ITS Home Edition: Bebe Rexha

she really really likes vanilla milkshakes. As for BB, well, I know she's a really, really talented hit maker, able to write a number one hip hop single with M and M and also write and perform a number one country single with Florida Georgia Line. Her duet Meant to Be with Florida Georgia Line was just two weeks shy of spending an entire year at the top of Billboards

Country Singles chart. I mean, this woman has range. And she told our quarantine correspondent Jordan Runtog all about of very autobiographical origins of her new single with Dojakat Baby, I'm Jealous. The home edition of Inside the Studio it's all about letting you into the creative lives of musicians. During lockdown and BB has been recording from the comfort of her couch vocals for what sounds like a really personal album that explores her life, her insecurities, and how

she's dealt with them. Also, when she gives the pro tip to stay hydrated during times of stress, listen up because this woman speaks the truth. And I say this as somebody with a glass of water in his hand. As always, if you enjoy this episode, be sure to check out the I Heart Radio podcast that Jordan's hosts. It's called Rivals Music's Greatest Feuds and it is available wherever you get your shows. Hello everyone, my name is Jordan run Todd. But enough about me. Well, what can

I say about my guest today? She's a bona fide pop goddess. She started out writing hits for Selena Gomez, Nick Jonas and the Eminem Rihanna duet Monster. Then she stepped into the spot light on her own with hits like Me, Myself and I and In the Name of Love Meant to Be. Her collaboration with Florida Georgia Line was recently certified diamonds, and now she's dropping a new single, Baby I'm Jealous featuring Doja cat as a track of

her upcoming second album. It was ready for release earlier this year, but she's waiting to use her words until the world is a better place, and she's certainly doing her part. She's a beacon for body positivity, an outspoken advocate for mental health, and I can't be happier that she's here with us right now. Babe Rexa, thank you

so much for taking the time today. Thank you, Jordan's It's so funny doing these shows over zoom because it always feels like we're just like dropping into people's homes. How far are you today? What have you been on? M nothing. I woke up, I walked my dog. She comes with me for my coffee. How's Bear doing? She's going coffee together today? And then I worked out. I did a little work out, and I just had some lunch. And then after this, I'm going to go buy some

plunkin candles. I want to make my house. I just went on Amazon the other day and I bought so much Halloween decorations. It's not Oh my god, big Halloween. What's what's your favorite Halloween costume you've ever dressed up as? I think I was literally Superman one year when I was like, no, bear, don't bark. Sorry, she might bark throughout. She's kind of like spoiled my dog, so she may bark throughout the interview. But my favorite Halloween costume ever

been is super Man, not Superwoman. It's so funny. I think my mom has a picture of it or was it Superwoman? I don't know was that? And I never really had another like I never had like an incredible Halloween costume. I'm always kind of I love decorating the house more than anything and like giving away candy. But I'm never good at like I don't. I just don't have patience for it to like get ready for three

hours of face makeup and stuff. I mean, yeah, I feel like supposally when when your day job is getting out there and dressing up and everything and perform, I can imagine like doing that on your own time. It's like, no, I really don't feel right now like yeah, I'm gonna go I'm going to be the natural me today. Yeah, I just don't. I don't like sitting in hair makeup for like three hours. I hate it. But I like getting I like feeling I like feeling pretty though and

getting ready. You know that's why I go for the Haulding costumes, like a mask or something like that, or something you could just throw on. I have so many things we're so excited to talk to you about today. First and foremost, your new song baby I'm Jealous. I love it. I've been humming it all day. It's about those times when jealousy turns you into a social media sleuth, which you know, when you're creeping on your partner's Instagram likes and we've all been there. Tell me about where

that song cames. Was dating someone and a guy and I saw I got onto one of those crazy weird like the deep dive, which I'm like usually okay, but you know, I had one of those days where you feel a little insecure or whatever, you know, just like I don't know, like human, right, So I went on the Instagram and I SI like this same girl comment like leave heart's like you know, like kissy faces and like it was just on every picture, and I was like, hmmm,

So I like went on her page. I was just looking at her pictures and I see that the guy that I was dating was like liking everyone of her pictures, but it was the ones that where she was like half naked in her like bikini photos that I was kind of like, that's kind of like I don't know if everybody has their own like boundaries and rules for Instagram and social media. But I didn't like that. So I literally told him. I was like, if it's your

friends or something like that, totally fine. But like when they're like not really dressed, it makes me feel a little uncomfortable, and like, especially if they're leaving comments on your pages, it doesn't make me. I don't like it, Like this is the rule for me. These are the

rules for me. And he was like yeah, and he was like okay, because then fast forward like two weeks later, he was still like liking her pictures and it still bothered me, and I was like, now I feel like insecure because I know that they kind of like I could just tell they liked each other. But he ended up liking these three girls pictures and they kind of like always going back and forth. It was so obvious,

but they all look the same. They were all blonde hair, blue eyes, like super fit, super tall, like model esque. And I'm like five foot five, dark brown eyes and not that you know what I mean. So I got kind of a little insecure, and I was like, oh socks, like this sucks. I'm like I wish I looked like that. Is there something wrong with me? I don't know, Maybe I should buy blue contacts. And then I was like, wait,

I'm like going crazy. So I went to the studio and I wrote the song like justin transwer and I was like, I'm just so jealous lately, like I wish I could look this certain way, you know, And then it's it's a song about being jealous. And what we want to do with the album is like it kind of inspired us. We're like, oh my god, we should totally write an album on like insecurities because it's like

totally normal, Like I don't so many people. I've been on a vacation with the couple literally broke up but then got back together the next day because they found some shady stuff on Instagram and social media, and I was like, whoa. That was like, so I see every couple always dealing with this or I have. I even know a lot of couples who share Instagrams, which is like some next level something, but whoa, yeah, the password sharing, I'm not at that place yet. And I've been with

my girlfriend for tenure. I think it's a trust thing, right, It's like building trust. Yeah, no, no, but you can't share your pass coald. If you're not sharing your pass coal, then what are you hiding nothing? I don't know. I think it's never been a discussion with us, I should say. But that's good. Also, like I think we're together for so long before Instagram and everything that maybe that was

part of It's weird. It's like another level of like hard, you know, like I noticed it, especially like my younger like just like people like I was just you know, my band members, like just hearing the conversations that they have, like being on tour with everybody. It creates like a lot of issues in relationships. Social media does because everything is so much more accessible where it's like you could literally slide into d m s you know, right, you know.

I mean, it's just it's so interesting to hear here you talk to me about insecurities because from an Ampie's side perspective, you're talented and successful with millions of fans. I mean, do you think, let me put it this way, do you think self acceptance is a journey or a destination. It's just something you're always working towards. Obviously you know that.

I think I feel like, come on, that's the answer to that is it's a journey, like you'll never you know, I think maybe at a certain age or just so tired of caring anymore and you're like I'm over this, like you know, maybe when I'm like seventy years something.

But I think it's a journey. And I think that I've learned too, which has made me more secure of myself more than ever now, is to like accept those insecurities or anything that makes me kind of feel because I kind of like I didn't like how I was feeling jealous, Like I wasn't liking it. I was kind of like why am I getting jealous of these girls? Like why am I so insecure? And I think it comes from a place of not like like loving yourself

or knowing your worth. And I think when you start really being honest yourself and be like there's a reason why I'm jealous, Like you know, whatever you want to call it God or an energy, that there's a reason why human beings feel jealousy, Like we're meant to feel it for it's just part of us. You know what I mean. There was a line in the song that I kept thinking About'm thinking about it all day. It really stuck with me. This is me a woman in dichotomy.

I love me until I don't talk to me about the dichotomy that is, I think that, you know, it's funny, like I feel like my life is like a dichotomy, right,

like two things that are opposing each other. So like I come from like a very old school Albanian traditional family who like they wanted me to fine an all banion guy and probably get married by the time I was twenty and have kids like super early, you know, like my mom was sixteen when she got married, and it's just like the culture, right, But here I go, it's like the total opposite of that. What did I do? Like I was from New York and you know, should

have gotten married. I had kids by the age was twenty, But then I left for the opposite side of New York, went to the West Coast to l A and went to do to try to be in pop music, which

was like whoa, Like how could you do that? And then I think just dichotomy in the sense of women in general, we have to like be very like pure and virginal, but then we have to be like a freaking sheets And I feel like that's like for me as a woman in all just in all all cases, you know, you know, you love yourself one day, hate yourself the next. For women, we have a lot of dichotomy's, you know, like we have to be soft but you know,

but still be hard in the sense. And it's like it's just constant, like you know, we have to kind of always balance that as females. It's kind of hard, you know. There are just so many emotional, vulnerable tracks on this record. Was there a song that was for you the most difficult to tackle, were the most meaningful? I think that probably the hardest would be none of the songs are really hard for me, because I feel like I became so I know, there's probably supposed to

be an answer for a song. But I became so comfortable with Justin the room that I asked him to help executive produce the album because I just felt like I could walk in there and be like Justin, I'm about to get my period and like I'm just losing my mind, and like I could just say anything to him, you know, like I could just anything like the most insane thing, and I would just say, this is how I'm feeling, and he's like, let's put it in a song.

And I feel like the process was super therapeutic and nothing was hard everything, and I feel like I've already I had already gone through those like moments and then I was just kind of expressing to him how I was feeling and he was able to make it so seamless and to a song. They were like really like just journals or like things that I was really going through, and he makes it so easy to like put it

into words and music. You know, well, was there song from the album that represents you most in this moment? I have to look at my track list. There's like so many songs I like better mistakes because with better mistakes, I think it's funny because in life, like we all make mistakes. But I feel like, you know, as you get older, like, oh, I'll be fine when you know, when I get to a certain age, I'll figure it out.

But it's like as you get older, like oh I have I'm still trying to figure out, like how do I do this? You know what I mean? Like I just feel like I'm making mistakes, but better ones. That's like where I'm at in my list. Yeah, ess actially I'm in my in my life like I'm you know, so better mistakes is interesting. It's like very playful, but like a meaningwise, it's like I'm just making better mistakes as I get older. You said you're holding the album

until the world's a better place. Was I think the quote you shared any updates on when that is? I know when that is, but I don't know if like I'm ready to say when that is or if I'm allowed to yet. I think it's like just a bit like maybe we're like I'm a couple, Like it's a little too early to say. I feel guided to say sorry.

Everything is so like you know, I don't want to say either because if I say something and then God forbid, it changes my fans get really upset and I feel like it's been a very long It's been two and a half years since I released like a project, so it's been really long or like over years since I've released a song, and with everything going on in the world, I don't want to say like, because you just never know, God forbid everything goes smoothly and everything is okay, and

every reason everything gets better. But it's hard because everything has changed. You know, interviews are different. Look, we're doing this and I know we're seeing each other's faces, but we would have probably have done this in person. It's just so much different, Like you're not feeling people's energies as much, and it's hard, like when you can't, you know, go on the road and stop at the radio stations and and talk to people and and you know, eat

like barbecue food and Texas or whatever. Just you know those energies and do it the proper way. There's one song I'm really looking forward to hearing, looking forward for your fans to hearing to break my Heart myself. You shared some some lyrics from that where you are very open about your bipolo di sort of referencing the five point seven million Americans who are also living with bipolar disorder.

You first shared your diagnosis last year on Twitter. What made you decide that it was time to open up about that party? I always felt scared all my life. I felt I feel like I always felt even when I was younger, I was always scared of like going crazy, Like I was just so scared I don't know. I was just I saw I think a movie or I had a family member or somebody they had literally like gone crazy, like mentally unstable, like unwell like, and that just scared me. I don't know why. I was just

always so scared of it. I just wanted to be normal, and I was just so I don't know. It was just like a weird fear that I had. And you know, I had gone into the studio with Justin. I said, I just spoke to my doctor and they told me that I'm bipolar. And I said, I just, you know, because it takes a second to kind of like figure out, like it takes years to kind of you know, first things anxiety and depression and you don't know, and then you get manic or and the depressed, and so it

takes a second. But I went to see it Justin and I said, I just I'm so scared of going crazy. And I don't want people to think that I'm crazy or like judge me, or like feel like I could have done more in my life because a lot of times I feel like, uh, in the industry or in life in general, people can really judge you. You know, she's crazy. And especially as a female, you know, they could forget also like that you're human in this industry and they could kind of treat you like a product.

So I just didn't want to ever feel like I messed anything up because of my mental illness. And I always feel like that was always something that was so hard. It always kind of felt like two um like I had two weights, like you know, two dumbbells, like heavy

dumbbells on my shoulders at all times. So it's like when you do something, you know, you're getting ready to go on stage, and then something happens or the panic attack, and it just it just throws everything off or your depressed and you don't want to get out of the house, but you off to it's like your job, and like people don't care in the day, like everybody goes through this, right, So I feel like for me, I wanted just to write a song about that and just be open up,

that honest about it and and just as I said, what the album is like, except my insecurity and be like I'm scared, here's another insecurity, Like not only am I jealous, but I'm scared of going crazy, And let

me write a song about it. And you know, we kind of did a twist on it where it's like it's not about love, it's about like life in general, Like nobody could ever break my heart as much as I've broken my own heart in the in the past, and the way that my mental illness has and the nights and months and years I've spent stuck in my house, scared to leave the house because I was so scared

of everything. So um, it's it's very empowering in the sense of I was able to like, this is just who I am and this is a part of me, and I'm not scared of it anymore. And yeah, thank you for going there with me, and thank you for going there with all of your fans. So I know you've been very open about this, going back to you know for years with I'm Gonna Show You Crazy, I mean that was from I didn't know about I'm going to Show You Crazy and didn't the label fight you

want that too? Sorry, this is a fan. This is me the fan coming out. No, it's okay. You know what it was. It was just like I think when I'm going to Show You Crazy came out, it was crazy because you think about it, that was like five years before or like six years before, like Logic came out with the one Dred, So that was not okay to say that, Like, it was not okay to say like, there's a war inside my head. Sometimes I wish that I was dead. I'm broken, and I'm going to show

you crazy. You want to see local maniac, I'll show you. And it was like a kind of like an anthem to myself. People thought it was about love, but I was writing this anthem about mental illness. And I had put it out on Christmas Eve and it was Spotify was a new thing because I had gone to Sweden for a writing trip with my brother for two weeks and I had met this young, i mean this older couple excuse me, and they were like, what are you two doing here? And I was like, oh, I'm a singer,

I'm a musician. She's like, oh, what's your Spotify page? And it was like, what's that? Because we didn't even have nobody really had it here, nobody knew what it was us. And I had gone home to my manager I said, I want to open a Spotify and he's like, a Spotify you mean, he's like an account and I'm like yes. So the first song we put on Spotify was I'm going to Show You Crazy, and we had literally put it out. I had no push, nobody believed

in it. And it's still accumulated, like I don't know, forty million streams like with nothing, no push, nothing like, and I think it really spoke to people. I can't tell you the amount because I did the Warp tour. I can't tell you the amount of young girls, but young girls and their moms or like guys and their dads are like so many mothers have like cried on my shoulder being like thank you so much, like this song has also helped me. I don't know. I guess

it was. It's hard to deal with teenagers, you know, but like it was, it was very It was very touching to me those times because I was going through tough times too, and I felt like it was very therapeutic for me because I didn't understand yet what I was going through. I just knew I didn't feel good. I wasn't I didn't have I wasn't receiving the help at that time, Like I was talking to a therapist and but I wasn't on medication. None of that like

I was just feeling. I was my way of trying to put it out in a song, I'm going to shoot crazy. But I had no idea like what I was really dealing with. I thought I just had like some anxiety or whatever. Helped an awful lot of people by being so open about it. I know during this quarantine time, a lot of people are really hurting, especially people who aren't getting the help that I need with

with mental health. Do you have any advice for those people just to to help keep Yeah, you know, I spoke to my therapist and um because in the beginning of quarantine, you could really get down on yourself. Right. The first thing that she told me, which I shared on my on my Instagram, to try to make somewhat

of a schedule for yourself. It's like when you wake up in the morning, even if it's like making yourself a coffee and then making your list for the taking your shower, making lists for the day, doing a workout. But for me, what I find is that I have I have my routine. I wake up in the morning, I put my water on like my French press on, I prepare my French press, I grind the beans like

it's so extra, but I just it helps me. Like just you know, the first a minute meditation, Yeah, I walk my dog, you know, I feed my dog dog, and then I like go into a workout. Working out has helped me so much. Oh, the mind body connection is crazy. We need to talk more about that. Even if you can't find yourself because like when you're really depressed, you're not feeling good, it's like you don't want to

do anything. But even if it's like getting out of your bed and just doing like a stretch to touch your toes like awd stretch just like opening like you know, putting your hands up and like trying to stretch your back. Just like stretching moves the blood around so much and puts oxygen into your body. So that's like so important too.

Simple things like that, or even just like being like every morning I'm gonna wake up and the first thing that I drink is like a cup of water and like squeeze lemon or try to drink more water because what we what I'm learning too, I'm sorry, I'm getting really crazy on this because I've been setting a lot and I actually love nutrition. What I'm learning is that everything you know when we drink coffee, we're constantly changing the chemical the way the chemicals work in our body.

We like coffee because it releases a certain chemical and it makes us feel good. We like to eat chocolate because it releases a certain chemical. Working out to some people sucks, but afterwards, like you feel so good. You're like wow, like I killed it. You feel like if you feel like you know so much, right if the endorphins. So life is all about how we were constantly manipulating our chemicals and doing small things like drinking more water, or stretching or even putting on a nice candle that

you love, or painting. I started painting. I'm not good at all. I am so bad at painting. That's so cool? What what kind of abstract or painting? It's so bad. It is so bad, Like I think I threw it out. I was like, no, I can't, honestly, like I bet like a four year old would paint better than me. I'm such a enough for some reason, I will tell you, Jordan's like, I suck at drawing anything with drawing or paint. I'm not good at it. I can't. I always did.

You gotta save your first couple. So that's someday you can look back and see how far you come. Mom good, I'm not good. I don't have patience. That's why I don't want to do like the whole layering, the right way to paint, you know what I mean. I love it. I bought his set, yeah, like the trees and stuff like that. I like, like watched like his but I watched his YouTube videos. I came with the CD, but I don't have a CD player. I don't know. I want on YouTube. And just like I started watching how

he painted. I was like, oh, this is very therapeutic, like listening to him talk. Oh yeah, it's totally SMR. That's like crazy. During quarantine, I was like, I should buy an original Bob Ross painting. I've looked. They are really They're hard to find. Hard to find, they really are. And now I'm like, what was I thinking? Like why would I? I don't know. But he's he was awesome though, really chill, really really relaxing. Oh totally. Have you been

writing a lot of music in the morning? Like to see where I'm sitting and sitting right extra my microphone excuse me, So I have like this little couch in my room and I just like it in the corner or like at the corner of my dining room table. I have my laptop set up and I have my two little speakers. Like it's not well, like I finished a lot of the album sitting on this couch without like a recording booth, no proper like anything, just like

two speakers, a microphone, and a pair of headphones. A lot more personal and intimate, and it's like recording right, and vocals are not like perfectly like quiet and clean. But I'm like, you know, it just gives it like some type of like depth or whatever. We'll see. It's so much more fun though I think it's fun. It's fun doing sessions, but they're never as good as when you're in person, like we do zoom sessions now where

there will be like four people on zoom. It's so hard because, like you know, it cuts off somebody like I have a nice song idea and they'll be playing the guitar and then I'll be seeing something and it's just never linked up. It's a nightmare. But it's funnel because like I could be like guys one second, and I can like walk to my kitchen and make myself like a peanut butter and jelly sandwich, a cup of coffee, like open up my fridge and like making the melody,

like cooking myself an omelet. I could do anything. I could like go to the bathroom like in my own house. It's like so awesome. You could be like your robe, you know, to leave your house. It's awesome. I could write a song from my bed. It's so fun. I saw that you shared your your phone number with fans on social media, and I've been getting a lot of what's the wildest thing anyone's texted you? Like PG thirteen level I should say, what's what's the people told you

anything private parts? And I'm like, this is unacceptable. I had to like tweet about it. Was like please everybody, please do not send me private parts. It's not right, Like I don't like it. I didn't even think of that until right when I was saying the question. I was like, oh no, that's not like it was. Yeah. So people have been like trying to text people and they're like, this is not you. And then I'm like, what's the point of me texting back if they don't

even believe it's me? You know, I'm like, it's me, Hey, what's up. Like it depends on how I feel, but I go on. I'll usually tweet like go, I'll go on and be like I'm gonna hey, guys, I'm gonna go like text some people, but like, yeah, it's kind of hard to text everybody, so like you could do like the mass texting if like you're you know what I mean. But I try to text as much as I can if they're being nice, because some people are like text me back, you stupid bitch. Oh my god,

I swear. Everybody has their own techniques of trying to get attention to the attention, you know, like there's like the sweet fans who I usually actually just so people know respond to or try to respond to, you know. I mean like it's what like twenty text messages, like too much to respond to everybody's hard. It's impossible, so like, but I try to respond to the nice messages that

are like inspiring. But then some people are like really mean, They're like this is not you, you stupid bitch, Like I hope you die unless you unless you respond, then you'll be okay. And I'm like, whoa legit legit Yeah, I'm not joking. Yeah, ruthless, n hear that everyone, it's really her. I'm not gonna respond to mean ones never, no way. There's something I want to ask you. I think I saw that you are are learning how to drive. Do I have that? I got my license already? Oh

you did, okay recently, right before quarantine. No. I got my license in December, December. December. I got it like October December, so, oh my god, it's been a year. Oh my, well, congratulations. I just bought my first car in ten years. And I live in New York and I haven't driven in like fifteen years, and it's bad. So I wanted to never drive New York. I would be so scared. I mean, I grew up like I grew up in New York City, and you don't need to drive. Like I took the train. I grew up

on Staten Island, so I took the train. Would come every thirty minutes. I would take the train. It was a thirty minute ride. It would drop you off to the ferry. Then the ferry was another thirty minutes, so that's about an hour. And then you could get off off the ferry and you could walk to Bowling Green and there's like the four or five train, or you could like walk to the one train whatever, and that's

how it get to like school work whatever. Like I would just take two trains in a vote or three trains in a vote. It's so cool to have a boat it on your commute. Oh gosh, No, it's so long. No, Because like one time I was coming back home and it was like late at night from a studio session, and I had found like a knife, like like a pocket knife in the bathroom on the floor. Yeah, I was creepy. It was no, it was hidden, like it was hidden in the toilet dispenser, like where the toilet papers,

but it was stuck. So I was like trying to open it and then I opened up the knife fell out. I was like, oh my god. Yes, then they opened up the express bus, but that was like at the time, it was twelve bucks for a ride, and that was really expensive for me. So I tried to like do the ferry as much as I could. At that time, the train ride was was free. I I heard that unfortunately your your your parents contracted COVID. How have they been feeling now? I know this was a couple of

months ago, they're feeling better. Yeah, I think, Um, it really affected my mom a lot because she kill me for saying, but she got really she was really scared after like she was really really really really sick, to the point where she said it was like a weird thing where she got sick. And then I would talk to her on FaceTime, but she wouldn't tell me because she don't want to scare me because my dad had

gone it bad. My mom got it worse, but she got a little better, and then she got worse, like it got really bad, but it was like this weird thing which she'd be like really sick for three days, a little bit better on the fourth day, really bad for day six, seven and a and then a little better and then really bad. But I remember, like by a week two, like she was just over it, like just laying and could not even get out of bed

to go to the bathroom, like she was just so sick. Yeah, we're trying to get her to the hospital, but she couldn't even get up. She's like, I really I just really can't, like just let me be here. And she was scared, and so after that she was kind of really like I think it really really affected her, Like she was so scared to leave that it's like paranoid, like scared, like I would be too, you know. But now she's finally like feels so much better from it.

But I know a lot of people that, like my one of my friends whose dad got in she said it aged her father like ten years, like it really like he had a little heart problem and exacerbated it be like this huge thing, you know. So when people say it's not real, I'm like, no, it definitely is real. I've like, unfortunately, like I had it in my family. It was bad, Yeah, both of my parents. I was like, oh my gosh, you've said that one of the upsides

of everybody being sort of stuck in their home. So you said you've actually felt closer to your family because you've been talking to him. Oh my gosh, I've been like, well, now we kind of stopped, but we were doing like zoom sessions was so cute twenty people Like on a zoom session, it was a whole extended family. Oh no, not that's not extended, honey, that's my uncle's my mom. Like, don't forge, I'm Albanian, So I'll ban from New York City.

So think about like a whole bunch of Europeans screening at each other on the phone. But that's how we talk. How are you good, how's everything? Nice to say, yes, you look great. Oh you got a little fat there, okay, it tybe, you gotta lay off the banana brett okay. And they're like, you know, just like just oh, thanks, thank you, uncle Bet, like you're so sweet, thank you, so like upfront New York City realness European, like just say it like it is no filled turs. But I

love them so much. My mom had it's their total of eight brothers and sisters, and my dad is a total of seven. And I have thirty two first cousins just on my mom's side. That's not my second cousins. And I have another thirty So I have over like sixty something almost seventy one cousins. But if you want to combine all my second cousins, we're going in the hundreds, like hundred and something. That's so cool. I'm Sicilian, so I got a little bit of that, but that's a

different level. That's so we're on some next level albeing in like yeah, we have a we have a wedding. Somebody says, like a person wedding. I'm like, okay, so that's just my cousins and my and my aunt's and uncles. So yeah. So you know when people say like small weddings because we have such big families, like you have to invite everybody because like everybody gets upset, you know. Yeah, one of my cousins got married and it it was like five and fifty people, and that was like them like

cutting the list. It's a thousand and they had to cut it to five fifty and that was like close. Family take up too much more of your time. But my my last question that I always like to end done. It's so interesting to hear everybody's different answers. If you could snap your fingers and have everything go back to normal, whatever your definition of normal is, you know this time last year, what would be the first thing that you

would do? People, you'd hug, places, you'd go. Um, I would probably jump on a plane with my dog, book a ticket or whatever, and I would go back to New York. But I could do that now, but it would just I would be a little bit more scared, you know, And I would probably go home to my parents go to my favorite bakery and Staten Island and have my favorite Italian rainbow cookies and like a good slice of a good slice of pizza. And then I would probably wait, what's your favorite bakery? I gotta ask.

I'm a big Italian bakery. Bakery. Have you been there? Classic amazing at time cookies. That's the one thing about l A is like has incredible food, but the things they don't have amazing Italian desserts, Like where is that at I've been telling the guy from the bakery there. I was like, I'll put the money in just so the bakery could be near me, so I could walk in there every day and just get the rainbow cookies or the raspberry filled butter cookies. Oh my god, dipped

in chocolate with the sprinkles kill me better. So amazing. But um, I would honestly get on the flight and I would love to just see my family and just go apple picking and just hug my mom, my dad, and you know, just with no with no worries, like just you know what I mean, Like no, you know, like I could do that now, but I would be so scared to be around them. I wouldn't want to like or my grandma like. I wouldn't want to put them at risk, you know, just to be safe. You know.

I don't want them to God forbid get it again or whatever. But I would just love to see my family, hug them, go apple picking, and just feel the fall weather in New York. I missed the fall weather. That is a wonderful answer. Thank you so much for your time. It's been such a pleasure. Thank you so much. Thank you. Jordan's We hope you enjoyed this episode of Inside the

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