Welcome back to Candy Land. We are so excited to be on here with you all. We're doing biweekly episodes and kind of just really soaking them in each one and trying to make sure that each one gets enough like, energy and attention. Because when you're putting out new episodes every week, I feel like it's easy to overlook a really good episode or overlook some really good information. Why is my voice trying to cut out in the mix of this?
I don't know, but I also feel like we're also in this area where we're both giving ourselves the time that our other projects need and like really investing time and building ourselves in other areas. And coming to the podcast like to share different things, but we have our own fucking journeys privately.
So biweekly just is the vibe. Yeah, I think each time that we record an episode, you know, the ETA of like when the audience actually hears that episode has quite some time gap because of it only being every two weeks. So that's kind of interesting. Where before, like you all were getting us like the day before, dropping it, the literal next day, just boom, drop. So, you know, we're definitely being more methodical this season and trying to really soak in every episode and what each
episode has to offer. I mean, I kind of like that about doing that though, because we do talk about our own personal stuff here. And sometimes when people hear what you're going through while you're going through it and then they message you about it, like in friendly ways, like to talk about it or whatever. It can be annoying sometimes because you're like, I'm just trying to like work through my things and I happen to do it on a platform, but like I want to
do it privately and alone. And by the time that people hear our shit, it's like, oh, I've already passed that. Like thanks so much for reaching out. But like, it is a thing. I saw that orb pop past. Your screen popping off like I've really got it popping over here. Y'all like that? I am loving this autumn energy, like the change of season energy, Libra season, Like I'm here, I'm in the game, baby. This is my last sign of the year, right? Like, you know, we have our big three.
Like this is my last season of the year and I'm going to make it the best one I've ever had. This is my favorite fucking time of the year, and I don't know if it's because we have back-to-back holidays or what it is, but like, everything's starting to cool down. You walk to the store, it smells like pumpkin outside. Starby's has the fall drinks back. I don't care what you say, I'll go every fucking morning during fall season and it's everything.
I'm definitely using pumpkin spice Creamer right now. I love the season, I love layers like boots and jackets and sweaters is like my jam. Although I like all seasons and what they have to offer, I just prefer not to sweat my ass off every time I go outside and to breathe thick air 'cause it's very humid in Kentucky. Like super humid, so thick air, and we're in the River Valley valley, which has some of the worst allergies in the country. So it's just like thick pollen
dust pool. Can you say thick one more time? Thick, I like it. Thick I like them all. Thick air, she. Likes them all. She likes a little girth on them. Listen, I just, I don't understand going through life and having conversations with your friend where you're not talking about wieners. At some point in the conversation, I just feel like, where's your mind at? Like, where are your priorities? Like if good Dick's not a priority for you, then I just, we're not really friends.
This podcast may not be for you, and I'm just kidding. Crazy. It's crazy out here. What do you have going on over there, Lady? Me. Yeah, Your life. What's new with you? Well I was about to speak on my lava lamp that I got today 'cause y'all have no idea but they came out with like a like a striped kind of Beetlejuice lime green lava lamp at Spencer's and I saw someone post it.
So I reverse image searched it like 3 weeks ago and saw it was sold out on Spencer's website and I was like oh I really want that. So I checked the local Spencer's, but they didn't have it. And so then today I drove like an hour outside of Louisville and I wasn't really going there with this in mind. I just was like, oh, they have the Spencer's Let's go in.
And they had it and I got it. And then I was chatting it up with the lady, 'cause I was buying other stuff and I gave her some stickers and a podcast card. And then she was like, I'm going to give you this item for a dollar. And she literally gave me a Playboy button up for a dollar. It was so nice you. Got a lava lamp? You got a Playboy? It was so nice of her and so everything just felt so aligned.
Well, I'm loving that for you. What do you have that you're like working on to like manifest for next year while it's like becoming like fall and then winter time? Girl, I want to travel more next year. I'm in. I'm not manifesting really anything except more travel, more more joyful and exciting experiences. I wanna see. I wanna see your ass next year since clearly I'm not gonna see
you this year. Clearly, dude, traveling's fucking like, I wish that I was able to just be like, you know what, Like I'm gonna just pick up and I'm just gonna go and do this and I'll have the best intentions to go and be able to travel and stuff. But like it really is so difficult juggling like kids and husbands and businesses and being able to travel and do all of the things.
So like before you have all of these, like I'm not going to say anything that ties you down because in so many ways, like it's not a tie down, but just things that become more of a priority. I hope that you travel it up and do all of the things and go all of the places. That's exactly why I want to do it because I personally had a glimpse of clarity, if you will, where I don't want to be tied down to a motherfucking thing, right?
Not even tied down. I don't want to be committed to any roles that other people have for my life. Like other people are like oh you can't do that or you shouldn't do that or you shouldn't go there. And every one of their opinions and fear based mindsets can totally kick rocks. In my reality, they don't exist.
I personally just want to experience life and like network because every time I go places and I network, I really get to meet so many amazing people by just like naturally being myself and it's such a good time and I come back and I always feel so fulfilled. I love coming home though, like I'm a homebody at heart, but it's like I really want to just experience more of life like, and just see the world in ways that may be like I haven't before, I guess.
My husband was watching this guy on YouTube who goes to places with just himself and his like camera and he'll just take himself into the most random places and he doesn't have anything set up for housing, for food, nothing. He just goes there meets local people and has them just like
adventure him around. So he went to this place called It's a Barrow, Alaska, and he quite literally just hopped off of it. They have one flight that goes in and one flight that goes out per day and that's it. And it's like this small Alaska town. He just showed up and was like, hey, I want to try whale. Can somebody take me to like, try whale?
And so he was being taken around by like, natives local in the area who were talking to him about, you know, just like different cultures and customs there and stuff. And I just thought it was fucking cool. He would just, he would be like, oh, OK, cool. I just had dinner with you. Nice. And he'd be walking and somebody would drive by and he'd flag them down and be like, hey, and they'd take him to his house to go meet their family and whatever.
It was just the most interesting thing that should be you. But like with safety precautions, like you should have a camera and a gun, you know? I literally, despite popular belief, want to go on another cruise even though that it was crazy. We have had that conversation. I've already got one booked and I'm going again next year. I cannot wait. It's going to be exciting. So, you know, I'm just going to be out here seeing what's up, seeing what's up in the world.
The way you gamble with your life for joy is just like, it's just something else to me. You're like, I'm going to take care of this spirit, but this physical body, I'm going to put it on a fucking boat. I'm going to go out in the middle of the ocean. There may be some murders, there may be some crazy shit that happens. I may not make it back to port. I could get lost at sea but I'm full sending it. I don't know why, but here lately I've been wanting to do spontaneous things.
Like I need the adrenaline rush, Like I need the, I need the endorphins, you know what I mean? I get no, I don't know what you mean. Like I know what you mean for you. Remember when we went on the thing? We went on the the ride to the Devil's Gates, The Devil's hot Tub, Hell's Gates. Yeah, I sure do. I sure do remember being peer pressured into that.
And don't you have like this feeling that you are like you did that in two wheel drive and was on the verge of sliding off that mountain at any time, all of us. There's not a day that goes by that I don't think about it, but I don't think it's like a a joyous reflection back. It really is a like I should have like, you know, it's like a catch 22, right? Because we have these memories and have these things and we wouldn't have these memories if
we hadn't gone and done that. We would have just had that. We would have just been stuck in a fucking tiny home the whole time, but with like fucking boozy. But we go and we I wish we hadn't done it. Like there's so many other things I would have rather done. I've never, my hands have never sweat so much in my life as it did on that thing. And I've never been in a position before where I'm literally cheering somebody on so they don't kill me. Like I like I was the fucking
cheerleader in the back. Like, Oh my God, you're doing so good. Yes. And I literally was just like, please be filled with so much love and appreciation right now that you don't slide us down this fucking mountain. Absolutely 1000% am just shocked that that happened altogether. Like the whole scenario of like, oh, I got it, I don't need it telling the tour guide like I got it, but yet you drank vodka and forgot to put it into 4
wheel drive. Like those two details are scary because like otherwise, like someone who knows how to drop this piece of machinery, someone who's listening to the tour guide, those people in front of us had never drove one in their entire life and they were fine. You know what I mean? Like I feel like the circumstances would have been different, but she was definitely on one.
So it's definitely an episode that if you haven't listened to the Home Girl episode, go back to last year and find out when Gemini and myself first met and how we almost died together. But there's on a day that goes by that Gemini doesn't reflect on that. Moment Because you know what makes me so mad about it is the fact that I was like, I know about this. We shouldn't go on this. I have people who are tour guides who are telling us don't go on this. This isn't a beginner level
thing. This isn't like don't do it. I'm like we're not going to do it and then had to do it because if we didn't go, then it would have been like a big problem for you guys and I would have ended up going to jail because home girl wouldn't have stopped her like tornado of fuckery the entire time and she would have been mean to you and Jackie still and it just like it would have been a whole thing.
Yeah, it was definitely crazy, but I definitely feel like that experience opened me up to like a near death experience, like an awakening moment of near death. Yeah, I don't want to repeat that. So, like, have fun on the cruise ships. This time I'm going to listen to the inner voice that says, hey, don't do that. And I'm going to not do it. I will think of you fondly. I'll light a fucking candle for you. I may the storms forever be in your favor.
I hope you see whales and dolphins and all of the things, and I will see you when you're back on land. My favorite part about all of this is like Gemini doesn't go on a lot of trips. You all you just heard it. And then she did that with us and we had that experience. And then she went on another trip with some of her friends and there was like a crackhead trying to break into their Airbnb. And that's the funniest shit
that you've ever heard. Like she's literally telling her husband that she probably won't go on a girls trip for a long time. Six months or so goes by, she goes on a girls trip and there's literally crackheads following them and trying to come into the Airbnb. Yeah, so I got this thing about girls trips now, and yeah, I don't think they're for me. Like I like the idea.
Here's the other thing too, is like there's just something always weird that happens on trips, like somebody goes through something with their husband or like whatever happens. Like there's just always these like outside things. And so there's, I haven't, I guess I just haven't had an experience where I'm getting together with another group of women and it's just like a fun time that doesn't have drama with it. And there's 400 other things that I would rather do with my
time than have the fuckery. Had it been you, me and Jubur, we would have had the best time. Just us when we had the last couple days at the Airbnb and we just walked around and did food and hung out and like that was such a vibe. It was so laid back. And I, I've mentioned it before, but just being able to be like, oh, I found this at this store. So I want to go and return this real quick. And everybody just being like, yeah, no problem, we'll go back to that store. Like it's no big deal.
Like let's just go and do it. And never feeling inconvenient or like I was fucking up somebody's time schedule or something. Like I really loved that. And that's the type of energy that I would want to have on a girls trip. You are right about every time people go on a girls trip, someone goes through a breakup or something. Like you're, you're true on that. Like almost every time I go on a vacation, unless it's someone I'm actually dating.
If it's just someone I'm talking to like casually or like, you know, you know that initial talking stage with someone every time I go on a vacation that goes up and smoke while I'm gone. And it's almost like they're trying to ruin my time. Like they're insecure about what I might be doing. So they're trying to like distract me and ruin my time. And that has happened a lot.
So I can definitely say that like every time I go on a trip, if I was talking to someone it by the time I get home, we don't talk anymore. Now probably have blocked them or something, but and I don't go on a lot of girls trips. I go on like solo trips or like maybe a like you said, like two other people. Yeah, I don't.
Any more than three people on a trip is probably doing too much because then you give the option for two people to like pair off and create like some weird buddy hierarchy system of like, I've I
have the car, I have the hotel. No, you know, what's weird about that too is like, even if you go into things like prepared ahead of time, I think back on that trip that we took now and I think back on that other person and I, I think about little, little comments of division before we even went on that
trip. And it's made me so much more aware about how people really do tell you their thought processes and intentions, but we just don't always think about it from the perspective of what they're saying. For example, like I remember when we were talking about doing the trip and she was talking about how you were bringing Juba and so and that you and Juba were so alike and that, you know, she would have felt like she maybe would be the third man out. So having somebody else there
would be awesome. And how like we both have kids and she had just gotten married. And so she felt like everybody was going to kind of have somebody to like hang out with. And, and hearing that at the time, I was like, yeah, it totally makes sense, right? Like you just have like different things going on. Like I, I totally get the feeling of like being left out or whatever.
But then I realized now after that situation happened that there was such a hyper fixation and expectation on her end that she would be left out of something, that she created that reality for herself. And I think that we do that in life so often without meaning to is like we have a fear or a concern about something and we make that the reality that we
see and that we experience. And we put that on other people and we don't realize that like that really isn't the reality, but we've just convinced ourself of this based out of fear. And once you kind of get into into a certain mindset, especially when it's like a low vibrational mindset, and I feel like it's really hard to get out of that.
And so many times, like for that person, I think that person still truly to this day thinks that they did absolutely nothing wrong because they made whatever version of reality they wanted to make. And I think it happens all the time. We just happen to be the bystanders and quote UN quote, victims of that in that
situation. And you know, I honestly believe that people will repeat that cycle and almost every new bond or friendship that they develop, which is why, like in the past when we weren't as selective about people coming in and claiming to be a friend or a supporter or a fan or whatever. And like just giving people direct access to us and learning that lesson, like touching that fire.
And I think that's helped me a lot like keep the boundaries clear and keep the like focus on like the healing aspect and like helping others, but not necessarily thinking I need to be everyone's friend or everyone's guru or everyone's go
to like some people. Who are really going to rock with me for the long time or some people, it might be like a temporary thing, but I think a lot of what I feel is this ever changing flow of the type of people that I connect with and the type of people that I am like friends with now versus like the people I used to be friends with previously.
So it's like, you know, those cycles are almost unconscious because it's like, well, you've always had a friend who treated you this way or, you know, invites you to their birthday dinner but then doesn't come to your birthday dinner or whatever. You know, a lot of times people will identify your place in their life earlier on and you
know what I mean? But I think that sometimes, like with Internet friends or people coming in that you may not know very well whether it's like, oh, I started this new job and this person seems really nice, or I moved into this community and this neighbor seems really nice. Like it's sometimes like some people have I'll intentions, right?
Like just because you want that friendship or you want to believe that it's good, you have to have discernment because not everybody has the same heart as you. Not everybody's going to pursue a friendship with the same level of respect or understanding. You know what I mean? I recently had a conversation with somebody who they're in my life, not on a friend status really, but just somebody who is in my life that I don't have the choice of whether they're in my
life or not. And they made a comment to me about like, I really want to tell you the truth about, you know, certain things. And I feel like I've like, been lying to just like, kind of protect myself. And I feel like if I tell the truth or I lie, it's like a damned if you do and damned if you don't. And I don't really know what to do about that. And like, I really want to be able to have a friendship with you, but like, there's certain things that I can't be honest
about in life and whatever. And in the past, I would have been like, show up as you can, like it's totally OK, you know what I mean? Like you can share with me what you're able to and I'll hold space for you and it'll totally be fine. And I would have felt like this person just needs a friend and whatever.
And I set up a really clear boundary with my response and was like, I totally understand what you're saying and where you're at. And like, that must be a tough predicament for you to go into and for you to be in. But I require honesty and authenticity about friends that I have. And I need to be able to trust people that I have inside of my space and that I consider
friends. So, you know, if you're wanting to be a friend with me, then I expect and kind of require for you to have honesty and transparency. And if you're not able to provide those things and you know that, then you know, we can have this type of dynamic that we have to have and that'll be it. And their response was like liking my message. And then since then, if they've accidentally used the word friend, then they've corrected it and been like acquaintance or
something. And in the past that would, I would have been like, that's just fucking weird. But now I'm like, OK, cool. So like I asserted that boundary and that requirement. That person recognized that they can't provide that. And so they're just showing up the way that they're gonna show up. And they're not being manipulative about that, you
know? I love when people can just be very honest with like what they can and can't do or what they will and won't do. You know, sometimes I feel like a lot of people get caught up on words, just the words of other people like, oh, I'll do that, I'll change, I'll stop doing that. I'll start doing that, whatever it may be. But at the end of the day, like, we really got to assess people's actions. Like, do they keep repeating the cycle? Do they fall into the same trap every time?
You know, I have someone that I've grown up with, and it's like a childhood friend, family friend, whatever you want to call it. And, you know, we're in our 30s now. We don't really hang out. But of course, we, like, keep up with one another on social medias. And I noticed that she had gotten in a new relationship. And I was like, I'll give her three months and her and this man will be living together. Well, it wasn't even 3 weeks. It wasn't even 3 weeks.
She moves in and she has four little Tito's and brought them all, brought them all to this person's home and you know, they're living their best life. And I could tell. But then like one day her energy changed and I was like they broke up. So I went to her profile pictures which every week would be like a new picture of them and they were all deleted. And I said something to my mom about it. And I was like, well I don't know. I'm not friends with her on
there. And I was like, they're going through breakup instantly. She's back with her trauma bonded little boyfriend that she's been on and off with forever. So you know what I mean? Like people will find someone who treats them amazing grasses greener, got a new place to live, having a good time, brought my kids through over here doing all this stuff and still uproot their life for a trauma bond just like that.
Just because this person is boring, because there's not constant fight or flight or drama or chaos, or because this person has responsibilities and they want to get up and go to work and go to bed at a decent time. They don't want to go out and blow all their money or they have, you know, they have goals and they're not just spending and out to eat every day and whatever.
Because you know, I can say that the person that I grow, that I grew up with, she definitely doesn't have her life together. You know what I mean? Like she definitely goes from 1 extreme to the next in her life. And sweet girl, good mom. Like no, no shade to her, but she has no roots. Like there's nothing that's grounded in her energy. And I think that, you know, sometimes you want that peace, like you're seeking peaceful friendships, you're seeking peaceful community bonds, support.
And then you get that. And the next thing you know, you're starting drama. Next thing you know, you're sleeping with somebody's boyfriend or you're doing something crazy or you're stirring the pot because your body is so like used to that chaos and that drama and that constant just looking over our shoulder type energy that your body will like almost bring that back in.
Because peace and quiet and chill and respect and and mutual understanding sometimes could feel like phony or fake or why are they being so nice? What's their motive? What's their motive? Because your brain is programmed to start shit, to start drama somewhere in your life, to keep yourself in constant fear and terror and chaos. Your subconscious is manifesting these experiences and then we're victim blaming or victimizing our self even.
It's also such a trauma response for you to go back into situations where you think that the chaos is passion and that really is like a thing that happens, especially inside of abusive dynamics, is that there will be such a nobody's going to love you like this. We have have this crazy bond and
whatever. I'm just crazy about this because I'm crazy about you and I, I think that even if people have the intention of healing through that together and have the best intention of healing through that, at some point, you're really giving allowances for things and letting that person know that you're OK with how they treat you because you keep on going back. So it must not be that bad
because you keep on going back. And I see I've had a lot of people inside of my life that have done that. I, I had one relationship, right? I felt like that was a thing was like, well, I really like them as a person. And if I don't let them treat me that way, then I don't get to have them in my life at all. And I'd rather have them in my life and treat me shitty. And it was when I was like fresh out of high school and I look back on it now and I think about like, what were the pros and
cons of this person? And I'm literally like, the only pro was that they told me that they loved me. And I felt like if something was to happen inside of life, they would fight to defend me. And I hadn't ever had anybody that would fight for me. And that is literally the only thing that I can think about that person that I genuinely liked is the fact that they said that they loved me and the fact that I felt physically safe in their presence if something was
to happen. I think whenever we date as a young like teenager or any like younger age, something in our brain chemistry changes towards those people like, you know what I mean? Like whenever you're developing like your, your sense of love or your sense of companionship in those ages, I feel like something changes for those people in that sense of like our mind can make up any story that it wants. You know what I mean?
Like, because it was like an imaginative energy of like that child good innocence, I guess is what I'm trying to say. I don't know. I think kids are going up way too fast these days. I know I've tried to grow up fast and I wish I would have not, but it's just so much exposure to things that I just don't think people were exposed to before, you know what I mean? And I think that's the problem is like these people are exposed and they need to just be playing
Uno reverse. I don't know, kids do just grow up differently now and I want to say have access to different things, but truly, by the time that we were like going into high school, we had access to all types of things ourselves. Like we had Myspace, We you know what I mean? Like you could get in trouble over there. We had AOL chat rooms. Like we had all the avenues to be able to have fuckery happen too.
Did I ever tell you about the older dude tattoo artist that I ended up like having like an online relationship with when I was a kid? No. OK, I remember this guy's name and I just, I won't shout it out, but he's fucking creepy. And anyways, I think that I was in, I was in high school, I was in like, I want to say like junior, senior year of high school maybe. And I don't even remember how I found this person, but he was like, I'm a tattoo artist that lives in LA and whatever.
And we used to talk on the phone and whatever. Well, I as a kid sent photos that I shouldn't have sent to him. And yeah. And so as I, I ended up blocking him and like moving on with life and whatever. And we had talked for like a year or something like that, just like kind of on and off and we had face timed and things. So I like, I knew that that was who that actually was. But after I was an adult, he
ended. And I want to say that this may have been right when I got with my husband or maybe after I had even had Mac, he literally messaged me on Facebook and was like, hey there and then sent me the pictures that I had sent him as a child. And so I blocked him because I just like, I was like creeped out and I didn't want anything to do with it. And then recently I was telling somebody about it and she's like, that's distributing child.
I'm not going to say the word, but like child photography and like that means that like that person has child photography on their computer and it just makes me wonder, like I wonder if this person has them of other people. I've, I've really been thinking about it the last couple of days after like the Diddler was something that we discussed because there are just like so many fucking predators out there. And we get, I don't know, victimized by predators in so
many ways. And then we just are like, oh, I'm going to move on with my life. And I have no idea what happened with those things. They've never come back to like resurface or anything like that, but it's wild. Yeah, honestly, that's probably really illegal on his part to be doing that and harassment, and you could probably sue him. I'm sure I could, but like, I don't. I just like good riddance. It's been years since I heard from that person.
Like in the event that I find out that my photos have been distributed, I would sue him and I would, you know? What a weird like hey, haven't talked in a long time, here you go. It was literally like, hey there, pictures, like we're not Facebook friends. I don't have you on Facebook. You searched out my profile.
Very odd behavior. You know, it's just really common like back in like my generation, the amount of like 18/19/20 year old boys that were like trying to holler at little O 14 year old me. The the relationship I was just telling you about where I was like, oh, well, he like really likes me at least like he says that he loves me and I feel safe
with him. He was like I was, I was a freshman in high school and he was already graduated, but he would like come and hang out right outside the school campus. You said that before. I've heard that. You did tell us that. Fucking weirdos dude. Like fucking weirdos. We must just really have to bring light to this as women in 2024 that nobody is safe to harass women anymore because we're we're telling everybody,
we're telling everyone. You know, I personally feel like the world is on a shift, but like so much exposure has to happen first. Like that shift is happening and the veil is just getting so thin to the point will be non existent. I agree with you on that. There's so many statements or so many different things. My husband and I were talking last night because he's like, I
have this like weird. Like when I look at like the time that we have for our life, I feel like I have a very short amount of time to do a lot of things. And I was like, no, I feel that way too. Like when we're looking at how long our life is going to be, neither one of us are like, Oh my God, I see myself being like this, like super old person or whatever. We just have these like goals that we know, that we feel led to achieve and do, but neither one of us sees ourselves in the
long run, if that makes sense. I definitely don't see like what I'll look like, but I definitely know I'm going to live for a long time. I feel like it anyways. I feel like I'm gonna get that third Saturn return. Like I'm gonna hit 90. If I hit 90, I'll be good. I'll be like, damn, I'm trying to leave at 90. I wonder what I'll be like. I just don't want to be like one of those old people that just doesn't function anymore.
And it's just there and people. That whole family is like, when's Grammy going to kick it, you know? Oh. You got to take care of your body, your mind, your spirit. You got to workout. You got to eat right. You got to get your body right and sustain it so you don't lose it. That's what I think because a lot of the people that are like healthy and fit, they're aging great.
And there's a lot of like there's Olympic people and crazy people who like can do crazy things in their 60s, seventies, 80s that blow my mind. So I know it's possible. Just you got to be in the, I don't want to like age. I want to get younger as time goes on.
I want to be one of those people that like really doesn't let the joy or the inner child or the magic die like that just continues to grow Pfizer, but also like more youthful, more youthful more and more what I want to say more expansive. I want to try to be more expansive every year.
That's why I said next year I want to do more traveling and things because I do I want to do that while I don't have commitments to anything outside of myself that really it is just what do I want to do without having to ask others or even invite others, you know, like what do I pray? What is my soul crave? And I think that you mentioned Alaska. I would like to go to Alaska, but it's not like #1 or anything.
I just want to ride a fucking moose and I don't care what state I do it in, I just know that it's on my bucket list. They have moose rides there. I don't fucking know. I just know I want to ride a moose and I don't know where I have to go to make it happen. But I think I've told you before, I just want to be Teddy Roosevelt and I want to ride a moose across the river. I really want to go to Canada.
I want to go to Canada, I want to see Shannon in Canada, I really want to go to Avonlea. But that's just because Anne of Green Gables is my favorite movie of all time. Yeah, I really want to check out Canada. Like I was supposed to go there before when I went to the Detroit trip from hell. So luckily I haven't. I haven't been there yet, but I will. I will. Jesus fuck you have you have crazy ass traveling stories too, just on your own.
It's something about somebody else setting up trips that just really like. We should not let anybody control things. Yeah, cuz whenever I set up my own trips or I book the trips, I'm doing good, it's working out
good. But I do agree every time that I go and I just am like present like oh I'll just pay my money and ride with you or I'll just pay the money and come with you to an already planned thing that yes, they get screwed every time they rent the smallest rental car and I got to sit in the back like terrible, terrible vibes. No, I don't like it at all. Yeah, I personally am really just trying to see places I've never seen. I really want to go to Hawaii
bad. I don't feel like calling to go to Hawaii. I know a lot of people do. I really want to go to Ireland and Scotland. I really want to go to Thailand. Yes, yes, Queen, she wants to go international, she said. Fuck this shit. I'm trying to go international. Facts. I want to, yeah, I want to go. I want to experience different, like, cultures and different places. Like I'm fucking tired of it here, grandpa. Like I want out. Damn, she's ready to bounce.
I want, I want to go. I want to experience different things. I want to. Yeah. I feel like people have so many complaints about this country in general. And it would just be so interesting to people have complaints about this country who are never going to go and experience other countries. They're just going to sit here and complain about what they have without knowing what they have. And I don't want to be one of
those people. I really want to go and experience different things and be able to be like, oh, you know, these are different policies in different places or different laws in different places and different, you know, experiences that are here and be able to actually compare that in person versus being somebody who's fucking Googling things and drawing opinions and having arguments about things over something that's Googled. And not a fact, just some
someone's opinion or some news article of someone's opinion or something like that. Like I truly believe that people are getting Dumber the more information that is available because there's no way to truly process, harness and understand the information. It's just like constant exposure to information. And I feel like that is dumbing people down. I feel like that is slowing people down because there's too much available to them. Like attention span. I know my attention span has
gotten bad. Like if I really like the movie, I'll be able to sit there and watch it, but if I don't write back on my phone, it instantly needs to be studied like time and time again. Yeah, I completely agree with you. I'm also like, I'm just like, so over people having conversations about politics and about politicians and comparing politicians personalities as if everything that you're looking at isn't a total fucking facade, regardless of who it is that you're looking at.
The entire thing is set up for smoke and mirrors. And I just, you know, I don't care about, you know, somebody has to be super assertive and mean because other countries need to see that and somebody needs to be really soft and gentle because people in this country need to see that. And like I, it's very overwhelming and frustrating and I would like to go and actually experience things in life.
And I think that people get so wrapped up in the politics and the fear about things and whatever that they forget that there's like other places that you can go and live. There's other realities that you can go and have. You don't have to be stuck inside of this and being like, well, if this person wins, then this is going to be life. Well, you don't actually know that.
You're just assuming things, you're scaring yourself and people around you and it's giving unhealed energy and I I just can't rock with it. I'd rather travel. I'd rather go and fucking be butt ass naked on a beach in another country and live my best life. It's given everyone is sipping the kool-aid and it's the same kool-aid across the board. No matter which side you pick,
it's the kool-aid. And I think it's weird people that are like willing to quit talking to friends and family over like other people's opinions on the Internet or what Fox News said or what whatever channel said, you know what I mean? It's like a lot of things that you're hearing are propaganda, propaganda. Look it up. That's what it is. And you know, it's just kind of like the billboards that you see here in the Bible Belt that like Jesus is real.
And then the next one be like hell is real. Next one be like, do you know Jesus? And then the next one will be like hell is real. And the next one will be like Jesus needs to be a part of your heart if you're going to be accepted into his Kingdom. It'll it'll be like deeper, like they'll just be yelling at you at 1st and then there will be a deep thought. And then it'll be like John 316 and then the next one will be
hell is real. And they just like every 3 miles there's another billboard that will say something all the way till you get to a place where there'll be like 3 crosses or like hundreds of crosses or thousands of crosses or one big giant Jesus cross thing or whatever. Yeah, like, so yes, I do think that propaganda, fear based stuff is projected in all areas, whether it's like, you know, religion, politics, finances, career, the housing markets, you
know, fucking college, whatever. Like they want you to bring in more fear. They want you to be afraid. Somebody caught somebody commented on this witchy friends post that I have and was like give your give your soul to Christ or something like that. And so she did a video response and she's like, give it like for free. I really think that if they're wanting to hire me on, they should pay me. They can have my soul.
I'll switch fucking teams. You just if you, you want to donate to my PayPal. If enough people donate to my PayPal and just put a donation for Christ, then I'll, I'll just switch teams. It'll be fine. That'll it'll work for me. I can quit my job and I can just completely commit to giving my soul to Christ and it'll be everything. And I was just dying laughing at her video. I thought it was the funniest
shit I'd ever seen. I feel like TikTok and the fucking scammers really irk me to the fullest. Like you can't even really make a spiritual post without having the spellcasters and the crazy scammers come on. They're like I don't even know. It's wild to me but I just can't believe TikTok can't fix that. But then they want to censor a video because the star card is on there and there's titties out
on the star card and it's like. I literally don't have access to a live because I made chocolate and somebody said that I was doing sexual activities and they can't. They're going to block me off of there. I can't go live, but they're not going to remove people who are literally taking videos and pretending to be them and going out and asking people for money. I know.
And that's what's crazy to me. It's mind blowing and it's been such a turn off about the whole app because it's just like they won't fix the scammer problem and then they've completely like suppressed the content because you have all these fake accounts on there that aren't really watching anything. They're not viewing anything. All these bots. It's just, I don't know, all these fake views and all that. It's just like they broke it again, it was cool, and then
they broke it again, you know? I'm tired of seeing people selling shit in the fucking TikTok shop like I, and I get it, like, you know, wanting to have streams of revenue or whatever, but I feel like they could have made a completely different app for people to go and influence on and shop on. And I like it would still be a successful app. People would still go over there so that they can go and and search different products and see different things and they
would still make money on that. But they're just transforming something that has been made for creativity and turning it into buy this mop. Yeah, buy this bucket. Yeah, I've seen that, you know, they and they really do influence people to buy the dumbest shit. And then you know what I saw? I've been seeing a lot of people talk about it on threads about how they left a negative review on something they received from TikTok that look nothing like
the picture. Kind of like how what's happening on Etsy with them stealing photos and mass producing things that are supposed to be handmade, one-of-a-kind. Even they said that TikTok wrote them gave them money to change their review to a positive review. Like like refunded them and gave them money I think is what it was. So someone said damn, I'm about to give everything a negative review going. I was just about to say shit. I could sit here and say a bunch of that mop is nasty, it came
already used. The the bucket had a crack in it. Oh, I got a popsicle. It was already licked and melted. I could say all kinds of stuff. Sign me up. I think that they should just let people shop on every other damn app like that You have like there's so many apps, like why do they have to make every app about shopping, like even Instagram be doing the most with that as well.
It's just like, give us a nice for you page, a nice like trending page, like a nice information page and leave it be. Like, you know, if somebody wants to shop, it should be like its own thing. You're right. And it should be like a portal where you just click the button and it takes you right over. Kind of like cap cut. You know, we all integrate a cap cut. Let's integrate a different app for the shopping. That'd be good. Yeah, no, I'm, I'm tired of seeing people unboxing things.
I'm tired of seeing like, I don't care about you steaming your shower. I don't care. It's crazy. I I'm so grateful for this moment, but I want to read a numerology card. OK, that's so funny. I had a numerology book that I was sitting here looking at too. Pull me a card. Read me. A number six, love, and this card indicates a need to see the world through the eyes of love and to remember at all times that only love is real.
When you look beyond the illusion to see the beauty in the world, you align yourself with Source and the intentions of your soul because you attract what you are. When you see through the eyes of love, that's what will surround you in all areas of your life. This card also indicates a need to go within to recognize and address any limiting thoughts and beliefs that are holding you back from experiencing love. This is a time when you must ask yourself, am I truly open to
giving and receiving love? Do I truly believe I am worthy of love and do I really believe that love exists for me? Because love only comes when you believe that it exists, when you're open to giving and receiving it, and when you know that you are worthy. In order to improve your current situation, you are being asked to adjust and harmonize with the natural rhythm and cycles of your life, cycles that are encouraging you to see and to believe in love.
When you believe in yourself and you cherish your life as it is today, love will embrace you in ways you've never known. Unconditional love of self and others will attract more love into your life. The affirmation I see through the eyes of love and attract more love into my life. I want to read you the first of all. I love that. I think that's beautiful. I pulled out my numerology book when you had been talking about numerology before we started and I went to page 6 and I want to
read what they have for six too. OK, this would be a cute little fun thing to like pull out the numerology stuff. OK, so six, vision of perfection, seeking fulfilment through harmony and perfection. The six is the idealistic number of heart and home. The sixth phase marks an important point of culmination and fulfillment. At the end of the second cycle of three, things should be as perfect as we can get them. We're #5 takes us on a path that investigates the house that #4 built.
Number six wants to display the house in a way that reflects its own perfect vision of how it should be. In this phase, the balance of beauty and harmony becomes all important. Looking at the shape of the number six, we see a curving line spiraling inward to a center point, and this way the number is associated with the heart, either literally the organ at the center of the human body or the center of system, such as the tree of life and its association with the family and home.
It echoes the mother, father, Child, Trinity of #3, the last number in the previous cycle of three. Number six encompasses a heady brew of idealism and emotional sensitivity. 3 twos are 6. It can bring to the surface pictures of an idealized world and with them the potential to uplift us to a greater vision of who we are. The other side of the coin, however, is its obsession and
addiction. The beauty of the incoming light can go to our head and we can mistake the ideal picture of a more beautiful world for reality. And then the Star of David shows two complete cycles of three superimposed and a perfect counterpoint. And the Star of David is what is associated with six in numerology. Beautiful, so apply this energy
to your life. Our Kingdom has now been opened, the Lolli. Welcome to the Kingdom of Lollipop. The lollipop gates of candy canes and Dicks and Dicks. Geminis like let's just say Gemini needs to get laid, hopefully. I get laid all the time. I get good Dick. That's why I like to talk about it. Hopefully he's right to lay that pipe when you hop off the call 'cause we need to know. I already got I already got piped down today, but I can get piped down again. I'm into it. Wow.
Let's go, let's go. OK, well, that's enough for everyone in class today. We will adjourn this meeting and we will see you all again in two weeks, baby. See. You next time, Bye, he says. She's so sweet, like a rapper, like a lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, lollipop, lollipop.