Adding Kink to Special Occasions

You're listening to the Loving BDSM podcast, episode four forty four. That is so satisfying. Kayla Lawrence here with the one, the only, the light of my life, the peanut butter to my jelly Goodness. The chocolate to my milk. Because sometimes I'm lactose intolerant, so that won't work. The diet to my Coke. The ice to my Diet Coke. Yeah. John Brownstone. Well, okay. Look. The this week's episode is kind of like I mean, I don't have a lot of

feelings. I'm I'm too much of a Scorpio bitch, but it's got me a little bit in my, like, you know, squishy feelings, this week. We're kind of taking a first. It's a direct request for a topic from a long time cricket, affectionately known as x. He has an actual online name. I'm not gonna try and say it and butcher it. I'll just let him laugh at me if if he happens to hear this. But I know him as x. He's ex. He was like, hey. Please talk about this. I was like, okay. We could do it.

We're talking about incorporating kink into special occasions and days in your life and relationship, like birthdays, anniversaries, and whatever else may be special to you. Welcome to the Loving BDSM podcast. If this is your first time listening, glad to have you. If you're back for another week, welcome back. Loving BDSM is produced every Friday for your kinky pleasure in education, and show notes are found at lovingbdsm.net. Come back often and feel free to add

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group of kinksters, you can do that. Join us at patreon.com/kaylalords. That's patreon.com/kaylalords or use the link in the show notes. Okay. Okay. Bring this meeting to order. Something like that. Podcast listeners, you have no idea. From the time we recorded the intro and then we we put a pause on it to the time we're back with you It was a rocky road. For y'all, it was a blip. For us, we've been on a journey, and I'm exhausted.

Mhmm. Mhmm. And I would like somebody to spike my caffeine free Diet Coke with vodka. After the show. Okay. Give you give you incentive there. Okay? So I've said it before. I'm gonna say it again because I wanna make sure, you know, give credit where credit is due. Thank you to x Mhmm. Who is a long time cricket and friend of the pod and, like, part of our Discord and very helpful with stuff when we need help with, like, technical stuff and just all around decent human being,

requested this topic. And, I think I have more to say than I thought I did. Mhmm. But I also think that for some people, the idea of incorporating kink into your special occasions is gonna be like a, oh, yeah. Of course. And for others, I have a feeling that there's some overthinkers among you who have probably overthought it and, you know, so we don't go, like, all out crazy with what we do to incorporate kink into

our special occasions. But, hopefully, talking this through for anybody who this appeals to, you can, like, incorporate maybe some new things into your dynamic. Mhmm. So I don't have any special announcements. So I'm not gonna worry about it. We're just gonna get right on into it. So let's talk about like, I got a lot of notes. You see? I see that. I got a lot of notes. I got a

lot of notes. So the first thing that I did not put in my notes, but let's sort of talk about it, is what kind of special occasions we have incorporated kink into. Basically all of them? Pretty much. I mean, there's our our individual birthdays. Yep. Our anniversary our wedding anniversary. We at one point before we got very overwhelmed, tired, and stressed from life, we used to do, the anniversary of when we first started talking Yes. And the anniversary of when we got

engaged. Those two kind of follow it. We mark it. We go, oh, happy, you know Yeah. Blah blah blah, but we don't necessarily do anything. Right. And, you know, the the birthday thing that was, you know, he said about this. That was the first thing that that popped up in my head because that's something we've done for quite a while now. Since the beginning. Yeah. Mhmm. You know, we we have a tradition in this home. In this power exchange. Yep. Not only does Kayla get her birthday spankings

With one to grow on. Yeah. She gets mine. Yeah. On JB's birthday. K. And, so, you know, I have a birthday coming up. Yeah. You do. Mhmm. Mhmm. Yeah. You do. Getting older, you know. I know. 60 you're turning 64. Yeah. Yeah. Because I'm turning 46. Okay. Mhmm. We've been together since he was in his fifties. 50 Spanx feels different than 60 Spanx, especially since somebody is a sadist who draws them out, and they tend to to get harder to handle. Incrementally

Right. Harder as well. And once you hit, like, the 60 mark, I mean, unless you're just used to that kind of thing, I am not. Yeah. There there have been times I've been like, no. Why do you hate me? So, yeah, birthday is the one that is an immediate for us. Mhmm. But we absolutely

incorporate kink because we are both parents. Mother's Day and Father's Day, we are are not necessarily see, the thing is is when you say incorporating kink, I think most people's immediate idea goes into scenes, and we just incorporate when we can't do a scene or even when we do a scene, we incorporate more of our power exchange. Our power exchange, there's a word I want, informs Mhmm. How we celebrate those special occasions. I mean, there there was a there was

a while. We haven't done it for the last couple years because of, you know, financial constraints. But, in the past too for for, you know, we we celebrate Christmas Mhmm. And, we would have our, family facing Right. Stocking. And we would have our kinky Yep. Stalking that was closed doors. You know, was only looked at, Oh, yeah. It was private. Closed doors. We were just in the bedroom, and I was

like, okay. Mhmm. The very first one I still remember, is when you got me the original magic wand, a k a the Hitachi. Mhmm. Old fashioned one. It plugs into the fucking wall. Yeah. And I was even able to get a, An adapter. An adapter to to control the speed. Gigi asked in the live chat. I get all Spanx. She gets them all. That you know, do both of us get Spanx? No. JV does not bottom for impact in no, way, shape, or form. It's JB Bottom for impact

or anything involving pain. So I'm getting spankings on both our special days, and JB is getting the pleasure of, hearing me go, but don't you love me? And and how old are you? And can't we lie about our age? And his comes first in the year, and he's older than me. So by the time we get to my birthday, it's like my ass got a break. Right. I'm like, oh, 18 less. Okay. Mhmm. Now, in let's let's talk about some of the ways you can incorporate kink. And what I I don't mean, like,

specifics, but, like, top top level. And the first one, I don't wanna spend too much time on for two reasons. One, I think we've talked about this specifically in other places. And two, this is the one that not everybody will get to be fortunate enough to do all of the time. We haven't been for several years, and that is spending money for your kink to be added to your special day. Right? So there's, experiences. We love to do experiences more than

physical gifts these days. We like free experiences, but if you got a budget right? Like, is there a kinky convention? Is there, a big event coming to an area you're willing to travel to and can afford to? Right? Do you have access to a dungeon? Are you know, do you have friends who do play parties?

You know, those kinds of things. And I know in tight knit, communities, somebody who usually hosts a play party will sometimes coordinate with a friend and, like, make it a birthday party for this person or make it a a celebration for that person as well as just the general play party. Toys as we talked about. We're gonna go dark. Oh, we're gonna go dark. Okay. Okay. Hands off. No. I was gonna Yeah. Pull up so I could see is what I was gonna do.

Hopefully, everybody can hear us, and I'm just gonna keep talking to podcast folks if not. So lost my train of thought. Sorry, y'all. There it goes. So we have absolutely per like we talked about earlier, we've purchased toys that we've talked about wanting, and we've also sometimes had the money to budget to pay for the stuff to try a new kink. Kind of a shameless plug but also lived experience with having the kinkery and shipping out you know toys that people buy all the time.

We absolutely get notes on orders that say this paddle is for my Dom's birthday. This wax play stuff is for our anniversary. We're gonna finally try wax play for the first time. So it's if you've got the money to, you know, you're already gonna splurge. Maybe the only time you really spend for yourself or each other is on a special occasion. The there's definitely no problem with them. Very common to go, okay let's buy ourselves a

kink thing. Nobody wants a new vacuum. Nobody needs a new, washing machine for this anniversary. Can we buy rope? Can we buy candles? What what can we buy? JB is clicking but I need my notes. Okay. So, the other thing to keep in mind if you are gonna spend money to incorporate kink into like a special occasion, some I've we all know this, but I just wanna, like, put it out there because sometimes you know something, but that don't mean you think about it.

We did this recently with mother's day. We delay the special occasion celebration for a time that works. So if you're gonna plan for a convention or a play party or dungeon or a whatever experience and you're gonna spend the money, we the way we look at it is we would move the celebration. Like, if it's near our wedding anniversary, if it's near

Father's Day, that's the celebration for that. We'll do something special on the day to mark it but this will be our big celebration and that way we're not trying to spend money twice. Right? So the money thing is kind of like most of us know if you have access to money you just buy gift move on. Gifts of course can be experiences. Let's talk about our reality and I think a lot of people's reality. Also the reminder that you don't have to spend money to like mark an occasion. Right?

Let's talk about the stuff you can do that's not money. This is how we do this. Like we it's been years since we spent money for kink stuff on anniversary, birthday, even Christmas. Like, we just don't spend a lot of money in general. So we do what we can completely free. Mhmm. Mhmm. Yep. So the first thing that I've noticed that we do and if anybody were asking me, this is what I would recommend. You do what works for your power exchange?

I I don't matter. If if what I say is, like, we don't need to do that, then don't do it. But if you were asking me, I just wanna tell you, we stay within our power exchange when we are planning this. What that means is that before I plan something for JB's birthday or for Father's Day or what I wanna do for him on our anniversary or whatever, Christmas, I go ask him. I go say, I two questions. What do you want and or depending on if I have something in mind, can I surprise you? Sometimes I can.

Sometimes I can't. Why do I do this? Because in our power exchange, he has ultimate control and is the decider. So it gets to be his decision how I handle it. Right? If he wants to dictate everything we do for that and that for him is is a gift for him and he's happy and satisfied with it, we'll do it that way. If he's like, oh do you have an idea? Yes. Do you wanna surprise me? Yes. Go for it. There I think once you let me surprise you and then two days, like, two or three days before neither

of us could handle it anymore. And I was about to burst and I said, I really wanna tell you, but I want it to be a surprise. And he goes, I really want you to tell me. I was like, are you telling me to tell you? Is this the daddy dom speaking? Is that what's happening? And I think it was a few hours later you finally went, yes. Yes. I'm telling you to tell me. And then I, you know, broke the surprise early. Because for us, you know, it doesn't need to be a surprise to be fulfilling.

But if I have something in mind that I wanna do for my Dom, I sometimes I want it to be kind of a surprise because I'm really proud of myself when I do something special for JB that he did not anticipate I would do for him, and he likes it. Right? Like, it's it's gets me going. I really enjoy that. Now the way we do it in reverse for me, if there is something I know that I want to have experience, do whatever whatever. I it's like anything else in our power exchange.

I speak up. I say something. Ultimately, the control and the means and the whatever decisions are left to JB. Now most recently, and I think this will be more common going forward from here. JB's like, it's Mother's Day. How would you we actually celebrated belatedly. We talked about this a couple episodes ago. It's like, how do you wanna celebrate? And I went, I don't wanna make a fucking decision. I don't wanna be asked what I want. I don't wanna have to think about

it. Ask me questions if it involves consent or if you are like, wait. Does she even like like, that's fine. I was like, but we've been together long enough. You know me. You know what I like and don't like. I don't need you to rewrite, like, the greatest hits. I'd give me something that you know I would love to have fun. Like Carp Manch. I think I could have fun with that. Well, also, you do

think about yourself in the relationship. If if you are saying do whatever to the sadist, just know you did that to yourself. That doesn't mean my safe word goes away. It just in that case, I knew what I wanted was to be in that for for us incorporating our kinks in our part dynamic into a special occasion. I wanted to be my most most baby girl self. I wanted to be my most submissive self.

I wanted to be told where to go, what to do, how to get there, when to show up, you know, and to just to just not have to think. Now I I know it's a common ish, sort of fantasy or feeling from a lot of submissives. I'm like, I just wanna turn my brain off. I just don't wanna think. And I have those moments too. I also have control issues. So I don't like to do that for too long. It makes me antsy. But we've spent a long period where I didn't have the luxury to turn my brain off hardly ever.

And when he asked, I was like, I want permission to turn my brain off. Just do whatever the fuck you you wanna do that you know I don't hate. I'm I'm here for it. That's how I got a home cooked steak dinner. And it was fucking delicious. And I didn't have to clean up. I didn't have to do anything. And I didn't have to decide. I didn't have to set the table. I didn't have to there was no what do you want to drink? He just he knows what I was he just did it. Yeah.

And it was delightful. It was delightful. So when you're thinking about how are we gonna incorporate kink into marking this special occasion, To the extent that it makes sense for your power dynamic, work within your power dynamic. Because the last thing you wanna do is think you've done something great for your partner or you're planning something great for them to find out that they're upset that there was no communication. They couldn't give consent. The dom is like, what

are you doing taking control? I'm not okay. You know what I mean? Like some people are gonna be like, I don't care. This is a special thing. Just do whatever. I'll be happy with it. And some some doms are gonna be like, no. No. I want to have some level of control over this, even if it's just a little bit. So that's a thing to keep in mind, whether you're doing an experience, buying a product, or you're doing something on the cheap. Okay? Now I have a thought.

Uh-oh. And I don't like to I don't like to make blanket statements because nothing ever applies to everybody and everything doesn't apply to nobody. You know what I mean. I think from my experience and this is a pure I know there's bias here. Somebody's gonna disagree and it's fine. I believe from my personal experience in trying to create a moment for you on a special occasion that's your special occasion, your birthday, Father's Day, your Christmas present, whatever whatever.

I think I have it easier, and I think in general, service oriented kinksters will have it easier. And here's why I think that. If you're depends on how your service works and how you provide service, and that's service tops. It's caregiver doms who take care of. That's kind of a form of service even if it's within control and service subs and then any other words we wanna use to describe people who are service oriented in their power exchange.

When I want to give my daddy something special for an occasion and we're not spending money, I can do something. I can be of service. Now I still have to make sure it's of service he wants. Like, all that still matters. But I get to go, you know, I would like to do this for you. Right? If I already have an idea. Mhmm. Or I get to go, hey, what would you like to have done for you? What

can I do for you? And the reason I think that service oriented kinksters might have it easier is because there's no running around unless you really enjoy this thinking of some special surprise moment that's supposed to be this like amazing scene or it's gonna be this or it's gonna be that. There's the to me there's less pressure. It's what can I do for you or can I do this? For Father's Day for JB, our domestic chores are not about power exchange. They're Mhmm.

They're distributed based on what we are willing and capable of doing as two grown ass adults. And we do this for each other on our special occasions, birthdays and, mother or father's day. I was like, you do not have to touch the dishes this weekend. You do not have to do the laundry. You're part of the laundry this weekend. Right? I was like, anything I can do for you that you would normally do, I will

do it. Now here's the thing. Outside of a kink context, that's what people who care about one another do for each other to mark special occasions, Of course. But just like with everything kink, in in my opinion at least, it's about mindset. It's about where your head is at. It's about the headspace within which you do this. If I'm I'm not just doing this because I love JB and happy Father's Day. I am doing this in a submissive mindset.

I'm like, oh, I get to be of service in this power exchange to give him the kind of day he would like to have. And that day ended up just being very quiet and very lazy. I wasn't even in the house. Because I mean, I know as a mother, on Mother's Day, I love my children. They can go away. I could be alone. I'm fine with that. And JB is so much different. Like, no. No. I don't need the kids around to celebrate this day of parenthood.

In fact, I would like them to all go away to celebrate this day of parenthood, which is the ultimate irony, if you're raising children. So that's another thing I would say for for folks who are like, but everything I do is, like, basic and boring and other, you know, non kinky people do it too. How does it make you feel? Do you feel within like, you're sitting in your power exchange? Are you in your submissive mindset? Are you

in your dominant mindset? Does it does it give you that opportunity to to just experience your role in a way that's also like, oh, we wouldn't be doing this if it wasn't our anniversary. If it wasn't, you know, my birthday, whatever whatever. Right? So that is that's why I say I feel like service oriented kingsters. Just have it easier because it's like what can I do? I would like to do something for you. What can I do? Whereas I know you kind of struggle. I had to remind you. I was like, you

are my daddy dong. Mhmm. I have not been taken care of as the baby girl I am because we just we haven't had the luxury of it. Right? It's not that JB's slacking. It's not that I'm well, it's probably as I'm a total bitch. But it's just like that hasn't been the priority. And I was like, you know what I really fucking want? I wanna feel like the fucking baby girl that I am. I wanna be coddled. I wanna be taken care of. I want to not be responsible for a damn thing.

Anything that came within that umbrella was amazing because I knew while it was all happening, I don't have to do this because I'm the baby girl and that's my daddy dom taking care of me. Like it's it's all mind fuckery and I am here for mind fucking ourselves. Do would you agree with that or do you think it's very easy because you just kinda know what you wanna do anyway? I mean, there are those doms who are like, oh, I know what I wanna do because I'm always planning or whatever.

Well, I'm yeah. I mean, to a certain extent, you know, I I know what I wanna do at a at a given time. You know? I mean, like, that that weekend, I ended up sitting on the sofa barely moving and binge watching and or Deadpool and Wolverine and And having a great old time. I meant in reverse. Like, when you are like, like, I I did what I could to give you that space because that was a service. Right. When you're doing that for me in reverse, you're a caregiver, Don, but you're a sadist

before anything else. Let's let's be real. If he can be kind of mean and evil about something while having control Mhmm. It's mostly a happy camper. So do you find it when it's my turn to go this way? When to go no. It's not that difficult because I I know you well enough. We've been together long enough that I know what you Mhmm. What you do. Mhmm. So yeah. No. It's not that difficult. Was I out of practice over the last few years? Absolutely. Absolutely. But,

you know, it's like anything else. It's not stretch the muscle and, you know, it comes back. Did you enjoy it with it coming back like that with you being the one to decide everything? You didn't have to ask me what I wanted. Like, you could have and I said that because I didn't want him to be overwhelmed either. Like, I want that this I wasn't trying to make my special occasion a major chore and headache for him. I just I just

I wanted I didn't wanna think. Were you feeling your dom self in that moment while you're doing all is it were you In in a way, yeah. Yeah. Me because even though I was doing things for you, it was because of me that, you know Right. Every you decided everything. Yeah. I knew nothing. Nothing. Quite frankly, knew so little, forgot this was the day we were celebrating. But I didn't have to do any of the stuff I was supposed to have to do that I would also got all taken

away from me. And I should've known, like, oh, I'm the laundry is already folded, and it's not waiting for four days for me to fold it. Oh, it's a special occasion. Nope. It was when he pulled out the the rib eyes from Aldi. I was like, oh, yeah. This is my special day. And I did. And, you know, that's the nice thing in that moment. Once I once I connected the dots, I was like, oh, yeah. This is

our belated Mother's Day. I did. I felt like there's a a soft squishy part of me as a baby girl that gets, like, all, you know? And I did get that feeling. And that weird not weirdly. I don't think anybody would think it's weird because I don't get to feel that way as often as I would like in in recent years, not very often at all. And there went our camera again. Because I don't get that, I forget that I need it. But then when I get it again, I'm like, oh my god. This feels so

good. I now want more of it. But and this is very specific to our dynamic. I cannot say that it'll do this for anybody else's dynamic. Once I get to kinda swim in those baby girl feels and JB gets to swim in the daddy dom feels, when because we want to feel it again, we start doing things and responding and thinking along those lines. So then after that special occasion has been marked and and after, you know, we're, am I trying to say?

After we've had that moment and we've done our kink thing, there's still kind of a a remnant left over where we are getting back into that mindset, you know, a little bit more frequently, a little bit more easily and it doesn't last forever, you know, because regular life crops back up every time and we'll screw it all up. But it's never just the single occasion. It's never just the one special day where we get to feel that way.

Like, you know, Father's Day was a Sunday and even Monday, I was, like, a softer version of myself. And JB was definitely a more, like, I'm gonna make some decisions side of himself, you know, and and taking charge instead of waiting for me to go, hey. What do you want? Let me give you the decisions to make. Right? So, yeah, there's a benefit to that. I'm gonna try and find my notes. Oh, sorry. It's okay. It's okay. Nothing is working. So No. It's a yeah. Podcast listeners,

you're good. You're good. Yeah. Okay. Now let's talk about some ways that we have, not just the birthday spanking. So I guess we have been doing that, but let's talk about some ways somebody could maybe or some Mhmm. Reasons. Well, I don't know. I don't know where to to take it because I want to offer folks a way to think about it that's not just this is what Kayla and JB do. That's no fun. It's not enough. But I do think people overthink it and they think they have to plan some big

grand thing. And if you have the means, opportunity, time, and money to do that, go for it. Do it. There there's nothing wrong with that. We it's been several years now. I can't remember what the occasion was, but hell yeah. I got carted off to the dungeon, strapped to the Saint Andrew's Cross and flogged for as long as we were allowed to Yeah. To take up that space and that and then went was taken to breakfast. And that was an amazing day. Had a great time.

But also knowing that I, you know, don't have to make decisions that I would normally make. Right? Like, that's the the relief of it. Like, there even when you have power exchange, everybody's making decisions throughout the day to get through the day. When I could as not just the service missive who does stuff for JB, but the baby girl who wants to desperately be taken care of and to turn her brain off and just Mhmm. Swim in whatever my baby girl feels are. Once I realized I could have that and

I was having that, oh my god. I just I relaxed. It felt good. Mhmm. Do you get an in reverse kind of feel when I'm over here being, like, even more service oriented than usual? And or do you feel it more on, like, birthday spanking days? Or when do you feel it as a dom? On the birthday spanking. Your evil laugh is just there the whole fucking time. Believe it or not the whole time. There there are times, you know, like, believe me, I I appreciate

it. You know, like for father's day, I didn't have to touch laundry, I didn't have to touch dishes, nothing, none of that. It was fantastic. But then there are times I'm sitting there and I'm thinking, oh my gosh. She's doing all this work. I feel bad. That's what I do. Yeah. Yeah. And I feel the same way when you're doing stuff for me on my special occasion. I don't I'm not capable of just being nothing but baby girl for more than about five minutes at a time.

You know, it's it's just the being an adult in a in the world that we live in. Like, there's just always so much to do. But you can't, you you know, if you are able to stay in your power exchange or your kink headspace for more than, you know, the duration of a scene or for more than ten minutes at a time anytime else, I am so happy for you, but my brain don't work that way. I got a whole hell of a lot of tabs open and I'm still trying to figure out where the music is coming

from. So I can feel it for a little bit and then I flip over to guilt because I should be doing something. I'm the service of what am I doing just sitting here right? There have been some other times that you've I don't know. Did you plan it or was it spur of the moment but would be near like an anniversary I think you did it one year.

Recently, past couple years when nobody was leaving this house and there was no privacy and I basically got commanded out to the shop in the backyard, stepped over the threshold of the door and was just, like, hair grab, tossed down Mhmm. You know, pants pulled down and just wailed on. And it's like and I knew at any point, like, we've been together long enough. There's no question to me. I could say for it out of anything, but I wasn't expecting it. I it wasn't a planned thing,

but I I knew. I think it was our anniversary. It was like, we were this was our time to go. Yeah. Let's celebrate. And let's celebrate for us in kink ways are very small, relatively quiet, are not like, there's no, like nobody puts a banner up and and does noisemakers for that. It's like, oh, this is this moment and for us impact being what it is. I'm a beat your fucking ass until, you know, I get tired or you safe word. Let's go. Right? So, you know, I I do think sometimes we overthink

trying to do that. We we imagine we need to plan the big scene. Oh, but what if the kids won't, you know, will be home or, oh, we've got to do this, but there's no money for it. It really it really doesn't have to be that way. I think more of us would like I would like it to be that way. I would love to be able to that way. Sometimes it's good to be that way. Right. And when you can, take the opportunity. Right? Don't, you know, don't worry about, you know, if you couldn't buy a new toy

or you can't go someplace special. Can you get a certain amount of time alone and quiet and you're not worried about scaring anybody else who lives, you know, in your home, and and do whatever it is. But when you don't have that, to me, it's just like everything else we do with Power Exchange. Find ways to incorporate it in seamlessly and in ways nobody else is gonna clock.

All anybody looked at for my Mother's Day was, oh, look at mister John being really nice for mom, you know, making her a dinner she loves and surprising her with it. That's what it looks like from the outside. And I'm over here going, no thoughts, just vibes. This is the life, you know. This is how it should be, you know. And, for for Father's Day, it looks like JB's getting a lazy day and he was. But I'm over there hauling ass with Right.

Joy in my heart because I'm like, oh, I'm feeling so fucking so it's alright now. Let's do this. I got laundry done faster You did. Doing it for JB than I ever do for myself alone because that's the submissive in me. I am so motivated to do even the most fucking mundane shit when I know I'm doing it as a submissive and not just as a fucking responsible adult who has to exist in life. You know? No motivation to get shit done for that, but

to make my daddy happy. So I I do I do think people tend to overthink it is what I'm saying. Yeah. It you know, do I miss having the ability to just go off and do the thing and spend whatever the money is and take the time and drive two hours and do yeah. And we'll get there again because we did enjoy it when we could do it. Mhmm. But, you know, in a in a broke life, in a quiet life, in a busy life, finding small ways Right. Is very meaningful. Mhmm.

Yep. And sometimes those small things have, more meaning than any big thing. Mhmm. I agree. I have a question for you. Uh-oh. That has nothing to do with the topic. Okay. And normally, I ask before you start hitting buttons. Did you turn off the Windows blahdy blahdy blah thing on the computer that always stops our camera? No. That's why our camera stops working. I'll bet I'll bet that's what it is. We can talk about that in the bonus section.

I wish x was able to watch the live stream because I don't know if we have answered his question satisfactorily. I don't know if there was something specific that he wanted Yeah. Answered. I'd all I know is, yeah, they're the kind of the obvious ways when you have money to spend and time to do it in. And what we've gotten really good at is the, you know, broke as a motherfucker. Mhmm. And there's always somebody else in this house besides just us. Yeah. And our privacy

is limited, and our time is limited. And so we do even the most special days the way we do everything else in our power exchange as we can, where we can in small doses and under the fucking radar. Mhmm. And those days feel special to me. Part of it is because some of the things we do, we don't do for any like, short of, like, if JB's sick, of course I'm gonna do the stuff he would normally do because he's sick. But we don't just

randomly come up to one another. Maybe we should, but maybe this is what keeps it special. I don't just show up on some random, like, I don't know, August day and go, hey, I'll do the laundry for you this weekend. I could. Please don't look for that. That is what your birthday and our anniversary is though, is the one that that's hard to do. There's not much we can do for one another. Anniversary, that used to be what we would do. I haven't done it in a couple years.

Hopefully, we can get back to it this year. We would go out to a meal and sometimes, like, for us, air quote, fancy, but sometimes not. Sometimes, like, a little dive or whatever. And the whole time out in public, we'd be in power exchange mode. Daddy would be, like, daddy oh, god. I still remember the one the time when we went to the cigar bar and the restaurant, and you were dressed up, and I was dressed nice. And you like, I didn't speak unless spoken to

you. I've spoken, you know, spoken to. Mhmm. And you kinda just, like, we went to that cigar bar, and you're just looking out on the world, smoking your cigar, looking all cool, and I'm all quiet over there. And that was a huge turn on. You never sort of ordered me to do anything, but we fell into that mode. My my hand got held everywhere. I was I was guided wherever we needed to be. Yeah. It was it was delightful. He it was the way he talked to

me. That's another thing. It doesn't like, we can do this at home, but it's harder to do at home. So, yeah, tone of voice, very, like, deep and the the gleam in his eye was, like, there. Like, very serious. Like, even the baby girl in me probably could not have gotten the daddy dom to come out. The dominant sadist was out, and it was having a good time. But we did, you know, stuff like that. Like, we just Mhmm. Changed the and and it's not

always easy. And sometimes you know the the mood you wanna be in for the special occasion of that specific day does not align with what your mind and or body will allow you to do. But when it does, when the stars fucking align, I mean, we could've gone for, like, fucking McDonald's value menu and still had that kind of power exchange y experience

fucking week? Of course. But I feel like it's when you take when you do it for a birthday, for an anniversary, for whatever a special day is for for you, and you do it, Swiss cheese brain has gotten me, intentionally with intentionality. Right? Like, there's you are focused on this and this is why you're doing it. It even if it's kind of a mundane thing that you do more often than not, that's where the meaning can come from. And then there's like the build up to

the day. If we do make a plan for like our wedding anniversary and we're gonna go out, we're gonna do some whatever, we're talking about it a week or two or more in advance. Yeah. You know, especially if we're gonna spend like more than the average amount of money we would spend. Well, we're planning for it. And so then there's the anticipation of it. And that's fun because then I'm like, do you want me to wear something specific? Do you you know? What do you

want to control of this, JB? Because you get to be in charge of this, and I will cede that control to you. And there we are just trying to go to dinner and it's two or three days before and we're in our power exchange. And I you know, that's that's how we approach it. Mhmm. Because it doesn't you can do it when you spend money, but it doesn't require money. You can't it's fun to do when you leave the house, but you don't even have to leave the house. You know? True. True. So yeah. Excuse me.

I cannot think of anything else I would say about that. X, when you hear this or watch this or however you consume this, if you're like, no. I have follow-up questions. Please share them with me. We will we'll do a segment, like, next week or something. It's follow-up. I don't know. But, yeah, that's all I can think about Okay. On that one. So, are we good? The way this live stream and the video of God, I don't know. Yeah. You know. Podcast listeners be grateful. You just have to listen. Dottie.

Yes, baby girl. I'm terrified to try to do this, but can we talk to the crickets? Yeah. Do you wanna know when I thought about that security thing and I was like, did you hit that button? But see, it never did anything to the camera. It used to botch up Audacity. No. It did stuff to the camera. Oh, yeah. And I was in mid thought on something, saw a thing come up and I went, oh my god. Oh my god. Did we not hit that button? We used to remind

each other about it. I I need to reinstall the webcam utility. It's done this before. Had to reinstall it. Give that that's gonna be a first thing I try. Not really a project. Oh, okay. But on the other hand, part of what's going on with this computer, the hard drive is almost full. That's right. God. I know we had that conversation. Yeah. Yeah. And what was our solution? Install a new hard drive. Oh, yeah.

Reload the operating system. It's almost like after all these years and 444 long form episodes and well over a 100 short episodes, it's almost like things might be, like, getting tired, getting old, getting full. We need to refresh everything. Man. I just oh, I don't like you know how I get about tech issues. They stress me out so much. I, okay. Let's let's get away from this stress and talk about Lola's stress. We were not our favorite people today. I

know. She's fine. She's absolutely fine. She was sleeping at my feet earlier when we started. She's sleeping on her cot Yeah. Like, the rest of us don't exist. Yeah. She had her, six month follow-up. Yeah. She has to do a semiannual Mhmm. Heart her heartworm thing, I think. Right. And then she has, Because of the, thyroid. No. The the thyroid is what they're doing annual. The heartworm was because she's had heartworms in the past. That's right. Yeah. And then she had to get a vaccine. Is it

lepto? Is it leptin? It's lep something. Yeah. You work with, like, vet and animals, you will probably know. Mhmm. I just went, sure, give her the fucking shot. How much is it? Okay. Fine. Look. Look. I am that person. I know that nobody is infallible and things change all the time. But when a trusted professional says, you, your child, your dog, your cat need this, I go give a fucking to them. I don't care. I just don't even blink. It's like So, yeah. She was she was a little stressed out.

She is down to 75. She's lost weight. We're so proud of her. Yep. She she is she is losing weight. Log. She has hips again. She has a waistline. Yeah. Just snatched, y'all. She looks so good. They were so proud of us, and I am god damn, I'm such a fucking baby girl. So this was like, oh, I wish I there was like a gold star we could get with this. I was kinda soaking it up a little

bit. Oh, well, it does it did does does or does not help that the vet who has been seeing her most frequently, he is a beautiful man. He he is an incredibly beautiful man. And he's And his accent. And he's kind, and he's good at what he does. And has a sense of humor. Right. He clearly loves animals. And, you know, I mean, just like, god, just amazing. Part of me wants, because I just don't trust when things seem that amazing. I'm like, is he a shit? Like, buzzwords.

That's not my problem. The two or three times a year we come to this thing. But but but, you know, yeah. Looks Yeah. Looks wise, he's right up there with, Pedro Pascal and and Cavill. Oh my god. Pedro Pascal. I'm glad that man's having his moment. Don't even get me started on that. But, yes, this this vet is just I mean, we we both get very quiet and listen and pay very close attention while he's talking to us. And we're polite and we smile, and

we're not gross or creepy. But the moment that man leaves the room, we're like, oh my god. He's so beautiful. I just can I just say I love being in a relationship with somebody that I can do we do that over any type of human? If we find them beautiful regardless of gender, we're like, oh my god. They're fucking hot, beautiful, gourd, like, pick a word, whatever we find them. We send each other other creators' thirst traps Yeah. On Instagram to one another

to go, look at that human. That's sexiest shit. Yeah. That is how I learned that I have a slight interest. I don't have the means or the will yet, but I have a slight interest in being similar to what the Internet calls muscle mommies. Mhmm. And I asked JB. I was like like, I know you like you are happy with me in whatever form I take. You love me regardless. I was like, but if I actually cared about, like, building muscle and whatever that entailed, and I I was like, you know,

what are the words for it? I don't know. I was like, would if I was a muscle mommy, the look at his face was I was like, oh, okay. Okay. Well, I'm not gonna worry that I will somehow lose the attraction of JB and that. Okay. Okay. So, anyway. Yep. Yeah. We got we got to lust over some for our vet. Now and I I want it on the record that I'm not trying to lust after this very kind beautiful man with gorgeous hair.

Anyway, when I called the vet to make her appointment because they only sent me three emails and four text messages and and a postcard to let me know she needed services. Yeah. And we were not even late. Goddamn it. Like, today was the deadline for one of them. Anyway anyway, when I was on the phone with the vet and they're like, oh, we have this doctor. And that do you do you have a preference? No. I don't have a preference whoever's available.

And I think that's that's how the universe graced us with that particular vet because I wasn't being all thirsty about it. I was just, like, whatever. Whatever comes our way. Whatever the universe grants us, it's fine. It's fine. But yeah. Yeah. So no. She it clearly wasn't too terrible for her because, at least with me, she did not act like, she's when she has to go to the vet and it's, like, really like, she really fucking hates it, she does not, air quote, talk to you

for the rest of the day. She does not give space. She's not making eye contact. She's not sitting next to you. She's not following, like, nothing. Like, wants nothing to do with nobody. And she went like that to that. I lay down on the couch earlier this afternoon. And, you know, most more times than not, Lola will climb up on there with me Mhmm. More than that. Mhmm. No. She she slept on the floor. She she was in the living room. K. So she was mad at you. But

she was on the floor. She kept coming back here and sitting next to me when I was at my desk. Okay. So it wasn't me she was mad at. No. No. Probably because I fed her the doughnut. Right. Right. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. When when when she has to go to the bed or or something like that Or the groomer. Or the groomer. Something she hates. Yeah. We, we do give her a a special premium treat as we call it. Yeah. But old fashioned donuts from Dunkin' that don't have any glaze on them. Yeah. They're just like

a cake donut. That's that's the thing. Yeah. But, her her treats anymore are apple slices. Mhmm. And right now, she she loves watermelon. Absolutely loves watermelon. And excuse me. And I came across this this thing that somebody was making with Greek yogurt and watermelon puree. For dogs. Like, they're just making it randomly. Yeah. No. No. So what what they were doing and I they had a special, like, little silicone Right. Thing to do. And I'm like, I bet that'll work in an ice tray too.

Yeah. They probably had that linked in their Amazon storefront. Right. With an affiliate link. Yeah. But, so, you know, I tried. I put a scoop of Greek, Greek yogurt, plain, non no flavor, and, then poured the puree on there and froze it. Put it in the freezer and froze it. And, yeah, cracked the ice tray that came out, dropped one in her bowl. She loved it. The first time you did it, she was She wasn't sure. She wasn't sure. But then when she started licking it So that

was interesting. The first the first one you ever gave her, you tried to hand it to her like a regular treat. Like, you would an apple slicer or whatever. Yeah. And she was like, what the fuck? So then I was like, hey. Try putting it in her bowl. She knows that's food. So Mhmm. Does this thing because it's frozen. She's licking at it, and it's racing around her bowl. Yeah. And then finally, she got wise to it, and she went, fuck this. She picked it up. She carried it here in the office.

It's where she likes to eat certain treats. Not all treats, but certain treats. She's like, no. No. I have to take this away to my special place, and I gotta, like Right. Get comfy so we can eat this. But my fear was that was Greek yogurt that was eventually going to defrost and be mushy. I was like, if she does not like it, we'll have a problem. So she came back thirty seconds after she did that. We're like, oh, shit. Did she just leave gloopy Greek yogurt on the floor? Looked and No.

There there was It just took her thirty seconds to eat it. You couldn't tell there was ever anything there. Mm-mm. Mm-mm. Nope. Yep. It's like, okay. That one that one worked. But, yeah, that was the thing I was worried about. I was like, oh my god. I don't wanna have to clean up So that's that's, that's become her summer snack right now, and she she likes it. Mhmm. Yeah. No. Well, for the five minutes, I got to enjoy blueberry season this year Yeah.

I mostly missed it because I base is it blueberry season on the price of fucking blueberries? Because they go down. Not because they're a specific price, but they go from a price I don't wanna pay to a price I'm willing to pay. Yeah. And for two weeks, I saw a price I was willing to pay, so I don't know what the fuck happened there. But she loves blueberries. Yeah. And so, normally, if if it's blueberry season and I'm buying blueberries, then I am sharing them with her.

And we didn't get to that very much. But now it's watermelon season and watermelons have been a price, like, less than $6 for a good sized watermelon. We've been getting one almost every week. Two people in this household are very happy about that, me and Lola. We have cut a watermelon in the fridge because it's so big and like, we don't really have a container that you could put

a lid on that's big enough. Yeah. So we keep it open and, until it gets down to a certain point, then we could put it in a in something to keep it fresh. And I'll just walk to the fridge, open it up, grab a hunk of watermelon, walk away. Oh, I'm a little thirsty. Walk back to the fridge, grab watermelon. Oh, I could I wouldn't because I think I would probably burst with that much water. But sometimes I'm like,

I could eat a whole ass watermelon. I wouldn't wanna do anything else for the rest of the fucking day till I get to eat. There is that. Yeah. Woah. Oh, god. Watermelon's so good. So good. Mister Spock asks if you are not a watermelon I I am. I am. I I do enjoy It's not obsessively, like, me and Lola. No. No. Not like those two, but I do enjoy me a good watermelon. This is how nonchalant he is about watermelon.

We have this massive watermelon. I put it in a big old bowl, and Lola was getting some, and I was eating every day. I was having watermelon with breakfast and or lunch. And I was like, holy crap. JB has not really touched this. So then I go and I put the rest of the it's falling down enough. I can put the watermelon in a container. I'm like, hey, you haven't eaten any, so I've stopped eating the watermelon so you can have some. I still don't think you ate any of that.

No. I didn't. I didn't. It's ambivalent watermelon. That's the problem. Part of the problem at that time too, we had too many snacks around the house. Oh, my lord. Yeah. Yeah. This this is a first world problem and this is a problem of privilege. I recognize that because I have been in positions where I was like, am I gonna be able to go grocery shopping this week? But when the refrigerator has too much shit in it, that is that is not stressful, like, when you don't

have enough. I'm not gonna minimize that. But that's its own kind of stress, like, what do I eat first and can I get into my fridge and what's gonna fall out? And I the problem is is that sounds so, like, oh, gross privilege. Yeah. But I am also because I have had those moments where there was not necessarily enough. I'm an over buyer. I want my fridge and freezer to be stocked when it can be, but it is But what what was nice too was that, part of that was we had so many leftovers

in the freeze in the fridge. We, we ate for two days on leftovers, didn't have to cook. That was delightful. That was delightful. I, my whole childhood, there were always leftovers. That's what you had for a a meal later on or if it was summer, that's what was lunch the next day, whatever whatever. Leftovers are part of my life. And I was kind of a probably a typical kid. I hated having have leftovers.

And so there some I guess from my, like, early twenties, probably to mid thirties truly, I cooked in such a way, we ate in such a way, there was hardly ever leftovers, and I was grateful because I hated eating leftovers. And then by the time the children started being bigger than we were, taller anyway, I was like, oh, we we can't feed them in the same way. Like, we have to we have to cook in bulk, not just buy in bulk. We have to cook in

bulk. So I started having leftovers again, and then I was, like, reminded or I learned or I don't know, but my parents knew most most adults know. The beauty of having leftovers because that's less food you have to cook and buy. We've we are at a point now one day a week is always left overnight Mhmm. Because we have just enough leftovers. But sometimes, we have too many leftovers. And am I a person who will stretch, how much time you should keep something and

try to keep eating on it. Uh-huh. Because I know what it I know what it is to have a slightly empty fridge. Like, it's I get it. I I know. But, yeah, they're I yeah. We've probably I've probably kept things for too long because I was like, oh, it's a waste if I throw it away. Oh, we shouldn't do that. But, you know, Kim says we should trade leftovers. Not gonna lie. Somebody else's leftovers always look way better than your own leftovers. Be interesting. You know, a big like a a Like

Like a swap meat for leftovers? Mhmm. Just, you know Yeah. That's kind of the first of all, some things do taste better the second day or later. Yeah. Chili, spaghetti sauce, like, things that just taste better the longer they can kind of simmer and cook anyway. They get happy. Right. Some things do not taste as good. No. And sometimes just down there were years I couldn't eat leftover chicken. If it had to be reheated in the microwave, had such a funky taste to me, I could not eat it, would not

eat it. Now I found tricks to avoid that, both the rubber, texture of microwaved reheated chicken Mhmm. And the flavor, sauce or butter. Something that will override the there's a flavor to reheated chicken. I just but do I cook like I'm feeding a football team? Anytime I'm cooking something with chicken and rice or something and potato. Yes. And then I don't wanna eat it because I don't really like leftover chicken. I don't meal prep chicken by cooking it if the plan is to have to reheat

it. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. If I can if it's like grilled chicken, I'm gonna eat cold and a cold salad. That's fine. But if I'm plan to reheat the chicken later, I cannot cook it. It tastes Yeah. It tastes so bad. Even in an air fryer, it still tastes funky. Don't like it. And she said lasagna is a great leftover. It is. Indeed it is. Indeed it is. Was it you asked me to make you lasagna or I offered to make you lasagna that was, like

It was for some reason. Last year? No. It feels like something recent. What was it? It was special for you. Mhmm. What the fuck was it? Because it was your special day, and I was like, I'll cook for you. What would you like? Fuck it. I don't I made lasagna, though. You did. Mhmm. And it was damn good. You know what it was? I think we do this this is another thing we do. Not as often as we used to, but for a while, we did it semi regularly. We do at home date nights. Mhmm. Mhmm. And it wasn't

meant to be kinky. It was just meant to, like, have a special meal and have it just be the two of us, no child at a table. The youngest loves when we do those special date nights because I'm not cooking a separate meal while cooking some special thing we would not normally eat. They usually wind up with McDonald's or something like that. I'm like, here is your, chicken nuggies and your Doctor Pepper that's, like, in a bucket or something. Yeah. Have a good night.

They're in heaven, and then we get to sit down and have a food that I could not even put on the table for that child to eat. So That is true. Yeah. We haven't done that in a hot minute. I think the lasagna might have been a day. Been. Might have been. Anyway, yeah, there are certain things I I will I'm happy to eat the left overs on. Pastas. Mhmm. Chili. Yeah. There was something else because every time mashed potatoes.

Left left I'll make too many mashed potatoes just to have the leftover mashed potatoes. You need some mashed potatoes now. Look. I'm part potato. Okay? I I have not found a way for it to be cooked that I don't like yet. There are ways that I won't cook because they they feel too complicated or I'm afraid of fucking it up. But as a kid, I had, I know I'm not gonna say it the way it's probably supposed to be said. I'm gonna say it the way my, country mother used to say it. Potatoes au gratin,

twice baked potatoes. I love those, but that's a lot of fucking work. Of course baked potatoes, roasted potatoes. There's another potato that was like always made me me think of potatoes au gratin, but it wasn't potatoes au gratin. It was something else, but it was very potatoey. With or without cheese, I can't remember. I can't remember potatoes. Man, potatoes. I like a good French fry. I mean, shit. Look at me. I like a good

french fry. But no. No. No. I'll I'll just take, like, a baked potato with a little bit of butter and, salt and pepper and we'll just be fucking happy. Roasted potatoes with just, like, some herbs and some olive oil on it. You don't want to be fans. Oh my god. I could eat my weight in potatoes, which would not be difficult to do because they are apparently the most satiating food that we have. Fucking delicious. I am part potato.

So now that we've got me thinking about potatoes, I would not oh, I would not No. It's too late in the evening. No. No. No. No. I'm thinking future. A date night where you grill steaks and I spend a million years making twice baked potatoes. Did we have this conversation? Have you ever had a twice baked potato? I have not. I have not. Oh my god. I I even had to ask you what it is. Okay. So if you don't know, I here's

the thing. My dad, I don't know if he loved to cook, but there was a point in life he there was no choice if we were gonna eat. He had to cook, and he just kinda went all out. And so he made all kinds of stuff. Twice baked potatoes was semi regular in our house. If you don't know what a twice baked potato is, oh, my god. Let me bring you into the fold. You bake a potato. Bake the potato. However you bake the potato. Cut kind of part of the top off. Scoop out

the guts. You want it fully cooked. Scoop out the potato. Leave a shell. You were then gonna take that transfer scooped out potato and you can mix it with whatever you want. But typically, we would do butter and cheese and maybe like a sour cream or a milk or a cream to like make it creamier, scallions, bacon, whatever, whatever, whatever. Just that all up and then you put that mixture back in the potato. Because you've got that little hollowed out shell of a potato

probably topped with cheese. Pop it back in the, oven. I think my my dad would just put it under the broiler so I get it warm again. Like you didn't have to recook it. I guess you could if you wanted to. You didn't have to. And then it was like this decadent because then, like, I love potato skin. I'm, I'm gonna eat that outside part. And that would be a little extra crispier. And then you get this gooey, cheesy mashed potato situation on the ends. Oh, my

my mouth is watering. My mouth is watering. Mhmm. My mouth is watering. Kim says recook for about twenty minutes. There we go. Mhmm. Yeah. But my dad would do that, like, semi regularly. Like, it'd be a Tuesday. He would have made, like, some, like, maybe, some beef thing, some chicken thing, some whatever thing. And there'd be twice baked potatoes. Oh my god. I already ate dinner and I'm Oh, the thought of twice baked potato. Holy shit. Oh, mouth is watering now.

I don't know how I could ever become Don't see it. I don't think it's gonna happen. Yeah. Oh my god. So fucking good. Mhmm. So fucking good. And, my finger is better. Yeah. Your bandage is off. Oh, I don't wanna look at the tip of it though. It's a little better. It's a little scabby looking. Only, covered up now when I'm working. Fair. Excuse me. Did you hit the vodka before we started? Not intentionally.

Might have fallen, you know, on the cabinet and or some hit Oh, the vodka fell out of the cabinet, fell open, dripped into your waiting open mouth underneath. Oh, no. How did that happen? Happened. Oh my god. Yeah. I'm I'm here for that. Oh, I did speaking of this is it's not even a Friday night livestream, and here we are Yeah. Back on our our food and drink stuff. I told JB recently that I didn't know how we could do it, but we needed to. At home,

out. At probably at home, cheaper and I don't have to worry about trying to get home. I am craving a margarita. I don't drink I don't drink very often. I there was a time I think I drink margaritas, like, two, maybe three times a year tops, if that. It's been five or six years since I had a margarita. Last time we went, we were in Mississippi. Yeah. And, my mouth was watering for it. No. I mean, yeah. The tequila's nice. The feeling is nice. But there's that,

like, sourness from the margarita. I don't wanna drink just margarita mix, Yoda. I do want the tequila in it. I also want the chips and queso that frequently comes with margarita. Nope. Not gonna be a muscle mommy. No. I'm gonna be soft and squidgy. Thank God you like me like that. I know how to I've got my moments too, so I can't talk, you know? I barely I think I could have the discipline to, like, work out specifically for, like I

need to do strength training. That's a very healthy thing apparently, supposedly at my age, blah blah blah blah. But the discipline to eat in such a way that the muscles are visible, I I don't know. I don't think I got it. I don't think I got it. There's too many foods. Oh, guacamole. Yes, mister Spock. Yeah. Queso, guac. Oh, yeah. And if the salsa that they is provided is really good, oh, yeah. A good salsa. But I'm a lightweight. It can't be too

spicy. I can't. Not not a lot of jalapeno in that. That salsa, I can't do it. I can't do it. As the children are so fond of pointing out, oh my god, mom. You're so white. Yes. I am. I guess. Whatever. Yeah. When I was a kid, I would have told you onions were spicy. That's that's who I I am slash was. Black pepper was too spicy. So okay. The camera went out, and you had already clicked the other thing. So yeah. This live streaming video is a hot mess express. Yep.

Yeah. It is. Yeah. Kitty Roasters, they're having spaghetti tonight. We're having We're having that tomorrow. Yeah. It's not spaghetti. Ten a. Yeah. Mhmm. Mhmm. So now that we're having even more tech issues that just they're coming left, right, and center Mhmm. I guess that means it's time to go. Yeah. Now that, you're more stressed and I am craving food we don't have in this house. Okay. Alright. I guess we'll go. So thank you for joining us. You've to the bitter end especially, and God

love you. If you are watching on YouTube, you're a hero. Okay. I I would roller coaster ride. I wouldn't have I wouldn't have had the patience. So, I appreciate you if you if you made it through. So, yeah, we're gonna go, and hopefully next week is less of a dumpster fire than this week. Alright. That's all we can hope. Okay. Bye. Bye.