What a Horrible Christian part 2

about You're a Horrible Christian Part two. If you missed last week's show, go back and check that out. We talked a little bit about road rage and how we all gone through road rage. In today's episode, it's kind of a continuation of anger which leads to love, and we'll talk about why God puts us in these situations

from time to time. Why there's a constant battle between good and evil over your soul, and why sometimes the people that are in front of us tend to get the fiery darts flaming out of our mouth at them at the wrong times. And you know what I'm talking about, yelling at your wife, spouse, husband, Sometimes you'll yell at your kids for no apparent reason. And I'm going to share a couple stories with you today from my personal world.

And that's what this show is all about. If this is your first time joining us, you may be an atheist, no believer, white haired believer, someone that's been in the Bible their whole life. You're looking to maybe start your faith, reignite your faith, or continue that burning desire for the passion of Christ. That's why we're here today. It's about a personal relationship with Christ, not a church. And guess what for you non believers out there that have hung

in there for two minutes? We share life through the Bible, the good old bi bl e, the Basic Instructions Before Leaving Earth Manual. And what we do is we share testimony with you, real life testimony. Things I've gone through, things we all could be going through collectively.

of wine, and we're talking about life. You always see that light in somebody. You always see something about somebody you like, Hey, that person lost a lot of weight. I love that they have a great job. How did they do it well? This walk is no different. Walking with Christ and building a relationship, shedding that light and spreading the gospel is no different. And now you're sitting there saying, hey, I want to learn a little bit more. So sit back, relax, let's have a little bit of

fun here today. I'm gonna have a lot of fun with this episode because I have been through my share of arguments. I think we all have the up applause over there over there. I like that, But should we be really applauding arguments. Yeah, I didn't think so. I don't know if we should be applauding arguments. It's hard not to argue sometimes sometimes we have got to be the person that steps back and takes the fiery darts from other people. But are ego and lack of humility

in that wall that we put up. We tend to try to climb that wall, storming the gates, proving our points, when really is our point a necessity right there at that given moment. You ever hear the phrase you got to pick your battles. You ever heard that phrase doesn't necessarily have to be a battle, but pick the moment where you discuss what you want to talk to and what you want to talk to to someone. We tend to allow to have the mountain of things in life tend to fall down upon us. I know I do.

I'm like a volcano. I can erupt at any time because there's so much going on in my world and whoever's in front of me that spewing lava gets it. And it's not always their fault. Man, a lot of their time, it's not their fault. And this is not just a relationship episode. You could be going through this with your friends. Every time we hear the word relationship, we think man and woman, we think boyfriend, girlfriend, we think marriage. But you've got to remember a relationship could

be between best friends. You could be battling something right now. You could have had an argument yesterday and you're wondering why that argument was put in your life. I'm going to share a little bit of scripture with you today. We're going to talk about a story of mine that I just went through and I just got off the Daniel Fast where I was really close with the Lord, and I mean really close with the Lord. And we're going to share this in an upcupping show oh as well,

about what happened after my Daniel Fast. And I was so close with the Lord and so connected that I started to feel that glow, that light off of me. But somehow there was a door shut and a little bit of darkness came in. I started getting a little more upset, a little more angry. And it's weird because you start thinking, I just developed this personal relationship with Christ and you may be starting to do it right now,

and then tomorrow you do something horrible. You think you're a horrible Christian we do horrible things sometimes, And the reason why horrible things happen is to test you. I know what you're thinking, Oh, what kind of God would do that. It's not just the Lord. Your soul is being battle for daily. And if you've been walking with the dark so long, and the light's coming along and starting to shine in, and you know, you've ever seen those movies where there may be a monster in the

dark corner. This may be your emotions, and then a door opens and there's light, and that monster's starting to be like no, no, no, and then once the full light comes in, he changes. Well, that monster doesn't want that to happen. The evil one doesn't want that to happen. So he's going to attack you in areas such as your relationships. He's going to attack you at the most inopportune times. But he has to go to God for that. And I know what you're thinking. God allows that, Yes,

why because he knows you'll come through it. God knows you since the day you were born. He knows every follicle on your head. He knows where you're going and how you're gonna do it. I know what you're thinking, Well, why doesn't he stop me from doing it because we have to rely on him. We have to go to him through prayer, supplication, reading of the Bible, getting to know the relationship of Jesus Christ, to come to him and learn not to do certain things in our life.

But we argue every day we get in bickerments married people. Can I get a congregational amen on that one? Yet every day we do. He didn't put enough sugar in my coffee, Well, be lucky you put sugar in the coffee in the first place. Ah, you overcook the fish. Well, hey, just be happy that you got some food. All right. Our humility and our humbleness gets put in a closet,

and that's when the dark starts to take over. And one of my favorite movies I love is called This Is Forty with Paul Rudd and many other people, written by Judd Apatow. If you get a chance to watch this movie, or if you already seen it, people over forty really understand this part of the movie. Okay, and the whole movie. They're bickering at each other. He just wants space. Now she's gonna have another baby. They already have two kids in the household. They're pushing over forty.

The two kids in this scene, I am about to play for you basically, get that spewing lava we just talked about. They end up getting in it, and they end up being yelled at for no apparent reason. Still funny, but check it out. Up. You can't smoke. You're pregnant. You even doing so well? You're pregnant? No effing where I wanted a sister her? Sure, I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. You just slipped out pregnant? Since what are you pregnant? Since when do you care? You don't even want another baby?

We have no idea what I want. I'm an Asian baby. You're not gonna have an Asian baby. Yes we are. You're not Asian. Sadie Lilas.

to this day. I love that movie. This is forty. But let's break it down a little bit. We all go through this in life where maybe you're in an argument with somebody and your kids are around, and your kids get it. These kids in that scene get it for no apparent reason. It's between the husband and wife that she hid this pregnancy from him, and so she felt cornered and she blew up on everybody. The kids

got upset. You start hearing the word shut up being thrown around, even the mother's telling the kids to shut up. You say things to your kids, and you're like, oh, I'm a horrible Christian, especially as Christians when we do it. If you sit there and say you don't do it, you better start repenting right now. I'm just saying, I mean, that's not a judgmental thing, because we all stumble and fall short of the glory of God. Book of Romans Daily. We all stumble, and there's nothing wrong with it. So

how do we handle it? How do we angle, handle the argument, how do we handle from it stopping? Well, when I'm walking with Christ and I'm really walking with Christ, and I can feel his energy and I can feel him with me, I can feel like this sense of protection. Even though a fiery dart or arrow maybe in my wife's hands are kid's hands and they're all shooting at me at once, I really try to just I'm sorry, take it ouch. You ever drop your humility so much,

you just take it. Look at Paul Rudd in that situation, He's eating a cupcake. A fiery dart is thrown at him because he sounds like he doesn't care, and now he's eating a cupcake because he's supposed to be on a diet. Well, sometimes our stress allows us to do different things. Some of us overeat, some of us turn to a bottle, some of us turn to a needle. Some of us turned a porn And we'll talk about

that in coming weeks. Addictions making you a horrible, horrible Christian, and I'm going to share some great testimony with you. Sometimes you may be so stressed out and you're upset at the other one you turn to adultrey, which that'll be next week's show. I'm a horrible Christian. When I cheat, some people just fall and walk away from God. When that happens, when we should be drawn closer. So when you're getting yelled at and you're this argument's happening, this

is where grace should be prayed for. Dear Lord, cover me and your grace cover me, and understanding on why this is happening. And sometimes we forget to do that, and those darts hit us, like we talked about last week on the show, that have those poison in them, and we're too dumb enough to pull out the dart, so we let the poison overflow our system. And then we argue back and we scream and we yell and we scream at our kids, and the kids are like, WHOA,

I didn't do anything. I didn't do anything. There have been many times my wife and I have gotten in an argument, my kids have gotten that molten lava spewed upon them, and they're like, I didn't even do anything. Go to your room. This is an adult conversation. We've all said that, but the way that we say it, the tone we say it hurts them, bothers them. Then it eats at their soul and they hear mom and dad arguing, and that chain is now linked on to

them in their memory. And then when they have a relationship with somebody, they think it's okay to have that argument because somebody didn't drop their humility. Now you can drop your humility right there. You can humble yourself after as long as you humble yourself, humble yourself to the Lord, and humble yourself to the people that were around during this volcanic eruption in your home or wherever your argument may have been. Have you ever tried to apologize and

humble even if it's not your fault. It's hard when you're in human form, But when you're walking with Christ, you want to be like him. You want to do things for him because he does so much for us. The Book of Galatians, chapter five, verses twenty two through twenty three says this, But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self controls something I'm still working with still to this day.

Against such things. There is no law. The fruit of the spirit google fruit of the spirit in full armor of God. These are two great things to learn about in the Bible. To kind of armor, your defense against the things that make us feel like we're horrible Christians. You're not a horrible Christian. You're not a horrible Christian if you yell at your kids, because I could lace

that with scriptures. Sometimes when they're wrong, we have to literally be a stern parent, put a a I forget what it says in the Bible, but something along the lines like a stripe to the backside of the kid. But be gentle at the same time. It doesn't mean physically hit your kid, but you can yell at them, and that could be a stripe to them. I did it to my son yesterday. I felt bad when I did it. I was just trying to play around with him.

We're having a good moment. He got mad because we yelled at him previously, so he was still a little hurt. I tried to cheer him up by tickling him and said come over here, and he just raw. He released his volcanic ash. And of course when two boys go at it, especially the father of a home, what do fathers do. You don't yell at me like that in this home. You don't ever disrespect me like that. Well, I was disrespecting him at the moment, I didn't see it.

My ego in humility was shut in that dark closet with that monster with no light that we talked about earlier. So the next morning I woke up and I said, hey, I want to talk to you guys about what happened last night, my whole family. And see, my kids are such great kids. They'll just talk to their mom and say, hey, I was only trying to do this. I didn't mean to do that. Well, me being the dad that I am, I said, listen, the reason why it happened was because

of the disrespect. But I understand where you're coming from. I love you, and one day you'll understand when you become dads, that you'll want to be disrespected in your home. And then I lace that story with another testimony that happened between me and my father when he disrespected me in my home one time with my child. You see, these testimonies that we share with you are needed because they're in the Bible. The Bible is full of testimonies.

Everybody thinks it's a list of instructions of what not to do. Well it is. I mean it is, But once you start reading and know the true heart of Jesus and the heart that he has for you. You want that relationship to flourish. You don't want it to die. He already died on the cross for our sins, and you don't want it to happen again, because when you feel that dying in your heart, that's that poison that was hit by that arrow that was slung at you,

and then it affects everybody around you. So remember, the fruit of the spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self control. Against such things, there is no law. And what about loving one another? Do you realize that when people talk about the Bible and it's a book of rules, that there's really one commandment we need to live up to as human beings for the Lord one. Yes, we know the ten commandments. Thou should not kill, Thou shall

not sleep with another man's wife, Thou shalt not do this. Yes, those are covenants we should live by. But Jesus came with a new commandment, and they forgot what that commandment was over the years. It's simple love, l ove e love. John thirteen thirty four says, this a new commandment I give to you that you love one another, just as I loved you, And this is Jesus speaking here, you also are to love one another. It's hard when we argue.

It's hard when we get in these arguments. We think it's about winning a war, winning a point, making a point, but there's ways to make points without an argument. You know, my wife saw me the other day, tired, tattered, torn, I wasn't myself and I just went through this great Daniel fast for us, so connected with the Lord, seeing visions, writing things down, so connected, knowing scripture, bringing them to you in a podcast and on our television show, on

YouTube and rumble. It was great. I felt so good for the Lord. And then all of a sudden, darkness came in because I started to have weights of the world on me that I didn't share with my wife. So I started shutting myself in the darkness, no light, being separate from people, being alone, and that's when the devil will eat you when you're alone. So I spoke to my wife, cried out to her as well, and said, listen, this is what's going on. No argument happened. She understood,

but I prayed before that. I said, Lord, lot's happening. Please let others in this house see what's going on with me before I can even see it, and change happens. You must believe in prayer. You have to pray. You have to believe that it's going to happen, because it will. Doesn't mean it's scratch off ticket. Here you go, I pray for a million dollars there. It is no, no, no. He wants to fix everything in our life through love. And when we can love one another and love him,

love him first. Boy, the doors open, that light shines, the monster goes away and goes into a deep pit. And the enemy don't like that. You have a power inside you. You truly do. You have a power. And that power is Christ. You may not know him right now, and I'm going to tell you right now, he's calling you right now. I need you. He needs you to just wherever you're at, bow your head, open your hands, and open your heart to him because it's about a

personal relationship. And repeat after here. Dear God, I am a sinner. I sind daily and fall short of the glory of God. But you came here to this earth as Man died for our sins, rose again on the third day and covered our sins with your blood. Dear Lord, I'm not perfect, I'm not you, but I'm willing to develop a personal relationship today with you. Dear Lord, I want to make you my personal lord and savior. Take control of my life. I am yours, You are mine. Amen.

Guess what if you said that prayer? Welcome, Welcome to the most elusive club honor. You don't need know they'll rope you can kind of just go right through and say, what's up. Dog. There's Peter, there's Mark, there's Matthew, there's John. How you're doing? You are now walking with Christ. You're developing that personal relationship. Open the Book of Proverbs. If you've never read the Bible, today's a certain number on that day. Guess what. Go to that chapter of that

number of that day. If it's the twenty eighth, go to the twenty eighth, and then read every chapter of Proverbs every single day matching that day's number, the first, second, the third, the fourth. Then move on to the New Testament. You can learn about my boys, Matthew, Mark, Luke, John, Paul, Peter. Peter's my dog man. We'll talk about that another time. I am Peter, And guess what Jesus loves you. You'll learn about him and then he'll lead you the rest

of the way where to read. But pray, pray, come to him him. He loves you. We love you. Thank you for listening. And next week we talk a little bit about cheating. What a horrible Christian but you're not. We love you. God bless you y'all. Take care, God bless and Welcome to the Kingdom of christm