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Mentally Exhausted

Mar 29, 2023•23 min•Season 2Ep. 12
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This week Gemini and Rampage talk about trying to adjust back to their everyday life after their vacation and where their energy levels are currently šŸ’Rampage’s Patreon: www.patreon.com/ContraryCherryCo ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„Gemini’s Patreon: www.patreon.com/Covenofrejects. Tap in for readings and follow us: šŸ’Rampage: www.ContraryCherryCo.com ā¤ļøā€šŸ”„Gemini: www.Covenofrejects.com Email us: lickitlikealollipoppod@gmail.com šŸ­Submit questions/feedback to www.lollipoppodcast.com šŸ¬Follow us on Instagram @madeinkuntucky & @gemini_goddess420 @l1ckitlikealollipop

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Welcome to fucking Dandy land hosted by Rampage and Gemini. Welcome to Candy land's. We're back in again and we're bringing all that good energy. I got so much feedback from our last episode and I got messages of like, oh my gosh, that reminds me of like a trip that I went on or something that I went on and somebody was like, I I made a point to remember, only the positive things that I wanted to remember, from the The trip and make that my focal point.

And so, over the last week I have been specifically thinking about the things from that trip that like I'm grateful for and I'm like are hanging out in the living room and watching hangover and all laughing to like gut laughs that we did in like your guys's bed at one am just like laughing cracking jokes, the going shopping and how comfortable it felt to go shopping and not be concerned about like Anything like it was just it was just such good energy and then I get anxious

traveling. And so Jackie being like, we're not making you go to the airport alone, we're dropping you off, you don't have to get an Uber like, it made everything. So comfortable. So, those are the things that I'm taking, honestly, Jackie shout out. She's the best this weekend. She was the ultimate wingman. I will take Jackie to the fucking Moon. I will take Jack. A key everywhere.

Like everyone needs a friend, like, Jackie legitimately because she is so go with the flow and I'll be damned if any cunt asthma. The fucking bitch. Tries to say the Jackie is to nice because Jackie is serving everything Jackie is serving, like the person you can depend on and anyone who has a problem with Jackie, needs to fucking check themselves. That is all, I gotta say, we kept calling her Juber. Because Jackie was our Uber

driver, and she's like, yeah. Well like I'll pull up to airports with blunts when I have to go pick up passengers, like honest, roll up with a blunt and it was she just fucking cracked me up so hard. I loved there's I love that like I got a new friend out of that because like I've message Jackie back and forth on Instagram or whatever but now like that's my friend too and we were messaging the other day talking about

that. I was Like I'm so grateful that like for that fucking trip that I got to spend time with you guys there he is possessed and I will go everywhere with Jackie and honestly everyone needs a friend like Jackie, but honestly, I'm really glad that we got to do that troop.

I haven't really been thinking about anything - I'll just so happy with everything that got to happen and everything that went down and all of the really scary, sketchy parts that turned out really great and safe at the end. It was good. It was real good. It was real good. I am literally exhausted, though. Like, I feel like I haven't got to adjust since getting home from that trip. I feel we're out and just depleted and I feel like I need

to take a mental break. I need to get back into the routine of my life because like, first of all, when we got back is like you, and I talked about how we didn't work at all, while we were gone on that trip, like we didn't answer messages, we didn't we didn't do anything and then I came back and I was like, holy fuck, I do a lot of stuff and like I've been kind of in like survival mode about things and since Is that trip? Like, I've been so motivated to do like the spiritual stuff.

And like, I don't feel stressed about it, it's like enjoyable, and I'm loving it, and I feel rekindled and like my fires let. But then when it comes into things, like doing my housework, I'm like only Muggles clean their house. Like, I refuse I don't want to right now and I need to clean my fucking house. I am tired. I'm exhausted. I want to take naps. Oh, it's so pretty outside. Like, I can't actually sleep. Like I'll lay down and look. Okay, I'm an hour.

Let's take a nap and then I just can't because it's so pretty out. But I'm just like, exhausted. I'll just want to rest, and I'm trying to gather myself because I feel like I have been non-stop for like a whole month. Well, what new things do you have going on? What stuff do you have? On in life, girl. I just learned how to fly like I can literally find out now. I figured I'd go to my car and start flying. Are you high? I'm just kidding. I'm just kidding. No, I'm like that's the whole

thing. You're like, well, I'm proud of you. Um, I'm not to go to the Moors. Out to go to Mars yours. And that's it roast marshmallows because I got a 60 dollar fire pit and I need to use it, you know, for backup. I'll never look at a fire pit. The fucking same again in my life. Got to take a deep dive. And I'm just like I'm really trying to enter great right now and not trying to overwhelm myself. I feel like for a while I was just go. Go go.

Try to do too much. So right now I'm trying to meditate and just relax and journal and not put a lot of pressure on myself to get a lot done. I've literally in turn on the turn on like the I do not care mode. I'm trying to take off work and not work more. I'm trying to like work less. I really need just like a Like, I feel like I have been so consumed with what other people need, what other people want, what other people desire. And right now, I'm trying to

focus on me fuck. Everybody else. Well, this is about the time last year. I feel like where you were really prioritizing yourself care all the way up to your birthday. Like you kind of had like a whole hibernation shutdown period. And then that was when we were really cultivating, the idea for the podcast and I'm stuff behind the scenes and then we ended up dropping it, my birthday. But it was this was the period where you were really resting

last year too. So I it's just kind of your pattern to go into a hibernation annually. I think everybody else is like oh I feel energized in your like a fucked up. Yeah for real tired all of a sudden I feel like really just like exhausted. I feel like it's about balance right now for me. I'm really just trying to like cultivate G4 like my projects whatever I'm really actually just reminiscent all the cool things that's already happened. Like it's almost April.

I'm fucking stoked about doing our full moon and our full moon ceremony and doing the cord cutting over there. I've actually been talking to quite a few people about it. I think that I'm going to make like a video on my tick, talk about it and like just invite people to do it. And I didn't think about it before but I can probably just put a link from your website onto my link tree and then people could go there to go sign up for that.

I'm really looking forward to it because it's really gonna pop off the fact that we're doing it on the full moon and it's like the first big moon cycle of the New Year, the astrological New Year. So it's like it's a whole Bob. It's like a whole solidary season, transformative energy, and Aries is really about like action and putting in that

action and putting in that work. And I'm really excited about like starting this new project like this new thing that we're doing, it's going to bring in a lot of really fun things.

We so speaking of Aries season so tomorrow's Brian's birthday and we've continuously been talking about like like so we rent but are least technically expired in January or yeah in January and so we're kind of month-to-month right now we're like well we don't want to be here like this place doesn't really have our needs or whatever. We all of a sudden unexpectedly have the money for a down payment plus moving expenses. Like all of our moving costs to

move into a new place. So now we're just looking to find a new place. We're looking at a place where there are a couple different options but there's a property that we're really interested in that has a barn with stalls already. So be perfect for Willie Nelson and then it also has a bunch of properties.

So we could actually host Retreats at my property and we wouldn't have to rent out other property because we would have the outdoor indoor option and it would be dope so whether that ends up coming through or something different that like fire energy and like seeing goals through and whatnot, the Ares does bring has brought new opportunities for stuff that we've been planning for a long time. So it's really exciting. That's all someone earlier walk.

Down the road that's fire engine red hair and it made me think of you and I was like, wow, look at the lady. I was like, that makes me feel comforted, but they have this fire engine red hair. You never know when I'll pop out baby sir. They were doing their thing. But honestly I just feel like letting everyone know that setting goals right now is just important and just taking one little step towards that direction. I think carries energy, you know sometimes.

We start projects, we don't finish. Those says about momentum creating that frequency words. Like, you know, I'm not going to get it all done now but I'll do a little bit that's important. Yeah, biting off little chunks.

And I think that we've talked before about, you know, when people talk about manifesting things, I think people think that all they have to do is speak it out into existence, but like you literally manifest things when yeah, you like speak and you share this but also by you putting in energy towards something every day. So you putting small amounts of

energy every single day. Whether that be like, you're researching something about your idea, You're looking at, you know, vendors that you could have in your store or whatever your idea is. You putting in that, like, little behind-the-scenes stuff every day, that's the energy that manifest, something and makes things happen. Yeah, the energy of intention is so important. That's why I like people are failing, is because your intention is not towards success.

It's towards like the rewards of success. So you're looking for money, or Dance or recognition or or like the outward representation or sometimes, we don't realize, like what we need is a passion. We need something we're passionate about because you're going to get a lot further with

passion. Then you're ever going to get with Rewards or like, accolades of that action, it's like you need to be passionate and really understand that something that you're doing has A meaning to you personally not just money or success but like an actual connection to your path. And so many people are doing things that are not in alignment with them. Yeah, or there's also people who

spend so much energy going. Well what is my like special thing that like I could be doing and I could be passionate about and so I don't know about for you but for me if I'm to sit down and be like well what thing am I super passionate about? And I haven't done anything before to know any passions, I

would just be wasting energy that way like doing. doing the podcast because I feel like beginning for like really chasing passions with stuff was really like, when I started that podcast and That was just because I was already talking to all these different people. So, then I started recording it. And so that's how you take like, a genuine passion that you have and you like authentically, make it a thing. But if you just sit there and you're like, what's that thing?

Then I feel like you put too much pressure on it. Yeah, we're trying to narrow it down to one thing that's when you limit yourself to a box, you're like, okay, what am I good at? But, like, I know, plenty of people that can do multiple things at once, we weren't the Box. Yourself in by knowing

everything. And I think that's where the spiritual journey has really helped me expand on a personal level because I'm doing things I never expected to do because I just like, was like, fuck it. I have no clue what I want to do. Let's just try things. Let's just try things, let's just fuck around and find out, you know, what's crazy that Airbnb? We stayed. I got upset because of the reviews that I left them. What did you say?

Well, I mean sure. I'd told him that they needed some gloves some little plugins because that shit was not smelling fresh. And then for two, I just, you know, like the heat would not let you change it. Yeah, they said that it was user error. Sure because I could have deleted the setting that was changing it and I'm like, so you're telling me that I could have deleted the setting, but in my personal opinion, I would have thought that I would have gotten in trouble for deleting

your energy efficient settings. What the fuck? And also if you want people to do that you just tell them upon arrival. Like I do think it was cool that they let us go in early. It was a cute little place but also like it did smell like mildew and old people in there.

You weren't able to. We were all having to use, one extension cord in the living room, to plug our Shin in because our outlets in our room like at your plug would fall out of the outlet as soon as you plug something in and out, okay? Um, groom like I would never have taken a bath in that

bathroom. Not that I'm going to take a bath in the air B&B bathroom but I'm just saying like that bathroom was cute until you opened up the shower curtain and then it was like Rusty and and like stuff on the inside, there was like mildew up above the bed that I was in.

So like let's let's like be real like if you're gonna have people somewhere and you're going to host and people have to leave reviews, like that's nice to know we Still would have booked it if we had known all of those things because we were desperate bitches. But like like the fact that they said it was user error and that's what they were upset about when the fact that he really needed to focus on the Glade Plugin comment. I need to focus on the smell was

not inviting. When you left for an extended amount of period and you came back, there was a stitch upon arrival and then your nose would get a jest Stood to say that smell. But there was not a lot of inviting information. When you came in, it wasn't just like welcome it smells great. It was like someone died in here. Welcome talks. And I don't know your feelings on this, but I noticed that all

of the windows had sticks. So you couldn't open the windows, which, like I appreciated, but they had those because the windows are accessible right from the road like you You see, those windows? They're huge. And then your kitchen window is accessible from that alley. And then your bedroom windows are facing out to other apartments. Like an open area where someone could come into your window and your bathroom window. You can't have that open because it's also open to the things.

So like if you rented that place you could just never open your fucking windows. It was definitely interesting and I think they should focus on getting some Glade plugins from the Sam's Club because I cannot handle the stench. The frequency of stench honestly. Like the fact that they were like, hello, Miss just saw your review wasn't sure why you said that when you never contacted me, Yes, baby. I never contacted you, but you're supposed to reach out and be like, hi.

I thought that you should know. I mean, yeah, I guess but like, I was like, hmm. This is a review and they are acting stank booty, but it's fun because I would never say there again really. No. I mean, for the price, it was fun. And like, for the circumstance, it was great and I had no problem. I felt safe there, but no. Honestly, I think that Airbnb needs to vet their people differently. I think that there needs to be home inspection like CPS or something like that.

I need to come in and be like baby. I don't know about this, there's there's molding. Well yeah, since they're having airbnb's next to literal dilapidated, crack houses, and Detroit backs is Scurry. Scurry out here and I they need to get it together. Yikes. That is that there's all that. I think I'm gonna go back to hotels. I looked at hotels to and then I was just like, I looked at hotels and then I looked at airbnb's and I looked at prices on things and availability. And I also.

Yeah and I was just like this just seems better. Oh and I also was looking at How close it was to the airport. And that was the closest Airbnb to the airport at said. And then for hotels, a lot of them didn't even have any days for the what we needed. It all comes out in the wash. It's all a little life experience, a little. I thought it was fun. We got to walk down to those stores and we got to go walk to food and stuff. I thought it was super cute where we were and we were in a

really good. We landed ourselves in a really good part of town. Yeah, it was cute. I'm really glad that we got to meet in person. I'm really feeling exhausted. Every since that trip I feel like it took every ounce of energy that I had for the remaining month of March. But shout out, we had a good time. I felt like it was a good time and I got a lot out of that trip. Just like personally and perspective on things and like my own like spiritual moments while we were hiking and stuff

like that. So I definitely like I'm super grateful for the trip regardless and those moments stick out more than anything else. Yeah, I really don't care about all the haters shit. Honestly, I've been forgot all the details. I'm just like fuck it. I had a good time. I survived I made it through. Through even though, what did you die throwing into will drop but we made it. I just know, I got to get back

focused. I feel like that, like, if you think about how the ride for the ATV was with like the like fucking what the fuck parts. And then like, oh my God, this is hella fun. But like literally was the energy of the trip and we did it in two wheel drive. I mean the trip was definitely had some unexpected moments but I had a good time. I had a good time too.

So anyways frosted mentally, spiritually and physically and I'm glad that we were able to check in this week and we wanted to give you all a little taste of something. But we are fucking drained. And I will say that like, I just need a fucking break and I love you all and I want to be there, but I am mentally checking out for like, the next 7 days. So that's that Well, don't forget about me in those seven days. Seven days a week. I need a break. I'm just like, I need a nap.

I need to do some. I'm like tired all the time, but I'm not sleep huddle with your kitties. I don't have any time to sleep. It's like I'm tired but I can't sleep. Do your best. We love you and we're going to do a candy Circle and we're going to make every one of you all so sweet, because love is forever. Diamonds are forever. Look pretty tonight. Like a lollipop, like a lollipop, any time of day, I will be there for you.

Lil Lil Trill little Trill. Y'all know the vibe and we want you to know that we love your energy. Thank you for being here. Bye guys.

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