As we continue to navigate the ever-changing landscape of life after losing a spouse, we take a heartfelt look at the emotional, physical, and mental adaptations that come with grief, healing, and finding a new normal. From adapting to sleeping alone, a single income and parenting alone, to navigating loneliness and rediscovering laughter, we'll share the triumphs and challenges of moving forward after loss. Take a moment to look at where you were and where you are now. You may not see it, but y...
Jun 13, 2023•7 min•Season 2Ep. 12
Do you ever feel like an imposter? Always hiding behind a mask pretending to be something your note! What if I told you that by taking off these masks, we can find true authenticity and even heal from loss? In this empowering episode, I discuss the various masks I've worn, including the painful mask of widowhood, and how removing it can lead to resilience, strength, and self-love. As we embrace our authentic selves, we acknowledge and celebrate the many facets of our identities beyond just being...
Jun 08, 2023•10 min•Season 2Ep. 11
What if you could overcome self-doubt and make confident decisions, especially in dating and relationships? How would that change your life? Being a widow is has not been my only block in finding love again. Today I share my own experiences of battling insecurities and learning to present my authentic self, maintain my boundaries, and wait for the love I truly deserve. Reflecting on my dating life over the past four years, I discuss the challenges I've faced in finding the perfect partner and ho...
Jun 01, 2023•8 min•Season 2Ep. 10
We all have regrets! Things we want to take back. Things we want to go back in time to change if we could. There are some wrongs we can make right, but with death. It kind of puts a stop to it so we are stuck with could’ve, should’ve, would’ve. For better or worse, all the things we may regret make is who we are today. No matter if they were good or bad. I can make myself crazy thinking of all the things I could have done differently in my marriage, but is there anything I could have done to cha...
May 25, 2023•6 min•Season 2Ep. 9
Many people feel that celebrating death anniversaries is part of the grieving process. Because we all grieve differently, how we choose to spend these death anniversaries will be different too. Death anniversaries can bring up feelings of sadness and grief, but it can also be a filled with happy memories. There comes a time for a lot of widows for many different reasons that we don't want to celebrate this anniversary anymore. My friend Matt from The Solo Dad Podcast shared a beautiful analogy o...
May 18, 2023•7 min•Season 2Ep. 8
I am no stranger to loss. The sadness, anger, guilt, anxiety, tiredness, shock, loneliness, and confusion. One thing that I don’t think is talked about enough is feeling gratitude after a loss. Just like joy can coincide with grief, so can gratitude. It’s the choice you make to celebrate the positive memories instead of focusing on the negative emotions. It’s the choice to choose love over sadness. By choosing love and gratitude I have been able to look at my losses and gaining a new meaning of ...
May 11, 2023•7 min•Season 2Ep. 7
I had the amazing honor of being an Impact Speaker at the Women’s Wellness Fest in Jacksonville Florida 2 weekends ago. And man was I nervous! I had no idea what I should speak about. The topic changed about 3 or 4 times and then it finally hit me! It’s the whole reason I was back at the Women’s Wellness Fest to begin with… and why this event is so dear to me. It was at this event last year that my dear friend Mary Beth encouraged me to do public speaking or start a podcast. As I was deciding on...
May 05, 2023•11 min•Season 2Ep. 6
I'm exhausted! I just finished a cross country road trip in 10 weeks and 3 days with 7,312 miles! This trip has been an amazing experience and an important part of my healing journey but has also left me exhausted physically. I was feeling guilty about not sharing an episode this week because I was so tired so I decided to share my thoughts and feelings on where I'm out right now in my life. I think it's important to take the time we need to rest so we can refocus and come out stronger! As alway...
Apr 28, 2023•10 min•Season 2Ep. 5
Grief has changed me. Every part of me. It has changed my everyday life, my morning routine. It has changed how I see the world. It has changed my outlook on life. It has changed my beliefs. It has changed how I interact with people. It has changed how I love. Grief is now my constant companion. I’ve let it define me in some ways and I’m okay with that because grief has also helped me grow. Without the tragedies that brought me grief I would not be the person I am today. I refuse to believe the ...
Apr 20, 2023•6 min•Season 2Ep. 4
One of the things I've hated about myself is how complaisant I've been my whole life, especially in my marriage. This has me reflecting on all my relationships now. I have always wanted nothing more than to be loved and appreciated. I have a hard time setting boundaries and saying no. I’m learning how to say no out of love and compassion for myself. I can still be nice and say no. Anyone who truly cares for me will not be upset, respect my decision and understand it came from a place of love. I’...
Apr 13, 2023•7 min•Season 2Ep. 3
I have a long list of things I want to do and places to go. I make some of the same excuses as most people. I need more money or time off work. But that has not been what has really stopped me. It's years of being told to keep dreaming and feeling like it's always out of reach. I am so done with making excuses of why I can’t go here and there or do this and that! I am finding ways to make my dreams of traveling come true! What are you waiting for? What is that one thing you want to do? That plac...
Apr 07, 2023•15 min•Season 2Ep. 2
Do you ever feel trapped? Stuck in survival mode trying to figure out how to claw your way out? What does it take for you to escape a life of grief and sadness? We all have our breaking points but it's what we choose to do after that defines us. We have to find the courage and break free! There is a whole new life out there waiting on his. We just have to be brave enough to go get it! As always, Widow Your Way! How to find Glennon Doyle's book Untamed Follow her on Instagram: @glennondoyle Buy t...
Mar 30, 2023•12 min•Season 2Ep. 1
Welcome to season 2 of Love is not dead, Just my husband! We are all forced to deal with unpleasantries in our life but we can't let these tragedies define us! There comes a time when we have to deal with our shit! We have to take responsibility for our own actions. Meaning, we have to decide how we want to respond to the tragedies we are dealt. Will you choose to break down or a breakthrough? I don’t know about you, but for me it’s time for a reckoning. As always, Widow Your Way! Support the sh...
Mar 23, 2023•6 min
Do you ever feel you were just meant for something else? Meant to be somewhere else? Like the life you are living was not meant for you! I’ve been feeling that way for a while now and have been trying to figure out what I need to do or what I even want. But how? I have procrastinated, settled and made so many excuses that I have found my life becoming stagnant. Same thing day in and day out. Nothing different. Nothing exciting. Nothing changing. Everything the same. It's time to stop making excu...
Mar 09, 2023•9 min•Season 1Ep. 14
Talking about death is difficult but funerals do tend to spark the conversation, but usually on a superficial level. It's not until you lose someone very close, having to plan a funeral and deal with the aftermath does it make you contemplate your own death. Death should not have us thinking about our dying. Death should have us thinking about living. How do you want to live the rest of your life? As always, Widow Your Way! Support the show You can now sign up for a small monthly subscription to...
Mar 03, 2023•6 min•Season 1Ep. 13
We have all been pushed out of the nest in our lives. By our parents or unexpected circumstances in life. When death pushes us we tend to build a new nest for ourselves. A nest of grief, cozy enough for one. We can become comfortable there. With all your fears and resistance, you have to leave this nest. But how? Trust yourself. Listen to your intuition. Open your eyes. Open your heart and jump! It’s time to fly! As always, Widow Your Way! Support the show You can now sign up for a small monthly...
Feb 23, 2023•7 min•Season 1Ep. 12
People ask me all the time how I came up with the podcast name Love is not dead, Just my husband. I have a slightly dark sense of humor and it was really me just joking around. I thought this podcast was going to be about me sharing funny stories of dating as a widow. Turns out I have a whole lot more to say. I used to think my journey was about being a widow, but it’s not. My journey is about love. But not in the way that people think. I honestly don’t think I really know what love is anymore. ...
Feb 16, 2023•8 min•Season 1Ep. 11
I don’t normally share my experiences with psychics, mediums or tarot readings because everyone believes something different. I’m also not some hard core fanatic but I do enjoy it. I don't take messages from beyond too seriously but I do find comfort in having a reminder that Tom is still with me. We should probably know that our loved ones would want us to be happy, but sometimes we just want to hear it. And there is one little thing that has been mentioned so often that I can't help believe th...
Feb 09, 2023•12 min•Season 1Ep. 10
Want to know a dirty little secret? Some widows are actually happier after the loss of their spouse! I am one of those widows! I am a widow that is actually living happier after. And it's not that I'm happy that my husband died but where I am in my life, I am happier than expected and that is something that is hard for me to share with other people. Sometimes there are circumstances in a marriage that some people just don't understand. In my case I found a sense of adventure that I didn't have i...
Feb 02, 2023•10 min•Season 1Ep. 9
Do you ever want to give a big F***K You to your spouse for dying? Do you ever feel guilty for saying bad things about your dead spouse? I hate that being a widow is so romanticized and I fell into that trap by idolizing my husband because you shouldn't speak ill of the dead. I don't want to disrespect my husband in any way but this is my story! And the only way for me to widow my own way is to acknowledge the anger I have towards Tom for dying and for the things that happened just before. This ...
Jan 25, 2023•12 min•Season 1Ep. 8
It’s ironic that as I’m trying to tell my story of how I learned to widow my own way and I am finding that I am experiencing a lot of the same moments now, almost 5 years later. Like, something is going to continue to happen over and over until I have actually learned my lesson. In today's episode I talk about being alone versus being lonely. This is something I have really been struggling with since Tom died but if I’m honest it’s something I’ve struggled with my whole life. I have always felt ...
Jan 18, 2023•10 min•Season 1Ep. 7
This episode was recorded on a whim right after my dog Vegas went missing! I have 2 dogs but these are not my pets by choice. Vegas an Old English Bulldog and Caroline a Pit Bull. Tom and I agreed that we would not have any more pets so we can have more freedom, but he broke that promise. He disguised Vegas as a birthday gift for me, but I called bullshit! As much as I tried there was no way I could resist his cuteness and puppy kisses. Everyone loved him and he soon became very spoiled. Then ca...
Jan 12, 2023•13 min•Season 1Ep. 6
When we lose someone that has been a major part of our lives, we may struggle with who we are without them. How can we let our identity become so wrapped up in someone or something that we forget who we actually are. We are more than just a spouse, a sibling, a child, parent, or a friend. How do we redefine who we are and rediscover this new version of ourselves? I have discovered that my identity crisis didn't come from becoming a widow. It was the death of my husband that has forced me to disc...
Jan 06, 2023•18 min•Season 1Ep. 5
This episode may be a little controversial depending on where you are in your grief. Today I want to talk about support groups and the importance of finding one that is right for you. Being a widow means something different to us all. Our wants, needs, and expectations do not always align and are not the same as others. I’m a completely different widow today than I was after my husband Tom died. I did not like the bitter and angry person was becoming back then. I now have a much more positive ou...
Dec 28, 2022•14 min•Season 1Ep. 4
Grieving through the holidays is a tough one! Whether it is the first Christmas or the 10th, the loss of our loved one stays with us. This time of the year has a different meaning for all of us. I was really trying to think of something inspirational and hoping I could give you something meaningful, but the thing is I don’t celebrate Christmas like everyone else. So this Christmas I just want you to remember! Cherish the memories of the one you have loss and relive them with your family and frie...
Dec 21, 2022•9 min•Season 1Ep. 3
So you’re a widow… Now What? If only there was a step by step guide! I don’t know about you but I need rules or instructions. There are little things that keep your mind occupied for a while, but then realization kicks in and you find yourself alone trying to figure out what to do next. Be prepared! It's going to suck but one thing death and cancer has taught me is that we all have limited time. If you are constantly worried about what is next, you are miss everything! As always, Widow Your Way!...
Dec 15, 2022•18 min•Season 1Ep. 2
They say the first year of being widow is the hardest and in this episode you learn all about the good, bad and the ugly of mine. I learned was there is no right or wrong way to be a widow. There are no rules or expectations! Only the ones we put on ourselves. I definitely don’t have all the answers, but I can share my experiences in hopes that you can relate. Maybe you could even learn from my mistakes, if there are truly any mistakes in widowing. We are all figuring it as we go, just widowing ...
Dec 04, 2022•33 min•Season 1Ep. 1
We are all told there is no right or wrong way to grief, but do we really give ourselves permission to do that? If you are still living up to the widow stereotypes this podcast is for you! Love is not dead… Just my husband is a podcast dedicated to widows and widowers who are looking for support and encouragement while moving forward in their grief. It’s time to actually widow your way! Support the show You can now sign up for a small monthly subscription to support the show. Click the link abov...
Dec 04, 2022•8 min
