Strong Medicine

So I had a splitting headache, and I have this little container that has prescription medicine it like if for some reason, I've been in two different places and I had U t I medication, even if it's expired, I keep it because if you're paying fire in the middle of the night for some reason, you know how that feels, and you just want to take something. And the same thing like people have Z packs lying around or stuff for different things, people of za X. I don't take drugs.

If I want to go to sleep, I'll take like a little bit of an edible very rarely, and I have like anti anxiety medication just that if you wanted to take like a quarter or a half in some rare circumstances you're flying or something's going on. So I don't take medicine. I will only very rarely take like

an edible that will make you sleep. Um and I or tailing all PM or nichail if you don't feel well, but it gives you a film on you that you can feel the whole next day, and it's really, really potent. So I had a terrible migraine, like you know when you want to throw up from pain. I get them. I get neck migraines and head they're both together. Your

body is killing you. Something's going on. Um. I think it's looking at the phone, by the way, I think that gives a terrible headache, and your neck is looking down, and I think it's stress. And dehydration is a big thing for me. I'm a thirsty, thirsty, fucking bitch and I get very dehydrated, so much so I'll drink a spot sho for breakfast and I have to take salt pills because my body needs to hold the water. I don't hold water, which is funny, this bitch don't hold water.

So I was looking through do I have migraine medicine? I was like labeling it. I'll make sure to google what everything is and then put labels on it so you're not hunting through. By the way, if you you know, U t I or take a sharp that says what something is for. Because we don't realize what something is for, and they we're hunting. So the closest thing I could find that would help me with a migraine was hydro codeon or hydro. It's like codine, tailing all with codeine,

which effectively is a painkiller. It's like a cousin to oxy or something crazy. And you're even scared to have something like that in your house because you know those are so addictive and an addict would steal that out of your house. It should be like in my safe,

which I'm actually gonna put it in. So I took someone I worked with cut it into pieces, and I took one fifth one fifth of a tail and all with codine, like I remember, she cut it in half and then that was like a smaller of the two halfs, so it was almost like a half of a half, and I said, I'll take that. I had taken um Adville earlier, and I just wanted to take something to

take the edge off. I passed. I could feel myself dissolving as a human being, Like I felt a little weird, and I was probably like eight o'clock because I just wanted to pay into go away. I felt myself dissolving as a human being. And I've had experience of people who have been on uh prescription of medication and I didn't really realize what was going on at the time. I thought something was wrong with their brain or like something was going on. I didn't know if they had

like a a condition of some sorts. And I gotta tell you, if people I can't even fathom people who take multiple of these a day. I know they probably get immune to them and their body absorbs it, and people who have real pain absorb it differently. But when I tell you the poison that people are putting into their bodies recreationally or just as like a mom who needs to take the edge off or whatever, full fledged addicts, I have to tell you. I took a fifth of

this fucking thing and I dissolved. I dissolved into the night. I like I passed out. My daughter came in, was watching a Snoopy movie right with me, Halloween, It's a great Pumpkin. I had such a bad headache, you can't imagine the pain it was even breaking through this thing, which scares me even more because my boy, he was dissolving, but I could still feel the pain. But I did

care about it. Less, if that makes any sense, because you were so melted, and I literally felt people were in my house and it was a fifth of this thing. And I was just in the bed and I told my daughter, Mommy is a terrible headache. And we were watching The Pumpkin and then the movie The Peanuts after and I felt bad like I missed the time with her. I couldn't have had the time with her anyway, because I had such an excruciating migraine. I was incapable of

interacting like to begin with. But this made me through all that because I never stopped thinking. I was thinking, Oh my god, these poor people, these poor kids who go through life of the mom who's taking something and it's like not as checked out, and how dangerous it is.

I mean, I was laying down in my bed with a heat compress on my neck, with a child watching The Peanuts next to me, where I was watching some of it, but I was just immersed in like a nap, and I took like probably an hour and a half nap, which I never do. I'll doze off sometimes during a TV show, but I'm not a big napper. And then I said good nights, and my daughter when it was time for her to go to bed, and I woke up at like ten thirty. She was already asleep in

the morning. I went in at like six o'clock because I just wanted to lay with her, because I felt like, how did I not watch the movie with you? I always beat myself up. We beat ourselves up with parents. And that's not the headline. You're allowed to have a headache and allows take a nap. The headline is this fucking stuff is is so dangerous. It's frightening clock your kids. Police them, look in their drawers, go in their bathroom, go in there underweard. I don't care what you do there.

I can't even imagine an adult taking this in any capacity, even with the worst possible pain. Can't even imagine it. And I watched all the movies Dope Sick, all of them. Can't imagine it, much less teenagers that are dealing the ship and taking it recreationally. It's so fucking dangerous. Like we think about alcohol, which is is a killer and drunk driving is a murder weapon pot I'm not even putting in the same category. This is fucking danger toxic poison.

Like I took a fifth of something to get rid of a headache. And I feel like guilty about it, like I because the ADVO wouldn't do it. And I'm aware of how dangerous this is for our society, Like it's frightening because why I'm saying it is people take a half, they're prescribed a whole. I took a fifth. I was incapacitated, incapacitated as a human being. I am just frightened. Like if I ever had to take it again for another pain in my body, I would take an a sixth. I don't know how you get get

it that small. It is so powerful and so dangerous. And I think about the movie Dope Sick, where they were telling you go in and you have a pain threshold, or there's some bullshit that these people in the pharmaceutical industry created as what we're gonna call it, like we're gonna make it like, oh, you need a hundred X because you're just really absorbing it faster. You need two X or three X or ten X or it was at a hundred times. It was crazy that it's murder.

It is murder. The dosage that was being prescribed and with a shiny medical pamphlet written about it, like oh, just your your look up the phrase there's a phrase for it, like with ten X you need you're absorbing faster, making it like, yeah, you do so well that you you you absorbed this subscription that you need more like more. I don't know how anybody could take one pill, God forbid, in the worst pain ever. It's for paint cants or fucking patients at a ten and I don't even know

how they could take this. It's the most dangerous weapon I could ever imagine being in someone's house, the most. It's why it's a killer in this country. I cannot say it enough. And other breaking news explain silk and satin pajamas to me. I am a pajama my person. I always wear caught in pajamas. I always wear sweats. I like them to match. I liked them. I made a decision that I was going to be elevated in my pajama game. I want to wear the nice ones.

I went to l A. I brought the Stella McCartney silk burgundy pajamas, silk satin whatever is animal friendly but feels like silk and sad and Victoria's Secret as their own version that shiny, nice, rich person material that I have in all the levels from high to low. I was sweating like a fucking beast, like a willed to beast and a sauna while I brought them away, and I usually bring in full disclosure, I'll wear the same pair of pajamas two to three times on a vacation.

I just that's not real estate. I'm gonna pack multiple things or just bring a T shirt and air whatever. I don't sleep nude. I like pajamas. I was fucking I was through those bitches in one night. I was sweating the pits. I mean, if you actually want to like lose weight or cleanse or detox, they seem like someone should do, like detox sleep pajamas, because I'm telling you, that's when we're fast and you're not eating. That's where

you sweating. Your body is just expelling. You know. It's why you have to use a tongue scraper, get the ship off your tongue. In the morning, guess what, I sweat like a fucking pig all night. I woke up and like, what the fuck, it's those It's those satin and silk pajamas. So there's an idea there like sweaty silk satin detox pajamas. That's the only reason. Otherwise they're all being burned in a garden fire because I was sweating like a fucking horn church. Sweating like a horn church.

Holy fuckballs, Why do we have to be so mad at Tom and Giselle? Could someone just tell me? Sometimes it feels fine when everyone's talking about something like it didn't feel fine in the Adam Levine situation because it just felt like it was a garden variety rock star model infidelity moment. They had it. It's happened to the best of anybody. It's happened to everybody. Okay, it's happened to the best of us, happened to the president, it's

happened to everybody. Okay, Tom and Giselle. Can we just not can't just let them just go through their issues without them having to describe everything to us. I don't know. Maybe it's because sports are involved and people feel loyal to teams, and maybe there's something. I don't know. It's just sometimes it doesn't feel like we should be involved, Like she's a supermodel, he's a sports person. There maybe getting divorced or having issues it just doesn't feel related

to anything they put out there. Other people want to make out and show you how amazing everything isn't really flaunt. I don't know that I feel that way about them. Maybe I'm missing something. You guys can correct me. I feel like we've seen them together during games, She's spoken about him in sports. They're married, they land, they've had a good run. Like it's not like Britney Spears and that guy Jason Alexander in twenty four hours, like they had a good run. Can't people just break up and

like not be really dragged? Like I don't know, like other people really draw attention to themselves and really wanted and want us to just buy into all the highs and everything they bought for them and everything they did and their sex life, and they're making out in their whole perfection And then I understand when it tumbled and we want to talk about it. But I don't feel like Tom and Giselle ever really did anything to deserve us talking about their marriage in this way. I feel

like they were just married and they're getting divorced. There's certain people I just don't believe it about. I think that not everybody has to be discussed at nauseum in a breakup if there's nothing totally out of the ordinary. I mean, Tom's not you know, Tom doesn't have a barnyard animal as a sex pet. So Giselle isn't, you know, dating one of their kids. Teachers like they're getting there breaking up or maybe not. I don't think they make

it any easier. So I just feel like we want some couples to possibly stay together or for the sake of their children. They both were forced to make statements. It doesn't feel natural to me. I may be missing. I just see headlines. I don't dig deep and reach into it. That's what I think. Um, And because there's been so much negativity out there, I would like better

role models for our girls. Can we talk about people like Amall Clooney that their job is to help people, that they stay in the background until they need to be in the foreground. Can we talk about better better role models? Can we possibly do that? People that I'll say, I'll say Amal Clutey is a great role role model. I think Blake Lively and talking about child trafficking and her uh maintaining a privacy and being honest about what she looks like pregnant to beat the photographers to it.

I think that's a good role model. I think Beyonce is a fierce role model that should be celebrated. I think, Holdah, who I'm talking to. I love the way she's speaking about her journey. Hold a copy from the Today Show. I think she's an excellent role model. Can we talk about good role models? Can we put new people in power? Can we do that? I'd like to at least shift the conversation to that.