Welcome back to another episode of Look It Like a Lollipop. This week I have a brand new guest who I just recently found on social media, Alejandra, and she is a spiritual goddess. She does spells, she does tarot, she does Oracle. She also does a lot of horoscope readings. So I'm excited and welcome. Thank you for having me. I really appreciate the opportunity. I'm excited. Yeah, this is so fun.
And honestly, I love connecting with people who I don't know because it's like fresh information for my audience. It's fresh information that, you know, sometimes we don't get to share as much as like we get into a niche and I've been guilty of that. And then you get stuck in like a niche and you're there with your content or. Your. Creation, you know. I definitely relate to that because when I started my TikTok, I strictly just wanted to post about tarot, like tarot
readings for the collective. You know, you see the tarot lady on TikTok every time we scroll. Oh, if you see this, this is for you. But I don't know. As more time passes, I get interested in different topics regarding spirituality, like shamanism specifically for me, I'm very interested in that. So I'm trying to do that eventually aliens, conspiracy theories, astrology, like all kinds of stuff. So I don't want to just limit myself. So funny you mentioned that.
My TikTok used to be called grounded Tarot when I first started and then I changed my name to Ali the Oracle so that I guess it fits my niche. Like I am the messenger no matter what the message is, it's regarding something, but I'm the just the bridge between spirit or source and US receiving the message. You know, I love that so much because I also relate to that. And I just followed you on TikTok earlier because when TikTok like first came out, I instantly like got 30,000 followers.
Like it was so easy. It was like first six months I had 30,000 followers and I did likes and like it would happen so quickly. And then I have been at 45,000 followers for fucking three years. Like I have the wall and there is like no regard. Like I have been at 1.9 million likes for three years. Like I don't know what but I will be honest when we talk about niches. Everyone who found me from TikTok back in the day found me because I was obsessed with the
twin flame journey. Oh my gosh, Oh my gosh, don't get me started on that. Yes, Oh my gosh, let's. Go cuz I can totally say that I was under a spiritual psychosis. I'm going to be honest is a person that came into my life that like Long story short, I'm not going to say who it is because like they are famous, but like I was going to their show, quote UN quote, never saw this artist a day in my fucking
life. I'm going to their concert and I see them in traffic at a stoplight in trouble, and I look over and I look at my friend and I'm. Like, Oh my gosh. Do you see this person? And they're like, yes. And like they see me and I see them and they knew who I was like was from social media. And so they just kind of like waved to like follow them. And so I followed them and then next thing you know, I'm in VIP with them on the stage at the concert. So like Long story short, I thought that.
Was my gosh. I thought that motherfucker was my twin flame. Like the story like is deeper than that, but that's just like the surface of it. So like the spiritual psychosis that I was in was also really inspirational too. Like it really helped elevate my gifts because we do have a telepathic connection. Like we what we did, we do whatever you want to say, but you know what I mean? Like, yeah, we're just like, this person is really toxic for me.
That's my twin. So I'm like, no, this person actually elevated me in a way that was like spiritual. We never had physical sex or like contact, but it was like really flirtatious, really connected, really just like odd occurrences. And so I just thought that was my twin flame. Like I still to this day know there is a spiritual tie there. I just have like moved that programming I guess or that illusion, you know what I mean of the twin flame thing. But I would love to hear your
take on it like I would. I love it. Yeah. So I completely understand where you're coming from because I used to think about that as well. Like if I align with a certain person in many different aspects, I'm like Oh my God they're my twin, they're my shadow aspect or whatever the
fuck. And I became obsessed with either elevating myself enough to be able to have union with them or recently I started talking to another friend that believes that your twin flame changes as you elevate her belief is that at the moment you're in, you're registering with the twin flame right now, but when you grow spiritually, you're going to tap into a completely different twin flame because we're always changing timelines. So because of that, I don't even know what to believe, to be
honest. And it I just got to the point now where I'm like, I don't care who the fuck my twin flame is. I just my divine counterpart. So that's what I say now. I say I want divine union with whoever aligns with me at this moment. And if they reflect certain things to me that I need to heal within myself, I'll work on that. And if we end up drifting apart,
that's fine. But I try not to become obsessed with being with someone specifically because then that's where the spiritual psychosis can come in. Or you are maybe blocking your union with somebody else. That might be even better. And as a tarot reader, like that happens a lot. There's people that are obsessed with knowing, is this person going to change? Are they ever going to change? Are we going to be together? And I'm like, bro, there's someone better.
But you are so stuck on this person. Yeah. So I try not to obsess with the whole Twin flame thing. I used to be, but not anymore. Now I just, I'm like, I just want my person. I don't give a fuck what you call them. I just want to be with a person that aligns with me. That's all I care about now. Can I just say that the tarot reader to twin flame to freedom pipeline is like really active
in both of our life. And you know, what I love about this is that that person that I was speaking on actually married someone who is a psychic and so like like the connection is wild as fuck. But you know what I've like really recently found very intriguing the identity swapping terminology. Yeah. Like people like molding other people into you or, and, or
whatever. And I really do think that men mold women into a woman that they like fumble and or like wish they would have had kind of like just an example, pop culture example. I'm not a huge Taylor Swift fan or anything, but like that Travis Kelsey guy used to date an African American woman and had like swag and like had like macdaddy energy. And then now he's given like, let's go to Target and get Starbies and hug pods for Christmas. And Oh my gosh.
Energy, his aura, everything about him, his, his haircut, his beard, I mean, at multiple things. Like I do know that, you know, when you're with people, friends, partners, whoever the fuck you to be careful baby, because you are molding and shaping and forming. Just like when you have like something you say a lot and then other people around you pick up on that.
And I feel like it's definitely interesting how many people around me I feel like have tried to mold into me over the years or at like, Oh my. God. Have dated girls who like I feel like studying me on the side, like they have like a one-on-one. Girl, Oh my God. OK, I cannot tell you how many times a man has approached me and been like, Oh my God, I've been following your page. Or or let's say they don't follow me but they get to know me and how spiritual I am that
I'm a tarot reader. All this stuff. They start saying shit like I manifested you. I'm like, bro, you don't even fucking know how to manifest. You don't even fucking and have money and all of a sudden you're talking to me and I'm telling you that like I'm independent and all this stuff and suddenly you have goals to be independent to and have your own business all of a sudden when you never fucking did. And I'm like what the hell?
Cuz this is my full time job. Like I don't have a regular job. So they I guess they get inspired by that and then suddenly they have a goal to be a business owner. And I'm like not saying that it's because of me that suddenly they want to, but I mean it sure's house looks like it. And I'm like, what the fuck? Like I feel like I'm a stepping stone for them and they want to siphon my energy for that shit. Or like when they say I manifested you like I don't like
that shit. I think they think it's cute and they're like, oh, she's going to like me saying that, but I don't like that because now it makes me feel like you've been stalking me or something. And I'm like, no bro, like I'm not someone that you manifested. You were literally stalking me. But that or like I'll meet a guy that at first he'll make it seem like he doesn't like tarot or astrology, none of that stuff.
Like he'll think it's weird and then out of nowhere, he's into it now and he starts asking a bunch of questions. And that happened with my recent ex. When I first met him, he thought it was scary, quote UN quote scary that I did tarot and new astrology. And then when we broke up, after I found out he was cheating on me, he fucking tried doing a spell on me, a love spell to get me back. And I'm like, when I first met
him, he was never into that. And all all of a sudden now he wants to do a spell on me to get me back. Like get the fuck out of here with that. You know, crazy about men is cuz like they really have manipulated women and siphon their energy for centuries. And one of my most redeeming qualities is that I am here to be for the girl ancestors, like for the women, for the police,
for the fuck everyone else. Like honestly my ranking of like what I care about is like animals and children at the top. With. Women right there, swift under it. Then we're talking like plants, trees before we get to men. I'm serious, like I am so happy when I'm not trying to actively date.
It's crazy. And honestly, the spiritual awareness that being awakened or, or finding yourself or your gifts or whatever is having like recollection where you personally were taking blame or guilt or shame on from literally having sex with these people. And that's what's crazy about it. The amount I used to hate myself when I had active sex with random people. Not, and I don't even mean it as in like random, I just mean not
my husband, right? Like not not my forever, like whatever And so. Casual sex, right? Casual, right. Exactly. Because I never really just hooked up with random people. I had like my handful of of people over the years that were like, you know, comfort zone people. Yeah. You know what's wild about it is like the celibacy journeys that I've also been on. I love talking about it because I just want to like I want to break the stigma around miscarriage because miscarriages
are divine protection and even. Oh my God. Actively want a baby y'all. It is divine protection it. Is Oh my gosh. And so like the protection that I have felt like I was celibate for years, had sex once, got pregnant, had a miscarriage, the anniversaries in a few days. Oh my gosh. Redeeming. Yes. Girl we have the same fucking life. What the fuck? Oh my God. Gosh, I cannot. Yes. We're on the same I'm. Sorry if I interrupted, but yes. Are we twin flames? I'm like. Shit, probably.
No. I promise you. I went through a bad breakup years ago and I was celibate for one year and then, but I was single for three years, for three of those years. So I was having casual sex at first then I was celibate and then I met this guy that told me he had been following my old TikTok because I had another TikTok where I would post like gym stuff like working out and
stuff. So he told me he saw my TikTok a long time ago and that he's been manifesting me ever since he saw me. And all of a sudden I started going to his gym because I I switched gyms. I never met the guy. OK I just decided to switch gyms. One day he came up to me and told me hey I know you from TikTok and that's what hooked me. I'm like, Oh my God, how romantic. I'm meeting this guy out of nowhere after I went to this gym and we hooked up like a few times and I got pregnant immediately.
Immediately, like within a month and he switched up like night and day after that he wanted nothing to do with me. He was, I want to say like a literal demon because he did not align with any of my values and it's my fault for having sex with him right and not getting to know him so I take accountability for that. But at the moment I was just so googly eyed about him manifesting me supposedly that I overlooked a bunch of shit and he's a legit fucking demon.
Like I can go into it about him, but I got pregnant and I was crying one day. I was crying so hard. And I'm not super religious, but I do believe in God, OK? I do believe in God and Jesus, but I'm not, I don't follow a religion. And I was on my knees praying to God. Like if you take this baby from me, I will be so grateful because I cannot do it. I'm all for abortion. I'm all for your body, your
choice. But the moment I found out I was pregnant, I don't know how to explain it, I felt an instant connection to that that fetus, even though it was never fully formed. I just felt a connection. I cannot explain it unless you've ever been pregnant, you'll understand. But I felt so much love for this thing even though it was informed. And I'm like, why do I love it so much? Why do I care so much about it? And I could not go get the abortion done. I couldn't.
I couldn't do it. So I prayed to God, please take this from me if it's not meant to be. And literally the next day I started bleeding and I went to the doctor and they told me you're having a miscarriage. So if that's not divine protection I don't know what the fuck is. It was insane. It was insane. So that was my first and last pregnant ever pregnancy ever. But I told him you fucking ruined my whole experience of that shit. Like what the fuck is wrong with you?
And I blocked him, never heard from him again. But I was so mad at myself. You know, we are living in the same reality girlfriend. Like no wonder I was like scrolling Instagram and you popped up on my explorer. I didn't I never saw your TikTok till today. I'm not like one of those people that give a fuck about people's following like you could have 10 followers. I just thought you were cute. Your energy was cool. You were talking in the comments like you weren't stuck up.
I could tell and like a lot of people are just weird on the Internet. But I really do feel like we're here to talk about this right now because the stigma around miscarriage is so heavy and the women hold on to and the shame that people put on to them about wanting to be a mother, not wanting to be a mother XYZ. And but similar, very similar situation that you're talking about, except the fact that like, this guy was someone that I dated when we were young, like
teenagers. He's just been like that one person who, and I'm not going to lie, like I'm not going to front on him like that one person who can hit the spot even though morals and values have never aligned since we became adults, right? Like at most of this man's adult life, he does not have a car. He just moves in and out of like being a straight bum. You know what I mean? And I have, I have everything going for me. So yes, like I was dumbing myself down.
But it's more of like, you know how it is like the disappointment to have sex with someone new And it's awful, like, or the right like, so it's just one person that every few years, like hits the spot real quick. You know, that trend that's going around about getting cracked. Like, yeah, Boo. Like sometimes, like I've been celibate for years at this
point. And so Long story short, it was 4th of July like a holiday and I drank and I'd hardly ever drink because every time I drink bad things happen. I instantly the moment that it happened like the next day, maybe like 3 days later I was at the gym and I was like you're fucking pregnant. And then I was like, no, you're not. And then I was trying to like be in my own head about it. So I just instantly knew.
And it's funny because the gym was like where I had that realization and then that likes aligns with your story. So then I'm like, fuck. And so then, and what's crazy about it is like what the reason this all happened is my mom came to town and she wanted to see him and me and him had kind of been texting. So it was kind of inevitable that that like one time was going to happen. But my mom kind of amplified it by making the wish that she had a grandchild while he was in the presence.
He I don't think necessarily wish that I was having a grandchild with him. I think the interaction of me with a man that she hasn't seen me with anyone in a while just gave her that epiphany of like, I really want a grandchild. And she put that out there with her witchy fucking chaotic. My mom would be a chaos witch if she, if she actually channeled her magic. My mom would be scary if she could actually harness her magic for real.
Cuz yeah, he does not play. So I know she put that out there and she openly admitted it after it happened that she did like make that wish in her head. She didn't like wish, but she didn't like wish it. So then I just instantly knew I was pregnant and what was crazy, it was the Cancer full moon or the can't. It was a Cancer season and it was a full moon. I'm sorry. It was season in a full moon. And so like there was so much like when I look back at the astrology of it, I was like, no
fucking wonder this happened. But it was really wild because whenever, whenever it happened, I wasn't even going to tell him because he's just such a child. I didn't expect him to give a fuck really. And then I told him and then he became like attached at the waist. He was like about to change his whole life. This man's ready to like do a 360. And I was shocked. I was like, this is a different person. I'm so shocked. You can tell he really wanted this baby.
And like he has so much trauma. Like his mom was a drug addict. She died, his dad abandoned him and that's about it. Like, and his grandma took care of him and she embezzled money from her business, from a business that she worked for and basically. Lost everything.
So like what he lives in is a fucked up situation and like the moral of the story is he's complacent in that situation and made the wrong decision by allowing someone who like doesn't even have a pot of piss and coming into my life. But it's like that comfort zone, like that safety of like when you date someone as a teenager, your fucking brain chemistry changes for them, period, period.
Yep, and depending on what childhood traumas you have going on at the moment, like you're going to seek out that comfort, like you said, in a partner. Yeah, even into adulthood it that shit never ends until you do the shadow work. It's never going to end. It's a completely ongoing cycle for the rest of your life, meeting the same kind of people in different bodies until you fucking tackle what's really going on. Where's the root of this?
Yeah. And, you know, it's crazy that, like, it was such a healing experience because like, once I started, once I had the miscarriage, he just ghosted me. Like, never spoke to me ever again. And then on the due date of our fucking imaginary child, he texted me. He texted me, but then he unsent the text message. I didn't even see it. And favorite part about this is that it used to kind of be like a revolving door that probably, like would have never end.
But what it was weird is like after we had rekindled before we got pregnant, I kind of made the statement that like this between him and me was super limited and that like I was going to find my husband really soon. So like this would probably be one of the last times. And then I was pregnant. And then when I was pregnant, he did like such a 360 and I really kind of like saw a new version of him in a way.
But then the moment that he ghosted me after a miscarriage, like we could have just went back to being friends. We could have just been like, wow, that was close call. Like that was scary. Obviously we're not going to date. We weren't going to date before this. We were going to try to date because of this. But you know, like I'm, I'm down
to earth. Maybe I don't want to, I don't want to carry a man, trust me. But at this point, spirit literally saved me from two children because he would have been a child. Like it would have been. Have you ever seen that movie with Drew Barrymore? It's called Riding in Cars with Boys. Oh no, I haven't. Oh my gosh, I haven't. What is it about? I'll just like flashback, it's like kind of centered in like the 90s vibe and she gets pregnant in high school basically by this like a loser
dude. So then like the whole movie is like based around him like drunk as fuck, just like doing way too fucking much, basically traumatizing their kid, traumatizing her son. And then like at the end of the movie, she basically became like a famous author and she wrote a book about her life and he was the guy, what, we'll just call him Gary. I can't remember his name in the movie, Dave or whatever the fuck his name was. He basically was in the book so much because he was kind of a
main character of the book. He had to sign off on some release papers. And like, she pulls up to his trailer at the end of the movie and he's like drunk as fuck, like belly out, like wife beat her dirty, like stained gross. And I had this body that that could have that would have ended up being my life. That would have been our life. Like that would have been my son. Fuck yeah, I know. It's fucked up so.
Hell no. Hell no. I. Feel so blessed every day that I'm child free and happy and don't have dragging me down. I'm like, I can go another year without sex, straight up. Oh it's easy to be celibate. It is the easiest fucking shit to do. Like yes you'll get little urges but when you think about like if it's worth breaking your celibacy, it's not no. And you can easily use a toy and get rid of that urge like in a minute. I wouldn't want the whole toy. Drawer like I have the whole
drawer now. So. Yeah, this toy in my life, I'm just completely over the what are you doing? How have you been in, etcetera, etcetera. Like if you, like you said at the beginning of the episode, if you don't want to talk about like aliens and conspiracy theories and like the people who act like, oh, you have a podcast that's cool. But like have never listened to it.
And I say this all the time, like if you're a man and you think you're going to pursue me and you cannot even reference one thing I'm actually doing that I'm passionate about that I give a fuck about that. It's only centered around like my body or something like that. Then like fuck and earlier I think I don't know what I said but it's I think I said lustful men disgust me on threat. Oh my God, same they do. They just so gross. Oh my God, talking about that
it's so weird. So you know the Nike slogan it's just do it or something like that. So I was at Walmart 2 days ago or yesterday and I saw a person wearing a shirt that said just do it. But it was like the way I was viewing it was kind of cut off. So the word just looks like lust and that's all I saw.
So I get little images like that, like throughout my day or like downloads or like signs that are gonna tell me what's coming up. It's so weird because shortly after that, I get in line and this fucking guy, he's, he's has a cart and he has his little daughter in the like sitting in the front and she's probably like 3 years old. And he's looking at me, 'cause I, he caught my attention and he's looking at my body. He's not even looking at my face. And he goes, excuse me?
Oh my God, you look so good. And he's looking straight at my ass while he's telling me this. And he goes, you have a boyfriend while he's looking at my ass. And I'm like, looking at him in disgust. And I'm like, I'll like, he's literally lusting over me in front of his daughter. So he's like, you have a boyfriend and I'm like, is that your daughter? That was the first thing I said. And he goes, oh, yeah, this is my baby girl, blah, blah, blah. Like talking sweet about her.
And I'm like, cute. I was like, yeah, I don't date guys with kids. And then he's like, what? And I'm like, yeah, I don't have kids, so I don't date guys with kids. And I just looked at him up and down in disgust because he was lusting after me. And that shit pissed me off. And not just that, but like, your daughter's right there in front of you and she's only a baby, of course she's not gonna remember this. But you're setting the tone for how you're gonna act or show her
what men are like. And I did not like that shit at all. It was disgusting. But yeah, that shit pissed me off. Yeah, no, that's crazy because I actually the other day, like I had to set this dude straight in my inbox because I just get so sick of men in my inbox. Like, it's tender, like accepted friend request is not a Tinder match. You know what I mean? Like, I'm not on a dating app,
like whatever. So he basically messaged me and wanted to bond over the fact that he used to work with one of my exes. And I was like, and I was like, I'm not sure if I would know you. And he just kept like insinuating or like, you know, and what do you say? He just kept being like, no, we definitely met. And I'm just like, OK, might have like, OK, what do you mean like anything? Well, I'll just get to the point. Maybe we could go have drinks and dinner sometime, etcetera.
And then said something about working a lot. And he's been really busy with like all this stuff. And he named all this like extracurricular activities. And so I wrote back and I said dinner sounds nice and I appreciate the offer, but if you work that much and have that much going on, I highly doubt you have the energy or time for what I'm looking for because I'm not looking for something casual. So I'll have to pass on your offer. Appreciate you, though.
Yeah. And then started back and was like, well, I'm not going to be working as much coming up. OK, not convincing. All of a sudden, don't. Give a fuck. It's so annoying. I I totally get you because well, I do readings, right? And I get a bunch of messages every day asking me what my prices are, what do I offer, a bunch of stuff. And what pisses me off the most is men will message me and they'll ask me, oh, how much do you charge for reading about my ex? This happened to me the other
day. This guy was asking me about his ex if I do love spells, so I can do a love spell on her to get her back. And he was just talking to me about my ex and I mean his ex. So I got to the point where I'm like, look, if you're truly interested, go to my site in my
bio and you can book. Like I'm not going to keep having this conversation back and forth about what Ioffer and what I don't offer because I feel like he was just want to talk to me. So I cut it off like at that and then like 2 days later he messages me like hey so do you have a boyfriend? So I know I knew it. I'm like what the fuck I fucking knew it.
He was just messaging me prior to that just to talk nonsense, but then he asked me if I have a boyfriend when he was literally asking me about doing a spell on his ex. I'm like what the fuck is that? And I get that a lot. Like men will want to book and then they just want to conversate or they want to talk to me on Instagram messages. I'm like this is not a fucking dating site.
So I fucking posted a picture recently and I pinned that shit to my profile pretty much saying if you message me romantically I ain't going to fucking write back because this page is a business page for the girls and the gays only and the spiritually connected men. If not, fuck off because I'm tired of it. You know, I love that so fucking much. I have so many things I want to say, like so many topics. I feel like we could talk for a
while. So what I wanted to say about the first thing men, I don't know what it is about a man that will book a reading, but then think that that entitles them to a follow up session at any given moment. The I've had men who are married, I mean just men on far left field. Like not even men that I don't even think are necessarily trying to sleep with me that book readings and appreciate it. And my prices have like, you
know, evolved over time. But at the same time, like this happened when my prices were cheap too. So it's like moral of the story is they'll book a reading and it's like they don't see the initial value in it, but they book it anyways. And then they love it, but they don't want to admit they love it. So then they act like they need like more clarification later. Like you watch my reading and you mentioned birds.
So like if this person's listening down the road and you hear this, I will just say that I thought this was a pretty self-explanatory. So I'm using it as an example, not being a hater, but in the reading it said that this person's ancestor was going to use birds to get their attention. Not was the most beautiful owl that I've ever fucking seen hanging out in their backyard in
a residential neighborhood. They had a whole less bird fly in their house and their wife called them and was like, bro, there's a bird in the house and what the fuck do you mean it's in the house? And they were like here. And then literally there's a video the bird was flying in their vaulted ceiling in their home. So like, I just feel like those were like there was no more to
explain. The fact that you're messaging me for further clarification kind of just sent me off the wire because like I predicted that. And now it's came in multiple occurrences that are just way too far fetched to be a coincidence in in even a non believer's eyes, right? Like I mean this, I've never even seen an owl like this in my own with my own eyes. I don't think it was one of those furry majestic ones like the ones that are like from Canada. Like I don't know where it came from.
It was not, it was not from Kentucky. I've never seen this in my life. So moral of the story is it's like, I don't know if men just think that it like comes with an extra side of fries for life or like bottomless fries. But I've also had men do the same shit and recently one of them kind of like out of themselves and it's like they they watch me from a burner profile is what it is like. Or yeah, one of those men that like, maybe doesn't really use
social media. And I know he's like an older guy because there's only been a handful of like older guys that have booked over the years for like a video reading. But the other day one of them messaged me and they said a few years ago, I booked a reading with you just so I can look at your face. And I was like, great. And then oh. Hell no. Whenever I send guys my website it is like radio silence.
Like I think people think that I want to read them but what's crazy is I've been so uninterested in men. I have not asked a man for his birth time in like 3 years at all. Like at all? No. I know exactly what you mean. That's why when I do readings I just do by phone call because that has happened to me before as well. Men will book and they ask me, can I FaceTime you instead? Or is there like a video option? And I'm like, I don't need to be on video to read your energy, Sir.
Like this is I'm good, I'm fine. He's like, well, what if I want to look at the cards and I'm like, I can send you a picture of the cards afterwards if you want. Hell no. I don't want them to be lusting out over me to video. Hell no. Well at this point my price for a one hour video is $300.00 so y'all can book right now. I do have code 50 off you know but like at the end of the day like I'm not playing with these
motherfuckers. Like if you want to pay, I used to do intro like one hour new client reading. So if you had never booked with me or you was your first time and it was $111.00 and literally that price point, because that points I had went viral and I had went on to podcasts that made me go even more viral and things like that over the years. And at that price point, at one point I got booked out for six months and it was, it was dramatic girl like it was.
My God. I came down with like the worst fucking flu and like spiritual flu and just like just burnout that you've ever had. And that happened in like February of this year. And I had to take a full step back. Like I had to literally like take every service off my website and completely take a
full step back. So it was just like, it was one of those like be careful what you wish for and also like yourself accordingly because that price point really opened it the floodgates for like anyone and everyone. And even like at that, like people don't realize what I can do in an hour. Like I can talk for fucking days. And I'm saying videos with like all the signs and all the things. And like a lot of people can't channel like that.
Like they've lost the technique. And I think that making videos like you do, and that's what I used to do as well. It is really great practice and it's really good for the collective, but I got burned out on the collective too because their energy can be so in like fear dense like BS programs and like Yep, I really excelled away from those programs. It's really hard to just jump back in for free all the time. So I had to like I've just completely quit doing all of it.
I know exactly what you mean. It's because when you're reading people's energy, if you're truly tapped in, it could be draining. And then if you don't protect yourself enough or you don't set boundaries, my mentor, mentor calls it spiritual boundaries. You're going to get burnt out. And then what was your passion becomes more like a chore At one point, you know, it feels like, damn, I don't want to go to work to my 9:00 to 5:00 or whatever.
In this case, it's Terrell. Whatever you're doing spiritually, it it gets draining and you have to set those boundaries and you have to tell certain people, you know what? No. Like I for whatever reason, I'm getting told that I cannot do a reading for you. And I'm sorry. Maybe there's someone out there better for you. Yeah, I've got and I'll get that. I'll get downloads like that. Like people will message me like for a reading.
And it's just something about them that tells me no, don't do it. And I won't. And those are the boundaries that I set for myself. And I have to increase my prices too. I know exactly what you mean because the cheaper you're pricing anyone has access to your energy and not everyone is good energy or. The residue that like is leftover, yeah, like spiritual burnout is like it's long lasting and it took me a minute to recalibrate myself.
But now also like want to just add cuz the listeners we're kind of later in the season. So I'm just going to spill the tea a little bit. The whole Gemini thing was a shit show, y'all. So she just completely fell off the face of the earth. And I was taking on the brunt of that responsibility for like months to keep the podcast floating. You know, we're in season 4 and we're doing freaking 2 episodes a month, which is bullshit.
That's just fucking if you don't got time to sit down and talk for an hour or two a week, why do you even have a podcast? That's why we because it was effortless and I mean you were you're a stranger, like you know what I mean? Like we just met kind of thing and you can take time for me. So it's like it was just way left field, way caught off guard. So I was taking on the emotional
labor of that as well. So I like when I took a step back from my business in February, I also was being drained by we came back with the podcast like at the beginning of January and by the end of February when I was getting sick and was like super burned out, it was a fucking mess already. But like, you can't just abruptly end a season with like a few episodes. So I was thinking like, you know, I'm going to give give her grace and all that and like, try
to let it work itself out. But it just kept getting like worse and worse and worse. And with that being said, like I was taking on so much emotional labor and like had really poured my heart and soul into this project as well as my business. And both of them was feeling like work. And the only thing that wasn't feeling like work that I was actually enjoying was my 9:00 to 5:00.
The only thing that all of us and like actually like I've said a million times, I would never want to put all the pressure on my gifts because I am a control freak and I like to have things like already in motion like health insurance, don't have to think about it different things like I need that in motion to feel safe because I'm a Taurus or I can't. Oh my God, me too, I'm a Taurus. We're living the same split reality. Look the Mandela Effect together. We are coming.
I love. It. Are you an April or a May Taurus? May I was born May 4th, May 3rd. Worst day? Yeah, mines May 13th. Nice. Yes. So I definitely relate because as Tauruses, we're detail oriented. So whenever we take on a project, even just mentally, like, hey, I'm going to work on this podcast or whatever, we're already burning ourselves out without even starting because we're already thinking of all the insurance and outs, the logistics of when you're going to do it and like it.
We stress out just from that alone. We're perfectionists, and that's where procrastination comes in, because you get so burned out just by the thought of it that you just want to avoid it completely. Yeah. So yeah, I guess you. Like not cool about it is like the audience was like catching on that like my energy was off on the podcast and like other energy was off on the podcast. And like, I'm not talking shit.
I'm just being realistic. Like she left everyone hanging like completely emotionally detached from the platform and from the conversation. And it just was like we were talking to a completely new person. Because I've had so many people be like, girl season 1 through 3 fire season 4. Who the fuck was that? They're like, who the fuck was that?
And you know, I'm still like sending her love and peace because like, there ain't no way anyone who's ever wronged me is going to do better in any fucking way. Like, you know, like I don't compete and I do not give a fuck. And at the end of the day, like, get out of my way. Just get off, get out of my way. Like send you love, send you peace, but just get out of my
way. So, you know, knowing that like sitting down with you is like already months and months into the podcast, but we're recording it, you know, and like, no one even knows when we recorded it. It's such a blind space because like now I can just like really vibe with new people and build new bonds and friendships because it's my Internet like friendships and I like growing my community.
But I will tell you, between me and Gemini's communities coming together, we've had more snakes in the grass, more identity swappers, fucking just straight fucking energy vampires, fucking demons, fucking succubuses. We've had it all. Like we have literally the craziest thing is like had people people like bring themselves to our cities, both of us just separately and like create like a girl gang of like a group of people come and visit and it's a hot mess shit show.
And the whole time the universe is like this is not in alignment. You know what I mean? Like, I don't know, it's like it's weird, but I also feel like she and I had a lot of things where I don't have boundaries as far as like telling someone like, no, you're stealing my idea. Like no, that's my idea. No, all those things you keep doing, I already did those and I
don't like taking my idea. So I feel like for a while she was kind of like I did any swapping with me and then scamming people at the end of the day. And and like, this is public knowledge. So, you know, I feel at this rate, I have awakened so much more by connecting with new people like you because everyone's energy brings something new in where I can once again see that it wasn't me. Like it wasn't me doing exactly. I was just like a innocent
bystander to the shit show. And I was like trying to like calm everything down. And I gave people like Grace and I've given people plenty of space, but like, straight up just disrespecting people's time gets old. And whether it's a client, a partner, a friend, a business situation like disrespecting people's time is not fucking cool. Yep, definitely.
And like you said, you guys built an audience, and for her to just ghost everyone like that, it's kind of like a slap in the face to your audience because it's like, we've been here for you guys and you just leave. Like, you just shut the door on us. Like we don't matter because she got her recognition through the audience. And it's like she's just completely disregarding them. So I don't like that. Yeah, you know, that's very disrespectful.
And you know so many people have DM me over the last six months like where the fuck did she go because she's been Mia on social media. Like who builds A TikTok? The outside energy you don't even know who the fuck she is. Builds A TikTok of like 200 K followers from the ground up. Has multiple podcasts, a full business, a full Patreon is generating thousands of dollars a month and just walks away from everything. Yep, who does Yep, where like
what the fuck is going on? And so like it's been shocking for everyone because I, you know, I understand someone maybe wanting to walk away from a project, but I would never let something like that come between me and someone that I cared about, you know, But here recently, what I've learned and what I've been seeing, and maybe you've been seeing this is a lot of people are like secretly in competition and they know they're losing because they have not been putting in that inner
spiritual work. And I really do feel like the spiritual people, and I've said this a bunch, I have like an Oracle deck I made that I put this in when you have pure intentions, like you can't lose, like period. I said it five years ago, I'll say it again, like when you have pure intentions, you can't lose no matter if it looks like I'm moving slower or getting a set back or having a falling out, it's actually building me up forward.
And so, you know, I really love that like taking over this project and how like it's bringing in new energies and like, instead of just the same old shit because I do feel like we are a product of like the three closest people to us. Oh fuck yeah, I completely agree with that. Yeah. And as I've gone through my spiritual journey, I've shed a lot of people situations and I've gained new a new tribe and my closest two friends that I have right now we're exactly the same on a spiritual level.
I call them my mentors because they teach me certain things that I didn't know and I teach them certain things that they didn't know. I have the following on the TikTok and I'm teaching them how to post videos, how to edit them. And they teach me stuff about like esoteric wisdom, like stuff that I still have to learn about. So it's great. And, and it shows you a little snippet of where you're headed. You know, like we've been saying throughout this episode, like,
what the hell? We're living the same fucking life. It's so crazy. And you're literally showing me what I can expect in my future because literally everything you're doing and what you've gone through, I've already gone through. Or I, I've already envisioned it because I've envisioned myself having a podcast and an Oracle deck like you just said. I'm like, holy shit. I'm literally working on one
right now. And I'm glad you're not gonna put this out till later cuz I'll, I probably won't put it out till later. So hopefully by the time this is out, let's press out. That's so perfect. You know, I I made multiple Oracle decks I made so crazy. You know what's crazy about your TikTok name? My first Oracle deck's called You are the Oracle and green and it's clearly like, you know, sold out like I only fuck. Yes. Then the second.
I love that. Was called Light as a Feather and that was my higher self deck and I loved it. It was baby blue, had wings on the front with stars. And then I designed it all, designed all the covers. I did everything by hand. And then my other one was called the Divine Intervention Oracle, and it's like red. And actually I had a few leftover and I sent one to Alex Serves. She was the very first guest on the podcast this season and she just tagged me in like a post.
She has millions of followers on TikTok, a lot of conspiracy stuff. But what's funny is like we're talking about divine timing. And on her episode, like years ago, I had asked her to come onto the podcast and she was like, no. And then the moment Jim and I was gone, she was like, hell yeah, turn up, I'll be on. And then we did a 2 hour interview and it was so good. But I sent her a couple decks and I did send her that Oracle deck. But yeah, making an Oracle deck
was so much fun. And honestly, my original deck would blow up and go viral on TikTok because no one could see those cards anywhere else. And what I loved about TikTok at that time is it wasn't super saturated. You know, they say now with the Internet, there's like millions of videos being uploaded every 5 minutes. Whereas like five years ago, there really wasn't millions of videos quote UN quote being uploaded. Maybe photos, but not necessarily videos.
And so we think the way that we communicate changes and like my problem is like, I like to make like record things, but I don't like to edit them or I don't even want to share them. Like I'll record things and then not share it. I don't know, I'm weird. Like I used to want to share everything, but I've went into like this hermit, like reserving my energy mode. And like now the clients that book me are like super aligned. I'm not drained at all.
I'm not like sold out either. And that's what I like. Like I don't want to be sold out. I don't want to like constantly just be at service for people, you know, But I've had a lot of clients like reach out from like all over the world ever since I've like kind of dialed back my energy. So it's like my reach is further all of a sudden, but I'm not touching as many people at the same time. It's because not everyone deserves your energy or they're not even ready for it.
Even if you reach millions of people all the time, if they come to you, what if they're not even ready for whatever lesson you're about to give them or knowledge whatever, They're not going to take it. So whoever's aligned with you at the moment will find you at whatever price you're giving your readings for, because they're connected to your energy and that's all that matters. Yeah, I was looking at your
services earlier. So tell me about your removal spell work, because that's originally how I found you. You were talking about attachments coming through, doing spell work for other people and entities trying to attach to you or trying to stop you from removing them.
And I, I was on your website earlier and I saw that you have like this big ritual and I opened it up and it like looks really in depth and you were like, I need a photo of your face and this and I can't perform this without these details and stuff. And I really like it. So tell me about that. How did you get into doing the removals? What is like so special about that? Like tell us more. OK so the video that you're referring to was about a cord cutting spell so I don't know what it is.
I've always been drawn to cord cutting spells. I'm all about self empowerment and letting go of what no longer serves you. I'm not the type that does love spells. No offense to witches that do love spells, but I'm all about no fuck no. Let that guy go or let that girl go and move the fuck on. How about that? How about you learn the lesson? Integrate and move the fuck on from the person that does not serve you. Like hell no. So I'm all about that. So I do a lot of cord cutting
spells. That's like my specialty, but I did one in particular and I do protection work before anything. But for some reason I felt a very heavy energy from this client. And as I'm doing her cord cutting, I'm getting like pain in my shoulder blade and I'm shivering and I'm getting a headache and I'm like, what the heck is happening here? And it was late. It was like 1 in the morning, 2:00 in the morning when I was doing her cord cutting. And I texted her and I said,
hey, you're probably asleep. It's really late. But just so you know, I'm feeling these physical symptoms while doing your cord cutting. So just be aware you might feel it too. And she texted me like at 3-4 in the morning, but by that time I was already done with her spell and I was in bed and I woke up at exactly 3 in the morning to a burp. I I burped myself awake and I'm like what the fuck? And I felt a presence and I just felt a heavy energy and I'm like, I think I absorbed
something from this lady. Like she probably had a demonic attachment to her from her ex and it was probably some kind of like a parasite type of demon. I'm I don't know much about demons right now. I'm still studying it but I'm assuming it was a parasite. And when I woke up I checked my phone and she had texted me and she said, hey, I just saw your text. I woke up to a bunch of pain in my shoulder blade and I told her, yes, I feel a presence.
I don't know what the fuck I removed during your cord cutting, but that was not the point of that. The point of the cord cutting was to sever her cord with her ex. I didn't think there was no demon attached, none of that. And I felt so exhausted and so did she. She told me, you know what? I can't sleep. I feel like a bunch of pain. I feel like there's a presence in my room right now not wanting
to leave. I feel like something's angry at me. And I'm like, I think we triggered whatever the fuck your ex had that latched onto you. I think that energy is angry that we're removing it. So my mentor, my friend, she knows more about demons. And she told me like, yeah, we're probably going to have to do an extraction. And I said, what's that? And she told me that's a shamanic technique where people go into your energy field and they extract with their mind or
with their energy. Witchcraft, demonic entities, karmic soul contracts, a bunch of stuff. She said the cord cutting probably wasn't fully successful. You're going to have to go in deeper and remove whatever that was. So she taught me how to do that because she actually paid for a mentor of her own to teach her how to do those techniques. But since she's my friend, she was teaching me how to do it. So I learned from her. And so I kept working with that
client on doing that. And I didn't have that listed on my site yet as a service. So I practiced on her. I said, hey, I just learned about this new technique. I'm gonna try it on you, but I won't charge you. I just want to see if I'm successful or not. And I was. And I'm like, holy shit, I'm actually powerful. That's when I first realized how powerful I am. And people in the comments are like Oh my God you didn't protect yourself, you didn't do
it right blah blah blah. And it's like it's not about that. There's deeper shit that y'all don't understand that even with protection you cannot bypass that shit. And I've learned that that experience happened to lead me to doing extractions. Nothing is coincidence. People may call me, you know, an experience that I didn't protect myself, whatever the fuck. But at the end of the day, had I never experienced that, I would have never had that listed as a service on my site.
And that has never happened ever again. I've never had an attachment to me ever again after that. I think that had to happen as a lesson for me for to realize how powerful I am. So I I still didn't add it on my site at that moment. I kept practicing on other people and on myself and I started realizing, damn, like this actually works. I'm actually doing it correctly
and I was tweaking my technique. And it's all you believing in yourself, going into a meditative state and knowing that nothing can attach to you and just protecting yourself, knowing about the chakras, knowing what you're doing. And now I added it to my site. And yes, I need a picture because I'm able to tap into their energy better. I don't need a picture or to see your face when I do a reading. But for whatever reason for this ritual, I do need it.
I think cuz the eyes are the windows to the soul. Like, I do need to see you and be able to know these things. And I've had amazing results from clients. They've told me, like after I do the ritual, they feel a sudden relief either physically or emotionally. They'll cry suddenly. But what it entails is you go in energetically into a person's energy, their chakra system. So I do a chakra scan. So I look at every single chakra to see what blockages are present.
And then I asked my guides to take me to any past lives or any events that happened in this life that triggered that blockage or that repeating cycle or whatever it is, the trauma, whatever. And I kid you not, I'll see literal visions in my head play out of what they went through that caused that pain or suffering. And I literally, I don't know how else to explain it but I feel like I'm merging with their soul body when I'm in the
meditative state. I'm merging with my clients soul body with their permission and I'm like removing it from myself but I'm actually removing it from them in the process because I'm merged with them. I don't know how else to explain it other than that, and I can't. I can't really say how I got to that point other than just practicing because people are like, how do you know how to do that? I'm like, I don't know. I just see shit, it just happened. I don't know.
Like Reiki at all. I don't do Reiki. I would say that's kind of similar to Reiki because I'm looking at the chakras and removing stuff from them. But I don't physically do Reiki like in person to clients. It's all remote. I don't have people in front of me. I'm I'm just doing it with my mind. It's insane. I don't know how to explain what's going on, but that's what I do. No, I like that because I do
everything virtually as well. Yeah. Like what you're doing is kind of similar to like what I would be doing with like a banishment removal, like kind of type thing because like I'm doing a shock or clearing. Like I feel like depending on what I'm clearing, cleansing or banishing or what I'm doing, it's very similar to something like that, except that I personally don't feel like, I
don't know how to explain this. But I think that I was seeing too much as a kid and seeing too much that I was like, you know what? I don't need to see it, Just let me know. And now I just know everything. And I know that sounds fucked up, but I know you get it. Because like I feel a lot and I used to see a lot. I used to say that because you, whatever gift you're using, if you listen to the practitioner, they'll kind of tell you what
gift they're using. They'll be like, I see this, I feel this, I know this, I hear this, you know, like they're going to tell you what gift they're using. Confirmation from my my soul cat here. But I have a. Black cat too. Sorry, I have a cat. Too, but I. Have a black cat? He's a boy who. His name is Binks. Oh, this is Phoenix Brothers.
But yeah, no, I personally feel like spirituality has brought so much change into my life that like what I what worked for me a year ago or like five years ago or seven years ago. I don't necessarily like always do the same thing. Like I used to be into like manifesting money, money bowls this that. I don't ever do money magic anymore. I feel like I am the frequency, like I am the I am the magnet. Like I just always have money. Money just loves me like money just loves me so much.
We don't even have to have that conversation anymore. And so like our different things like that and like I was watching this video the other day and it was talking about like claiming the life you want to live. Like I claim my dream body, I claim my dream life, I claim my dream reality and like just setting authority. And that's something that I've been really big on.
So I knew that was like a mirrored message because sometimes, you know, we're all like once again repeating similar energies in our own way and transmuting it or transponding it in different ways that resonate with our own collective, our own following or people who are on our frequency and what you. Mentioned earlier at the beginning of the episode I forgot to even touch on.
I also believe that you have different twin flames at different frequencies because I believe that my original twin flame was a catalyst twin flame. We were both catalysts for each other. I, I feel like I rose to the occasion in ways that they were choosing not to. So I went to a different frequency. Nothing wrong with them, nothing wrong with me, but it was just like, I feel like I elevated to a different frequency beyond the grips of, of control or hyperphyxiation or needing to be
right or whatever. Cuz so many symbolic things happened over time that like, I know I was right. I know that that was a catalyst in my life and I don't give a fuck what else it was, you know, like I don't need a label. And so the surrender and the letting go that I was able to adapt and like cultivate from that experience is like timeless. And now it's like so hard. It's getting harder and harder for men to even get my attention, like because there's nothing about them that's
getting my attention at all. And it's it's crazy because I have always been a little boy crazy in my life, like especially when I was younger. And so, so like these last like really prom adult years of my life that I've just been like celibate and single is really interesting because I would never have dreamed that I would have made it to my 30s with like no children and no husband and no like, no oops. And like that second chance though, like what you said you
were praying for. And I also believe in God. I also believe in Jesus. I think Jesus was a martyr. And I also think they, I mean, I don't think I know he was not white. For everyone's listening, I'll say it again. Jesus was not Oh no, Jesus was a witch because I've. Seen him during a shrimp trip. Yeah. He's brown. I don't know if you just shrimp. Yeah, I don't know if you do shrooms or not, but it's crazy. And I'm sorry to interrupt, but I never believed in Jesus fully before.
I always questioned it because I consider myself agnostic. I question everything, right? I'm like, wait, why? Why? What's the root of this? And I've always been like, I don't know. I don't know if I believe in him. And I went on a trip one time and he literally came to me and since then I believe him 100%. I'm like he exists. I saw him with my own eyes. I don't care what people say I
believe in him. And we literally had a full blown conversation in my head telepathically on my trip and it was insane. And the reason I know he's real is because I don't know anything about the Bible. Well, now I do, but at the moment, I didn't know anything about the Bible or like, biblical figures. And a woman came to me during that same trip named Mary Magdalene, and I had no idea who she was. OK. So the next day when I was sober, I started going on a rabbit hole.
Who is this lady? And I knew I knew that that was no coincidence. I'm like, they're trying to show me that they're real. So I don't care what people think. Like I said, I don't practice religion, but I know Jesus Christ is real. So when people comment like oh Jesus loves you in my tarot videos, I'm like you don't even know. Like I know him shut the fuck up. Like you think you're offending me but.
The thing not plant medicine that really I encourage for every person it I don't think that it's something that everyone is ready for, but I do think there is a taboo or like a stigma around it that people just think they're going to have a bad trip. But I just want to pre warn you, your syllabus is like good trip, good trip, crazy dark night of the soul, cry your eyes out trip, cry a little bit, but still a good trip. Then you'll have another dark night. Then you'll go have some like
decent. You can like laugh and watch a funny movie. But like I do feel like not all trips are treated equally. And I personally over the years have like this like really like tripping alone because I just like being in my own energy and just not having to be like performative or be anything like now that I'm like so locked in with my spirit team and my, and like the ancestors, like I really trip like just so I can hang out and vibe in my own like space. And like, that's my favorite
place to be anyway. So I don't know, I think that plant medicine is not for everyone because not everyone's really ready to face their soul. And that's why I think like society in itself has kind of outlawed things that help us because if everyone took plant medicine and like really started to heal, I think that like, it would be like 95% of people quit their job on Monday or like whatever. Yep. You know, like, I don't know. I think so definitely what the machine would like blow up.
I always call this place the machine. Yep. No, you're absolutely right. I believe, In my opinion, people shouldn't do it until their frontal lobe is developed because it doesn't develop till you're 25 because you're still vulnerable. Prior to that, you're still growing. You haven't had enough life experience. And then even after that, after your frontal lobe is fully developed, have you done shadow work? Have you addressed certain karmic cycles within yourself
while sober? Have you done any healing work at all to any capacity? Because yeah, it can be extremely overwhelming. I remember on my trip, it was recent, it was barely this year, this past year. And I'm so blessed to be at the point where I'm at because I was
ready. But if I had taken shrooms like prior to that, hell no. I would probably go on a spiritual psychosis, so I think I was at a point in my life where I was fully ready for it. Yeah, Lord help me, because I just grew up around substance abuse. Like the first time I ever smoked weed, I was 11 years old. I had done mushrooms and like pills and all those things way before, like 16, like way before we really were in high school. We were doing everything. And back then they were really
like dirt rooms. But as of late, I actually got some like lab grown like shrooms that are like fucking crazy. And I did this trip and this was like my my latest trip. It was earlier in the year, but I've only tripped that one time this year. I hadn't tripped in a while. And honestly, I was kind of scared because I knew that it was like it was after the miscarriage, you know, it was like I knew there was going to be a lot of healing happening.
So I was nervous about it. But I got these chocolates that were like, you know, whatever. So like, OK, I'm going to take one chocolate. It probably won't be that big of a deal. Took this one chocolate. It was only 1g. But it's like those lab grown, those lab grown babies there. And I'm telling you, this thing sent me into a fucking a whirlwind, a tornado heaven. I went from every emotion to every layer of fucking crying. And then I was having a moment with Mother Earth.
You were talking about Jesus coming to you. Mother Earth came to me. And she, I get really upset about them, like cutting trees down and hurting animals and stuff. But she like is always reminding me that like, she's in control. And so she was like really emphasizing that she'll flip this, this fucking table over. She just kept telling me that like it was like a woman, like very aggressive woman with red hair was like, I will flip this whole fucking table over. You don't worry about it.
She kept telling me that I'm only here to raise the vibration of this planet. This is the plastic planet. She has another planet. They tell you there's not another one, but there is. This is the fake one. She kept telling me this is not the real one. She kept telling me like, quit worrying about the trees. She kept telling me. They're all over. And they keep saying that this is the only place that there's wood. I saw something the other day.
It was like NASA that Earth is the only place where would exist. It was the dumbest shit I ever read. Because how would they know? Like they don't know anything so.
My God. All this girl and this was like this was like peak of February. I'm telling you 2 weeks later we had astronomical and historical flooding where I live, historical flooding in. We had like 52 tornadoes touchdown of which several were very near me and one of them went into a neighborhood of someone I had done a a major return to center on SO. Oh my God.
Another one touched really close to my best friend's house, but she was OK. And Long story short, Mother Earth really was slipping the fucking table over. She Oh yeah, that's how close to home it was. Another friend of mine, it destroyed her complete warehouse office building. Her office where she sets every day, where her chair was. The roof caved in. So Long story short, like divine protection was everywhere because it hit at night in a business park.
When no one was at work and it demolished a daycare when there were no children there. So I was doing all these protection spells to protect our state, to protect our kids, to protect everyone. And it worked. And then I was like, damn, she was not playing. Then next thing you know, there's a massive flood. My hometown gets flood. I don't know why the people from my hometown continue to move back after it gets flooded every
five years, but they do that. So they all move back now, but for like six months they've had to rebuild back. Like this all just happened. Like she was not playing. And that's just in where I live, let alone what happened in the United States elsewhere where all the fires and all the other things. So she really was not fucking playing. And then she was like, she kept yelling at me and telling me that all's I need to do is raise the vibration of this planet. She does not give a fuck about
anything else. Like, that's all I need to focus on. She's like, don't you think about this? Don't think about this. Don't think about that. She's like, that's not what you came here to do. Like, that's not your responsibility. Like she was so serious. And then next thing you know, there's historical flooding everywhere. Like I'm like, oh. I fucking love it. And then you're you're a Taurus
and it makes so much sense. I didn't have an experience like that but during my trip I did to eat some cacao like natural cacao. So I felt her energy too during my trip, but not to your level like I was not. Talking to her, I mean, this was like, I mean, I've had so many layers of life of experiences, but this was one of the ones that was like super intense. And then I kept hearing from
spirit during that trip. I kept hearing that I was a Spice Girl. I kept hearing this Spice Girl, Spice Girl. So then I wake up the next morning and one of my best friends sent me all kinds of Spice Girl videos. And then like a week later they announced that they're going to do a reunion tour. And I like, it's that I was like, Oh my God, Oh no. They literally announced it like in March and this is like it so. Who? Who came into my mind a lot during my trip? Fucking Kanye West.
I'm like, why? Yeah, Kanye West. Well, you are. Yeah, and I guess I guess like, not, not that anything's gonna happen to him, but I guess he's a Pisces moon like me. So I guess I relate to him like on a deeper level with the way he feels things and experiences things. I don't listen to his music a lot. I don't know why the fuck he came into my head, but he came into my mind and how. He just alive anymore. He's not alive anymore.
That's. I don't think him or Britney Spears. Girl girl, girl girl girl. Oh my God. Okay, so first episode of the podcast, shout out Alex serves. We deep dive on the Britney Spears thing. Oh my God. Britney's gone, if y'all haven't learned that from season 5 of my fucking podcast. Britney is not alive anymore ever since I started telling people about that episode coming
out. And so the reason I had found Alex on TikTok is because when the Free Britney movement was happening, she was making a lot of Britney content before they came out with that Britney like podcast where they were like dissecting her post in her comments and stuff before she turned off her comments, before the conservatorship had ended,
Alex was making Britney content. And what's fucked up is me and Alex have really bonded on the fact that we know we were like at the Salem witch trials together. And so we were bonding over that. And then Britney was coming to me in a, in this really just abrupt way. And then I was telling Alex about it. And then I go to a, a comedy show the other day, just like the other day, and the comedian is like beatboxing and he goes, it's Britney bitch.
Out of the blue. I look at my cousin, 'cause I'm there with him and I had told him about this and he just, his eyes got real big and he's like, what the fuck? So then the next night we go to a concert, we go to a concert, an Everclear concert. They literally are like a pop alternative or a pop punk alternative band from the 90s. Like went to an Everclear concert. They had some openers, the opener, I shit you fucking not, literally covered baby one more time.
Oh my God. The very next days, the same day the podcast had came out, like they the very first episode of the season with a guest. And so I was with my cousin again and I'm like, what the fuck? You can't deny that what I told you about Brittany no longer being here because he doesn't believe me. Like he doesn't subject to like the conspiracies about celebrities. Like he doesn't think that people are being cloned and he doesn't believe.
He thinks some celebrities just get tired, want to go no and all this shit. And I'm like, I'm not sure about all that, but. Girl, you know what's what's fucking crazy out of fucking nowhere. I don't know if it was like 3 weeks ago or almost a month ago at this point I was doing my hair and I get a random fucking download telling me that Britney Spears is dead and I'm like why
the fuck am I getting this? So then I asked my cards and I got that either she's about to die or she was already dead. And then I just said, OK Spirit, if she's really dead, then the next song that's going to play on my Spotify shuffle is going to be a Britney Spears song and then a fucking Britney Spears song played. So then I texted my friends and I'm like, guys, I'm getting downloads that Britney Spears is going to be next to die because we just had Hulk Hogan die and
Ozzy Osbourne die. And we were saying that they're both fire signs and Britney Spears is a Sagittarius and maybe she's next. So we, we went on this rabbit hole about it. And my friend told me, you know what's weird? I just went to Vegas recently and they never played Britney Spears at the clubs. But then they started playing one of her songs out of nowhere and she goes, and now you're texting me this shit. And I'm so set on it that I even made a fucking post about it.
Like, and I never post about like tarot readings about celebrities and stuff like that or like predictions, but I was so inclined to post it. Mark my fucking words, something's going to come out because I don't know why I was
getting that download. You know, I'm telling you what's so crazy is shout out Brittany. But when I first started my spiritual journey and like, I have been a medium my whole life, but like, I didn't know how to really harness it or channel it. But I've been hearing voices channeling fucking a lot of shit my whole life. And that's why I did drugs and like numb things out as a child and drank and partied and whatever.
And so like with Brittany, the thing that me and Alex were touching on in our, you know, deep dive on that is like the fact that we grew up with Brittany, you included. You can't tell me shit was not this way. Like the microphone, you can't tell me it wasn't there.
Bitch, I did it for Halloween. The skirt, you can't tell me she didn't have a Plaid skirt on. You can't tell me that every girl that dressed as a schoolgirl for the next 10 to 20 years for Halloween did not wear a Plaid skirt because they did. Like the facts is like all of these changes and mandala effects. I really do think our social experiments, I think they are active participation from this system that we are all consenting to, to in some way,
shape or form. And I do think that Britney's consciousness has been siphoned and completely like erased. I think that Britney Spears and the person that we see on those videos is not her. That's not her. That's not her at all. Not that I don't think that I know that's not her, but I don't think she's a lot just like that Sam guy, like I talked about this, but he, I never watch game shows. I never watch TV.
Randomly every three months I'll find it a show and I'll watch it and that'll be the end of it. Well, I had, I'd picked up a celebrity client, which is what led me to the show. I didn't know that she was on the fucking show though. So I started watching the show. Then I found out Sam was on the same season that she was on Sam Brittany's ex-husband. So I'm like, what in the world is going on My clients on the show never watch the show, never ever watch game shows, never
watch Hulu, the whole story. Now Sam's on here, so I'm like Brittany is coming through once again, because I already told like anytime I get a high profile client, I don't speak on them, but when I get one, it's like a inner child healing because like you're being seen by someone who a million quatrillion people just wish they would just look their way, spit whatever it is, you know. So like this show, I never I didn't even know that she was on the show.
So it was like, I turn it on and Sam's on there and I'm like, what the fuck? So like this Britney thing keeps coming up and it keeps being confirmation of people, practitioners, psychics, medium saying the same fucking thing. Like we all know Britney is gone. But like, what is the social experiment around Britney? Like, what is it that they want millennials or people in this age range to like be confused about when it comes to Britney
Spears? Because what I don't understand is how Lindsay Lohan and Paris Hilton were all in the same era. Britney being more famous, more successful, more, more everything than them. But look how they've bounced back like clones. And then we've got Britney locked in a cage for years on end. Same thing with Amanda Bynes. But like, where the fuck is the
real version of them? Because that girl that we see on Britney's Instagram, I think is AI or is something else like I think it's someone with a Britney filter on and they just look like a crackhead or just it this makes them look like a crackhead because that's not Britney. Like plus like why would it Britney Jean Spears of all fucking people, Why wouldn't she get a manicure? Why wouldn't she get her makeup done? Why wouldn't she have a makeup artist or a hair stylist or someone? Why?
Why wouldn't she? You know, just me personally, I feel like our generation millennials. You're a millennial, right? Yeah. Yeah. I think we are catalysts because when we look at our parents, our grandparents, they didn't do a lot of the things that we started doing with technology that like I think during our generation is when Google started, correct. Yeah, so. And I think like I was born, Google came out in like 96 or something like that. Yeah, either 90 or 2006.
So our generation is a catalyst and I think what they want to do is program us to dim ourselves and forget how powerful we are. Because where we're headed with AI and the way the world is changing, we can change that with our brain power, with our skills, because we're, we, we're different. We're the generation that started a lot of things that our parents didn't start. And I think they want us to forget that cuz Brittany was a fucking icon.
And now it's like she's looked at us crazy and psycho and whatever, drug addicts. And I think that's what they want us to think, that we're not powerful. I feel like the Britney thing is about control. I feel like it's also a representation of a humiliation ritual, an energy harvest. Yeah, way of being. Like if you don't play the game, this is what will happen to you. Yeah. Because all she did was spiral out and like shave her head. Look at all these other people
that have done crazier shit. I really do like this all started because the Kanye West thing. I also, I also feel the same about Kanye because when I first started my spiritual journey, I'm not a Kanye fan, but when I first started my spiritual journey, I really started connecting with artists that I wasn't necessarily a super fan of like Little Peep and different people who had passed or like overdose or like quote UN quote, like whatever.
And then blew up after they died and someone's capping, just straight capping in on their fucking estate. And it makes you wonder like, why was little Peep like not famous at all? Then the moment that he overdosed, quote UN quote, he's super famous. Well, like I would channel these people, they would come to me and they would just straight up be like, yeah, I was murdered or like, yeah, I was set up or like eat like Kurt is like been my long time. Like Peep like that's like my
main guy. Whenever I like used to channel and meditate and just be like, I didn't have a fucking client inside, right? Like I didn't have no one insight. Like I was just me and it was like, you know, I look back at that and like some of those messages and things like have really shaped where I'm at and like where I was going and where like, it's, you know, hindsight now. But like now I have a ton of musician clients and like like real life clients or you know
what I mean? Like, so it's just weird. Like the universally does align you. But like, I don't know, the obsession, my obsession with Britney Spears not being alive is coming from a sense of why the fuck are you lying to me and my face and making me like, you know, like, and I also am convinced that like millennials, they just convinced all of us to hate our bodies. All of us have body dysmorphia and all of us in some way have a depression form of something like in some way.
Some kind of mental health issue. Yeah. And that goes back to what I'm saying. They want to dim our light like we're catalysts. Our entire generation as a whole has been catalystic in some way compared to other generations, and they want us to forget that. So they want us to think that we're ugly or overweight or incapable on some level, mentally, emotionally, physically, whatever. That's what they want. It's, it's control, like you
said. And, and it bleeds into celebrities because that's who we see all the time, like on TV, on social media. So that's a physical manifestation of what the program, the government, whoever is in charge of this planet is trying to do to our generation
and to human beings as a whole. You know, like they talk about it and I've spoke on this before, but like a lot of artists that have like came in and out of like the rap and R&B culture or like game talk about like the rap to prison pipeline. And they get paid more if they rap about things that are like not above board, you know what I mean?
Like stealing and, and robbing people and like, you know, whatever it may be. And what's crazy is like there are a whole generation of people who have lost the, the family unit over the last 50 years. And that's what's really destroyed our society is like we're moving the family unit. And I watched a documentary one time that was talking about like back in like the 70s, they went into like low income areas and all they needed to do was get a couple people hooked on drugs.
Because then it would remove a lot of like the men or the mentors or the people from the community space and it would leave children and women vulnerable. That was like the whole method. It was the government that did that. And it was the government. So, you know, I personally feel like this is what I feel like this reality is on a like a screen of some sort, holographic screen, probably in another dimension. We are on a season of something. Yeah, we are.
I also know this. We are not in 2025. We are more in like the 16 to 15 ish range. Like we're hundreds of years backwards. They just like somewhere in there just inserted 300 years. I don't know where the fuck they did it, but they did a few different times and they talk about that some kings and people did that when they didn't have an heir to their bloodline. They would just change the timeline in different ways so.
I did not know that. Yeah, there's a lot of wisdom that like, I'll be like gathering from the Akashic records or just randomly like I didn't make it up and I didn't read it anywhere because like, I kind of didn't. I would blur the lines of where I got the information. So then I stopped consuming information and I was still getting the same amount of information and I stopped sharing it. I stopped reading and I stopped consuming all at the same time. And then I was still getting
just as much information. So like, I don't know, I feel like my gifts have expanded far beyond just like greeting other people and things like that. Even though I love doing those things. It's like it is an energy drain in most cases when people what I want to say, like they want you to prove something to them or like they already know the answer, but they're trying to get a different answer from you. Like I don't really like you already know the answer.
Like why are you wasting your money? Like, because I can feel like I love getting a client who's excited and like, open and ready for the message, but there's some people that book and they're just wanting a certain message that maybe like they already kind of like, are hoping for. And like you were mentioning love readings earlier. I used to do a ton of love readings and a lot of it came from TikTok. And I was thinking about that earlier about how busy I used to
be with those love readings. But those were some of the most draining readings. And they were all, yeah, they were draining as fuck because you have to be careful what you say to clients like that because you don't want someone to like spiral out. But I also don't want someone running back to a toxic situation. So I've had someone book a love reading and be like, look, I'm upgrading this to a higher self reading cuz that's not what you need. Like and give a look.
Exactly. Yeah, no. I totally get it, I it is draining to get someone booked with you about the same dude or the same girl. And it's like we read about the same person a month ago. They have not changed. I don't know what you want me to tell me to tell you this time around. Like I want to talk about shadow work. I want to talk about your childhood. How can we heal you so we can align you to the right person?
How about that? Let's talk about where your money's headed or what patterns are you repeating so that you can get out of something like this. Like that's what I want to talk about. But I'm very honest with my clients and I tell them like straight up what's going on. I don't sugarcoat. I try to deliver it from a place of compassion because I don't want them to feel like if I'm yelling at them or like telling them, are you stupid or something?
No, like I'm like, you know, he's not for you For these reasons. And yeah, I'm just getting to a point where I'm tired of the love readings. It's not for me. I'm all about healing, empowerment, and moving forward. I feel like there's just there's like the pipeline we're we're moving along with pipeline.
It really is like, and honestly, that's what pushed me away from doing content on TikTok because I was, I'm so niched in that now I'm in the 300 view graveyard because my niche of followers, the people who followed me like they wanted like love readings, twin flame reading, wanted me to tell them their toxic ex was
thinking about them or whatever. But the one thing I will say is back then, I really would meditate and really would like clock in on the collective and I would not just zoom in on like toxicity. Like my readings were super
empowering. And I feel that's what the evolution is, is like, you know, I got a lot of practice with the love readings and like connecting with those videos and posting like multiple videos a day and the excitement of like when they would get like, you know, I remember one of my videos got like 20,000 likes and I thought I was like, just hot shit, you know, I was like, Oh my gosh, this is so cool.
But like, you know, there's so much that goes along with making constant contact with the collective and that energy. And it just really is something that like, I miss sometimes. And then I'll be like, I'm going to start making a monthly YouTube video and I have yet to do it. And then when YouTube started to talk about they're going to take people's ID's, I'm like, yeah, you got me so fucked up over here. Like no. What do you mean they're going to take people's ID's?
I haven't heard of that. Supposedly see I'm on like weird conspiracy TikTok. So supposedly Spotify and YouTube has like tried to announce that they're considering or they are going to do it. I don't know which one it is that they're gonna consider, like having an AI program basically scan your account over time and if they think that you're underage, you have to upload your ID or they're gonna lock your account. Oh, whatever, they're just coming up with that excuse
'cause. They want your scary because they could. If it's an AI thing then it could literally be anyone. And I've literally had my same YouTube for like, I don't know a really long time. So like, I don't know, like, you know, but a lot of these platforms, I really do wish they would make them like so stupid to be on. So we would all stop and then go back to like communication in person because I really see people in person who look like cool or whatever.
And like I'm very like, I'll approach people because I'm always giving out stickers for the podcast or cards. Like I'm always giving stickers away. And like I've learned that if you give away badass like metallic big stickers, people will take your card and they smile and they even thank you. Sometimes I'm like, thanks. Like they're so excited. But I do spend a lot of money on stickers and not just give them to everyone I see.
But like with that being said, like there's so many cool people out in the world that like they're not talking to each other, you know what I mean? Yep, exactly. It's because when you're posting content, you're putting yourself out there, you putting in the effort and you're creating your
tribe. But if you're living, I guess, a life different from a content creator working a nine to five and then going home to your wife, husband or kids, you're not giving yourself the opportunity to meet people that are aligned with you. So unless they come across Someone Like You that just shows up and opens up to them, they're never going to find people like that because people are shy.
Especially nowadays with AI and the constant online and social media communication, people are forgetting how to talk in person. I had to add a service on my site for a text only tarot reading because there's people that get so shy to do a live tarot reading on the phone or by Zoom or whatever, they get really shy. So I had to add that as a service and I'm like, wow, I never would have thought I would have to add something like this.
And I got that idea from a client because she's like, I'm really shy. Can I just text you on here like on Instagram? And I was like, what? Like she's shy to speak on the phone. Like I've never heard of that, but that's what it is like today. I know, and it's honestly. Crazy. Feel like they've like really alienated people. I think, yeah, people are more depressed because we are isolating and that what is truly
what we need is community. And which is why, like, sitting down and being able to talk to someone and like, just like yourself and be able to connect is so important. And like, that's for the audience now is because everyone is like loving the guest. So I'm just so grateful. I feel like we could just talk for days on end. So we'll just have to have you back in the future and we'll have to talk about something else really cool because
everything's been great. And I just really want to say like it's been so special. Just really finding another person that I connect with on a deep level who I didn't know. I just knew like I knew. Isn't that crazy? Oh. And then you were like, Oh my gosh, I'm so excited. And so that was cool because sometimes like I'll ask people and you don't know if they're excited or not or like sometimes they'll be like, sure, but e-mail me or, you know, like they're like not engaging.
And like, so I appreciate it. Like I like when people, you know, show their personality a little bit and at least engage and like, you know, make you feel like they want to be there kind of thing. Yeah, I really, really appreciate you. And so in the description, you all will have all of your contact information. We'll put your website if you want to book a reading books and spells, you want to book that removal that special. Well, she was talking about that's on there.
So maybe her Oracle deck will be out by now. We don't know if it I. Know. If it is, you'll see it the details below. But yeah, is there a message that you want to leave everyone with today? I just want to say to put your fear aside regarding anything in your life because had I lived in fear, I would have still been at my probation officer job because I was a probation officer. But now I'm a tarot reader, possible Oracle deck owner, podcaster, I don't know.
But. And that's all because I put my fear aside and I left that comfort of that 9:00 to 5:00 and I pursued my passions. So if you're thinking of doing this kind of work or a podcast or whatever, just do it because you have nothing to lose besides, you know, it not being successful, but you are going to be successful. So yeah, put fear aside. That's all I want to say. That's beautiful, you know, like you said, you really have nothing to lose but fucking time.
Like alls we're doing is like we're spitting on a rock. You know, we're floating in space and or may not know what's out there because we don't. I do think that we're on a screen somewhere like this is season 52 and they're like, what the fuck is going on? And everyone's like gathered around. So we will recall next time in Candyland. Bye bye. Candy Land, spicy and sweet. You're in for a tree. Your wildest trees. Got gun drops of knowledge and
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