are all daddy dom so far, and then their partners that they find are littles. And sometimes they know they're littles, and sometimes they don't. And it there's a there's a little formulaic.
It's got some age play, so that's not really my jam. But it was kind I was nervous about it. I was like, oh my god. I don't I don't wanna read something. And then because that's so not my thing, get out of the head space, like, you know, of enjoying the book. Like, I don't know. Even though it's it's definitely not my thing, the way it's written, it makes so much sense with the characters and the story that it's like, I don't have to I I'm not a person who thinks I have to find
people I'm reading about in books relatable. They don't I don't have they just have to be well written enough that I'm like, oh, I am I actually give a fuck what happens to you. I don't have to relate to them. I just gotta care. And so the series is good. I'm on book 9, which is where we finally get to a non straight, nonmonogamous situation. It's been delightful so far. But even though most of the the littles in this series that I've read go, you know, behave in ways I would
never. It's just not who I am. Being in their head and reading their stories, which are fiction, I can't imagine a motorcycle club would have this many fucking daddy doms unless they advertised. They were only looking for daddy doms. Like but it's made me feel a little bit more in touch with and want to be more in touch with my baby girl side. And I'm sorry for you that that so far has looked like whining in the middle of the night. It has not looked like, you know,
being sweet and, you know, whatever. Playful and what a no. No. No. It's been whining. It's been whining. But you know what? What I've what I have figured out about myself as a baby girl, which to me is on the spectrum of littles. I don't have an age in my head. I don't do age play. I don't like, I don't I don't do any of that. That's that that part's not me. But it is my almost younger seeming side. It's certainly the the one who wants fewer responsibilities.
We have Onyx up here. Hope she doesn't, like, rub on the mics too much, or show her butthole to the camera too late. But, it you know, I I don't I don't want what they have, but I want the feeling I get when I'm reading them. And sex scenes and not sex scenes, like, these these, daddy dom, so far they've all been men, are written in from my imagination, like, the exact kind of, I'm gonna protect you whether you like it or not. You are a danger to yourself. And so clearly, you you need me.
And I I'm just like, yes. I am a danger to myself, not in the way these chicks have been because I'm not trying to get, like nobody's trying to kill me or kidnap me, but I don't always make responsible decisions for myself. And, yeah, I probably do need help with that. Mhmm. And so to your point, Leila Roberts, for anybody who's like, what series? Leila Roberts. It's called MC Daddies. It's one of many series she has. I have a feeling I'll be reading all of them. She writes good characters.
Re like, really good h. Some of the daddy domes have some similarities, but there's clear personality differences. And then The Littles, again, there's some formula there that I'm like, but the the personality of the woman, not when they're in their little space or whatever whatever. Mhmm. The woman, completely different. And I've, like I've really enjoyed that. The 9th book right now is my favorite.
It could be because the assassin who's, like, got everybody fucked up and confused has figured out he's a daddy dumb, and so we're learning that actually he's not just a cold hearted psychopath or sociopath. He wants to be a good daddy, and he's got 2 partners. And that oh, that's been delightful to read. Anyway anyway anyway. But yeah. So, yes, our power exchange has absolutely taken a backseat to fucking everything lately.
But being a little bit more in touch with my baby girl side makes me want to you know, maybe it's not the the control and the tasks and the rituals, but the connection of when you use your daddy voice and I'm all baby girl and when we connect like that. Mhmm. Yes. That's that's why I've been webbed. And I apologize now. So I'm probably setting myself up when I ask this. Could you tell a difference? Oh, yeah. Okay. Yeah. What do you think
of the difference? I I like it. I mean, you haven't heard me complain, have you? Well, no. But you're usually so distracted. Unless I, like, really fuck up, you really haven't been complaining much. That's what happens when the the power exchange gets pushed back a little bit. Yeah. 1, you let slip shit slide that I'm not purposely trying to to do anything. Mhmm. But there's times in retrospect, I'm like, why don't he say something? Like, what the hell? Even I know. I that was that
was out of pocket. I but, also, what I've noticed Okay. So in our power exchange, in our relationship, in our sex life, you are the initiator. I am the please initiate with me. I don't know what the word is I want. Co instigator. No. I usually am waiting for you to initiate. And then a week or so ago, a couple of weeks ago, whenever that was, I, in my own way, initiated sex. Yes. That was some good sex.
I feel like the past several days when I've been more in my baby girl headspace, I've initiated that. And I think what I'm kind of and you've responded and you always respond. What's different, and I can tell everything's kind of wonky, is that you are not initiating, either in a power exchange baby girl daddy drum kinda way or sex way. You're picking up on my signals. Thank god I'm very clear communicator. Subtly is not my forte.
But, yeah, you have not every once in a while, like, every once in a while, I think, like, 2 butt rubs out of 10. I was like, there he is. There. But that's a 20% success rate. I we should at least be at a 50% success rate. I mean, look. I'm grateful anytime you touch my ass. My my butt is this I'm glad he's a butt guy. I'm glad I'm a a butt no. I'm glad I don't mind having my butt. That's the no. That's getting worse. Anyway, I'm glad he's a butt guy. But
let's not make that a drinking game. How many times did I say but? There is there's a vibe. And there have been a couple of nights where it was like, this is good. This feels like the old times. And then and I I know you're tired and there's stress and there's stuff going on. Wait till the bonus section when we tell you about Lola. Oh my god. But however, I don't I don't know. You know, there was a time if my baby girl voice came out, get out of the trash can, you little
shit. That was Onyx Mhmm. Wanting to lick plastic. There was a time if my baby girl voice even cropped up, oh, full on daddy dom. Full on. Like, the energy was just shift. It was delight well, it was usually delightful unless I was walking that. Wasn't. Right? Unless I was walking that fine line. Mhmm. But I have not noticed that. And I know you're all up in your head. I I can tell before you can tell when you're all up in your head.
Can. So I'm it's not like a, oh, let me put in a complaint to the complaints department. It's more like a it is strange to be in the space and to see you not pick it up like you used to. We're not feeding off of one another the way we used to. I I I have fallen into this headspace recently of, you know, to say, keep my nose to the grindstone and just trying to get through the holiday season. I know. I know. And
but here's the thing though. Mhmm. And this has always been true, and it's not like I'm, like, oh, having a revelation. There will always be something we gotta get through. True. Like, I mean, it sucks. I am really tired of always having something we gotta get through. Yeah. So, you know, I can't believe that I'm the fucking one saying this because this is so against type. Somebody should, like, take me to
a doctor and have me check. But wouldn't it's better it's it's getting it in small doses, it's not as good as, you know, full octane all the the way we used to be. Sure. Sure. Sure. But it's better than nothing. And since we will always have shit to go through Yeah. You know, I think we lived a charmed life prior to 2021. I don't I don't know. Yeah. I don't know how or what. I don't know. But, yeah, clearly, we were living a charmed eye. And the universe went,
yeah. You're I'm getting my beer. You're getting too big for your britches over there. And now I think here's what I think. I know we did, and I think you're still doing. Sometimes I am too. We're waiting for things to go back to the way they used to be. I don't think that's not gonna happen. Happen. That's not gonna happen. No. And I don't mean, like, for anybody out there. It's not about our dynamic the way we used to be. I think we could get back there if that's what fits
us. But this whole waiting for it to be better, waiting to have time, waiting to not be so tired. You know? And I know that I can say that today while I'm feeling I'm feeling weird today, but, like, I'm feeling good in this conversation. And it's easy to say right now. And believe me, I am an impatient baby girl. In 5 minutes or 5 months, I'll be the one going, it's not enough. It's not fair. I want more and or thinking I don't have time for this. I don't
have time for this. I don't like, it so I'll be the voice of reason today so he can be the voice of reason tomorrow. You know, we kinda have to make time for it, and we have to, like, get okay with getting little bits because that's what we have the energy and time and whatever for. Mhmm. Because that is what that is what will keep us connected until we get to some mythical time in the future when, air quote, things calm down.
Right. Yeah. I mean, how many years do you have to go where things aren't calm to finally just go, no. They're never calming down. Mhmm. This is the timeline we live in. I I look at the news from time to time. I know things are never calming down. So, you know, that's kind of where let me tell you. Look. I think I might now be Alela Roberts stan because she's making me feel shit when I'm reading a kink I'm not even fucking into. I don't want any of that, but it
makes sense for their characters. It makes sense for the moment. I'm glad I just go with it. But a few of them, so far, I'm only in book 9. There are 12, y'all. Full length. And I think there's novellas. I don't think I'll read those. But, a few times, she's had, in the story, the littles gotten spanked purposely until they cry. Like, the whole point was to get that fucking emotion out. And I cannot tell you in the past 48 hours how many times I've almost come to you and gone,
I need some of that. And here's the thing, I do need that. I'm terrified because it I don't, I don't cry easily. It kind of in general. It's my own issue. I should go to therapy. It's an it's not an issue to not cry. It's the tight lock I have on my emotions. And also I'm a little afraid of what my sadist daddy might have to do, how, how much it might have to hurt. I'm afraid it gets to the point where I have a chance of crying and I am a little baby who can't handle this.
But, yeah, I was like, oh god. Yeah. Wow. To just, like, let it like, to get the catharsis. You know? Mhmm. We have finally so thankfully, the youngest is at the and he has been for a while. We just didn't take advantage of it. He is at that teenager point in life where headphones or earbuds are always on. Yeah. There's about 3 or 4 things coming at him from a screen, whether it's his Xbox, it's his his Chromebook, or it's his phone, at any given moment, there's a certain point of the night.
We close the door. He does not know we exist. He's not not only can he not hear us because across the house, blah blah blah. He we we ceased to exist. He doesn't even know we're there. We could do more things as long as I'm not screaming the house down. And it's only been in the last few weeks that you've even gotten comfortable with it. So I know part of that is a comfort thing of Yeah. How much can be heard. And, you know, if I come to you and go, look. I'm and Yeah. How much
can be heard. And, you know, if I come to you and go, look, I'm gonna need June to spank me until until something. I don't know. I don't I I know that you can't like, I can never guarantee that he'll spank me away and I'm definitely gonna cry. I used to be able to, and then that stopped being a thing. Yeah. And so I I don't know anymore. But it's like, I'm I don't I don't know. Until I say for it, until your arm gets tired? I don't know. If I cry, that's that's the signal. Stop
right there. But, like, I can't I don't even know what I'm asking for, but I feel like we are at a point now and probably have been at that point for several months where we can do more than we have done. Mhmm. So Yep. Mhmm. Mhmm. And it's been nice. It has been nice. I just think that that whole our power changes have been pushed back and both and we're not we're not we're waiting for that mythical time when there's not a lot going on. Mhmm. The I say all of that to just
go, okay. But that now it's an excuse. We Yeah. We can do more. And, sure, energy and where your head space is at, all of that is important and has to factor into it. But I also wonder how much better might our head space be if we pushed through some of that, not all of it. Like, you gotta watch yourself push through some of that. Maybe I'm not I don't have the energy to get to a place we know we like to be at. Maybe we need to explore that. Just saying. I'm just saying.
Because I think even though we're not actively doing anything new or whatever with the dynamic part of things, I think that's not where we need to focus our attention because my my tasks are down. Yeah. You know, we the the bend over the bed, get your nighttime spanking slash butt rub, that's been really good. Mhmm. If I got a little touchier feelier, and I'm very grateful for that. It's like I'm wiggling the fate, my fave your favorite part of my body. Like, come on, man.
But so, like, all of that kind of stuff, I think we're as solid as we can get right now with the life we have right now. Yeah. Now it's the other it's the daddy and baby girl. It's the play part within our comfort level knowing we've got, you know, somebody in the house all the time. Like like that part. Part. You know? I think if we could find ways to reconnect there, I think you'd feel a little bit better. I know someone would. I know I would. Just saying. Very possible.
He hates saying you might be right or you are right. Good lord. What was it last night? I I I can't remember what we're talking about anymore. I was like, you know I'm right. And then he, like, waited a beat so that he could prove me wrong because you just didn't want me to be right. I think he was, like, searching up in the, like, depths of his memory to be able to prove. Because I said, oh, you've already forgotten. You don't even know what you said,
so you can't repeat it to me. But and then, I mean, it was a pause. It was like a 30 second pause. I think he was going through the filing cabinet. It is his brain to find the thing that I accused him of not remembering just to prove me wrong. Because it's not that hard to say, baby girl, you're usually right. And you also could be correct. Yeah. I I did I take the line and do, like, jump rope? Am I playing double touch on the line between sass and a step beyond sass?
See what happens when we answer provocative questions? Oh my god. The leaves just flew sideways outside the window. I guess It's like the weather's vicious wind out there right now. Picking up. Mhmm. So anyway, if anybody would like some actual good daddy dom little fiction, highly recommend the MC Daddies, Leila Roberts. I know Rah Rah really, really likes I could see it. Rah Rah on the live chat. Actually, I think what I can't remember where I saw the first book I read.
I think it might it might have just kinda come up in a search I was doing in Kindle Unlimited, and I scrolled. And I I like to read reviews every once in a while if it's a especially if it's kink stuff because I need somebody to to sometimes, it doesn't always happen, but sometimes there'll be somebody who's like, that's not how any of this works. That's what I need to see. And I scrolled, and I think it was under reviews. And Raw Rush's name came up, and I
went, oh, well, I fucking trust her. Okay. It had the Raw Rush seal of approval. It's like, I'll try the first one. Then it would, you know, be personal preference if I finished it or kept going. But MC Daddy's, Layla Roberts. Layla like Kayla but with an h on the end? L a y l a h. I think I'm spelling that right. Very good. Very prolific writer. A lot of it seems to be daddy Tom's and, you know, I'm here for that. You know. And I'm reading Married to a Alien Cowboy.
Which is a book I got because I was on my my future. I'm gonna read this at some point, and and thankfully, you're reading it and can vouch that, no. No. You picked a good one. This is a good book. I mean, it it it has a little bit of trope to it, but I think it makes up for it with the, humor. You know what? I don't mind tropes. They're when they're done well and
most tropes. Mhmm. The one that will have me frothing at the mouth and wanting to throw the book slash my phone across the room is the miscommunication trope. I think maybe 2 times I've read it done well where from the outside looking in, you would go, of course, they wouldn't talk about that like they should because they there's a trust there, and that's a vulnerable conversation.
But when it's the literally this could be cleared up with one conversation and y'all were dating and slash fucking for 6 months and you can't have this conversation. No. I'm ready to throw something across the room. But other than that, most tropes I don't mind as long as they're executed fairly well. You know, the tropes make things, for me, kinda predictable. When I when I recognize when I'm reading,
I'm like, I know how this goes. Every once in a while, a really recognize when I'm reading, I'm like, I know how this goes. Every once in a while, a really good writer will, like, turn it on its head and I'm like, oh, that was surprising. So but Yeah. So, yeah, that we went from questions to the state of our power exchange. Right. I thought that was gonna be next week's topic. I I don't know what it'll be now. It'd be a big bonus section. It might be. Look. We did the questions.
We've done the Reddit stuff. We've, next week, whatever. We we are not functioning at full mental capacity, so I'm I'm here for a good time, not a long time. I don't know. I just like, sometimes it's more important that you just show up because that's what you do than to, like, have something, you know, profound to say. Yeah. These end of year episodes kinda tend to be for, like, the folks who are gonna stay till the
end of a bonus section. Yeah. Because y'all know at this point in the year, we are running on fumes and, you know, maybe some laughing gas, who the fuck knows, because we get weird. We get weird. So yeah. So I think that's gonna be the end of the episode. I couldn't just have, like, a 25 minute episode. That's the Monday episodes. And we got to talk about a thing that's been on my mind. So Oh, good. And maybe we recommended an author to somebody. I don't know. We can do a bonus section because I
know you need to talk about Lola. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah. You you went through it yesterday. She she went through it more than anybody, but JB was, like, right on her heels going through it. So Are we good? That's not really for me to say. Keep it kinky, y'all. And we'll see you next week. Dottie. Yes, baby girl. Can we talk to the crickets? We can. As if we haven't already been doing that. Tell them about Lola. Okay. First of all, let me preface this.
There's gonna be a few moments of kind of gross, conversation about eyes. If that if clearly no pictures. No. But if you or Squiggy out about the like, fast forward or put us on mute or whatever for, like, probably 2 minutes. Start there so people have She had an eye issue. Yeah. So yeah. I had gotten out of the shower, and and baby girl comes in the bedroom, and she's like, you need to see your dog. Because I almost couldn't look at her after what
I was seeing. I'm like, what? And she's like, you you just need to see your dog. Her eyeball was not facing the right way, y'all. No. Her, when I when I came out to look at her, her eyeball had rolled. It was actually coming back around because when she showed it to me, I literally only saw white and then, like Mhmm. Red blood cell you know, like Yeah. At by the time you looked shot. Yeah. But it was white. Back around appropriately.
Mhmm. But that when he when he confirmed I was not crazy, I was like, I'm gonna call the vet. And he goes, please do. Please do. And I'm usually the look. I'm gonna tell my kids to rub some dirt on it and walk it out. Okay? So I'm not the first one to call a doctor. Let's get an appointment. Especially when it's your pet, you know it's a $500 visit. But eyeballs are not supposed to do that. And No. And it was one of those things we do not know when it happened. And what I mean by
that is she was perfectly fine. We've been looking at her multiple times in the day. Nothing wrong with her eye. She was laying peacefully on her bed. I'm sitting at my desk. She walks up to me, which is not unusual because she'll lay, like, in between our chairs or whatever over here at the the at our desks. Yeah. But as she walks up to me, she starts rubbing, like, trying to get her paw up on her face, like, when they're now, you know, is itchy or
something. She's rubbing her side of her head with the the left eye that was the issue, like, on the carpet. And I'm like, oh, there's something itching. And then she looked up at me, and it I every time I think about it, I can see it and mm-mm. Um-mm. So I I was like, no. No. That that's an issue we have to we have to sort out. We do. Mhmm. She has had known eye issues. So Right. I would have taken her regardless of the cost. Eyeballs aren't supposed to do that.
But what was we thought was gonna be a 2 or $300 visit was only 70 because the vet's like, yeah. This is her eye seems to be mostly okay, but here's these drops and blah blah blah. Mhmm. And her eye is going to have issues until we have a surgery procedure. We schedule that for her to fix her eye eyelids, eyelashes. Her she she has what they what the vet called entropia. Entropian? Entropia? I don't know how they pronounce
it. Yeah. Can't remember. And, basically, what has happened and it's happened to both her eyes, but one The left eye is the worst. Left eye is worse than the other. Her eyelids have curled inwards. And so her eyelashes are constantly Are constantly irritating her eyes. Yeah. Yeah. Apparently, this is something that's common in in some of these some of the this this breed, her breed. But, yeah, they they can do a surgery to correct it. Otherwise, this
is just gonna apparently keep going on. Right. And, you know, money wise, it's not it's not about that. It's more her comfort is caught. And it was and it was out. And anybody who's ever had to take anybody, young or vulnerable, child or pet, to a doctor knows Something fucked up was going on. We called. We get the appointment. They were like, can you get here in 15 minutes? We're like,
actually, yes. We can. We'll be there. They're like, we'll fit you in with the lap you know, in between the last appointments of the day. Fine. Thank you. We appreciate that. Before we even walked out the door, her eye was looking normal again, and I went, I don't care. Right. That did a thing it wasn't supposed to do. Mhmm. We're gonna go get it looked at. And Yeah.
So it it was swollen, and she does have the doctor called it an ulcer, but, like, she has a sore that she did not have before literally in her eyeball. Yeah. So she's on antibiotics. She is very confused as to why Onyx is sitting 6 inches away from her. Oh, wow. Yeah. I wish I could show y'all this. She is staring very intently at Onyx, who is just cleaning herself like she has 0 fucks to give. Anyway, so, we take her to the vet. She hates going to the vet.
She they we have she wears a harness, and it has one of those handle things on top so she can be moved if she needs to be. And JB was basically picking up her 77 pound fucking ass and Mhmm. Kind of scooting slash carrying her in. Took 5 tries to get her on the scale. And I'm like, you know, same girl. I don't like being weighed either. You know? Onyx does not know that her life is in potential danger. Well, actually, they were staring at each other just a few seconds ago. Oh oh, Lola's
Lola's making noise. Lola doesn't like it. And then she made a whiny noise, y'all. Onyx took the hint. Onyx got so deep in cleaning herself that she was not paying attention to Lola, who was starting to do a little lip curl. Like, I don't like this. You're you're in my bed and you're way too close. And now, maybe as a stress response, Onyx is licking plastic. So so now we get her to the vet, and they had said it'll probably be awake because we are fitting in. And we're like,
that's fine. We're just glad to be here. So, normally, when Lola goes to the vet, she doesn't like it. She paces for a while, and then she plops down on the the floor, and she just becomes a lump. She plops a baked potato. It's fine. She paced. She would come up to me, look at me, knows me, walk back to the door, look at me. She then she'd from there, she'd walk up to JB, knows him, walk back to the door, back and forth and back and forth. And at one point so it's a bench and there's the door
to our left. JB is sitting closest to the door. I'm in the corner. Mhmm. Lola has come up to me, butted me with her nose. It's she acts it's like she wants pets, but no. She's, like, trying to tell you it's time to go, and here's the door. So she's done that to me. She walks back to the door, and instead of coming around, because she had been going around this bench thing we're sitting on, she sit stands at the side of the bench on the other side of JB and doesn't look at him.
Lola. What are we doing, ma'am? Oh my god. She was standing up and snarly at onyx. She really don't feel good, y'all. Do you need to go in the other room? She might. She's not usually like this. No. Anyway, she turns her head from standing at the door, pops her head up, like, extends her neck. Her ears go up and the only expression I can describe on her face is, do you not see me at this door, bitch? I said, let's go.
I just went, I can't take you seriously, Lola, when you're you're literally looking at me like, what the fuck? Is it that Onyx is too close to her bed? I think so. I need Onyx to stop licking that plastic. I know. They've lost their minds in here today is what's happening. Mhmm. Mhmm. So JB is on eye drop and warm compress duty. Yeah. Every 2 hours, drop in the eye, and then a warm compress for a few minutes. Mhmm. Mhmm. And it it is less swollen today.
She was miserable last night. Poor thing. She just she didn't wanna really be touched. She did not wanna get off the couch. No. Barely wanted a treat. She just Well, I She's miserable. I I did something with her that I normally have not done. I don't think I've ever done it, really. She was laying on the sofa. She was she was miserable after the, you know and rightfully so. And, you know, normally,
in the evening, we have a routine. She gets her one biscuit at night and she knows when it's when it's getting ready because I'll come leave the office, I'll go into the kitchen, I'll make myself a drink, go sit down and, you know, she'll hear me rattling around in the kitchen, and she'll know. And she comes in. She did not come in last night, so I took the biscuit to her. She had she had treats in bed. Yeah. I mean, I think I think if you're I've all those funky things,
you get you get a pass. You just you do. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. You get to be babied. Mhmm. You know? And you yeah. You know, she's I didn't even try to get her to go into her crate last night. She just Well, that was a little that was a little heartbreaking. So she had She is now at a stage, maybe it's age, maybe it's pain, we don't know, where she does not get up on the couch that easily most of the time. Now sometimes she can. She's got her full energy, and she's bound to it.
So when we got home and she went for a walk and we got after she ate, she basically lived on the couch, and she needed help getting up there, which made sense. Her she looked miserable. So she laid up there most of the night, and then we started kinda doing our shutdown routine. And and he didn't make her go in the crate, so we figured she'd stay in the bed. Well, she heard rattling around in
the kitchen Yep. And she got curious. So she got off the couch, but then just decided not to come to the kitchen, but I could hear her moving. I'm like, she's not on the couch anymore. And then I didn't hear her moving, and I said, is she trying to get back up on the couch and got stuck? Yep. She needed a boost. I I I went I looked around, and she had her front paws on the couch, her head looking up, and that was all she did.
And when I walked around, then she raised up and started to get up, and I put my hand out. She stepped on my hand as a Oh. See, I'm the more of the butt pusher. I get my hand under her her booty Yeah. And I just kinda go up, and she just keeps going. Yeah. But yeah. But, I I think it's gonna be time soon for me to build her a little step. Mhmm. Make it easier for her to get up there. Could we train her not to get on the couch? Yeah. But we're not gonna do that. No. The couch is
definitely hers now because Oh, yeah. It looks like it's been through some shit. Right. Yeah. Yeah. That's her couch. You know, I'm yeah. I mean, I don't mind the sofa. You know? I mean, for me, the big thing is the the fur babies, none of them sleep with us. No. I'm not. And I'm not built for that. No. I would have let Saki do it because he was so little. Mhmm. And he very rarely smelled like dog. Like, he maybe it's because he was so little. I don't know. I don't know.
He did. I mean, it wasn't that he didn't, but he didn't go outside the way Lola does. He didn't roll around. Like, he just Yeah. Didn't have that dog smell quite as potently as our Lola girl. Yeah. But he had no interest. He was like, no. No. No. No. I'm an old man with creaky bones. I like my bed over there in the corner. Please and thank you. Lola, if we're we let her come into our bedroom if we're awake and up, like, not at night. She she has her space, and we close the door.
But when we're it's a normal day, if we're sitting in our bedroom or whatever doing stuff, she'll walk in and we don't mind. No. But if we happen to just be stretched out in the bed, she'll come up to either side and just and our bed's kinda high, like, not feet dangling high, but higher than I think typical beds. And she'll come to either side and just look up at you like, I too would like to be up there. And I'm like, Boral, I can't pick you up.
So Yeah. So that was kind of our our day yesterday. The day ended with a bang. Yep. Yeah. Yep. But she I mean, I think she's feeling a little bit better if she can be annoyed at Onyx. Right. And Onyx is the last one to be annoyed at. Oh. It's Ella who's kinda pushy. Right. But I mean, Ella will steal her bed in a heartbeat. Ella will steal her bed. Mhmm. And and Lola has never felt like, yeah. Ella will steal her bed. Mhmm. And and Lola has never felt like, yeah. Yeah.
I can get up here too. She could. Ella probably wouldn't even mind, but she won't. Ella will clean her ears for her. Mhmm. Will clean in between her toes. I have questions for Ella. Right. Yeah. Your king's not my king. Your king's not my king. Ella ain't right. Ella ain't right. No. No. Thank god she's pretty. Yeah. But Yeah. Yeah. Onyx is and Onyx is going to town on that plastic. Yeah. She is. Looking looking looking. So, yeah, that's adventures and fur babies
past 24 hours. Look at her. She is going. I've I've I even if I had my phone, I could not get a good picture of that. So imagine a cat licking plastic. Sure. Sure. But she's licking it so vigorously that the whole flat of her tongue is coming out, and you can see nothing but tongue. Mhmm. And she's moving her whole head back and forward to make sure she gets maximum leakage apparently. She's not biting it or tearing at it. I think she's just it's licking. Yeah. Yep.
Britney asked what does Ella look like? She is a, I guess, tuxedo cat. She's a black and white cat. I know that it's orange cats who don't have a brain cell, but, she probably has some orange cat in her genetics. So Right. She's got an ancestor who was an orange cat and Yeah. Did not pass down the brain cell. We we often say it's a good thing Ella's cute. Yeah. And she is a beautiful cat. Oh, yeah. She's got the pink nose and the perfectly pink little toe beans.
Onyx is amazing and and gorgeous too, just in a different way. Onyx is full black. She's got, like, 3 little hairs on her chest that are white, but her toe beans are black. Her nose is black. Mhmm. I guess she got done licking the plastic. Yeah. It's funny. She's been she's been sleeping on my pillow. Mhmm. During the day. Both girls are sitting on our pillows during the day. And, even
even in the evening. And it's funny, I'll walk in there in the evening, you know, and the light's off, and I can't really see her, but then she opens her eyes, and you see it out of the darkness, these two little golden eyes. Blah blah. Onyx does not want your attention. And I don't even I don't think it's negative. She's not growling or anything. But she is £77, and Onyx is £8. Yeah. Right. So Yep. Yep. I'm pretty sure Onyx could take her. Probably would probably kick Lola's ass, quite frankly.
Onyx is a bitch. She I love her. She's a bitch. Mhmm. She's a Scorpio bitch though. So we have that in common. Mhmm. I know, baby. I'm so glad your eyeball looks like eyeballs are supposed to look. That was that was rough yesterday. Yeah. It was. I know. You're a sweet quarrel. It's good to see her up and moving around. Even if she's antagonizing Onyx. Yeah. So, yeah. That's that's that's Yeah. That's it. Honestly.
You know, last last weekend we, this past weekend we, managed to escape for a little bit, and and we went out thrifting. To the thrift stores that were open, because we went on a Sunday like donuts. Mhmm. Mhmm. We actually went antiquing. And it ended up being antiquing. Yeah. Ending antiquing. Because it was the antique stores that were open, the thrift stores weren't. But, it was fun. We had a good time. Mhmm. Mhmm. And, we all we both came away with some stuff. I got a new
coffee ornament. Mhmm. And you got 2 used albums. Yeah. Yep. Oh, yes, ma'am. Is your head tired? You need to rest it on me? Okay. So, yeah. I am Oh, big stretch. Mhmm. She's okay. That was more of a butthole than I wanted to see. So I think that's a good note to end on. Yeah. Lola's butt. No. Mm-mm. That's still wrong. So, yeah, thank y'all for, being here with us and letting us ramble about provocative things. Definitely TMI. Don't forget we have the livestream Friday 13th.
That is a week earlier than it would normally be. Are we staying till our normal time, or are we implementing the new We'll we'll stay to the normal time. We won't change that till after. Yeah. And in 2025, the time when we end that Friday night livestream will be changing. We'll talk about that on Friday. And then, yeah, the kinkery is having a sale. Free shipping on US orders of $35 more. Thekinkery.com. And so, yeah, we're gonna go beat crazy cat and dog parents now.
Yep. Mhmm. And I'm probably gonna go, after we record the next thing, dive back into this book because it's so fucking gone. Anyway, we will. Talk to you next time. Okay. Alright. Bye. Bye, y'all.