Welcome to fucking Dandy land hosted by Rampage and Gemini. Welcome back. What's up everybody? Welcome back to Canada. So, the technical excited to be here with you. All right, of course, soon as we hit record, there's technical difficulties. And you hear me? Yeah, I can hear you. I can hear you. I can hear you. Okay well here we are. Y'all Mercury retrograde is in Shadow period. Yeah I guess we're going to have what just got to wait like five seconds after the other person
talks. Someone told me, they thought their headphones were broken because we were cutting in and out on the last episode. So shout out your headphones, work fun. Headphones work fine. It's Anna's problem, not a, you problem, but I don't know what it is because I mean I haven't had any issues. It's just my energy. It's to bomb, it's too dank, it's to tourist season. Just a few sent us. So since we were here last year, we did your birthday. So would you do for your birthday?
I went to Michigan and we saw the great lakes and it was really beautiful. Except there was a like City parade on the day we were there. My birthday and they had half the city shut down, no access point and so we got stuck in traffic and got stuck in like Road. Blocks. So that was cool. Oh and they GPS Deport us down. The yellow brick road of cobblestone about three miles of bucking. Avalanche, Cobblestone. It was so scary. I got had a mental breakdown. You had to walk on Cobblestone.
Now, I had to drive and it was scary. Yeah, it's terrible. If I would have been in like an SUV, they have cobblestone in the US. In Michigan. They do baby. It was the yellow brick road. Where were you trying to go and where did it take you to? We were trying to go to the main city part, but they had like six of the streets blocked off, which detoured us and obviously, we didn't know where we were going. So we listen to the GPS which ended up in a one-way neighborhood of cobblestone of
mansions. These houses were like six million dollar mansions in futuristic crazy looking houses, but the road was really Damaged. And there was a lot of waves and my car was just like, very not happy. And I wasn't, I wasn't feeling it, I wasn't feeling it at all, but I kept, cool. I didn't get upset. I just I just was like, what is going on? Will you risk people's lives when you're driving?
So you know, it's crazy. The only other most crazy thing that's ever happened to me is when I was driving and Utah and it said rough pavement and there was a litter of six foot by six foot pothole and like if your car is big enough and it could zoom over it, you're golden. But if you lock a tire in that motherfucker, your your bottom doubt. So, you guys remember, like, the episodes ago, we told you about our trip and we went to Utah, so homegirl, which is the name of
that episode. It was her car, but page was driving and like giving her a break or whatever. Because again she was complaining about having to drive because she offered to drive. Anyways so page is over here being mommy and she's fucking driving us and yeah. All of a sudden it says rough patch ahead and it's a literal big ass. Fuck. Fuckin square hole. And so, she like jerks the car over to the side. We don't leave the lane nothing, like it's not dramatic.
Like, in the backseat, I feel like things even feel scarier than the front seat and this girl, like didn't have. I don't feel like she had that much of a reaction then but like later that night was like basically page took us in the car with her and control because she wanted to drive us off that fucking mountain and all of our lives were in danger is how She made it sound. It was so scary.
All because there was literally a sign that said, rough pavement ahead, it didn't say, rough patches over rough pavement. I had the opposite was, huh. I've never seen that before. And then next thing, you know, you are about to be nose-down in this big-ass hole. Like it looks like one of those things that like hearing Kentucky, they just throw one of those metal, like, covers on it that you can drive on.
Over. They bolt it down and they just put a metal thing on. I know, you know what I'm talking about and I said, Utah was like mmmm, we're good. Everybody's got Jeeps hella st. The saying The Devil's Advocate, the think, the devil's hot tub. This is just a little. This is regular. It's a regular one. You said this isn't The Devil's Advocate. It was called The Devil's hot tub. Y'all look it up. But shit.
Crack me up. I mean shit, you did better than you would have done driving in two wheel drive. Fucked up on vodka going up mountains. It's sketchy. That we survive that trip with a girl that literally is like non-existence in our life. Now like literally blocked us, never took accountability and just pretended like it. Ever happened because she banged someone while we were there and she only been married for three
weeks. You know, what's funny to me is because she's not the only one that does it but she did it where it's the photos of like being around crystals and like being in bathtubs for Rejuvenation and being like I just need this into like recharge or whatever and I'm like the problem to you. So like I don't know what you
shove. So many crystals up your butthole because what you're doing right now is not enough to counteract whatever the fuck you got going on because it's not Yes, she was definitely, definitely, definitely on something and I have no clue once again, why you would invite people across the country say that you got all this under control and then you're upset with me because your state doesn't cover its massive potholes. So, I put your life in danger. When really, this is a regular
day for her. And I was scared. that's like the crazy part to me is like, For me, if I behave that way I'm having like, a catastrophic life event and like I'm shook to my core and I'm like, holy fuck, this is like a thing. And for somebody to be like, this is just normal. Why are you upset with me that blows my fucking mind? Is that somebody actually thinks that their behavior was totally
cool. I'm all I did was get drunk and threatened to leave you alone in the fucking desert where you don't know anything in your Four hours away from the airport and there's no Ubers and I'm cheating on my husband and my friends are accusing your friends of giving counterfeit dollars. You guys should feel totally comfortable. What a fuck when I feel like I could stay at my house with my husband who I've been telling awful stories about during this trip, that's all I want to do.
I like this year has been religious shaking things up a bit. Like, it's like this experience to anyone. Listening just goes to show you even deeper how you just don't know people and like, when we plan this trip, she didn't even have a fiance a boyfriend, or nothing. And by the time this trip was over, it's, which had a husband that she had cheated on, like, I'm just saying motherfuckers are a loose cannon. And this whole Mercury retrograde has really been
adding to that fire. It's like if there was a metaphorical fire and someone threw gasoline on it for the last three weeks that's where we're at now, that's the aftermath of where we're at. But I do feel like since about February, it has been very crazy like since the end of Aquarius and Pisces season, I feel like since that like astrological New Year kind of time, I feel like it was just it's been spicy, mine has been since we went on that trip and I finally feel
like I'm out of it. But I have just been like like I could not really adjust myself back to like my normal. Honestly, I've been trying to do different stuff now that it's like warm and get out of like the same normal, I'm trying to set and yeah, because I feel like I've just been in my like little comfort zone. Someone wrote me today and said that they're feeling extremely tired. I was like, that's the late stages of tourist season. Like the beginning of tourist season.
I'm always extremely motivated, but like by the end of it, I'm like yeah. I'll worry about that later. I'll do that later. I feel like I'm the opposite. And I feel like we talked about this last year to where you're like, no, I'm like, chilling and whatever. And I'm like, I have a huge goals as fast by jeopardizing his head. Like, I don't know. I do get motivated during gym and I season as well.
I think, Jim and I seasons are overall just really peak time as we move into like summer and just overall, like human has a mutable energy and it's like interchangeable. Oil and I feel like anything's possible. I feel like this next season coming up is like if you've been doing the work since last freaking October and August, you're out to get a reward in Gemini season, you're about to get a little fruits of your labor. Bake it into existence shit. I'm really just feeling tested
and tried by so many people. Projecting their own limiting beliefs onto me thinking that I'm going to be upset with them. I'm like you're the only one upset. They're like, well, I thought this would upset you so I didn't bring it up and I'm like it would not have upset me. Like so many people are just like afraid to speak up when something like needs to be brought up on. I feel like it's not even anything that anybody done. It was just like, about business stuff to be honest.
And I'm like, literally, like all you need to do is just reach out like you know what I mean? And like I say something like, don't be afraid and they're like, well, I just know you're busy and I'm like, I don't like when people think that like their needs aren't a priority for one. And then for two, they project that like no one cares energy because they don't ask. So how could anyone care?
It's like, if you don't take the initiative to ask, Or just say what you need to say, then how can, how can people care? It's going to move this. Oh, no, yeah, but I think that a lot of people have They have the expectation that somebody's just going to realize what it is that they're needing and that if it's obvious to them, then it's obvious to other people and they just expect them to know it. Yeah.
And I think it's just lack of accountability on being able to achieve in fulfill like your own needs because like closed mouth.
Don't get that if you don't speak up and be heard or you don't put your energy or intentions out there, then you are just like Dust in the Wind. And like, no wonder you feel overlooked or like a victim or something, you know, I just think some people not, not anyone in particular just in general when we don't say where our needs are they dumped get Med which then makes us believe that's not a priority.
And that's where like I think like women especially in like the 50s and the 60s and the 70s and all these times were really convinced like that. You have to do certain things to be worthier to be Update or to be included and I think that you know, boundaries with your own self as important because you know, there's things I do that. I don't want to do but the boundary like you have to have like an active accountability with yourself and boundaries with your lower self.
That's like, no, we'll do it tomorrow, we'll do it later. The part of you that like wants to put it all for those like, okay. Well, what's the gym going to do today? Whenever I'm already behind? Like so many people think they're already behind and I think, That's where like they don't put their needs first. So they don't ask for what they need because they already feel like they're be hunt. Yeah, so then it does end up
being a projection. And then just, I also really don't like that because I'm your friend and because I know you you're very direct Communicator about things and you're like, you're very clear on what your expectation is, but also giving people the space to be able to say to you, like what they're thinking and feeling. And so for people to say that they didn't want to talk to you about something, Because they thought that you would be upset or whatever.
I just think that that's pop out, that's that you just didn't want to do it and now it's being projected on. They wanted something different from you and I don't think that it's your fault. Yeah, I see this a lot in my intimate, like, friendships and stuff, and I don't know if you remember me mentioning, I think eight months ago me and I went through a friend break up with a girl that I've been friends with
for like, 15 years. But remember she was like every since you started reading tarot, you think you're better than people are you think you're better than me? Or some shit. Was like a super projection and she reached out to me on my birthday and said, Hey, happy birthday. I just wanted you to know I've been thinking about you. I was like yeah, I bet you haven't thinking about me. I didn't even reply. I just didn't do nothing. I just opened it.
She for me. Like I'm all about like if we've been hella close and like second chance and like you say some shit, but like, we talked it out, okay. But just saying like I was thinking about you and then
doing it on a birthday. When, like last time we talked, you said the fucked up shit, but you're going to met I think it's selfish to and they have to insert themselves into that day, save it for a different time after the birthday and be like I was going to message you on your birthday, but I didn't think the timing was right but I've just been thinking about you whatever really sorry for how things went. Like whatever is something different other than like, yo,
what's up? Yeah, I don't know. I just think that like lately, the more that I've been healing in the more that I just know, who the fuck I I am I just don't let little situations with people. Disrupt my flow like her, projecting that on me being like I feel like your videos are about me and that you're making subliminal messages about me. And I'm like, if the shoe fits, this is the first thing that I say is fucking weird that.
But for to, as a friend and ask someone that I had been friends with, for like 15 fucking years. Why would I go to the internet and project some bullshit that I could have just talked to you about like, you know what I mean? Then just some of the compliments, not compliments, some of the want to say, just bold-faced lies. I guess that this girl had like told me about the past. I was once a compromising things, like she says compromising things, I've been thinking about you, but before I
wasn't even a good friend. So like who is in your ear eight months ago, because clearly, it was someone, you know what I mean? Like, clearly some didn't pan out and now you see who has been a real friend for you. And I think that's where R. Sometimes we do have to have accountability with ourselves because I feel like sometimes when were not happy, we do project that on a people, we
know and care about. And yeah, I believe in second chances but like to completely just project a bunch of your own trauma bullshit on to me, and then blame our friendship. Now, I don't want to be your friend, I got, you know what I
mean? Like, you're the type of friend that like, can't be trusted if you ever were really my friend because it sounds like you were just benefit and from being my friend, but then when those benefits were off because she She, she had originally said, she felt like a, like a side chick, but like a sad friend, that's what she said.
Whenever we went through our friend breakup, she was like, I feel like I'm a side friend compared to and she named like a couple of different people that I don't even really hang out with, for real. Like that's crazy because the people she named at that time, I was like frequently seeing those people but now like a year later I don't see those people really. So it's kind of like, Fairweather friends or just people that I was just around, she was getting all intervals.
And what it is is like when people don't want to do the work and they see you hanging out with people who are healing or doing whatever work needs to be done around here. Like, I don't know, it's just kind of, like, you can't pretend that, like, your environment doesn't affect what you do and
who you are. And I think that, like, when I broke free of those old environments that me and her, you staying Mount in. She didn't want to, she always would want readings but like we've said before if you get a reading and you don't do nothing with that information, you're wasting everyone's time. Especially when the readings are free because I wanted to help her. So it just became like this never-ending cycle of like, what can you do for me? What can you do for me?
I recently like two days ago had to just completely cut off my grandma and not speak to her at all. And hers is like a same like the same projection type shit.
She She had a heart attack, so we haven't talked for a few months and the last time that we had talked, she was like, I found your Tick Tock. And I can't believe that you work with the devil, and this goes against everything that I believe in yada yada yada, not once in my entire life, this woman ever mentioned religion at all for any reason ever.
Like she's not like a crazy religious person whatever and I was just like I was shocked but so I hadn't talked to her in months she had a heart attack and I reached out to her on Mother's Day and I was like hey we may not talk very often or whatever but I just wanted to tell you that I love you I hope you're doing well and happy Mother's Day and she responds and was like After my experience, my connection with the Lord has been so much stronger and the Deacon was cut
coming to my house every single week and giving me the sacraments and I finally was the glory of God, was able to get out of my bed and start to use a walker, and I get to go to church, you know, I can drive myself to church now and she's like and then she starts telling me about details of her health condition. And then she goes, I'm going to be keeping you and your family in my prayers especially names,
my kids and especially them. And I'm praying to my Lord that you see that you're freed of the evil occult that has you under its spell? God bless. And then she names my kids again and I and so. And so I waited, I waited like, two hours. And I was so classy with my response and I was just like because like I just want to make you feel like an asshole. Like there's no reason and me like being in like a dick about it but like I just want to make you feel like an asshole.
And I said that, I'm so glad that she's feeling better and that. I'm glad they're her, Deacon is able to support her on her journey and that, like she's finding her like, physical healing. And I And I support, whatever makes you happy, I said, but please don't pray for my family and said, use those prayers so that you can find a way to be less judgmental of other people who don't think and believe the same things that you do. I would never treat you the way that you are, treating me.
And I've never actually told you about my spiritual beliefs. I said, this will be the last time that I ever reach out because you can't keep a full rudder. to yourself, and I something else about like, supporting whatever she wants to do and that was how I left it and then I blocked her number and I won't talk to her again. She'll die alone because I'm the only family that she has. What do you mean here?
They all she has. She has the only other family that she has is one daughter who will not speak to her. Like she, I'm the only family that she has. Well, I think deep down at the same time. She's just miserable. So she's projecting onto you. Yeah. It's a projection but generally people security. Yeah. And I just feel like, you know, there's a lot of excuses for like it's that generation of people and I've done that for
her for a long time. I've been like, you're my Elder and you know, you're my grandmother or whatever. And I'm just like, that is like it. If you treat people fucked up and you never grow, fuck that. You know what I think is crazy, is a lot of people are old, and they're set in their ways. And when they see younger people exploring themselves rather than how they were, like, shut down or disregarded or weren't allowed to explore their
beliefs. Like they were just told what to believe they were just like, okay, get married work, a job till you die. Don't have any creative thought. And I think, like, with the internet and like, the expression that Artistry, the things are emerging more and more into the collective, is a lot of.
Like, in Revolutionary times, people, such as yourself are free, thinkers are people that were like weird or or different are actually the people that we study the most and that the people like were mostly obsessed with. And even people who did bad things, like Charles Manson, like people are so obsessed. How come it doesn't matter? Like it could be a bad person, it could be a really great
person. It could be someone that was just completely disregarded like you know, Vincent van Gogh, you know what I mean. They treated him like dirt, like all the way, you know what I mean? So I just think that we look back in history. A lot of what we see is this trend of like, shut down people's creativity. Shut down their uniqueness like don't accept people, don't don't support, people don't Understand people. So then they, they also grow
with this. Bitterness inside of them, are this hatred inside of them, which is then projected onto their kids, or their grandkids, or fucking co-workers, or whoever wherever. And I just think, at the end of the day, that's such a trend that if you're listening, you have such a moral obligation to learn deeply about yourself. Because when you learn deeply about yourself, you don't reject
other people period. You let Let other people be themselves because then you're in the most powerful version of yourself and that version, you will not give a fuck. Absolutely. Amen to page. Everyone wants to talk to me right now and I'm like, put my phone on airplane mode and it's still ringing somewhere. It's still ringing. It's probably mom had, I don't know. Another thing I'll say about your grandma is I would just send her love and just be like,
you know what? Just send her a little love. Just she needs it. She needs it.
I know that things. I'm not, I'm not, I don't have like bad feelings toward return, like II, I think it's it's not something I'm losing sleep over, like I find it funny that somebody is says that, but at the same time, like I don't need somebody who doesn't like me, and when I'm wishing them, happy Mother's Day. And I'm talking to that, like wishing them, well, after they almost just died of a heart attack and that didn't even even a death experience. Didn't change their fucking shit.
I then, why am I going to talk to you if every time I speak to you, It's an insult. Go fuck yourself. I don't want it at that, though. I agree with that. Like if you don't got anything nice to say then shut the fuck up. That's all. I gotta say. And another thing if you're just going to log don't even speak, don't talk. Because, so many people, they just be talking to talk and it's like it gets out of hand. How manipulative people are?
And that's why I like, I'm really happy that I just decided once again to not even think about dating because that was such a traumatic experience. It's for like six months. I was being directly traumatized by every person that could and I still haven't gotten over that one guy who matched with me on a Wednesday on Thursday. This girl message me on Facebook talking about, he'll clean his underwear tej, but then 24 hours
is ex-girlfriend has found thee. And what's even weirder about that is his ex-girlfriend's hot, and I try to slide on her like three months ago, like a nerdy em. Something about. Oh my God, you're so pretty. We should hang out and I wasn't talking just as friends and then this crusty. Bitch comes over here, talking about. He don't like his ass he's got Duty stains in his underwear with. Oh God, that's good. Looking out though.
Like listen, I would want to be her friend, I would be like, that is like thank you for telling me. Thank you for looking out. She didn't have to say anything, she could have let you get with his low poopy butt and you know what's wrong? Then she being me and was like, don't even worry about talking. Him. He's at my house right now and I had to walk both of them. Okay. Yeah. After he told me he don't like this but he was at her house. Talking about. We're going to have a kid.
Yeah, I know it gets deeper than that. I mean, I was just the, that was, you know, we're gonna have a kid together. That's what she was saying. That's why I knew this bitch was crazy. She wanted me to think he had poopy butt so I wouldn't talk to him. Which after all this fuckery, I wasn't going to talk to him. What was weird for me is that he found me on Facebook. After we meshed on a dating app. Had found me on Facebook and I was like, Dude, Looks oddly
familiar. And we have like 80 mutual friends and then it was him. Saul's gross. Yo I got to go get my kids from school. All right Wally Papp has concluded Jim and I have suggested I've got to be mom. We love you and our next full moon circle is on June 2nd. I'll be there. I mean obviously. But I'll be there. I'll be there. I'll be there. I'll see you there. Bye, y'all. I