Yeah. You said she's so sweet. Welcome back to Candyland. We are here again and we have a lot to say about the holidays coming up. This is the time where you find out Is the healing working? Is my shadow work and my therapy working? Or does Grandma still trigger me when she says something about my weight or my partner or my kids or my job? You know what I mean? Like this is the time to test your boundaries and to stay in your power and to not feed into
the drama. Yeah, and to look back, I feel like I can see still surrounding you that last year you were like, oh, damn. Like I'm going to get rid of them in 2024. What people did you carry with you? Who have you been, you know, taking up the mountain with you because they don't want to hike, but you want them to go along on the journey or whatever?
Exactly. And I think sometimes we make excuses for people and then you have to realize that you're choosing, like if you're choosing to go somewhere where you don't feel welcome or supported or invited, you're a grown adult making that choice. So we're here to just remind you to hold your boundaries firm, especially during the holidays, because that's the time when people will guilt trip you and try to get you to to do what they want you to do.
I think that also too, it's important for us as people to not second guess what our feelings are and like retract what our feelings are because somebody acts differently or does something kind. And that's something that like I've been finding for me is like, you know, I'll have a strong opinion about something or I'll have a dislike about a way that I'm being treated. And then somebody will do something nice or they'll, you know, they'll do something kind
or say something kind. And I'm like, oh, wait, maybe I've just like, maybe they're not really treating me that way. And maybe I'm just looking at it wrong or I need to have like, you know, a little bit of forgiveness or something. Maybe they're going through a hard time and I'll, I'll talk myself out of something and then they'll do that same behavior and I'm like, oh damn, I should have known.
And it's so tricky. I feel like when we are on a healing journey for like, okay, well, part of my healing journey is I'm like learning forgiveness. You can learn forgiveness and you can forgive people because you have an understanding of traumas that influence the way that they behave or the way that they act. But that doesn't mean that it's been an excuse that makes the behavior OK, and that you have to stay there and tolerate it because you've given a reason to do it.
And to add to that, like we make the most excuses for people where like we feel trapped, like, well, that's my mom, that's my sister. That's just how my sister acts.
Or oh, that's just how her husband acts when he drinks or you know, whatever it may be. So if you find yourself sweeping behaviors under the rug that maybe you would hold a stranger to a different standard or a friend even to a different standard, but you're allowing your brother-in-law or your sister or someone in your family to treat you some type of way. Like, how are you going to to expect some random stranger to get your pronouns correct? But then like, make excuses for
your uncle or your dad? You know, I understand that sometimes people want to be themselves. But if you're going to be yourself, compromising your boundaries around those that you love does not help you build the confidence and the courage to be yourself out in public. I think it's we don't always recognize either when we're limiting ourselves and making ourselves small to make other people feel comfortable or what not.
I have found recently that there's a certain way that I have filtered things that I've talked about or topics that you and I discussed or whatever out of making it, wanting it to be comfortable for other people inside of my life. Not that I have something bad to say, but just like maybe this topic would make them uncomfortable if I talked about it or if I gave details about it or whatever. And at the end of the day, that's still making yourself small. It's making your voice small.
It is compromising you speaking your truths and your feelings and your points of view about something because of somebody else's lens about how they're going to receive that. And I think that a lot of the things that you and I are talking about right now are things that people don't necessarily always realize that they're doing.
People don't always realize that they're compromising their personal piece or their voice or you know, something too is like people pleasing is such a part of what we're told to do and how we're supposed to be. And like, if you're not people pleasing, then you're just being selfish and and whatnot. And I think there is such a fine line between you focusing your experience on yourself and then helping others or contributing to others when you have the energy to do so, and that not
being considered selfish. I think that so much of our society benefits from the lack of taking care of ourselves, which is why people self medicate and they go do things that are self-destructive. And I do believe that is the reason that we stay in this loop of just like working, living, eating, sleeping kind of thing. Like so many people within our society don't feel like they are fully themselves or that they can fully be happy or that they can fully be seen.
And most people, you know, falsely think that money is going to fix those problems or things like that, but they don't realize that that's that disconnect with your higher self. If you truly do not know yourself outside of labels, symbols, society standards, society expectations, recognitions, things like that, then you don't really know yourself and you really don't know what you want. So it's not going to be money or the perfect job or perfect partner that's going to fix you.
It's going to be you getting to know yourself and setting in those uncomfortable questions that you have that are unanswered currently. You know what I mean? And I think that's why so many people are turning to spirituality or people turn to religion or they turn to drugs or whatever it may be because people need an outlet.
No matter what it is, it could be a positive, beautiful outlet or it could be a self-destructive negative outlet, but I think society is so disconnected because people are not channeling into the outlets that are good for them. Oh yeah, I agree with that. I that's kind of deep too, not channeling into the outlets that are good for them.
And I think surrounding yourself with people who are yes people and who are enablers really adds to that and stops the self reflection and stops you from putting yourself into different rooms. You know, you can have, you know, 100 people inside of your life tell you, you know, you're dependent on spending your money on coffee every single morning and it's the reason that you're broke. But then if you have, you know, 101 friends who are like, oh, no, we do that too. Like it's not a problem.
Well, you still have the problem. You're still spending the money. There are people pointing that out to you. But you're choosing to close off your viewpoint of those people and listening to them so that you can listen to the yes men who are having the same exact problem. And if you are surrounding yourself with people who are into addiction on things or who are not responsible with finances or whatever, you're going to just do the same exact thing that they're doing.
Which is why we've always talked about the people that you surround yourself with and that you're with on a daily basis and that you take advice from in life is so important. It doesn't matter what a wonderful person you are or whatever, if you have people who are going to sit there and tell you that your bad decisions are great decisions because they're the same decisions that they make.
Well, then you're going to end up in the same situations that those people are in that you think you're being like a helpful friend to or like a supportive friend because they're going through a lot. You'll find out you're going through a lot. It's like when you have a friend that's always in the fucking drama and bullshit and you're like, I don't want any part of that.
Eventually that person's like decay of friendships ends up following its way to you and you end up getting soaked into it
somehow. Yeah, someone once said that people who are used to drama or chaos, no matter how peaceful or happy their life becomes, they will always wait for the dust to settle and then they will kick it back up because that's what they're used to. So they will may have a perfect marriage and then go cheat or lie or, you know, steal money from their partner or something deceitful and not even really recognize that that is their subconscious programming kicking
up the dirt. Or, you know, kind of like people who get like promotions at jobs and then end up like laundering money. I've had many people come to me throughout my career, like being in connection with someone who's laundered money either from their business or their personal assets. Some people like that were like close friends and family, super common. You all like you start making business moves and you're like, oh, I want to bring the people in that I know and that I can
trust. And then it be those people who thank you, OK? They trust me. Gotcha. That's just so weird. But there are people who do that for a living.
There are people who only make an income by stealing from other people and by seeming like they're a good person And even to the point of like making friendships with people who have money just because they can be like, I'm going through a hard time right now, like, you know, whatever and manipulate their way into getting something from somebody. And that's something that I have been just more aware of and on
guard with. I think over the last year, like you and I have talked a lot about, you know, I, I put myself in the positions of, of if I feel like I can help somebody with something with, you know, they're just starting out their business or they need advice on something, or I feel like I can recommend them to somebody, then I will.
And I'm learning the signs of people who genuinely want to be a part of things and who want help and the people who are just like, oh, cool, Well, I don't have to put in any work because she's just going to shout me out to everybody and have people come over and, and, you know, get readings or, you know, buy things from my shop or whatever. So I don't need to put in the
effort. And there's a lot of different ways that I think our energy and our time gets taken advantage of. We think, but it's because we're putting ourselves in those positions. It's my fault if I'm putting myself in the Captain save a Ho predicament and then being upset that you're a hoe and you're
relying on me to save you. I've been very serious on boundaries as far as like if I've had a couple sessions with someone and they just feel like not that it's not helping them, but that there's still something lingering or in their words, something attached to them. I'm very highly recommending them to someone else that deals with attachments and things like that. Because I just feel like there's a certain like niche for everyone.
And I think that some people don't do the work and they want to have a psychic or a guru or a mentor or someone lead them to the answer. And although I can channel what spirit wants you to know at this time, I can't lead you to the ultimate epiphany moment that you are supposed to have on your soul's journey. And you know, I'm, I'm not going to bend over backwards if I feel like my services have exceeded here, like I've done all that I can do for you.
A pet peeve that I am discovering is, and we've talked before about the people who just want to reach out and be like I have an attachment or you know, whatever, but that is becoming such a huge pet peeve to me. And what I find is that people want to trauma dump things and be like, for the last four years, I've had this demon at my back and my grandmother died and my husband shot himself and my child drowned in the pool. And I haven't had Thanksgiving dinner for four years.
And then they're like, can you help me with this? And you go or, you know, I'll respond and be like, you know, thanks for sharing all that. Whatever. I have this service on my website. Just letting you know, like, and I don't operate inside of negative energy. I'm not trying to connect with whatever is attached to you. Like I'm happy to do a reading. We're going to focus on different directions that you have different things that you can be doing.
Maybe there's different ways that you can be cleansing your space. Like, you know, I give different things, but you have to book this session and then they're like, you just want money. And I, I'm like, when you go to therapy, like is the reason you're not in therapy because it costs money? Cool. Is the reason you don't have food in your house because
groceries cost money? Cool. Maybe the reason that you're not getting like the spiritual advice that you're seeking when you're trauma dumping is because it's costing some type of energy exchange monetarily, like, you know, crocheting a fucking blanket in exchange. I don't know, but it it's something. Here lately, I have had like a surplus coming into my life who are like, they're not skeptical, but they're just not exposed. Like they haven't been exposed to the information.
So it's not that they're skeptical, it's just that it is truly unknown. So I can tell when people are genuinely like wanting to ask questions that will educate them to make the right decision to, you know, book a reading or book a session. And then I can just tell when and people are just like wanting to feel like they have access to you as well. But I mean, I definitely
understand that. Like if I'm going to spend, you know, 50 plus dollars on something and I have a few questions, like I'm going to feel free to ask those questions. But as we've talked about before, there are so many spiritual practitioners and psychics out here charging like $1000 an hour. You know, there's one that charges $300.00 for 10 minutes.
So, you know, count your blessings, baby, count your blessings and understand that there are people out here scamming and manipulating and taking advantage. So if there are people that you like that resonate with you, like take advantage of that. Like take advantage that your higher self has exposed you to these readers or these mediums or these people, not just us, but others as well.
Because you know, there's not a lot of people that your soul is going to be drawn to. So you should invest and understand that it isn't energy exchange, and when you have buyer's remorse or you're not open to that flow of energy, you're going to in turn block the blessings coming to you. Yeah. And I think that asking questions absolutely, especially if it's like, I don't know what I'd like we get, you know, I don't know what reading to get.
I'm on your site right now. This is what I have going on. What would you suggest that's very different than TikTok user 349424784 who's like, this is all the tragedies of my life And what do you mean that you won't just pull 10 cards for me? You know? And I think that, again, I don't think that people are always consciously doing something. They just think this is what I'm needing. This is the person who can offer that.
I'm going to reach out and that, I mean, I'm sure that there are times that I or you are like, OK, well, I'm just thinking that it's this small thing and somebody else is like, OK, well, it's bigger to me or I'm expecting different energy or whatever. And, and sometimes it can just come from maybe a lack of awareness of how you're coming across to other people or what your expectation of others is. And I think that that type of personal reflection is really
important too. Maybe all the problems that you're having during holiday time aren't just other people, but maybe it's you too. And maybe it's you're not moving and changing inside of situations. And so your family is like on your Dick because you've been with Bobo the clown for six years and he treats you like shit every Thanksgiving. And then you're upset with your aunt because she's calling you out on it. Well, that's not because you don't have boundaries with your
aunt. That's because you don't have boundaries in your relationship and when it's saying something about Bobo the fucking clown. No, that's so real. When I was in high school, I dated this guy and his name was Chance, which is just like the craziest, funniest name. His name was Chance. And I gave this motherfucker way too many chances because he was a hot mess constantly.
And I remember I took him to my senior prom and he decided to like get really drunk and just like want to leave the prom. And it was like so annoying that I even wasted my like time like taking him. But at the same time, my best friend Erica, my high school best friend, had a boyfriend that was doing the same thing. So they like ganged up on us and like went to the car and like got drunk or while we stayed
inside the prom. And when we left the prom, we were both so upset, like they just like had ruined our night that we just were like ready to go to bed. Like we were just like over it. But I look back on occurrences like that and I'm like, don't let chance fuck up your night. That's like a thing for me. Like don't let, don't let chance fuck your night up. Yeah, dude. And I, I think that everybody has like a high school, like big dance story about like somebody let them down or whatever.
Because I have a homecoming story. I know other people that have stories. I think it's very prevalent and prominent when there are big events that you're looking good for, you're feeling yourself, you're like on cloud 9. You're so excited about things, you're talking with other people, you're interacting with other people, and that can make some people feel really
insecure. And there are people who will tell you that they love your light, they love how you shine, they love your personality, they love how outgoing you are and and yadda yadda. But they only like it if your light is only so bright and you're only shining that personality to certain people, and you're only sharing that personality and your humor to certain people and talking about certain things and everything else makes them uncomfortable.
And they're not going to support you being that person and that version of yourself. That is so real. I have heard that from so many clients, like, Oh yeah, he ruined my birthday or they ruined this event or my graduation or my baby shower or whatever it may be. And that is a sure sign to quit entertaining that person, whether it's your own family member, a partner, a friend, not even close. Would someone who actually cares about you do something like that?
And I've even heard, like, people talk about this, like, with their best friend or like their partner. And that is just so humiliating. And if you truly love someone, you wouldn't do that to them. And I just know that in my heart, throughout my life, there were many, many people that I gave energy and time that did not deserve it. But I tried to like, see that as like, there's nothing wrong with me for trying to love the wrong people.
I think that it's also important to recognize when we're wanting people to be a different way than they want to be and we're wanting them to change. Because in the same way that we don't want people to dim down our light and that we want to just be ourselves and be able to go out here and express and do what we want to do, other people deserve to be able to do that
too. And I think that it takes a lot of personal accountability and responsibility to be able to reflect and go, are these things that I'm not liking about these people, things that they're going to be able to grow through and they're going to be able to change?
Do I have a right to be saying that I don't like these things that they clearly like about themselves because they keep doing it. And then you have the responsibility to remove yourself from those situations because that's a part of that person and they have every right to do and be whatever it is that they want to do and be.
And it's your responsibility to remove yourself from those people instead of expecting those people to change for you and to do something different and be something different than they are. And I think that's where a lot of people set themselves up for failure is that we are entertaining potential and we're entertaining people's like
character that we see for them. Like, well, I know they're a good person or I know he wouldn't hurt me or I know he wouldn't still from my mom or whatever it may be. But a lot of the times people will gain your trust in order to manipulate you. And I think that the most important thing I'm learning is to give people the benefit of the doubt, but to not ignore the signs because most people, if they got fucked over, you can look back with hindsight and see
the signs. Oh, every night after 11, they don't text back. Or, you know, just like weird little things that like maybe some people like, oh, he's asleep or maybe he's up on the phone with someone. Maybe he's entertaining someone that's long distance. Or, you know, you never know. Like, I think so many people in this world give the wrong people benefit of the doubt. And then when someone that cares about them comes forward and says, I know they're not good for you.
I know I saw them on a dating app. You are more quick to cut off the friend or the person that's trying to support you rather than the person who's hurting you. Not the dating apps that also too. A lot of times the reason that you're second guessing yourself is because somebody else is gaslighting you into thinking that you're the one who has the problem or your friend has the problem for finding the profile or you're just not understanding or whatever ABC and D is.
And somebody can give you the bare minimum of like, oh, well, you know, they are respectful to me in private. They they love me. They do this, that and the other that doesn't negate the other things that happen. And I think that people we, we get too comfortable with, Oh well, if they love me and they're kind to me, then all these other things or whatever because, well, they love me. Well, they're kind to me in these moments. Well, when it's just us and nobody else is around, they're
really respectful. They're really respectful when you 2 are alone because there's nobody else there and they're trying to get in your pants. That's why they're super loving and respectful when it's just you guys and there's no other influences on anything. But how do people operate and treat you when there's other influences on things? And also how do people that you're around treat other people? How do they talk about other
people? Because you can, you can tell a lot about somebody by the way that they discuss others if they have a falling out or not even a falling out. But if they're frustrated about something and they want to talk to you, do they say, hey, do you have just a couple of minutes for me to talk to you about this thing? And like, I just need somebody to hear it.
I don't want to shit talk. I just need somebody to hear this because I feel frustrated versus I'm going to call you and talk shit about this person for two hours and then that's still my best friend. Yeah, I've noticed that sometimes people will treat strangers with kindness within, behind closed doors, be fucking assholes.
And I think that this is just a testament to, like, you really do not know what's going on in people's lives and behind closed doors because I know for sure that a lot of the things that people reveal, there's something deeper under the surface that they're not revealing. And I think it's just about giving people grace, like as we come into the holidays, like, don't make excuses for poor behavior, but give people grace when you know that it's not personal.
Because I know sometimes when I'm frustrated, especially if I'm hungry, if I am hungry and I get like slightly inconvenienced, it will be a lot bigger deal than it should be. That's so true, dude. I'd be fucking hungry and I don't even realize that I'm hungry.
And then I, yeah, I also think there's going to be a lot of stuff eventually that and I think we talked about this last episode too, but there's eventually just going to be lots of stuff that you and I share that we've been going through over just the last couple of months and are just like own personal worlds and things like that. And I'm proud of us because I feel like we go sometimes we go through the most like deep healing and like life shattering
things. And we're still taking care of other people while balancing out taking care of ourselves. And we are still being cognizant of the way that we are treating other people so that we're not projecting onto them and
whatever. And I give us kudos on that because we've both done a lot of work to be able to be those people and to be able to be consistent people even when we have things going on. And being able to still help others with their readings and their insight on things and giving advice and not taking our shit that we have going on and, and putting it on to them. And I just think that that means a moment of recognition because we're we've done a very good job
at that. It's literally been such a tense year. I am so glad that Pluto has now transitioned into its new era because I'm really hoping that with this transition into Aquarius that we see some huge change because Pluto and Aquarius is known for revolutions. I'm expecting a lot of things to change and a lot of things to shift. And we've been talking about it for two years, but now you're actually seeing it in the real world.
The less idolization of celebrities and people in perceived power, that shit's crumbling as quickly as possible. And there's been a lot of revelations on that just seeing people for who they really are.
And my favorite is when there are celebrities who own in their own personal bank accounts, have enough money to cure world hunger, but they'll hop on like Oprah and ask for donations or like some other candidates we've pad that are wearing like Tiffany and other things, asking for money for their campaign or
their whatever. And I'm all for campaigning and I'm all for raising money, but not when you're wearing a $65,000 necklace, not when you're Oprah Winfrey, and not when you have more money than God. So that's where I'm drawing the line. And I think so many people are starting to see that celebrities are a literal joke when they're asking the middle class working people to donate money to something that they they could just take out of their own personal account or sell a home
or an asset of some sort. So I've been really trying to detach from this world because there's going to be a time where we can't grow from all the concrete and all the buildings and all the things that we've built. And it's getting really, really bad as of late, like of just building shit that doesn't need to be built. And I think that we're reaching a change with that as well.
And I think so many people need to see what's really important to them and really continue to align with that reality of what it is that you want to see rather than what it is that you don't like. We talked really early on in the podcast about celebrities and about Hollywood culture and
about things crumbling. And we specifically had talked about the Kardashians and other people who are really held up on these pedestals and aren't doing things that are giving back to people or are always asking for more or always doing something and trying to achieve a certain status or whatever. And those things kind of crumbling down. And I think that, again, people that you surround yourself with, you end up getting kind of tossed in with their crusty,
musty, dusty bullshit. And I think that that's happened in Hollywood too, where, you know, you bust 1 ditty and then you've got all of these other dominoes that are gonna fall that are, you know, whatever. And it's because people flock together who are going to make excuses for poor behavior or who are going to manipulate and take advantage of things.
If you have a same common goal as somebody else and you guys are in a niche in some way, like in Hollywood, those people are in a very specific niche of what's the word privilege. And they can abuse privilege in the same ways. They they can have each other telling them that the choices and decisions that they're making are good, get them in the rooms with the right but wrong people.
And so then once one of them starts to fall, then they are all start to fall because of the way that you surround. Yourself, in the end, when people put you on, they want you to give them something back. So these people, they get these deals, these contracts, and they're always going to want more. There's no ending. It's always going to be more. And why do you think like people like Rihanna, Rihanna, Rihanna, Rihanna, it's just gone. She's just gone because that she doesn't want to be.
Told what music to make and what to record. Yeah, you. You start to sign away your identity and at what cost? At what cost are you just owned and anything can happen. And to go back to the the Kardashians, that whole Balenciaga thing that happened and with Kim, she's still repping Balenciaga. It doesn't matter what they're getting called out for, what they're affiliated with, what types of stuff is happening. She never came out and said anything about it.
And then she's continuing because it pays her, because the important thing to her is the notoriety and the lifestyle and the well, I'm going to let all of these other things go, but I'm really big on Prison Reform, guys. So let's talk about Prison Reform. But all these other things, I'm just like letting them go.
Not that I, I think that you have to have like intelligence and and whatnot in order to get yourself to the point that they're at. So I don't think that they're just stupid people, but I do think that there's so much, there has to be so much facade in front of the camera for what happens behind the scenes. I think so many people are living a script. They get told what they're going to do, what they're going to say, who they're going today, who they're going to have kids with.
And I really believe it is like the old system of like marrying into money or marrying into status. And I think that so many people are trapped in a system that. Is going to chew them up and spit them back out. But can we say that there's like an odd level of comeback for people like Lindsay Lohan and Kelly Osbourne and, you know, like Demi Lovato or even like Christina Aguilera? Like where's the fountain of youth all of a sudden?
Because everyone's got a whole bottle of it and you can't tell me Paris and Lindsay and these people are aging backwards, Paris said in an in an interview. She's never had any plastic surgery or Botox. OK, looks. Fucking good. I'm just saying like what fountain of youth are they sipping on? Is this to sell your soul extra
special? Listen, I, I am so down deep inside of the rabbit holes of Hollywood youth and the like, drinking baby blood and everything and the, the cloning of people like, I full heartedly believe that. I believe that if you're not thinking Beyoncé for everything that you have in life, when you get famous, you're dying. And also, so I'm going to take you down a rabbit hole really quick. So you know about the Beyoncé thing and the saying thank you to Beyoncé, right?
Yeah, but do you know about the Beyoncé and Selena thing? I did hear about this Beyoncé and Selena thing. I'm going to have you dive into that. But I've been down the rabbit hole of Beyoncé, Kanye West, and Taylor Swift. So hear me out because this theory totally fucking made sense to me. But the theory with them is that years ago when there was, what was it like the VM as or something, and Taylor was up getting her award, she was doing her speech or whatnot.
And then Kanye came up and said, I'm going to let you have your moment. But Beyoncé had the best album or video of the year or whatever the fuck it was. And everybody's like, Oh my God, Kanye was such a douche for that. Well, now that the Beyoncé thing is coming out with, you know, people who haven't thanked her and who have died or whatever, there are people saying that Kanye was going through something with Beyoncé and Jay-Z
at the time. And he noticed that Taylor wasn't saying thank you and acknowledging Beyoncé and whatever. And that he went up there the way that he did because he knew that they had a plan for her because of how successful she was getting. And that he went up and made that moment and took it from Taylor to basically save her life and say, you know, like giving her giving Beyoncé her dues and whatever. And that Taylor just didn't understand at the time or
anything. And after that happened is when Kanye started to go on his decline and then, you know, was set up with the Kardashian and then disappeared and was like, oh, well, he's being crazy because he's saying all these things about Hollywood or whatever. And then now they're saying that like real Kanye is back after it's been the clone and that he, you know, conveniently it's after Diddy stuff has come out and things like that.
And that all of these celebrities now are being released from whatever it was that they were being entangled into. So you're talking about like the Lindsay Lohan's and Demi Lovato's and stuff. And if you pay attention to the correlations of like Demi Lovato and Kanye West, they both have been silenced and told that they're crazy. They, you know, it's been mental health, it's been drugs, whatever else. And then they've come back and they look like their old selves
and whatever. I don't know who the fuck Demi Lovato was for a minute when we were talking about her going through her O DS and everything but she came back with to different genders and it talking to aliens and singing to aliens and doing all types of shit that she now is like I don't identify with any of that. That's not who I am as a person and it was just a really hard time and I think she looks like she did before all that crazy shit was happening.
So she's saying she doesn't identify with the alien stuff? Yeah, she there was there was some type of we'll have to find the interview. But she did an interview where she had basically said that like that version of her when she was shortly after OD ING and stuff and when she was really trying to like find herself and everything. She had had like some gender identity things that she was
going through. And then just like these crazy tail spin offs of like almost like psychosis for her and that she just didn't identify with those things. I don't remember what interview it was. I'll have to do some research on that, but I just found it really interesting. Yeah, I've totally been down that same rabbit hole with the like, everyone thought Kanye was being an asshole, but he actually saved Taylor Swift's
life. And then I also believe that Beyoncé has she has something to do with Selena being murdered as well. I believe that because there's something going on with that situation, like whenever, you know, Selena died and then Beyoncé kind of became famous shortly thereafter. And if you watch the Selena series where they remade it into ATV show, Beyoncé and her mom is like referenced and like gets a cameo in the show and Beyoncé's acting like a fan. Yeah, I'll have to look.
I don't actually know that much about Selena. I think maybe because of just like the time and stuff and like my age, like I didn't grow up with Selena, I grew up with Destiny's Child. So by the time that I was like listening to different music or whatever, I was definitely in like Destiny's Child era, but. I have never been a fan of solo Beyoncé. I've never understood the hype about everything. I think she's an amazing singer.
I think she's beautiful. I think that the types of concerts that she puts on used to be considered crazy until you look at the concerts that Taylor Swift is putting on. And I'm like this bitch, rain shines, snowstorm, that doesn't matter. She is out there in her sequence, skirt, dress and doing the damn thing. And I'm, I'm not a, what do they call them Swifties? I'm not a Swifty, but I have just like her tours are fucking
crazy. She's been on tour for like years doing this concert series and it's like hours long. Like like I think it's like 2 to four hours of her just solo performing up there. All of these songs back-to-back to back-to-back to back-to-back. She's like a robot. I think a lot of these people are robots. I think a lot of them are like not real. I think they've sold their likeness and their soul to the metaverse and they're like shape shifting alien robots.
She you know what? I usually feel that way. I haven't felt that way about her and her journey. Like I haven't. She hasn't like her body and her face doesn't look crazy different. She looks like she's getting older. She looks like she's progressing. What about that Lady that ruled the Satanist church that looked just like Taylor Swift? Have you been down that rabbit hole? I, I haven't dove into the rabbit hole, but I have just like knocked at the door of
research on on that. And yeah, that is totally a thing. But you know, I think there's a difference between like you're a reincarnated Satanist priestess versus you are owned by whatever beings that there are and you're a fucking robot now and you don't exist. I also think that the Christina Aguilera thing, I just think that she has really good plastic surgery because there's so many pieces of her that are still here. When she does her interviews and stuff, that's still her.
Her mannerisms are still her. It's not like Gucci Mane who went to prison, came out and you're like, who is this fool? It's it's not a Gucci Mane situation. I think that Christina Aguilera lost a ton of weight and she probably did some type of cosmetic procedures for her, which by the way, go you like these bitches who are like hot as fuck and they're like 40s and 50s.
I, I cannot wait. I aspire to have the money for the cosmetic surgeries that I want to have and the universe hasn't given them to me yet because this personality plus the cosmetic surgery body that I envisioned for myself, it's over for you, hoes it, it's over. I'm taking everything. She's leaving no crumbs. No crumbs, no needle left uninjected. Saving the. Money I want. Needles and injections.
I have spent the last month going and getting my lips dissolved and getting all the migrated filler inside and around my lips dissolved and let me just tell you, it is fucking painful. Why are you getting them? Because you were going and getting them filled for for the longest. So what's your process right now? And then what is your process after? So I've been getting them dissolved because filler displaces itself and like
migrates over time. So I've gotten all the displace filler like dissolved and then I'm going to get another plump session. So, So what is it you? You can get them filled up to a certain point, and then you need to dissolve what you've done so that you can start over fresh. So they don't tell you you have to dissolve it. Just over time it moves and it moves inside of your mouth. It can move towards your mustache, towards your chin, towards your jawline on the inside.
So it just migrates and you have to dissolve it. It's painful. What is dissolving and what's painful? The needle going in or the dissolving part? The dissolving part. Because it's eating shit in your face. Yeah. So. Melting away the filler. That sounds really painful. And I keep thinking about like a bitch may want some lips. And then I think about the fact that I have to get needles in my face and I have to pay for it and then potentially get it
dissolved. And what if, like, how do you know that the person that you're going to is good at what they do just because they have others you don't know? You're just like, I really hope that I don't look like a duck when I leave here. I will say it's a trial and error process and always start out with less and go back and do more. I will say that. Oh, guys, I'm gonna reinvent myself. You're not even gonna know. I'm gonna get Botox. I'm gonna get lip fillers, I'm gonna get some titties.
I'm gonna get everything. You know what I want? I just want like every procedure that I can do at one time so that they can just put me in a body cast and then I can heal all at once and it'll be fine. Like, I'll just wake up and like new titties, lipo, new face, rhinoplasty. I'm gonna have my hairline pulled up. Like what's good? Gemini starting in only fans. No, but I am going to start selling pictures of my feet.
Tap in baby, tap in. You know why I think all people should utilize all assets available? After I get my whole body transformation and they break all my bones and they take out all my fat and they realign everything in the way that I want it, then I would make an OF. In the meantime, I'm going to get really cute pedicures and I'm going to be on feet Finder because I found out so many talking about rabbit holes.
Did you know that there's 4000 million things that you can do with your feet and people just pay you for it? Like you can dip your toe in a cherry pie and somebody is like, I want you to wipe off that cherry pie with a purple napkin and mail it to me and they fucking pay you extra money for that. I, I'm not against the panty selling thing. There are people who like sell their panties and shit like that. I don't know how you get into that.
I'd be into something like that. I don't want to like show my butt hole on the Internet necessarily until I like get it like surgically done and it's like a glitter butt hole or something weird and then I'll sell that online. But in the meantime, I think like teeth, toes, fucking. What do you want undies, what's good? How you doing? Everyone is ready to do farting in a jar. I would. I would sell my bath water. I'll shit in a cup for you and mail it to you. You just let me know.
You know, when we had the dominatrix person on here, they were talking about people collecting fluids and drinking them. Yep. You know. But Starbucks for three days and give you my pee for $700? Our audience must be pretty freaky because those dominatrix Part 1 and Part 2 episodes got a lot of views. You did get a lot of views. I mean, our, our personalities, like we're always talking about sex or something dirty or freaky.
I feel like it's taken you a second to come out of your shell and just share the little freaky butterfly that you are. But you're getting there. You're getting there. And I feel like there's changes on my end where I'm going to be able to, I'm going to be able to break you out more. Oh God, y'all don't even know what you're waiting for. You don't even know what is available because it's under the surface for now. No, Yeah, there's 2025 is going to be fucking lit. We are.
And I'm just putting this out into the universe because this is happening. Paige and I are going to be getting together in May for our birthdays. I'm going to go out to her. We're going to do photo shoots and all types of marketing things for Lollipop. We're going to do in person interviews. We're going to have like just a whole experience and then there's things that I think we're waiting until kind of like the new year to share with you guys.
But I think we're gonna probably have like a metamorphosis episode for you guys because there's just huge changes and there's huge changes in my life that I like. I'm gonna tell you guys about shortly. If you're on my TikTok, then I've I've shared a little tiny bit, but we'll dive into that. And then Paige has had really transformative moments in the last couple months too. Whether or not you decide to give details on those.
I think that you had experiences this past couple of months that I think put you inside of other people's shoes in a different way than you had been before and in a different perspective than you had been before. And I don't know if you see the way that they that it has changed you, but I can see the way that it's changed you positively and, and what not in the way that your energy shows up. And I think that other people will be able to tell that even
if they don't know why. And I just think it'll be really cool whenever you're ready to Share your story too, because I think that you just had so much growth out of things that could be, can you know that are just really difficult to go through. You know, at the end of the day, I think that everything in my life is coming to a turning point.
I feel like I'm coming on this like five year circle or five year cycle is like really being dedicated on my personal growth journey and healing journey, sobriety journey. And just like really focusing on my needs and saying no to toxic family events or family members or relationships and just really saying no the last five years. And I feel like like there's been so much growth, even just one year of being selfish with
my energy. I started my own business and it's crazy to think that it'll be four years in February because it's just kind of flown by. But I do believe the universe really does always have a plan, even when it is something really difficult or something we don't want to go through something that we don't want to
necessarily experience. It really does change you for the better because you see how strong you are and like how much you really do have that ability to like shape your reality with your perception and your understanding of that situation.
I. Want to ask you, you can think about it or you can respond right now, but I want to know something that you feel is huge and whatever that you want to obtain for yourself in 2025, whether it be personal or business, something that you're like, this is me reaching for the fucking moon, but this is something that like my soul wants. I want to buy acreage with trees on it. Go, bitch, go. I'm going to live in a tree house on your acreage.
I want to buy acreage. Even if it was just a few acres, I want acreage. She's got a corner lot next to the gas station. She's like, I've got 6 acres. Are you going to read us a card? Yes. Yes. I shall do that. We got card 58. The card is Spirit of Vitality. Here's the picture. It's like a carousel at an amusement park or something. It makes me think of the mall when you have the carousel inside of the mall. People even go to the mall anymore. Yes, I like them all. I haven't.
Been to the mall on a fortnight. All right. Card 58 Spirit of vitality. Your sign is Capricorn, your gift is magnetic Spirit and your shadow is dissatisfaction. This gift is within your grasp Once you realize that the future is merely an illusion. You let go of the never ending expedition for perfection and achievements. This gift affords you the opportunity to look at the present moment with a renewed sense of vitality. It is this spark of life that then motivates everything going
forward. It is not that you forsake service or improvement of any kind, but the underlying energy is transformed. You no longer engage for the sake of attempting to make yourself whole, but your inherent wholeness drives your actions. Everything you do is then infused and enriched with the magnetic spirit. This shadow presents as a dull feeling that consumes you and no matter what you do, cannot be extracted. This is a plague that affects many, if not all people at some point in life.
People with this shadow tend to be the go getters and self starters, being of service to others and doing everything possible to continuously improve upon themselves. The rub here is that your actions do actually make the world a better place, but this sense of satisfaction is forever fleeting. This drive to do better, to be better, in and of itself behaves much like a trick question. What outside of myself or in the future will secure my lasting happiness? Answer nothing.
There is no thing or person or objective that will cure you because you were the cure. Within you is everything that you could ever need or want. It's been there all along. When you're able to drop the preoccupation with the future, you will finally access your powerful gift of vitality. Your themes are aliveness, the present spirit, and intention.
I love that so much and I love that the themes was intention because I am so big on like setting intention for every day and like every season of your life. No matter if it's just like I want to be more patient or happy or I want to be at peace. I want to move stress free in my life, whatever it is. Like I think intentions are super underrated and one of the main reasons people do not bring in their manifestations. I agree with you.
I think people also, I think visualization is a huge piece inside of people not bringing in what they're wanting to. I think that people are scared to visualize the things that they want or visualizing themselves in the positions of power or achievement for things that they're wanting. And again, back to that selfishness thing, it can be deemed as selfish for you to want to strive for certain
things for yourself. And it's so important for you to visualize the future that you're wanting in with that card. Knowing that you're you being the cure is such a big thing. You're the cure for you. Tackling your mental health things. You're the cure for you. You're having financial issue. You're the cure for feeling like people aren't getting to know you and you want to have more notoriety or be seen or be understood. You're the cure for everything that you feel is happening in
life, not the way that you want. The only person who can move your positions is you. Getting out of relationships, changing jobs, getting out of cycles. You're the only person who can fix all these issues that you have. And honestly, a lot of the times the solutions are absolutely free. Like so many people think it's money or something that's trapping them, but it's almost free.
Like getting in bed earlier, getting off your phone, unfollowing negativity online, unfriending negative people. All of those things would propel you forward. Putting out an updated resume, utilizing resources and tools that are available to you. Maybe it's a mentor program that's through your college or through your school or through your church or through some Ave. you know what I mean?
Like so many people neglect the resources available to them because it's going to require a little work and a little background effort to get there, but it will be worth it. And that's why we're always here to remind you is like, it's not always puppies and rainbows, but once again, having people in your corner who want to see the best for you will require difficult conversations. Saying things with tact and grace, but saying them because they need to be said.
Because when you care about someone, you care about them enough to let them know when they are falling short and seem to be blinded by it. Blinded by the Light? Do you know the actual words to that song? Because I don't, but I always thought that it was Blinded by the light wrapped up like a douche in the middle of the night. But apparently that's not what it's about. And apparently the song is about a car. I love that song so much. I listen to it regularly actually.
I don't know the words but I love that song. Yeah, well, the lyrics are not wrapped up like a douche. And on that, we'll leave you guys. Well, you all, we will see you next time in motherfucking Candyland. Bye. Bye. Yeah, you said she's so sweet, man. Come on. Like a rapper live. Me like a lollipop. Lollipop. Lollipop, lollipop, lollipop. He want to live, live, live me like a lollipop.
Lollipop, lollipop. You want to swallow my spirit and penetrate my aura taste All of my consciousness is obvious. We're goddesses full of the divine femininity who need masculine energy, energy, energy. You want to be my man? And let me take you to the Candyland Candyland. Candyland, Candyland. He want to live me like a lollipop.